Date: Tue, 31 Jul 2012 11:19:12 -0700 (PDT)
From: D One <doned88@yahoo.com>
Subject: Still Secret

Dominic applauded with the others. Like them his eyes watched as the CEO
shook Thomas' hand congratulating the new Vice President.

He smiled internally, proud of the man he knew personally and intimately
But there was sadness too as he stepped forward to shake the man's hand.

He couldn't throw his arms around him and kiss him; at least not then or
there.

Their eyes met. Thomas winked as he shook Dominic's hand, squeezing it
harder then the others. They would meet later both knew.

It started in the military, the Navy, on board a ship they both served as
young officers. The room they shared with two other ensigns offered an
introduction of their minds and bodies.

One shore, the four visited the usual bars and clubs. A nearby hotel found
the two of them sharing a room and ultimately a bed. Their affair continued
despite the military witch hunt for gays.

Dominic stood back so others could pat Thomas on the back, shake his hand
and invest their smiles in whatever impact he would have on their own
careers.

They had returned from an evening of classical music, abandoned by their
roommates for their tastes in music. There were drinks afterwards and a
dizzy cab ride. Laughing they held each other in the room.

Thomas unbuttoned Dominic's white uniform tunic. Dominic let him. The hand
on his bare chest said words they hadn't spoken. Dominic returned the
undressing action saying his own words.

The kiss was gentle at first, they became aggressive expressing the
feelings, desires and long pent up longings that each had suspected before.

It was a night of sweat, exploration, sex and intimacy neither had known in
past encounters. There were no secrets, threats or judgmental eyes in that
little hotel room; only the two of them, revealing everything to each
other.

Dominic glanced at the CEO, Thomas grandfather. He knew the man and had
visited his palatial residence with Thomas.

The two rode horses, played tennis, swam...even swam naked under the nose
of the man.

"He knows" Dominic whispered to Thomas the night he snuck into his lover's
bedroom.

"Naw" Tomas said bending over to take Dominic into his mouth.

Hiding was part of the game.  Dominic knew when he was 13 that his parents
would go ballistic if they knew what he did with friends in his
bedroom. His sister knew. Even his younger brother knew.

High School was accepting of gays. But Dominic knew better. Despite the
popular view at the time, his friends, mostly macho types would shun him if
they knew. And the very few who shared his private joy, constantly worried
one of them would be found out and endanger them all.

College was tame, though Dominic kept his sexuality quiet less his Baseball
team members discover he was less macho then their image. The dark hallways
of the drama building provided an outlet at night. But the daylight saw
only his athletic form, teammates and female fans.

"I'm your beard aren't I?"  Sylvia said one night as they walked by the
baseball field. "It's ok, I like you and better be your beard then not"

Dominic didn't reply. He wanted to acknowledge and didn't want to deny. He
liked Sylvia too much. His silence achieved the unspoken desire.

The NAVY trained him and other NROTC candidates. Among them was Thomas
Johnson, a blonde hair athlete from New York.  Dominic eyed the boy as they
trained. They were friendly but nothing more then fellow officer
candidates.

He watched Thomas undress, swim in Speedos, shower naked, run, lift,
exercise and sleep.

"You ok?" Conrad a fellow trainee asked one night. Dominic was sitting on
his bunk starring across the dormitory. He realized he was staring at the
blonde hair that peeked above the blankets on Thomas bed.

"Yea ok, uh just thinking" he said.

"Remember compadre, don't ask don't tell" Conrad reached over and squeezed
Dominic's bare knee.

Dominic freaked inside thinking somehow Conrad knew something he had
hidden. But he laughed instead and Conrad chuckled. It was a joke, he
thought. Or perhaps Conrad somehow knew his secret.

"Hey" Thomas stood at the office door. "You ok about all this?"

Dominic looked up from his desk. "Oh yea, proud of you man" he said
standing.

"I can see that" Thomas looked at Dominic's crotch.

"Shut up" Dominic said looking to see if anyone was watching through the
glass walls.

Thomas closed the blinds and stepped forward.

"No man, we can't" Dominic said but he didn't refuse Thomas' hug.

