Date: Tue, 10 Apr 2001 12:59:43 -0500 From: Fredric L. Brothers <flbrothers@hotmail.com> Subject: "SUMMER WITH VAL" - Chapter 9 (Man/Boy) Disclaimer: The following story is a work of fiction. It contains scenes of deep affection between an adult male and a minor boy. If you find any of this disturbing, then leave. Please e-mail any thoughts or comments ya may have: FLBROTHERS@hotmail.com --------------------------------- SUMMER WITH VAL --------------------------------- By Fred Brothers Copyright (c) 2001 by Fredric Law Brothers (All Rights Reserved) Chapter 9 - Val 3 ----------------- I can't believe it when Elise - er - that is, mom - tells me. I'm so happy tha' I'll be spendin' over a week with Zack before I havta go live in Santa Barbara. She says that I'll be a coupla days at his house and then go wit' him up t' Seattle and pick up Gabe and then drive back here. We'll also be makin' stops on the way back at lotsa interestin' places. It all sounds really great t' me! I can't wait t' see Gabe again and t' spend time with Zack and be at his house with him and then drive all the way to Seattle wit' him in his great new Range Rover SUV. But the more I think about goin' with Zack the more and more scared I get. I think a lot about Gabe. What will he say when he sees me for the firs' time without my hands? Or with these lousy, cheesy, shitty lookin' hooks? How stupid will he think I am 'cause I go with those trashy kids int' that old factory buildin'? And lose my hands and become a cripple. I'm worryin' about this and a lot more the firs' night I'm at Zack's house. What I'm worryin' about most is the end of this trip when we're back in Berkeley, 'cause at the end of the trip I know I havta go live with Aunt Lella and Uncle Rob in Santa Barbara. And I'll be away from Zack. I never want this trip to end! I'm thinkin' that maybe it would be good if I die on this trip and then nothin' more can happen t' me. And I'll die happy 'cause I'll be with Zack and Gabe. I like Aunt Lella and Uncle Rob all right and all but not enough t' want t' live with 'em and they have three girls and I don't want t' live in the same house as three girls. I don't know what's gonna happen t' me but I do know it ain't gonna be good and I know I won't like it. I'll be with auntie and uncle and all those girls and without any friends and me bein' a freak and a cripple and all. I remember the girls bein' nice and all but that's a long time ago and I don't know how they'll be now. My firs' night at Zack's he invites the kids who live over the garage t' visit with us - their granny, granpa and momma work for Zack. They're real nice and I get along with the boy very good. His name is Eric and he's a crip like me - he's got a clubfoot, somethin' he's born with. We have a good time and all. Him and his sister - her name is Alicia - are great t' me and they don't even care that I have hooks instead of hands. In the night I wake up and can't fall back asleep so I go int' Zack's bedroom. He's sleepin' and Louis and Billie are sleepin' on top of his blanket. I crawl int' his bed and get under the covers and snuggle up real close t' him. He feels so nice and warm and I love the feel of his body. Zack's a very strong man, not in a big muscle way but he has really nice muscles and they're hard and he has very little hair on his body not like some older men I seen in pictures. He's sleepin' on his back and his hands are behind his head when I crawled up t' him. I'm on my side and I put one of my crippled arms on his chest and I put my head into his armpit. I know I'm very, very comfortable. I know he doesn't mind havin' one of my stumps resting on him 'cause he tells me so many time how much he likes 'em and he kisses 'em and squeezes and rubs 'em whenever he has the chance. It feels so good t' be with him that I wanna cry - but I don't, 'cause it would wake Zack up and if he sees me cryin' again he'll think that I'm just a big baby. I'm so happy just t' be with him and knowin' that he wants me t' be with him makes it even better. I love everything about Zack. I love his smell and the feel of his body and how smooth and soft his chest feels when I rub my arm stubs over it and all the strong muscles under his skin. I really hope he likes it too. I love the way he makes me feel. He makes me feel like I'm wanted and needed and loved and all, not just a little cripple kid who people don't really like to have around but let them stay around anyways. I also love the way he makes me feel when I'm in the bathtub and he has my hard little dick in his hands. I don't have t' tell him anythin' - he just knows what I want and he does it. I think that I'd like t' be able t' play with his dick some time soon; I really do! 'Cause some time when I'm cuddled right up to him I can feel a big bulge in the boxer-briefs he always wears. Before I fall asleep, he moves his arms and puts one hand over my stump that's on his chest and hold me with his other one. He rubs me a little but I think he's still asleep. It feels so good. I feel so good. He also kisses the top of my head and I feel the tears beginnin' in my eyes. The nex' day I spend at his house and it's wonderful. My two new friends are there also and we have a lotsa fun swimmin' and all. We get along great. Zack makes me put on stump socks and a tee shirt t' wear when I'm in the sun so I don't get sunburn and not be able to wear my hooks. Some people don't know that black people can get sunburn, and it's very dangerous and painful. He also shows me some pictures on the internet of guys without arms swimmin' and playin' sports and they look incredible! It's fun havin' friends who don't care about my stumps and it's also so great to be stayin' in a place where everythin's so nice and peaceful and nobody's yellin'. Zack's house is a wonderful place. Gabe is so lucky. I don't have it at home or in school. An' I'm so happy to have it here with Zack. I worry that I won't be havin' it livin' in Santa Barbara, though. I'll jus' be one 'a four kids there and three of 'em'll be girls! Zack has Alicia and Eric eat dinner with us. Zack does some barbecuing of steaks and burgers and the cook (that Alicia and Eric's grammy) makes a wonderful salad and corn and dessert. We have fun eatin' and talkin' and all. After dinner they go home 'cause Zack and me have t' pack for the trip. I'm really all packed but Zack has to pack so I help him. I take a quick shower before goin' t' sleep. I do it all myself; Zack don't help me t'night. When I get outta the shower Zack's already in bed and his bags are by the door t' his room. I'm not wearin' my pajamas tonight only briefs. He's layin' on toppa the blankets on his bed and he's wearin' the gray boxer-briefs that he likes so much and he's watchin' TV and readin' somethin'. I stand near the end of his bed and look at him. He's so handsome and he has a wonderful body. His legs look very strong with lotsa muscles and his