Date: Wed, 9 Sep 2015 23:48:07 +0000 (UTC)
From: Beaumonte Bill <oral_guy_2000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Pervert Phil Part 36

Pervert Phil (part 36)

This story traces the life of Phil, now deceased.  His life was filled with
perversion, which he enjoyed tremendously and freely shared with me.  This
series contains content that some will find offensive, so you may wish to
skip some parts.  Phil took many risks, and was fortunate to survive his
many encounters.  I hope you enjoy the story, but caution you not to follow
his example!

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Of late I have been submitting to sadistic women rather than seeking out
men who enjoy beating up fags both because it is easier to find women who
appreciate the offer of submission and because sadistic men are far more
reticent about admitting their sadism.  Granted, there are "clubs" for men
who enjoy BDSM fun but most of the men who join those clubs are looking to
be beaten, not men looking for submissive fags like me.  Women who
understand homosexuals know that we are not looking for sex, we want pain
and humiliation and degradation and they enjoy doing all of those things to
us.

However, what a woman can do is only so much because they possess no penis
and they usually only know a limited number of male homosexuals, most of
whom are submissives.  As in all things, there is a compromise solution!  I
have recently become the owned property of a man, a homosexual man who has
fantasized about owning a submissive fag for years but never found one to
his liking.  He likes older submissive queers like me.

Now I must confess that his `ownership' of me is somewhat limited; he can
not sell me to another nor can he `modify' me which is a wonderful
euphemism for castration and penis removal.  I have encouraged him to `out'
me as widely as possible and to order me to service his friends and others
under any circumstances which he finds erotic.  At present, he is the only
person who may have anal intercourse with me without using a condom.  That
condition will probably change.

He recently posted my name and address and pictures of me giving blowjobs
on forty some bulletin boards on the internet where they may be seen by
others at any time.  I thanked him for doing that and encouraged him to do
more of it.  He has announced that I will be available to give blowjobs
here at my apartment at a certain date and time and we have already
discussed his coming here a little beforehand so that he can fuck me in the
ass before the rest arrive to use my mouth.  My owner wants to take new
pictures of me sucking cock which he will then provide to anyone
interested.

Clearly, my need for degradation has grown.  While I have considered
becoming an "owned property homosexual slave" for years, this is the first
time since I was in college that I have done it and the very first time
that I have been owned by a male homosexual.  Because he is quite new to
the "scene", I am both his property and his teacher.  I have suggested
genital torment to him and he seems to be quite enthusiastic about it but
he has not hurt me yet.  That will come with time as will public
degradation and humiliation which he also seems to be quite enthusiastic
about.  I offered to suck his cock if he needed it when he told me about
outing me and he said that, while my offer was very tempting, that he had
become aroused and masturbated while he was posting my pictures and
information to the user groups.  That was most encouraging!

Much to my regret, our Master / slave relationship was not to be.  As it
happens, I think my new owner was far more entranced with the concept of
owning another man than he was in actually seeing me being used and
degraded.  I am sure that he was sincere but that sincerity didn't lead to
any real use of me on the part of others.  He did manage to use me several
times but that was hardly degrading enough for me.  We parted company
amiably and he is still welcomed to use me whenever he wants.

The one bright spot in all of that was that, through my former owner's
postings, I was contacted by a number of potential other men who invited me
to consider them should my situation change.  I am currently in discussions
with several possible "Masters" who assure me that I would be far more
frequently used by them and their friends and acquaintances.  One of them
has invited me to spend a weekend at his place which he says has a fully
equipped dungeon.

Clearly, dear reader, I have committed myself to a life of degradation and
sexual torment.  This probably comes as no surprise given my history of
submissiveness and enjoyment of torment by sadistic men and women.  My need
for degradation and humiliation has grown far beyond even my admittedly
perverted expectations.  I accept that.  I can even recognize that my
activities are self-destructive and even suicidal.  Perhaps that is as it
should be.

Even as far back as my teenage years, I have enjoyed sexual torment,
especially the application of pain to my genitals.  I suppose that includes
my being fondled by my mother and her masturbation of me so that I would
shoot my cum into her drink.  It most definitely includes the abuse I
received at the hands of the young lady in the park who enjoyed beating me
and forcing me to service other boys under her watchful eye.

However, there have been far more experienced sadists to whom I have
submitted over the years; among those I must include the woman who owned me
during my college years and, unquestionably, my older lady friend in
Modesto who enjoyed beating me and who had a large circle of friends who
enjoyed watching homosexuals being used as submissive pigs by other men.
Over time, good sex for me has become something which results in my crying
and begging and being subjected to serious pain.

You may call that what you will; self-loathing comes to mind.  I grew up in
a time when `fairies' were hated and despised by all good folks and I
learned those lessons well.  Knowing what I was didn't diminish the disgust
I felt at wanting to have sex with men – any man and nearly anyplace or
time!  That self-hatred combined with my exhibitionist nature to fill me
with the desire to be punished and used at the same time and in as public a
fashion as possible without being arrested.

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To be continued ...

Feel free to contact me with your comments or requests.  –Bill
(oral_guy_2000@yahoo.com)

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