Date: Wed, 15 May 2002 19:09:58 +0000
From: Robert J. Cutter <cutter57@hotmail.com>
Subject: "TOMORROW'S PRIZES"  Chapters 13-15  (Man/Man)

Disclaimer: This is a love story.  It is a work of fiction; neither the
 situations nor the locales have any actuality in fact.  There is very
      strong homoerotic content.  If this offends you, leave now.


			    TOMORROW'S   PRIZES
			  -----------------------
			    By Robert J. Cutter
       Copyright (c) 2002 by Robert J. Cutter - All Rights Reserved

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  A Special Note: Yes, this story is finally finished.  I hope you find
the conclusion interesting and will write to me about your reaction to it.
Please write to cutter57@hotmail.com. Thanks for your time and dedication.

  A Special Dedication:  To a very extraordinary friend who has been
incredibly instrumental in snapping me out of my long bout of writer's
 block.  Your support, your encouragement and enthusiasm, and most of
all, your friendship and love, have been absolutely invaluable.  Thanks
                           Gel.  I love you.

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     Have  you ever watched (or paid attention to) all the credits  for
an  entertainment show on television - either sitcom or drama?  Did you
ever bother to count the number of producers working for that show?   I
once counted over twenty producers for one thirty-minute episode of the
old  "Rosanne"  show.  There are not only producers, but  co-producers,
coordinating producers, executive producers, consulting producers,  co-
executive   producers,  supervising  producers,  assistant   producers,
associate producers, line producers...and sometimes three, four or five
in each category.

     Then   there   are   the  consultants  -  consultants,   executive
consultants,   co-executive   consultants,   supervising   consultants,
creative consultants and on and on and on.  Have you ever wondered what
the  fuck all these people do, each one pulling down a minimum  of  ten
thousand  dollars  per episode?  Do you ever wonder why  it  takes  ten
minutes  to flash the credits on the screen at the start of  a  thirty-
minute program - which is only twenty-two minutes of actual program?

     Well, let me tell you - they don't do much!  Their function is  to
sit  around a big table with the executive producer (the real executive
producer,  the  one who really and truly produces the program  and  has
creative  control of the whole thing - called the "runner" in Hollywood
parlance) and dissect the script for that week's show.  They go over it
word  by  word,  line  by line, in absolutely minute  and  excruciating
detail.  They add, they cut, they polish, they augment, they shine  the
script - until it is ready to pass the network censors and it has  been
completely  almost eviscerated.  It's entertainment by committee.   And
we all know where that leads don't we?

     It leads to the dull, repetitive shit that is continually shoveled
out  week  after mind numbing bloody week to the American  public  (and
much  of  the  rest  of the world for that matter) and  passed  off  as
entertainment.  That is why a really great series, when it is  new  (be
it  a  dramatic series or a situation comedy, be it "ER", "Friends"  or
"Murphy  Brown"), are so entertaining and captivate the public.   There
is normally one hand guiding things and one point of view presented and
everything is fresh and new.  But after a few years the creative forces
behind  the initial success have either lost their touch, moved  on  to
something  newer or have delegated responsibility to  some  hack  -  or
committee  of hacks.  How many times can we watch the same regurgitated
swill - week after horrifying week.

     "The Sopranos" is such a hit and so "innovative" because it is the
vision of one man - David Chase.

     I  have a full staff for my weekly hour-long series - don't get me
wrong.   I  have  a  producer, two co-producers  and  two  consultants.
However, they run the operations side of the business, not the creative
side.  The fewer hands pulling on the cow's teats the better.

     When  I  signed  my contract with the studio I said  that  I  only
wanted  to  make one hundred episodes.  They countered by insisting  on
two-hour  specials (limited to a maximum of two per  season)  for  four
years  after the initial run was completed; I agreed.  This  seemed  to
satisfy them completely.  However, since the series has been a very big
success  and a prodigious money maker, I know, I absolutely know,  that
as  the fourth season begins I will be thrown tons of money to sign  on
for a fifth season.  I'm already dreading the acrimony.


                  Chapter 13 - Family Time and a Half

     May  passed  into June and June would soon be ending;  July  would
arrive  in a few days.  By the third week in July, I would need  to  be
back  in  Los  Angeles.  I had already sent the studio the first  eight
completed scripts for the new season.  Casting was underway as was  the
design  and building of the sets and costumes.  Location shots were  in
progress  in New York City and I made a two-day trip there to  see  how
things were progressing.

     Most  days  I  was either on the telephone or sending  emails  and
faxes; there were so many details that needed my attention - everything
from  possible  script revisions, to the menus from caterers,  to  what
breed  of  dog  to  have in a particular scene.  I definitely  need  to
delegate more authority.

     When  a  program  is in script form, there are no  limits  to  the
possibilities  or events.  Once the script must become filmed  reality,
more  problems arise than one can ever possibly imagine.  So there  was
an incredible amount of minutiae occupying my every waking hour.

     Carlos  continued to work his job but gave notice.   He  told  his
parents,  brothers  and  sisters  that  he  would  be  joining  me   in
California, and that we'd be driving cross-country.  We went to  dinner
at  the  Geller's and gave them details of our plans.   His  folks  had
anticipated  this  news and they took it very joyfully  and  wished  us
great  happiness  together.   Mrs. Geller served  a  fantastic  dinner;
Carlos'  sisters all took partial credit for the success.  His youngest
sister cried a little but everyone seemed to be genuinely happy for us.

     My parents, however, did not take the matter so kindly.  My father
was  convinced  that  the whole question of my sexual  orientation  was
still undecided - an aberration that I'd outgrow in a few years.

     "Why do you insist it's a passing phase, dad?"

     "'Cause  I've been through it too, Craig.  Yes, I've done  it  all
myself and I outgrew it.  We all go through that cycle."

     "So you're saying..."

     "I'm saying that if you give...uh...if you give women a chance I'm
sure...real sure that you'll be happy."

     "Happy?"

     "Yes,  happy.   You'll find real happiness and contentment  and  a
real  feeling  of belonging and maybe even the real feelings  of  love.
You'll have kids and settle down and begin to like your life."

     "Are  you saying that I will have to learn to like living  with  a
woman and having children - that it won't come naturally?"

     He  nodded.  "Sure!  No man really likes to live with a woman.  We
like  women but that doesn't mean we like being with them most  of  the
time."

     I hesitated for a second then decided to take up his challenge - I
needed  to  get my blood circulating.  I knew the guy was a little  off
his  former mental capacities but I did not want his expressions to  go
unchallenged.   And his opinions of the relationship  between  men  and
women  were  most  provocative.  "What if I told you that  I'd  already
tried women and found the experience.well, I found them wanting."

     "You've tried women?  When?"

     "When I was in college."

     "I don't remember."

     "Do  you honestly think I'd tell you those things?"  He gave me  a
slightly embarrassed glance.  "Yes, dad, believe it or not, I was  with
three different women during those years.  And one of them was an older
woman - not a student."

     "Older woman?  Who was it?" he demanded.

     "C'mon!   Do you think I'm an idiot?  No names.  But I have  slept
with  three women.or at least tried to sleep with them."  I lowered  my
head and my voice.  "I tried to sleep with them."

     "Tried?"

     "Tried!"

     "You weren't...I mean were you successful with them, right?"

     "Oh yes.  I was successful with all of them."  Dad smiled.  "But I
was...well, ets just say I was not happy with the experience and rather
unnerved by it."

     "'Unnerved'?  What the hell do you mean `unnerved'?"

