Date: Fri, 2 Jul 2004 18:06:51 EDT
From: Born2bwoman@aol.com
Subject: raunch hunger continues-gay raunch &interracial

Hi again.

I'm sharing my continuing true life experiences because several of you
have enjoyed them. The events are completely true like before, and told
in exact detail of how I am committed to my honest hunger of being
raunchy. This is what I enjoy, and gladly accept. Usual disclaimers
apply.

Upon encouragement from lots of nifty readers, I have kept up my
fascination with kink. While smoking some more rock the other night, I
stumbled onto a website that had some great scat pics. These are the
first I've been able to find and they were incredible. One pic had a
young guy under a rim seat with a gorgeous multi colored firm log between
his lips. The turd was about as thick as a nice size cock, and about 2 or
3 inches of the log was sticking out of his mouth. His face was turned to
the side facing the camera, and I could feel and relate to the look in
his eyes reflecting his joy. It was so beautiful, and I so badly wished
it was my face in the pic. The other pic showed a log sticking out of a
guys ass about 2 inches and a lucky guy had the end of it in his mouth. I
was so happy to find these pics and they are fantastic. I see my future
in them.

The photos made my hunger rage to eat more shit. After studying the pics
for awhile, I loaded a hit of rock, and took my third taste of poop. I
dug my finger up my butt and pulled out some nuggets of shit and without
any reluctance or hesitation, put the shit in my mouth. It took me a bit
of time to dig out the pieces of shit and by the time I got it out of my
ass, my crack buzz had faded quite a bit. Even though I wasn't buzzing
real good, I put the poop right on my tongue. My desire and more
importantly, my acceptance of my pleasure of tasting shit overcame my
previous hesitation. Less I needed to be zoned out on crack, and more I
had to satisfy my hunger to be a full fledged shit eater. I now made a
big step forward to being a shit chewing guy that will munch down poop
without even being under any influence. That's fine with me because in
time, I hope to be a man (or several men's) totally devoted toilet. With
my buzz barely even noticeable, I did my normal thing and put some shit
in my mouth and took it like the true shit pig I love being.

This morsel of shit was again firm but not quite as much as my second
piece I ate. Still though, I had real shit on my tongue and I enjoyed it.
I lightly rolled it around on my tongue getting the flavor of it. Then, I
smushed it up all around my mouth and swallowed it down bit by bit. The
flavor was bitter, and was exactly fitting for me. I loved it so much. I
thought about getting to the bathroom and spitting it out, but luckily my
true nature prevailed and I swallowed it all. I then, worked my tongue
all over my teeth to collect stray morsels and swallowed them also.

Being high on crack had a minor role, the dominant reason I was able to
eat shit for the third time is because deep down, I wanted to. The
correct statement is that I needed to. Being taboo or whatever it is, I
am growing rapidly into a guy who hungers shit in my mouth and throat. I
crave it more than ever and tonight I'm going to eat shit for the fourth
time.

The taste is revolting while also delightful. I far more enjoy the flavor
of poop than notice the rank taste. It's a tremendous joy of knowing I'm
chewing shit while it happens. Any repulsion is greatly exceeded by my
overwhelming pleasure. I am ecstatic to have my mouth be a receptacle for
shit. Soon, as I'm able to swallow more quantity, I'm going to push out a
turd onto a plate, do a big hit of crack, and then suck it, lick it, and
bite off chunks to chew up and swallow down. I'll keep doing hits until
I'm able to eat the entire log. The goal I'm working towards is to be
able to eat large quantities and enjoy piles of it without wrenching. I'm
certain I'll make my goal because I honestly do love eating shit and it
suits me perfectly. I don't care if you find this nasty, cause I like it
and it's what I want for me.

I haven't expanded my experiences with piss yet, (much more interested in
eating shit in quantity) but I have continued to swallow my loads of cum.
In fact, I've finally gone further with sperm. I am so delirious about it
and have to share with you.

My burning desire to have a guy shoot his load in my mouth has now become
one of my most cherished memories. After months of eating my own loads of
cum, my yearning for someone else's became to strong and I gave into it.
I drove 6 hours to my favorite gloryhole place in Georgia to seek out my
first load of cum from a guy. I far more love to suck black men's cock,
and this gloryhole spot is where I always find black dick. I wanted my
first load of sperm to be from a black man. And it was.

