Date: Wed, 30 Jan 2008 20:12:03 +0000
From: Steve Thomas <stevethomas535@hotmail.com>
Subject: Lehigh and Kian, Part 2

Lehigh and Kian

Part 2

I just thought an update -- and conclusion -- may need to be included to
this true story.

Note: This is not my usual "happy ending".

I continued to communicate with both "boys" and watched as they made plans
to get together.  Kian moved back to England from Australia, and he flew to
Chicago on business, and Lee met him there.

It was there that they had their first time ever sex with any other person.
Kian was the top, mostly because he was afraid of Lee's "size".  Kian is
short and stout and very intensely handsome, whereas Lee is very tall.  But
it's not Lee's height that intimidated Kian: Lee sports a gargantuan uncut
member.  Kian is also uncut.

Lee was from Alabama -- where he still lived, with his VERY dysfunctional
family.  Kian insisted on meeting them at least by phone and established
what he thought was a good rapport with them.  And the two guys made plans
for Lee to move to England and continue his education there.

Both guys were deliriously taken with the other.  By this time, I was out
of any romantic picture, as far as either was concerned.  It took some
convincing for Lee, but between me and Kian, he saw the wisdom in that.

They made plans.  Kian got a bigger flat in his town, near London, and he
flew Lee over to visit him.

(Author's note: I am one of Nifty's "Prolific" writers (a Nifty
designation) and I call my style, "Writing from the hip", meaning that I
don't pre-plan any story.  I start writing and each page is a revelation to
me.  Well -- this is more "Written from the heart" and though now several
years behind us all -- I didn't realize that I would feel so hurt, this far
removed from the situation.)

Lee and Kian had a glorious time during Lee's visit to Kian's home turf.
That short visit was the last they ever saw each other.

I saw at least part of it happening -- but was powerless to stop it.  I
tried in subtle ways to warn each of these guys -- because I love them each
dearly -- but Lee was oblivious and Kian probably chose to ignore it.

What I observed:

Kian is an extremely controlling individual.  He is intense in everything
he does.  He is a positive thinker and believes that everything/anything
can be worked out.  And I suppose that when Lee came to visit him in
England, Kian's compulsive drive to dominate started to become a concern to
Lee.  I am guessing about this.

Lee truly wanted to be led, but I think that Kian was too demanding for
even his comfort level.  Kian got more and more jealous of any
communication that I had with Lee and actually told me that he wanted me to
copy him on everything I sent to Lee.

Of course I refused that "order".

But -- what Kian did not count on was Lee's family.  As dysfunctional as
they may have been, they WERE from Alabama: think DEEP SOUTH!  If you are
from the USA, you know that another name for the Deep South is "The Bible
Belt".

I suspect that when Lee came home from England, he was freaked out by
Kian's obsessive behavior.  Kian had even poisoned Lee's mind regarding me,
to the point that Lee was afraid of contacting me.  Kian TOLD me not to
contact Lee and if I did, I was not to ever tell Lee how Kian was doing.
What does that tell you?

It tells me that he was trying to punish Lee, and trying to use me to help
accomplish that end.  He wanted to punish Lee because Lee -- after coming
back to Alabama wrote and told him he wanted no more contact.

And -- the reason that I am left to suppose all this is that Lee even told
me that he didn't want contact.  I am pretty sure that Kian told him things
that made him not trust me, but I think it was more than that.  I think
that Lee's mother -- and his older brother, whom was very protective of him
-- convinced him of the "evil" of what he was planning to do.  Religious
guilt can be a scary thing!

I kept contact with Kian for a long time, but that too has slowed down from
letters every day to a once in awhile note.

I wish I knew what became of Lee.  I am saddened because I deleted all
reference to him when I was hurt so bad -- as he deleted me from his life.
In the several years that have passed, I cannot even remember his real last
name -- and so cannot contact him at all.

I wish I could report something better.  I can only report that Kian is now
over 30, still single (never had another boyfriend as far as I know).

Neither of them can claim to be a virgin again ...

I feel like I have lost something dear.  I can only imagine what both of my
beloved young men feel/felt.