     I  looked  up  in  the sky - at the variously shaped  and  quickly
shifting clouds skittering by.  I tried to collect my thoughts.   As  I
did one of the clouds reminded me of one of the women - Carly, a senior
anthropology  major.  We actually had sex four or five  times  and  she
began to believe that we had a future together.

     "I  didn't  feel fulfilled afterward.  I felt there was  something
missing...that I was not getting the full advantage of having sex.  All
that  expenditure of energy - both physical and psychic - was not worth
the  slim  rewards afterwards.  It as not the be all  and  end  all  of
experiences, if you know what I mean."

     "Shit!   Everybody feels that way.  Books fill your head with  all
kinds of crap concerning `love' and `sex' and `passion' and `feelings'.
A  lot of hooey!  A man has an obligation and unfortunately, for better
or  for  worse, women are part of it and the sooner you realize it  the
better  off  you'll be."  He took a sip of his drink.  "Did  you  sleep
with any of them more than once?"

     I nodded.  "All of them."

     "And you didn't like it."

     "That's  right.  Well, it's not so much that I didn't like  it  as
much as I had found something much better."  I paused here for dramatic
effect.  "I  found men."  He stared at me, a slightly envious stare...a
slightly bitter one too.

     "You found men," he repeated in a low monotone.

     "Actually I'd found men first, before I ever slept with  a  woman.
Found them in high school."

     "Jesus  H.  Christ!  High school?"  I nodded and gave him  a  nice
leering smile.

     "High school!"

     "Who?"

     I shook my head and wagged a finger at him.  "Naughty, naughty!" I
said  is  a mock drawl.  "Let's just say it opened my eyes and  brought
about a new perspective on things."

     We  were  both quite, alone with our various thoughts.  Dad  would
occasionally  glance at me as if he something to  say  but  managed  to
restrain himself.  Finally he spoke.  "When are you returning to LA?"

     "Ten days."

     "You driving?"

     "Yes,  and Carlos and Jake will be coming along.  I'll  be stopping
in Vegas to see Aunt June and Uncle Fred."

     Dad  snorted.   He  didn't particularly like  his  sister  or  her
husband.   They  were "show biz" people, just like  his  youngest  son.
"Why're you stopping there?"

     "Just  to see them again - it's been a long time.  And.well,  they
promised to help me get a few new, fresh faces for the casting  of  the
show.  And I like them."

     "You looking for men or women?"

     "Both."

     "You tryin' t' find a new...a new bed buddy?"

     "Jesus  dad!   You  know that's not necessary now!   Stop  playing
games!"

     He  muttered something under his breath, which I purposely did not
hear.

     He  was  disquietingly silent again, but I knew some  new  subject
would soon be raised, and I wasn't disappointed.  Ah, how well we  know
our  parents just at the time they are forgetting all they  know  about
us.  "I don't know why you need that big, expensive truck, Craig."

     "It's not a truck, dad; it an SUV."

     "It  sure as hell looks like a truck to me.  And a big gas  burner
to boot."

     "I agree, but it'll be very useful in California."

     "Who knew Mercedes made trucks?"

     "Dad!  Mercedes has been making trucks for a century, for Christ's
sake."

     "Says who?"

     "Says me and millions of other people."

     And that ended what had been the longest conversation I'd had with
my  dad  in  almost five years.  The previous one dealt with such  deep
subjects  like  salmon fishing in the Pacific Northwest  and  why  it's
necessary to build larger passenger airplanes.

     And  then there was my mother!  She was out of control.  After  we
brought Jake to the hospital, she was totally lost.  She needed to be a
mother  hen  -  she needed to feel in control of someone or  something.
She  asked the doctors if she could come to see him every day but  they
strongly discouraged the idea.  Good move on their part!

     Jake  made  remarkable  progress.   After  three  weeks,  he   had
recovered  about  70%  of his arm movements.  His speech  had  improved
markedly owing to new therapy techniques.  Carlos and I would  see  him
every  weekend but mom would never go with us.  She said that it  would
be  impossible to leave him after such a short visit - so she'd  rather
not go at all.

     He  seemed  to  be  happy with his progress and  kept  his  family
informed  of various stages of the treatments.  When he came  home  (on
July  3rd, eight days before our journey), he was in an extraordinarily
upbeat mood.  His arm movements had mostly returned and he was able  to
walk rather well using just a cane instead of the one crutch.  He could
write  decently and could accomplish most tasks without any  help.   We
were all very proud of him and extremely thankful for the great medical
expertise of the doctors and therapists.

     Carlos  had  been away for more than a week before  returning  the
same day Jake came home.  I missed him terribly.  He had gone with  his
father  to  a  conference  in Cleveland of an  association  of  organic
farmers  from  around the country.  The exact name of the  group  never
registered with me - guess I just wasn't that interested.

     I  was  so incredibly happy the afternoon of his return.  When  we
got  to  our room I held him and kissed him and let my hands play  over
his  incredible  tight body.  However, he seemed  a  little  distant  -
almost  as  if he were in some physical pain.  I asked him  if  he  was
okay, but he just dismissed my feelings and concerns with a wave of his
hand.

     Jake's  first  night  home  brought  out  the  best  of  my  mom's
homemaking  instincts and she prepared an enormous and  very  elaborate
dinner.  The biggest surprise happened just before dinner began.  There
was  a  knock on the door and Jake quickly went to answer it.  He  came
back  accompanied by Fran - Fran the pool-cleaning guy.  They had their
arms  around each other and looked the picture of a happy couple.  They
were smiling at one another and Fran whispered something in Jake's  ear
that made him laugh.

     It was a pleasure to see Jake so happy; he had found someone to be
with  and  who liked him.  I mean they were like lovebirds.   The  only
time they stopped touching each other is when they were eating.  I  had
realized  the  truth Jake's sexual preferences after  speaking  to  the
psychiatrist at the Philadelphia hospital and was relieved to know that
Jake had accepted himself for the gay man he was.

     It was a pleasant evening although a rather subdued one around the
dinner  table.   Talk was at a minimum, with everyone concentrating  at
his  or  her  own  plate, busy passing the food  around  and  sometimes
commenting on the high quality of the meal.

     The  most  surprising  thing  about  the  blossoming  relationship
between Jake and Fran was that my folks seemed to be totally accepting.
They  behaved as if Jake had brought home a girl - nothing was made  of
the fact that Jake and Fran were a gay couple.  Of course, neither Jake
nor Fran was their son, so why should it bother them?

     After  dinner, mom and dad cleaned up and Jake, Carlos Fran and  I
went  into  the  family room watched TV, drank some beers  and  talked.
Fran  regaled us with stories of a summer spent cleaning swimming pools
and they were, for the most part, hysterical.  I made mental notes of a
few;  I  was certain one or two would find their way into a script.   A
writer is always working.

     It  was an early night since we had only four full days to prepare
for  our  departure to the coast.  I got the strange feeling that  Jake
wanted to speak to us, Carlos and me - to tell us something.  Maybe  he
wanted to explain about Fran.  I certainly could not read his mind  but
he  would  keep  glancing at me and when I returned his look  he  would
quickly turn away.

     When  it  came time to say good night, Jake and Fran went  outside
together after kissing us.  Carlos and I went off to our wing.

     "Well, that was an interesting evening," Carlos said with a  touch
of sarcasm in his voice.

     "Wasn't it now," I agreed.

     "But...but...well, did you have the strangest feeling that Jake was
trying very hard to tell us something?"

     "I  did.  You know how Jake is - everything takes such a long time
with him.  I'm sure he'll eventually get it all out."

