Date: Sun, 10 Aug 2003 13:25:10 -0400
From: John Ellison <paradegi@rogers.com>
Subject: The Boys Of Aurora - Chapter 27

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The Boys of Aurora - Chapter 27


Logan Hartsfield stood by the side of the road and stared balefully at the
decrepit pile of metal that until five minutes before had been his car. A
huge cloud of exhaust fumes still polluted the air and the vehicle's motor
ticked ominously as it cooled. "Motherfucking, useless hunk of shit!" he
snarled as he fetched the front tire a kick, which sent a bolt of pain to
shooting through Logan's big toe and foot and to evoking another barrage of
scatological epithets which all but turned the dissipating smoke blue.

"Kicking it doesn't help," came a voice from behind Logan, who turned and
saw a slim, well-built, auburn haired youth standing on the grass of the
Esplanade. "Swearing doesn't either," continued the youth.

Logan looked at the boy. He knew him. He might be dressed in sharply
pressed chinos and a crisp sports shirt, but he was a cadet. "You're from
over there," Logan said, pointing with his chin toward the distant
buildings of AURORA across the bay. "You're a cadet."

Brian laughed and nodded. "Guilty as charged." He slipped a pair of
sunglasses on. "Just don't tell the waiter. He thinks that I'm old enough
to drink beer."

Grinning, Logan agreed with Brian. The boy did look at least four years
older than his real age, an image that Brian had taken great care to
project. He had deliberately avoided the "uniform" appearance of the other
cadets, dressing "older", in conservative slacks and open necked,
short-sleeved shirt. He looked like a young, very preppy, college
student. Logan would have loved a beer, but his plans did not include
wasting an afternoon of travelling time by parking his butt on the
Esplanade drinking suds. "I have to get this thing working," he said
mournfully. "I have to get it going."

Brian cocked his head and then spoke. "Let me have a look." He walked
around to the front of the old Dodge. "Pop the hood and I'll have a look."

"You know about cars?"

"When you live in North Bay, and your old man works for the Ontario
Northland Railway, you know a little about everything," replied Brian. "My
dad's paycheque only goes so far, what with seven kids and a mortgage," he
continued, responding to the puzzled look on Logan's face. "When the toilet
backs up, you learn very quickly how to unstop it. When the car breaks
down, there's usually not enough cash to take it to the local Shell station
for repairs." He shrugged. "You learn to fix the unfixable." Brian gestured
toward the car. "Go ahead, pop the hood."

Logan slid behind the wheel of his car and reached down for the handle that
would open the engine compartment. When he got out of the car the cadet was
bent over, fiddling with wires and poking at the spark plugs.

Brian poked and probed, scrutinized and speculated like a neighbourhood
mechanic. "Got a rag?" he asked as he straightened. His hands were covered
in grease. Logan handed him a rag and Brian nodded his thanks. "Well, Logan
Hartsfield, you're fucked if you plan on driving this thing."

Logan's jaw dropped. "You know my name?"

Brian grinned. "I should. I'm the guy you called a faggot and . . ."

"Knocked me flat on my ass!" finished Logan, shaking his head. "You also
saved my . . ."

"Rang you for four, I think," finished Brian with a laugh. He tossed the
rag aside. "That's a Navy expression. When you belt somebody the saying
goes that you rang him for four or six or eight. The higher the number the
worse the beating." He held out his hand. "My name is Brian Venables. I
hope I didn't do too much damage."

Logan shook Brian's hand. "Only to my pride, I think." He released Brian's
hand and rubbed his jaw. "I still have all my teeth."

"Well, unless you have a shit locker full of money, that's all you'll
have." Brian gestured toward one of the tables. "Come and sit down."

A look of panic came over Logan's face. "The car's dead, then?"

Brian nodded knowingly. "As dead as Kelsey's nuts. The carburettor is shot,
and she needs at least a ring job." He looked at the broken heap of car and
shook his head sadly. "From the colour of the smoke I'd say she also blew a
head gasket and if I'm right - which I'm sure I am - even the Last Rites
wouldn't help." He nodded toward his table. "Come on, at least have a
beer."

Logan followed Brian to the table and sat down, a dour, black look on his
face.  "The car's fucked," he muttered, more a statement of fact that a
question.

As he poured a glass of beer and handed it to Logan, Brian nodded
slowly. "You ain't going as far as Courtenay in that car, my friend."

Downing the beer in one gulp Logan swore under his breath. Then he looked
at Brian. "I . . . have to get out of here. I can't spend another day
here." He slammed down the empty glass. "I can't!"

"Whoa, take it easy," exclaimed Brian, alarmed at Logan's outburst. "You
can take the bus, or the train, if you have to." He gave Logan a hard
look. "Are you in trouble?"

Logan thought carefully about his answer. He was not in trouble - yet. He
would be in trouble when his father found out that the contents of the tin
box he kept hidden under the sofa in the trailer's living room was
empty. The money the box contained, all $58.34 was now in his wallet and
pocket, along with his last pay from the Laundry, plus a little extra that
Miss Doris had given him because she felt sorry for her sister having fired
him. The money due him for the work he had done at AURORA he could kiss
goodbye. He had refused to go back to the Cadet Training Establishment and
his boss had fired him.

"No, I'm not in trouble," replied Logan. "I just want to get out of
town. There's nothing here for me."

Brian reached over to the next table and snagged an almost clean
glass. After pouring himself a beer he regarded Logan. "I know the
feeling." He took a sip of beer. "Still, unless you're careful, the grass
is not necessarily greener."