I got to the video store around 3 in the afternoon last Saturday and went
straight into the booths. It wasn't crowded but within 30 seconds the
booth next to me became occupied , and sure enough he was black. I
immediately rolled my finger around the gloryhole and he responded. He
opened his jeans and pulled a gorgeous dick out. While still limp, it
came through the hole. 6 inches soft, uncut, dark shiny black, lots of
veins bulging, and right into my eager lips. Each time I've been there
I've always been blessed with nice black dicks to suck. This time was the
same except now I wanted to suck one until it put it's load of sperm in
my mouth. I am always so grateful when these black guys let me suck their
cocks, that I do everything I can to make them feel good. One reason I
give my best effort on their dick is because I want to show my gratitude
to them, the other reason is because the better my blowjob is for them,
the more chance they'll stay there and let me suck them. I've become very
good at sucking cock, and use several various techniques.

I sucked him in and out and he got hard right away. His dick grew to 9
maybe 10 inches long and had the diameter of a kennedy half dollar. His
cock had a crescent shape that curved downwards. This thrilled me cause I
knew it would curve right down my throat so I could deep throat him. I
try to always get as much of a dick in my mouth as I can and his type was
like a hung black guy I'd sucked before and was able to deepthroat as
well. So I greedily made my attempt and was rewarded as my mouth went
past gag point and kept going to the base of his dick. I did it! He
twitched on the other side realizing his whole dick was in my throat.
More than anything in the world, I rejoice having a long black cock far
down my throat. I pulled back, sucked him a few more times and
deepthroated him again, holding my lips around his base, I opened and
closed my lips a few times gripping hard to make sure he knew I had his
whole cock in my mouth. As I pulled back again, he pushed forward and
worked his nuts through the hole. I helped his balls through and was
stunned when they came through. They hung low and were gigantic. I've
seen plenty of big balls, and his were among the largest. They filled the
palm of my hand as I raised then to kiss and lick. I couldn't get over
the size of his balls and licked on them for quite awhile as I marveled
at their massiveness. While I was lavishing his nuts I thought they must
hold an extraordinary amount of cum. I wanted exactly that for my first
load. I went back to his shaft and gave him an extended amount my utmost
talents. I worked extra hard to keep him wanting my mouth on his dick.
After I thought I'd hooked him enough, I pulled off and waited. He pulled
back and I whispered through the hole. He caught on and leaned down as I
asked him to come to my booth. I heard hid door, and cracked mine and he
came in. I went right into sucking him again and he was cooing and giving
me compliments. He asked if I liked sucking that big black dick and I
stopped and stood to tell him "my proper place is kneeling in front of a
black man doing everything I can to pleasure his dick. I was born to suck
black cock and I not only love it, I worship it. It's where I belong". He
smiled big and I continued, "I so love sucking your dick that I was
hoping you would be the first man to feed me a load of cum. I've never
had a guy shoot in my mouth, and now I want to change that". He got wide
eyed and said "sure white boy. I'll let you eat my cum. You keep sucking
me and I'll shoot a load real soon. I haven't cum in over 2 weeks, and
those big balls pack a large load. You sure you want mine? I'm gonna cum
in buckets probably." I looked him in the eye and said, "I hope you shoot
the biggest load you've ever shot. I want to swallow as much as you can
give me. A big load is what I want to be my first to eat. I've thought
about it a long time, and that's exactly what I want. When you're close,
let me know so I can pull off, and you can jack off into my mouth while I
hold it open." He again got wide eyed and said, "OK, you want, you got
it. Be prepared though, it's gonna be a hell of a lot." I said, "I hope
so. Give me as much as you can and aim good so it all goes in my mouth" I
knelt down again and continued my worship of his fabulous cock and balls.
He was really appreciating my cocksucking skill and after 5 or 6 minutes
he moaned "oh baby I'm getting close. Oh yeah, oh yeah, that's it make me
cum white boy" I pulled off and opened wide, tilted my head back and
prepared to taste my first load of sperm from another man. He took over
his dick and jacked it fast. A few pumps, he pointed it closer to my
mouth and it just touched my outstretched tongue. Here it is, I'm finally
going to begin my destiny of being a swallowing cum dump. I could hardly
believe it, I was somewhat nervous, but I was much more eager. Then it
started. As he groaned, I felt a small spurt land heavily in the center
of my tongue. Before my brain could register that it was really
happening, he fired a missile that slammed the upper back of my mouth so
hard and with such mass that I jerked in reaction. The large missile
splat onto my throat entrance and stayed there as I had my throat closed.
I couldn't help but gulp from the glob caught there and some of it did go
in my throat. That's it now, no turning back I have now eaten a man's
sperm. This realization now allowed me to give in totally and I was now
ready for all of it. These thoughts all were lighting fast and as I now
became devotedly hungry, another equally forceful missile fired onto the
roof of my mouth and splashed to the back of my tongue. Wow I thought,
it's happening. Another forceful blast hit square on my tongue and
bounced in with the rest to the back. Still pumping, again he shot a huge
bullet and another. With each jolt of his cum that hit my mouth, I got
increasingly anxious. I was taking a black mans sperm and I knew it was
what I wanted. My true nature was at last being fulfilled and I welcomed
it. Spurt after spurt, his cum kept coming. I could taste it now and I
was elated. I counted each blast, and he shot 12 times all of which
straight into my mouth. I made sure to count as my first time was and
will always be precious to me. He looked at me and said, "that's it man,
that's all my hot cum for you." I held my mouth open so he could see it.
"wow, your whole tongue is white. You got a huge load there. I really
needed to empty my nuts, and you got a major load there man. I can't
believe I shot that much". I closed my mouth and now realized just how
much he had given me. My mouth was bulging with his warm sperm and I
could feel it all over my tongue. The flavor was now getting very potent
and I was ecstatic as I took in the special taste. I swirled my tongue
around and swished his very thick cream all around my mouth. I kept
swirling his sperm in my mouth and the more I did it, the more I became
overjoyed with what I was doing. I was beyond happy, I now had a new
fetish. Tasting his cum was the most wonderful thing I'd ever done. It
was absolutely delicious. It was thick like the consistency of jelly
almost. I had a huge mouthful of succulent sperm and I savored every
drop of it. Realizing the discovery of my purpose in life now, I knew
this was what I wanted. Very comfortably and satisfied, I began
swallowing his thick bountiful cumload. I could feel it coating my throat
and I was getting a bleachy kind of taste. It was perfect. Everything I
had hoped for had at last happened. I swallowed all of it down and licked
all around my mouth to take as much as I could. I was completely at
peace. I had instantly loved my own sperm, and his huge load was even
more wonderful. My craving was justified, and I now knew I was meant to
enjoy men's sperm.

