Date: Sat, 11 Aug 2012 10:12:13 +0100
From: liveintheshadows dieinthelight <liveintheshadowsdieinthelight@gmail.com>
Subject: How Bad Do I Have To Be - Part 4

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Chapter 4
If I was an vampire


The next few days were busy. Jason moved from the rented flat where he had
stayed with his brother into mine. We had a huge cleanout of all the
rubbish both of us had accumulated over the years.

"I want a new start" Said Jason emphatically. "I've lost a brother and
gained a lover" He kissed me sweetly on the nose. "You got a boner?" he
said hopefully.

"No. we gotta get this done, but a cleanout suits me too." I
replied. "Maybe you and I can look at boners later"

It took hours to get everything across to my flat. We were sweating and
exhausted by the time we put the last box in the lounge. The last couple of
boxes were his brother's stuff. There were some books and CDs. Some
pictures and a thick gold chain, probably the only jewellery his brother
had not pawned. I put it round Jason's neck and I held him while he wept in
my arms. A bit too bling for Jason's emo style, but nice enough.

"Most of the pictures are on disk, but these are of us as kids. Can I keep
them?" He said

"You can keep it all if you want. If you are unsure, keep it. We can always
chuck it later if you change your mind".

We had already thrown out loads, but he could not bear to throw some stuff
away. Then we started the unpacking again. Fortunately, I had a huge
walk-in wardrobe/closet, but we argued about the chest of drawers and we
ended up getting two new chests. One low with big deep drawers and another
much taller with about a dozen smaller drawers. Jason has a fun time going
through my 'top drawer' transferring my toys to the new chest.

"You are kinky" he said laughing.

"Maybe, but I bet you'll love this" I said holding up my largest dildo. Now
it was Jason's turn to blush.

He did not have much for the kitchen or living room. His TV went into the
bedroom

"Only for porn" Jason stated vehemently.

His computer also went into the bedroom. He spent ages getting it all
installed then worked on mine for a couple of hours

"Getting it connected and sorting out all the updates and security" He
said.

I noticed a webcam on top of the television pointed at the bed.

"You called me kinky" I said pointing it out.

"You are" he said "And I want to record the fact just in case you deny it
when we have a party with all your friends".

When I woke the next Saturday, Jason was cross-legged on the bed looking at
me. I got up, and he did not move or say anything. So I knelt in front of
him.

"Hello Tyler". He said.

"Hello Jason" I replied.

"What do you want to do today?" I said.

"Fuck you" he said evenly.

I tried to slap his leg, but he caught my arm and we struggled on the
bed. I ended up on top.

"You can fuck me, but first I'm gonna keep you hard all day. When you cum
you'll cum buckets." I promised. "Now where's the rope?" I said

"Rope?" said Jason smiling

"Yes. I have some Japanese silk rope somewhere" I said jumping off him and
looking in my 'top drawer'.

I got out the four pieces I had made just long enough to work as handcuffs,
and two as ankle cuffs. I got them out one at a time and threw them onto
Jason. He lay on the bed not moving. His cock hard and twitching lay flat
against tummy. I then got out the largest piece.

"Not sure if we'll need this". I said, and threw it down by the bed.

I went over to him and roughly pulled him so his ankle was near the bottom
of the bed. I tied his foot loosely to the bed. I then went to his other
foot and tied that as well. He followed my every movement with his eyes not
making a sound. His cock was running with precum and a strand dripped down
onto his tummy. I went to the top of the bed and knelt astride him. My cock
lay along his chest just shy of his neck. I reached over and tied one hand
to the bed. He tried to lick my cock as I moved to tie his other hand, but
I moved out of the way. When I was done, he pulled on the cords.

"I could easily get out of them you know?" he said.

"Yes" I replied "but if you do you don't get to fuck me"

"Damn" he said and tried to lick my cock again.

"And another thing. No backchat or you have blue balls till tomorrow - OK"

Jason looked at me and nodded.

"Quick learner" I thought and kissed him.

I stood up over him and stroked my cock a bit. I wiped precum from the end,
bent down and let him suck my fingers.

"Mmm" he said.

