Date: Thu, 11 Mar 2004 07:54:24 -0500
From: My_Good_Boy_Jack@yahoo.com
Subject: These Passions I Pray: Chapter 1: Once Upon A Time....
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The contents of this story are fictional. Any resemblance of the
characters
to any other persons is strictly coincidental. This story does contain
brief sexual encounters between consenting males. If this bothers you
then please read no further.
This story gets off to a slow start, don't read this with the intent of
a "quick fix". This is an in depth story that has approx. 4 years behind
it. In this time it has gone through many incarnations and is finnally
ready to be tested by you the reader. All comments and suggestions are
welcomed and should be sent to me @ My_Good_Boy_Jack@yahoo.com
Now That The Prologue Is Over, Read on For Chapter one
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As I lye sleeping, warm amongst my bed, I couldn't help but
strike a feeling that forever my life would be changed. A destiny yet
unknownst to me, drama that would play out in tragedy. Then I was
peaceful, for in fact I was only eleven years of age. I had no clue of
the tortured existance i would learn to call normal.
My eyes stirring now, make their way around the room.
"Such a small room," I thought to myself. "Probally the smallest
in the house."
Quiet, it was more quiet than usual, I feared for lonliness.
"Where were the voices so familiar to me?"
The Blankets existing above my body were now removed and i layed
there in my warm pajama bottoms.
My eyes now shifting to the window and outside of the house. I
noticed automobiles, more than usual though my parents vehicle was not
present, and curiosity struck me in a frightening way. My eyes were
frozen now and it was at this time that I knew that my parents had died.
I couldn't cry, in fact I couldn't do much. I was silent for the
next four hours until it was brought to my attention by way of a close
neighbor that I would be living with my father's brother and his wife.
Mon Oncle et Ma Tante I gess. I had never met them before, but they were
all I had left for family, and I would embrace them as I had my parents.
I grabbed only a suitcase full of my possessions. Everything else
of mine, my parents, and even our house would be auctioned off at Mon
Oncle's benefits, to pay off his past debts.
They picked me up at the house. The last time i ever saw my last
memories of my parents. The day my heart hardened, the day i felt I would
be alone forever.
In the car with Mon Oncle and Ma Tante was a young boy who looked
to be around my age. I wasn't aware of any cousins, but indeed here he
was. I thought for a minute that i might not be as lonely as i had
originally thought. But I was dead wrong. My cousin looked at me as a
burden. Taking his parents away from his attention. They also looked at
me as a burden. Not being as wealthy as my parents had been, and plagued
by debts upon depts, they had very little means to provide for the son
they already had. I don't believe they had even seen my parents since
well before I was born, and now here they were, obligated to raise me as
their own.
I had spent the past eleven years of my life living in a small
town located right outside of paris. What I had had for friends, and
everything that was familiar to me was located there.
Now here we were, boarding a train to Britange, right on the
coastline of France, bordering the mighty Atlantic. All new people and
surroundings only proved to make me further homesick.
Having to learn to adapt to the rules set by Mon Oncle would also
prove to be a difficult chore.
Being summer still, my cousin and I were not yet attending school,
so we were to do chores around the house. Luckily the house was quite
small and when we were through, we would have all the time too ourselves.
Not that that was much better. Often times my cousin would tell me
how I was unwanted, and that I was nothing except a burden, descended
upon his family. When I was reduced to tears, he would explain to his
parents that i randomly broke out into these "fits" as he called them.
Who was I too say different? They wouldn't believe me, even if i had
pleaded with them.
What seemed like an eternity, was, in actuality, only two weeks.
Then we were off to the local school house where we would register to
attend.
Although new faces did not seem appealing, the thought of school
work, like i had had back home, comforted me. And I could just remain
introverted.
My cousin seemed to be quite popular, so when he began to poke fun
at me, so did everyone else.
Often times i ended up crying my afternoons away. I tried to focus
on school work instead, however my life was a living misery, and my body
and mind were rapidly deteriorating.
For being only eleven years of age, I had been through quite a bit
of emotional trauma. I was being forced to grow up quicker than all the
other boys my age and I prayed for the return of my childhood.
At night I lye in the bed parallel to my cousin's. He would
continue letting me know how worthless and unwanted I was. He did this
until he grew tired and fell fast asleep. I however remained awake for
many hours, praying for a release. For someone to love me, someone who
could take me away from reality.