"I'm leaving," insisted Logan stubbornly. He looked at the warm-eyed boy
sitting in front of him. "I have enough money to carry me until I can find
work. I cantake care of myself."

Brian nodded. "I thought much the same thing until I found myself staring
back at a judge."

"Pardon?"

Brian looked at Logan, seeing his too tight blue jeans, worn deliberately
that way to show off his large basket; his white T-shirt with the sleeves
rolled up, his black hair slicked back with the curls artfully arranged;
the shit kicker boots. Brian sniggered inwardly. Logan was trying very hard
to be a James Dean look-alike.

Logan projected a look that Brian knew all too well because Brian had been
that look only two years before. Logan was what he had once been - a street
punk. Clearing his throat Brian said kindly, "Look, I've been there,
Logan. I thought I was one tough-ass dude. I walked the walk and wore the
strides. I was a big man with big balls. I could take care of myself." He
snorted. "I was lucky. I got caught trying to boost a car. The judge gave
me a choice. I could get a haircut, deep six the blue jeans and the
attitude and join the Cadets, or I could spend time in Juvie Hall." He
slowly poured the last of the beer in the jug into Logan's glass. He
signalled the waiter for another jug and then looked into Logan's hazel
eyes. "I've been there, Logan. Here you're a big stud. Down in Victoria,
well, folks will look at you and they're going to see you for what you are,
a street kid from the boonies."

"So?" Logan's eyes flashed. "I'm a street kid here, a punk. Nobody gives a
shit if I live or die. At least down in Victoria, or across in Vancouver,
there's a chance to make a buck. Here, there's nothing but logging or
fishing. At least down south I'd have a chance."

"To do what?" growled Brian. "Become a Rent Boy?" He laughed harshly. "You
have the looks, anyway."

"What the hell are you talking about? What's a Rent Boy?"

"He's a street punk with attitude who found out too late that a hot temper
and a smart mouth only gets you trouble!" snapped Brian. "He's a guy who
hangs around the gates to the nickel mines on pay day and gives those who
want 'em blow jobs at five bucks a pop 'cause that's the only way he can
make the money to pay his room rent!"

Logan, who had cruised by Harkness Bay before heading into town, could
hardly comment. "Were you a . . . Rent Boy?" he asked tentatively.

Brian shook his head. "No. I could have been. I was going down that road at
a rate of knots. I had a quick mouth and quicker fists. School was a
drag. Hanging out on street corners with my so-called buddies, smoking
cigarettes, playing the big, tough hood was all I was good for." He smiled
and shrugged. "I suppose I got lucky. The judge gave me a choice and I took
it. I cleaned up my act. It was either that or develop a taste for cock
cheese."

Logan winced inwardly. Brian's crack about cock cheese brought the memory
of the blond-haired kid examining him for cleanliness flooding back. "I
ain't queer," he blurted angrily."

"I never said you were. Why would I?" Brian once again regarded Logan
carefully. He felt a stirring deep within his body and as he looked into
Logan's eyes something passed between them. Brian felt a tightness in his
loins and a twinge of desire rippled through his body. He suppressed his
feelings, however. "Sometimes," he began quietly, "you have to do things
just to live."

Logan's upper lip curled into a sneer. "What's it to you? Why should you
care about me? Why should you be any different from the people in this
dump? To them I'm just trailer trash, somebody to be used and then thrown
away." He leaned forward. "After you've tossed them a twenty to keep their
mouth shut." He reached out and snatched the jug of beer. "Oh, I see you
. . . cadets," he snapped viciously. "I see you so-called clean cut young
Canadians with your tight ass uniforms and your haircuts and your fucking
superior attitude." He drank down his beer. "I know your kind all too
well."

Brian, although surprised at Logan's outburst, kept calm. He sat back in
his chair and looked at the angry civilian. Once again he experience a
feeling of . . . desire? That could not be. He did not know this pitiful
young man at all. What little he did know, he did not care for at
all. Still, something was wrong with Logan. He had the air of an angry dog
snapping at its chain after being beaten. Brian had seen this kind of rage
before. Logan had been beaten, figuratively if not literally and he was
lashing out at . . . Brian's head snapped up. Logan was lashing out at him
because he was a cadet! A cadet had done something to Logan and Brian's
pride in AURORA demanded to know what had happened.

"Logan, understand me," Brian said quietly. "I am not like anybody
else. You asked me why I should care. I care because I hurt you. I struck
you in anger and in my world and the world I hope to enter anger has no
place."

"And what world is that? Never-never Land across the bay?" Logan gestured
angrily at the buildings of AURORA.

Brian ignored Logan's outburst. Logan was a civilian, and would never
understand what it meant to be a Sea Cadet or, more importantly, an AURORA
cadet. Brian's eyes were soft as he said, "In a way, yes. A long time ago I
lived in your world. Then I joined the Cadets and I came to a new
world. You might never understand me, Logan, but I will tell you that in
that world I learned something. I learned love, and compassion and
caring. I learned to accept responsibility for my actions. But I lost my
temper and, in anger, I hit you. That should not have happened. In my world
a Petty Officer does not lose his temper, ever."

"When are you being fitted for your halo?" asked Logan, disdain all but
dripping from his lips.

Brian brushed aside Logan's remark. "I am no angel. I never was and I never
will be. I am a Petty Officer in the Sea Cadets. I am also a normal,
compassionate human being. I could have walked away from you; left you to
figure how, as you put it, to get out of town. The old Brian would have
thought that you could go and fuck yourself."