I moved to the bottom of the bed and knelt in front of his cock. I took it
in my hand feeling the velvety soft skin against the rock hardness
beneath. I licked the head for a bit and then licked the full length. I
took him in my mouth and started rocking back and forth. I pulled the
foreskin back gently and swirled my tongue round his cockhead. Jason
moaned. I came up for air and stroked him, slow at first then faster and
faster. After a couple of minutes, I felt his muscles contracting. I let
him go and pushed my fingers into the flesh under his balls. He looked at
me aghast.

"You can't cum till this evening" I said.

"You bastard" he said smiling as he realized what I had in mind. "I'm gonna
fuck you so hard you'll need a Zimmer for a week" He said.

"Good" I said. Do you mind if I get a camera?

"No" he said "Ill put them in an album on my computer - Tyler's first fuck"

I took pictures of him from every angle. Close-ups of his cock and
balls. Another close-up of his treasure trail. Then several pictures of his
face, his tummy, his biceps, several long shots. Photo shoot over, I went
back to the bottom of the bed and knelt between his legs.

"Round two" I said.

I stroked his cock for a while, then got off the bed and knelt on the
floor. I leaned over and licked his balls whilst wanking him gently. I put
one ball in my moth and swirled it round then the other. I could not get
both in at once. I pulled his balls up out of the way and licked between
his balls and his bum. I could not get at his hole despite Jason
desperately raising his hips to help. I went back to sucking alternately on
his cock and his balls. After a few minutes, I could see he was getting
close again. I wanked him for three or four stokes and stopped again.

"Noooo" he said as I climbed off the bed.

I went back to my top drawer and got out a dildo, a paddle, and a gag. I
placed them on his chest.

"Do you wanna play with any of these?" I asked.

He stared at me refusing to speak. I took the dildo and drew a line with it
from his nose to his cock. His cock twitched. I put the dildo between his
legs and slid it up and down his crack. His hips rose automatically

"Down boy" I said giggling at him.

He stared back at me and squirmed trying to get onto the dildo, but I held
it loosely and moved with him. I left the dildo propped up between his legs
against his balls.  His cock was still hard. I pulled it forward a couple
of times and let it go back against his tummy with a satisfying "slap".

"Round three" I said.

His eyes rolled back and then followed my every movement. I sat beside him
and started licking his right nipple. My left hand stroking his cock. I
just held the head in two fingers moving the foreskin up and down.

I licked his ear and whispered "I love you Jason".

He was going to say something but I moved over and kissed him on the
lips. He kissed me back and we stayed like that till I felt his cock
twitching again so I let it go and squeezed his balls hard enough for him
to feel it but not hard enough to hurt.

"Noooo" he said "Let me cum. Tyler please make me cum"

I smiled at him and left him squirming on the bed.  I made coffee, and a
sandwich. I also got some cheesecake I had in the fridge and cut a decent
portion. I filled a glass with coffee, and a mug for me. I also found a
straw and took it all into the bedroom on a tray.

"Are you hungry?" I asked

He nodded. I put the tray on his chest and moved the contents onto the
bedside table. I sat looking at him. I stroked his cock to make sure he was
still hard.

"Want some coffee?" I asked.

He nodded. I held the coffee in the glass and he sucked up the coffee
through a straw. I drank my own coffee. Every now and then, I would check
he was still properly hard.

"Do you want a sandwich?" I asked.

He shook his head

"Maybe later" I said. "What about the cheesecake?"

This time he nodded. I moved onto the bed and lay astride his chest
again. I fed him cheesecake with a spoon, and ate a spoonful myself.

"It needs cream really" I said.

I felt behind me and got precum over my fingers. I offered him first one
finger then the other. He lapped it up. I scooped up some more and tasted
it myself.

"Nice" I said, "But it doesn't go with the cheesecake".

He had some more coffee through the straw, I edged him a couple more times
and he was becoming frantic. I had to stop it soon or he would break out of
the restraints and spoil it. I put away the toys and got out another condom
and lube. His eyes lit up. I knelt between his legs and sucked on his cock
until it was twitching. I unrolled the condom all the way down his cock. I
kissed the head and applied a generous blob of lube to the head, rubbing it
along the length of his cock. I then lubed my fingers and applied it to my
bum. I finger fucked my self until I could get three fingers in
easily. Letting him watch me get off on the thought of having him inside
me. My cock was pointing at the ceiling.

