Date: Fri, 22 Apr 2016 08:24:49 -0400
From: Mike Loggerman <chatterman36@aol.com>
Subject: Figuring It Out

Figuring It Out


By mike loggerman


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When I was 17, I had a friend named Tommy.  Tommy's parents were divorced
and he lived with his mom across town.  He spent weekends with his dad, and
I'd go spend the weekends with them.  I'd come over after school and wait
for him to be dropped off before dinner.


Tommy's dad was very nice and friendly.  One afternoon I was watching TV
with him, and my shorts were hiked down a bit, exposing my butt crack,
Tommy's dad tickled my butt crack and asked if I was ticklish.  I said no,
but it felt good.  He asked if I wanted him to keep doing it, and since I
liked how it felt, I said yeah.  He told me to lay across his lap and
massaged the top of my butt.  It felt really good.  He said he could do a
much better job if I puled down my shorts.  I was embarrassed, but he said
we were both guys, so not to feel weird about it.  I said Okay.


I lifted myself up and he slid them down to my ankles.  He massaged my butt
cheeks for a long time.  He said he liked how soft and smooth and round
they were.  I had a hairy crack and he ran his fingers up and down my
crack.  It felt amazing.  My cock got hard as he played with my ass.  i
hoped he didnt notice, but he did.  He said not to be embarrassed, because
we all get hard. I wished he would have played with my cock, but he didnt.
We had to stop because Tommy would be there soon. When I got up, he said I
had a nice hard on.  His cock was hard too and pressing against his shorts.
I spent the rest of the weekend hanging out with my friend and things went
as normal.


I came over the next Friday, two hours early, hoping we could play again.
He was happy to see me early, and I asked if he would play with my ass
again.  He said he'd like to, that it was really relaxing.  Without him
asking, I took off my shorts.  He told me I had a really nice cock and
balls.  I thanked him and said last week it looked like his cock was real
uncomfortable straining in his shorts when we were done, and if he'd be
more comfortable, I'd be cool with him taking them off.


I watched him slide them off and I stared at his big hairy cock.  He asked
if I liked it and I said yeah.  I lay across his lap and he started
massaging my ass.  It felt amazing he moved his fingers up and down my
crack, and I felt I him tickle my ass hole with his finger.  He asked if I
liked that, and I said yeah.  He spit on his finger and slid it inside me.
I started to moan as he slid his finger in and out of me.  My cock was hard
and dripping.  I told him I was about to cum.  He asked if I wanted to cum.
I said I did.  He said he was about to cum too.  I got off him and he
spread his legs.  I got between his legs and sucked his cock while I played
with his balls.  We lay on the floor in a 69 position and sucked each other
until we both came.


As we lay there, he held me and said he loved feeling close to me.  It was
getting late and we had to get dressed because Tommy would be there soon.


Tommy's showed up on time and we had a great weekend.  He told me there was
a school function the next Friday night, so he wouldn't be there until
Saturday.  I said I'd come on Saturday.

I didn't tell my mom there was a change of plans, and went to Tommy's on
Friday afternoon.  His dad seemed happy to see me, and reminded me that
Tommy wouldn't be there until the next day.  I smiled and said I figured I
could spend the night with him.


We went to his bedroom and got undressed.  I asked him to massage my ass,
and he felt and caressed it. He slid his finger inside and slowly moved it
in and out.  He added a second finger and seemed to be stretching my hole.
He asked if I liked it and I said yeah.  He said he loved my ass and could
feel it all day.  I was lying face down as he caressed and fingered me.  I
felt him rub his hard cock up and down my ass crack.  Then I felt him part
my cheeks and pressed his cock against my hole.  He told me to push out
like I was taking a shit, and as I did, I felt his cock stretching my
insides as he slid his cock inside me. He groaned as my ass closed tightly
around his cock.  I was extremely excited to be fucked by my friend's dad.
He asked if I was okay.  I asked him to please not stop.  He moved in and
out of me.  I enjoyed the feel of his hairy body against mine and the feel
of his balls banging into me.


