Date: Tue, 27 Jun 2006 00:48:05 -0700 (PDT)
From: Jeffrey Uher <chefjlu@sbcglobal.net>
Subject: When I knew I was Gay!

Disclaimer: If you are not yet 18 years of age or if it is illegal to read
materials of this kind where you live, then please stop now. This story
contains descriptions of sexual activity between teenage boys. And is for
adult eyes only! The acts are consensual and are a result of their love or
lust for one another. This story is completely true, all personal
descriptions, and names have been changed to protect people's identities
and privacy.  I would love to hear from you, so write me about your
experiences.



I'm a 5' 9", teddy bear, dark blonde hair, fairly hairy, 6"
cut, low-hangers with blue-gray eyes, and mid-forties now. I
have many stories to relate about my early years of sexual
experimentation. This story relates to my knowing I was gay.

I grew up in upstate NY, the youngest in my family. We lived
on a "gentleman's farm". About five acres, large home, and
barn and next to a lake, we had dogs and horses and room to
have a lot of fun. My father had part of the barn made into
a basketball court where we kids could play. This was
especially great when it was raining; it also was a great
place to have parties and even sleepovers with friends. We
also had a camper parked out in one of our fields. Dad let
us stay out in it when it was summer if we wanted to.

In NY there is a program that sends kids in NYC out to the
country during the summer to stay with families (Fresh Air
Program). My parents signed up to get a couple of boys for 2
weeks and about two weeks after school was out they arrived.
One was from Brooklyn and one was from Queens. They came by
bus and my parents went to get them around Noon. They got
back home around 2pm and introduced the two; the one from
Brooklyn was Puerto Rican and my age. The one from Queens
was white and two years older than me, a year younger than
my brother.

The Puerto Rican boy's name was Juan I liked him right away.
He had black hair, slim with dark complexion and green eyes.
I actually told him I thought he was cute. He smiled and
told me his older brother always told him he was the cute
one, he had 6 brothers! The boy from Queens name was Peter,
he had red hair, brown eyes a stocky build and bit of an
attitude. He'd get along with my brother just fine I
thought. I could tell my mother didn't care for him too
much. We took their suitcases up to our rooms and got them
settled in before we took them on a tour of the grounds and
the rules of the house.

Around 6pm we went for pizza all of us including my sister.
My sister and I really liked Juan but couldn't get past
Peter's attitude. Even my brother wasn't warming up to him.
When we got home we watched TV for a while then went to bed.
Juan caught me staring at him as he undressed and asked what
was so interesting. Luckily he was wearing boxers and I told
him I had never seen anyone our age wearing them before.
Everyone wore briefs. He shrugged and said they were what
his mom bought him. All his brothers wore them also. He
hopped in bed and we talked a bit in the dark before falling
asleep. In the morning he said he wanted to take a shower
and I said I usually wait until my brother is done in the
bathroom. So we talked while Peter and my brother got ready
for breakfast. When the bathroom was empty Juan and I
started brushing teeth, washing up and so forth.

While I was brushing my teeth Juan stepped up to the toilet
and pulled out his dick to piss. For an eleven year old he
had about 4" soft and he was "uncut" - something new to me.
He pulled back the skin on the end and started pissing. I
had stopped brushing and was now blatantly staring at his
cock. He looked at me and asked if there was a problem.
Hadn't I seen a guy take a piss before? I told him yes, but
what was all the skin on the end of his cock. He explained
it was foreskin and wanted to see my dick to compare. I was
just starting puberty and had a bit of hair around my dick
and it hung about 2" to 3" soft. He laughed that the doctor
had cut my skin off and said it was more fun playing with an
uncut dick. He also had a lot of pubic hair around his cock.
To his remark of playing with a dick I laughed a bit.