"Later man" Thomas said patting Dominic's butt.

Images flashed across Dominic's mind. Thomas patted his butt long before
they became lovers.

The race across the field in Officer Training was the first time he
remembered. He won surprising the training NCOs as well as his
co-trainees. It was Thomas who congratulated him with a pat on the butt.

That was normal in the male athletic world. But Dominic wondered not about
the pat itself but the squeeze that was a part of Thomas congratulations.

He reached around now and returned that type of greeting making Thomas jump
and look around as Dominic had done.

"Fuck you later" he whispered in Dominic's ear.

"Not if I fuck you first" Dominic returned the whisper and then in a louder
voice. "Congratulations again man" he grabbed Thomas hand and shook it.

Adriancleared his throat. He stood at the door holding Dominic's mail in
his hand. His clean white shirt didn't hide his tanned skin.

"Oh ho, look whose back from Hawaii" Dominic acknowledged Adrian at the
same time telling Thomas someone was there.

"Oh yea, hey Adrian"

"Congratulations Sir" Adrian said to the new Vice President as Thomas
passed by.

"Thanks"

"So he's a VP now huh?" Adrian said as he put the mail on Dominic's
desk. "Does that piss you off?"

"Huh?" Dominic looked up at the younger man. His gold nipple rings could be
seen through his white shirt especially now the boy had a dark tan.

He had to sit down less his arousal at Thomas' hug be seen and the reaction
to Adrian as well.

"Naw we're old friends.  Besides his Granddad is the boss" Dominic said.

"He's really smart too" Adrian seemed to be defending Thomas promotion
suddenly.

"Yes that's true...brilliant in fact. I was surprised he didn't get
promoted a long time ago."

"Because of his Granddad?" Adrian seemed to adjust his crotch facing
Dominic's desk

"No because of what you said" Dominic watched the boy's hand adjusting his
meat so his dark trousers outlined his penis to the side.

"He is very good"

"I know" Adrian said

"Uh can I help you?" Dominic said looking up at Adrian's tanned face.

"I was hoping" The boy began to whisper "we could meet up later"

Dominic considered the boy's curly reddish hair, his tan face and the loose
tie that allowed his open shirt to reveal the tan on his lower throat
leading to his chest.

"I uh not sure, Thomas and I uh celebrate drinks you know everyone" Dominic
stammered. It had been weeks since he writhed naked on the boy's bed. Their
chance meeting that weekend culminated in several drinks and an unlimited
sexual night together.

"I'll be there too" Adrian said "Afterwards?"

"We'll see" Dominic tried not to look at the boy. He wanted to spend that
Friday night with Thomas and perhaps the weekend ahead too. Thomas liked
staying in town in his condo on the weekends he didn't have to pay homage
to the family upstate.

But he did look up as Adrian turned and walked from his office. The back
was as tan as his chest. The dark trousers lay across his firm buttocks
like they were sewn in place. Each step made one buttock move, flex and
beckon his desires.

"Sex, it's just sex" The enlisted Sailor said. They were both gasping that
night in the San Diego hotel. Dominic had been drinking in a gay bar. He
wore civilian clothes and having been abandoned by Thomas during their
shore leave, he glanced around at the other obvious service men who dared
not reveal their sexual preference.

"You're hot" the words came from a skull revealing haircut wearing guy
about his age. "Jeff" he stuck out his hand and put the second beer bottle
he held in the other on the bar.

"Hi, Dominic" he shook the warm hand. A feeling of electricity seemed to
flow through him. He picked up the bottle.

"and thanks, for the beer and comment" he drank the bottle down in one long
pour revealing his desire for drunkenness and what Jeff wanted.

"I know, but I'm seeing another ..."

"Sailor?" Jeff asked.

"Don't ask..." They both laughed but moved closer to kiss and continue
their night of lust. He never saw Jeff again.

"You fucked another guy?"  Thomas asked when Dominic told him. "I missed
you" Dominic explained.

He suspected Thomas had done similar things when they were apart. But it
didn't matter when they were together, hiding from the Navy, the world and
everyone that would judge their desires.

