Date: Sat, 18 Jan 2014 00:21:49 +0700 From: Robert Glass <robxglass@gmail.com> Subject: Marc and Luke chapter 1 All right reserved. Any unauthorized use is prohibited. This is a fiction. Any resemblance to people and/or events is coincidental. If reading this deemed illegal to you, I implore you to stop. If it offends you, please do not read on. Donate: http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html CHAPTER 1: Dashing Prince or Horny Toad? Call him. Don't call him. Just call him. No, you stupid fuck, don't! "Luke!" Fuck, I call him. He's not aware where the voice is coming. Good! I should hide. What? What the fuck am I doing? Okay, I'll just wave my hand. "Uh..." His hesitation is too loud, it bothers me. Does he even remember me? I thought the sex were awesome. At least it was awesome to me. "It's me..." "Marcus!" His face shows success. He didn't remember me. "Or Marc, if you're feeling casual." I chuckle. Not smooth at all. What's wrong with me? I usually lead, now I'm lost in a limbo. He looked really good, still in the same coat I saw him in the first time we met and the second time we saw each other. I had to make a comment. "You look good." "Thanks. Sorry I didn't remember your name for a second. I've had a stressful day at work. My mind is..." his hand made a twisting gesture. He didn't even return the compliment. I was pretty sure he was working at Coles. Perhaps he's a manager or probably a cashier. Those jobs can be stressful. I realize that the silence between us has gone on too long. I snap. "I was wondering if... Can I buy you a drink, you know, just to relief the stress?" Whoa, I'm too nervous. "I'll have to pass. I need to get some sleep and I think I need to fall asleep sober tonight." No hesitation whatsoever. He's returned to his blunt self. "Or coffee, maybe." "Coffee prevents me from sleeping." He tilts his head; his smile is mocking my integrity. "I should run." He waves his hand goodbye once with a shrug just to make it look cute. It does look cute. "Luke!" I call again. Why the hell am I getting so worked up about him? "Yes?" He seems frustrated. "Uh... good night?" Good night? With a question mark? "Good night." He doesn't even miss a beat. I run towards him. I'm so worked up. "Luke!" "What Marc? Do you want to fuck again? I'd love to, but I can't. I need some sleep." Why did he choose that word? 'Fuck'. Why not 'having sex' instead? After the things and the way we conversed in our two encounters I would assume he would be more demure with his diction, not crass. He might be blunt, but he was not crass. He is now. "Okay, okay. I'll call you later," I say. "You don't have my number." "You have my number but you never called me. If you give me your number, I will definitely call you." I smile, as seductively as I usually can. "Exactly the reason I don't give you my number. Goodbye." He turns and leaves, I grab his arm. Reflex, muscle memory, old habit... call it whatever you want, but I've done it. He glares at his upper arm, at where my hand made contact with his limb. His eyes shows disbelief and anger. Then he looks at me with another nuance. It's wicked. Why can't I let go of his arm? "What do you think you're doing?" He asks. "Sorry." I let go of him. This is pretty scary. "Look, Marc. Go find someone else to fuck tonight. I'm not in the mood. I don't think it would take that much effort to you. Come on, man, you have that gorgeous face and gorgeous smile with gorgeous athletic hairy body and exotic, I would like to guess, New Orleans accent. You can get any man you want. I don't get why you're so insistent in fucking me. Is it the power play? It is, isn't it? I mean you're obviously a dominant person who enjoys the company of a good submissive guy, and by learning from our times together you can obviously see I'm not that, at all. I suspect that you might bend the rule a little if you find a stronger man to dominate you but, again, I'm not that. For your information, I'm not doing any sort of power play or mind games here. It's too exhausting. I just find that you were sexually satisfactory on our first time so I agreed to have a second, which to me you underperformed. So no, I'm not going to fuck with you this time for that reason, and also because I need to sleep. Are you fine with that?" What the fuck? What the fucking fuck? How... He didn't miss a thing; everything was so fucking spot on. Absolutely everything! He was right about the New Orleans, he was right about my sexual preferences, and