Date: Mon, 22 Nov 1999 15:47:06 EST
From: Jim <horndog76@hotmail.com>
Subject: Jim and Jerry

This story is about my first love experience.

    While in high school, I played football, and had my share of girl
friends. Football managed to keep me in good shape so I usually had no
problems getting girls. Deep down however, I always knew that I wanted to
be with a man but was scared to death of getting caught. When I was old
enough to start masturbating, my thoughts during these times were always on
another guy that I knew in school or one of my football buddies. It was in
my junior year when I experienced my first encounter with a girl. As I
think back on those times, I can honestly say that is was just something I
had to prove to be accepted as one of the "Jocks" in school. It was needed
if I wanted to continue to be accepted in my group of friends.  After all,
all guys at my age should be lusting over girls ... right? The experience
was not exactly what I expected and I did not cum during the fiasco even
though I could see from her reaction, that she was having a good time.
    I was getting close to graduating and was not sure what I wanted to do
with my life. I was never really close to my father and when I requested to
attend a two-year Technical School, he flatly turned me down. At one point, I
can remember coming home one night to see my mother drunk (a nightly
occurrence), sitting at the table. I usually stopped and talked to her to
console her, realizing that going through "The change of life" is not easy on
anybody. This night was no exception, and I sat down to talk to her. Her tone
towards the end of the conversation became very nasty and she proceeded on
telling me that I was Gay and a Homosexual. Until this point, I had no idea
that she knew anything. I guess mothers know best! Anyway, I was devastated and
ended up running to my room with tears in my eyes. I could not understand why
she hit me with it in this fashion instead of sitting down calmly and talking
about it.
    It was not long after that that I decided to leave. I joined the U.S.
Army and was sent to Ft, Jackson, South Carolina for basic training. I still
had not experienced intimacy with another guy and I longed for this but
realized the importance of being patient. After basic training, I was sent to
Ft. Gordon, Ga. I was to spend 1 year here so I quickly became comfortable
with my accommodations and set out to meet new friends.
    I ended up meeting many friends but it wasn't until one special morning
that I met Jerry. I was leaving my room to go into the hallway and he was
there talking with another guy. He was in his underwear and I could tell by
his smile that he noticed what I was looking at. We looked at each other in
the eyes for what seemed like eternity.  He kept looking at me as if he was
drawn to me for some reason. I knew there was something interesting about him
that I wanted to find out. Jerry is about 5'7" medium build with the cutest
firm and rounded ass. He had the most intriguing blue eyes that I had ever
seen and was very handsome. We started talking and from that point on I knew
that we would get to know one another very well.
    Jerry and I became very good friends. I'm not sure how I managed it, but
I arranged for him to move into my room. The thought of sleeping next to him
at night made me crazy. We went everywhere and did everything together to
include showering. And I mean every day ... together. It got to the point where
people were saying things but I didn't care. While we showered, I would start
to get hard and would have to bite my tongue to cause pain in order to
control the sensation rising in my cock. This trick usually worked but I can
remember being in the shower stall next to him one day when it didn't. I just
couldn't seem to control myself and I started masturbating against the flow
of hot water on my cock. I glanced around the stall barrier to make sure
Jerry was not looking. He wasn't. He was busy washing, so I continued my
ritual, wishing it were his hand doing the work. After I finally came, I must
have groaned because I turned around and from the corner of my eye, saw Jerry
darting back around the corner. Shit! He had to have seen me beating off. I
didn't say anything and neither did he. It was like it never happened but I
still felt like an idiot.
We both had girl friends but for me it was more of a "fitting in" thing like
in High school. We would all go out to parties together and I would lust over
him the whole night, being very careful not to let my girl notice. I wanted
to make love to him so bad. I had never experienced sex with another guy
before but I knew with him that it would be perfect. I became so obsessed
with Jerry that I stopped eating and socializing with my other friends at one
point.