Then announcement came following rumors and news stories. They shared a
room by then; both promoted enough to warrant a two man berth. Their men
seemed to like them and the higher ranked officers seemed to as well.

"What do we do now?" Thomas asked sitting on Dominic's bunk. His penis
still hung out of his military boxers, his curly haired chest displayed his
military dog tags. Dominic still had his lovers taste on his tongue.

"We tell them" he said. "Hell some probably know anyway"

They stood at attention, the ship Captain having summoned them.

"Look boys, I uh know you two are buddies, probably more then that. And I
don't care. You're both good sailors and officers" he said "relax"

They sat in the chairs facing the older man's desk.

"And given the politics, I don't care officially now" he smiled "But before
you two do anything or say anything brash, remember it's nobody's
business..and if you decide to say something that will affect the way your
men react to you, it might affect your ability to continue to be good
officers."

It was the first realization that bravely announcing their relationship to
others could still have an affect they didn't want.

They agreed to keep their relationship a secret after the man's warning. It
would remain a secret until they left active service.

And as they met with the VP of Personnel, they knew it would remain a
secret in civilian life...especially after the CEO, Thomas Grandfather
appeared to hug his grandson and as an afterthought greet Dominic too.

Dominic at his desk knew that Friday was more then a time for celebrating
his lover's promotion. He feared a change was coming he didn't want.

The bar was packed with young laughing suit wearing men accepting the free
drinks that Thomas' promotion provided.

Dominic grabbed a beer and looked through the crowd. Thomas and his
Grandfather were holding court across the room. Anxious lower ranking
Managers pushed to stay in their eyeline.

Colin, a handsome Manager originally from England stood close. Dominic
recognized the way the guy looked at Thomas long ago.

"You're jealous" Thomas would say

"No gaydar, I've got good gaydar. Not only is he one of us, he's targeted
you and yes I'm jealous" They discussed it during their weekend together.

He watched now as Colin maneuvered himself close to Thomas. He greeted the
two, shaking the CEO's hand and then Thomas. Then he leaned close to
Thomas' ear.

Dominic reasoned to himself that Colin had to do that due to the noise of
the room. But the jealous bone in his body wondered what Colin was saying,
hinting or actually proposing to Thomas..perhaps a private chat or
celebration or something more obvious?

"He's riding high tonight" it was Adrian's voice.

Dominic felt the boy's body against his side. He nodded. "He deserves it".

"How long you gotta stay." Adrian's hand, hidden by the crowd pet, his
thigh.

Dominic moved away. "Until he's ready"

He had decided. Tonight was for Thomas. He was for Thomas. Thomas was for
him.

Turning to see if Adrian was still close, Dominic was surprised to see the
boy gone.

There were jokes, drinks, laughter. Then Dominic's gut clenched as he saw
Adrian speaking into Colin's ear.

"Yep" Dominic said to nobody assured that Adrian and Colin would be fucking
that night instead of him. He felt jealous ... and then laughed at himself.

What he saw next made Dominic stop laughing. Adrian was next to Thomas and
holding his lips close to Thomas ear.

Thomas looked across the room. Their eyes locked. Dominic raised his bottle
in salute and Thomas waved back. As he did so, Thomas nodded.

Adrianmoved away smiling and lifted his own bottle towards Dominic.

Dominic stood under the hot spray. It felt good. The small room was barely
large enough for one man let alone two. But there had been two from time to
time especially late in the middle of the night.

Everyone on board knew what went on then. Nobody talked about it. The
Officers laughed about the Aft Head where the rumor was enlisted sailors
would go in the darkness to find anonymous relief from their natural
frustrations. But none talked about the officer's country.

Dominic didn't turn when the curtain opened. He knew the warmth he felt
belonged to Thomas. They didn't make any sound as their hands reacquainted
each other of the man they had loved.  Their gasps at orgasms were hidden
by the sound of the shower spray. And they returned separately to the room
they shared with two other officers.

Dominic thought about it now as he showered in his condo trying to regain
sobriety or enough of it to sleep.

