Date: Mon, 27 Oct 2003 19:54:52 -0800 (PST)
From: Scotty <niki200sc@yahoo.com>
Subject: The Professor and Sean, Part 28
The Professor and Sean, Part 28
by Scotty
Disclaimer:
This is a fictional story dealing with love and consensual sexual
activities between males. If you are not of legal age, reside in an area
where viewing such material is illegal, or are offended by homosexuality
and/or homosexual themes, leave this site now.
The characters in this story do not practice safe sex. Remember this is
fiction. You should always use a condom for the your protection and
especially for the protection of the one you love.
The author recommends only safe sex. Be wise and follow safe sex
practices.
Several songs are quoted in this story. The copyrights to these are held by
the artists or their publishers and not by the author. They are quoted as a
tribute to the artist and the piece.
All persons in this story are fictional and any resemblance to persons
living or dead is purely coincidental.
The author retains all rights to this story. No reproductions or links to
other sites are allowed without the permission of the author.
All other disclaimers apply.
We all find treasure in the strangest places; it is the wonder of being
alive.
Scotty
Thanks to the individuals who have emailed me to tell me they are enjoying
the story. It is great to hear from you. I try to answer all of you; but
if you have to wait a day or two, it is because I just can't keep up with
the emails.
There's more story to come.
The marked improvement in the punctuation and spelling is because of the
intelligent and careful assistance I have received from Bill and Wayne
These two wonderful guys are my beta readers and editors. I thank them
here publicly. As Sean would say, "They are awesome!"
The Professor and Sean - Part 28
I
When we reached our bed, we fell on it together, hugging each other, and
kissing gently. Our joy was intense; we really didn't understand at that
moment how extraordinary this feeling was. We were to discover that we
were different from many of our friends. Nothing had happened to dampen
our sexual desire for one another, but something else had happened that
made our lovemaking take a turn to a more complete and gentle form. We
were now patient; we could wait. Now it was important to please our lover,
to make him the center of our efforts, even putting our own pleasure behind
his feeling of complete fulfillment.
I was learning much from my Sean. He was mature and happy. He always
seemed to understand what I wanted without my telling him. His sense of
providing for his lover when he was making love to me, made me marvel at
his ability to understand so much. I came to the conclusion that his soul
was a happy and joy-filled place. His desire was to make me happy, to
fulfill my needs, emotionally and sexually. I had never had to tell him;
he simply knew.
For my part, I learned to read Sean's body, to understand what he desired,
and to wait my turn, or to take the lead, depending on the situation.
Together we were learning that our lovemaking was a private almost holy
thing, that it did not depend on the intervention of other people. Our
previous dallying with other individuals now seemed frivolous and
unnecessary; it had in its moment in time, provided us with pleasure and
sexual fulfillment.
We now knew that we did not need that. We were a couple; our lovemaking
would provide us with all our sexual needs. In long conversations that
night, Sean and I had decided to exclude others from our bed. We were
realistic, however, and knew that situations would happen when we would
enjoy sexual experiences with others. We kept to our earlier promise,
though, that we would only get involved with other men if we were together.
Previous to our falling in love, neither of us had any desire to 'try'
other guys. I had never been one who had cruised for cock. Sean had never
done more than sneak peeks at cocks in the shower room, and jerk off as he
visited gay internet sites. Our experiences over the last few months were
something that neither of us could explain. Of course, Sean told me it was
because I was so handsome and sexy that guys came on to us. I insisted
that it was because he was so hot and sexy that every gay guy at State
wanted to have him. He would laugh and tell me, that with both of us
together, sexy, handsome, hot, whatever, it was not difficult to explain
why so many hot guys had wanted sex with us.
We hoped now to use that talent only when we wanted raw sex and not love.
We understood that we could be in danger of hurting our marriage if either
of us became infatuated with some guy. We reasoned that if we were
together, we could guard against that eventuality. Our resolve was strong.
We knew that in the very near future we would have to deal with Dan
Hazelton. How we would respond to this stituation was still a mystery to
us. We decided that we would let things run their course. We knew what
Dan wanted; the test would be whether we wanted the same thing at the same
time. Once we had jumped that hurtle, we would be better able to
understand how we would deal with some others who had indicated interest in
us. For now, the only interest either of us had was in the other. No one
else mattered to us. As a couple we promised to be committed to each
other. Sean said with his famous giggle that if we wanted some sex outside
our own bed, we might want to think of it in the same way that others might
go golfing. Nothing more than an outing and some exercise. I laughed
until I needed to use the toilet. My Sean, how I loved him.
**********************************************************************
Before we knew it, the time had come for us to return to State and begin
our new life together. We were both excited and a little apprehensive. We
wondered if we would be perceived differently, if we would be excluded from
certain circles. Sean told me that if any group of people didn't want us
in their circle, it would be their loss.
"Anyway," he said, "there are many other groups who would love to include
us. And who cares! Look at the wonderful friends we already have. They
more than make up for those other shitheads.
People who act like that, excluding others for simplistic reasons, are all
suffering from brain farts. Eventually they will see the light." Again
Sean hit the proverbial nail on the head.
