Date: Sun, 22 Feb 2015 23:32:33 +0000 (UTC)
From: James Stephens <buck4darkbear@yahoo.com>
Subject: Leo and James - Part 27

Leo and James - Part 27
Part 27 -- No Longer in Control

 For thenext few months Anthony and I enjoyed a sexual relationship,
although notexclusive. Neither one of us was ready or willing to commit to
anything longterm considering I was still recovering from a difficult time
after Leo's deathand Anthony had too many irons in the fire. I was back in
a full time workroutine and was able to provide Anthony with rent payments
that helped him. Itwas definitely a relationship that benefited both of
us. But as the months wenton we found ourselves more and more hanging out
with each other and spendingmore time in and out of bed. I discovered
Anthony was fully versatile and wasdating other guys so that he could fill
his needs to be a bottom. By now I knewI was a total bottom so the time
spent with Anthony suited me just fine.

 Oneevening after coming home from work late Anthony was particularly
horny,crawling into bed with a hard-on and wasting no time mounting me even
though Iwas still half asleep. While he was fucking me he said the words
that changedour relationship. Sex that night was really good. While doing
me doggy Anthonywhispered into my ear "I love you James."  I was surprised
and did not react other than continuing to pleasureAnthony with the ass
gripping skills which I learned over the years. But Icould not return his
love -- I remained silent other that the usual sex talkthat we mutually
enjoyed.

 The nextfew weeks went on without mention of the night Anthony said he
loved me but wewere quickly becoming an item. I wasn't falling in love with
Anthony but foundmyself lost without him. We decided to go away for a
weekend to Las Vegas for aweekend of fun together. We both enjoyed
gambling, and getting away from thenormal routine sounded good. Vegas was
great, we spent a lot of time together,had fantastic sex and went to shows
together -- we were truly becoming a couple.

 Anthonyhad friends in Las Vegas and we were invited to a party at their
house thenight before we left. We walked in and there were already 20 -- 30
guys there,mostly Black men, so there was plenty of eye candy for
me. Anthony's friend,Darrick was introduced to me.

 "Darrick,this is my friend James." Darrick had a strong handshake and was
very friendlyand outgoing, inviting us to the patio where there were men
swimming, some nude,in a large pool. After he showed us around the rest of
the house Anthony Isettled in on the couch, enjoying a drink while Anthony
placed his arm aroundme.

 "Youenjoying yourself?' he asked.

 "Definitely,love this house, and the guys aren't so bad either."

 "Inoticed you enjoyed that view, obviously I got to keep you right here."
Hepulled me closer. This was the first time Anthony had shown interest in
mesolely. I felt somewhat uneasy.

 "You doknow there are naked men in the pool."
 Isaid.

 "I amwell aware of that." said Anthony.

 "Ireally want to check it out, looks very inviting."

 "Alrightyou go on and enjoy yourself." Anthony took his arm from around me
and gave mea gentle push. I could not tell if he was playing or upset that
I wanted toroam.

 "Is thatok?"I asked.

 "Yeh, goright ahead." Anthony responded without emotion. I could tell he
was not happywith me wanting to look around, and perhaps finding someone to
my liking.Anthony were not officially a couple and I wasn't aware that he
was interestedin exclusivity. I left Anthony sulking on the couch to go
back to the pool.Although Anthony told me to enjoy myself it wasn't
genuine, I think he wantedus to hang together the rest of the evening. But
the temptation of the nakedmen in the pool was too great so I went and sat
on a lawn chair, loving theview of naked men casually walking about. There
was a large fence around theperimeter so privacy was good.

 In onecorner was a familiar looking guy, so I got up to get a closer
look. I walkedpast, trying not to appear creepy and saw that it looked like
Billy, the man Ifooled around with in San Francisco. He had on dark
sunglasses and was laidback so I didn't know for sure. I sat in a chair
next to him hoping he wouldnotice, which he did, taking off his sunglasses.

 "How youdoing?" he said, with a deep voice that already weakened my
knees. It wasn'tBilly and now I had to reconsider my approach since this
was not a familiarman.

 "Doingokay, thanks, yourself?" I remembered my honesty vow and figured I'd
notbullshit him and tell him the truth. "Sorry man, thought you were
someone Iknew from San Francisco."

 "Not aproblem man, take care." With that he put his glasses back on and
went back tohis previous state, not showing any interest in continuing a
conversation withme. Before I got up and left I admired his body, chunky
but solid, somewhathairy and an impressive bulge in his swim wear. He also
had huge, wide feet tomatch his hands. But obviously he didn't care for
what he saw so I left himalone, walking around the pool checking the other
guys out.

 One guywas emerging from the pool, showing off an enormous dick,
shamelessly allowingit to swing like a pendulum. I was getting increasingly
horny with all the hotmen and wanted to get with someone other than Anthony
whose reaction to mywanting to explore was worrying me. But I decided to
let Anthony know myfeelings and desire to get with someone. When I got back
into the living roomthere was an Latino guy sitting with and conversing
with Anthony. It appearedas if they knew each other and I wanted to know
more. Anthony stopped talkingwith him and introduced me. "James, this is
Raphael. Raphael, my friend James."We exchanged handshakes as I thought
about my being Anthony's friend andnothing else. I asked myself "Does this
release me from any commitment I had toAnthony?"As if I wasn't there
Anthony and Raphael continued to talk andgenerally enjoy each other's
company.