"And the new Brian, the 'Petty Officer' Brian?" Logan was not about to give
an inch. That blond kid had done more than take his cock. He'd taken his
self-esteem. He had treated him like a piece of dirt. That blond kid had
used him and thrown him away. A cadet had used him. Logan glared fiercely
at Brian. "What does the Petty Officer do, then? Does he force a guy to
fuck his ass and then . . ." Suddenly his face turned ashen, his stomach
churned and he leaned over and vomited onto the grass.

Brian jumped up and went to help the heaving, and now weeping boy. He
looked up and saw the waiter approaching, a disgusted look on his
face. Brian quickly pulled out his wallet and waved a ten-dollar bill at
the man. "It's okay, I'll take care of him."

"I should of known better than to let him in here," complained the waiter
loudly. "He's nothing but trouble, that one." He sniffed with that special
arrogance all waiters seemed to possess. "If you're smart, kid, you'll let
him puke his guts out and walk the other way."

Brian gave the waiter a withering look as he grasped Logan's arm and
back. "So you can call the cops?" he asked the waiter scathingly as he
helped Logan to his feet. "I'll take care of him, all right?"

The waiter palmed the bill that Brian thrust at him, shrugged, and walked
away.

******

Brian helped Logan to the metal railing separating the grass of the
Esplanade from the green-blue waters of the harbour. As Logan bent over the
rail, retching and choking, Brian kept his hand firmly on the boy's heaving
back. He could not truly understand why he was helping this poor, sick
boy. He only knew that he had to be there.

Eventually Logan's heaves subsided and he stood upright. He wrapped his
hands around the top rail of the barrier, grasping it so tightly that his
knuckles were white. He stared malevolently at AURORA, the buildings
shimmering in the afternoon sun.

"You finished?" asked Brian solicitously. When Logan nodded dumbly Brian
snatched a napkin from the serving cart parked nearby and doused it in
water. The waiter, who was watching, glared at him. Brian glared back and
threw a five-dollar note onto the pile of neatly folded napkins. He handed
the wet napkin to Logan, who smiled wanly and wiped his mouth and face.

"You must think I'm a real pussy," Logan said presently. "Puking and crying
like that, like some fucking girl on the rag."

Brian leaned against the railing and shook his head. "I think that you've
been hurt, badly, by one of my own. I also think that you've been knocked
about pretty badly. I've been on the receiving end of one of your punches
so I most certainly don't think that you're a pussy."

"Thanks for that," replied Logan with a wry grin. He looked behind him. The
waiter was giving both of the boys a dirty look. Logan returned the
look. If the jerk wanted to make anything of what was happening Logan was
prepared to remind him of a certain afternoon's delight at Harkness
Bay. The waiter suddenly remembered that he had work to do in the kitchen
and disappeared smartly.

"Do you know him?" asked Brian as the waiter disappeared into the kitchen.

Logan gagged and held the napkin to his mouth. He nodded, his eyes full of
disgust. "I've met him." He shook his head. "I don't understand you,
Brian. I picked a fight with you, I called you a faggot, I was downright
nasty to you and still you stick around." He jerked his thumbed over his
shoulder. "You should be like that waiter. He knows a bad seed when he sees
one."

Brian gave Logan a sad look. "You're a bad seed only because people have
been telling you that all your life. I don't know what's bugging your ass,
and frankly it's none of my business." He turned Logan around and began to
lead him back toward the car. "However, a friend of mine at AURORA taught
me that beating yourself over the head over what people think about you
only gets you a headache. He also taught me that judging people by what
others say about them is also wrong. I learned from him, Logan, to judge a
person by his actions, by the way he conducts himself, and how he treats
others. And to never make a judgement until I have all the facts."

By this time they were back at the spavined heap of metal that Logan called
his transport. Logan reached into the back seat of the open convertible and
pulled out an ancient and very full kit bag. He looked over his shoulder as
he did so. "Then you'd better take off running, Brian." He was about to
hoist his kit bag to his shoulder when Brian took it from him.

"Let me guess," said Brian as he hefted the bag. "You're about 18, maybe a
little older. You come from the poor section of town and you've never, as
far as you're concerned, been given a break. You hated school so you
skipped as much as you could and probably only got graduated by the school
authorities to get you out of their hair. You've tooled around town,
drinking, smoking, raising hell wherever and whenever you could. You've
cadged money from whoever was crazy enough to give it to you because you
had no intention of paying them back. Since leaving school you've worked
only when you had to, and only in the lowest paying jobs." He grinned. "How
am I doing so far?"

"Pretty much hitting the nail on the head," replied Logan glumly.

"Good," replied Brian, "Because I only touched your good points." He
pointed toward a long, low building. "There's the bus terminal."

Inside the terminal Logan enquired as to the next bus to Victoria. He found
that he had a one-hour wait. He bought a ticket - one way - and sat on one
of the long wooden benches that filled the waiting room. Brian sat beside
him. They sat, each waiting for the other to speak, watching the passing
scene. Finally, Logan broke the silence. "I smoked dope, and sold it. I
stole money from my father. I tried to steal from the coin change machine
at work, and got caught and got fired. That's why I was working over there,
picking up the garbage."

"And?" asked Brian, a slight note of pity in his voice. He would not press
Logan into telling all of the truth, but he would listen, and not make a
judgement until he had heard all of the truth.

Logan saw Brian staring at him. The guy knew He knew! Logan felt like
weeping, but kept his emotions in check. "When I had to be, I was a 'Rent
Boy'," he said bluntly. "When I needed a lot of cash, I went to a place
called Harkness Bay. I got paid to let guys suck my dick. The last time I
was there a guy offered me a C-note to fuck him." He laughed ruefully. "I
should have taken it. At least then I wouldn't have ended up at fucking
AURORA covered in some guy's cum and my dick up his ass!"