I was in another world and dizzy with pleasure while he zipped up and
left quickly. I couldn't care less, I had just eaten an incredible load
of cum and I was thrilled. As I was coming back to earth, I heard the
door of the next booth, and I looked through the hole to see another
black hand. I gave him the signal after he put his tokens in, and he
responded and stuck his dick in the hole. I was still reeling about
eating my first load of cum and when I seen another big black dick in my
face, I went into a crazy lust mode.

This guy's cock was thick, and got a full 8 to 9 inches hard. I sucked
his dick like a madman. Still tasting my beloved first load, I now had a
thirst for another. Even though I new I risked getting hiv, my hunger was
to strong. I had fallen in love with sperm and I couldn't stifle my
passion for it. I wanted to eat this new guy's load and I didn't care. If
I get aids, I'll spend the rest of my days being happy and eat hundreds
or hopefully thousands more cumloads. I now am being irrational, but my
desire is too strong. I sucked his dick as best I could trying to urge
his orgasm. I never once took my mouth off his dick. My jaw was sore, but
my craving for his sperm was overpowering me. I was in another world. It
took 10 minutes or so and he started to twitch and I could tell he was
close. I reached up and jacked his shaft while I sucked about an inch
beyond his head. I felt his head pulse and he began pumping his sperm on
my tongue. No real hard missile shots, but fairly massive spurts that
piled up on my tongue. I was to excited to keep count, but my mouth was
being steadily filled with my second guy's tasty cum. He started to pull
back and I knew he was done. I kept kneeling as I relished my newfound
treat. Similar salty creamy taste that put me in ecstasy. I absorbed the
taste for about a minute and swallowed my reward. Again I reeled as my
throat was coated with cum. My excitement was now increased ten fold and
I gained a higher level of desire to eat sperm. I had surely anticipated
that I would get into eating a guy's load, but I had no idea I would go
absolutely nuts when I finally did it. I did, I couldn't contain my lust
of tasting their fresh tasty sperm on my tongue and down my throat. It
was far more delicious to me than I had expected and now I was determined
to get lots more guy's to feed my appetite.