chest has almos' no hair on it just a teeny bit around his nipples. He has great muscles on his chest. His nipples are very light in color, not like mine that are very dark. Of course, he's white and I'm black. I know he don't care that I'm black but I think about it all the time and I worry about Zack not likin' me cause Elise is black and I'm black. I think I always worry about being black when I useta visit here t' see Gabe and I know Zack's wife Mary Anne don't like me so much. And now that I don't have hands, I worry even more 'cause I'm so different and I'll be seein' her again up in Seattle. The lump in his briefs seems t' be pretty big tonight and I think I can see his dick. Zack must have a big cock and big balls - I think. I know it's wrong for me t' think 'bout these things but I do. He looks at me and smiles and he sees I'm lookin' at his body. He smiles again and then scoots over a bit and I know that he wants me t' come int' bed with him. Is he gonna let me sleep wit' him t'night? Are we gonna be t'gether? I get int' the bed and I'm very happy when he puts his arm over my shoulder and pulls me closer t' him. I remember my dad holding me like this when I was a real little kid and it feels so great that Zack's doin' it now. But it's diff'ent now. I put a arm on his chest. Now me and Zack are t'gether in a new way. I love him. With one hand he's strokin' my back and it feels so restful and comfy. With the other he's rubbin' my arm that's on his chest. I wish he don't stop. "Ready for sleep?" he asks. "I suppose," I say. I start movin' my stump over his chest a little harder. "Well, I've a thought, Val." He takes in a deep breath. "Since the last two times ya were here ya wound up in my bed anyway, maybe tonight we should start by ya going to sleep here. Okay?" I nodded my head strongly. "Yeah! That's a great idea!" "I agree, big guy," he says and gives me a big squeeze. I hug him back and we squeeze each other for a few minutes. Until Billie and Louie come jumpin' on the bed, that is. They're rompin' all 'round and havin' all kindsa fun. I pet them and they lick my face. I try to push 'em away 'cause I just took a shower, but they think I'm only playin' with 'em and they do it even more. I love what they're doin' and me and Zack are gigglin' and havin' lots of fun rollin' 'round the bed with the two dogs. Finally Zack quiets them down and he lays back. I snuggle up real close t' him and he puts his arm around my shoulder and pulls me close again. It feels so great! I put my head int' his armpit and also put my arm on his chest. He pulls me even closer and I can feel my dick's hard against his body. I know what I want Zack t' do but am afraid to ask him. I'm sure he can feel my dick pressin' int' his body. I look up at him and he looks back at me and smiles. I smile at him and he starts t' hold me tight. I really love it when he holds me - it makes me feel like he really likes me and that someone still cares for me a lot. He kisses me on my forehead and I love it so much and I smile at him and then he kisses me on my nose and even licks it and again I love it so much and it makes me feel so wonderful. And then he moves forward again and I know...I jus' know what he's goin' t' do! I close my eyes and then I feel his lips touching my lips. I jus' can't say how great it feels. It's like nothin' I ever feel before. It feels so really, really great! I'm so tingly all over! His lips are soft and it almos' feels like Billie or Louis lickin' me - but much, much better. My whole body seems to be shakin' and I know my dick is very, very hard and hurtin'. I feel wonderful! I make up my mind and get up my courage and tell him after he moves his lips away how much I love it when he touches me. I say about the first time when we're on the terrace and Elise is there. What really surprises me is he says he loves t' touch me too. He loves it! But he don't know if I like it until I just tell him. He gives me a big smile and I jus' know I cannot say how much I love him. But I'm getting t' think now that he's a man and I'm jus' a kid. I jus' don't know if it's okay for a man and a kid t' be t'gether and kissin' and holdin' and touchin' like this but I figure that if I like what we're doin' t'gether and Zack likes what we're doin' t'gether then it's gotta be okay. My courage is getting bigger. I love it so much when he kisses me and I want to feel it all over again. For the first time I kiss him. It's great all over again. I feel his tongue movin' against my lips so I open my mouth a little and I feel Zack's tongue rubbing against my teeth and gently suckin' my tongue. I can't believe how totally awesome this all feels. I'm feelin' so tingly I don't think I can catch my breath. I start movin' around the bed a lot and I know my little dick is pressin' in my briefs. "Zack...Zack...it feels so good." I'm speakin' very softly and I can barely hear myself 'cause my heart is beatin' so much I can hear all kindsa drummin' sounds in my ears. "Zack...I dream about ya holdin' me again...and touchin' me again...since that first time...I was here...and it's so wonderful. And...and the kissin's so great!" He then gives me another kiss and says, "I want t' hold ya so very much, Val. But I don't know if ya want me to. I don't know how ya feel about it." I tell him I want it very, very much. I love the way I'm feelin' and when he kisses me I move my arms so that I can touch his wonderful skin and body. I touch his arms and his back and his sides and it seems when I touch him he starts breathin' hard. He moves me so I'm layin' on my back. He's holdin' both my arms and brings the stumps to his lips and kisses 'em and rubs 'em slow over his lips and face. He even licks 'em and then bites light. I can feel the scratchiness of his beard rubbin' 'em and I know I'm lovin' every second of what he's doin'. I still can't believe that he can love those ugly stumps. But he says he does and the way he's treatin' 'em and I know he's tellin' the truth. I do wanna believe everythin' he tells me. After he kisses and rubs my stumps I look up int' his eyes. He lookin' at me like he's never looked at me before. His eyes are almos' closed and his mouth is open and he seems t' be breathin' heavy. I know we're gonna kiss again. I jus' know it! I want him t' kiss me. And I wanna kiss him back. I know that we both wanna get the feelin' of bein' loved by someone else and havin' that person only for us. I love Zack. I really do! And I want him to love me as much as possible. I see his lips comin' closer n' closer and I close my eyes. Then I feel his very warm and very soft lips pressin' on mine very lightly and then he kisses me and the feelin' gets stronger and stronger. Zack lays down on the bed next to me. I can see how my little dick is pushin' up my briefs. It feels so tight in there. I can also see that Zack's dick is pushin' up his shorts. We look great together. "Val, there's