Date: Thu, 30 Nov 2006 23:13:58 +0200
From: star fall <starfall155@hotmail.com>
Subject: Fast life, Hard life: Fast life, Hard life part 1

     All the names in the story has been changed to keep the privacy of all
the persons since I don't have their permission to reveal their name.

     This story might contain sexual material. If you are under the age of
18 or find male to male actions offensive Then you shouldn't read this.

		       Fast life, Hard life Part One

     My name is Mike, I'm 18 years old. I'm tall and with a normal body
built guy. I live in Estonia, work and go to school. I have blue eyes and
dark brown hair. I'm living a fast life for my age, a difficult one. I live
with my mom and my aunt. I won't start with my whole life story but ill
start from this year beginning. Why is it so important to start from there
and not what happened before, is because I wasn't who I am now. This part
will mostly be introduction into my life, since I don't remember many
details.

     My new year started as usual, fireworks and a lot of food, good enough
to make you throw up, in other words, so tasty that you would fill yourself
up enough to throw up. My life is mostly based on msn and e-mail, though
I'm going to talk about more than just that, otherwise it wouldn't be much
of a story. I was talking on msn to guys and liked messing around with them
'cause they didn't know how I looked like, other than that, they were
straight too, so I told them I was a girl. So when I was messing around
with them I started changing into more and more gay. I felt that its not
right to toy with them. Soon I blocked them and started to live my own
life.

     I met a guy on the internet who was cute and nice. He was 22 years old
with a slim body figure and brown hair. I found him... actually he more
like added me from my ad up in a gay meeting place on the internet... Well
it's not easy to find gay people in Estonia so those sites are good for
finding someone. Anyways, I talked with him and sometime later, also met
him. He had quite an interesting personality, I don't remember much of him
though, as weird as it is, he was my first boyfriend and I don't remember
him. Only things we mostly did was talk and kiss, we never got to sex. He
gave me my first kiss with passion, not just for "kicks" while having sex.
Too bad was that I met him only a couple of times after the first kiss,
cause he was always so busy. Doing work and all. He didn't even have his
own apartment. He lived with his mom. Shortly after our last date, I
thought he wasn't the one, so I moved on.

     I went on-line into a chat room so I could start meeting other guys,
there in the chat room some straight/bi guy started chatting with me. His
name was Alex, he invited me to his place, said that he has a cute friend
that he would like me to meet, since he thought that we would stay
together. Since I was quite messed up and wasn't worried about anything
that would happen to me, I went.  There I met him, a typical straight and
confused guy, bi curious so to say.  There I also met his friend, Mark.

     Mark was a gay guy, totally gay, like I am. He had short brown hair,
or at least so I remember, and a very slim body, I thought he was very cute
and I still have feelings for him, even though some other guys thought that
he looked like s**t...  Anyways, When I was there we had a few drinks, Alex
also had a few of his girls over. I was starting to get drunk by the time
we ran out of the alcohol and he had another girl invited over, so when she
got there Alex and she went out to get some more alcohol. Me, A girl that
was there when I arrived, and Mark stayed there. I don't exactly remember
how did she know that we were gay but she did, and she had a request for
us.

     She asked "So you guys are gay huh?" there was a silence in the room,
"I have always wondered how gay people tick, I mean, like why don't you
like girls Mike?" She asked me...

     "Yes, at least I'm gay, and about that attraction... Lets just say
that when I look at Mark here, I feel like something is pulling me towards
him, a connection, unexplainable feeling... But now when I look at you I
can see you, I can say that you are pretty and all, but there is just no
connection, nothing, no feeling." I said with a bit fuzzy voice 'cause I
was like totally drunk by then.

     She had a request "I have never seen guys kiss before, could you kiss
each other. If its okay with you two of course, is it?"

