Date: Fri, 2 Sep 2011 20:27:30 -0400
From: Ryan McNamara <backdoordistortion@gmail.com>
Subject: My Interracial Fantasies (intr, M/M, auth, true)

The following story isn't a story so much as a confession. I could have
rewritten it in the form of a narrative with characters and plot, but I
think I will save that for some other time. Instead, this story is more of a
stream-of-consciousness confession of the fantasies I have. Being that this
is all a true confession of sexual secretes I've been keeping I would be
very interested in any and all comments on this story. Even just to know
that someone read this is satisfying to me. Send all comments and questions
to backdoordistortion@gmail.com

As a straight man, the ultimate in sexual domination would be to be
dominated and used by another man. There are two ways this can go. One is
that he, too, is straight and is just using me as fuckmeat. The other is
that he is gay and actually cares for me. But the latter relationship seems
rather strange and I don't know how it would work.

I would like my new master to control when and how I cum via a chastity
belt. There's something incredibly emasculating to have your cock and your
sexuality placed in the hands of someone else. In my fantasies I am only
allowed to cum once a week or two and when I do it must be the most
humiliating way possible. I imagine my master would only allow me to cum
during particularly brutal ass-stretchings and with heavy nipple clamps on.
That way I would look forward to these sessions with both trepidation and
excitement.

I would have to use humiliating language as well. I would refer to my master
as Daddy, perhaps. And I would refer to my dick as my clit, my ass as my
pussy. I would have to feign enthusiasm for all manner of tortures inflicted
on me. I'd have a humiliating name like Princess or Cumdumpster.

My master would arrange craigslist gangbangs for me as well. I'd have to
suck off and swallow cock after cock until I thought I was about to cry.
Speaking of which, I'd forgo any safe word. I'd give my consent to have this
done to me once a week, say.

As more meat than man, I'd have to practice deepthroating for an hour every
day.

I don't know why, but I have a strong preference for black cock. There's
something extra degrading and forbidden about it. It's of course atrocious
that straight white men are raped and dominated by scary, black thugs in
prisons. But the fact that it's real, that it really happens, that men can
be turned into dominated pieces of meat is incredibly hot to me. If there
were a button I could press that would increase the prevalence of
black-on-white "punking" I honestly believe I would press it if I were even
just a little horny.

Another fetish of mine is bukkake. I tasted my own cum once and I nearly
threw up. But that doesn't stop me from fantasizing about being forced to
drink it, get used to it and get used to taking increasingly large amounts.
Again, if there were some button or some magical wishing well where I would
be subjected to this for some set of time - say four months - I would
definitely include in the fantasy swallowing up to 75 loads of cum a day,
every day, for the last week or two of my ordeal. It'd start off with just
being forced to swallow one load of cum a day for week. Then slowly
increasing the number of loads to about 10 the next week, spread out over
the day. Into the third week I'd be swallowing three loads of cum at a time
several times a day. Over the next month I'd swallow one more load of cum
each day at increasingly short intervals until I'm swallowing 30-40 loads of
cum every day for a month. In order to get that much black sperm into my
system it'd have to be mixed into all of my food, into my drinks. I'd have
to suck the cum out of used condoms and of course my own cum would be
included.

And the things I'd be forced into doing with my ass would be no less
extreme. It'd be plugged and fucked and gaped and fingered until I was
taking such obscenely large black cocks in my "pussy" (as I would now call
it) that I might as well be taking a fisting.

If I thought I could make any money off of doing this, I'd start a porn
company where I was the lead bitch. I'd shoot three or four movies a day
doing the most extreme porn I could think of. I would even hook my penis up
to one of those devices that measure an increase in the size of the penis
while I looked at gay porn to prove I wasn't gay. Then it'd be off to me
sucking the piss out of an oversized black dick

Let me tell you now that I'm not ugly or anything. I have a mere six inch
cock, but I work out at the gym and do everything right (except for drinking
on the weekends). But I'm 200 pounds of lean muscle and I'm looking forward
to having a six pack within the next few years of working out. My small dick
might prevent me from working as a top, of course, but I think I would make
a fine porn bottom.

If I started my own porn site, I think I'd have a running series where I
fuck any and all black men larger than seven inches who sign up to my site,
provided they can prove they have no sexually transmitted diseases. I'd tell
them that if they're willing to travel to NYC (where I'd be located) they
can do whatever they want to me, short of marks on the face or other exposed
areas. If they allowed me to I'd post these videos online with their faces
blurred out. If, on the other hand, they didn't want that, I'd still fuck
them. If I could gather enough fans I'd do daily gangbangs for my fans,
provided I could get the dozen or so well-hung black men together.

Now, for whatever reason, the thought of eating out a black man's asshole
makes me feel nauseous despite the other things I'd be willing to do in the
name of humiliating and degrading myself. But that's no excuse for a
worthless whore like me. Any black man that washed his ass first wanted me
to, I'd eat his ass.

I'd be willing to swap sperm with someone else, too, or suck the cum out of
their (freshly cleaned) ass. I'd of course prefer a woman, being straight,
but if it were an attractive white boy and there were the proper incentive
(the threat of violence perhaps if I were to back out), I'd do it.