He turned me on my back and fucked me face to face.  I wrapped my legs
around his as he pounded me over and over.  He said he was close to
cumming.  I begged him to cum inside me.  He fucked me faster and harder,
and he thrust his cock deep inside me as he shot his load.


He kissed me hard and thanked me.  I said it was better than I imagined it
would be.  He asked how I felt.  I told him I felt like I belong to him.
He said from now on, I do, and he promised to fuck me as much as I want.


We slept together that night, and in the morning, I woke up to him rubbing
my ass.  I was on my side and felt him get behind me and slide his cock
inside me.  He held me tightly as he pounded my ass which was sore from the
night before, but I wanted him inside me.  I stroked my cock as he pounded
me and I felt him flooding my ass.  He flipped me over and sucked my cock
and swallowed my load.

We showered and got dressed before Tommy got there.  I was extra horny that
weekend.  Every time I sucked Tommy's cock, I thought about getting fucked
by his dad.  We were still sneaking around when we played, because Tommy
didn't want his dad to know I was sucking his cock.  I told Tommy his dad
probably knows I suck his cock.  Tommy didn't think so.  I asked what he
thought his dad would do if he found out I sucked him.  Tommy said his dad
would be upset and might throw me out and ban e from coming back.  I was
really tempted to tell him that his dad fucks me and I love it, but that
was not for me to say.  It was between Tommy and his dad.


After Tommy went home, I found that I was still horny.  The next day, after
school, I was walking home with TJ, a quiet black guy who was a year
younger than me.  I had changed next to him in the locker room, and he had
a pretty nice cock.  As we walked, I asked him if he ever fingered his ass
while he jerked off.  He laughed and said no, then asked if I did.  I said
i did, but I was thinking of getting a dildo.  He asked why I'd do that.  I
told him I was curious to see what it would feel like to have a cock inside
me.  He asked why I didn't just get someone to fuck me.  I told him I
couldn't just go up to guys and ask them to fuck me.


TJ, who was usually very quiet, got animated.  He asked if I was serious.
I said I was.  He asked if I'd really let a guy put his cock in my
beautiful ass.  I was surprised he said my ass was beautiful.  He said we'd
been changing next to each other for the last two years, and he'd been
looking at my beautiful ass.  I asked what he thought was so good about it.
He said its round and meaty, I had a great hairy crack between my smooth
cheeks.  He said any guy who got to tap my ass was a lucky guy.  I was
shocked that he was so interested in my ass.  I told him I thought he had
an amazing cock.  It was beautiful and long, and he had a wide, dense bush,
and it would be hot to have it inside me.


He said no one was home at his house until after 6, if I really wanted him
to fuck me.  I asked if he ever fucked someone before.  He said he hadn't,
but he was curious about how it would feel.  I told him I'd really like him
to do it.  He said as long we I didn't tell anyone.  He said he didn't need
any crap from people in school.


We got to TJ's house, and went up to his bedroom.  We got undressed, and
our cocks were hard.  His dark brown skin was smooth and beautiful. He told
me to bend over, and he rubbed his hands over my ass cheeks, and ran his
finger up and down my crack. He slid his finger in my hole, and I moaned

He told me to suck him up first.  I sat on his bed and he stood in front of
me.  His cock was big and thick.  I deep throated his cock, and played with
his balls while he ran his fingers through my hair.  He made pleasure
noises, then stopped me from sucking him.  He said he didn't want to cum
that way.  I lay on the edge of his bed and pulled my legs up on my chest.
He pressed his cock against my hole and pushed.  His cock head entered me,
and we both moaned. He started thrusting in and out of me, and we both were
groaning. He said it felt amazing.  I stroked my cock as he pounded me
deep.  TJ said he was going to cum, and I felt him shooting glob after glob
of cum inside me.  He said that was great, and asked how I liked it.  I
said it was okay but it didn't last that long.  He said if we did it again,
he could do better.  He was playing with my balls and asked if he could
have another try.  I said yeah.