he bruised my ego with his comment about my performance. He leaves, again. I guess he took my wondering silence as a yes. "Hey, Luke! Wait up. I'm not that bad, am I?" Of course I have to save my ego first. I'm so stupid around him. He stops, looking more annoyed than scary. "Again, I don't do mind games. When I tell you something, it's not to manipulate you; it's the truth." The delivery isn't petty at all, more of 'I'm sick of you calling my name please leave me alone.' "Maybe I can try to fix it." "There's no fixing, Marc. What turns you on doesn't turn me on. We don't match." "But I like you." I confess. How lame. "Marc, let's face it, you don't do like." He's right again. I don't do like. But I do like him, a lot. I don't know why. He's not even my type. I either go for a very effeminate skinny sub or a super masculine brute who I just know has that spark of submission, waiting to be harvested. I mistakenly thought he was a brute. Winter fooled me. He's big. He's 6'2" to my 6'3". With the coat on he looked fit, broad and thick. I approached him and we talked. That talk probably changed me. He was so full of perspectives and insights that I didn't care that I found more flab than definition when he uncovered himself from the warmth. He was the one who talked most of the time and miraculously I listened. He was engaging and calculative with the words he was saying. He smiles and laughs like nothing I've witnessed before. I'm not used to it. Conversations, to me, are not for exchanging philosophies, but to seduce a new meat. He's also only halfway effeminate. He wore his complete masculinity as a mask at first, I assume, just so that someone would be interested to start talking to him. It worked on me. I noticed, and then tolerated it, then got completely charmed as he shed that fake face off and shifted towards his natural charisma. Charisma... I don't use that word often. But him? Fuck! Why the hell am I getting so worked up about him? "I do, Luke." I smile again, as disarming as I can. I have a feeling this signature move doesn't work on him. "We've only met twice, three times including this. I haven't even told you about myself, you only know how much I know about mundane things." "I know you're not that at all, but I know that you're intelligent and smart. I know that you're frank. Now I know that you can read the shit out of people even when I didn't say anything; you're perceptive. You're definitely an interesting guy and I'd like to know more about you." "Trust me, you don't want to do that." "Are you a serial killer freak or something? I don't want to know more about you then." I raise my two hands and try to look as cute as I can. Man, I don't do cute; I do smoldering hot, not cute. "Am I a freak?" He shrugs and smiles. "Just a little weirdo." It works; my cutesy acts works! I'm still waiting for a response after that soft laughter dies down. He looks behind him, wearisome. "I'm in a little bit of dilemma here. I don't want to come with you at all but on the other hand if I walk home now you will surely stalk me there. Then again you already know where I work so it's only a matter of time until you find out where I live. So, what do you suggest?" Blunt and... open for an opportunity? This guy is weird. "I suggest my place. No alcohol, no coffee, no sex. We can just talk until you fall asleep, if you're up for it; I have a guest room. I promise I will not follow you home, at least for a week. How about that?" Charming smile. "Fetching." His smile is way, way more charming than mine. The first time I met him a month ago, I was engaged in an exchange that seemingly opened my mind. It was an exchange that I was supposed to have with my professor in the university, not my prospective cum dump in a gay bar. He was adept in talking about the politic situations in Australia, the place we are now, USA, the place where I'm from. He touched the subject of geography, geology, and physics of the universe, along with the major that I am in, which is microbiology, and discussed it from the cosmic perspective of it all. Fuck! I just realized that he never talked about himself all this time. He's hiding himself from me and it's now almost clear why. How did he manage to read me completely when I didn't even talk that much that night? How did he manage to do all that WHILE dispensing incomprehensible philosophies without even catching a breath? So incredibly smart of him. And he said he was a B-student and I'm a straight-A. The second time I