Brian was shaken to the depths of his soul. He believed Logan when he said
that he'd been selling his body at Harkness Bay. It happened and Logan
seemed the type that when he was desperate, would sell what he had to
whoever would take it. But AURORA? Did Logan expect him to believe that
someone from AURORA would . . .?

What to do? What would Phantom do? With all his willpower Brian tried to
show no emotion, no reaction to what Logan had told him. His mind
raced. Phantom would remain calm. He would gather as much information as he
could, and then he would act. Brian cleared his throat. "You fucked
. . . an instructor?" he asked, probing carefully. He could not believe
that Logan would have been with a cadet. Most of them were too young and
the others did not have the money, or the privacy demanded in such cases.

"No, not one of those old dudes," replied Logan, blushing. "It was one of
you, a cadet." He squirmed in embarrassment. "I was . . . in one of the
barracks . . . trying to . . ." He squared his shoulders. "He was in the
showers when I went into the barracks. I didn't see him or hear him. I was
. . ."

"Rifling the lockers, looking for something to steal," supplied Brian
coldly. "And he caught you."

Logan nodded slowly, shame clouding his handsome features. "I turned around
and he was there. He had a towel around his waist and he was giving me a
dirty look. He was a mean little fuck, Brian. He threatened to turn me in."
Logan sobbed loudly and shuddered. "I couldn't have that, man! I've been in
the Comox Jail! I can't, I won't, go to that place again! You don't know
what they do to guys in there!"

Actually, Brian did. He had been an unwilling and, at first, mouthy guest
of the North Bay Police Department himself. He patted Logan's back. "I've
been there, Logan." He rubbed Logan's back, enjoying the warmth and feel of
the boy's soft skin under the cotton of his T-shirt.

"You've never been in some barracks with some kid feeling you up, making
you feel like a piece of meat, ordering you to fuck him!" The anger rose in
Logan's face. "What burns me is that I liked it! Not the humiliation but
the . . . fucking him! There I was, with this kid sitting on my cock,
bouncing up and down, moaning and carrying on, and I fucking liked it!"

"Logan, if I had a choice of fucking somebody, or spending time in the
cooler, where I know I'd end up getting fucked up the ass, well, I probably
would have done the same thing," said Brian sympathetically.

"You would have?" asked Logan, surprised. He could not conceive of this
clean cut, neat, well-set-up young man doing any such thing.

Brian nodded. "I told you, Logan, I've been there. You're deathly afraid of
going to jail. I was deathly afraid of ending up in Juvenile Hall. I'd
heard stories, from some of the other kids, about what happened to them in
there. Stories of beatings, extortions, rape. I was thirteen and I was
scared shitless at the very thought of Juvenile Hall."

"Well, I was never threatened with rape in jail. I was beaten, badly,"
replied Logan. "There's a cop, his name is Jensen. He hates me." He gave
Brian a cool glance. "But, and this is the God's truth, I never saw in his
eyes what I saw in that kid's."

"What was that?" asked Brian, alarmed at the vehemence, the fear, in
Logan's voice.

"Evil," replied Logan as he recalled the cold, hard eyes that had drilled
into him. "That kid didn't hate me. He wanted me because he needed me to
fuck him. He didn't care what it did to me. He didn't care that there was a
whole bunch of people marching around, beating drums and firing off fucking
cannons! He didn't care that maybe somebody would walk in and catch us. All
he cared about was getting my dick up his ass." He shook his head. "When I
went to Harkness Bay, what I did there, I did it because I wanted to do it!
Okay, I needed the money, but I never forced anybody to suck me off! I
never forced anybody to do anything!"

Brian was trying to digest all the information that Logan was
confessing. He now knew that Logan's tormentor had been a cadet, that he
had been raped or extorted or coerced in one of the barracks and that it
had been during a parade, which was the only time they fired off the guns
and marched around . . . Or was it during a practice for a parade?

And then it came to Brian. Logan had not been at AURORA this morning. The
only other time they had fired the cannon or marched around was
. . . Monday! Logan had been in one of the barracks on Monday! But who
would be in the barracks during a parade practice? Who could it . . . His
eyes widened behind his dark glasses. No, it couldn't be him! He would
never . . . He began probing carefully. "Evil, guys like this 'kid', exists
everywhere, Logan. I don't think you're evil, or bad, for selling your
body. That sort of thing happens. I don't blame you for what you did, so
please, don't blame the Cadets for one kid, as you call him, making you
fuck him. He took advantage of the situation, a thief was in his barracks
rummaging through 40 lockers and . . ."

"Forty? There were ten at most," interrupted Logan. "And one of them looked
like it belonged to Gypsy Rose Lee!" He chuckled, not knowing that he was
about to impart a vital piece of information. "Unless all you guys wear
spangled jock straps!"

Brian nodded inwardly. There was only one cadet who wore spangled anything,
and that was Mike. And he had been on parade. Logan had been rummaging
through Mike's things, which meant that he'd been in the Petty Officers
half of the Staff Barracks and there was only one person living in the
Staff Barracks who could remotely be described as a kid and who had
definitely not been on parade during the practice! It all fit. The Petty
Officers Mess, a short, blond-haired cadet. It all fit!

Brian was rudely awakened from his musings by an almost unintelligible
blaring from the PA system. For some reason he, and almost everybody else
in the long waiting room looked at the speaker overhead. "They're calling
the bus for Victoria, Logan."