He had me lay on the edge of his bed and stroked his cock hard, and slid it
back inside me.  He started thrusting slowly and I relaxed.  I was getting
excited, and my cock was hard.  I played with his nips as he pounded me.  I
started to moan and he pounded me harder. TJ started thrusting harder and
it sent me over the edge.  I shot my load without touching get my cock.  He
shot a second load deep inside me.  We were both spent, and he lay beside
me.  I said he was amazing. He pressed his full lips to mine, and his
tongue invaded my mouth.  His mom was going to be home soon, so we got
dressed.  As I was leaving, he asked if I wanted to come over tomorrow.  I
said yeah.


The next day in school, we played it cool and hardly talked to each other,
but we walked home from school together, and went to TJ'S room.  As we got
undressed, he started feeling my ass, and said he loved my ass.  I told him
I loved that, and I lay on his bed on my stomach as he played with my ass
and balls.  He got between my legs, and slid his cock inside me as he
massaged my back.  He fucked me long and slow and kissed my neck.  He said
I was better than having a girlfriend, because he could fuck me whenever he
wanted.  he said this was the best he felt since he fucked me yesterday.  I
shot my load on the sheets as he shot his inside me.


As we lay in bed, he asked if he was just a dildo to me.  I told him I'd
been admiring his body for the last two years, and he was my fantasy.  He
kissed me and said he'd wanted to fuck me for so long, but he was afraid to
tell anyone he had these feelings.


He asked how late I could stay, and I said my mom got home from work at
11pm.  He said his mom was working late and if I wanted to stay, we could
fuck a lot more.  We lay in bed, and I sucked TJ's balls and licked his ass
hole.  He said it made him horny and had me bend over his desk He held my
hips and thrust his cock deep inside me.  I could feel his pubes against my
ass, as he big balls banged into mine.  From where I was, I could watch him
fucking me in the mirror.  He groaned and grunted as he pounded me, and I
started to cum.  When he saw I was cumming, he thrust harder up inside me,
and emptied his load in me.  After he pulled out of me, he watched his cum
drip out of my ass.  He told me he was exhausted, and I said my ass was
sore.  We got dressed, and he kissed me.  He said I was the best friend a
guy could have.  He asked if I'd come back tomorrow, and I said yeah.


When the weekend came, I went over to Tommy's house but his dad told me not
to come over anymore.  I asked what was wrong, and he said we shouldn't
have been doing what we were doing, and he didn't want me come over and
hanging out with Tommy.  I didn't understand, but I left.  I figured he
felt guilty, or threatened.  Maybe he just felt someone might find out
about it or I'd tell someone and he'd get in trouble.  I saw Tommy once in
the mall.  He said Hi, and that he wasn't allowed to talk to me.  It was
the last I saw of him for a long time.


I went home, and TJ called and asked if I wanted to come over.  I went to
his place and hung out.  He saw I was upset, but that I wasn't in the mood
to mess around.  We watched TV and he put his arm around me.  He told me
his mom was going to be gone until late if I wanted to hang out and keep
him company.  I said I would if he wanted, but wasn't sure I'd be much fun.


We watched TV, and he took his shirt off and helped me off with mine.  He
played with my chest, and armpits.  It felt good and I lay on my back while
he ran his fingers over me.  He said whatever's bothering me shouldn't
matter, and that I had him.  He was showing me that he cared about me.  I
let him take off my shorts and I lay there while he gently massaged my ass.
It felt really good.  I asked if he could fuck me, and he kissed me softly,
and very sweetly and gently made love to me.  TJ was bombarding me with
affection, and I was overcome by his sweetness.  I felt better and enjoyed
feeling him inside me.  I wrapped my legs around his as he thrust deeply.
He shot in me, and we collapsed.  He said he never felt about anyone the
way he felt about me.  I lay beside him, enjoying his warmth.  I told him I
was lucky to have him for a boyfriend.  He seemed excited, and asked if I
really considered him my boyfriend.  I said that we fuck like a married
couple, and we obviously have feelings for each other.  I asked if he
wanted to be my boyfriend.  He said he really wanted it, but he didn't know
what that meant since we couldn't tell anyone.  I said the important thing
is that we know it.  He kissed me and said I'm the boyfriend of his dreams.