     There was silence but Mark did stand up and sit on my lap facing me,
man that felt good. Since he was also drunk he fell into the kiss quickly,
and we kissed for so long that I felt like years were passing by. It was so
full of energy, so intense, I just fell out of the world. And at the time
when we kissed, Alex came back home and saw us kissing.

     "Well looks like we have gotten that far so to see at least." Alex
just had to mention that with a 'by the way' voice.

     I didn't hear him quite good cause I was more focused on the kiss, but
from the background I did faintly hear aww and ohh noises. The kiss wasn't
still broken, we kissed on, and I was like sliding away with him from there
into the air.  I felt like I was floating. Once we broke the kiss he sat
down next to me, with me putting my head on his shoulder, and stayed like
that for as long as we had time. Soon I lit a cigarette... for a while of
smoking Mark took the cigarette and made a few inhales too, yet then came
the bad part, I always forget that if I drink too much and then have a
smoke too, at a bad time, then I throw up...  The worst part is that I
threw up on Marks jeans.

     "Thanks a lot!" He managed to say with a bit of a louder voice.

     "Heh, first sign of love I see." Alex said With a little humor in it.

     Mark went into the bathroom to clean his jeans up a bit, and I went to
see if everything was ok, and to say I was sorry. I managed even to start
crying a bit... Got a bit emotional, `cause usually when alcohol is
starting to fade, slowly but starting to, then I start getting a bit
emotional and all, if I stay up long enough, I can even get away with a
hangover next day and will remember everything that happened. Shortly after
that accident...

    "Ok, lets get ready to go to the X-bar (a gay place in the old town of
Tallinn)!  So get out of that bathroom, you look clean enough, and put your
shoes on, we need to go!" Alex yelled out to everyone.

     So from there we went to the X-bar. There I was mostly having a
depressive face and all, cause of alcohol and of what happened. Soon Mark
came from the dance floor and made some room for me under the window to
sit, then he sat down on my lap again, Man how I liked it, and then he
kissed me, again I was slipping out of the world.

     Alex came and said "Ok, common, give this guy a memorable night, and a
reason to remember this place, drag him to the dance floor, why else did we
came here."

     Since I was a quiet and a mouse kind of guy, just to not draw
attention to myself anywhere, he practically did drag me to the dance floor
even though I disagreed with that idea at first. When on the dance floor,
we danced, slowly, arms wrapped around each other, kissing from time to
time, heh, i was even pushed against the wall when in a kiss with him once,
Man, I was like in heaven there dancing with him, being kissed by him,
having him so close to me. He felt like the one, The One, The one that I
should spend the rest of my life with.

     About 10 min after we got to the dance floor the girls left us there
and Alex came to us.

     "Ok, you had your fun, but now the times up and we need to go." he
said breaking the good moment we had there.

     Since the time was so late we had to call a taxi, one girl stayed with
us, when driving home, but after we got to Alexs place we left the car and
the girl went home, Alex gave her some money for us, so that she wouldn't
have to pay all for herself, and why should have she. It would have been a
bit selfish thing to do.

     When we got to Alexs place we went to bed, all 3 of us. I and Mark as
you all might think were fighting for the top place, but I easily gave it
to him so he was on top of me again. Kissing me... And soon we were having
sex. The thing that bothered me was that he not only gave me a blowjob, he
also gave a blowjob to Alex.  Alex in fact facefucked him, it still bothers
me, since it happened right in front of me, as if I wasn't there. Then
after that though, I received a blowjob that actually got me off, I i
usually last for a quite long time, some can give me a blowjob for even an
hour before I get off, so mostly I don't think about getting off when
having sex.

The next day I woke up next to Mark, he was holding me, I felt so happy...

To Be Continued...

I noticed that the first story I sent was the wrong one without the
corrections, so it was Quite messed up, a lot of mistakes. This is the
right one, the repaired version of it, Sorry for the mix-up.

Thank you all for reading this story, its the first one I have ever wrote
so I would like to get comments from ya'll, All comments are welcome to my
e-mail address.  starfall155@hotmail.com