After I thought about my deep satisfaction of just having swallowed my
first 2 loads of sperm, I left the booth and went and got 10 dollars more
in tokens. As I got back to the booths, there was now about 5 black men
and a couple white guy's hanging out in the hallway. I got in my booth
and quickly was joined by one of the black guy's in the next booth. I
made my gesture and again I had another nice black cock in my hole that I
immediately took in my insatiable mouth. This dick was uncut (I love so
much) and erect he was about 9 inches. I worked my cocksucking magic on
this new majestic dick and again I ignored my jaw discomfort. Like
before, I was trying to get his cum as quick as I could because I now
felt starved for it. This guy held back for a little longer, but after 15
minutes or so, my dicksucking talent prevailed. As I felt him start to
tense, I moved my lips to his head and jacked his shaft with my hand. My
lips were tight on his head, and after a couple of strokes, his sperm was
squirting into my enthusiastic mouth. Blasts of cum hit the roof of my
mouth, and as it slowed, spurts were covering my tongue. He shot over and
over, and when I knew he was finished, like before, I swirled it around
my mouth and absorbed the flavor. Amazed at how awesome I felt, I was in
bliss as my affection intensified. I swallowed it and became even more
greedy to eat more.

The next guy in the adjoining booth was white, and I didn't go for him.
After he exited, another black guy took his place and I made my move.
Black cock number 4 came through to me. Throwing all caution and
reluctance to the wind, I sucked for another load of sperm to eat. I got
what I wanted. He fed me his cum, and I loved it more than ever before. I
was getting more hungry with each load of cum I was fed.

I stayed in my booth and I believe all 5 black guy's came and let me
swallow their cum. I was so delighted and ever so much more thirsty for
more. It was getting a little late though and as I was just about to
leave, the next booth door opened and a white guy entered. I wasn't sure
if it was the same guy as before, but I could easily eat lots more of
sperm that I grew to worship on my tongue and down my throat, that I
decided to try for one more load. He gestured to suck my dick, but after
my resistance and motioning for his cock, he stuck his dick through for
my lips. His dick was really nice. 7 ½ inches or so and uncut. I went to
work sucking eagerly at his penis and was able to deepthroat all of it. I
have always loved being able to get every inch of a man's dick in my
mouth. I was really loving blowing his cock, cause it was perfect size
for me to suck it all down repeatedly. My mouth was massaging all inches
of his rod each time I bobbed my face. I enjoyed sucking his dick so
much, and I decided to try and make him hold back from his orgasm so I
could suck him longer. As I sensed he was getting close, I'd stop and
kiss and lick up and down his boner. This technique worked about 15 or 20
minutes, and I was ready to end it. I put my best suck skills to him and
he tensed. His sperm exploded into my mouth and the quantity was a lot. I
relished the taste and it was luscious again. I happily swallowed another
load and decided I needed to leave.

On my 6 hour drive home, I relived each cumload and knew I now had a need
that I could never satisfy. Each load had it's unique taste and I
worshiped each one. My place in life was now revealed and I am very happy
to be a man's cumdump. I am naturally pleased at having sperm in my mouth
and I am relieved that my destiny is understood. My introduction to
eating cum was earthmoving. I had a large appetite when I started eating
my own sperm, but now I constantly think about finding as much cum to eat
as I can. The mental aspect is part of my desire, but 90 percent is how
delicious sperm is to me. I adore the taste and texture and when it
slides down my throat, I'm in my element.

While I deeply love to eat shit (even with my 3 times experience) and I
will definitely expand to the ability to chew and swallow larger
quantities of it, my deepest craving is be fed lots of cum. I may have
now been exposed to hiv, and when I get tested, maybe I'll rethink my
promiscuity. If I have become hiv positive, I'll spend every single day
eating shit, swallowing cum, and drinking piss. I know a gay cruising
place nearby and can get all 3 continually 24 hours a day 7 days a week.
I hope you enjoy my continuing life experiences, and tonight I'm going to
try and eat that log I push out on a plate. I'll end up at that cruising
place tonight working on quenching my never-ending passion for sperm.
Wish me luck.