Date: Thu, 15 Dec 2016 21:23:10 +0000 (UTC)
From: Snowblind94 <snowblind94@yahoo.ca>
Subject: Jared the Paramedic II - 20

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Jared the Paramedic - Volume II
Chapter 20 - Anguish


The men got up in the morning, and after breakfast headed out onto the
river to continue their journey.

"So Conner, what do you think of canoeing and camping out?" asked Tyler.

"Other than being up a little earlier than normal, I love it."

Tyler smirked, "A little?"

Conner and Mark both laughed, "Ok, a lot earlier."

"Markie, what do you think of this?" asked Josh.

"I really am enjoying it, but especially being able to spend time with you
guys and Conner, too," Mark replied.

"Hey, little man Patrick.  How you doing over there?" asked Troy.

"I'm good," he replied.

"Hey Conner, is that a whisker I see on your chin?" asked Jesse with a
smile.

"Jesse, don't pick on the little guy.  It's not his fault he has more hair
on his legs than his face," added Tyler.

"Or his pubes," said Mark.

"You are all such assholes," replied Conner with a smile.  "Especially you,
Mr. needs-a-weed-whacker to find his dick."

"You little smartass," laughed Zane as he leaned forwarded and pinched
Conner's butt.

"Ouch!" yipped Conner. "Jerk!"

"Nice solid little bum there, Conner; just wait until you grow up and
become a man," said Zane.

"You mean old and saggy bums like you and Jesse?" asked Conner with a big
smile.

Jared, Liam and the rest started to laugh so hard they choked from being
unable to breathe.

"Con, you've really come out of your shell, haven't you, little buddy?"
asked Tyler as he laughed.

"What ever happened to the shy, quiet kid we met in the hospital?" asked
Troy.

"He met you guys," chirped Conner.

"Hey, what the hell do you mean my ass is saggy, you little twerp,"
screeched Jesse. "You wait until we get to shore.  I am going to put you
over my knee..."

"Hey Conner, no worries, you're safe from him.  He left his walker in his
car, so just run up hill," said Mark.

"This is all Liam's fault," said Jesse.  "He's corrupted the young ones and
taught them to be smart assed."

"Hey, I never taught them that!" said Liam. "They learned it from Tyler."

"Don't you blame my Tyler or Troy, you semi-old man," said Patrick.

"Semi-old man!?  Patrick, you are going to get it real good," said Liam.
He leaned forward and smacked Patrick's ass.

The young man yipped.

"You didn't think that one through about insulting the guys sitting behind
you, did you Patrick?" chided Liam.

Patrick turned and smiled at Liam, and it was a smile he knew too well.

"Don't you dare you little twerp.  No chemical weapons..." Liam started,
but didn't finish.

Patrick let a fart go which echoed in the gunnels of the canoe.  It was a
long trumpet which ended with a staccato of short bursts.

"Oh my god," said Liam fanning his face.

A moment later, the second canoe paddled into the cloud.

Jesse started to gag, "That kid is rotten to the core."

Patrick had a proud look on his face.  Tyler was giving the young man
thumbs up until Jared smacked him the back of the head. "Do NOT encourage
him, Tyler."

"Jeez Patrick, do you need to wipe after that one?" asked Liam.

"Maybe," he replied with a smile.

The group insulted and poked fun at each other for a while as they paddled
until it was time for the morning break.

The canoes had barely been beached when Conner, Mark and Patrick made a
running break up the shore, but they were quickly overtaken and pinned to
the sand.

Jesse and Zane had Conner pinned down and were tickling him while reminding
him what he had said earlier.  Conner was begging for forgiveness in
between screams of laughter.

Darren and Josh had Mark pinned and were treating him the same way.  Jared
and Liam had Patrick pinned, and he was screaming for Troy and Tyler to
save him from the evil old men.  Not to be left out, Troy and Tyler had
Adam pinned and they were ticking his ribs mercilessly.  After a few
minutes, they left the young men lying on the beach, resting and recovering
after their ordeal.

Finally, Mark spoke, "Conner, will you quit getting us into trouble?"

"Me?  You say me?"  Conner sputtered and he rolled and attacked Mark.