We got dressed and sent out for a pizza with money his mom left.  While we
were eating, his mom came home early, and TJ introduced me.  She looked
surprised at first, but warmed up pretty fast.  I thought it might be
because I was white, but it wasn't.  She asked if I was the boy who was
coming by every day after school.  I said I was.  She said she was glad to
meet me, and that TJ spoke highly of me.  I blushed.  She asked if I was
going to stay over, and I said I could if it was all right with her.  She
said it was fine, and could make up the sofa bed in the living room.  TJ
said I could sleep with him, and she said the bed wasn't big enough, but we
both could sleep on the sofa bed.  '


When TJ went to take a shower, she asked me why TJ and I were friends. I
was puzzled by the question, but I said I liked TJ a lot.  He's quiet and
smart, and kind, the type things I like in a person.  She said she just
likes to know the kind of people her son hangs out with.  She said I seemed
well mannered and kind, and she approved of our friendship.  We shook hands
on it, and she gave me a piece of pie.  TJ came in after his shower and saw
me eating pie and asked what was going on.  His mom looked at him and said
she approved of me as a friend.  TJ smiled.  He looked at me and said thats
a big deal because his mom never approves of anyone.  He asked if he could
have a piece of pie, and she gave him the piece she had already cut for
him.  As we finished our pie, she looked at us suspiciously.  We watched
TV, and chatted, and reverted to the way we would act in school.


In the morning, she made us breakfast, and watched us as we joked and
talked about school.  I helped wash the dishes and take out the garbage.
She started preparing dinner, and said I was welcome to stay.  TJ told her
my mom was gone for the weekend, and if I didn't stay, I'd be alone.  She
said then I'll stay until tomorrow. She was a great cook, and I was glad I
stayed.


In the morning, I woke up to the smell of breakfast cooking, and came in to
the kitchen. She was drinking coffee, and had me sit down.  She looked
directly at me, and asked if TJ and I were friends or more than friends.  I
asked why she would ask that.  She told me we seemed awfully close, and
comfortable being in each other's space.  I said we are friends.  She said
TJ's uncle was gay, and her dad threw him out of the house.  He had a bad
end.  She said she loves TJ, and would never do that, but would also never
let anyone hurt him.  I told her I understood.  She asked again if we are
more than friends.  I said that was something she would have to ask her
son.


After breakfast, I went to take a shower, and she sat TJ down and asked him
the same question.  I don't know what TJ said, but when I got out of the
shower, he had tears rolling down his cheeks.  He said his mom knows, and
its okay.  I said, "knows what?"  He said she knows we are boyfriends.  I
got scared.  No one but us knew that.  When she saw I was alarmed, she gave
me a hug and said it was okay.  I hugged her.  She said we should always be
kind.  I had never known such acceptance.


TJ and I had double lives.  In school we were straight classmates.  We
talked and joked sometimes, but played it cool. The only other people who
knew I liked guys was Tommy and his dad, and they were keeping their
distance.

At home, I was just a son.  When I went to TJ's house, I was TJ's
boyfriend.  His mom was loving and supportive.  She even got rid of his
twin bed, and replaced it with a larger, full size bed so we could both
sleep in his room.  I loved spending time at his house.