 "I'llsee you around." I said to both of them.

 "Nicemeeting you." said Raphael politely. He appeared to be a very nice
man, as wellas quite handsome.

 ""Seeya." said Anthony somewhat dismissively. Although I was relieved to
be able toroam about and cruise the hot guys I was somewhat disturbed by
Anthony's coldnessonce he found someone to his liking. But it didn't take
long to realize howunfair I was being -- I did not return Anthony's
interest in me at the samelevel.

 For thenext couple of hours I unsuccessfully cruised several guys,
including anotherattempt at the hot guy I thought was Billy who now had a
skinny queen sittingon his lap. I wasn't sure what I was doing wrong but it
was obvious I didn'thave the same attractiveness I had years before. After
finally giving up I wentback to hang with Anthony but saw he was no longer
there, nor was Raphael.Panic unexpectedly set in -- I assumed they were
together having sex and theirrational, jealous side of me was kicking
in. But once again I gatheredmyself, realized the mistakes of the past and
quickly settled down. As thenight progressed the party had turned into an
orgy where various rooms were setup to accommodate those who wanted to play
in private and in the company ofothers. I went from room to room, taking in
the sexual energy and excitement. Ifinally saw Anthony in a room with
Raphael and watched as they shared a bedwhere Raphael was riding Anthony
while others were either watching or suckingdick. I had resigned to the
fact that I had no right to expect Anthony toattend to my needs while I had
my mind on other things. At that moment Anthonywas with the person of his
choice so I went away before I could be noticed.

 Idecided to take a swim, naked, in the pool so I could enjoy the view of
otherssexually engaged or just enjoying the warm night air. A stocky Asian
manapproached me and made small talk while he eventually felt me up.
 When I reached to feel him I was surprised atthe size of his penis. Most
Asian guys I have seen had either below average oraverage dicks but this
guy was certainly different -- at least 8 - 9 inches inlength and
impressive girth. We stroked each other for a few minutes then beganto
kiss. This guy was actually quite sensual -- the sexual energy he was
givingoff was pulling me in to his embrace despite the fact that I was
neverinterested in Asian guys. But he was different -- cute round face,
fullmasculine features and a solid thick body to match his now fully hard
dick. Thequestion of whether he was a top or bottom was soon answered when
he turned mearound and rubbed himself on my ass while licking and kissing
my back and neck.I opened my legs and spread my ass to get some of him
inside of me but the headwas too large.

 "Wecan't do that here." said the yet unnamed man.

 "I'menjoying what we're doing now." I said. For the next few minutes we
remained inthis position, grinding and continuing small talk.

 "Youenjoy being fucked?" he asked.

 "Yes Ido."

 "I willenjoy fucking you." he said with confidence, increasing my desire
for him. Iturned around and we continued to make out until I looked up and
saw Anthonyapproaching us.

 "Heyguys -- don't want to bother you but really have to get going." said
Anthony.

 "Damn, Iwas just beginning to enjoy myself." I said.

 "That'scool James, you can stay here if you'd like."

 I lookedat my new friend and he shrugged his shoulders. "It's up to you."
he responded.

 "I rodewith Anthony so I don't have a way to get back to the hotel." I
said.

 "I camewith a friend and drove with him." he said.

 At thatpoint I wanted to do introductions but realized I didn't know his
name.Anthony, being the socialite he is beat me to it. His name was
Donghai.

 "Howappropriate." I joked.

 "Ohreally." said Anthony. There was an awkward silence. "So can I see?"
hecontinued.

 Donghailaughed uncomfortably and obviously didn't want to display himself
whichAnthony sensed.

 "Wellanyway, let me know James one way or another."

 Afterdiscussing I realized it would have been an inconvenience to stay
there so Idecided to go back with Anthony.

 "I wouldlike you to stay." said Donghai.

 "Ireally can't Donghai." I said regrettably.

 "Iunderstand, you have your friend to go to." he said.

 "Ireally wish I could. I did enjoy the time we had."

 "Metoo." said Donghai as we shared a last kiss. As I hoisted myself out of
thepool I felt Donghai's hand across my ass. "You have a beautiful ass
James."

 "ThanksDonghai -- you take care." That was the last I saw of him and I was
not happy atthe time.

 Our rideback to the hotel was quiet until Anthony asked "Did you enjoy
yourself?"

 "I wasuntil we had to go." I said, not hiding my anger very well.

 "Youupset?" asked Anthony.

 "Yehman. You saw I was with someone and you already had your fun."

 "I'msorry." said Anthony. He obviously did not intend to dampen my
evening. Iunderstood I took some responsibility for waiting so long.

 "It'sokay -- I appreciate you involving me. No big deal." I said knowing
if Icontinued to express my anger it would lead to an unnecessary
argument. I alsoreminded myself of how much Anthony has contributed to the
betterment of mylife. We continued the rest of the ride in silence. Anthony
was satisfied and Iwas still horny. That night I tried to have sex with
Anthony but he was spentand tired. I was horny and frustrated and couldn't
sleep so ended up playingslots the rest of the evening when I met Joseph, a
man from the south who wasrecently divorced and apparently interested in
man on man sex. It ended up in aday I'll never forget.