nothin' I want in the whole world more 'n t' make ya feel good and to let ya know how I feel." He takes the back of his hands and rubs it on my cheek. It feels so wonderful and so gentle and I push my face in his hand. He smiles and holds me close, pressin' my body to his. He's so strong. I feel so great with him near me. I feel really safe being with him. Not safe in that he'll protect me from robbers or murders but safe in that I feel real comf'able being near him and knowin' that he's near me. And I really think I can feel his dick pressin' against my body. It feels so hot and so big and so hard. He starts t' say somethin' but I quickly roll up on top a him and start kissin' him. He holds me tight and I rub my stumps on his ears and neck. It feels so great. Then I notice some pain around my dick and I know that my very hard little dick's pressin' int' Zack's body. I know it hurts but it also feels so, so good. When he rubs his hands over my butt I press myself harder int' him and it feels even better. Then he rolls me offa him and sits and looks at me. I see his eyes movin' up and down my body and I get upset and smile a little at him. He smiles back at me and I think he's happy 'cause he's kissin' me again and I ask him if he can touch me all over my body, to touch me anywhere he wants to. "I love it when ya hold me, Zack. I love it when ya touch me. Do ya think...could ya touch me on my body - all over? I think I'll love that. I love how I feel when ya hold me...it's the best I ever know." He says that he doesn't know if I really want him t' touch me anywhere but I say it's okay and that I want it very, very much. I love the way I feel when Zack touches me and I know it'll be great if he can touch me all over...'specially on my dick and balls. I tell him all this and he starts movin' his hands all over my body and I know it's the best I ever feel...ever! He rubs my dick and ball through my briefs and I close my eyes 'cause it's feelin' so very, very good. "Does this feel good to ya, Val?" Zack asks. He is speakin' in a whisper int' my ear and it sounds so comfy and so wonderful. I cannot 'member ever bein' happier in my whole life. "Oh yeah, Zack. It feels so, so great." "I'm glad, Val, because it feels so, so great to me too." This makes me confused. How can Zack feel great if it's me he's rubbin'? I know how great I feel but how come he feel's great too? I'd love t' know how Zack really feels about holdin' me and kissin' me and rubbin' my dick and balls. Zack's also doin' other things to my body that makes me, ya know, feel just so super. He starts lickin' at my armpits and I giggle a little at first 'cause it tickles me but after a while it begins t' feel so good and I tell him how much I love what he's doin' and I begin t' breathe very hard. I just feel so wonderful that he likes my whole body, that he likes all of me and all I have to offer him. After he finish lickin' one o' my armpits, he then starts playin' with my nipple on the same side of my body as the armpit. This is just a really great feelin'. First he rolls his tongue slowly all 'round it and it feels so gentle and comfy to me. Then he takes the little nub in his mouth and sucks on the whole tittie. He squeezes it between his lips and then he bites on it with his teeth a little and I know that m' whole body is movin' all over the bed. He moves t' the other side and does the same thing. He first licks my armpit and then plays with my nipple. And all the time he's doin' this he's still playin' with my dick and little balls and rubbin' 'em and strokin' 'em. I move one of my stumps to his chest and rub it over his nipple and skin and he likes it very much 'cause he starts moanin' and I'm moanin' and I'm feelin' so great! I put my other stump to his lips and he starts lickin' and bitin' it and rubbin' me even harder. Suddenly the only thing I can feel or think 'bout is how wonderful the feelin' is that's comin' from my dick. It feels so hard and I can feel Zack's fingers playin' around my hard little dick - only it don't feel so little t' me now - and workin' on my balls. His hand now moves inside my briefs and I can feel the skin of his hand on my dick and movin' around my balls. It feels so great I can't even say how much. It's the best feelin' I ever have. I can feel Zack's finger movin' over the piss slit of my hard dick. It tickles and also feels so wonderful. I can feel his finger now movin' slow down my little rod and strokin' it so gentle and loving. Then he's playin' and rubbin' my balls and I jus' love everythin' he's doin' to me. Now he's playin' and fondlin' my dick and this has to be the most awesome thin' I ever know. He's movin' his fingers up and down the shaft of my little rod and also I'm feelin' him movin' the foreskin over and over my dick head. Just awesome! I never know that there's somethin' that can make me feel so good and so happy. I'm so lucky t' have found Zack. And so lucky that he likes me and wants t' make me feel this way. Then I know somethin' new is happenin'. My whole body starts vibratin' and movin' and jumpin' around the bed. I push my dick hard int' Zack's movin' hand and the feelin' comin' from it wonderful! He rubs hard and I'm throwin' my body all around and I think I'm makin' noises but don't know for sure. And then.then it's like a big crash goes off in my body and in my head and a flood of new feelins is racin' all through me. My dick is strainin' and pulsin' and feels so tender and amazin'. Zack continues to rub it so light and I feel so, so fantastic! Now he stops doin' anythin' t' my body and he's not touchin' it any more but my body's still movin' around a lot 'specially my hips. The awesome feelin' I have is startin' to go away but my body still feels light as a feather and like I'm floatin'. He kisses me very light on the lips. It feels like he's not even touchin' 'em. And so nice. Soon he moves and he's layin' right next t' me and he wraps his arms around me and I bury my face in his chest and he holds me tight and I love everythin' that's happenin' t' me tonight. My mouth is open and I know I'm droolin' on him a little but he just smiles at me and kisses me again. I rub my stumps on his body - anywhere I can reach. I can hear he's breathin' heavy when I touch him with my stumps. I know he likes it a lot. I'm glad I can make Zack happy 'cause he makes me very happy. I move my leg against him and my knee touches him. I can feel his big dick that's still covered in his underwear. I start movin' my knee over his big bulge and Zack starts moanin' and movin' his whole body. I really don't know what I'm doin' to make him all excited like but he's movin' a lot and sayin' my name out loud and tellin' me that I'm doin' wonderful things for him. So I continue to rub my knee on his big bulge and I kiss Zack and I have my arms around him. He seems t' be very happy and then he begins moanin' and almos' yellin' and then