Our last night at the cabin had been quiet and romantic. Sean and I
watched another sunset from the porch, luxuriating in the wonderful colors
and in the peacefulness of the place. The show nature put on for us that
night was extraordinary. It seemed the colors were more radiant, more
explosive. The hues and variation in pinks and reds along with the purples
and the orange, all choreographed as only nature can, filled both of us
with a sense of destiny, a feeling that life would be kind to us, would
reward us in some fashion for our complete love for each other. We hugged
a lot and kissed frequently as the sun slowly sank to the horizon, telling
us it seemed, to live our lives fully, to enjoy what was around us, and to
care for each other as much twenty years from now as we did on this
romantic evening. When at last there was only the dim remains of the
glorious show did we go back into the cabin to prepare dinner.
As I gathered the ingredients for dinner, Sean lit a fire in the fireplace.
We had decided to eat dinner in the living area as we had done on our first
night in the cabin. Sean found candles and lighted them. The room was
aglow in firelight and candlelight. Sean had shut off all the other lights
and I knew as soon as dinner was prepared and brought into the living room,
that all the other lights in the cabin would be turned off. It was obvious
to me that my handsome Sean was in a romantic mood and so was I. This
night should be as perfect as we could make it. When we returned, our busy
schedules with demands on our time, would make it impossible to enjoy many
nights like this one. We would be able to enjoy ourselves in this
leisurely romanitc way only on the weekends, and that would not always be
possible.
Out menu would be simple. Chicken marsala, rice pilaf, and sauted zuchinni
and summer squash. There would be rolls, and ice cream for dessert . It
would seem like a ten-course banquet to us because we were here together,
enjoying the food and each other's company. Sean kept hugging me and
kissing my neck. It made preparation difficult, but I didn't want him to
stop. Once or twice, I kissed him on the lips, but I had to take care not
to stimulate him too much. If I did, we would be off to the bedroom
without dinner. I wanted both, so I was careful in kissing my lover and
partner. When everything was ready, Sean helped me carry the plates into
the living area. We poured ourselves some milk and water, and brought the
warmed rolls and butter into the room. We sat on the floor, using the
coffee table as our dinner table. We sat close to one another, our thighs
rubbing against each other. Sean started feeding me bites of his dinner
and I found it sexy. I started to feed him also, and suddenly, we were
kissing passionately. We had dropped our forks on the floor and were lying
on the floor, our bodies wrapped around each other.
"Sean, baby, we have to stop this for a minute and finish our dinner.
Please! God, Sean, you make me so hot. Please." I begged.
Sean stopped kissing me for a moment, just long enough to tell me, "I want
to eat you, Ry. Dinner can wait. Let's make love, please," he pleaded. I
could feel the hardness of his cock as he rubbed it against my already
swollen penis. What was I to do? I wanted to make love as much as he did,
but I wanted to finish dinner, cleanup, and then make love for the rest of
the night. Yet, I didn't want to hurt Sean as it was evident that he
wanted to make love immediately. I struggled with how to handle the
situation when it suddenly dawned on me that it didn't matter. We could
make love now, and whenever we wished. Dinner could wait.
"Ok, Sean, if you really want to, let's forget dinner and make love. Right
here if you want or the bedroom, or wherever you desire. We can give up
dinner if making love can't wait," I told him.
"No, it's okay, Ry. Let's finish dinner. That's the sane thing to do; I
know it is. It's just sometimes when you kiss me, I just lose it all and
want to make love immediately. I love you so much, Hon, that I can't get
enough of you. But let's be sane, dinner first, lovemaking second. Not so
much fun, but much more mature and controlled," said Sean with a giggle.
"Baby, maybe we shouldn't be mature and controlled, maybe we should be
young, filled with desire, and throw control to the winds. You know, Sean,
I want to make love to you very much right now, too. Let's make this a
quick dinner. We can have dessert later. I want you for my dessert
anyway. Let's be foolish and happy," I said.
"Ry, we should take our time eating dinner. You worked so hard on the
preparation. It wouldn't be right not to enjoy every bite of it. But I
agree about dessert. Give me a sexy kiss to hold me over, Ry. I can
wait," he told me.
I kissed Sean slowly and with gentleness. I felt my sexual urges building.
I knew if I continued to kiss Sean with such urgency, that all would be
lost about finishing dinner. I broke away from my kiss with him, found my
fork and slowly put a piece of chiken into Sean's beautiful mouth. He
closed his mouth, smiled, chewed, and swallowed.
"You have to try that. Boy, is that sexy. Here kiss me again." I kissed
Sean again. When we broke, he slowly put a piece of chicken into my mouth,
and I discovered how sensual that was, how stimuating it was.
"Hmmm, Baby, that is so hot. I would never have imagined that something as
simple could be so powerful," I said as I kissed him again. This time his
arms were around me and we were again in a passionate embrace, all thoughts
of finishing dinner gone, our desire so overwhelming that hunger
disappeared. We had rolled away from the coffee table and were nearer the
fire. It was warm and we we hotter. Sean was on top of me, and he had
begun to remove my shirt. I worked getting his shirt off and then our
naked chests were together, each feeling the warmth and strength of the
other. Our kissing was intense. I kicked off my sneakers and he did the
same,
Somehow we were both out of our trousers and underwear. I licked my way
down Sean's body to his feet and with my teeth I pulled both of his socks
off so that he was now completely naked. I pulled my socks off as I
started to make my way back up to his crotch.