     "Yeah,  I  suppose,"  Carlos said in a rather  exasperated  voice.
"But we've been through all this business with him and we've speculated
about  him  so  much that I'd love to know the whole  truth  about  his
situation - if there is such a thing."

     "I  agree, but we still must let him do it at his own pace.and  in
his own time."

     I  looked  over at Carlos rather lustily and he responded  exactly
how  I  wished  he  would.  He slowly walked across the  room  into  my
waiting arms.  Holding his compact, strong, warm, young body in my arms
was the greatest thrill I'd known for many years.  With his head on  my
chest  and his arms slowly stroking my back, I could not believe I  was
this happy.this content.this excited and so overwhelmingly in love.

     Carlos  knew  how  to  take  care of  me  perfectly  -  absolutely
perfectly!   He knew every sensitive place on my body - and then  some!
Of  course, with Carlos in my bed, every square inch of my body  became
an  erogenous zone - my body one enormous sensitive area.   I  was  his
willing  sex  slave  -  he  was my man and I need  him  to  service  me
completely.  He had begun to take total charge of our lovemaking and  I
was thrilled about that.  He was always so horny and so ready - and  so
incredibly  beautiful and desirable.  I loved these traits in  my  man,
and Carlos filled the bill completely and absolutely.

     I had always assumed that I would be the lead in our relationship,
since  I was older (and maybe wiser and more experienced?).  But Carlos
seemed  to  be a take-charge type of guy and I loved the  way  he  took
charge - it was thrilling; every time was like the first time.   I  was
simply  crazy  about how he made love to me.  Carlos was an  incredibly
natural,  sexual animal.  He overcame any inhibitions he may  have  had
incredibly  quickly and just let himself be natural - and  the  results
were fantastic for both of us.

     Carlos tried to have new surprises for me whenever we made love  -
which,  thankfully, was very often.  He'd add a new "spin" to something
"old" or maybe he'd have a new toy for us to take pleasure in.

     And  tonight was no different.  We held each other and played with
each other's body through our clothing.

     He then produced a blindfold from a drawer in the nightstand and I
started  getting both frightened and excited.  He put the blindfold  on
me  and then asked me to stand up, which was not easy to do since I was
so  highly  aroused.  He asked me to stand up against one wall  and  to
spread my legs and arms.  I did as he asked and he blindfolded me.

     I  heard  him  walk over to the stereo and turn it on.   In  about
fifteen  seconds, the music began.  It was a recording of  Ravel's  "La
Valse,"  a  slightly  unfocused,  bizarre  and  generally  off-the-wall
version of a waltz tune.  It is similar to his famous "Bolero" in  that
it  is driven and quite sexy.  One should always remember that when the
waltz was introduced in the early 19th century it was considered to  be
very,  very risqu‚ and extremely naughty by those in "polite"  society.
Partners actually held each other closely during the entire dance.  The
waltz  was  no polka or minuet - it was slow, leisurely and very,  very
sensual.

     Carlos  began  to  remove  my clothes - slowly  and  so  extremely
sexily.  As each new area of my flesh was exposed, he kissed it  slowly
and  lovingly,  playing with it gently with hands and  lips.   He  paid
incredible  attention to my nipples, washing them with his  tongue  and
then biting them lightly.  As I held my arms over my head he pushed his
tongue into my newly shaved armpits, washing them down thoroughly.   He
made  all  kinds  of  wonderful  noises,  which  were  transferred   as
stimulating vibrations to my body.  I had difficulty standing.   I  had
trouble breathing.  Carlos had me so hot I was starting to sway.

     He removed my shorts, letting them fall to the floor.  He undid my
sandals  and I stepped out of everything.  All the while, he  continued
to  pamper  my body with kisses and loving caresses.  I felt  his  lips
soothingly caressing my thighs and I knew he must be on his knees.   He
kissed  and  licked the insides of my thighs and behind my knees.   His
touch  was  magic.  Being blindfolded seemed to increase the sensations
for  me - the thrills and phenomenal feelings seemed heightened when  I
no longer knew where Carlos was going to attack next.

     He moved his delicate, searching hands over the straining pouch on
my  bikini briefs.  He softly and delicately stroked my rampaging  cock
and  my  tender,  sensitive  testicles through  the  material.   I  was
trembling  at  the myriad of exquisite sensations coursing  through  my
body.  My fantastic man knew how to properly take care his willing  and
loving sexual slave.

     My  briefs seemed stretched to bursting.  I think Carlos then  got
down on the floor, because he began kissing his way up my legs; I could
not keep my body under control.

     He  tried  to calm me down by softly speaking loving words.   They
worked  for  a  minute  or two.  Of course, these soothing  words  were
followed  by Carlos putting his mouth on my encased cock and balls  and
biting  lightly  on  them.   Shit!  What  a  fuckin'  cock  tease!   He
continued  to work his mouth around my package.  I could feel  his  hot
breath  through  the material of the briefs and I was boiling.   I  was
ready to scream at him when he suddenly spoke.

     "Okay, Craig.  Here's what we're going to do.  For the next  phase
of  this  evening's entertainment there are certain rules that must  be
followed.  And  I  mean they must be followed to the letter...or else!.
Agree?"

     I  was  in such a high state of arousal that I'd agree to anything
at this point.  "Absolutely!  Anything you say sweetheart.  Anything!"

     "Okay  then.   I'm going to remove your blindfold.  And  then  I'm
going to do a slow strip for you.  Got that?"

     I nodded my head vigorously.

     "Good.   As I do my strip you are to stand absolutely still,  keep
your arms spread and not approach me until I am completely naked and  I
tell you that you can touch me.  Okay?"

     "Yeah!    Okay!    Okay!"   I  was  beginning   to   pant   almost
uncontrollably and my cock was pushing out my briefs to the maximum.

     "Right.   But  first, I think I'm going to pull  off  your  briefs
`cause  I can see your cock's straining them to the limit.  Try not  to
move too much.  I'll help as much as I can."

     I  felt  Carlos tug at my briefs and they fell to  the  floor.   I
stepped  out.   He then stood close to me and gently began  to  rub  my
outstretched  arms.  He was so gentle and the feel of his hands  slowly
rubbing  my arms was electric.  I could sense him moving closer  to  me
and  soon  I  felt his lips and mouth moving tenderly over  my  exposed
skin.   He kissed and licked my arms and then moved again to my exposed
armpits.  I loved when he nursed at my pits - and Carlos love it too

     He worked his lips gently across my chest until he was rubbing one
nipple  between his strong yet amazingly soft lips.  Then he  moved  to
the other one and began to simultaneously stroke my armpits.

     I  thought I was going to have a fit!  I was still blindfolded and
this resulted in heightened sensory awareness.  It was like every nerve
in  my  body was on full alert and standby.  All Carlos had to  do  was
touch  any  part  of me, and my body would begin to  buck  and  tremble
almost  uncontrollably.  I had great difficulty maintaining my  balance
and keeping my arms out stretched.

     And then he removed my blindfold.


                      Chapter 14 - Three...Two...One...

     Carlos was still fully dressed.  It took my eyes a few seconds  to
adjust to the light in the room.

     He looked magnificent - and I so deeply wanted to maul and totally
ravish  that  great body.  When I reached slightly to begin unbuttoning
his  shirt,  he  pulled away.  "Not yet, Craig.   Soon,  but  not  yet.
Remember what I told you...arms against the wall at all times. Okay?" I
reluctantly  nodded,  not  taking my eyes  off  Carlos'  face  for  one
instant.