Patrick was watching the two of them as Adam attacked.  The two of them
wrestled around and rolled into the water, finally stopping as they
laughed.

"Adam, this is such a cool trip.  I've never done anything like this
before.  You've spent a lot of time in the wilds?" asked Patrick.

"I grew up in the area except closer to where Jared's cabin is.  I spent a
lot of time with my grandfather working at the store and the docks."

"That sounds pretty cool, Adam."

"It is at times, but there aren't many people around to hang with there."

"I hadn't thought of that," replied Patrick.

"He hangs with us a lot, Patrick, over at our house.  In fact, my dad says
Adam is another adopted son like me," said Conner.

"Your dad accepts Adam hanging around just as easy as that?"

"Oh yeah, the three of us do everything together.  Dad got us a king sized
bed because we sleep together too, just like we did here last night," said
Conner.

"So the three of you are boyfriends?" asked Patrick.

"Patrick, none of us are boyfriends. Conner and I are really good friends
and maybe someday it may happen, I mean we are real close but we've never
taken that step.  Adam is our friend and when we are together, things are
not only safe but we enjoy it," said Mark.  "I'm not explaining this very
well."

"So you guys are all gay?" asked Patrick.

"Yes," replied Conner.

"Patrick, this is not about sex.  Just because we sleep together doesn't
mean we are having sex," said Adam.  "We are close friends, and we enjoy
the security of being together."

Patrick was quiet for a moment before he said, "I don't know what I am.  I
mean, I enjoy being around guys but I've had a couple of girlfriends.  I
just have no clue what I am."  He sat up and pulled his knees up tight to
his chest, and began to cry.

Conner moved to one side of Patrick, Mark to the other and Adam was behind
him.  All three of his new friends were holding him tightly.

"Patrick, we don't care what you are gay, straight, bisexual, asexual or
whatever.  You are one of us now and we just accept you the way you are
with no pressure to change or even make a decision.  Just be you," said
Adam.

Patrick settled down.  "I'm sorry guys; it just sort of burst out of me.
But do you guys mean it by saying I'm a friend, no matter what I figure out
I am?"

"Absolutely buddy, no pressure.  Just be you, and whatever it is, Patrick -
you are safe with us," said Adam.

Tyler and Troy sat down on each side of the group.

"You ok, little brother?" asked Troy.

"Did you guys know I was confused about my sexuality?" Patrick blurted out.

Troy reached over and grabbed Patrick's hand.  "Paddy, you are what you are
and your brain will sort it out one day.  Whatever you are, you will always
be our little brother and we love you Patrick."

Patrick leaned over to grab Troy and Tyler as they moved to sit in front of
him.  They held their little brother tightly while the other three young
men joined in.

"Troy, I'm 18 years old and I'm not like others in my grade 12 class.
They're all dating or going steady, and I really have no interest in dating
anyone, or even who to date," sobbed Patrick.

Tyler had his hands on Patrick's knees.  "Little buddy, look at me please."
Patrick lifted his face to look at his friend.  "Patty, you are 18 and
there is no rule about when you start dating, go steady or have sex.  You
have so much on your mind, little man... losing your dad and then your mom
working so much.  You are trying so hard at school and all the sports, too.
Patrick, there is no hurry or even a schedule for when you will date.  You
will know when it is time, and when it's time - we are all here for you.
We love you little brother, and so does your mom."

Patrick looked confused.

"Your mom has talked to us about it, and we told her we had no idea.  She
wants you to know that no matter what you are, she loves you.  She was
concerned you have been suppressing your needs and you were damaging
yourself or maybe thinking you might disappoint her in some way.  Your
mother does not care one way or the other if you are straight, gay,
bisexual etc.  She loves you, Patrick, and so do we, little brother.  Never
forget it or doubt it or I will give you such a lickin' that you will not
sit down for a week."

Patrick sat there in deep thought for a moment before he started to sob
heavily.  "All people want to do is put a label on what they do, don't do
or what they are.  The labels are good and bad, destructive and demeaning
or they make you special.  I don't want to be labelled by others because my
life is different from them.  I'm already looked down upon by many kids at
school because I'm poor and don't have a dad.  They live in big houses and
I'm in a small apartment. I don't want any more labels."  Patrick was now
almost hysterical in his words and sobbing.