"Come here, Hon. I want you to kiss me. I want to kiss you," he said. I
moved back up and was soon kissing him passionately, my tongue probing his
mouth. He was groaning in pleasure, and I was getting very excited. Sean
rolled me on to my back and began to kiss and to lick my body, quickly
moving to my crotch where he licked my balls and then took my throbbing
cock into his warm moist mouth. He played with my cockhead with his
tongue, giving me intense pleasure. I had grabbed his head and was running
my fingers through his curly hair. I wanted him, too.
"Sean, please get in the 69 position, I want you, too," I told him.
He moved into 69 position and soon we were enjoying sucking each other's
cocks. Sean had become a masterful cocksucker, usually putting me to
shame. I left his cock and pulled his beautiful ass toward my face. I
licked his crack and found his hot hole and used my tongue to work around
and then into his anus. He was groaning with pleasure and contnued to suck
my cock while he played with my balls and then he shoved a finger deep into
my hole. I wanted him in me.
"Baby, fuck me. I want you in me. Please," I asked him.
Sean let my cock out of his mouth, looked at me, and said, "Ry, I want you
in me, too. How can we do this? he asked.
I laughed a little and smiled at him. "You're younger so you get your
pleasure first - whatever you want, I want. Just tell me," I told him.
Sean rolled me on to my back. He sat on my face and I started to eat his
beautiful ass as he leaned forward and continued to suck my cock. A great
deal of precum was coming out of my cock and into his mouth. Sean was
moaning and sucking me with great aplomb; suddenly he moved away from my
face, turned and faced me. He grabbed my hard cock and with one steady,
amazing motion sat on my cock and took all of me into his love tunnel. I
almost swooned.
"Ry, I love your cock in me. I am going to ride it for a while, then I
want you to ride me for a bit. You are so fuckin handsome, so sexy. I am
so lucky to have found you, to have fallen in love with you, to have chosen
you to spend my life with. I love you, Hon. I love you with all my
heart," he said as he began to ride my cock. He was slow and patient as he
raised himself up and then slowly let himself down on my steel-hard penis.
I was playing with his balls and strokin his beautiful cock. I tried to
lean forward and take his cock into my mouth, but I couldn't do it. After
a fairly long time, Sean pulled off from my cock and sat on my chest and
fed me his wonderful cock. I swallowed him, taking him deep into my
throat. I loved his cock. I loved the taste of him. I could feel his
cock harden in my mouth, and I wanted him to be in me, making me whole,
making me his. I gently pushed him away and on to his back. Without any
preparation, I held his hard cock and sat slowly down on it, taking all of
it up my hot ass. I loved having his cock deep in me. I began to ride him
up and down, leaning in frequently to kiss him deeply. He was playing with
my cock and balls, smiling at me, and telling me he loved me.
I didn't feel that either of us should have the advantage of filling the
other with our cum, so I rolled off Sean and lay beside him on the floor.
I reached for his hard cock and began to stroke it; he took mine into his
hand, and without speaking a word we both knew where we were headed. >From
a slow, gentle strokining, we quickly moved to a rapid jerking, and as we
kissed each other deeply, we began to cum. We shot our semen all over each
other and the floor. Almost immediately after we stopped cumming, Sean was
atop me, kissing me with such ardor that it took my breath away. He then
moved away a little and began to lick our cum from my chest and abs. I
tousled him hair, and told him, "Hey, Lover, save some for me."
He laughed and lay on his back next to me. I quickly began to lick up all
the cum from his body, relishing every small puddle, every white string.
When I finished lapping up the cum, I kissed him gently.
He stirred a little, smiled at me, and told me, "That was awesome, Hon.
Just Awesome!" We lay there next to each other, luxuriating in our
lovemaking. I rolled onto my side and held up my head on my hand so that I
could look at Sean. He smiled at me, and I leaned in and kissed his soft
lips. He pulled me to him and we were lost again in a deep, passionate
kiss. I wanted him again, and when he rolled on top of me, I realized that
he wanted me again. I wanted to make love in our wedding bed, so I pulled
slightly away from Sean.
"What's the matter, Hon?" he asked.
"Oh, nothing. I want you so much right now I can hardly contain myself.
Baby, I want to make love in our bed. I want to make love to you all
night; we can sleep when we get home. Well, maybe we won't sleep that much
then either. Let''s clean up this room, heat up the food, have dessert, do
the dishes, and go to bed for the night. Doesn't that sound reasonable? I
want to do what you want, my sexy lover," I told Sean.
"Hmmm, yeah, I think that's reasonable. We just forgot about reasonable,
didn' we? It's time to get this meal over and get dessert and clean up.
