Baby Boy Ballerina and the Hockey Hunk

***Be warned, if you do not condone sexual experiences between boys and boys, or even boys and men, or if you do not care for diaper love and urinary use, then this story may not be for you. It is a tale of love, never abuse, and while there are sex scenes, they are amazingly light in this story. It is a love story through and through. As with all my stories, I hope that you enjoy, and I hope that you email me with your comments. Please email me at ***erich5748@ymail.com*** If I had a story site left, I would gladly invite you to join me there, but sadly it was once again killed, so as of yet, I have not figured out what to do, but if you email me, when I do figure it out, I will email you to inform you of this. Also, if anyone has contact with Deeker of Deeker's Diaper Pages, would you please give me his email address, so that I can email him, I have lost it, and I wish to find out why he killed his site. If anyone knows why, I would also appreciate hearing it, in case I can not reach him any longer. Thanks.***

Chapter 10

Wednesday morning, the boys were at hockey practice once again, and had a really good time. Kai asked all the boys if they wanted to come over on Friday and spend the night, but that they'd either have to leave before they headed for ballet, or that they could just stay at the house and wait for them to come back and then spend Saturday night with them as well. All the guys were good with this, saying that they would ask to stay the whole weekend. Kai gave them all their new address, and they all said that they would be there for sure.

The rest of the week went really well. Kai, Kenny and Owen were all doing really well in school, Nick felt that they no longer needed him, but he enjoyed hanging out with them, and they he. They were becoming fast friends, and that was good too. That afternoon the boys played in the basement for a bit, had dinner, and then played in the pool for a bit before going to bed. Thursday after school they had dance class again, and once again they had a really good time, learned more, and Kai was even asked to pair up with one of the girls to do a proper dance, and they did well together, Kai having of course to lower his skills so as to not overpower his current partner. Friday morning all the boys at hockey said that they would certainly be there as soon as they could make it, and then they went and had another really good practice. Today they were playing an actual game against each other, so half the team on each side, and they really played well and hard. Once the boys were at school, they had another good day, and were asked to go see Mr. waters at the end of the last class before heading home.

“Good afternoon Mr. Waters, you wanted to see all three of us?” Kai asked as they entered, he had knocked and they had been told to enter, so they had.

“Ah yes, good to see you boys. Please have a seat?” He smiled warmly to the three new students.

“Thanks Sir.” Kai said once again as they sat down.

“The reason I asked you here today, was because of something that I mentioned to you at the beginning of the week that you may or may not remember. I told you that your position here was not yet guaranteed, and that you had to pass initiation so to speak. Well, I'm happy to say that all the reports that I've received from everyone say that you're more than welcome to stay at this school. You may now also feel free to join any of the groups or clubs that we have to offer, such as the gay bi youth group.”

“We thank you very much Sir, we truly appreciate it. Can you tell us, when does the gay bi youth group meet?”

“Tuesday and Thursday after school every week. It usually goes for about an hour or so, sometimes longer.”

“Oh, that's a shame, sadly we cannot attend then.” Kai said sadly.

“Oh, how come, I thought you boys would have enjoyed going there?”

“And we would have too, except we have ballet class at the same time, and unfortunately that comes first.” Kai answered.

“Oh, I understand. You boys are ballet dancers?”

“Well, Kai is, we're just learning, but he says we're starting to get pretty good.” Owen answered.

“I see. It is a shame, but if it doesn't work for you, then it doesn't work. It's been at the same time for the past fifteen years, and we see no need to change it now, everyone likes the way it is.”

“And we wouldn't ever dream of asking everyone to change just for us. It's surprising though that you've had such a group at this school for that long, long before any other school would have had one.”

“Yes, we're proud of our history of being tolerant to every walk of life, and we always have. Prior to the school forming a permanent club and setting the times for it, there was already a gay youth group here at the school, it was more an impromptu type thing, but I'm told it was in place for at least ten years before that time as well.”

“That's really good to hear. Well sadly Sir, unless you have anything further to go over with us, we must take our leave, because we have our hockey team coming to spend the weekend.”

“You play hockey as well as dance ballet?” Mr. Waters asked in surprise. “That's highly unusual, isn't it?”

“More than likely yes, but when Kenny and I got together, he was a hockey player and I was a ballet dancer. We decided that it would be awesome if we could share each others passions as well and agreed to at least try the others sport. Owen was already on the hockey team as well, and when he came to live with us, we talked him into joining ballet as well. And they're both doing really well in ballet, far better than my teacher ever thought a hockey player could do, that's for sure.”

“Nowhere near as good as you're doing in hockey. You're already every bit as good as many of the others who've been playing their whole lives.” Kenny pointed out.

“Yeah, but figure skating gave me a lot of the skills I needed for hockey as well, and then gymnastics and dance on top of that have given me more stamina and power than most hockey players ever need. Then there was your tutelage about everything hockey that helped me to understand it all, and now I truly do enjoy playing, and I can't wait 'til our first game next weekend.” Kai smiled.

“Good grief boy, you do hockey, ballet, gymnastics and figure skating, and you two do ballet and hockey?”