I stood up briefly and sat astride Jason's tummy. I worked my way south. I
could feel his hard cock against my bum then against my balls. I lifted my
bum and held his cock vertical as I sat down again. His cock head slid into
me. I winced when he tried bucking too soon but I stayed still getting used
to his size. Then I leant forward and kissed him, and released first one
arm and then the other. He held my head and we kissed deeply. I started
moving up and down on his cock. He drove it deeper and deeper into me until
I knew he was all the way in. I moved up and down on his cock, then he was
thrusting from underneath. Harder and harder we fucked. He took my cock in
his hand and stroked me in time to his trusts into me. We knew that orgasm
was approaching. We both threw our heads back and moved against each other
desperate now to cum. We came together. Both of us moaning and screaming as
the cum pumped out of our cocks. I collapsed on top of Jason and kissed
him. We were both sweating profusely our bodies sliding against each
other. Jason kissed me and I slid down to the bed alongside him.

"Now I belong to you too" I said.

We lay there for ages catching our breath, our muscles relaxing. My cum was
all over our chests, and the condom was crumpled and looked pathetic on
Jason's softening cock. I pulled it off and threw it into the corner. I ran
my hand over his cock getting it covered in cum. Then I spread it all over
his chest and rubbed it in. We lay there for a time. Jason fell asleep and
I watched his chest rise and fall. Then he awoke.

"I love you Tyler" he said sleepily.

"And I love you too Jason". I replied.

Eventually I got up and released his ankles. I helped him up. He said he
ached all over, especially his legs. Jason had the first shower while I
tidied the bedroom and cleared away the toys and binned the condom and the
wasted sandwich. He came out with a towel round his waist. His erection
poking out at the front.

"Look what you have done to me" He said "It won't go down".

I laughed and went in to get my shower. I too had an erection when I got
out so dressed in exactly the same way and went into the bedroom. Jason
laughed and grabbed the camera for a photo. He then handed me the camera
and I took his photo too.

"If they come out ok we'll put them on the wall over there he said,
pointing at the bare wall by the en-suite.

"Are you hungry" I asked.

"Yes. What do you fancy? I think I fancy a sausage" he said giggling.

"Me too but the only two we have are past their sell by date"" I said. "How
about a pizza"

"Great idea" he said "If the pizza guy is cute maybe he'll take care of
these for us" and pointed at our cocks, still hard.

"Deal" I said laughing

I called for the pizza while Jason filled the dishwasher and cleaned up in
the kitchen. His towel had fallen off when he came back into the lounge. I
removed mine too and we sat naked on the sofa holding hands and watching
TV.

Eventually the bell went. I went to the bedroom for my dressing gown and
fished my wallet from my jeans. When I got to the door, the Pizza boy was
leaving. I apologized for taking so long and paid him. He was cute, but I
declined to ask him in.

"Was he cute" Jason asked as I walked into the lounge.

I dropped the dressing gown at the door and walked in naked.

"Yes" I said "But I'm tired maybe next time"

He laughed and slapped my bottom hard as I sat next to him.

"Ouch" I said "what was that for"

"Flirting with cute young guys when I'm not there" He said.

"You mean I can flirt when you are there?" I said raising an eyebrow.

"Of course" he said "So long as I'm your only love. Which pizza is mine?"

We ate the pizzas at a leisurely rate, both leaving a slice or two

"For breakfast" said Jason.

I noticed Jason had a dirty mark on his left wrist where his watch would be
if he wore one, but did not mention it. We turned out the lights and went
back into the bedroom.

"We need to change the sheets" said Jason.

"Not till after I wank you off and get rid of this" I replied slapping his
painfully hard cock against his tummy.

"I might as well do you then too" Jason said as he turned off the
lights. "Or I'll have to sleep with your hardon banging against my arse all
night.