Then, my sweetie, you are mine for the whole night. There will be no
sleep, no, my sweetie, there will only be lovemaking. Hour after hour of
lovemaking with you, Hon. What more could I ask for?" he told me in his
terrible villain-like voice.
He rolled off of me, and we both got up. Naked as jailbirds, we started to
bring dishes and food into the kitchen. I had barely gotten to the
counter, when Sean appeared behind me with a couple of plates, and suddenly
he was rubbing his great cock up and down my ass crack. I turned my head
slightly and kissed him, taking his tongue into my mouth and sucking on it.
Sean was on his knees, bending me over the counter; his face was in my ass,
his tongue licking up and down my crack. I reached behind me and spread my
ass cheeks to give him better entrance to my winking hole. His tongue
found its way into my hole and I was sighing with delight. I knew what was
coming and I wanted it, so I didn't change position. I felt him rub his
precum dripping cock againist my hole and push into me. My ass took him in
easily; I was relaxed and waiting to be fucked, so there was no difficulty.
He immdiately began to thrust in and out of my ass. It felt so good. I
wanted him to stay in me forever. His cock was where it belonged, in me,
filling me, making me his. He was kissing my neck and my back, and his
hands were around me playing with my balls and cock. I was really hot so
it didn't take any time at all before I had to tell him I was ready to cum.
His only response was to pound my man cunt harder and deeper, probing my
prostate and sending thrill after thrill through my balls and cock.
With a scream I started to shoot, hitting the countertop and my chest. I
felt his cock expand and throb and I felt his warm manjuice fill my wanting
hole. He fell on me, kissing my neck passionately. "I'm sorry, Ry. I
didn't mean to do this right now. It's just that you are so sexy. And
you're naked, and your ass is so tempting and so inviting, I just had to
have you. We promised to wait for our wedding bed. I have been a craphead
again. Sorry, Hon," he said. I turned to face him, took him into my arms
and kissed him deeply.
"Do you think for a moment that I didn't want that? Did Itry to stop you?
Baby, I wanted you to fuck me. I wanted you in me. You are no a craphead;
you are a masterfu lover. If you could get it up again right now, I would
bend over for you again. When you fuck me like you did just now, I love
every moment of it. I know that we are one. I love it," I told him as I
kissed him again.
He turned and started to rub his beautiful ass up and down on my hard cock.
He turned around and smiled at me. "Turn around is fair play," he said as
he reached for my cock and squeezed it. He leaned over the counter as I
had and spread his ass cheeks. I was on my knees instantly licking and
tonguing his beautiful crack. I wanted to eat him for hours, but my cock
had a mind of its own. After wetting him with my hot saliva, I placed my
precum-covered cock head at the entrance to his love chamber, and pushed
into him. There was no resistance. He wanted me to fuck him. I reached
around him and was not surprised to find him hard again. I played with his
balls and cock as I fucked him slowly and deeply. My cock kept hitting his
prostate, bringing him pleasure. I couldn't last long, and with a shout, I
started to fill my lover's hot ass with spurt after spurt of my manjuice.
He didn't come again, and I didn't try to make him. I wanted some of his
energy and sexual power for later.
"Sean, that was so hot. I love fucking you in the kitchen. It's getting
to be our playroom. Love you, Baby," I said as my cock, which had
softened, slipped out of his hot hole.
II
"Ry, I think we have used up some engery. Time for us to finish our meal.
Let's get busy with that, okay?" he asked.
With a quick peck on his cheek, I began getting things ready to reheat in
the microwave. He hovered near me, touching me, kissing me quickly on the
neck, on the back. He would put his arms around me and pull me back into
him where I could feel his naked body and his cock which as always was
hard. I kept at what I was doing because I knew that if I stopped, one of
us would again have a cock deep in his ass. I wanted that for later.
The microwave rang. Sean backed away, but not without giving me a
wonderful smile. I smiled back at him. "Sorry, again," he said.
"You don't have to be sorry, Baby. It's really a compliment that you want
me so much and so often. It makes me feel wonderful, loved, complete.
It's the same for me, except I don't recover as quickly as you do," I told
him.
"That's bullshit, stud. You recover as soon as I do or faster. You, my
lover, are a hot stud. Hmmm, yeah, a hot, desirable stud. And if we don't
get some clothes on, I will be humping you again. I'll get our clothes
from the living area," he said as he left the kitchen. I looked after him
and admired his beautiful ass. My cock jumped in appreciation. Sean
returned momentarily with our shirts and pants. We both silently slipped
into them.
"Is that better?" I asked.
"It helps get my mind back on dinner, but not entirely. I still have a
strong desire to fuck you again, Hon. I regret that I am such a sexhound,"
he said as he grabbed his plate of reheated dinner. We sat next to me at
the counter, smiling. It was more a grin than a smile, but it was getting
to me in its usual way. My God, I just couldn't resist him.
I put my arm around him as I put a forkful of food into my mouth. He
leaned against me, putting his head on my shoulder. I kissed him lightly
on the top of his head. I felt his hand on my thigh; I didn't want him to
move it. I dropped all pretense, turned and took him into my arms and
kissed him deeply. He responded by opening his mouth and sucking my tongue
into his mouth. My cock was screaming to be released from my tight jeans.