He jumped in the shower and after about a minute poked his
head out and asked if I was getting in. Now I really looked
at him, puzzled by this. I had only showered with other guys
after gym class in school but that was different. He laughed
that he and his brothers always showered together. It saves
on hot water and someone is there to soap up your back. I
shrugged and jumped in with him. It was really quite benign,
but I loved looking at that foreskin! My mom yelled up that
breakfast was ready and we better hurry or we wouldn't get
any sausage.

The day was uneventful, just a lot of driving them around
showing them the sights of the area. When we got home Peter
and my brother were playing basketball and Juan joined them.
I said I was headed out to the camper to clean it up and
open up a couple of windows. I was in the camper about 10
minutes making the beds when Juan walked in. I asked him how
the game was and he mentioned that the two of them were in
some pretty intense competition. I laughed and told him that
was how my brother was, he has to win every time! It really
isn't much fun playing a game with him. Juan asked about the
camper and I told him how we used it to go on camping trips
during the summer and about being able to sleep out in it
during the summer. I really enjoyed it when it was really
hot because at night it was cooler way out in the field
where it was. He thought that was neat, how about tonight? I
told him it would be fine if he wanted to.

So after dinner and a movie on TV Juan and I headed out to
the camper. Juan asked about my brother and I told him my
brother never slept out here, he usually had to be up in the
morning to head to baseball practice for Babe Ruth league.
If I slept out here, or a friend was over mom let me sleep
in as I could fix breakfast in the camper. He smiled and
gave a big high five along with a "Great!". I had a small
black & white TV in the camper and we started to watch a
movie. It was a Western and neither of us was interested in
it so Juan suggested we play cards. The game of choice was
strip poker. Typical for a couple horned up adolescents.

We were quickly naked with nothing left to discard when Juan
suggested we play it the way his older brother and his
friends played it, sort of a truth or dare put forward by
the winner of the hand. He won the next hand and asked my
(Truth) "Had I jacked-off before?" or (Dare) Run around the
field naked. I answered yes, but hadn't cum yet. He won the
next hand and asked "Have you jacked-off someone else?" Or
run across the field to the fence by the road and back. I
said I hadn't and took a quick run across the field and
back. I won the third hand and looked at the list of
questions his brother had given him. Next question, "Have
you sucked a cock before?" or show your cock hard. He said
no and I challenged him because how could we prove if he was
lying. He looked at me intently and replied he was 100%
straight when it came to this. He had let a guy suck his
dick before but he would not suck the guy's dick.

He stood up and his cock was hard! He said it was 7 _ inches
long and a lot of guys offered to suck it. His older brother
was bisexual (huh?) which he explained to me and said a lot
of his brother's friends sucked him off and so forth. He
looked at me again and suggested putting the cards away, it
was time for a sex education primer. I have to say, his dick
was beautiful and his balls were covered in wispy hair and
hung down quite low. He walked over in front of me and told
me to go ahead and touch his dick. I grabbed it in about the
middle and began to stroke it. I loved watching his foreskin
move up and over the head of his dick. On one down stroke I
pulled the skin back tight and noticed some flecks of white
in the opening folds of his foreskin and somewhat peculiar
odor. Although the odor was arousing at the same time and I
found myself getting hard. He explained it was dick cheese
and formed up in the foreskin when he didn't wash his dick
real well. Some guys go apeshit for the stuff and his
brother and a couple of his friends wouldn't wash the dicks
for 2 or 3 days creating a big build-up. Funny part is, it
gets smelly and his father would pick up on it and tell him
to go wash his cock!

He reached down in my lap and began fondling my dick and
balls. It felt strange at first, having another guy playing
with my dick, but my dick got harder than ever before. His
cock was now almost perpendicular to his stomach and his
balls just hanging in their loose sack. He lifted his right
arm and revealed a damp armpit filled with black hair, he
ran a couple of fingers through it and put them under my
nose. Pure teen sweat smell filled my nostrils and it
extremely erotic for me. I stood up and ran my fingers
through one my armpits and put it to his nose. He turned his
head and said no way you little Mari cone. I asked what is
that? He replied it meant faggot. I looked at him and he
replied that I was like his brother, but he wasn't. I was
hurt and sat down almost on the verge of crying. He knelt
down and said he didn't mean it that way, but that I should
accept it and I would be much happier.