     He wasn't smiling - just staring at me, staring as intensely as  I
was  staring  at him.  Our eyes were locked together - like  a  psychic
bridge  between  like  minds.  The burning  intensity  of  those  dark,
shining eyes will forever be etched on the neurons of my brain.

     Carlos began to raise his right hand.  Everything seemed to be  as
if  taking place in slow motion.  The slow, steady movement of his hand
had  me entranced.  I stared as his hand slowly and meticulously  began
to unbutton the shirt he was wearing. One...two...three buttons...he
pulled the  shirt  out  of  his slacks...four...five...six...the shirt
is  completely unbuttoned.  He moved the shirt off his chest...and I
fucking  near  died on the spot.

     "It's  part of your birthday present to me," he said softly  while
giving me an enormous grin.

     "W-w-what's the o-other p-p-part...or p-parts?" I stammered.

     "Be  patient...just a little patience...and you'll see...you'll
definitely see," he replied with a soft chuckle in his voice.

     What  had  taken my breath away.and make me so incredibly  hot.was
that Carlos had been pierced.  In (and through) his left nipple, Carlos
now  sported a gold barbell.and it was incredibly gorgeous.  The  light
played  off  of  it  and  the  glistening against  his  dark  skin  was
remarkable.and absolutely hypnotic.  It threw out a thousand sparks and
only emphasized his tremendous masculine beauty.

     He moved his hand slowly up to the nipple and golden barbell...and
teasingly  began  to circle the area with one finger.   He  did  it  so
slowly and so sensuously that I began to pant uncontrollably.  My  body
was  beginning to slowly gyrate as Carlos continued to finger  himself.
I was feeling that I would be able to come without even touching myself
or having Carlos touch me.

     Still  he  continued to finger the area around his tit and  played
around  that gorgeous hard nub.  My arm began to move - move almost  on
its  own, through no control from me.  My hand gradually began to reach
for that glistening bauble.

     "Uh...uh...uh!  Remember the promise?  No...no, Craig!  No
touching...at least not yet.

     I  let out a breath I hadn't realized I'd been holding.  It became
a  loud  moan - a sigh of disappointment and frustration.  Carlos  only
gave  me  a  rueful smile.  He put one finger into his mouth  and  then
slowly  and  delicately worked that wet finger around  and  around  his
nipple.

     I  become aware of a cool feeling coming from my cock and realized
that  I  must be leaking up a storm of pre-cum.  I quickly looked  down
and saw a steady drip, drip, drip of my fluids onto the hardwood floor.
This  made  me  even  hotter, knowing that Carlos had  this  incredible
effect on my body.

     Carlos  raised  his  free hand to his belt  and  undid  it  as  he
continued  to  play  nearer and nearer to that luscious  tit  with  his
circling  finger.  The jeans dropped to the floor; he stepped  out  and
kicked  them  away.   My eyes were now suddenly riveted  to  his  white
bikini  briefs  and the almost visible treasures they  were  trying  to
conceal.  His basket was so incredibly inviting.

     Our eyes locked.  Carlos gave me a small smile and I grinned back.
I'd  bet  that  I looked like a blithering idiot.  His  eyes  began  to
slowly  traverse my body, dropping finally to look at  my  very  needy,
incredibly  throbbing cock.  Again, he smiled.  He took  a  small  step
toward me while continuing to stimulate that pulsing nipple.

     I  gasped in anticipation of Carlos touching me and had difficulty
breathing.  All of a sudden, I felt that familiar combination  of  pain
and  pleasure  emanating from my crotch and I knew that I  had  somehow
passed  the  so-called  point of no return.  My body  began  to  gyrate
faster and faster and I had great difficulty adhering to Carlos' dictum
to  stay  against  the wall with my arms raised.  My  breathing  became
ragged  and I knew I was moaning, although I was hearing the sounds  as
if they were coming through a very heavy curtain.  And I could not stop
my  body from shaking.  It was absolutely vibrating - moving in ways  I
had never experienced before.

     And  shit!   Goddamn!   Shit!  Did I ever shoot!   Without  anyone
touching  my out of control cock or going anywhere near my ball,  I
shot  an enormous load.  I could feel the fire pulsing through my  dick
and  then  out.  What a totally unexpected experience.  I kept shooting
and shaking at this most incredible happening - this event that emptied
my balls of much of their accumulated hoard.

     As  I came down from my unbelievable high, I felt my legs suddenly
weakening.   I knew I could no longer stand unsupported.   I  began  to
slide  down  the wall.  I could feel the cool surface moving  along  my
back.  Then I felt Carlos' hands on me and his arms wrapping around me,
and  suddenly he took the brunt of my weight and helped easy me  gently
onto the floor.

     As  I  opened  my  eyes, I could see a look of total  surprise  on
Carlos'  face.  He began to smile and I got a little annoyed  with  him
finding humor in my discomfort.  Then I realized the incredible heights
that I had just scaled - that Carlos had made me reach - and I began to
smile  back at him.  I was covered in sweat and lying in a pool  of  my
pre-cum  and cum.  I could not have been a pretty sight.  I  was  happy
but far from presenting a pleasant picture.  Carlos cradled my head  in
his  lap  and  soothingly ran his fingers through my hair.   He  gently
kissed my forehead.

     I slowly regained my composure...and my strength. While lifting my
head  slowly, I smiled broadly at my sweet, caring Carlos.   "That  was
someth..."

     He  abruptly  cut  me  off.  "Shhh!  Did you forget?   There's  no
talking!"

     "You mean this isn't over?"  I quickly blurted out.

     "SHH!"  was all he said.  He rubbed my shoulders and chest  gently
and  comfortingly.  "Of course it isn't over, silly man.  The best part
is  yet to come."  He smiled at me and I could not help but smile  back
at  him.  He was so adorable and so incredibly sexy with that marvelous
gold barbell through his nipple.

     I  had  to  touch it.  I slowly raised my hand, little  by  little
moving it to that alluring bauble.  He gently pushed it away and  shook
his  head,  giving  me  a big grin as he did.  I was  disappointed  but
equally turned on once again by his refusal.

     He  helped me stand as soon as I had regained my strength.  I  was
surprised  to  see that I was already impossibly hard  once  again  and
pumping  out  the old pre-cum.  Shit!  I could not keep my passion  for
this man under control - it knew no limit.

     "Remember, Craig," he said softly - and, I thought, quite sexily -
"the  same  rules still apply - no touching, no speaking, back  against
the wall, arms out."

     I nodded.  No use arguing - it won't get me anywhere.

     Carlos  was still wearing those white bikini briefs and he  looked
so  sexy and so beautiful in them.  I clearly remember the day we  went
shopping  for them.  He was so thrilled when we got back  home  and  he
tried them on for the first time.  It was like a young boy getting  his
first  pair of briefs after getting out of diapers.  He marched  around
in them and struck various cute and appealingly sexy poses.

     Now  he was baiting me with those same gorgeous brief clinging  to
super  sexy body.  Carlos used the back of his hand to gently rub  over
the material - over his ass cheeks, his thighs and over his tantalizing
package.  He was filling out that garment so beautifully.  Despite  his
small  penis  and  testicle size, everything  about  his  body  was  so
beautifully proportioned.

     I  closed  my eyes and pictured the first time Carlos and  I  were
together and my reaction to first seeing his magnificent bod.   Christ!
What  a turn on!  What an incredible experience.  Now I itched to touch
him again - the feeling was palpable.