I couldn't make myself let go of him. It thought that if I let go of him
that I might never know the wonderful feeling of holding him, of kissing
him. I could feel my emotions growing stronger and tears were building. A
couple of tears ran down my face. They ran between our faces. Sean felt
them immediately.
"Ryan, what's the matter? Why are you crying, Love? Tell me, please," he
said.
"There's nothing wrong, Baby. It's just...well, it's just that I sometimes
don't want to let you go, to stop holding you, to stop kissing you because
I don't want that wonderful feeling to stop, to go away. When you are in
my arms, like this, my world is complete. I know happiness and joy that I
never imagined. You are so wonderful, so loving, so totally mine. I can't
explain it any better than that," I told him as I struggled to keep my
emtions in check.
"I understand. I feel so loved, so protected, so wanted when you hold and
kiss me. I tingle from my head to my toes. I love the warmth of your body
against mine. Your touch excites me, fills me with intense feeling of
happiness. I don't want to let you go, either, not ever. I've told you
many times, Ryan, I don't know what I would do without you. You are what
makes me who I have become. You are what completes me, makes me desire to
go on, to become as much like you as I can.
So, it's no different for me, Hon. I am happiest when I am in your arms,
close to you, kissing you." he hoarsely whispered to me. I hugged him
tightly to me, and kissed him again for good measure. He sighed as did I.
Our contentment was full!
We laughed as we again reheated the dinner. I decided to sit on the
opposite side of the counter.
Sitting too close to Sean I knew would cause another interruption of our
dinner. The food wasn't too bad, even if it had been reheated two times.
The chicken was getting a little tough, you know, the way microwaving can
make it. We had calmed down some and our conversation turned to the trip
home.
"What time do you think we should leave tomorrow?" I asked Sean.
"I don't want to leave until the very last minute. I want to be here with
you for as long as we can stretch it out. How long will it take us to get
home? I hate the idea of not being able to be in the same car. I want to
be with you, Hon. Can't we arrange something? We can leave the Celica
here, and Dan can make arrangements to get it to State," he said with a
whine.
"I'll take care of it. Don't worry, Baby. I want to drive home with you,
too. It's a long ride, and frankly, I don't want to be away from you for a
long time, especially not now on our hornymoon. We'll have enough
separation when we get back to classes, and I can't keep sneaking you into
the faculty toilet, either. If I get too horny, I don't know what would
happen. Just relax; I'll fix it," I told him.
"That's another thing about you that I love, Ry. You always know hot to
make things right. You are a smarty-pants professor and I love you very
much," he laughingly added.I burst out laughing and grabbed Sean across the
counter. I pulled him to me and kissed him hard on the lips.
"Look, craphead, this smarty-pants professor will whip your ass if you call
him that too often," I said in my most sinister voice. Sean was almost
falling off the stool at the counter as he was overtaken with laughter. I
was laughing, too.
"Since my ass is yours, professor, you may do as you wish with it. Just
remember that I have the same privileges with that beautiful ass of yours.
So take care. You might get the same in return," he told me amid laughs
and coughs. I just smiled at him, loving him more each moment I was with
him.
"Sean, now don't think I am a little crazy, but now that dinner is
finished, and after we do the dishes, there is something I really want to
do. The moon is bright and there's lots of light outside. I want to go
down to the lake, to the warf. I want to go there to say goodbye to this
place. I love it here."
Sean fell uncharacteristically quiet. He looked solemn. He reached over
and took my hand. He raised it to his lips and kissed it gently. Chills
ran through my body. He looked into my eyes, then he smiled and the
solemnness of the previous moment was gone.
"Ryan, what a great idea. You do love this place, don't you? I think you
love it as much as I do, maybe even more. That makes me very happy. We'll
have to dress warm. It's cold out there, cold as a witch's twart. Sorry
that's a vulgar teen-age boy remark. I know better. And we'll need to
take a light of some kind with us. But I really want to do it. I want to
say goodbye, too," he said as he kissed my hand again, smiled at me, and
took his plate to the sink and began the process of cleaning up.
"You're right, Baby, I love this place as much as you do. I feel like I
have known this place all of my life. I am happy here, Sean," I told him.
I decided to bring dishes to the sink for Sean. I knew that if I stayed
near him, that I would soon be after him. I wanted that for later. I
wanted him for later. I thought, 'It is unfortunate that so few know the
kind of love that we two have for each other. How happy we have been these
last few days. What did the future and fate hold in store for us? That
was the mystery of life.' Sean busied himself with the cleanup, not
speaking very much. Then he turned from the sink, looked at me with those
beautiful, sparkling eyes and that wonderful smile and said to me,
"You feel the love in this place, too, don't you? I haven't wanted to talk
to you about that because I didn't want you to think that I was some sort
of psychic nut. But this place is full of love; I feel it all the time. It
flows around me and makes me content and happy. Do you know what I am
talking about, or have you decided that I need to see one of the
psychiatrists at State?" he asked.