My mom started asking why I was spending so much time at TJ's house.  I
told her I just didn't like sitting alone at home all the time.  She asked
if there was anything I wanted to tell her.  I said the only thing I wanted
to tell her was to leave me alone.  I went in my room and slammed the door.
After that, things got ugly.  The guy she had been dating told her he
thought I might be gay.  She questioned me about it and I clammed up.  I
told her the guy was a loser, and she shouldn't be listening to him.  She
got really angry, and I left.


I went to TJ's apartment, and they let me in.  His mom saw I was upset and
made me sit down and tell her what was going on.  I told her the whole
thing.  She seemed upset, because it reminded her of the fights between her
brother and her parents.  She told me to stay over.


TJ and I got undressed and fell asleep in each other's arms.  I was too
upset for sex, and as a general rule, we never messed around when him mom
was home.


I went home the next morning.  When I got there, my mom was there.  She
started yelling at me from the minute I got in the door.  After the barrage
of accusations about what a piece of crap she thought I was, I just looked
at her and asked if she loved me anymore.  She said I don't love her.  I
asked how she could say that.  She said I don't talk to her anymore and I
spend all my time in secret.  She asked why I would keep secrets from her,
if I wasn't hiding something bad.  I told her she wouldn't understand. She
said her boyfriend was probably right, and I was a fag.  I just looked at
her and said if I was, why would she care?  She was very quiet.  She said
she wanted me out.  I packed what was important to me, and I left.  I went
to TJ's.  His mom had gone to work.


I put my stuff in his room, and I felt him rubbing my ass through my pants.
He pulled down my pants and rubbed my ass cheeks while he kissed my neck.
I heard his pants drop, and I felt his hard cock rubbing against my ass
crack.  I whispered that I really needed him to do something perverted to
me.  He was pressing his hard cock against my hole, and it was getting
slippery with his precum.  I felt his cock slide inside me. I loved being
fucked standing up.  I leaned against the wall, and he thrust his cock up
inside me hard.  I was groaning.  He asked if this was perverted enough for
me.  I said it was a good start.  He pulled out of me and took off my shirt
and his.  He pushed me on the bed and sucked my nipples, He moved between
my legs and sucked my cock while he gently played with my balls.  He moved
between my legs and started fucking me again.  Waves of pleasure came over
me.  We were both groaning deeply as our sweat mingled on each other.  I
wrapped my legs around him and he pounded me harder and harder.  He
unloaded loudly inside me.  I had shot my load on my stomach, and it was
smeared between us.  He stayed on top of me until his cock softened and
slid out of me.


As we lay in bed, he said it was more fun to fuck me as his boyfriend than
when we were sneaking around.  I said it was fun to sneak around.  He said
yeah, but now when we fuck, its like we belong to each other.  We lay in
bed for a while, and TJ asked if I wanted to get dressed and do something.
We hung out at the mall, and went to a movie.  As we walked around, I saw
straight couples holding hands, and I wished I could hold TJ's hand as we
walked, but didn't dare.  TJ asked if I wanted to go home, and I said yeah.


When we got in the house, we went to his room, and he started kissing me,
and undressing me while we kissed.  he said he loved undressing me before
he got undressed.  It was like I was surrendering myself to him, and he
asked if I felt liked him being the man in our relationship.  My ass was
definitely easier to enter because of him, and asked if he liked that my
pussy was his.  He had taken off his clothes, and said he loved being my
man, and sucked my tits and licked my pits before he thrust his big cock
inside me.  He pounded me for a long time, and watched my hard cock throb
as he pounded me.  As usual, I shot my load without touching myself.  He
grunted as he cummed inside me.


As we lay in bed, I asked if he wished I was a woman.  He laughed and said
no He said he loved fucking me because I was me, but loves my cock, he
loves my pits, and and loves making me cum by fucking me.  He said if he
wants to be fucked, its going to be by his boyfriend.  I was glad.  I told
him I'm not a woman in a man's body.  I'm a guy who likes to be with my
guy.