We also had to sort out our education. Jason was at college. He had missed
a week or more and we had to go to explain. His tutors were sympathetic,
but firm. He had to make up the time. More homework, and if he missed more
time they would have to consider asking him to retake the year.

I got a similar telling off, at the University. My tutor was furious. I had
missed one essay and had only a couple of days to put the next one in. I
had also missed loads of lectures. The tutor gave me some background
reading to do and he arranged to mail me some notes from one of his
favourite students.

"Miss this or get less than a 2.1 and you are out" he said "You'll be lucky
to recover from this. It'll hit your grades hard. Under the circumstances
I'll talk to the administration, but I expect you to be at every lecture
and hand in every piece of work promptly in future. This could affect the
rest of your life lad" .  We spent every spare minute over the next couple
of weeks catching up. Jason was on his computer a lot of the time.

"You'll wear you cock out wanking over all that porn" I said when I came
home early one day to find him hunched over the screen.

"I haven't looked at anything in almost week" he said "I'm trying to write
an essay. It's gotta be in tomorrow but I'm nearly there. I'll mail it in
later so I don't miss the deadline"

We saw Spencer briefly a couple of times, and even Collins once. The police
were eventually satisfied that we could not have had anything to do with
Jason's brothers death.

"We had to look" said Spencer apologetically. "You did have a motive after
all, but fortunately we had another eye witness and she more or less agreed
with your account. Then there's your clothing and the mess you made of a
complete strangers garden" Spencer laughed. "We even got a report of
vandalism, and tied it back to your unsolicited stay. You're in the clear
too Jason, though we still have little idea where you went for two days".

"I can't help you, I'm sorry" Said Jason "I don't remember a thing. One
moment I was looking at the boy, and the next I was being woken up by the
policeman in god knows where".

Apparently Jason had been found after too days asleep in a wood miles from
his home. A jogger found him and thought he was dead. He called the
police. The police officer found he was still alive when he arrived an hour
later.

# # #

One evening we came home late. I went through to the bedroom to change and
I found the boy in grey sat on the bed. I screamed and Jason came
running. He screamed too.

"Calm down" said the boy in grey, eyes growing red.

Immediately I felt much calmer, but Jason ran back into the living room,
and was trying to open the door to get out. Marc walked out of the bedroom
and stood in the centre of the lounge.

"There's no need to fear me. I don't want to harm you. My name is Marc".

Jason dropped the keys and turned to look at Marc.

"What do you want?" He said warily

"To explain." Said Marc "Let's sit down and we can talk"

Jason and I sat at one side of the table, Marc at the other.

"Let me start at the beginning" Said Marc. "I am a vampire".

"Well that explains most of it, except that vampires don't exist" I said

"You saw me. You know I'm not human" Said Marc.

"I guess" I said

"I was going to teach the four muggers a lesson. They escalated it out of
control. They tried to shoot Tyler. They did shoot me - twice. I
overreacted a bit, but they deserved it".

"What about my brother. He didn't try to kill anyone" Said Jason.

"Well yes he did. He tried to kill Tyler, and you would have been another
victim sooner or later" Said Marc

"No" Said Jason "You killed him in cold blood"

"Jason, He's right. He was going to kill me with that branch. I know he was
your brother, but that doesn't change the facts" I said

Jason burst into tears

"I will leave now but I'll visit again soon" Said Marc

With that, he walked to the door, picked up the keys, unlocked the door and
opened it. He threw the keys at me

"Lock up after. You don't know what's out here". He said and the door
closed.

Jason sat with me on the sofa for a long time until he recovered his
composure.

"Do you think he really is a vampire" asked Jason, "or is he crazy?"

"He's not human" I said "He was shot when he protected me, and he's OK now"

"I suppose" Said Jason "maybe it's us who's crazy and this is all a dream".

"Maybe" I said "Not a very nice one though"

Jason took my hand and I noticed a grey mark on his wrist. I did not think
much of it, just that he ought to shower before bed.

"We could make it better my having a shower together" he said

"Yes" I said Taking his hand "That would be nice".

# # #

The next weekend Jason and I were in town window-shopping.

"Do you mind if we split up for a while. I want to go see an old friend" He
said

I was a bit mystified. I knew Jason had friends at college but he had never
brought them back or talked about them. Neither had I, so I could hardly
blame him.