"I know just what you are talking about. There is a love here; I think
it's a residue of happy times in the past. It doesn't want to leave. I
don't think that it ever will as long as you are here, Sean. I think we
feel your parents love here, still potent, still embracing. It is the
really important legacy from your Mother and Father. It is more valuable
than the money. This cabin is a special place. I know that. It has
captured my heart, too. I love you, Sean. I love you so much and this
place, this santuary of love, makes it more real and more intense," I
whispered to him.
The crash of the plate as it hit the floor brought me back to the moment.
Sean just stood there, caught somewhere between reality and spirit. He ran
to me and threw himself into my arms and cried without control. His
sobbing was heart wrenching; I made no effort to stop it. He tried to tell
me something, but he wasn't able to talk. I patted him and told him that
everything would be fine. I told him I loved him, that I was here for him,
to hold him, to protect him. It didn't help; the terrible body-wracking
sobbing continued. I fell silent and let my patting of his body and my
gentle kissing tell its own story. Eventually, his sobbing stopped. He
looked a wreck. His hair was mussed, his eyes were red and swollen, his
nose was running. I took care of the nose first, handing him a tissue. He
blew like an elephant honking and then laughed a little.
"Are you okay, Baby?" was all that I dared ask.
"I'll be okay. Give me a minute. The strangest thing just happened to me.
All of a sudden I knew they were here. I knew my Mother and Father were
here, still loving me. I could feel their presence. They love us both; I
am sure of that, Ryan. It was almost as if they were patting my body with
you, trying to calm me, trying to let me know that they still loved me,
trying to tell me to carry on, to live my life. It was so powerful, Ry. I
am still trembling. Hold me, please.
I need you close to me at this moment," he said quietly.
I drew him to me and held him tightly to myself. I could feel his
trembling. Tears still were falling from his eyes, wetting his cheeks. He
kept biting his lip trying not to break down again.
Truthfully, I also felt that presence, perhaps not as intensely as Sean
had, but I knew that a message had been sent to us. I believed deeply that
Sean had heard it correctly. It was to carry on, to live our lives, to
love each other. The hair on the back of my neck stood up a little as I
recalled this remarkable incident. Sean stayed close in my arms. We were
both quiet. His trembling subsided. He raised his head and looked at
me. How pitiful he looked! I kissed his soft, inviting lips. We would not
soon forget this singular moment in our lives.
Sean began to relax; I kept kissing him gently, trying in my own way, to
help him come to grips with what had happened. It would be difficult for
me to explain it in moe detail than I already had. The reality was that I
didn't understand exactly what had happened. I did know that something
strange had occurred, but I had little ability to explain it. Sean kept
hugging me to him, and I kept kissing him occasionally, trying as usual to
let him know I loved him. His emotions were now in check, and I waited to
see if he wanted to talk. Eventually, he let me go, and looked into my
eyes.
"I think they let us know they loved us tonight because they knew that you
loved this place as much as I did. It happened after you wanted to go down
to the lake to say goodbye. That's when you told me how much you loved
this place. I still want to go to the lake. Do you still want to go to
the lake?" he asked.
"Yes, now more than ever. I think it is very important that we go down to
say goodbye. The moon is so beautiful, and it must make the lake glitter
like diamonds. Yeah, we really should go down to the lake," I told Sean as
I pulled him to me and hugged him. We kissed each other warmly, but there
was no sexual energy; it was not without passion, it was a seal to our
love.
I needed to clean up the broken plate and when I look down at the floor, I
saw the blood. "Sean, you've cut your feet. My God, baby, here let me
pick you up," I told him as I took him into my arms and lifted him and
placed him on a stool.
Sean, your feet; they must be cut badly. Look at the blood on the floor.
Do they hurt, baby? My God, Sean. Sit still, I need to get some things
out of the medicine chest in the bathroom. I will be right back." I told
him as calmly as I could. I raced to the bathroom and grabbed some hydogen
proxide, some cotton swabs, some bandages, and other things. I hurried
back to Sean who sat on the stool his feet still dripping some blood.
Baby, I have to clean them and you may have some shards of glass still
embedded in your flesh. My God, Baby. Why didn't you tell me. Your feet
must be painful. My God, Sean." I told him.
Sean looked at me with a questioning look on his face. "My feet don't
hurt, Ry. There's nothing the matter with them; there are just a few
scratches. I'm okay. Let's get ready to go to the lake," he calmly told
me.
I didn't want to argue with Sean, but I knew his feet needed attention. I
lifted his left foot and looked at the sole of his foot. There were two or
three cuts that appeared to be superficial.
I took the hyrogen proxide and soaked some cotton with it. I gently
touched the cuts. I heard Sean whimper, but he didn't cry out. It
probably burned like hell. I kept cleaning the cuts until I felt they were
clean. Not able to stop myself, I kissed his hurt foot. My lips gently
moving from cut to cut.
"Ry, that feels so wonderful. Your kissing makes my foot feel so good.
Thanks." he told me.
I took the tube of Neosporin and applied a thick layer on each of the cuts.
Then I wrapped his foot in bandage and held in place with tape. I went to
his right foot, and found the same kinds of damage. I cleaned it, kissed
it, soothed it with Neosporin, and bandaged it. I finally looked up at
Sean. I found him smiling down at me. My heart beat increased and I rose
and pulled him to me, kissing him with great feeling.