Logan nodded. "Yeah, it's time." He stood up and lifted his kit
bag. "Thanks for listening to me. I know you didn't have to."

Brian grinned. "It's what I do. It's what I'm supposed to do. Listen, and
maybe help." He began walking with Logan toward the loading platform. "Have
you given any thought as to what you're going to do?"

"Not a clue," replied Logan shaking his head. "Other than get out of
Comox."

"Be careful, Logan. It's a mean world out there."

"And few Brians in it," said Logan with a soft smile. He seemed to think a
moment. "You said something about entering another world. You aren't
planning on . . .?"

Brian caught Logan's meaning. "No. I don't plan on running away, or
becoming a Rent Boy. I plan, I hope, to join the army in two years." He
waited while the bus driver tossed Logan's kit bag into the luggage
compartment of the bus. "I'll be 18, and out of high school. I plan on
joining up. With luck I'll get into the Royal Canadian Regiment and from
there I can go Airborne."

"Why Airborne?"

"They're tough, they fight rough. I think I'd be a good paratrooper." He
shrugged expressively. "At least I'm going to try."

Logan laughed quietly. "My old man has been leaving recruiting pamphlets
and brochures all over the house for weeks. Maybe I should take the hint
and join up." He thrust his hands in the pocket of his jeans and pulled out
the keys to his car and what looked to Brian to be a crumpled wad of
paper. He walked the few short steps to where a garbage can was
sitting. "Moving on," he muttered, dropping the keys and the wadded paper
into the can. "Next stop Victoria."

Logan walked briskly back to the bus and was about to board when he wheeled
and held out his hand. "I'm glad I met you, Brian. I'm sorry about the name
calling." He shook Brian's hand, enjoying the warmth and strength of
it. "I'm sorry for a lot of things."

"Mind how you go, Logan," replied Brian warmly.

"I will." He smiled and his eyes brightened. "Maybe, one day, we'll meet
again."

******

Brian watched as Logan boarded the bus and found a seat. Almost immediately
the bus door closed and the huge transport vehicle pulled away. Brian waved
as Logan passed and for a long time he watched as the bus wove in and out
of the traffic as it began its journey toward Victoria. Then he walked over
to the garbage can and found the ring of keys and the small wad of paper
that Logan had discarded. He unfolded the twenty-dollar note, and then
looked toward the bus, now only a small, bright speck of colour in the
distance. Logan had cast away a lot of baggage, and Brian hoped that he
would find whatever it was that he was looking for. He also hoped that one
day they would meet again.

Brian carefully folded the note and put it in his wallet, for some reason
knowing that one day he would know the full story of the note, and why
Logan had tossed it away.

******

The galley was eerily quiet when The Phantom returned. Joey and Randy were
still away with Simon. Ray had gone into town with Kevin, and Sandro was
busy in Dry Stores. Chef, after having strong words with The Gunner, was
sequestered in his office, enjoying a monumental sulk.

After setting the tables for dinner, not that he expected too many cadets
or instructors to be eating, The Phantom decided to take out the gash. He
had just begun to toss the accumulated day's trash into the dumpster when
Nathan steered the black behemoth alongside and parked beside the rusty
garbage bin.

Nathan, smiling broadly, exited the driver's side of the car. Not so Caspar
Collins who seemed glassy-eyed and dazed as he all but staggered out of the
car. He was also dishevelled, a marked contrast to his normal, pin-neat,
every-hair-in-place self. He stood on the opposite side of the car from
Nathan and gazed, a silly-ass grin on his face, at the American
boy. "Thanks for everything, Nathan," he said with a sly grin.

The Phantom, who had a good idea just what "everything" entailed, pretended
not to hear.

"You sure you can't get out of the Duty Watch tonight?" asked Nathan as he
walked around to the rear of the car. He opened the trunk and began to lift
out plastic-wrapped white uniforms.

Caspar shook his head and sighed. "I wish I could, Nathan, but the Squadron
Chief would bust my ass back to Ordinary Cadet if I skived off."

Unkindly The Phantom thought that getting his ass busted was the least of
Caspar's worries. From the look of him he'd already undergone that
experience. Continuing to dump the gash The Phantom did not hear Nathan's
reply to Caspar nor did he hear Sandro as he came down the steps of the
Mess Hall. Sandro seemed unaffected by Nathan's latest conquest and helped
The Phantom toss the last of the bags into the dumpster.

"Hey, Phantom," shouted Nathan, seeming to notice the boy for the first
time. "I've got your clean uniform here." As he held out The Phantom's
Number 11 uniform Nathan saw Sandro standing beside The Phantom, and
grinned. "Hi, Sandro."

"Uh, I'll see you later, Nathan," said Caspar as he moved off. "Don't
forget, I get off around 2330."

"I won't," said Nathan, speaking to Caspar but not taking his eyes off of
Sandro.

Much to The Phantom's disgust Sandro all but licked his chops at the sight
of Nathan. He grinned and squirmed so much that The Phantom wanted to belt
him one in the nuts. When Nathan suggested that Sandro might want to help
him deliver the uniforms the Russian boy looked pleadingly at The Phantom.

"Jesus Christ!" thought The Phantom. "I knew Nathan was a cock hound but
this is ridiculous."

"Please, cover for me a little while," asked Sandro, a wheedling tone in
his voice. "It is an hour before supper and everything is ready." He rested
his hand on The Phantom's shoulder. "Please, Phantom, I know what I am
doing."

"He's using you, Sandro," replied The Phantom in a harsh whisper. "He just
got through fucking Caspar!"