Thomas said goodnight to the crowd as he left the bar with his boss and
Grandfather...destroying Dominic's hope for a private celebration.

But when the doorbell rang, he ran dripping wet from the shower not
bothering to grab a towel. Nobody else would be there at that hour but the
one he wanted to show his body too.

"Alone?" Adrian stood at the door "Nice greeting"

"Hey uh, we can't..." Dominic stammered but stepped back when Adrian moved
inside.

"I could use a shower too" Adrian was stripping letting his suit and shirt
fall to the floor. It seemed like only seconds that he was totally naked in
front of the still dripping naked Dominic's body.

His eyes looked at the very small white space around the boy's hips and
above his cock. The recently acquired tan was darker then he imagined.

"Shit" Dominic said turning as Adrian passed him.

The shower welcomed them both. Dominic wanted Thomas. But he wasn't
there. Adrian was. The hands, the lips, the round butt, the hard cock
... they were all there.

They kissed, panted, gasped and came.

"That was a nice beginning" Adrian said as he toweled himself. It reminded
Dominic of the first time he saw Thomas doing the same thing in
college. The NROTC camp they both attended was much like military life they
would later experience.

There was no privacy, all space and previous personal activities shared as
well.

There was something sexy about the way Thomas toweled himself, not
bothering to turn modestly from the gaze of others.

"So drink?" Adrian said moving to where he knew Dominic kept the
alcohol. He didn't wait for an answer pouring two glasses of scotch.  It
was a very old scotch, the same bottle he had given Dominic that weekend
they spent together.

"Feeling better?" Adrian was clearly in charge of the night.

Dominic only nodded. He did feel better, though the empty feeling in his
gut told him Thomas was missing.

"Don't worry, he's coming" Adrian said.

Dominic knotted his eyebrows "whose coming?"

The doorbell rang as if on cue in a stage play.

Adrianmoved to the door and opened it not bothering to hide his telltale
nakedness.

Thomas was there.

"Thom" Dominic said suddenly aware he and Adrian were being discovered
together. His lover knew they had been sexing. Instead of a night of
celebration, it would be a disaster.

Thomas kissed him, long and deep..the kind of kiss that said things that
replaced words not spoken.

He began to undress Thomas, ignoring Adrian's presence, in fact forgetting
it. He knelt and took Thomas in his mouth. Looking upwards to see Thomas
approving expression, Dominic saw Adrian's head..he was kissing Thomas.

It was a night of discovery.  The three did things to each other again and
again. Dominic felt one inside his mouth and the other inside his hips at
the same time. He repeated the action letting Adrian experience the same
and then Thomas.

The night of alcohol and emotions took the three of them to a place they
hadn't planned, at least neither Thomas or Dominic had.

The morning sun awakened Dominic, his eyes full of the freckled naked body
that lay still intertwined with him. Thomas looked sexy and cute,
vulnerable and manly, loved and rested.

He looked around. Adrian wasn't there. They didn't speak of him, sharing
coffee and bagels, a morning shower and a naked morning of kisses, touches
and sperm sharing when their bodies were ready.

"Thanks for the special congratulations" Thomas said stroking Dominic's
head that lay on top of his cock in his lap.

"Thank Me?"

"Yea that boy, Adrian said you had planned it" Thomas "different then what
I expected but, nice"

Dominic didn't answer. It was Adrian of course. Thomas would leave Sunday
after their brunch in the village as usual.

But Dominic knew he wouldn't be alone. Adrian would appear and his Sunday
night wouldn't be spent alone as usual.

What would happen after that weekend, he had no idea. For now he loved and
was loved. The man that the world might lure away was there, his aroma
filled Dominic's lungs.

"Granddad knows, you know" Thomas said

Dominic shook his head. He recalled the expression Thomas' Granddad had
that day he rose naked from their swimming pool. Thomas was behind him
still laughing from their wet horseplay.

The man's eyes stared revealing neither disapproval nor approval.

"But we can't..."

Dominic rose to hide Thomas words with his lips. They shared their secret
and silence with their satisfaction that their bodies needed.

It would stay a secret for as long as everyone allowed.

And Dominic knew Adrian would be there too.