    One evening, I came into the barracks to see Jerry pulling hall guard
duty. I had drunk a few beers and was feeling kind of down. I started talking
to him. He could tell I had something on my mind and he questioned me about
it. At that point I was so strung out on wanting him that I started to spill
my guts. I told him there was something I wanted to tell him but was
embarrassed to bring it up. I think, deep down he knew what it was. He
grabbed my arm, pulled me in the hallway closet, closed the door, and said,
"ok, what is it?" I looked at him in the eyes, smiled softly and said "I want
to make love to you". To my amazement he smiled back and said "OK, why not!"
    I was in Heaven. I quickly found a replacement for hall guard duty for
him and we headed out to my car. He said he wanted to drive and I agreed. I
did not know how to start so like an idiot, I asked him, "What should I do?"
He responding by saying, "touch me". I started to touch his cock while he was
driving and he immediately became hard. I quickly maneuvered his cock out of
his paints and started messaging it softly. It didn't take long for his
pre-cum to start running and I can remember not even knowing what it was
exactly at the time. All I knew is that I had this strong sensation to put my
mouth on it and lick it. He motioned me to wait until we stopped and he
pulled the car down a tree lined road in a dense forest and parked the car
about 2 minutes from the main road. We both got out of the car and Jerry
pulled out a blanked from my trunk and laid it on the ground. We then
stripped our clothing off furiously, and Jerry sat down on the blanket and
motioned me to him. I slowly positioned my body next to him and when I was
settled looked into those deep blue eyes and started kissing and caressing
him. This all seemed so natural and I wondered why I had not experienced this
before. Both of our cocks were rock hard and I moved down to taste his now
dripping cock. I had never done this before but became used to having a warm
cock in my mouth very quickly. It tasted so good and I wanted this feeling of
ecstasy to last forever. I started stroking his bulging cock with my mouth
and it did not take long for him to spill his juices, which I swallowed as if
I was getting some long awaited medicine that I was in desperate need of. He
moaned loudly as he was coming in my mouth and I can remember thinking that I
did not care if anyone hears. This was my time! When he finished he pulled me
towards him and drove his tongue in my mouth to taste some of the medicine
that I had just lavishly took in. We were locked in this position for what
seemed like forever and then all of a sudden he threw his legs back and said
"Fuck me, Jim. Please". My heart had to have stopped a beat at that moment! I
had never done this but at that point wanted to give him anything he wanted.
My cock was wet from oozing so much pre-cum and when I started to push
against his hole the pre-cum lubed my entrance enough to get the head of my
cock into him. As I pushed further in side him I could see his pain and
started to back off. I did not want to cause my new love any pain. He sensed
me backing off and immediately grabbed my muscular arms and pulled me towards
him, saying "push slowly but steady". I did as requested, positioned my arms
under his legs and pushed them up against my chest so I could have complete
control. I started pushing my cock in slowly an eventually had my thick 7
inches all the way inside him. The feeling I was getting from the sensation
was like nothing I had ever experienced before. I was inside the man I had
loved and needed for so long! I was finally realizing my dream after all this
time of only lusting and wishing. I stayed inside him and leaned over and
started kissing Jerry really hard. I felt like an animal at that point and
wanted to start moving in and out of his hole to satisfy me deepest desire. I
did not want to hurt him so I waited for his Que. It did not take long as we
were kissing, for him to start bucking his hips slowly. That was my key. I
started moving my throbbing cock inside and out of his hole slowly as he
moaned in ecstasy. He was really getting into this and positioned his legs on
my backside and used force to pull myself into him with thrusting motions. I
did not last very much longer and ended up spilling tons of love juice inside
of him. As I looked down I saw my cum oozing from his hole when I removed my
throbbing penis. What a sight! We stayed there for about another hour in each
other's arms and then decided to go back to the barracks and shower.