Sandro dropped his hand and shrugged. "Tonight he will go back to Caspar,
or find someone else. He uses people. I am using him."

The Phantom gave Sandro a pitying look. The Russian boy wanted what Nathan
had to offer, and The Phantom knew it. "I'll cover for you," he replied
flatly, his disapproval patently obvious. "Randy and Joey should be back
soon and Chef is in his office. Just be careful!"

Sandro grinned his thanks and hurried to the car. He climbed in and Nathan
wasted no time in all but burning rubber. The Phantom watched as the car
barrelled along, stopping outside the Staff Barracks.

"Cory is well rid of that jerk!" came a voice.

The Phantom turned and saw Sean Anders standing in the roadway, glaring
after the car. Sean was much changed, no longer the dapper, trim Chief
Petty Officer who had gone ashore only a few hours ago. His crisply
starched shirt had wilted. His sharply creased trousers were wrinkled and
his glossy, shined shoes were covered with a patina of dust. His hair was
sweat-darkened and there were two wide, salt-whitened crescents under the
arms of his light blue shirt.

"Jesus, you look a sight!" exclaimed The Phantom.

"I just walked from town," explained Sean. He nodded toward the distant
Staff Barracks. "Nathan and his latest conquest?" he asked without a trace
of humour.  The Phantom chuckled. "I somehow think it's the other way
around," he said cryptically. He looked Sean up and down. "Come on
inside. I'll buy you a beer to help cut the dust."

"I don't drink," replied Sean as he followed The Phantom into the galley.

"I do," said The Phantom. He gestured for Sean to sit at the table Chef
used for his desk and went to the fridge and opened it. Then he remembered
Chef. "Chef, I'm stealing a beer!" he yelled.

"Steal two!" came Chef's muffled voice from behind the close door. "Give
one to the redhead!"

"He doesn't miss much, does he?" asked Sean as The Phantom put a cold beer
in front of him.

"He puts on an act," supplied The Phantom, sitting down. "Believe me, I
know from personal experience that nothing gets by him." The Phantom walked
to the sink, rinsed a towel in warm water and returned to hand it to
Sean. "Here, you can at least get some of the surface grime off."

Sean nodded his thanks and washed his face. "Thanks, I feel better."

The Phantom reached across the table and with his finger moved Sean's head,
first left, then right. "You seem to have gotten a little sun, my friend."

Sean took a sip of his beer, grimaced, and then took at bigger sip. "At
least this stuff gets the grit out of my throat." He coughed. "I told you,
I walked back from Comox, five long miles. It's a wonder I didn't come down
with heat prostration!"

"I take it your lunch with Cory did not go well?" asked The Phantom
delicately. It was obvious that something had happened, else why would Sean
be back, walking, and without Cory?

Sean sighed and sat back in his chair. "Lunch was all right. Unfortunately
Nicholas and Andre chose that moment to unveil their 'surprise'
albums. They gave one to Cory."

The Phantom looked puzzled and then spoke. "The pictures from the sailing
trip." He grinned. The last he had heard the pictures were on hold pending
settling the problem of Little Big Man. "So, Nicholas finally did it!"

"Yes," said Sean with a slow nod. "He did a wonderful job. The pictures I
saw were . . . magnificent. Too magnificent and Cory made a point of my
seeing them!" He cocked an eyebrow and smiled knowingly. "I must say that
you are, um, very photogenic."

"I am?" The Phantom's eyes widened. "Jesus, Sean, we were all naked most of
the time. I know I went along with the idea to get some of the pictures
blown up and, well, I went along with Todd's idea. Nicholas was only
supposed to print . . ."

Sean nodded, a huge smile creasing his face. He thought it delightful that
Philip was so discomfited about having a picture of him, nude, in an
album. Why, the guy was actually blushing! "Nicholas printed," he said,
trying to contain his laughter. "And, if you will permit me the
observation, Philip, you do take one hell of a picture." He leaned forward
and whispered, "But then, you have a lot to work with."

Shocked, The Phantom took a long drink of beer. "Jesus! I hope my mother
never sees those pictures!"

Laughing, Sean reached out and patted The Phantom's arm. "She
won't. Unless, of course, you show her your album."

"My album?"

"Yes. Nicholas, as I understand it, has made up an album for each of the
participants in the sailing cruise. I believe he made it a point to
'personalize' each album."

"And you saw Cory's album?"

"Yes."

"Cory showed you his album, deliberately, and then he got all bent out of
shape because you . . . admired some of the guys?"

Sean's hand tightened into a fist and his face darkened. "On the
contrary. There was a photograph of Cory. It was, how shall I say this,
totally sensuous, totally innocent, and thoroughly arousing, at least so
far as I was concerned." He ran his fingers through his damp hair, and then
looked at The Phantom with pleading eyes. "Philip, has Cory said anything
to you about me? Please, I'm not asking you to betray a confidence. I
simply want to know how much you know."

The Phantom blew out his cheeks and looked directly at Sean. "Cory and I
are close, Sean. He talks to me. I talk to him. We all need someone to talk
to."

"You did not answer my question," replied Sean sharply. "I am not a child
to be handled with kid gloves. If Cory told you my secret, I would deem it
a personal favour if you would say so."

The Phantom nodded firmly. "He told me that you are gay and that you are in
love with him. He also told me that for what you consider to be good
reasons you refuse to come out of your closet." He rested his hand on
Sean's. "I make no judgement, Sean. I understand your feelings for Cory."
He gave Sean's hand a slight squeeze. "I also want you to understand that I
think that Cory is a fool if he lets you get away."