suddenly he begins to move around a lot and he's pantin' and his whole body seems spazzy. He lets out a great big cry and then stops movin'. He's keeps makin' these strange sounds and breathin' through his mouth and his body don't move no more. I'm still holdin' him and squeezin' him tight and I look at his face and he's smilin'. His eyes are closed but he's got this big smile on his face. He opens his eyes a little and I smile back at him. When he's quiet again I kiss him very softly and he kisses me back a little harder. Then he kisses me very hard and I love the feel when he puts his tongue in my mouth. I push my tongue int' his mouth and it's wonderful. We continue to kiss and Zack starts rubbin' my body again and I know my dick is still hard from the last time he plays wit' it. It don't seem to go down at all. Zack starts doing the same things he did before like kissing my stumps, lickin' and wettin' my armpits and nibblin' on my nipples. I feel wonderful all over again and I rub Zack's neck and shoulders and even int' his armpits with my arm stumps and he smiles at me and tells me how much he loves it when I do that. Zack gives me a big smile and kisses me hard and then he moves down the bed and I can feel that he's startin' t' take off my briefs. He puts his finger in the 'lastic and pulls 'em down very slow makin' sure that he does not hurt my dick that's standin' again. I can feel 'em bein' dragged over my long legs and then over my big feet and then off. I lift my head a little so that I can see what Zack's doin' and I see him begin to put his mouth to my toes. I see him do it and feel it in the same second. Zack begins suckin' on my big toe and it feels so strange but so 'credible. I put m' head back down on the pillow and close m' eyes again and let the wonderful feelins travel through my body. I'm feelin' so very, very nice. Zack continues t' work on my toes and he's suckin' each one and licking between each of 'em. Maybe he's suckin' on my toes 'cause I got no fingers for him t' suck on. Then I feel his tongue and lips and mouth begin t' move up my legs and his hand pettin' and squeezin' the muscles of my legs. It feels so great t' me that I don't think it's silly for a grown up man to be lickin' the legs of a ten-year-old boy. My dick is very hard I know 'cause I can see it standin' up when I look. It don't hurt any more 'cause Zack has my briefs off and my dick is free. He squeezes my knees and licks the skin behind 'em. I get like a jolt when he does that. It like sends a strange feeling through my body. One that I never feel before. Everythin' he's doin' t' me, t' my body, it's almost makin' me nuts. It feels so awesome. I feel that I cannot think about what's goin' on. All I know is the awesome and great feelin' that's travelin' up and down my body. Then...then he does somethin' that just drives me crazy. I mean it! Really...jus' crazy! One minute he's lickin' up my leg - above my thigh - and the next minute he's lickin' underneath the top of my thigh and right behind my balls and my little bag. Now he's lickin' and suckin' on my little ball bag...my little ball bag and I' going apeshit! I can feel his tongue lappin' at me and suckin' my little balls int' his mouth and rollin' them all around his mouth. This is drivin' me jus' wild. It's such a great feelin' and one I never feel before. It's jus' fantastic! I know my whole body's bouncin' on the bed. I'm tryin' to keep still so Zack can do his things but when Zack does these things to my body and my dick and my balls, I got no control over my body and it jus' moves around so much I'm 'fraid I'm hurtin' Zack or turnin' him off. I try reachin' out for the top of Zack's head with my arms t' let him know tha' I love what he's doin' t' me so very much and how I feel, but I cannot get t' him. I want to touch him so bad...so very, very bad...but he's outta reach of my short arms. It really pisses me off that I can't touch Zack and let him know how much I love what he's doin' t' me. I s'pose he knows I love what he doin' 'cause I'm moanin' so much and so loud and wigglin' my body so much and sayin' his name. Everythin' that's going on is so great! Zack's lickin' and suckin' my balls and bag and then he stops and lets 'em outta his mouth. The next thin' I know his lips're at the toppa my little dick and he's pushin' down my foreskin. With his lips! It feels absolutely st'pendous! 'Cause Zack now starts kissin' the top of my little dick and I can't believe how wonderful that feels! It's like nothin' I never know before 'cause he has his hot mouth on my little dick and it's fantastic! It's jus' fantastic. I love it! After the kissin' comes the lickin' and I like this even better. Zack sticks out his tongue and begins t' lick my dick head and the chills that run my body are just huge! It feels almost unreal, like I'm floatin' somewhere else that this is all happening to someone else and not me. I feel Zack's tongue lickin' the head over and over. It's so gentle and soothing and it's makin' me absolutely crazy. I wanna touch him so bad but my arms still can't reach him. Now he slowly moves his tongue all around the outside of my dick head and again my whole body's feelin' so wonderful and good. But better than my body feelin' great I know my mind feels so fantastic. It's not crapped up with lotsa things that I worry about during the day or other things. There's only one thing now and it's Zack and how wonderful he makes me feel and how much I love what he's doin'. At one time he moves the tip of his hot tongue int' my piss slit and it's jus' amazin'. It sends explosions up and down my entire body Then comes the suckin', and I think that this is now my favorite part. I didn't know it could get any better than the licking but it does. The suckin' is the best! It's really the very best! I can't believe what happens t' me when Zack begins t' suck on my little dick. I can feel him beginin' t' move his lips down my dick shaft. He's doin' it so slow and he's suckin' on me at the same time. He goes down a little bit while suckin' then goes back up t' the top of my dick and is still suckin' on it. The nex' time he goes down the shaft he goes a little bit more and is suckin' a little bit harder. It's so incredible! Slowly he works his way down the whole shaft till he's at the bottom and his lips are touchin' the mound over my dick and my ball sack at the same time. I can't believe how so excellent this is. Zack now has my whole dick in his mouth and he's suckin' on it and makin' me feel better 'n anythin' in the world. Here I am, a little black kid, with my arms cut off and with sucha small dick and here's this beautiful rich white guy makin' me feel better 'n anythin' in the whole wide world, makin' love t' my body, makin' awesome love t' me. My whole body's jumpin' all over the bed and my arm stumps are wavin' like crazy in the air. But everythin' seems so unreal like its all a dream