“Yeah, but I've canceled figure skating so that I could fit in hockey, I only did it as a good winter sport to supplement gymnastics when they weren't going, because my club only goes for half the year, so the skating was an excellent way of keeping all my skills active, while learning new ones as well. Not to mention I love skating. Owen and Kenny will probably join me in gymnastics as well once it restarts, if they want to that is, and I'm already teaching them a little at home.”

“Wow, I've never seen students that do so much, it's no wonder you're not taking phys ed, Denise told me that it was not needed in the least for any of you, I think I understand why now. I could tell all three of you were well fit, but I never figured all of that, and Denise never told me. Anyway, you boys have somewhere better to be, so I'll let you go. Please stop in the office on Monday morning and get the list of all the clubs and groups that we have, and look it over, so that you may see if there's anything else you'd like to do as well.”

“Thanks Sir, we appreciate it, but I think I speak for all of us when I say our tables are already a little full, so we probably won't. We'll check it out though, just in case we see something we like.”

“That's perfectly acceptable, it's not required for students to take advantage of our offered services, but we offer them to everyone, and most do.”

“Thanks Sir, you have a good night, see you later.” Kai smiled, and they all headed out pretty much right away.

The boys headed right home, and were thankful that no one had arrived yet when they got there, not that they figured anyone would be there yet, they lived quite a ways away, and almost all of them would have to take buses to get to the house. As soon as they got there though, they headed to their bedrooms to strip down to just their soggy diapers, but because they had all changed at lunch time, they were not in desperate need of a change yet. They then headed out to the kitchen to get some snacks and drinks out and ready for the guests that would hopefully be arriving soon. Just a minute after finishing that up, the doorbell rang for the first time, so Kai went and hid behind the door and let the three guests who were there in, and he stayed there for the next ten minutes as the rest of them filtered in.

“Well, we're all here now, so let's go get some snacks and drinks and then decide what to do from there. Did you all bring your hockey gear as requested?”

“Yeah. We just left it outside for now, but we should at least put it in the garage. I can go do that while you guys get started on the snacks.” Daniel offered.

“That would be great, thanks.” Kai said, and then showed him to the garage and where the button to open and close the door was.

A few minutes later Daniel joined them all in the kitchen, and as they stood around eating, they were once again talking and laughing.

“I must say guys, this house is amazing.” Daniel said, he had gotten to see a little more of it having gone to the garage.

“Just wait 'til you see the rest of it. We've only been here a week, and I've never lived anywhere like this before, so I keep finding things that just amaze me.” Owen said proudly.

“Then you'll definitely have to take us on a tour later then.” Daniel said around another mouthful of goodies.

“Of course.” All three boys said at the same time.

They continued their snack, and then Kai, Kenny and Owen did take the boys on the grand tour. They spent only half an hour doing so, showing them everything, except the hockey rink in the back yard.

“Okay, now, you guys have a choice, either we can go do something in the pool or the basement, or we can all get into our hockey gear and we'll show you our final surprise.” Kai offered.

“I think I speak for all of us when I say that if it has to do with a hockey surprise, I'm all for it, so let's do that.” Daniel looked around for only a second and then said.

“Excellent. Everyone out to the garage and get into your gear and roller blades.” Kenny smiled.

Kai, Kenny and Owen went and quickly threw on some clothes and then met the others in the garage to get suited up. As soon as they were all ready to go, they exited out of the garage to the back yard, and showed the boys to their surprise.

“My god, you have a full sized and almost perfect in every way roller hockey rink in your bloody back yard. How cool is that!” Daniel said in awe, said it first, and said it best.

Every other one of the hockey team agreed totally with Daniel, and before too long, they had a two hour long hockey game going strong. Finally they all had enough and pretty much all just slumped down in one laughing bundle of boys in the center of the rink. It was decided to head on into the house and get changed and get dinner going.

“Now, whoever wants to may feel free to wear either nothing in the house, only your underwear, a diaper or you can get dressed all the way if you'd rather.” Kai said.

Everyone there who liked diapers, which did surprisingly enough to the rest of them include Nolan and Chris, got diapered and or changed their soggy diapers. The rest felt better in just their underwear. As soon as they were comfortable, they headed into the house and got started on making a large dinner for all of them. The ones who had little, the food seemed like so much, to the ones who had lots, it did not look like enough, but Kai rarely made more than one small plate full for each person, and tonight was no different.

“Hi boys.” Both Denise and Steven said to the boys at the same time as they entered, they had pulled into the garage within a second of each other again, they often did that. They had stayed in the garage for a few moments catching up and laughing, both wondering out loud what the boys had done, but seeing all the hockey gear in the garage told them that the boys had likely played hockey while it was still good and light out.

“Hello.” All the boys said, more than a few of them blushing, because having adults see them as they were was not something they were at all used to, yet they had all known that eventually it would happen, and they even wanted it too, but it still caused them to blush.

“Smells good in here.” Denise said, smartly ignoring the blushing boys.