     He was in front of me once again and I could not reach out to him.
I  felt  isolated  and lonely.  The music continued to play  moderately
loudly  in  the background and Carlos began to wiggle his tight  little
body in front of my eyes.  He swayed gracefully in rhythm to the music.
He  began  rubbing  his hands over his body - around  his  new  pierced
nipple,  over  his abs and continuing down his thighs, lower  legs  and
finally  his feet.  His gorgeous tight ass was pushed up into  the  air
and with his legs spread wide, his hands tightly holding his calves; he
began to move his ass around in tight little circles.

     Remaining in that position he gradually began to turn his body  so
that  his fabulous butt cheeks were facing me.  They were so tight  and
so  firm  and  so incredibly muscular - and I could see  clearly  every
muscle  he  set  rippling beneath those exquisitely  tight  and  clingy
briefs.   He clenched and unclenched those muscles to the beat  of  the
music and I was ready to explode once again.

     Carlos  stood with his back to me - his head and arms were raised,
his  legs  were spread, his hands reaching toward the ceiling,  fingers
spread and extended.  He lowered his arms very slowly and massaged  his
sides  and  then began rubbing and sexily manipulating those incredible
ass  cheeks.   While continuing his lavish treatment of  his  body,  he
slowly  turned  until he faced me directly.  His eyes  were  opened  to
slits  and  his  pelvis was thrust forward.  I could see that  enticing
package trying to fill every cubic inch of those briefs.

     What  began to surprise me (and frankly, worry me a bit) was  that
there  was  no wet spot on the front of those briefs that I could  see.
Also,  his face seemed to reveal that my Carlos was in some  pain.   He
would grimace occasionally and it was quite apparent.  He would try  to
smile  through  the obvious pain but couldn't always.   I  almost  said
something to him but as soon as I opened my mouth, his eyes flew opened
and his intense stare stopped me.

     His  face broke into a smile.  "It's nothing." He said in  a  soft
whisper.  "Nothing at all."

     He  put  his thumbs into the stretchy material at the top  of  his
underwear.  Then he very slowly began to lower then with both hands.  I
held  my  breath, though I knew what was in store what I was  about  to
behold.

     When  I looked at his face, he was staring at me with a huge  grin
on his face.  What was he grinning about?  I had seen him so many time.
Why now the big grin?

     I  slowly  lower  my  glance,  seeing  again  that  superb  nipple
piercing,  his  strong pecs and abs, and then his  marvelous,  hairless
crotch.   And  then his cock...that magnificent dark center of my life.
What I saw this time was something new...something different.

     There was something glistening at the tip of Carlos' erect dick  -
something reflecting the lights of the room.  At first I thought is was
just  a single drop of his pre-cum and I so desperately wanted to  lick
it  off.  I felt my body aching to touch him, to embrace his manliness.
But I knew I could not move and the effect on me was paralyzing.

     He  moved slightly and I saw how his cock was extended to its full
length.  My fabulous Carlos was (and still is) not very big - a  little
over  three inches when completely erect.  But I loved his cock as much
as  anything;  to me it was the perfect combination of overt  manliness
and delicious boyishness.  For me, it was the perfect combination and I
again  marveled at how fortunate I was to have him as my  love  and  my
lover.

     So,  he  turned  slightly  and it finally  registered.   My  brain
finally   processed   the  information  it  was   receiving.    I   was
surprised...and delighted...and overwhelmed.   Carlos had had his  cock
pierced too!

     I  moaned loudly and quickly fell to my knee.  I wanted  him  -  I
want  all of him in my mouth as fast and as completely as possible.   I
needed to feel his smooth skin, his practically hairless body, his  hot
lips pressed against mine.  Even more, I needed his mouth on my cock  -
and my mouth on his raging cock.

     "Be  very  gentle, Craig.  Take it real slow.  Okay?   It's  still
more `n little raw and hurts.  Okay?"

     "Yeah, yeah," I moaned.  "I'll be careful.  I promise."

     Carlos  slowly moved towards me.  His cock was fully erect  but  I
could see, when I looked up at his face that he was in some pain.   The
golden ring glistened seductively in the light, drawing me every closer
and  increasing my needs.  The placement and size was exquisite and its
polished deep color contrasted so beautifully with the deep, rich color
of Carlos' delicate penis.

     When  his incredible cock was right in front of me, I noticed  how
irritated  the head appeared - it looked to be injured and  I  felt  so
sorry for my wonderful, caring man.  I opened my mouth and brought  out
the  tip of my tongue; I began to very, very slowly and gently lick the
head.   It  was now completely exposed and looked so very red and  more
than a little raw.

     Carlos moaned slightly and it sounded like he was in pain.   "Does
it hurt, sweetie?"

     "Uh!"   He  breathed  deeply a few times.  "Yes,  love.   Yes,  it
does...a little."

     "Sorry.  I know it hasn't healed completely.  I can see that.  I'm
so sorry."  I know I wanted him more than I ever had before, but Carlos
was  in  pain and I could not tolerate my precious love being in  pain.
"We can stop now and just cuddle if you want.  Okay?"

     I  looked up into his gorgeous face.  "Yeah, that'd be just great,
Craig."  He swallowed hard and was fighting back tears.  "I love you so
much.  But very...very soon.  Okay?"

     I  stood,  taking him into my arms, my hard, leaking cock  pressed
into  his abdomen.  I wanted to make sure that his lovely cock was  not
touching anything.  I kissed him.  It was more than a kiss - it  was  a
pledge of my undying love and unfailing friendship.

     I  put my hand around his waist and we walked over to the bed.   I
lay  down and helped Carlos join me.  He slowly and gently got  in  and
soothingly scrunched up next to me.  He placed his hand on my chest and
slowly began rubbing the hairs between my pecs.  I closed my eyes as  I
felt his gentle touch.

     Without saying a word, we both knew that I need relief once again.
We kissed as he tenderly began to manipulate my nipples, first with his
hand  and  then with his mouth, tongue and teeth.  I was  ecstatic  and
loved everything he was doing.  I opened my eyes to small slits and saw
Carlos on his knees as he excitingly serviced my body.  I saw those two
magnificent piercings sparkling in the reflected light of  the  room  -
the  barbell through his left nipple and the superb Prince  Albert  now
permanently  affixed to his cock head.  To me these body  modifications
cemented  our  relationship and affirmed the deep  love  between  us  -
Carlos' love for me and my total adoration of this loving man.

     Carlos was doing fabulous things to my body.  He knew what I  like
and  wasn't  afraid to do it.  He moved to between my legs  and  before
putting his mouth on my rampant, straining cock, he gently rubs his new
PA  over  the head and the feeling is exhilarating.  It is  a  new  and
extremely exciting stimulation.

     After  bringing  me to an earthshaking climax - I was  afraid  the
noise I was making would awaken everyone in the household - I know  the
cats were a little disturbed - Carlos crawled into my arms where I held
him  closely  and  intimately.  I could happily stay in  this  position
forever, holding my love.

     I  was  exhausted - completely spent.  I was practically comatose.
Carlos  held  me  tightly as I slowly recovered my  sensibilities.   My
brain was desperately trying to replay our just finished lovemaking, in
much  the  same way that one tries to recreate a dream when  one  first
wakes up.

     He  told  me he had to tend to his piercings, so we went into  the
bathroom,  where I gently daubed Betadine on his newly  pierced  nipple
and  onto the head of his penis.  I got a tremendous rush from  playing
nurse  to  his patient.  He smiled as I ministered to him and I  kissed
him  gently  as I swabbed the antiseptic on him.  He was so  thrilling.
Every  time I was with him, or saw him, or thought about him,  I  could
not  comprehend  how I was so fortunate to have found someone  I  could
love  so  utterly  and completely, and found him literally  in  my  own
backyard.  The little kid, whom I barely remembered watching  me  as  I
drove out of the driveway in my first car, was now sharing my bed and I
was in love with him like I had never been in love before.