and not really happenin' t' me. So I pick my head up a little and I look down at Zack and he's right there workin' away on my dick. I see it disappearin' int' his mouth and I feel the suckin' on it and his tongue playin' all around it and then it's appearin' again as Zack moves up my hot shaft but continuin' t' suck hard on it. Awesome! Fuckin' awesome! Zack continues the up and down and then...and then I start feelin' it. I feel a little tinglin' startin' some place like from behin' my balls. It's such a wonderful feelin' and is so comfortin'. Zack must know it too 'cause he starts doin' it faster. He starts goin' up and down a faster and his suckin' becomes even stronger. I feel like my dick's in a strong vacuum cleaner and is bein' tugged outta my body. And that feelin' I'm havin' only gets stronger and bigger. I think I can feel my dick getting' bigger 'cause it's hurtin' a little and feels like it's strainin' in Zack's mouth. I'm still propped up on my elbows but now I shut my eyes tight and throw my head back and just let the feelins take over my whole body. The incredible feelin's spreadin' through my body very quick. And whenever Zack goes down on my dick and sucks it real hard and licks it all over I push up my hips t' meet his suckin' vacuum mouth and strain t' put everythin' I got int' his mouth. He gently takes my little balls in his fingers and starts squeezin' 'em so soft and movin' them all around my ball bag. A new wave of feelins takes over my body and it's so fuckin' incredible that I know my whole body is gonna explode any second. Then...then...then...it hits! Shit! Does it ever HIT! It's like nothin' I ever feel before. Nothin! It burns and it pulses and it vibrates.it does all of these things and even more to my entire body. And I cry out...I'm yellin' Zack's name...but I'm pantin' so hard that almos' nothin' comes outta my mouth. My dick's hurtin' and pulsin' and doin' all kindsa crazy shit. My body feels like its gonna go flyin' off the bed. And everythin' hurts so, so much...my whole body hurts. My arms hurt...and my legs hurt...and my chest and my neck hurt...and even my brain hurts tryin' to understand what's happenin' t' me. And most of all, my dick hurts. It hurts real, real bad...and it hurts real, real good! And all this hurt is so wonderful, so great! So incredibly awesome! So totally mind blowing. It's the greatest feelin' I ever, ever know in my whole life. ----------------------------------- I don't know for sure what happens nex' but when I open my eyes I don't see Zack. "Hi, Val," I suddenly hear him sayin' very softly. I turn my head and I see Zack's layin' nex' t' me and givin' me a big smile. He seems happy and so am I. "Hi," I say. "How ya doin', ya beautiful, sexy creature." I put my arms out and he gently grasps both of 'em and brings 'em to his mouth where he kisses 'em and makes all kinds of soothing love to my burned and scarred arm stumps. I feel upset with him calling me beautiful and sexy and him treating my arms and me like we're completely normal. But I know this is the way Zack is and how he treats me all the time. And I love it and I love him so very much. "Are ya feeling okay, Val?" "Oh, yeah, I'm feelin' really great, Zack. Just so really, really fantastic!" "That's wonderful! That's the way ya supposed t' feel after havin' a 'gasm." "Gasm?" I ask. "Or-gas-m," he says slowly. "Orgasm. It's what happens when a man climaxes - when he reaches a sexual peak - when he's at the top of the world. And ya just had a real powerful one." I really don't totally understand what Zack's talkin' about. All I know is that my whole body feels wonderful and I'm very happy t' be with him and t' have him near and have him holdin' me. He opens his arms and I roll right int' them and he hugs me tight and I hug him right back. Then he kisses me and I know that I am in the best possible place in the whole world. I am with the person I love more than any other and I want this to go on forever and ever. ----------------------------------- During the night I wake up and I'm sleepin' snuggle really close to Zack. I'm feeling so happy 'cause of what we did together tonight and how Zack shows me how much he must really love me. I know I really, really love him back. A lot! I think about the wonderful night we have together and I find my little dick gettin' hard all over again when I think of what we did. It's so fabulous bein' with Zack, the man I totally love. When I'm with him everythin's perfect. He even makes me feel perfect. My big worry t'night and the thing that stops me from fallin' back to sleep quick is that I love Zack so much that I don't know how I'm gonna stay with him all the time and love him and have him love me. Gabe'll be with us soon. Then I'll be goin' t' Santa Barbara and Gabe and Zack'll be goin' t' Hollywood. I won't be able t' be with my lovin' Zack whenever I want and have him love me and have me love him. Shit! Why is it jus' my luck tha' when I find someone who'll love me I must lose him so quick? Before I go back t' sleep I put my arm stump on his chest and rub him a little. It makes me feel all warm and comf'able inside and I hope Zack feels the same way even though he's sleepin'. He says he like it when I rub my arm stumps on his body but I'm not really sure if it's true or not. Who could really like these ugly things? Who could like it when they's rubbed with these terrible things? Who could love a boy who's not even a whole boy but a crippled boy and a black, crippled boy also? But still, he says he likes my stumps and that he loves me so I want to believe that it's true. It really has to be true else Zack wouldn't say so. Would he? ----------------------------------- When we leave the house the sun ain't even up yet. It's surprisin' Alicia and Eric are there t' say good-bye and I hug 'em both of 'em. We stop after a while at a place to eat breakfass and I eat okay which is good 'cause I'm not wearing my hooks today. I tell Zack how I'm practicin' usin' just my arms - what's left of my arms - to do most things. He seems excited and happy for me. After we leave the breakfass place I'm feelin' good 'cause I'm able t' do everything with just my stumps and the waitress says nice things about me and Zack. She also thinks that Zack's my dad. She tells about her son Sammy who also has his hands cut off. Zack talks to the waitress and gives her his telephone number and tells her that Sammy can call and speak to us whenever he wants. I'm wonderin' how Sammy's gonna call me if I'm in Santa Barbara and I ask Zack. He gives me a very serious look and pulls offa the highway and int' a rest area and parks the Range Rover. He puts his hand on my knee and tells me how he thinks he can't live without me bein' wit' him all the time. I get a incredible wonderful feelin' goin' through my body and I try jumpin' out of my seat int' Zack's lap. But the seatbelt holds me back before Zack undoes it