saw him two weeks ago, we didn't talk much. I was pretty much butthurt by the fact that he didn't call me. I thought we had a connection. I mean the sex was astounding, even if it was much too vanilla to me. We were in the same gay bar. I approached him, he didn't remember my name. Well, looking back now, I guess the sex wasn't as memorable to him as it was to me. That night I tried to flirt, he cut to the chase. We had an earth shattering sixty-nine and I didn't see him when I woke up. Maybe it wasn't an earth shattering sixty-nine, maybe it was an unbelievable blowjob to me while he didn't feel a thing. Fuck! This dude knew how to hurt my ego. I'm fucking falling for him! Is it the reason, though? Am I starting to have romantic inclination towards this guy? It's been an hour since I fucked him doggy style. Yeah, we broke our promises about talking ourselves to sleep and had sex instead. Luke had to jerk his own cock to completion and he's fast asleep. I had one of the best orgasms in my life and I'm restless. I came to a realization: I am not that good. Make that two; I have to have him! I don't even have his number! His phone must be in his pocket. I snooped out of bed and try my best to snatch his jeans in this unlit room. This pair of pants is what, size 40? The guys I chase usually can fit into a size 32. Luke is fat, I guess. Somehow that fact doesn't matter anymore. I found his phone. I swiped the screen up to unlock it. Password. Fuck! "Such a shame I don't use the new iPhone, huh?" His voice startles me; I almost drop his stupid fucking phone! "W... I..." "Otherwise you can just press my thumb on it." I need to gain control over this. I put his phone on the table next to his head. I climbed on top of him. Maybe I should kiss him. Is it too forward? I usually kiss a guy only for aftercare, not because I want him to kiss me back. Now, kissing seems to be out of line. "You're awake." I comment instead. He reaches the back of my neck. Fuck yeah! He wants the kiss! WRONG! He uses his hand to shove me aside. I fall on the bed next to him. Cuddles? I can do that for now. I still have an arm draped across his torso. Things are soft and lush there. Why the fuck am I liking it? I only do ripped and or skinny. "I didn't sleep. Not with you tossing around every five seconds." His unspecified accent is figuratively killing me. The way he removed my arm from him and sat up almost literally kills me. "Leaving so soon?" I hope my make believe flirty tone didn't betray my trials to hide my panic. Don't leave, Luke! "I have to work early tomorrow." He turns on the light and I can see his body as a whole. Yeah, he's flab- tastic, and I do mean it in the best way possible. He has a farmer's tan, he has acne on his shoulder and chest, and he has stretch marks. I have to devour this somehow, because it's being taken away from me to a possibility that I will never see him again. "You're still not going to give me your number?" "Seeing your performance tonight, I don't have the reason to." Okay Luke, you need to stop stomping on my shattered ego. I have never felt so dejected in my entire adult life. Maybe he's right, maybe I'm too complacent, counting too much on my looks, and got used to have people not rejecting me. Maybe he's right about us not having sexual compatibility. But I felt good, why didn't he? "Was it really that bad? The sex felt amazing to me." I just have to ask before he leaves. "You confuse orgasm with sex. Be honest, our fucking wasn't that exciting to you, right?" "Uh..." I still haven't wrapped my mind around it. "I'll take that as a yes," he says as he wears that handsome coat on him. I'm left speechless. Our sex is not good enough for him. I guess I'm not intellectually compelling enough for him to stay anyway. "What did I do wrong? You're killing me here." When did I start to be this pathetically desperate? "You don't like me," he says. "You like the chase." I can't even begin to process that, he's been dropping so many bombs. "I don't know what you're talking about," I say as he began walking slowly towards the bed, towards me. "You like the chase, Marc." He smiled. I just want to kiss that stupid gorgeous face and make him mine. It's a miracle I still have my constraints. "Maybe this will help you catch up faster." I don't see how he produced that piece of paper but I can see it now on my bedside table. There are digits. I beamed, he closed my front door. ___ Yay, new story! Email: robxglass@gmail.com Tumblr: xglass.tumblr.com