    I had finally found the courage to make it with another guy and I was
ecstatic. Jerry on the other hand had mixed feeling the next day. I was
really confused because he seemed almost embarrassed that it happened. I was
crushed but wanted to keep our relationship going, even if it was just a
friendship thing. After a couple days, I approached him and told him I was
over the experience and did not have any desire to do it again. I was lying
through my teeth but I wanted to reach him and this was the only way I knew
how. I figured, if I dismissed the experience we had as a one-time
occurrence, we could be back to friends like before. He seemed curious when I
told him and asked if I wanted to go out that night. I told him yes, of
course, so we headed out to Augusta on the base bus for a wild night on the
town. I was happy because what I had told him changed his mind and made
everything OK between us.
    We ended up at a strip joint downtown watching the babes dance and take
off their clothes. This was not a big turn on for me but I played the game
anyway. Around midnight, Jerry and I stepped outside for some fresh air. We
started walking and talking about the stripers in the club and swapped jokes
about the whole night in general. As I glanced up we were in a secluded alley
in between some buildings. We stopped walking and he brought up the subject
of my renewing my commitment with girls. He asked me if was serious and I
told him yes. Then he reached down, took his penis out of his paints and
asked me what I would do with it? I suddenly became confused and had sort of
a serious look on my face. My cock jumped to attention and I knew what I had
to do at that moment. Jerry sat down on the ground and I knelt down beside
him, and positioned my mouth on his cock. I went straight in for the kill and
started pumping that meat with my mouth. He came right away and I swallowed
his cum and licked his cock clean.
Jerry stood up, looked around and told me to follow him. I had no idea where
we were going but I obeyed and followed him. We stopped in front of this
large hotel in the middle of the city and we went inside. I followed Jerry to
the elevator and we took the elevator to the top floor and got out. Then
Jerry guided me up some stares until we finally came to the top of the
building. The door leading onto the roof was locked so going out there was
out of the question. Jerry turned to me and told me to go down one flight of
stares and wait for his Que to return. Till this day, I am confused about
this request, but I did what he asked and went down the steps to the next
floor. After about two minutes, I became, curious so I started up the steps
calling his name as I walked. When I turned the corner leading up to second
set of stares, I heard Jerry say, to come up and I could see that he was
naked and laying on top of the clothes that he had taken off.  As I came
closer to him, I knelt down and kissed him, holding his head tightly in my
hands. I then whispered in his ear, "do you want me to enter you?" He
responded silently with just a nod of the head so I quickly stripped my
clothes off and knelt down in front of his spread legs. The sight of him on
the ground in the hotel hallway with his legs spread invitingly sent my
thoughts through the roof! I slowly scooted in, raised his legs to my
shoulders, and positioned my cock up against his waiting hole. I pushed my
cock inside him slowly and kept a constant pressure until I was all the way
inside my lover. He seemed relieved that most of the pain was over and
started moving his hip in anticipation of what was to follow. I began slowly
stroking his hole in and out with my cock. I fucked him slowly. I wanted this
to last forever. My motions were slow and strong and I could see my 7 cock
moving inside and out of his hole. This sight sent me to my limit and my cock
began pulsating. I started moving faster at his request and then shot load
after load into his waiting ass. I collapse on my lover and we stayed in each
other arms with my cock inside his hole for about 30 minutes. I wanted to
sleep there but knew it was dangerous so we gathered up our things and left
to catch the bus back to base.
Jerry had another relapse the next day and then I was really confused.