Conner, Mark and Adam moved back so Tyler and Troy could move in to hold
the young man.  They rubbed the young man's back in circles while holding
him tight between them.  Both of them took turns speaking soft, quiet and
soothing words to the distraught young man.

Liam and Jared had been watching the events, and signaled for the other
young men to join them up on the small hill.  As they approached, Adam
looked upset.

Jared stopped him, "What's wrong, Adam?"

"We were just talking, and it seemed to spin out of control.  I'm so sorry,
Jared, I didn't mean to do anything to upset him."

As Adam was speaking, the salamander appeared on his shoulders.  Adam
stopped and turned his head and appeared to enter into a staring contest
with it.

Jared's eyes flashed as he said, "Adam, sit over there on the log and talk
with the spirit guide.  Do not leave the log, and when you are done, call
to Liam or I.  Only Liam or I can release you and allow you to move from
that spot.  Do you understand?"

Adam spoke flatly, and with no emotion.  "Yes Jared, I understand."

The rest of the group came up behind Liam and Jared and stood.  "I really
feel for Patrick and I had no clue this was going on in his head," said
Darren.

"I can relate to his confusion, except in Patrick's case - he has lots of
support all around him," Zane injected.

Troy was gently speaking with Patrick as he and Tyler held the trembling
young man.  "Patrick, whatever happens - we love you little brother.  When
you are ready, we can finish the discussion we started today whenever you
want.  There is absolutely no hurry, little man."

"There is nothing you can say to us, Patrick, that would change our love
for you little brother.  Never forget or even think your mother or any of
us would ever stop loving you," added Tyler.

Patrick could feel the muscular strength from two of the most important
people in his life as they held him.  The young man was so afraid to accept
what he thought was his sexuality, and kept pushing it down deep inside of
him.  He didn't want to do anything which even remotely might have an
impact upon his friendships with these guys.  Patrick knew he had a lot to
think about, and he struggled to control his emotions.

Tyler and Troy sat back and looked at their young friend.

"What if I'm not gay?" asked Patrick quietly. "Can we still be friends?"

Troy smiled and answered, "Will you invite us to your wedding?"

"What if I like to dress up as a woman?"

"We could borrow some of Darren's clothing," replied Tyler with a smirk.

"What if I don't feel sexual attraction to either men or women?"

"Patrick, little brother, we love you - period, unconditionally." answered
Tyler.

"What if I like someone who is like a brother to me?"

"Patrick, we will be with you no matter what, but keep in mind there are
many paths to potentially follow and the result could be different than
what you plan," said Troy.

"I know, I don't want to mess things up."

Troy lifted Patrick's chin to look him directly in the eyes as he spoke.
He reached up and placed his hand on Patrick's chest over his heart and
said, "Patrick, we love you for your soul, your personality and wit, and
your huge heart.  We love you unconditionally.  The rest doesn't matter
because no matter how this turns out, you will still be the same young man
we love as a brother."

Tyler reached over and pulled Patrick's head towards him and planted a big
kiss on top of it.  Patrick grabbed him tightly, and tears rolled down his
cheeks again.

"I'm so sorry to be like this and embarrassing you guys."

"There is no embarrassment here with anyone, Patrick, only love and
concern," answered Tyler.

"I don't know what I would do without you to help me."

"Are you feeling a bit better, little man?" asked Troy.

"I'm beginning to, Troy.  Thank you, both of you.  I know you're only a few
years older than me, but if I had a dad or dads, I would have wanted them
to be just like you two.  I love you both so much."

Now it was time for Tyler and Troy to have tears leak from their eyes.
Once again, the two of them held the young man tightly.

"Little man, I love you too, and you need to understand something real
important.  Tyler, Jared, Liam, Darren, Josh, Jesse and Zane and I have all
pledged our lives to protect you and the other young people here with us
today.  It's what we do as family, Patrick, and we all love you as our
little brother," explained Troy.

Tyler backed him up, "He is speaking the truth, little man.  Every one of
us love you, little brother, and we have all pledged our lives to protect
you."

Patrick smiled at the two of them.