He told me he wouldn't tell anyone, but we could have our
fun and he would jack me off when I wanted to cum. I still
hadn't put it all together when he said "I could tell when
you loved the smell of my sweat". Your dick got harder when
you sniffed my fingers after I put them in my armpit. Also,
you just love looking at this cock of mine. Go ahead touch
it, jack it, lick it or even suck it. It doesn't bother me,
and it is up to you. You can swallow my load or spit it out,
it's your call. He sat back on bench seat and spread his
legs showing me a half-hard dick and his balls hanging down
onto the seat cushion.

I got down on my knees between his legs and began jacking
him off. It was fun watching his balls lift up and then plop
back down on the seat with each stroke. I leaned in a bit
and could smell his sweat. I pushed my nose into his pubic
bush and inhaled getting a good smell of him. I noticed the
smell got richer around his balls. I stopped stroking him
and reached down to lift his balls up and took a big sniff.
Oh my God! My nostrils were flooded with his rich, musty
smell. It smelled like it does in a locker room. My dick
became harder than a rock and I couldn't stop myself from
licking on his hairy balls! I pulled back savoring the taste
and smell and just staring at his dick, balls and the area
behind his balls. I moved in and licked the shaft of his
dick, eliciting a moan from him. I licked his balls a couple
more times and then I licked behind them, reeling from the
intoxicating smell wafting up from between legs. I licked
his inner thighs causing him to jump and shudder somewhat
and when he settled back down he asked me to take his dick
into my mouth and suck on it.

I moved up his dick shaft, licking it like an ice cream cone
pulling his foreskin up over the head before engulfing his
dick in my mouth. In my enthusiasm I tried to take too much
and pulled off coughing. He laughed a bit and told me to
take it easy. I attacked that dick again and pulled that
foreskin up over the head, slipping my tongue inside and
massaging his cock head. The taste was incredible, I
couldn't get enough. I kept gagging every so often before I
realized I could use my hang grasp to control how of that
delicious dick went in my mouth. I pulled his foreskin back
tight and could the few bits of bitterness I later learned
is smegma or head cheese. As I sucked hard on the head be
began to tense up and said he was gonna shoot which I didn't
understand until I felt his dick begin swelling and a thick
somewhat salty liquid began filling my mouth. I didn't know
what to do, it didn't taste bad so I just swallowed it. He
began to soften a bit and I pulled off his dick. He looked
down sort of incredulously and mentioned I didn't have to
eat his cum. Cum? So that was what cum tasted like! Not bad
and something I wanted more of.

I rested my head on his thigh and realized that the odor
from his crotch was a bit stronger. I inhaled deeply and
began jacking on my dick. He leaned down over me and told me
he would jack me off. We readjusted our positions with me
now lying on the floor and him kneeling between my legs
jacking on my dick. With his left hand he began fondling my
tits. Twisting and pinching them which was an incredible
sensation. He sensed my dick getting real hard and ready to
cum (I haven't shot a load yet) and reached up under my
balls and drove a finger up my ass. I shuddered and orgasmed
only producing a drop of cum on my cock head. He said I
should be shooting in the next month or so. He lay down on
top of me with our dicks touching and asked me if I had fun?
I only replied with a "what do you think?"