We had to take a course in school called "Human Sexuality."  A lot of the
class had to do with sensitivity training for bigots, but it put a lot of
issues on the table.  The teacher asked the class if some of us were gay,
why would it matter to you?  Some mentioned gays hitting on straights in
the mens rooms.  The teacher said it was no different than men hitting on
women.  Most of what was said by the students seemed to come off the
internet.  They talked about gays being promiscuous.  The teacher said some
are and some aren't.  He pointed out that straight people can be very
promiscuous.  After a long class discussion, it seemed to come down to
people didn't want anyone's sexuality in their faces, but they really
didn't care who loved who, or who had sex with who.  The teacher asked, if
someone stood up and said they were gay, who would have a problem with it.
TJ and I didn't say a word, but we were looking at each other, when a kid
sitting on the other side of the room, Mikey, stood up and said he was gay,
and he didn't give a crap what anyone thought about it.  The class was
silent, trying to figure out if he was kidding or serious.  Mikey was a
friendly guy who had a lot of friends.  Half the class thought he was
joking, the other half didn't seem to care.  A couple of guys glared at
him, but he stared them down.  For the next day or so, people kept their
distance from Mikey because they didn't want people to think they were gay
too.  They said he was brave to come out, but they were keeping their
distance.  A jock came up to him and asked Mikey if he wanted to suck his
cock.  Mikey, who was pretty strong himself, pushed him away, and said no,
but he'd love a blow job from him.  Everyone laughed and the jock walked
away.  After that, people started hanging out with him again, and just
accepted that this was who Mikey was.


I was never really friends with Mikey, but I reached out to him.  He said
he knew I was gay, and said there are a few others in the school who are.
We became friends, and I told him about TJ.  He started hanging out with us
at the mall sometimes.


My guidance counselor, Mr. Dean approached me one day and invited me to a
meeting of HA, (Homosexuals Anonymous) that he had started.  It was just
for gay students, and was by invitation only.  He said it was just to help
gay kids have some support during to coming out time.  I asked how he knew
to ask me, and he said I was suggested by a friend.  The meeting was on a
Sunday at Mr. Dean's house to protect our privacy.  TJ came with me.


I went to the first meeting.  Mikey was there, as well as a few others I
knew.  I must not have good gaydar because I had no idea any of them were
gay.  We went around and shared how we knew we were gay.  As I listened, I
realized I had a lot in common with them.  I shared about Tommy and his
dad, and how bad I felt, until TJ became an important part of my life.


Mikey came up to me afterwards and said we needed to talk.  He said he used
to mess around with Tommy's dad.  He used to be their paper boy, and
Tommy's dad invited him in and seduced him.  He started off telling Mikey
he liked blond pubes and if he showed him his pubes, he'd suck Mikey's
cock.  Mikey started coming by for a daily blow job, then got Mikey to suck
his cock.  Mikey liked sucking Tommy' dad, just like I did Eventually he
started fucking Mikey.  Mikey liked getting fucked, but he liked fucking
more, Mikey started fucking Tommy, and his dad caught them.  He was afraid
Tommy would tell his mom, and told him not to come back.


He said Tommy's dad got arrested for fucking a 13 year old friend of
Tommy's, and he lost any custody of Tommy. I felt close to Mikey when I
learned we were fucked by the same guy.  Mikey was pretty cute, and was
starting to become a friend.  I didn't want to mess up what I had with TJ
though.


I was going home from time to time to try to fix things with my mom, but
they always seemed to get worse.  When I went home, I waited for her to get
back from work.  When she got home, she seemed happy to see me, but she had
a look in disappointment in her eyes.  I told her I wanted to talk.  I told
her I never shared this with her because I was afraid she'd hate me, but I
felt she hates me now, so I have nothing to lose.  I said I tried to fight
this, but its who I am.  I told her I'm gay.  She was quiet, and then
looked relieved.  She said she thought I was on drugs.  I asked if she was
disappointed. She said she wanted to be a grandmother, but mainly she
wanted me to be a decent person.  I hugged her and we apologized to each
other.