"I think we need to get you cleaned up a bit before we have a snack," said
Tyler.

"What do you mean cleaned up?"

Tyler stood up, and pulled Patrick up and over his shoulders in a fireman's
lift.  Patrick screamed as Troy gave him a couple of hard smacks on his
ass, just before Tyler walked out into the water and tossed Patrick head
first into the even deeper water.

He came up to the surface and attacked.  Troy, Tyler and Patrick were soon
joined by Conner and Mark in the water wrestling.  Darren and Josh grabbed
Jesse and dragged him down to the water and threw him in.  Zane didn't
stand a chance when they came for him.

Jared and Liam were sitting with Adam.  While Adam was speaking with Jared,
his spirit guide kept staring at Liam, the salamander's eyes following
every movement Liam made.

"So you are feeling better, Adam?" asked Jared.

"Yes, yes I am, Jared.  My little salamander is full of wisdom to share
with me," replied Adam.

"The wisdom is from deep inside you Adam, you have the knowledge within
you.  He just helps settle you down and makes sure you think before
acting," replied Jared.

Adam leaned forward and whispered into Jared's ear, "He does enjoy
terrorizing Liam, though."

Jared whispered back, "I've noticed.  In absolute honesty, Adam, I have
never seen a spirit guide act like this before.  But then he does have your
sense of humor, Adam, and you enjoy terrorizing Liam - as we all do."

Suddenly, the salamander started to cough and growl until Jared said
loudly, "NO!"

Liam sat up suddenly.  "Did you hear that?  The little bastard just said
one of these days Jared won't be here to protect me."

"Liam, you are imagining it," said Jared laughing.

"Jared, would you get mad at me if I show you something I didn't tell you
about earlier?" asked Adam with a smirk.

Jared returned the young man's smirk with his own.  "Out with it, and if
it's something I should've know you could get a smack up the side of the
head."

He leaned forward and whispered "Watch this.  I'm still learning and I'm
not that good yet, but....."

Liam jumped, "The little bastard said it again.  I want to make a belt out
of him."

"LIAM!" said Jared laughing.  "Take a pill, it's a spirit guide.  Do you
really think you make a belt out of a spirit guide?"

"The little bastard is laughing at me, and said to cut back on the
cheesecake because its going to my thighs!" said Liam.

"Adam, you're not too bad at throwing your voice," said Jared laughing.

Liam froze, and slowly turned his head to Adam.  "You can do
ventriloquism?"

"I'm learning, Liam, but I'm not very good at it yet," replied Adam.

"So was it the salamander or you saying those things?" asked Liam slowly.

"Some him, some me," said Adam as he tried to get away.  Liam grabbed him.

"You little brat!" said Liam as he carried Adam to the water and threw him
in. Jared was laughing as Adam carried on, cried and squawked on Liam's
shoulder.  The rest of the guys grabbed Liam and dragged him into the water
as well.

The salamander crawled up and onto a fallen tree, and looked at Jared.  "My
human has great potential, Masqua. The young man is so beautiful inside but
his inner being is surrounded by scars of pain and fear.  He needs to
complete the vision quest."

"He shall very soon, under my guidance," replied Jared.

"He is trying to think of ways to avoid it, but I'm not letting that
happen. His deep desire to end his own life has once again been controlled,
but we need to eliminate it."

"Thank you, we need your abilities so much with Adam."

"It is what I do, Masqua, and I also get to help my human to prank
Mikisow."

Jared laughed, "You taught him to throw his voice?"

"He had the ability already, I just helped him to develop and refine it.
He has other skills and gifts coming near the surface of his mind and I am
trying to control them until he is ready."

"Do you need my assistance to block those things?"

"Not at this time, Masqua, but he needs to complete the vision quest and
the training.  Until then he is in danger from himself and from the others.
We remain vigilant, Masqua."

"Thank you, Osikiyâs.  You do me honour in your work with Adam."

"We honour the One with our work," replied the salamander as it changed
into a wisp of white smoke and disappeared.