Actually, it was not me who should have been confused. In my mind he was the
one that was confused. I could not understand it. It was like he was feeling
guilty again for some reason. Our friendship continued on. We did things
together however, most of the time it was with our girls by our sides. At one
point I had rented a hotel room outside base and we planned a get together
with our girls that night. We purchased some beer and snacks and headed out
for the motel room with our girlfriends. I could tell Jerry was sort of
nervous that evening but could not quite figure it out. We ended up getting
pretty drunk that night and before I knew what was happening we were all in
the bed naked, Jerry with his girl and Me with mine. Minage'twa was not in my
vocabulary back then and we ended up staying on our side of the bed. I was
having a good time and had no problem getting a hard cock for my girl to play
with. Jerry however was having some problems. The only thing I could figure
is that he could not get excited with his girl because I was there in bed
with them. Hmm..Interesting! He turned to me and interrupted my play
activities with my girl and asked if he and I could be excused to talk about
something important. I thought it was a strange request, and I'm not sure
what my girl thought but she agreed and we got dressed and left the room. We
went outside and I asked him what the problem was. He hinted to me that he
could not get it going with his girl because I was there. I knew what he
needed and told him to drop his paints. He did and I gave him the best
blowjob that I could. He spilled his juices, this time on the ground and I
looked deep into his eyes. He knew I loved him but I was still not sure about
what he felt for me.  He felt a bit embarrassed about the whole thing so I
suggested when return to the girls and continue our fun. He agreed and we
went back to the room. He was OK after that so I assumed the blowjob had
gotten me off his mind for the time being anyway.
    Jerry and I stayed friends and continued our secret relationship but did
not have sex again until we met in Korea.
    Part II
    Getting to Korea was a lot of fun. I flew from San Francisco and spent 2
nights there to check out the city, known to be populated with a large number
of gays. I had fun but that is another story that will be told later. I
actually ran into Jerry at the airport. We spent about 5 hours together
before the flight. This gave us some time to hang out at the USO and talk
about the vacation time we both had after we left Ft. Gordon. Jerry still
seemed a bit cold, so I did not talk about us in the way that I would have
liked to. We boarded the flight and made the exhausting flight over to South
Korea. When we arrived it was determined that Jerry was going to be stationed
up north and I was going to be down south. We ended up parting and I can
remember really having a hard time with it because I wanted to talk frankly
with him about our future and us. I never got the chance and we parted our
separate ways.
    I traveled to my new assignment, got settled in with the job and kept so
busy that Jerry started becoming a long lost memory that I cherished during
moments I was alone. I wasn't sure if I would ever see him again.  Then one
day I bumped into a friend that had his number. I wanted to call him so bad
but was not sure how he would react. I decided to take the chance and I
called him. He was surprised to hear from me and I managed during the
conversation to persuade him to come and visit.
    During our separation I had met new people and tried many new
experiences. In fact, I was living with a girl at the time. When Jerry
arrived, he stayed with us. We went out on the town the night after he
arrived and it seemed like old times again. We had a great deal of fun,
laughing and joking and it did not take me long to remember that I still
loved this guy dearly. After all, he was my first love. I wanted to be with
Jerry intimately that night and was not sure how I was going to do it. When
we got home to the apartment, I showed Jerry the room he was staying in and
then went to check on my girl. She was sleeping in the other bedroom and when
I entered she awoke long enough to say that it was OK for me to sleep with my
friend. This was a normal thing in Korea, for guys to sleep with one another.
I mean they don't think anything of it. To them it is normal and is not
associated with homosexuality at all. I guess she felt that I wanted to spend
some time with my friend and sleeping with him would allow us to talk about
old times, etc. If she only knew! I did not argue with her. I gave her a kiss
on the forehead and made a mad dash towards the room Jerry was in. My
girlfriend had already made up a makeshift bed for the both of us on the
floor. (It is common in Korea to sleep on the floor) We sat down on the
blankets that were strewn on the floor and faced one another. Our eyes met at
that moment and we both new what was in store for that night. I was afraid to
ask him directly because of his past attitude after we had made love. He
started the conversation and said, "What should we do now?" I looked into his
eyes, and then glanced down at his crotch and said, "Let's make love". He
agreed but was worried about my girlfriend. I assured him that she was
sleeping and not to worry. Then he asked me to shut the window and I stood up
and closed the window overlooking the balcony.
