Date: Sat, 4 Feb 2012 11:44:46 -0800 (PST)
From: Tony Williams <tonywill9999@yahoo.com>
Subject: I'm disgusting

I'm absolutely fucking disgusting!

Strangely, perhaps, I like being disgusting.  I like doing things that
would turn most people off.  You know, the dirty stuff.  For example,
wouldn't it be nice if you could suck yourself off?  Sure, I imagine you've
seen pictures on the internet of guys bent double, sucking their own dicks,
but I've never managed to do it.  I just can't quite reach.  And I've
always wanted to cum in my own mouth and enjoy the taste of my cum, but
there's a problem, as I'm sure you know.  About a quarter of a second after
my orgasm peaks, I crash and lose interest.  I go from intensely aroused to
totally disinterested in an instant, left with a feeling of mild disgust
which, happily, soon abates.  There's some weird brain chemistry going on
here which I don't understand.  How can my perception of the world change
so radically so fast?  So if I were able to cum in my mouth, I wouldn't
enjoy it.  Bummer!  One time, I jerked off into a condom, put it in the
fridge overnight and tasted it the next morning when I was feeling horny
again.  Licking cold stale cum of a piece of slimy rubber isn't the sexual
highlight of the week, let me tell you.  But don't give up hope.  Believe
it or not, I've found a way you can taste the emission from the end of your
cock and enjoy it.  Not just enjoy, but be thrilled by it.  Here's what you
have to do.

Start out by having a nice slow wank, preferably twenty four hours or more
after your last one.  The longer the interval since your last orgasm, the
better.  Take your time and let your orgasm slowly build.  Don't get
carried away.  When you're close to cumming, slow down to about one stroke
every two seconds.  You have to time it perfectly, down to a single stroke.
Just as you're about to cum, stop.  It's difficult, I know, but you need
discipline.  Then squeeze your sphincter and if you've timed it right,
you'll get a nice big blob of fluid from the end of your dick.  As you
don't actually have a full orgasm, you'll stay horny so that you can savour
the taste.  It's best to be standing (in front of a mirror is good, if you
like to watch yourself jerking off, which I do) or sitting, so you can
catch your emission in the palm of your hand.  If you're lying down, you
won't be able to twist your wrist enough, but you can let it fall on the
back of your hand and lick it before it drips off.  With practice, as you
get better at it, the blobs gets bigger until you can produce maybe a
teaspoon full, on a good day.  Having tasted it, you can go on and finish
your wank, or save it for a bigger load the next day.

So, is this cum, or precum?  To be honest, I'm not sure.  Some days it's
kinda watery so that's gotta be precum.  Other days, it's thick and creamy.
Now for the big question: what does it taste like?  To be honest, not a
whole lot, not salty or bitter, just creamy.  It's not really the taste
that's the turn-on.  What excites me is the pretense that the cum in my
mouth has come from the end of your dick, that nice big stiff hot cock that
I've just sucked for delicious long minutes as you groaned and grunted in
ecstacy, that you've had a world class orgasm from the teasing of my tongue
and lips, and blown an enormous load into my eagerly waiting mouth.  I
don't care who you are, so long as you have a dick for me to suck.  I
swallow, wishing you were here to witness my defilement, my humiliation, my
total submission you the power of your lust . . . wait a minute, I'm
getting carried away by my own fantasies.  Suffice it to say it's the idea
of a mouthful of cum, rather than the taste itself that excites me.  I'm a
slut, and proud of it.

So, give it a try.  It takes a lot of practice to get it right, but if you
persevere you will succeed in tasting yourself and enjoying it too.  Good
luck.

Not content with tasting my own cum, I like to drink pee.  You'd be
surprised how many guys out there are into watersports.  But, I hear you
say, it tastes aweful.  Let's look at the science.