and then I scramble into his lap and kiss him all over and hug him and I begin to cry a little. He kisses me and holds me tight and I know I never want t' be away from him ever, ever again. I know I want him to make love t' me and hold me and kiss me and touch me the way he did las' night and t' make me feel so good about myself. When we get back on I-5 I'm bustin' with questions for Zack but I don't ask 'em 'cause I know he's thinkin' 'bout lotsa things too. Lotsa things are gonna change if I'm gonna be livin' with him. Lots! But then I gotta ask. "How'm I gonna go t' school?" I say afta a few more minutes. "I know there're lots of things that have to be worked out but...well, I think ya'll go to school with Eric and Alicia. That'll be nice, won't it?" "Yeah! That'll be great!" "This way the three of ya guys can go to school together and study together. I think it should be very nice." "Yeah! Really cool!" He squeezes my knee and I giggle a little and then he moves the back of his hand to my cheek and rubs it very light. I turn and kiss his hand and it feels so wonderful that tears start to come to my eyes and run down my face. I tell him that I love him very, very much. He tells me that he loves me too. The rest of the day is great. The sun is shining bright, and I see things I've never seen before. Zack buys me a pair of sunglasses at one of the stops we make and before it's even dark we stop at a very nice hotel that Zack says is just outside Portland, Oregon. I see lotsa large volcanoes for the first time in my life. I know about Mt. Saint Helens and how it blew up and all and Zack shows me Mount Shasta and says that tomorrow we see Mount Hood and when we get near Seattle, we'll see Mount Rainier. All of 'em are now dormant (that's the word he uses - it means sleepin') but they can come alive any time. I tell him I'd love t' see a volcano eruptin'. The room in the hotel's very nice and there's two beds. I really hope I'm sleepin' with Zack tonight though. When I sleep with him the last two nights I think I never been feelin' as good in my whole life. Zack and me go t' a wonderful place t' eat. It's very beautiful with a candle on the table and cloth napkins and we sit near a window and see the mountains and the river and it's all very beautiful. I wear my hooks t'night and Zack holds my hand as we walk in and that makes me feel so proud and so very loved. I'm wearin' a long sleeve shirt 'cause I don't wanna gross people out with my arms. I have salmon. Zack says when a person is in this part of the country salmon is the perfect thing t' eat. He eats salmon too. I enjoy it a lot. It's better 'n any fish I ever eat. Then we drive back to the hotel. I turn on the TV and watch some things - it's the same crappy programs we have at home and it gets so borin'. Zack starts gettin' undress and says he's gonna take a shower. I hear the water startin' to run and shower curtain bein' moved. I know that Zack's in the shower, that he's naked - and that I know I want to see him. I didn't getta chance las' night t' see his body. I start t' take off all my clothes and my hooks. I really don't know what I'm gonna do but somehow it feels right t' be takin' off my clothes. I drop the clothes on the floor and my hooks on the bed. I start walkin' int' the bathroom. I'm naked. It's all steamy from Zack's shower and he says somethin' t' me 'bout tellin' him when I flush. I say I'm not peein' and then I make up my mind. Without even stoppin' to think about it, I pull back the shower curtain and step int' the tub. Zack's very surprised. His face looks shocked but that's not where I'm lookin' the most. I'm lookin' at his dick - and it's really very beautiful. It's really, really nice lookin'. It's floppin' and soft and it's hangin' almos' straight down. His balls look t' be large and hang down a lot in the sack but not as much as his long dick is hangin' down. There ain't much hair around his dick and balls and I like that a lot. I notice very quick that Zack don't seem t' have a foreskin on his dick like I have on mine. "What are ya doin'?" Zack asks me. "I need a shower. I think it'd be faster if we do it together. Don't ya?" "I don't think it'd be faster, Val, but I know it'll be much more fun," he says. I'm still lookin' at his dick and it's getting' bigger and bigger and it's no longer floppin' over his balls but startin' to stand straight out away from his body. It's the first time I see all of Zack's body and I think it's beautiful. I'm really still starin' at his dick and I begin to walk closer to him. He's all cover in soap and looks really great - and also, I think, very, very sexy. I look up at his face and smile at him and he seems t' be smilin' back at me. I like it - I like the feeling I'm getting'. I can feel it in my dick and balls and I know my dick's getting' hard even though I'm not lookin' at it. I walk close to Zack and I continues t' look at his bigger and bigger and growin' dick. I feel that he's looking down at me and likin' what I'm doin' - or what I'm gonna be doin'. For some reason, and I can't explain why, I know I need t' touch his dick - and his big balls that I also see. His dick looks so big now and it's standin' straight out from his body. And I can see his big balls in his bag that's hangin' down between his legs. I slowly begin t' raise my right arm. I havta touch Zack. I know it! I must! I move my stump slowly until it's touchin' the tip of Zack's very big dick. As I touch the end near the slit his dick jumps and Zack lets out a moan. I look up at his face and his eyes are closed and his mouth is open and he seems to be smilin'. I love the feelin' of the tip of his dick touchin' the flesh of my stump. I press my stump harder int' Zack's dick and I see that I'm rubbin' his big slit. "Ya okay Zack?" I ask. I never seen him like this. He's breathin' hard and he's havin' trouble talkin'. "Yeah!" he finally says. "Yeah, I'm fine Val. Really!" Then he looks right at me and says, "Thanks...thanks so much." I have trouble understandin' what Zack's thankin' me for but I'm happy that he's okay and likes what I'm doin'. I'm still rubbin' my stump all over the end of Zack's dick and he starts moanin' again. And I can see how his dick is twitchin'. When I touch it or move my stump around it, Zack's dick jumps a little. "Ya look so 'credibly sexy Zack, and ya dick and balls are so very beautiful." Zack has a very big dick, like I say before. I think so when we're in bed together in his house. It stands almos' straight out from the hair at the bottom. It's also so fat around. It's a very beautiful dick but considerin' that I like ain't never seen a man's dick before I have nothin' t' match it to. I slowly start movin' my arm stump down his dick touchin' it everywhere and rubbin' it as I move. It feels so smooth and so wonderful on my stump and I don't stop until my stump is touchin' the hair on his body around his dick. I rub my