Date: Thu, 21 Oct 2010 05:09:15 -0700 (PDT)
From: Cailen Vature <cailenauthor@yahoo.com>
Subject: Raven Chapter 18

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Chapter 18: There's only us, there's only this...

	I had a rough next few days as I tried to not only complete my
mountain of school work thanks to the sadism of Tim Driscoll. Jay had
really helped me this week, but also practicing for the swim meet which
thankfully I seemed to be back to my former glory, and lastly trying to
find a good costume for the dance. Thankfully a breakthrough on Thursday
came to me when at lunch Colin asked if he could borrow my old gymnastic
gear because he wanted to go as a gymnast. I asked if I could borrow his
football gear and it was settled I was going to go as a football jock for
Halloween. The thought still made me smile.
	Saturday morning finally rolled around and Dad brought me to the
school to wait for the bus.
	"Good luck champ we'll be there cheering for you" my dad called to
me as he pulled away. I walked to the bus as some of the guys were climbing
in and I moved towards the back and I saw Colin sitting down
	"Can I sit with you?" I asked
	"Can you find your own fucking seat?" he asked then cracking a
smile "oh fine!" he sighed dramatically getting his bag and pushed it into
the overhead rack
	"Thanks, I know you suffer so for my benefit" I said sitting down
	"No shit"
	We sat there in silence as everyone chatted amongst themselves when
Ian got on the bus taking a seat in the very front. My heart clamored in my
chest again.
	"I honestly don't know what that fucking idiot is thinking" Colin
said "he's got to be the stupidest brick on the planet" directing to Ian
	"Well I really wish he'd figure out what he wants" I said
	"Did you tell him you're going to the dance with Jay yet?" Colin
cracked a very evil smile
	"NO, and don't you dare tell him" I hissed
	"And ruin all my fun?" Colin's evil smile grew wider
	"No... so you don't ruin the shocked look on his face when he see's
us dancing, please bring a camera" I said giving my own evil smile in
return and Colin burst out laughing
	"Man after my own heart" Colin laughed and we enjoyed the rest of
the ride to the meet.
	We got into the school and were directed to the practice pool so we
could warm up before doing our actual runs. The coach ran us through our
paces and I felt pretty confident about our ability. I was getting out of
the pool when I heard coach's voice break over the other's
	"You need to get your head out of your ass Holiday!" Coach Clarke
snapped
	Ian was getting read the riot act and had his head down looking
ashamed
	We were then called to the starting area and we were waiting
against the back wall waiting to be called to the starting platforms. I
looked and saw Ian next to me. I took a few steps over to him and saw he
looked upset.
	"Ian" I said
	"Dustin" Ian said looking up at me
	"Ian I need you to listen to me for a second, can you do that for
me?" I asked
	Ian nodded
	"I'm sorry I hurt you, I want you to know that I love you, if you
need me to be your friend I'll be that, if you want something more I'll be
there for you. I understand why you'd be scared and why you wouldn't want
to be with me" I said
	Ian looked like he was about to say something but I interrupted him
	"When we're out there, you're in your focused place there is no gay
or straight, when we swim, we swim together! There is nobody else, there is
only you and me, there is only us, you think of me and... and I'll think of
you. In the water there are no boundaries or complications only a straight
open path before us. Will you do that for me?"
	Ian seemed to be caught up in a wealth of emotions and I finally
saw a spark light behind his eyes that I hadn't seen since I broke up with
him. He nodded before throatily whispering
	"I'll think of you Raven"
	"Good" I said
	 A whistle was called in the distance
	"That's our cue" I said turning around making my way up to my
platform and stretched. The world dissolved away the crowd faded to black
and in front of me and there was a clear narrow path of water. To my left I
saw Ian give me a smile and we both crouched down.
	The same chill I had felt many times now spread over my body and as
I fell into my trance time seemed to slow and the crowd faded away and even
the pool seemed to fade into darkness. The only sound I could hear was my
heartbeat.
	I heard the blast somewhere in the distance and we blasted off the
starting platform with blinding speed... though for me everything seemed to
be passing me in slow motion, but my brain was in overdrive.
	Only the water ahead...
	Only Ian...
	Breathe...
	Almost there...
	The crowd must have watched as two swimmers swam ahead of the pack
and into the lead. In my peripheral vision I saw Ian and I were almost neck
and neck as we swam faster and harder than I had ever before. My heart was
racing as I pushed myself beyond anywhere I had ever been before to the
point where even the water I was in had disappeared and there was only Ian
in front of me with his arms wide
	I felt my arm connect with the side of the pool and popped my head
out of the water as the world came back into his vision and suddenly I
heard an announcer yell over the microphone
	"THAT'S IT, IT'S A NEW RECORD!"
	And like the sound of a jetliner revving its engines life seemed to
return as a roar of the crowd suddenly filled my ears.