     "Good, huh?" Carlos said giving me a big grin.

     "Christ!  That has to qualify as the understatement of the  year!"
I  averred as I returned his smile.  I purred contentedly while  Carlos
continued  to  hold me and soothe me gently pet my body.   "Thanks,  my
love," I whispered.

     "Thanks for what?"

     "Thanks  for  making me so happy - for being here with  me  -  for
being here for me - and for being you."

     He  leaned over and kissed me again and I slowly moved my hand  to
circle  the  gold  ring through his nipple.  When my hand  touched  his
skin, Carlos gasped and lifted the hand to his lips.

     "Do you like `em?"

     "The piercings?"

     "Yeah."

     "I  love  `em.   I really do."  I tickled his belly.   He  giggled
delightfully.  "They make you even sexier than before.which is quite  a
remarkable feat."  I leaned over and kissed him hard, then slowly moved
my  tongue  down until it was circling that glorious, pierced  tit.   I
kissed  it  very softly.  Carlos moaned and I kissed him  again.   "You
certainly know how to take care of me, don't you?"

     He smiled and his eyes twinkled.  He nodded.  "I try my best."  We
kissed again.  "Genuine 18 Karat gold, you know.  Only the best for  my
lover and me."

     "That's the way it'll always be,"

     "You  are fabulous, Craig."  I noticed tears beginning to form  in
his  eyes.   "It's  not  many people who have their  wildest  childhood
fantasies  fulfilled.and fulfilled as completely  as  you've  fulfilled
mine."  We kissed long and passionately.  "I'm so lucky!"

     We  snuggled together and I held Carlos close to me.   The  warmth
and  feel of his compact body was starting to get me aroused again.   I
kept  picturing those incredible piercings and how beautiful they  were
and  how  sexy  I found them.  What was I going to do?   Start  another
session?   Well,  why  not?  We could sleep late and  making  love  was
better than anything else we could possibly be doing.

     I nodded at him; he nodded back.


                Chapter 15 - Explanations and Goodbyes

     Mom made her usual big Independence Day/4th of July celebration at
our  place.  There would be lots of food, lots of people (including the
Gellers)  and  in  the evening we would all go off  to  see  the  local
fireworks  display.   She'd been doing this for  as  long  as  I  could
remember  and  she was going to make sure that this year's  celebration
was  bigger and better than ever before.  After all, her son was a  big
Hollywood and TV superstar now.

     My  sister  Helene,  her  husband and two  daughters  arrived  the
morning  of  the  4th.  Not my idea of warm family  get  together.   My
sister  (my eldest sibling) and I never truly got along.  She  was  too
imperious,  too  haughty and too fucking rigid in her attitude.   Also,
she  loathed  the idea that her baby brother was a fag.  This  was  too
much  for  her  to accept.  Her husband, Willard, was about  ten  years
older  and was interested in only two things - sailing and making  more
money.   The two kids were nice enough in that uptight, WASPy,  private
schoolish Connecticut country clubby sort of way.

     Helene almost had a fucking cow when she saw me with Carlos -  how
we  held  each  other, and nuzzled each other and, horror  of  horrors,
kissed  each other.  A few years ago, she had referred to him  as  that
"small,  sorry assed, cretin spic from that shit eating farm  we  own."
Helene had a way a cutting immediately to the chase and eliminating the
niceties.

	She  looked like someone had just shoved a turd  under  her
nose whenever she passed the two of us or when she spied Jake and Fran.
Shit!   I nearly bust a fucking gut at her reaction to those two -  the
crippled blonde surfer-boy and the redneck laborer-stud.

     Fortunately,  the  party  was  an  enormous  success.   The  great
surprise occurred at about 6 PM when this huge limo pulled up  and  the
four  stars  of my series stepped out.  Mom had arranged  for  them  to
travel  up from New York City where they had been busy filming segments
of  the show on location.  One teenage girl damn near fainted when  she
saw  the  hunky star.  I thought the screaming would never cease.   The
actors embraced me and the flashes were constant.

     It  was after 1 AM before I finally got to bed; I could still hear
an occasional firecracker going off in the distance.  I was reading and
Carlos was asleep next to me.  He would occasionally moan slightly  and
I  was  worried  that  he was experiencing some pain.   I  stroked  his
forehead whenever this happened and he'd get a small smile on his  face
and scrunch closer to me.

     There was a light tapping on the door.  I put on my robe and  went
to  answer.  I was very surprised, and somewhat delighted, to see  Jake
standing  in the doorway; he was dressed in briefs and a tee shirt  and
using only his cane.

     "Hi Craig," he said in a low conversational tone.  "Can I come  in
t' talk t' ya?"

     "Certainly  Jake.  Come in."  I lowered the lights in the  bedroom
and  we  went  into  the  sitting  room.   "Sit  down,  please."   Jake
maneuvered  himself into one of the recliners.  He was moving  so  much
better these days and his speech was definitely improving.

     "Thanks."   He  let  out a rather large sigh.  "Ah  hope  I'm  not
interruptin' anythin'."

     "Not at all.  As you saw, Carlos is asleep; he  had an...uh...an
exhausting trip."

     "Good!"   Jake  seemed  to be collecting  his  thoughts.   He  was
staring  at  the  floor.  "I though' it's abou' time I tole  ya  fellas
`bout wha' happen in Philly."

     "That's not necessary, Jake," I quickly responded.  "You explained
it when we visited you in the hospital."

     He shook his head vigorously. "I know...I know. And I remember how
slow  that  was  and  I'm sure ya didn't understan' everythin'  I  said
then."   He looked directly at me.  "I want ya and Carlos t' understan'
what...well, what I've been goin' through. From the beginnin'...from
the time before m' stroke."

     "Do  we  have time for that?" I said while giving him a big smile,
and I knew he had gotten my small joke.

     He returned the smile.  "I think so.  I'm tired and I'll give ya a
short version.  But I know that I havta tell ya everythin'.  Okay?"

     I  nodded.  Carlos and I had discussed what Jake had told us while
he  was in that Philadelphia hospital, along with the information  that
the  psychiatrist  had  mentioned and  various  other  tidbits  we  had
gleaned.  We'd thrashed out every aspect of those conversations and had
come  to  similar  conclusions - that Jake had a  strong  bias  towards
homosexuality,  even  though  he was ostensibly  heterosexual,  or,  at
least, had convinced himself that he was a hetero and not gay.

     I took some cold drinks out of the fridge, I settled back and Jake
began.

     "Okay.   I'm gay, Craig."  I nodded and sipped my beer, trying  to
keep my face as expressionless as possible.  "I think I knew this for a
while...even before my stroke. I love doing...well doing it with guys. I
had  this  girlfriend in San Diego and we did...did certain things  but
never went...you know, never did everything.  You know, go all the way.

     "But...but...and this I never tole ya...but I did do it wit' some
guys.  An' I loved it.  I really did.  Bot' me an' my friends jus'  say
that  it's  experimentin' and that we wasn't gay or  anythin'.   But  I
really like what we was doin' and I'd think `bout it all the time  when
I  was  wit' my girlfriend...you know, to get me hard and keep me hard.
And soon there was this one guy who I was with mosta the time.