stump in this hair and it feels great t' me. There ain't much hair but it still feels nice and it's also soapy. Zack's moanin' up a storm and it's pretty loud in that shower 'cause the tile makes the sound sound louder. "Oh, God!" Zack calls out. "Oh, God, Val." I look up at his face and he has his face turned up and lookin' up at the ceilin' and he's smilin' a little and his mouth's open and he's breathin' very deep. I raise my left arm and move it slowly until it's touchin' one a Zack's nipple. I know how great it is and how wonderful it feels when Zack rubs my little nipples and sucks on 'em and bites 'em lightly that I want him to know the same feelin'. So I rub his nipple then I rub it even harder and Zack seems t' like what I'm doing. The feelin' of his nub on my stump is terrific. I love everythin' about touchin' him on his body. So here we are in the shower and the water's comin' down over us and Zack's moanin' and I'm rubbin' his big dick with one stump and rubbin' his nipple with the other. My stump on his dick I start t' move up to the top of his dick again and he lets out a long moan. I rub the end of my stump around the end of his dick and I feel somethin' slippery and a little slimy at the tip. I look but don't see nothin'. I can see Zack's big balls hangin' down now that his dick is standing straight out. I think they're really beautiful. His balls are so big and one of 'em hangs down lower than the other. Zack's ball bag is hangin' low and it looks so beautiful and sparklin' with the water runnin' down it. I move my arm from touchin' his dick to touchin' his ball bag. I put my stump under it and try lifting it but it like slides offa my stump. I try this a coupla times but it don't work. But Zack's moanin' a lot and I think he's likin' what I'm doin' or what I'm tryin' t' do. "This is wonderful, Val. This is absolutely fantastic...what ya doing t' me...it's just so marvelous. Thanks...thanks so much...my beautiful, wonderful Val." Zack says this and I'm so happy that he's real happy. "Ya don't havta thank me, Zack. I'm doin' this 'cause I love ya and...and I want ya t' feel great and t' know how much I love ya. Ya a very, very sexy man Zack." I'm bringin' my other stump down t' his balls and with both my stumps I begin t' try t' squeeze those low hangin' balls of his. It feels great on my stumps - the feel of Zack's hard balls and the wrinkled skin of his bag feel wonderful. I suddenly notice that Zack's body starts movin' back and forth. It's his hip movin' mostly. It's slow at first but as I continue to squeeze his balls and rub him he starts doin' it a little faster and faster. I move both stumps quick to his dick. It looks so big and thick and I gotta touch it and play with it some more. I put one stump on top and one stump under his beautiful dick and start movin' them both at the same time. Zack's getting' very, very noisy and his body is movin' a lot and he's sayin' things like "Ya the best, Val" and "This is so great" and "I love ya, Val" and I'm happy my wonderful Zack's so happy and that I'm the cause of him bein' so happy. I keep doing to Zack's dick what I do t' mine all the time when I'm alone in my room and I wanna make myself feel good. And I know I'm makin' Zack feel good and that makes me feel so good at the same time. Then I realize somethin'. I know what Zack means when he says las' night when he's rubbin' me that he feels as good as me. 'Cause now I'm makin' Zack feel good and I feel great! I keep rubbin' up and down his big dick with both my stumps. His dick is jumpin' around some and I know that somethin' gonna happen soon. "Harder, Val. Rub me harder! Please rub me harder. Rub me as hard as ya can." He's moanin' and he's beggin' me t' rub him harder so I start rubbin' his dick as hard as I can. I'm pressin' my stumps together and rubbin' up and down Zack's beautiful and throbbin' dick. "Oh God! Oh my God Val! That's it!" Zack starts yellin' this but I hardly know it's Zack's voice 'cause he sounds so different. "This is so.so great!" he yells again. This only gets me hotter and I rub harder and harder. "Yes! Yes! Yeeeeessss!" he screams and I see that his beautiful dick is gettin' even bigger and throbbin' even more and more. And then he lets out a big breath with a large noise and flops back on the tile wall of the shower and goes very still. Suddenly he's makin' noise again and white stuff is shootin' outta his dick. And there's so much of it! It goes all over my chest and sticks t' me. I think I know what it is - I think it's Zack's sperm. Zack's shootin' his sperm all over me and I love every second of what he doin'. He's also movin' his body a lot. His face points up to the ceiling and I think his eyes are shut tight. His mouth is open and he's still makin' lotsa noise and all kindsa funny sounds. Slowly, Zack starts slidin' down the shower wall. His knees are givin' way and he slowly sinks to 'em. I start t' get a little worried 'cause Zack's face is all red and he's breathin' very hard. "Ya okay Zack?" At first he don't say nothin'. I'm startin' t' get really worried now. So I ask again. But then I see he's beginnin' t' smile and the smile on his face is gettin' bigger and bigger. He slowly picks up his arms and puts them around me and pulls me close to his chest. He hugs me hard and I hug him back with all my strength. "I'm fine, Val. I'm absolutely fine. I can never remember bein' better. Ya jus' marvelous my beautiful, wonderful, excitin' Val." He moves his head forward t' kiss me and a big shiver goes through my whole body. He loves what I do! He's never been better he says! I move my lips t' his and we kiss long and strong. I'm lovin every second of our kiss and Zack holdin' me tight. The water in the shower keeps pourin' over us and we don't care. Then Zack starts t' rub his hand over my body and I can feel that my little dick is hard and is pressin' int' his body. I can also feel his dick gettin' hard all over again after it went floppy when he shot his sperm. Zack starts rubbin' his hand over my back and down my butt and over my butt cheeks and I feel so great - so very, very great. Zack starts movin' his lips down from my face and mouth and kisses me all over as he moves his lips down t' my nipple where he licks them and sucks them and then bites them so very light. I'm startin' t' feel like it's almos' not me in this shower with Zack and that all this is happenin' to some other kid - some beautiful kid with nice white skin and blue eyes and blonde hair and a beautiful body and two whole arms. But Zack's sayin' my name over and over so it must be me he's lovin'. I wonder if Zack really wants me as much as I want him and need me as much as I need him and loves me as much as I love him. I feel my stumps rubbin' his hair and his neck and his back. I slowly open my eyes and see Zack playin' with my nipples and kissin' them. I feel him makin' love t' my body. I am jus' so thrilled