	I looked up at the score board and saw that not only did I break
the old record by over a tenth of a second but Ian had crossed it as well
by three-one hundredths of a second. I turned and looked at Ian who seemed
to be caught in a wealth of emotions
	"C'mon Ian we got to get out of the pool" I said getting out and
reaching down and giving Ian a hand who jumped up and gave me a bear
crushing hug lifting me off the ground and spinning me around
	It was a special moment with Ian at my side as we finished the meet
and we were presented our medals. For that moment there was only me and Ian
and for a moment the world didn't matter. We got into the locker room and
took a shower and got changed. Ian and I had finished for the day and we
were the only ones in the shower room.
	"Dustin?" Ian asked me
	"Yes?" I asked
	"I wanted to talk to you" Ian said
	"What did you want to talk to me ab...?" I was suddenly cut off
when Ian attacked me with a searing kiss I wrapped my arms around Ian and
held him tightly and for the first time understood what love was. My
feelings up until this point in my life were lust and a jumble of hormones
and moments. For the first time I felt love and loved it in return as I
held onto Ian and rubbed his back "I feel these feelings and I don't know
what to do... I'm scared it's showing I'm afraid of everyone knowing I'm
afraid of my dad finding out." Ian said
	"I'll protect you" I said
	"I wish I was as strong as you" Ian said
	"You're kidding... you kicked Cory's ass for me... you're my hero"
I joked "I love you" Ian whispered breaking the kiss "But I need to tell
you something important and I don't know how to tell you this but you need
to know something... I've been hiding this for so long and you... you're
a..." Ian didn't complete the thought as the door suddenly crashed open
	"Well well look at this"
	I whipped around to see Colin and Danny looking at us
	`Oh shit' I thought
	I turned to look at Ian who looked shell-shocked
	"So Ian what the fuck do you have to say for yourself" Colin said
giving me a smirk
	I was shocked because here I was kissing Ian when I was supposed to
be going with Dan's brother to the dance in just a few hours and he's just
seen me doing it. I wanted to crawl under the floor and die.
	"Dustin its okay" Dan said coming forward and giving me a hug
	I don't know why but I started crying as Dan held me and Colin
stood and watched looking decidedly uncomfortable.
	"I'm sorry" I sobbed into Dan's shoulder
	"Dustin look at me" I looked up into Dan's eyes and he very firmly
held my shoulders
	"Feelings are funny... they never really go away, you only get new
ones." He said quoting exactly what Jay had said to me yesterday and
hearing his words calmed me somehow
	I looked up to look at Ian and realized he wasn't there
	"Where's Ian?" I asked
	"He left here about the time you started crying like a sissy" Colin
said and I gave him a good punch on the arm for good measure.
	"Fuck you too" Colin laughed
	I realized Ian had run away from me again. I felt the pain in my
heart again but realized this time it didn't hurt as much, I wondered
briefly how many times it would take him to break my heart before I didn't
feel it anymore.
	It was a very subdued trip home in silence even though we had swept
the meet and had exceeded all expectations. I nearly ran off the bus and
into my parents car. I didn't know if there was going to be an after meet
gathering but I didn't care as dad drove us home.
	As soon as I was home I went up to my room and cried for a bit more
before composing myself and took another shower and after getting out I put
the base of my Halloween costume on; Jock, pads, pants, cleats and a tee
shirt. I save the jersey and shoulder pads until I was ready to leave. I
also settled the rest of the costume by adding the black lines under my
eyes and I opted to let my hair down from its normal ponytail.
	I went downstairs and my parents were in the living room watching
tv.
	"Hey champ" my dad said getting up and giving me a hug and a smile
	Despite how bad I felt he managed to put a smile on my face
	"Hey dad, thanks for coming to the meet" I said
	"Wouldn't of missed it" he smiled "your mom and I picked you up a
Halloween present" my dad smiled
	`Oh god!' I thought
	My mom stood up and came over to me
	"Since we knew you were going as a football jock we thought it'd be
a good joke to perhaps represent yourself a bit better" Mom said picking up
a box and handing it to me
	I opened the box and looked down to see a football jersey done in
the exact same style and color as our schools. On the front it had our
school and logo. I turned it around and on the back it said `Gay Pride' and
the numbers were 00 but instead of zero's they were man symbols.
	I couldn't help it and I laughed. I laughed and laughed as tears
formed in my eyes as I was looking at this obscene jersey.
	"I don't know if I could wear this" I said looking it over "it's
too funny though" I said
	"Well we thought since you're out that it was time to `represent'
if you know what I mean" my dad said giving me a smile
	"Alright I'll wear it, so long as I can bring the other one if
things get dicey" I said
	They acquiesced and I put on my pads and they helped me get the
jersey on so they could take a couple of pictures before Jay came to get
me.
	 I finally hear the sound of tires outside followed by the sound of
a horn. I grabbed my spare jersey and after giving both my parents a hug,
for better or worse I was out the door.