I told her I wanted her to meet my boyfriend.  She asked if I would be
moving home.  I said we needed to work that out.  She asked me to bring him
for dinner on Saturday. She said she had a lot of questions.  I went to
TJ's and he asked how it went.  The look on my face said it all.  I was
happy.  I told him we were going for dinner on Saturday so he could meet my
mom.  TJ was happy, and when we told her, his mom was happy.


We showed up on Saturday before dinner.  My mom was not much of a cook, but
she brought in food, and had the table nicely set.  TJ dressed up, and
looked amazing.  My one concern was that my mom might not like that we were
an interracial couple.  When we came in, she looked at TJ, and said, "so
you're the guy who stole my son's heart." She smiled and had him sit down.
I was trying to read my mom, but I was confused.  She talked about what he
liked and what he wanted for his future, and why he liked me.  TJ seemed
smooth and calm, and answered all her questions.  We had dinner, and even
joked a bit.  TJ asked my mom if it was okay with her to continue seeing
her son.  My mom was not ready for his directness, or for his politeness
for even asking.  She paused for a moment, and said it was a good question,
and just asking tells her what she needs to know.  She said her son would
be lucky to have him in his life.  My eyes were tearing and I hugged her.
She motioned for TJ, and he hugged her as well.  I told her I wasn't sure
she would be okay that we were interracial.  She said that doesn't matter.
Her biggest fear was that I was hooked up with someone 20 years older than
me that was just using me.  She wanted me to be with someone who loves me,
and treats people with respect.  She asked if I wanted to move home, and
said if she wouldn't mind, I was okay for now staying with TJ and his mom.
she was okay with that since we had a very small apartment, and if TJ moved
in with us, it would be really tight.


We went home elated, and TJ kissed me as he undressed me and sucked my
cock.  He slid his cock in me slowly, letting me enjoy the feel of his
manhood stretch my insides.  I groaned as he buried his cock inside me.  He
thrust his cock in me hard and slow.  My cock was leaking precum.  I had an
intense orgasm that lifted my ass up off the bed.  He continued to pound me
and filled my ass with his hot cum.


Some of the guys from the HA meetings wanted to have a party.  I wanted to
go, but TJ said it would be okay as long as we didn't do anything stupid.
There was some drinking at the party, and we all got stupid.  TJ wound up
in a bedroom with two guys and he fucked them.  I was on the living room
couch with Mikey.  I sucked his big cock and played with his thick blond
bush.  He really did excite me.  I asked him to fuck me, but he said I
might feel bad about it in the morning.  I told him I really liked him as a
friend, and have wanted to feel him inside me.  I told him I'd feel bad if
we didn't do it.  He said he really liked me too, and wanted to be inside
me.  He slid his cock inside me on the living room couch.  Guys were
standing around stroking their cocks.  While he was pounding me, someone
took pictures.  I enjoyed Mikey as much as I did TJ. I groaned until Mikey
shot his load inside me.  TJ wasn't happy about it, but he had just fucked
two guys, so he wasn't in a position to complain.


After the party, Mikey apologized, but I said not to worry.  We are two
friends expressing our friendship.  I discussed it with TJ, and he agreed
we were being stupid, and to be more careful.  He said he knew I liked
Mikey and would be tempted to try him out, and it was okay, and that he was
doing the same.  I probably would have done it with Mikey again, but the
word around school was he met a guy on the school ski trip, and the two of
them were hot and heavy.