First of all, fresh urine is sterile.  There are no harmful effects from
drinking it.  But it has a very high Ph, in other words, it's alkaline.  So
what you should do is get your partner to drink about a quart of cranberry
juice, wait for an hour or so, then take his gorgeous cock in your mouth
and tell him to let it flow.  You'll be surprised at how mild it tastes, a
bit like a pale ale.  And were you aware that if you have half a glass of
beer and top it off with piss, you can barely tell the difference?  Try it.
One time, at an office party, I grabbed the glass of a particularly
obnoxious colleague, stepped into the bathroom, pissed in it and sneaked it
back to where he'd left it.  He never noticed.  Now, when he gives me a
hard time, I say to myself, "You drank my piss, you fucking jerk.  Bother
me again and I'll cum on your salad and call it ranch dressing!"

Drinking one's own pee is a little tricky, unless you piss in a glass and
chug it down, but that's no fun.  Even lying down in the tub with a
hard-on, it's difficult to direct the stream into my mouth, so I have to
lift my legs up over my head, my body almost inverted, and let it drop into
my mouth.  I suppose I could do that with cum, jerking off and letting my
load drip into my waiting mouth, and I've seen videos of this on the
internet, but the let-down happens too fast for me to enjoy it.  I'll have
to stick to eating other guys' cum.  No problem there!

But having a like minded piss freak pee on my body, especially on my cock
and then on my face, is glorious.  Hot, steaming pee, streaming into my
open mouth as I kneel submissively, enjoying the humilitation, the abuse,
surrendering totally to the will of another man, thrilled by the thought
that he can do anything he likes to me and I'll let him . . . here I go
again.  I'm getting hard thinking about it.

One time I went so far as to have a pee enema.  I'd hooked up with a guy
through Craigslist, a perfect top to my bottom, who was into watersports.
He arrived with a full bladder, hosed me down, gave me a mouthful, then
soaped up his dick and shoved it up my ass.  After some vigourous
thrusting, during which I encouraged him with cries of "Fuck me harder",
"Ram your big dick up my ass" and other assorted invitations to abuse me,
he emptied the considerable amount of piss remaining in his bladder up my
colon.  It was wonderful, being so savagely molested.  He pulled his cock
out as I clenched my ass, retaining his pee inside me, then he pushed me to
my knees and jerked off on my face.  I was in heaven, drenched with bodily
fluids, as he called me a fucking slut, a cocksucking faggot, a filthy
whore. I licked my lips and smeared the rest of his cum all over my face.

Don't be misled by all this confession.  There are some things I won't do.
I'm not into scat, or pain, though I like to be tied up.  Being handcuffed
to the bed is good, lying helplessly there, while some big muscled dude
stands there, his enormous cock (preferably black) in his hand, pondering
on how to satisfy himself at my expense.  I like to pretend he's a
rebellious slave and I'm the cruel plantation overseer and he's taking his
revenge on me, punishing me with his enormous cock.  And if there are two
guys, well, need I say it?  Being doubly abused is twice as good, plus the
thrill of having one guy watch as the other uses me to satisfy himself.