"I beg your pardon?" Sean's face took on a look of total confusion. "You
actually approve . . ."

The Phantom held up his hand. "My approval, or disapproval is
irrelevant. What is important is that you have done something millions of
young guys do every day: you fell in love. A perfectly normal state of
affairs from my point of view."

A look of utter surprise came across Sean's face. "Philip, I feel I must
point out to you that Cory is a male. I am a male. Two males falling in
love is not considered to be 'normal'."

The Phantom snorted. "Who says so? Your parents? Your teachers? Your priest
or minister? Who has the right to say what is normal and what is not?" He
looked directly at Sean. "Only God has that right. He made you, Sean, in
His image. You are what He created, so let's get that out of the way. You
will also go a long way with Cory to remember that. Cory does not think
that his being gay is 'abnormal' or 'deviant' or anything else. He
considers himself to be a perfectly normal, well-balanced, teenaged
Canadian boy. Which is how I think of him, and you."

"You do?"

"Yes, I do," insisted The Phantom. He tapped the table sharply. "Being gay
is not wrong. Denying being gay, hiding in a closet, or a nunnery, or
wherever, is what is wrong. To understand Cory is to know that he is not
ashamed of being gay, and he will never deny that he is gay. He will NOT
countenance subterfuge, or lying. He will not hide, and he will not be with
someone who hides." He took a slow drink of beer before continuing. "You
must further understand, Sean, that Cory is not interested in some
big-dicked stud. Cory is looking for someone who will spend the rest of his
life with him. Cory wants a mate, Sean, and when Cory mates it's going to
be forever."

Sean swallowed. His red face seemed to turn even redder. "I want to be that
mate, Philip."

The Phantom smiled and nodded. "I had the impression you did. So does
Cory."

Once again Sean's face registered his surprise. "He has a rather strange
way of showing it!" he growled. "One minute he allows displays of
affection! The next minute he snarls that when I am with him we are not 'on
a date'. He refuses to believe me when I tell him, honestly and
straightforward, that I am not trying to get into his pants just for the
sake of having sex with him! I am not, as you put it, a 'big-dicked stud'."

Laughing, The Phantom gave Sean's arm a playful punch. "Neither am I, but
then, while Cory and I love each other, I'm not the one he's going to spend
his life with." He looked intently at Sean. "I am first and foremost Cory's
friend, Sean. All I want is for him to be happy." He reached out and placed
his hand over Sean's, a gesture not lost on the red-haired boy. "I want to
be your friend as well, Sean." He gently emphasized the word 'friend' by
squeezing Sean's hand. "You need one, badly."

"I do, do I?" asked Sean, taken aback by The Phantom's gesture.

"You do," replied The Phantom. "For too long you've hidden yourself behind
a wall. You've refused to let anyone get close to you because you were so
deathly afraid of him, or her, discovering your secret." He withdrew his
hand and sat back in his chair. "You can only hide in your secret garden
for so long Sean, and sooner or later something was bound to happen to
bring that wall down."

Sean's eyes saddened and he nodded slowly. "I tried so hard, Philip, not to
let my homosexuality become known. My father is from the old school,
ex-RCAF and very conservative. He would never accept my so-called
lifestyle. My brother is as bad. As for my schoolmates . . ." he shook his
head. "As far as they are concerned, better dead than queer."

"You had no one to confide in before, Sean. Now you do. If you want . . ."

"I do want that, Philip," replied Sean earnestly. "You have no idea how
. . . lonely I feel. After my foolish, clumsy attempt to seduce Cory . . ."

"In Kingston," supplied The Phantom. "Cory was quite surprised at your
actions."

"No more than I," returned Sean with a grin. "I was a month away from my
fifteenth birthday. I was gay, knew it, and had done nothing about it until
Cory came along. I had never felt about another boy what I felt about
Cory. I dreamt about him, I wanted to be with him, and rooming with him
was, or so I thought, just this side of heaven."

"Heaven being, I suppose, you in his arms and making love to him?" asked
The Phantom, the romantic in him, and his feelings for Cory, coming to the
fore.

Sean sighed wistfully. "Dear Lord, Philip, how I wanted that." His brow
furrowed in a tight frown. "Unfortunately I was so naive and clumsy I quite
managed to queer my pitch." He shot a glance at The Phantom. "Sorry, no pun
intended."

"Don't worry about it," replied The Phantom snickering at Sean's unintended
little joke. "Tell me, how did you 'queer' your pitch, then?"

Sean looked decidedly uncomfortable. "Well, I thought that since I was gay,
and Cory was gay, it would be a natural happening for us to end up in
bed. I waited for a long time for him to make his move and when he didn't,
I thought, 'what the hell,' I'll make the move. Of course, in retrospect, I
know now that it was the wrong thing to do."

"And you now know that while there are gays who will jump into bed with any
guy with a hardon, Cory is not one of them."

Sean nodded. "I was devastated when he walked out of my life. I had no one
to talk to, no one to listen to me cry. And I did cry, Philip. In a way I
never stopped crying, even when I was in a relationship with another boy."
His eyes filled with tears. Embarrassed, he quickly wiped the back of his
hand across his face. He grinned foolishly. "I'm sorry, I'm usually not so
emotional."

"So far it's been an emotional day for you," replied The Phantom. "My guess
is that right now is the first time you've actually had anyone to listen to
you." He spread his hands. "I'm listening, Sean. That's what friends do for
friends." There was a refreshing, sweet, little boy naiveté about this
slim, red-haired boy that The Phantom found intriguing. He had no doubt,
now, that Sean truly loved Cory. "I mean what I say, Sean," he
continued. "I won't lie to you. As I've said, Cory and I are very close. I
would like to help you, and Cory."