School itself wasn't bad. Teachers were nice, and I enjoyed the
challenge presented to me by schoolwork. However I wanted to socialize. I
guess everyone my age wants a social life, so why couldn't I have one?
One day after school, after straying away from my cousin who
headed straight home every day, I ended up in a local park. It was nice
being there, like an escape, just being by myself. A lot of the school
kids would be here, but fortunately they were actually enjoying
themselves thusly not needing to pick on me.
This park didn't actually contain any forms of amusement, but
rather it was mainly a field placed by an old brook, with trees and
flowers preasent. It was a nice setting, and large enough so i could
still be alone amongst other people. It was also a place where animals
liked being. The birds and smaller animals were quite prevelant, wich
made this seem even more serene.
Sitting down across the way from me was a young girl of my age
whom looked vaguely familiar. I knew I must have known her from school.
She was probally just as elusive there as I was, so i decided to take a
risk.
As I walked over to her, she kept her nose in a book, she must
have been pretty smart to read the level of reading she apparently was
reading for her age. She didn't look up once.
"Ummmm Hello," I managed to mumble.
"Oh hey, your the new kid?" She questioned.
"Yeah, my name is Luc," I answered.
"Mine is Orane, wanna sit down?" She replied. "I'm waiting for my
boyfriend to get here."
I sat down beside her, and she finnaly released her eyes from the
book she was reading.
"Wow you must read pretty good?" I asked her.
"Yeah, well there isn't much else to do." She replied. "Besides,
Papa says that nothing equals an education."
"So were waiting for your boyfriend?" I questioned. "Who is your
boyfriend?"
"His name is Julien," she replied. "I'm often with him at school,
and yeah he should be here soon and then were going elsewhere to hang
out."
"Oh, do you think he will mind me being here?" I inquired.
"Of course not," she said confused. "Your just like us, an
outcast."
I got the next twenty minutes or so to get to know this girl
called Orane. Magnificent she was. Everything my aesthetics told me was
beautiful was found in Orane. Long flowing soft hair, the same colour as
the sand found on the beaches, pale skin with a tint of rose colouring
and beautiful pale eyes. Even more, our souls spoke to each other in a
way I had never felt.
"My parents died back home," I told her. "Dead, and so I'm here
with Mon Oncle and Ma Tante," I continued.
" Oh...Im sorry." It was all she could rummage.
After not long a figure appeared down the distance. His presence
bold enough to attract both mine and Orane's attention. And when I looked
at Orane, smiles over rode any other expression on her face, I knew then
that this was Julien.
His skin was much darker than either Orane's or mine, a beautiful
olive colouring and his hair a pure black. This was all in place if not
for the oddity wich struck his face in the form of two brillaintly blue
eyes gazing back and forth at me and then Orane, and then back.
"Hi, your new here?" Julien as an offering of friendship.
"His parents died Julien," Orane now spoke up, "so he will be part
of our family from now on, he has no other friends and is forced to live
with his evil Oncle and Tante," she chuckled.
"Cool by me," Juliens cool eyes frozen in mine. "Whats your name
then? He asked.
"Ummm..." His gaze held me where I couldn't speak and he knew it.
He turned his glance too Orane now who had a look of cluelessness on her
face. At this point I managed to blurt it out. "Luc, ahhh Luc is my name
Julien."
His glance shot back at me, and now his cool eyes filled me with
warmth for some reason. "Ok Luc, your officially our brother now." Julien
said in his way I would soon come to know as a way only Julien could put
it.
"Yeah," Orane said, "your not the only one with a messed up
family..."
Julien cut her off, "Yeah we both hate our families too..."
"So now were each other's family," Orane took back over.
"Forever." Julien finished smiling at Orane.
"Ok, lets head out," Orane said all the meanwhile packing her book
into her small blueish coloured school bag.
The duo turned trio decided to promptly continue forth through the
length of the park. Luc fit in nicely, and for the first time in several
months, felt at home.
After walking for almost half of an hour, the out stretch of the
forest arose before them.
"Where are we going?" Luc questioned looking on into the daunting
forest.
"The best place in the world!" Julien replied the way a child
would. "Nice and secluded," he continued on.
Although this seemed odd, Luc seemed to trust the couple, and
continued on without a single care.