You probably agree that I'm fucking disgusting, though one man's disgust is
another man's lust.  I wouldn't want my mother watching me lapping a pool
of cum from my hand, but I'd let you watch.  I'd be thrilled if you
watched.  I like being watched doing any kind of sexual activity.  I like
to undress at my bedroom window with the shades wide open so my neighbour
can see me.  He think's that I'm unaware of him peeping as I slowly and
provocatively strip, saving my underpants for last, sliding them
seductively down my thighs to expose my rock-hard cock which I then
masturbate, usually managing to pull off my cum eating rountine as his
curtain twitches.  On the nights that I overdo it and inadvertently cum, I
shoot my load on to the window.  It has a lot of cum streaks on it,
evidence of my depravity.  Once in a while, before I jerk off for him, I
dress in panties.  I have lots of pairs in different colors and styles,
many of them see-through, and on top I wear a short, transucent slip.  I
parade around, pretending I'm a girl, a naughty, sexy little girl who likes
to exhibit herself.  I don't know how he feels about this, but it's so
exciting to show myself off.  His is not the only window that overlooks
mine, so who knows who's out there, enjoying the show?  He's never stripped
off for me, the selfish bastard, though I'm prepared to bet you would.
You'd seductively undress, sliding your blinding white briefs down to
expose your cock, hard as an iron bar, wet at the end, big enough to
satisfy my hungry ass.  Or better yet, you'd let me undress you.  You could
handcuff me and command me to take all your clothes off with my teeth.  It
would take a while, which would be nice.  Most strip routines are over way
too soon.  I'd spend a lot of time licking your nipples and sucking your
balls into my mouth, running my tongue up the shaft of your dick, then
under your foreskin.  I like foreskins.  They contain the steamy aroma of
dick which drives me crazy.  You can do a lot with foreskins.  I have a
nice loose one, and some guys like to dock with me.  They can do anything
they want with me.  I'm always willing.  You could insist that I rim you,
demand that I push my tongue up your ass as far as I can stretch it.  I
know how much pleasure being rimmed can offer, and having my face buried
between your thighs as I lick your ass would be wonderful.  It'd have the
advantage that I could fondle your cock and balls at the same time.  But be
careful not to cum, because I want your jism on my face, in my mouth or up
my hungry ass.  You can rim me, if you like.  Lots of guys like that and it
does feel nice, especially as a prelude to anal penetration.

As for being fucked . . .I don't think I have to tell you.  That thrill as
a nice big, hard cock first slides in as I relax my sphincter and bear down
to open up for you.  The ecstacy of having my bowels filled up with an
eager, rigid dick, the joy of being savagely pounded.  For me, rape is like
a sacrement.  Rape me, you fucking brute!  Make me your slave!  Ram that
gorgeous cock up my . . . here I go again, getting carried away.

And if you want to be fucked ( and, lets face it, more guys do than you
might imagine) then I want to lie on my back and have you sit on my dick.
You can be in control and best of all, if you happen to cum from the
stimulation of anal penetration, it will land on my chest, or with luck, on
my face, and I'll get to taste your jism.

So, I guess I'm a slut.  On the other hand, it's true that it's better to
give than to receive, and I want to give you anything you want, the more
extreme the better.  The thrill of making you cum is much more intense that
simply having an orgasm myself.  I can always wait.  If I don't come with
you, then the next time I squeeze a white creamy blob on to my hand and
lick it off, there'll be that much more for me to taste.

Oh, shit!  I think I'm gonna cum!  I know I should slow down and do my
thing so I can get a nice handful to swallow, but I'm out of control.  Here
it comes!  It's gonne be huge!  I wish you could see me, pounding my cock
with my fist.  The end is bright red and swelling up and I can feel the cum
rushing down my cock.  Fuck!  Jesus!  Phew, what a thrill!  My cock is
pulsing and six or seven huge blobs of cum shoot out of my dick.  It's
soaked my underpants, but that's a good thing.  I'm not gonna put clean
ones on.  As soon as I recover, I'll enjoy the smell of my cum-stained
briefs.

I'm gonna just lie here for a few moments and get my breath back.  Talking
of cum stained underpants, I've traded briefs with guys that I've met in
gay underwear chat-rooms.  It's great to open the mail and find a pair of
white briefs, stiff with cum which I can proudly wear, fantasizing about
how he came in them.  One time, I jerked off into my briefs, put them into
a ziploc bag and mailed them to a like-minded pervert.  Later he emailed me
to say that when they arrived they were still wet and the smell was
overpowering.  That made me very happy.

Thinking about this, I'm getting hard again.  My briefs are still wet so
I'm gonna take them off, sniff them and rub them all over my face, then go
to a gay bar and mingle.  No one will know my face is covered with cum.
What should I wear?  Panties, I think, a bra, my black mini-dress and wig.
Just a touch of make-up.  I'm quite convincing as a girl.  I'll let some
guy feel me up and watch his face as he discovers my cock.  A few guys get
angry, but most are delighted.

You'd be overjoyed, wouldn't you, you horny bastard.  You're probably just
as fucking disgusting as I am.  I hope so.

I'm really fucking disgusting!



The End.



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