We fell asleep like this, waking up as the sun rose and lit
up the inside of the camper. We got dressed and ate
breakfast before heading up to the house. I mentioned to dad
that we were going swimming in the lake and he told me to go
to the park to swim and stay in the marked swim area and to
be home in time for lunch around 2pm. As we walked down to
the lake Juan asked me why my father wanted us to go to the
park. I told about another swim area we called the cove near
the marina but older kids went there usually so I was only
allowed to go there with my sister and her friends so they
could watch me. Then he asked me if I thought I was a homo.
I told him I hadn't really thought about it but that I liked
looking at guys a lot more than girls. I had girl friends
but they didn't interest me any more than to be friends. I
asked him how he knew he wasn't a homo and he replied he
just wasn't. He liked to see pictures of naked women and
that it makes his dick hard. I said I hadn't really seen any
pictures, but that I liked hanging around the locker room
and looking at my brother's friends naked. My father coached
a couple of baseball and swim teams and I liked hanging
around being towel boy or the like so I could see naked
guys. He wasn't condescending or mean about it, he just said
that I was a homo and I needed to be careful not to get beat
up by staring at guys.

At the lake we went in the locker room/shower area and I
rented a locker to put our clothes in. As we changed some
neighbor brothers came in to change, Tom and Jeff. Jeff was
my brother's age and Tom was my age although a grade behind
me. Jeff and my brother played on the JV basketball team
together and I had seen him naked a couple of times. He was
always nice to me and I the same. I had never seen Tom naked
and was curious. He was more muscular than his brother and
had really hairy legs and arms. I had always found him
attractive with dark brown bushy hair, blue eyes and this
mischievous smile. I had sat down on the bench waiting for
Juan to come back from taking a piss when Tom dropped his
briefs and I noticed he had a nice dick, about the same size
as mine soft and surrounded by some dark pubes. He turned
around to grab his swim suit and bent over showing me his
perfect butt. It was what I later was to learn was a bubble-
butt. It looked perfect! Dimpled on each cheek, smooth
without a blemish and glistening white from his tanned back
and legs it looked delicious.

Juan returned and Jeff asked who he was. I introduced Juan
and explained the program as best I knew. Jeff and Juan got
along famously, but Tom seemed a bit taken a back. He
stepped over by me and whispered in my ear about him being
Puerto Rican. We lived in a relatively white area and
prejudices were bound to arise. I said to give him a chance
and that seemed to end the conversation. Later I mentioned
it to Juan who took it with relatively no problem.

Well after a couple of hours in the water Tom had come
around and we were all having a great time. Around 1:30 I
mentioned we had to get going but that we were sleeping out
in the camper, maybe they could come over later and we could
play some cards and talk. Jeff wasn't sure as he was
planning to go out with some friends, but Tom expressed
interest. I said fine.

Juan was curious why I had asked them over. He said he still
wasn't sure about Tom's feelings towards him and he didn't
want any trouble. I told him not to worry and we headed
home. Dad was grilling hot dogs and hamburgers and my
cousins had stopped by. By 9pm we were headed to the camper
while everyone went inside to watch a movie. About 9:30
there was a knock on the door and when Juan opened it there
was Tom and another of his brothers Kyle. Kyle was in
between Tom and Jeff, dirty blond, blue eyes with sort of a
hayseed look to him. He was a big guy being about 6' and
maybe 180lbs of muscle even at 13 or so. He was probably the
nicest of the family and actually loved to come over and
help me with horse and barn chores on Saturdays. He was a
great buddy and I got along with him better than Tom who I
just didn't connect with.

Well we began playing cards and on about the third hand Tom
suggested something more exciting. Juan was quiet, but I was
hoping maybe he meant strip poker. Instead he stepped
outside and brought in a small gym bag. Kyle got a big smile
on him and said we were in for a real treat. Tom swore us to
secrecy and that we could tell no one about this and we all
agreed. What he pulled out confirmed all my feelings and
then some! He had a stack of Nudist magazines, maybe a dozen
or more. We all grabbed one and began leafing through them.
There were varying levels of oohs and aahs, guys rubbing and
pulling at their crotches and an unmistakable smell
beginning to permeate the air. The girls in the pictures did
nothing for me, but the boys and men were instant turn-ons,
especially the hairier guys and the ones with big dicks.
Glancing around from time to time I noticed Juan and Tom
were always looking at just the pages with girls and women
on them, quickly skipping pages with boys or men. Kyle on
the other hand took time checking out everyone, male or
female.