Sean did not miss the repeated inferences to Cory and The Phantom's
'closeness'. He briefly wondered just what Phantom's relationship was with
Cory. Not that it mattered. Cory had a past. Phantom had a past. They all
had a past when the truth was told. There was no need to dwell on what had
been. He was more concerned with what could be. "Philip, please do not
misunderstand me. I would be honoured if you considered me your friend, and
I value your consideration for Cory, and for me. However, I would very much
prefer it if I courted Cory, if that is a phrase I can use, without help."
He looked pleadingly at The Phantom. "I want to do this on my own, in my
own way."

The Phantom's opinion of Sean went up a few notches. He nodded
inwardly. Sean was right. Whatever happened between him and Cory had to be
on their terms, and by their mutual agreement. "You're right, Sean," he
agreed presently. "I wish you the best of British luck because to be honest
Cory has not made up his mind about you. I can only tell you that you will
know when he makes up his mind."

"Cold comfort, that!" returned Sean. "After my outburst earlier I doubt
he'll speak to me again!"

"What exactly did you do?" asked The Phantom. After Sean finished telling
him what had happened The Phantom laughed until he cried. "That sneaky
little bugger! He did a number on you, Sean!"

Sean thought and then shook his head. "So he did! He knew that I was not
about to step out of the closet, no matter how hard he tried to push me. It
was something I had to do, and he found a way to make me do it!" He frowned
slightly. "Nicholas and Andre . . ."

"Will say nothing," finished The Phantom. "Even if they weren't a couple,
which you may have noticed they are, both of them, too good a friend to
Cory to betray his confidence."

"Nicholas and Andre aside, there will be people who will not accept any
relationship I might have with Cory. My father, is one, and Todd, I
suspect, is another."

The Phantom had been wondering when Todd's name would be thrown into the
ring. He smiled slowly. "To understand Cory you have to understand Todd, to
understand their relationship. They are not only brothers, they are lovers,
and have been for years. Cory is very necessary for Todd, and Todd is very
necessary for Cory."

"I am not at all surprised," said Sean. "They are twins, after all."

"No, it's deeper than that, Sean," replied The Phantom with a slow shake of
his head. "They need each other. It will not matter who Cory takes as a
partner, or who Todd takes as a partner, there will be times when they will
need to be with each other, to hold each other, to make love to each
other. They'll go off somewhere, make love, talk, fight. Anyone who is with
Cory will have to understand the deep-seated need that they have. It goes
with the territory."

"I understand the needs that two people who have been as close as Cory and
Todd have been can have. At least I think I do."

"Good. Just remember, it will happen. It will be no reflection on your
relationship. Cory will love whomever he chooses to be his partner
completely, unreservedly and deeply. He will also, except for Todd, give
his fidelity." His look was level and direct. "He will expect, no, demand,
the same in return for his love."

"Cory has always had my love," replied Sean, returning The Phantom's
look. "My fidelity he would have had three years ago, had we not . . ."
"Sean, what is in the past, is in the past. What Cory wants is a long-term,
firm commitment. Todd convinced him that Nathan was the man for him." He
held up his hand stifling Sean's not yet spoken reply. "Todd knows that -
now. He was wrong and as soon as Cory climbs down from his high horse
they'll talk and make up. That's between Cory and Todd, and not you. Let
them settle their differences in their own way. As for you and Cory, well,
all I can say is that when Cory has made up his mind about you - and he is
thinking about you - he will let you know his decision. Just you remember,
though, what you told me and what I told you.

"As Cory's friend, as your friend, I'll offer some final advice. Don't lie
to Cory, don't procrastinate and when he does decide to make up his mind
you had better be able to understand exactly what he wants. If you're
willing to have an open, loving relationship, then you're in the
running. Cory will not accept furtive meetings while your folks are out of
town, or in some motel room. That is definitely not on the cards. If you
are willing to love him like a man, to treat him like a man, to love him
the way he wants to be loved, then so be it. If not, pack your ditty box
and rebuild that wall."

Sean spread his hands across the table and nodded slowly. "You certainly
don't pull your punches, do you Philip?"

"There is no use beating around the bush. Had you known me better you would
have known that I don't screw around. Cory is my friend. I would like you
to be my friend. Because of that I've told you what I know, and what I
think. How you use that knowledge is up to you, Sean."

Sean stood up and smiled a soft, warm smile. "Whenever Cory allows it, I
shall tell him how I feel. I shall also make it quite plain that a
relationship, on his terms is quite acceptable to me."

The Phantom groaned. "Jesus, Sean, try not to make it sound like a business
merger!"

"Old habits die hard, Philip. I'll try to loosen up."

"Good, because you're going to have to be loose with Cory around. Only he
and God ever know what he's going to do next. He'll drive you crazy one
minute, be fighting with you the next, and then he'll drag you off to glory
at the end of it. He is a very complex young man."

"It would appear that the next forty or fifty years will be interesting,"
replied Sean with a wry smile. He saw the look on The Phantom's
face. "Well, you did say that Cory wanted a long term commitment."

The Phantom laughed and nodded. "Good luck, Sean. I mean that, you know. I
also meant what I said about you being the man for Cory."

Sean sighed heavily. "All I have to do is convince him of that. And make
some pathetic attempt to know when I've succeeded!"

"Oh, you'll know, Sean. You will most definitely know!"