     "His  name  was  Lyle...and he's so beautiful.  Me  and  Lyle  was
t'gether so much."  Jake let out a small laugh here.  "He'd sneak  into
my  house  at  night and we'd sleep t'gether and be lovers.   The  lass
night b'fore my stroke...we...we had sex for the first time. I  mean you
know  ass  fucking sex.  I really loved it and so did Lyle.   Then  the
next day I had my stroke and that was the end of everythin'.

     "Lyle visits me in the hospital all the time and he even kisses me
a  few  times  to make me feel better but then he stops  coming  and  I
figure he found someone else.  And he did.  That's one of the reasons I
went  on  the road.  I just really wanted t' get away from him and  all
his pity.

     "So  I took up my cross country trip.  And I never had any sex  at
all.  Nobody seemed interested in a young cripple who couldn't speak or
walk right. Until I got here and ya...remember...when ya play with me...and
jack  me  off  in  the  tub?"  I nodded and  smiled.   He  smiled  back
sheepishly.  "I remember that so clear.  It was so wonderful, Craig."

     Jake took a deep breath and let it out very slowly looking down at
his  beer and took a small sip.  "Then ya and Carlos found each  other.
I was happy for ya both...b-but I knew I needed to get away on the road
again.  So I did.  I almost didn't.  I mean I was really torn.  I  knew
I wanted to stay but seein' ya and Carlos every day was hard on me.  So
I went.

     "Things are great until I get to Philly.  New York's fabulous  and
I stay longer than I plan on.  So I'm in Philly and one night I go into
this  gay bar and I'm able to pass for twenty-one.  I suppose  with  my
crutches and gray hair and all I look so much older.  I meet these  two
guys who seem interested in me and we talk and they say they'd like  t'
be  with me and could we go my hotel room.  I say okay and we go.  They
gotta car an' we drive t' the hotel...well, it's really a motel...and a
pretty shitty one.  We go into my room...and...and we have sex.

     "They  look like college guys and say somethin' `bout classes  and
all.   They both fuck me and suck me off.  They's a little rough but  I
really  love it all since it's been such a long time since anyone  does
this  for  me."  He blushed beautifully, took another sip of  beer  and
looked at me with a rather sullen expression on his face.  He spoke  in
a  very low voice.  "I was wrong in tellin' ya Craig that I never  done
gay sex.  I had...a lot."  He seemed so apologetic and rather contrite.
"So  afterwards they say they're hungry so we go out to some all  night
place  and  get  somethin' t' eat.  I like bein' with `em  `cause  they
payin'  attention t' me and smilin' at me and all.  Not too  many  guys
wanna  have anythin' t' do with me since I'm a cripple.  Not many  guys
like t' be in bed with a twisted up cripple like me."  He looked at  me
steadily and hard.  "Ya never took me t' bed, Craig."

     I  felt  very  angry and quite frustrated at his remark.   "Jesus,
Jake!   You told me you were straight - what could I do?  What did  you
want me to do?  You never made any overt moves and no gestures that you
wanted me to...to, you know, put any moves on you.  What was a guy in my
position to do?"

     "Yeah,  I  understand that now.  I really do.  I just didn't  know
how...how t'let ya know that I want t' be with ya.  With my buddies  in
California we just seem t' know...ya know, when one of us wanted t' have
some...uh...some  sex.  It was just like automatic."   I  began  to say
something but he put up his hand to stop me and I kept quiet.  "So  one
of `em guys says we should go back to his place and I say okay.  So, we
drive  to  this real beautiful section of the city - all big  buildings
and like that.  This guy drivin' pulls int' this big garage, one of `em
many  level ones and he drived up near the top, goin' round and  round.
Says he's tryin' t' find a good parking space.

     "I'm startin' t' get a little freaked out.  I say I wanna get out.
I  think he's stallin'.  And I say somethin' else.  The guys both laugh
at  me.  Finally he pulls int' a space and we get out.  One guy gets  a
bag  outa the trunk and we start walkin' t' the exit.  All of a  sudden
my  crutch is knocked out from under me and I fall t' the concrete.   I
land  on  my  stomach and I'm hurtin' bad.  I'd hit my head  on  a  car
parked there and I think I'm bleedin'.  One of `em doods has a bat  and
he  starts beatin' me wit' it.  Shit!  I'm really pissed and  I'm  also
hurtin' real bad.  I'm on my back and alls I'm seein' are the lights of
that shitty garage.

     "They's  shoutin' things at me, callin' me faggot  and  queer  and
sayin' that I'm gonna die of AIDS.  All sortsa nasty stuff.  Then  some
kinda  security guy come along and start shoutin' at `em and they drive
off  quick.   This guy use his phone and call 9-1-1.  I'm thinkin' that
they's gonna die of AIDS too since they's faggots too.  That's the last
thing I remember.  The next thing I know I wake up in the hospital  and
there's  doctors and nurses around me and I fall asleep again and  then
you and Carlos are there."

     I  reach out and grasp his hand.  I gently hold it in two of  mine
and  rub  it lightly.  Jake has tears in his eyes; a few run  down  his
cheek.   I  lean  over  toward him and he  returns  the  gesture.   And
suddenly  we are kissing.  It is not a passionate kiss but a  heartfelt
and deeply touching one.

     As  we both sat back, I could see the outline of Jake's very erect
cock  in  his  shorts.  He rubbed it lightly when he thought  I  wasn't
looking,  and  spoke again.  "Franny and me are gonna be t'gethah  this
wintah."

     "Huh?  Franny?  Franny who?"

     "Franny!   Fran!  Ya know?  The pool guy?  Okay?"   I  nodded  and
smiled.   He  smiled back.  "We're gonna be t'gethah  in  Florida  this
wintah.   And  you  and  Carlos'll be in LA so we'll  all  be  in  warm
places."

     "Florida?"

     "Yeah.   Franny's  gonna be workin' down there.   His  brother  or
somebody's  got a bidness there.  Franny's gonna work for him  and  I'm
gonna do somma the office work.  Sound good, no?"

     "It  sounds great!" I said with enthusiasm.  "Really great  Jake!"
I stared at him for a few seconds.  "You and Fran?"

     "Yeah.   Sounds strange, don't it?  I know.  I still can't believe
it's happenin' t' me."

     "When are you leaving?"

     "We go right afta Septembah afta he finish all his work here."

     "Nice...very  nice. I'm sure the two of you will have a great time
down  there."  I looked at him; I was puzzled.  "How did it happen?   I
mean, how did the two of you get together?"

     "Well,  we  just sorta did.  Franny says he likes the look  of  me
from  the  very first time he sees me.  Here.when he's doin'  ya  pool.
Then  Franny  starts comin' to see me in the hospital.  He comes  about
two  or  three times a week and I like it so much.  We like each  other
very  much.  I feel so comfy with him.  After a few visits we kiss  and
hug  and then we even find a empty room when we can be...well, ya know,
can  be  alone  t'gethah.   It's wonderful!   I  think  I  really  love
him...and...and that he really loves me."

     I  got  up  and sat next to him.  I threw my arms around  him  and
hugged  him tightly.  "That's just fantastic Jake!  I'm just  so  happy
for you and Fran.  I think you'll be great together."

     "Thanks  Craig.  Thanks a lot.  It means a lot to me to  hear  you
say  this."   He looked away and got a sort of embarrassed  and  mildly
quizzical look on his face.  "Can I ask ya somethin'?"

     "Anything you want."

     "Can I...well, ya know...can I sleep with ya tonight?"

     "Huh?"  was  my  only response.  I was more than  a  little  taken
aback.   Right  after  he tells me that he's in  love  with  Fran  he's
requesting that he sleep with me.  "Sure...as I said, anything you want.
Why not!"  What the hell, I figured.  If he wants it, fine with me.