At the next HA meeting, we talked about boundaries, what are good
boundaries, and why we have them.  It was a pretty powerful meeting.
Everyone at the meeting had exchanged their cum with at least one other
person in that room, in one way or another.  Mr. Dean started by showing
pictures from the party that everyone forwarded to him.  When he showed
them he said no one was allowed to Jerk Off.  When he showed the pictures
of Mikey fucking me he asked everyone what they thought.  Everyone said
they liked seeing Mikey's big thick cock enter me without problem.  He
asked me if I enjoyed being fucked by Mikey.  I said I really did.  Mikey
said he liked it too, but he felt a little guilty that he fucked me because
I was in relationship with TJ.  Mr. Dean asked what I liked about being
with Mikey, and did I want to be in relationship with him.  I said I really
like being with TJ, but its different with Mikey.  I said I felt a
different kind of connection with Mikey.  We both were fucked by the same
guy, and getting fucked by him was more of an expression of friendship than
love.  Mikey got excited and said he felt the same way about me.  Mr. Dean
asked if it could happen again.  I said it probably could.


Mr. Dean asked what attracted me to Mikey, and what attracted me to TJ.  I
said I liked Mikey's body, but also his unique scent.  I said I liked TJ's
tenderness, and his body excited me.  Mr. Dean asked if either of them had
the ideal body I fantasize about.  I said no.  I liked really hairy guys,
which they were not.


He asked TJ he felt about fucking the two guys at the party.  The two guys
said they just wanted to see what it felt like to be fucked by a big black
cock.  TJ said he felt good about fucking them, and said it was just sex,
but that he was committed to me.  He said if he was free to fuck other
guys, he was cool with me doing it too.


Mr. Dean asked if I was okay with TJ fucking other guys in the group, and I
said it was okay.  Then he asked if I would fuck other guys in the group,
and I said probably just Mikey and one other guy.  We spent the rest of the
time talking about boundaries and the role of sex in relationships.  It was
a really helpful meeting.  After it was over, TJ said he was going to
someone's house and he would be home later.  I asked Mikey if I could go
home with him, and he said yeah.  Everyone asked who the other guy in the
group I'd be willing to be with.  I didn't want to say, but the group had a
no secrets rule.  I said it was Mr. Dean.  Mr. Dean blushed, and said he
didn't mess around with students.  I said I know, but they asked.


On the way to Mikey's house, he told me he liked what I said.  He said he
didn't love me, but he felt very close to me.  I said I really needed to
feel close to him now.  We went to his room and undressed each other.  I
sniffed and licked his pits.  We sucked each other's cocks, and he massaged
my ass.  He slid his big thick cock inside me, and I lost myself in lust
for him.  He kissed me and fucked me slowly.  I wrapped my legs around his
as he pounded me.  We weren't in love, but we loved the closeness of
fucking each other.  Mikey shot his load deep inside me.


TJ and I didn't fuck that night, but we hugged.  We both had been with
other guys, and it was okay but we felt distant from one another.  I asked
if he liked fucking the guy he was with.  He said he did, but he didn't
have any affection for him.  It was just getting off.  Over the next few
weeks, TJ fucked everyone in the group except for Mikey.  Whenever TJ was
going to be with someone, I made arrangements to be with Mikey.  I enjoyed
being with Mikey, and there was a great affection between us,


There was a ski trip at school, and Mikey went.  He met a guy, and they
became boyfriends.  They were hot and heavy, and exclusive, but the
affection we had for one another remained.  When ever either of us had a
crisis or problem, we turned to each other, but sex wasn't part of the
equation.


One day, TJ and I were walking home from school.  He told me he was tired
of fuckng different guys.  IT was fun to try different guys out, but it was
empty, and he missed feeling close to me.  I told him I liked being with
Mikey, but he and I would only be friends.  He wasn't the guy I loved.  We
decided we would be exclusive.  TJ said if I wanted to try it with Mr. Dean
when I graduated, it was okay with him.  I said I wasnt that interested in
him.  I just like that he's a hairy guy.  We were both relieved, because
sleeping around does effect the relationship in a bad way.  We started to
feel closer to each other, and it was like we were back on track.


Mikey and his boyfriend got married after graduation, and we were friendly
with them.  TJ went to school learning computer programming, and I went to
trade school and became a plumber.  TJ said I already had the crack for it.
We eventually got our own apartment, and we got married.  We are still
together, and happy.