    I sat back down and slowly moved towards Jerry. He smiled and I knew he
wanted me as much as I wanted him. I started by holding his head and kissing
him gently on the lips. It wasn't long before my tongue was darting in and
out of his mouth. We stopped long enough to quickly strip each other's
clothes off and then resumed kissing and touching each other.  Knowing what
he liked in the past, I moved down to engulf his penis with my mouth. He
moaned softly and I started pumping his meat with my mouth. I wanted to focus
all my energy on that cock of his. I let some of the saliva seep from my
mouth over his penis to get a real good lubed effect and then I curled my
index finger around the base of his shaft. I started moving my finger with
the same motion of my mouth and he must have really liked this because his
cum gushed out into my mouth. I tried to swallow it but there was so much
that some of it leaked down his shaft as I was trying to swallow it all. He
was in heaven and I could see by the expression on his face that this was the
best blowjob that he ever had.
He then laid back and asked me if I had any lubricant. I told him I did and
quickly went to the bathroom returning with some lube. When I got back he was
on his back with his legs spread apart, a sight that drove me wild!  I moved
towards him and lay down beside him. I put some lube in my hand and then as I
was kissing him, I started lubing his ass with my forefinger. I messaged the
lube around the base of his hole and then slowly enter his hole with my
finger. After slowly moving my finger in and out, I managed to slip two
fingers inside him and he moaned softly. He told me he needed me inside of
him and I removed my fingers and positioned my self in front of him. He
pulled his legs up and placed them on my shoulders exposing his tight ass. I
moved forward placing my penis against his lubed soaked hole and started
pushing my cock inside of him. Our eyes locked together and I could tell he
wanted me to make love slowly. I eased me penis inside of him with slow but
constant pressure until I my balls rested on his ass. I was inside of my
lover again at last. After waiting for a couple minutes I started pumping his
ass with long strides. He was loving this and told me to push harder and
harder. I sped up my momentum and but did not want to cum so I slowed down.
He obviously wanted me to continue pumping faster so he moved one leg behind
my back and started pulling me towards him. He said "don't slow down Jim,
please!" Even though I wanted this to last I gave him what he wanted and
started pumping that ass with long hard strokes. He liked this a lot and so
did I!!!!  I only lasted for a few minutes at that pace and spilled my cum
inside his ass. We stayed in this position for a while and talked about how
much we enjoyed one another. I then asked Jerry why he never asked to enter
me. I mean I was curious about the feeling of being fucked by another guy. He
did not really like the idea I could tell. When I asked him why he would not
answer. Jerry was still hard and I was still really horny so I figured I
would back him into a position where he would have to fuck me weather he
liked it or not. I just wanted to feel what it was like. To see if I liked
it. I told him that I was going to straddle his cock and I wanted him to put
his cock inside me. He did not argue so I reached over and picked up the
lube, scooped out some lube and lubed my tight virgin ass with the lube.
Then I told him to lay back and he did. I straddled him, positioning his
stiff cock near my ass. Reaching around with my right hand, I pushed his cock
up against my hole just enough to position it in the right place. Then I told
him to relax -- I was going to do all the work. I figured I would be in control
of the pain this way. I started to lean back, putting pressure slowly against
his cock. The pain initially was excruciating. I can remember almost giving
up. I figured I would keep trying so I repositioned myself and put more lube
in my ass. I leaned back again, this time his cock slid in a bit easier and
the pressure I felt was not as painful as before. It actually started feeling
good. My cock started to get stiff again as proof that I was really starting
to enjoy his cock inside of me. As I moved my ass up and down, the feeling
that I was experiencing was out of this world. I could not believe the
pleasure that it gave me. I started moving faster and ended up shooting my
cum all over the front of Jerry's chest. Wow! What and experience! I
collapsed on the front of Jerry and stayed there until he said something a
few minutes later. He asked me if it was good and I just smiled.

That was the last time Jerry and I made love together. We met about two years
later in Monterey, California but we were both married at the time. He wanted
my wife and I to stay the night but my wife didn't like the idea so we ended
up leaving. I'm sure we would have ended up making love if I had. I have
tried to locate Jerry on and off for some time now with no luck.

Jerry if you are out there, please e-mail me.

If anyone wants to reply to this story, you can e-mail me at:
"horndog76@hotmail.com".  Thanks for reading it!!