Not far into the forest, but deffinately out of the way beyond
most eleven years olds interest, came upon a small prairie wich housed
several small trees that tamed in comparison to their much older
relatives wich made up the surrounding areas of the forest. On the
largest tree, the weathered, worn names wich read, "Julien and Orane."
Julien looked onwards towards Luc and then at the tree, obviously
suggesting that he too enscribe his name.
Julien carried a small pocket knife, a gift from his father, and
pulled it out, handing it to Luc.
Luc looked at him for a moment, taking it after the short pause
with a friendly smile. He peeled back a small piece of the bark with
encompassed the inner flesh of the tree, in an area near the other two
names and began with the knife into the tree. The "L" first, and he made
it large and took his time carving it deep. He now felt determined that
his name would stick against those of his new family, and oddly enough,
he felt that the endeavor would connect their three souls. He finished
the other two letters more quickly than the first and stood back admiring
how his name paired against Julien and Orane's.
"There!" Julien exclaimed.
"Now it's official," Orane continued looking at both boys.
"We're officialy family," Luc ended, smiling a smile wich was
shared amongst the trio.
"Now hold out your hand," Julien to the both of them.
Pulling his knife back into use, he made a small slice into his
index finger. The other tow got the hint, and one at a time grabbed the
knife and did the same.
"Me and Orane were waiting to do this." Julien explained to Luc.
"I think it's time now, that we officially all become blood family here,
and now."
The three of them placed their fingers together where trickles of
blood from each of their fingers met.
"Now officially in blood, I can call you brother." Julien said to
Luc. "And in blood, I call you sister," he carried on, now looking at
Orane.
He pulled his finger away now, and at his motion they all placed
their fingers amongst their tongues where they fed upon the very
existence of their beloved soul connections.
The evening was now beggining to set in, and the sun had met the
horrizen causing that early evening darkness. At this promt of mother
nature, Luc decided it be best if he started home. His Oncle didn't want
him out past dark, and would have him punished if he returned home too
late.
"Ok I will see you guys at school tommorow." Luc said looking at
the two of them with a warm feeling.
"Yes, deffinately, we will look for you," Orane said.
"Yeah and on your way home, be quick through the forest for it is
home to a crazy old witch," Julien warned.
Luc agreed to make haste and started on his way, glancing back at
his new friends from time to time. When he was sure they were out of
view, he sped up to a light jog, hoping to make better time. The sun was
now completely set, and darkness had fallen. Luc began to panic now, and
he wasn't sure if he had lost his way from the trail. Worried about what
his Oncle might do to him now, being this late, he forgot all about
Julien's warning.
After pausing slightly, Luc started jogging again, speeding up
faster now, running through the woods. Not being able to see his way, Luc
tripped over the out growth of roots, spawned from an old tree, causing
him to completely loose his footage. Blackness fell upon luc, with
glimpses of blurred images. Motion, Luc was moving, although still lying
on his shoulders, someone was dragging him through the forest. Luc
blacked out again. When he managed too finnally come too, he saw the
image of a beautiful girl no older than twenty. Startled, Luc ignored her
hand wich was outstretched to his aid. He crawled backwards where he
stumbled back to his feet, his legs slightly shaking, still not fully
awake yet.
"Wh...who are you?" Luc stuttered.
"A friend whom you have yet to know," the woman replied back. "We
share a common interest, although you are too young too understand."
Luc now felt more clueless than startled. "I don't know you," he
said. "Did you know my parents?" he then asked.
"No Luc, fate has sealed our souls together in a story that has
yet to play out." She smiled at him. "One day Luc, something will happen,
you won't know where to turn. Look to yourself, and you will find me,"
she continued. "I will help you play out your part in whatever tragedy
fate has destined for us."
Luc closed his eyes. "how do you know my name anyways?" Luc asked.
It was too late, he had blacked out once more. Later that evening he
awoke in his bed. He later learned that his neighbors had found him in
the park passed out. They brought him home, and his Oncle and Tante
assumed that this was his way of dealing with hiis parent's death. He
wasn't sure if what happened earlier was a dream or reality, but he
figured he would keep it too himself.
He felt a burning sensation coming from his hand and he remember
Julien and Orane. He pulled his finger up too his vision and inspected
his cut wich was now in the process of healing. he placed it back on his
tongue wich relieved the pain, but even more it relieved the lonliness in
his heart.
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