     His  face  was one huge smile and his eyes twinkled and  began  to
tear  up slightly.  "I know, Craig.  I know what ya thinkin'.  I  know.
But...but...well, we never sleep t'gethah and I been wantin' to since that
very first night I'm  here. And ya gave me that bath...and...well,  ya
know."

     "Yes I do, Jake.

     "So it's okay?"

     "Yes, it's more than okay."

     I helped him stand up and we both slowly walked into the bedroom.

     Carlos  was  still  fast asleep.  I removed my robe  revealing  my
body;  this was the first time Jake had seen me completely  naked.   He
smiled beautifully and let his eyes wander over me.  I was fully  erect
as  I  walked over to undress him, he put out his hand to gently stroke
me.   I  was  thrilled  that he did not hesitate in  the  slightest  to
demonstrate how much our being together meant to him.

     I slowly removed his clothes and remembered clearly the first time
I  had undressed Jake in preparation for his bath.  I recalled that  he
had  a  beautiful  body and a very long, thick cock and  stunning  low-
hanging balls.  His extremely muscular thighs gave promise of what  was
to come.

     Jake stared into my eyes; I slowly removed his underwear and began
to  reveal his remarkable body.  He had totally retained that  fabulous
surfer body build and it was exquisite.  It was even more beautiful now
since  some of the effects of the stroke had been overcome; with usage,
the musculature and definition had increased.

     When he was completely undressed, I helped him into bed and then I
joined  him.  He was between Carlos and me.  Carlos was fast asleep  on
the far edge of the bed - a habit he had from childhood when he had  to
share  a  bed with siblings.  I stayed close to my edge of the mattress
while Jake occupied the center - but not for long.

     He  moved  close  to  me  and put one hand  on  my  chest,  slowly
beginning  to rub one nipple.  "Ya are so beaut'ful, Craig.   I  always
think  so.   From the first time I see ya when ya find me out  in  that
barn and I'm so scared of ya."

     I smiled at him and kissed him very lightly on his lips.  "You are
a  beautiful guy too, Jake.  I've always thought so."  I moved one hand
to  rub  his  cheek.  He smiled and pushed his cheek into my  caressing
hand.   He  closed his eyes and I kissed him gently.   He  was  such  a
loveable, truly beautiful person; I found him to be very sexy.

     He laid his head on my chest and I put my arm around his shoulder.
I  soothingly rubbed his back and neck.  He was asleep in less than one
minute.  I closed the light.

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     In  the  morning, movement of the bed roused me - it was  shaking.
As I pried my eyelids opened, I saw Carlos and Jake engaged in some pre-
breakfast  activity.  They seemed to be enjoying what they  were  doing
and were going at it with great enthusiasm and vigor.

     I  propped  myself  up  on one elbow and  watched.   It  was  both
entertaining and very hot.  I immediately became tremendously aroused -
it  was  morning  after all.  Carlos had Jake's big thumper  completely
throated  and pulling rather energetically on the young guy's enormous,
dangling  ball sac.  For his part, Jake was vigorously rubbing  Carlos'
back  and  seemed to be pinching his unpierced nipple.   Carlos'  newly
pierced  cock was dangling beautifully over his small sac  and  leaking
some pre-cum.  It got me very hot seeing him this way.

     When  Jake  came,  it  was with a lot of accompanying  motion  and
noise.  Carlos, great guy that he is, swallowed all of Jake's obviously
copious  output  and  continued sucking strongly  until  Jake  finished
pumping out his load and his cock softened.  As Carlos pulled his  head
away from Jake's crotch, he saw me and smiled.  I applauded lightly and
he  gave me a great big smile.  Jake opened his eyes quickly and looked
at me and he too smiled at me.

     "Looks  like  you two guys have been rather busy this morning,"  I
said quietly.

     "Yeah," they both responded.  Both were still out of breath.

     Jake  had  a  look  of slight panic on his face.   "I-I-I'm  sorry
Craig....  But...but..."

     "There's nothing to be sorry about Jake.  Nothing at all.  Do  you
fellas think I can join in or are you too tired?"

     They  both gave me big grins and opened their arms to me.  I dived
right into the fray.  It was rousing great fun.

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     Mom  was  a  bit  taken aback when we all showed up for  breakfast
together.  We were very quite and she kept up a steady line of  chatter
hoping that we would enter the spirit of the conversation, but we never
did.   We  just ate quietly and quickly; all the while, we'd sneak  sly
glances  at  each other and occasionally smile or laugh.  Our  behavior
really had the old lady totally confused.

     Carlos  and I returned to our packing and Fran picked up  Jake  on
his  way to a job.  In the afternoon, the four of us frolicked  in  the
pool and had a gay old time.  Mom and dad joined us and we all had fun.
However, throughout the day she kept giving me questioning looks.   Dad
was, as usual, in a world of his own.

     For  the  remainder  of our stay, the three  of  us  always  slept
together.  Fran was able to join us twice and it was incredible  fun  -
just  a  fantastic turn on.  Carlos did not participate as much  as  he
would  have  liked  because of the newness of  his  piercings,  but  he
certainly  joined in the spirit of the fun.  Jake and I had a marvelous
time.  And Fran was rather amazing.

	I knew that I would never forget this fabulous crippled surfer
dude.  I had a definite plan to introduce a character based on this
beautiful guy to the series sometime around midseason.


                      Epilogue - Travel and Roots

     Our  drive  across  the vast stretches of the  United  States  was
fabulous.   We  included sightseeing stops along the way including  the
major  sites  in and around Chicago, St. Louis, Taos, New  Mexico,  the
Grand Canyon and finally Las Vegas.

     We  had  a  wonderful  time in Vegas and my aunt  and  uncle  were
terrific  - they were fun to be with and great company.  I still  can't
believe  that  Aunt June is actually dad's sister.  They run  a  talent
agency,  hiring  mostly  new acts for smaller  clubs.   Some  of  their
discoveries go on to much bigger and better careers.  Then  they  would
leave the organization (Talented Offerings, Inc.) and go with the  more
high-powered agencies.  But June and Fred continued in the business and
are  doing very well.  Vegas had been undergoing a tremendous boom  and
the  demand for new talent to fill the ever-expanding entertainment and
nightclub scenes was never ending.

     I  signed preliminary contracts with three people.  They would  be
coming  out to Hollywood within the next two months for tests.  One,  a
female comedian, was just fabulous and I decided to definitely use  her
in at least one episode.

     We  left  Vegas  reluctantly - we were having such a  great  time.
Everyone treated us as celebrities and we reveled in all the attention.
By early evening that day, we were at our new home in Malibu.  Then the
season really began.

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     Carlos  is in college now and I'm working like a dog cranking  out
the  scripts  and  producing the shows.   We  will  be  going  back  to
Massachusetts for the summer.  Our vacation will begin later this  year
-  in  May  and  run through September.  We are actually filming  eight
shows  for next season during the production run of the current  season
so we can begin the new season later than would be normal.

     I  speak  to Jake at least once a week and he and Fran  are  doing
great  in  Florida; they seem to be quite happy.  They will be visiting
us  at Christmas when they'll also see Jake's family in San Diego.   As
long as they are happy, then all is well.  When you get down to it,  it
is the best we can hope for in this life.

     And, while there is still plenty of stress in my life, so much has
been  eased by having Carlos at my side and with us sharing  our  lives
and  experiences. We love each other - and nothing could be simpler...or
more complicated.


                                The End