"No problem" I said. "We can meet up here in a couple of hours?"

"OK" he said and waved goodbye as he walked off.

I decided I would get him a present and walked across town to a good
jeweller. I spent ages looking at watches, but I could not decide which one
he would like. I ended up buying him a torc, just like my own, from the
same jeweller. He had said he liked it a couple of times. Cheaper than the
kind of watch I wanted to buy him. I spent the rest of the time looking in
bookshops, and nearly bought a Sudoku book. By the time I got to the
meeting place Jason was already there. A big smile on his face.

"You look like you got the cream" I said

"No not really" He said "Just had a good time. I did buy some lottery
tickets, so we will be millionaires by tomorrow"

"Not a chance" I said "That's money down the drain"

"Do you never lighten up?" He said "You're always so serious. You never
take a chance"

"And you never take anything seriously. You may have got back into work at
college, but only because you love computers, not because you want to make
something of your life"

The argument went on and on. When we got home, Jason went into the bedroom
and shut the door in my face. I went into the kitchen and started cooking
dinner.

"No way is he getting the torc" I thought "I'll take the bloody thing back
and bet my money back".

Dinner was an icy affair. Neither of us wanted to back down or
apologise. We ate in silence.

Just as I was about to take the plates into the kitchen the doorbell
rang. I opened the door and it was Marc again

"What do you want?" I asked "I thought you'd gone for good"

"Who is it?" Asked Jason

"It's Marc again" I said

Jason went into the kitchen while I invited marc in and sat with him on the
sofa.  Jason walked in holding a dishcloth and a large kitchen knife.

"I have a proposition for you" Said Marc "I have caused you both a lot of
upset and stress. I would like to make up for it in some small way."

"How about we all go on a sun and sea holiday" Said Jason "I'd like that".

"I was thinking more of a weekend break at a nice hotel and maybe some
retail therapy" Said Marc "You have a great time and maybe we can meet up
for dinner and get to know each other a bit better".

"Do they have one of those places you get a suntan? Maybe we could have a
chat there"

"The hotel I was thinking about certainly has a sauna and pool and gym, but
I'll give the sunroom a miss"

"Maybe you'd like a shave then" He said brandishing the knife. "I'll get it
really sharp so it won't hurt too much when I slit your throat".

Marc looked at me "I'm obviously intruding" He said "But I am serious. Will
you be free next weekend or the weekend after"?

"Maybe" I said looking at Jason "Hopefully by that time Jason will have
learned a few manners"

"Killing my brother wasn't good etiquette" Said Jason.

"I'd rather go to a hotel with you, then see you at my funeral" I said.

"I'll be in touch" Said Marc "Please don't blame me Jason. Your brother was
about to kill Tyler. What did you expect me to do stand by while he
slaughtered you both".

"Just go" said Jason, tears starting to form in his eyes.

"I will be in touch" said Marc, and let himself out.

When he had gone, I approached Jason. And put my hand over his on the
table.

"I'm sorry" I said "But it's no use hating Marc. Your brother did try to
kill me, and you know he hated you for being gay. You don't apologise to
anyone for being gay now, why do you still stick up for Ian when he abused
you for years just because of it".

"I know" said Jason "But he was my brother"

"And he's gone now." I said "You must leave the past behind and start a new
future"

"We'll see" He said. He turned to me and hugged me

"You got a boner" I asked

"You show me yours, and I'll show you mine" Said Jason a faint smile on his
face I took his hand and we walked in to the bedroom.


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This is a fantasy, entirely fictional. No animals or other entities living,
dead or undead were harmed in its making. The only things that suffered are
good taste and the English language.

The inspiration for the story was a dream I had after a night drinking
absinth, together was a song by the Plain White Ts

Basically it is a love story, but we will see how it goes from there. These
things seem to have a life of their own.

I appreciate any feedback. This is my first attempt at writing fiction and
I'm still wondering if it's any good. Let me know what you think. I'll try
to reply to everyone. You may write to me via:
liveintheshadowsdieinthelight@gmail.com I would like to thank you for
reading my tale.