"You know, Baby, this scared the shit out of me. I thought your feet were
badly injured. They're bad enough; sit there while I clean up the glass,"
I ordered him. Guickly cleaneing up the broken plate, I was thankful, as I
picked up the broken pieces, that there were not many of splinters of
glass. The majority were large pieces of the plate; otherwise, Sean's feet
would have been cut more severely.
Sean sat on the stool watching me, but not speaking. He kept smiling at
me, and in one sense, it made me nervous or perhaps a better way of saying
it would be that it unnerved me. I finished that job, and got a pail and
some hot water and detergent and began to clean the blood from the floor.
There was not as much as I thought when I first saw it; there was enough,
however, to bring back the images from that horrible night when Sean was
beaten and left as dead. I didn't mention this to him. He had enough to
think about. I finished that task and hurriedly cleaned the dishes. When
the kitchen was in relatively good condition, I decided to carry Sean into
the living area. He relented, and let me, but not without some bitching
about his abiblity to walk himself. I ignored him.
I got Sean settled on the sofa and sat beside him. He reached for me and
pulled me to himself. He kissed me softly on the lips. "You see what I
mean, Hon. You always take care of me. I love you, Hon," he said.
"I guess going to the lake it out of the question. You can't walk down
there, Baby. It was a good idea, but let's just forget it for tonight.
Maybe in the morning we can do it," I said.
"Ryan, I am going down to the lake tonight whether you come with me or not.
My feet are fine. If they bother me too much, I'll stop and rest. If you
come with me, you can help me if I need support. I love you, Ryan, but I
am going down to the lake tonight whether or not you come with me. I have
to do this. I feel a calling, something I can't explain, that is drawing
me to the lake. So, one way or the other, I am going to the lake," he said
to me in an uncharacteristically firm and definite tone.
"You're not going alone, Sean. I absolutely forbid you to do that. I will
go with you, but I really don't think that you should be walking on those
feet tonight. You do realize, don't you that they are cut and walking on
them will probably get them bleeding again," I said with equal firmness.
"How can you forbid me to go, Ryan? You can't do that," he said with an
edge of anger in his voice.
"I can forbid you because I love you, craphead. I love you, and I don't
want you to injure you feet again. I don't want you to suffer. If I
didn't love you, Sean, I wouldn't give a shit what happened to you. You're
my life partner, Baby, and I want to keep you safe. I'm sorry if you don't
like my attitude, but I have to tell you how I feel. I don't think you
should go. But if you must go, then I will go with you. If I need to, I
will carry you all the way down and all the way back. Understand, Sean, I
want to protect you because I love you; that is reason enough.
Sean glared at me during my little speech to him. As I continued his face
softened and eventually tears began to run down his cheeks. When I
finished he fell on me, kissing me wildly, and weeping silently. "Ryan, I
love you, too. I have to go, Hon. I have to. There is a calling that I
have to answer. I love you for wanting to protect me. I really do.
Please forgive my firmness in demanding this, but I have to do it. I
really appreciate that you will come with me. I really think you are
supposed to be there, too. I can't explain it any better than that. I
know it's spooky; I know you may think I'm losing my mind. Please, please,
trust me, my best friend. I need you, Ryan. I need your strength now as
much as I needed it when I was in the hospital," Sean confided to me.
"We'll need some warm clothes and you will need some very comfortable
sneakers or shoes. We'll need a powerful flash light, and I hope I can
find something for to use as a cane. I wasn't kidding, Sean; I will carry
you both ways if it is necessary. What do you suggest for sneakers or
shoes? I know you'll need socks. What else?" I asked him.
"My Nikes will do. They are well broken in and they are soft and pliable.
Maybe I should wear two pair of socks. We're going to need some gloves and
maybe a hat. A scarf might be a good idea, too. It's going to be cold out
there tonight. It's clear and with that big moon, any warming that we had
today has escaped into the atmosphere. Thank you, Ry, for doing this for
me. I will find a way to repay you, sweetheart. Later tonight, I will
repay you for trusting me, for loving me when I know you think this is all
weird and strange," said Sean.
II
I hurried about the cabin finding the things we needed. I Luckily I found a
cane in the entry closet. I brought everything into the living area. I
put on Sean's socks as gently as I could. Even then, he winced a little.
The second pair of socks went on more easily and he didn't wince. I
unlaced the Nikes so that it would be easier for Sean to get his feet into
them. Then I tightened the laces and tied them securely. Next. I got my
own socks and shoes on. I helped Sean to his feet and helped him into his
coat; he took care of his hat, scarf and gloves. Then I quickly dressed
myself. Sean had not moved yet. He just stood by the sofa waiting for me
to be ready. I found one of those hugh flashlights and retrieved the cane.
I got the cabin key, left all the lights on, and moved to the door. Sean
started toward the door, but it was quickly evident that his feet were very
sore. He continued on to me. I handed him the cane which he took. I
opened the door and let Sean go ahead of me. I followed him out into the
brisk December night. He was having difficulty manuvering the stairs. I
hurried to him and picked him up and carried him down the stairs.