Jared sat on the ground cross legged, placed both hands flat on the ground
and began to chant.  Liam and a couple of others had come to drag Jared in
for a swim when they saw him meditating and quietly went back to the group.
Jared could feel the negative energy he had been absorbing from around him
leaving his body.  It was a huge relief as it flowed outwards and was
consumed by Mother Earth.  After he released the negative energy, he
absorbed the positive and healing energy from the ground.  He wasn't sure
how long he had been meditating, but when he reached conscious awareness he
immediately noticed the group had made a fire and were now finishing lunch.

Liam noticed Jared was conscious and brought him a plate of some food.
After giving his soulmate a kiss, he handed the food to him.  Liam then
grabbed a couple of drinks and sat with Jared.

"How are you feeling now, Jared?" asked Liam.

"Better, more energy now.  How are the kids?"

"Patrick and Adam are both back to the way they usually are as if nothing
happened."

"I feel bad for Patrick having to deal with so much and the hormones racing
through his body on top of it.  Adam isn't much different."

"I love you Jared."

Jared raised his head and looked at Liam, "I love you too, but was there
something that brought that on?"

"I don't say it enough Jared, and I don't want you to ever take it for
granted.  I want you to hear it."

Jared placed his food down onto the ground and pulled his boyfriend in
close, giving him a big hug with a long, wet tongue filled kiss.  Liam
returned it with equal enthusiasm.  The two of them rolled to their sides
on the moss at the base of the tree with Jared on top and pinning Liam's
hands above his head.  He continued to kiss Liam's lips, face and neck.

"Don't look kids, daddy and daddy are making out," Darren said loudly.

Jared collapsed onto Liam laughing.  The two of them were now lying beside
each other and looking at the tree tops.

"I love them all, but now I know what it's like to have kids in the house
when the parents leave the bedroom door open," said Jared.

"At least you have never had one of the kids throw his voice to make you
think a spirit guide is trying to piss you off," laughed Liam.

"I love you Liam, my soulmate."

"I love you too Jared, my soulmate for eternity."

"You do realize that salamander really can spit that gob of smelly phlegm
for quite a distance, right?"

Liam didn't say anything for a moment and then said "Yeah, I know how far,
too."

Jared started a deep belly laugh as he said "I can't leave you alone for a
moment."

Liam was laughing now as well.  "I made the incorrect assumption Adam was
making that sound."

"How far and where did he get you?" asked Jared with difficulty as he was
laughing too hard.

"Colonel Mustard, in the library with a candlestick holder." Liam lost it
in laughter again and then said, "10 feet, and the little bastard got me in
the middle of my forehead."

Jared stopped, sat up and looked at Liam, and then started laughing all
over again.

"It's not funny!  The little bastard is a sniper and it both stinks and
sticks real bad."

Troy and Tyler joined the two of them and sat down.

"Did Liam tell you he has a new tribal name?  Big Chief Snot Face?" asked
Troy.  The three men lost it again while Liam got up and left.

"I'm going to go and sit with my friends," he said as he stomped away.

"Adam is over there, but where's Olly?" stated Tyler.

Jared mouthed, "Olly?"

"Adam likes the music group 'Years and Years' and he named the salamander
after the lead singer Olly something or other," explained Troy. "He says
they both have the same hair style, and he says they also both shake their
ass the same way.  I have no clue."

After they chatted for a couple minutes, Jared asked the big question,
"How's Patrick doing?"

"He's doing much better Jared.  I feel so bad for him because he is so
confused," said Troy.

Jared looked at Troy and Tyler, "So boys, what is he confused about?" asked
Jared directly.

"We don't know yet," replied Tyler.  "No clue, Jared.  He will tell us when
he's ready, whatever it is."

"Good answer, guys.  I told you before, this is his time and whatever it is
will come out on his time and no one else's," stated Jared clearly.

"Yes, Dad," said Troy.

"We know, Jared, and he does seem to be fitting in with the other young
ones more.  They've been telling Patrick their stories and he has been
listening, too," said Tyler.  "Do not worry; they are just young guys
talking."

"I suppose we should get everyone on the move to the next campsite, it's
actually only a couple of hours away and I think everyone will like it,"
said Jared.  "The water is shallow, sandy beaches and areas to lay in the
sun for tanning."

"Sounds great," replied Troy.  "Let's herd the cats to the canoes and get
going after we clean up."