I finally had to ask, "Where did you get these they're
great?" He said he had a cousin who bought them and he would
grab a bunch from time to time. He also had some where the
people were having sex in them. Eyes widened and I asked
where they were? He reached in the bag and pulled out about
5 or 6 more magazines. My eyes almost popped out of my head
when I saw one of these. About the 3rd or 4th magazine I
spied an especially intriguing cover with several photos on
the cover. One was a naked man getting his dick sucked by
women while another man looked to be sticking his dick into
his ass! I grabbed this one and began leafing through it.
There were all kinds of combinations, MMF, FFM, FFF, etc.
and all the pictures were in color. I saw dicks being sucked
by both girls and boys, girls being fucked-boys being
fucked, balls were being licked and sucked and near the
middle was a picture that made me stop and stare. A woman
was lying on her back on the floor while a man was on all 4s
licking her pussy and another man behind the 1st man licking
his asshole.

Kyle leaned over and saw the picture then gave me a wink.
What did that mean? I wondered. Well a discussion started up
and of course it was about sex and what everyone had done up
to then. Kyle had only jacked off and said he was always
horny. He got hard-ons all the time and was embarrassed by
it. Juan talked about jacking-off alone and with other guys
as well as feeling up a couple of girls. He even told us one
of the girls jacked his dick. He didn't mention the blow
jobs his brother's friends had given him. I talked about
jacking off but nothing more. Tom said he jacked-off a few
times but found a girlfriend who would do it for him. She
had even sucked on his dick a few times. He said he loved a
blowjob. She wanted him to lick her pussy but he hasn't done
that yet, he just helps her diddle herself. By this time it
was apparent we were all horny as hell when Juan suggested
we have a circle jerk. Shorts were off in seconds and dicks
were being jacked when I felt someone's hand on my dick. I
looked down and found Tom stroking my dick.

The air was heavy with the smell of sweaty teen boys and the
sound of dicks being worked over. I reached for Tom's dick
and noticed his cock head was wet. He was leaking liquid
from his dick and he said he always did that. When Kyle
reached for Juan's dick he noticed the foreskin right away
and said it looked like some of the dicks in the magazines.
There were quite a few uncut dicks in the photos. He leaned
down to get a closer look and Tom joked he better be careful
or it might spit in his face! We all laughed at this. After
a couple of minutes Tom said he was cumming and I began
jacking him faster. He began shooting and shoot so hard it
hit him in his face. I reached an orgasm right after but
still didn't shoot only a dribble. Juan shot a load all over
his chest and stomach right before Kyle shot a load that
went everywhere. He must have pumped out at least 8 times,
leaving a trail up his stomach and chest and onto his face
and onto the wall behind him. All of us couldn't believe how
much he shot!

After getting cleaned up the brothers headed for home while
Juan and I settled down to watch a movie before falling
asleep. Tom left the magazines and promised to bring more in
a couple of days. They were going to his cousins farm
tomorrow and he would snag some more. After they left Juan
started flipping through the magazines and jacking off
again. He kept talking about wanting to fuck a girl and how
much fun it would be. All the talk about pussy and tits was
boring me and I fell asleep with him still in a fantasy of
fucking some girl he knew back home.

In the morning we stashed the magazines in a good hiding
place, ate some breakfast and tidied up the camper. Mom was
going shopping and we were welcome to come along. We could
stop at McDonald's for lunch and grab an ice cream before
coming home. Juan and I said fine but my brother and Peter
stayed home as they had arranged a pick-up baseball game
with some of the neighbor kids.

More to come.....

I was now realizing I was a homosexual