"Thank you my gallant knight," he said with a giggle.
"Why don't I just carry you, Baby. It would be faster and it would
certainly be easier for you. I know I can do it because I will be carrying
the thing I most love in this world," I said to Sean who was still in my
arms. He leaned to me and kissed my cheek.
"Don't hurt yourself, Ry. I really think I can walk a little of the way.
Let me try. Please," he begged.
I set him down. I had turned on the flashlight although there was enough
moonlight at that moment to light our way. It would be necessary when we
reached the path in the woods. Sean moved slowly, leaning heavily on the
cane. I walked beside him, took his other arm and assisted him. He had
little difficulty until we reached the path in the woods. The uneven
surface of the path was causing him some distress.
"Okay, Baby, into my arms. I'm carrying you the rest of the way. No
arguments," I said as I picked him up after handing the flashlight.
He was able to manage the cane and the light. He kissed me quickly, and
then we started out down the path to the lake. In the dark of the night
with some filtered moonlight and the beam from the flashlight, the woods
took on a very sinister personality. There were many shadows, strange
sounds, and perceived movements; it wasn't pleasant for either of us. As
we continued down the path, Sean seemed to get heavier. I stumbled a
couple of times, catching my balance before I fell or dropped Sean.
Finally I had to stop and let Sean stand for a moment while I regained my
strength.
"This is too difficult for you, Hon. I will walk the rest of the way. I
know I can do it. Let me try," he said.
"No way, Sean. I am carrying you. I just need to get a second breath. I
feel about ready to start out again. I may let you walk part of the way
back, but not now," I said as I picked him up again and noticed that he
didn't object.
In a short time we were at the lake. I carried him over to the warf and
set him down. I sat next to him. I took his glove-covered hand in mine.
We sat looking out over the lake. It was deadly quiet. Nothing stirred.
The sparkles on the water from the reflected moon, danced much as a long
line of ballet dancers. Sean put his arm around me.
"Thank you, Lover. This means a great deal to me. Nothing may happen, but
I know I am supposed to be here. I know that you are supposed to be here,"
he told me.
As he finished, a breeze arose, gently swaying the trees in the forest.
The breeze intensified and as it did there was a moaning sound emenating
from the forest, almost as if someone was sobbing. The moon suddenly went
behind a dark cloud and we were in complete darkness. Sean pulled me
closer to him. He was trembling. I knew that something strange and
inexplicable was happening, but I didn't say anything. The wind now was
blowing very hard causing a screeching sound to blast across us. In the
distance there was a bright streak of lightning. The wind abuptly stopped
and the moon shown brightly in the dark star-filled sky. Immediately over
the lake there seemed to be two more brilliant stars. I hadn't noticed
them before. It was then that I realized that Sean was sobbing. His body
was shaking. I held him tightly saying nothing. I just wanted him to know
that I was there, that I loved him. What had just happened was strange and
I could not explain it.
Through his sobs, I heard Sean, "They're gone. They stayed until they knew
I was happy. This was their goodbye to us, Ry. That's why I had to come
down here tonight. They love us both. Now they can rest. Now we can go
on with our lives, too. This is our place now; the memories will be happy,
but we have to start making our own memories. They have given that
responsibility to us. I can't say anymore, I..." and he was now sobbing
too much to talk.
I marveled at what had happened, but I did not try to understand it. I
knew that for Sean it had been a very spiritual and supernatural
experience. I really believed that in some manner his parents had said
goodby to him. I realized that they were happy for him and for us. I kept
kissing my wonderful Sean. I was so lucky to have him. I would love him
forever. That's what I needed to say to him.
"I love you Sean. I will take care of you always. I will love you always.
You are the center of my being. Don't ever forget this night. It is
important to both of us. Should we get back to the cabin? It's cold out
here," I reminded him.
"Just hold me for a couple more minutes. I'm still a little in awe about
what just happened. You always make me feel good, Ryan; you always make me
happy. Thank you for loving me. Please hold me tighter," he asked.
I closed my arms more tightly around my lover. I wondered if he could
breathe, I had him so tightly hugged, but he seemed content. I would kiss
him gently occasionally; he always returned my kisses. Finally he began to
pull himself away from me. I knew he was ready to go back to the cabin.
"Let's go home, Ry. I need to leave now. All there is here is silence."
he whispered softly to me.
I helped him to his feet, and he began to walk back up the path without any
assistance from me. After a few yards, he began to faulter, and I rushed
to him and took him into my arms.
"You belong in my arms, Lover. This is where you will be protected and
happy," I said as I kissed him softly on the lips.
"I can't believe what just happened. I do know this one thing, though. I
love you more at this moment than I ever would have imagined I would. I
love being in your strong arms," he said.
We struggled back up the path to the cabin. The moon was now lower in the
sky and did not provide as much light. Finally we could see the lights of
the cabin and smell the smoke from the wood fire. Home beckoned to us.
We would heed the call.
(to be continued)
I welcome comments about the story. story is already written. You may
email me at niki200sc@yahoo.com.