it's really me Zack's makin' love to. I squeeze him harder and longer jus' t' make sure he's really here and that I'm his and he's mine. He's movin' his face and mouth down my chest and I know where he's headin'. I think he's gonna do t' me again what he did las' night and I love it so much and I'm gettin' so very, very hot 'cause I know that when he gets down t' my crotch he's gonna begin lickin' and suckin' on my dick and my balls. My little dick is standin' straight out and I love what he doin' so much. And this time, since I'm standin' in front of him, I'll be able to touch him without any problems and be able to rub my arm stumps all over his head and his neck and his shoulders and his chest. I know it's gonna be fabulous. I know I'm gonna love it more than I did las' time. I know I'm gonna do anythin' Zack wants me t' do 'cause he makes me feel like the most loved boy in the world and also the luckiest. ----------------------------------- After we dry off we both get int' bed and we're naked and Zack holds me softly and very tenderly in his arms. It feels so very, very good cuddlin' with him - I feel so very comfy, so warm and so protected all over again. I feel like nothin' can ever hurt me again 'cause Zack's with me and will protect me always. All I wanna do is cry but I keep stoppin' myself every time my eyes start t' get wet 'cause I don't want him t' think I'm a baby. Zack rubs my back and runs his hands over my butt and down my thighs and I'm jus' so happy. He licks and kisses my stumps 'cause when we're in the shower he don't do much wit' 'em. Now he's showin' me one more time how much he really likes my scarred short arms. We kiss a lot and I love every second we're together. Zack tells me he loves me and I tell him that I love him very much. He is gentle wi' me and I'm sure now that he really and truly loves me and not just sayin' it and I'm also sure now that I can't live away from Zack ever again. I feel like he's a part of me - and I'm a part of him. He rubs me so light all over my body that I'm jus' thrilled. He is so gentle and kind t' me. "Ya so really great to me, Val," Zack whispers in my ear. "I loved everything that we did tonight. It was so special - so very special. Ya special." I kiss Zack softly on his lips. "Ya are a special person, Zack, so very, very special t' me too. Ya're the best friend I ever have." I kiss him again. "Nobody's ever been this lovin' t' me - not even." I rub my arm stump over his strong chest and he kisses me hard again and lets me put my tongue in his mouth. I feel so good doin' that I can't believe it. "And ya makes me feel so good too. For two nights now ya makes me feel like I'm the most loved person in the whole world." We continue to kiss and rub each other and I can't believe how wonderful I feel all over again. After we cuddle and kiss for a long time, Zack gets up and he takes somethin' outta his bag and brings it with him int' the bed. He gives me a black box and I hold it between my stumps. "This is for ya, Val. Please open it," he says. I put the box down on the bed and using my stumps I open it. I'm so surprise when I see that inside the box is a fabulous gold necklace. It looks beautiful and looks so fancy and delicate and it shines so much even in the dim light of the room. Zack takes it outta the box and holds it in his hands in front of him and in front of me. Zack seems t' have trouble speakin'. "Val, I want ya t' have this and t' wear it always. I want ya t' think of it as...as a...I want it to show...show my great and deep love for ya and how...how I hope that we'll be together...together forever." He puts it around my neck and I start t' cry and cry. Zack takes me in his arms and holds me tight and I hold him tight and we squeeze and hold and kiss. Zack helps me outta the bed and we walk to a mirror and I see the beautiful necklace and how it looks around my neck. It looks just fabulous! I move my arm up and touch it and smooth it careful. It feels so cool to the touch and looks so beautiful around my neck. I'm still cryin' and I see that Zack's cryin' too and I have some trouble seein' him and seein' my beautiful new necklace. "They look like a whole bunch of teeny little V's," I say very surprised. "That's one of the reasons I bought it. Isn't it nice?" "It's fantastic! Nobody ever give me anythin' so beautiful in my whole life!" We go back t' the bed layin' down together. I rest my head the way I like t' sleep with Zack - in his armpit. Pretty soon Zack's sleepin' and I'm thinkin' how much things are diff'rent for me in my life. I think of how before I meet Zack again I'm just a lonely cripple kid that nobody really wants t' have around. Kids don't like me and make fun of me and my hooks, grown ups don't like me and keep tryin' not t' keep lookin' at my hooks. Even my own mom ain't so crazy about me and is upset t' have a cripple for a son. And then how by accident I meet Zack again and how he likes me and really don't care that I'm a crip and how I'm with Zack now and how I want t' be with him forever and how much I love him. But still in the back of my mind I keep thinkin' of what'll happen when Gabe is wit' us and how me and Zack'll not be able t' be together when we want and not be able t' hold each other when we want or kiss when we want or make love together when we want. This makes me sad and I have trouble fallin' asleep. Why couldn't I meet Zack again right afta my accident - afta the docs cut off my hands? It would've been so much nicer. So much easier for me and everythin'. I wouldn't've had to see Elise's terrible face all the time lookin' and starin' at me - and so upset with me. I know Zack's friendly face and how he treats me would've helped me a lot. And the very bad times of having t' do things wit' no hands and then the so hard times of learnin' t' use my hooks and the horror of havin' t' look at my stumps and then goin' back t' school and seein' kids I know and how they treat me different and terrible. And the shock of Elise seein' me use my hooks and takin' me t' the bathroom and doin' all kindsa things f' me that I useta do myself. I'm thinkin' all these horrible things again. I don't know how many times I think of 'em before. A lot! And they don't get any better. They're like TV pictures in fronta my eyes - playin' over and over again. But suddenly I touch Zack's body with one of my arms and I remember he's here and he's holdin' me and lovin' me and how he says we'll be together forever. How he's makin' things so much better and better already. How he makes such wonderful love t' my body for two nights now and how I make love to his body t'night. I touch my new necklace again and I feel the tears comin' t' my eyes. And then I realize we're both together naked in this here bed. I'm feelin' my little dick gettin' all hard again. I'm feelin' so good and I love the feelings I'm gettin' in my whole body all over again. To Be Continued...