“Thanks mom, go ahead and sit down, we've got everything, and us kids will just sit in the kitchen on the floor and eat, there's just not enough room for us all in the dining room.” Kai smiled.

“Nah, we'll join you boys in here.” Denise smiled back.

“Okay, I can live with that.” Kai smiled back.

A few minutes later they were all seated in the kitchen, right on the tiled floor eating their dinner. A few of the boys said that they were still a little hungry, so Kai told them that they should not eat much more than that, especially at dinner time, but that if they really wanted something more than they could have an apple, orange, banana or something like that, so each of the three that were still hungry went and did just that.

“So, how was you boys' day today?” Steven asked.

“Really good. School went well, the principal told us that we were welcome to stay, saying that we seemed to fit in well. He invited us to the gay youth group at the school, but unfortunately it's the same days as ballet, so we can't go, but that's okay. Once we got home, we showed the guys around the house, and then showed them the hockey rink out back, and we all played hockey for a couple hours 'til we had to come get dinner ready.” Kenny answered.

“That's very good. Let's get this cleaned up, and then I for one could go for a swim.” Steven said and then stood up.

Between all of them it took no time at all for them to clean everything spotless, and then they headed out to the pool house. Denise said that she was just going to stay in the house, she was not comfortable swimming naked with all the others there, and she figured that they would feel the same, and the boys were all going to swim naked, especially if Kai had anything to say about it. It was not like they were not used to being naked in front of each other already anyway, so it should not be too much trouble for them.

“Okay everyone, strip, no clothes allowed in the pool.” Kai called out as soon as they made it there.

Not one word was said, they just all started stripping right where they were, and then almost as one they all jumped in the pool. For the next hour, they swam and played in the water, having a good time. Steven and Daniel both ended up in the hot tub at the same time, alone, so Daniel started talking to him.

“Steven, I know you're the one who's been keeping me in hockey all these years, and I really have to say thank you so much. You'll never know what it's really meant to me, how much it's helped me to cope. Without what you've done for me, I don't honestly know what I'd have done by now, I can assure you that it probably wouldn't have been at all good.”

“Daniel, first and foremost, you never have to thank me for what little I could do to help you out. It's my pleasure to help boys like you out, and the reason you just stated is the very reason I do so. I don't want for a good kid like you to end up on the street doing god knows what. There's already so many of them out there, if I can prevent just a few, then it's at least a start. I understand from what the boys tell me that you have a less than stellar home life, and that you're an emotional dam just waiting to burst. Kai, quite simply put, is afraid that without relieving all the stress, could soon lead to you exploding. He tells me that you've gotten rid of some of it, and that you know you can come to him at any time just to talk, but he says that you haven't been doing it, and he's scared of what might happen soon if you don't.” Steven said softly.

“It's just, well I think of him as a friend now, he helped me to see so much, and I just don't want to burden him so much with my problems. They're mine and I need to work it out on my own.”

“Have you said that to Kai yet?”

“No.”

“Good, because I know what he'd say, and I'm going to tell you the same thing, only Kai would probably do it far better than I would. Before I tell you that though, I want you to get out and get dried off and put your underwear back on, I'm going to do the same thing, well get diapered, and then we're gonna go talk some.” Steven said, and Daniel knew that tone well enough to not argue.

They hopped out and dried off, while Steven called Kenny over and explained to him what was happening, telling him not to expect Daniel for a good while, if at all that night. Kenny smiled softly, saying he understood, and went and told Kai and the others what he had just been told, doing so quietly so that Daniel would not hear them, but he was just leaving the pool house with Steven. They walked quietly all the way to Steven's bedroom, and then they sat on the bed.

“Now, the reason I didn't want to say what I had to say in front of the others was because what I'm about to say is probably gonna hurt, and possibly make you very mad. I want you to promise one thing though, that you don't try and leave here. If you want to hit me, you're welcome to try it.” Steven said seriously.

“Um, okay.” Daniel gulped, not sure of what was worse.

“Now, the first thing I want to say is to get your fucking stupid punk head out of your ass. How the hell can you possibly say that you have to deal with all this shit all on your own. What the fuck do you think Kai doing all this work with you boys for was all about. He was trying to help you all out, to get rid of all this bullshit that you've all built up in your heads. Sure most of your problems were caused by your parents, and they certainly had no right to screw up a kids life so badly as they clearly did, but to say no one else can help you. Give your head a shake boy.” Steven said firmly.

“But, but....” Daniel said, actually crying already.

“No buts, just listen to me. There's lots more that I have to say. That was only the tip of the iceberg. Now listen, and listen hard. You are a child, plain and simple. You may in fact be a teenager, but you haven't matured more than enough to be called that in real life. If you had, you'd already realize that no one can take life on their own. You'd already have realized that you need friends with you all the time, helping you, giving you the much needed shoulder to cry on. Parents are supposed to be there for that as well, but you don't have that, so deal with it. When you don't have one, look for the other, get yourself a really good friend who you can trust and who trusts you as well, and be there for each other, talk to each other, talk about your fears, your desires, your dreams, your everything. True friends have no real secrets. That's what Kai was trying to get all you boys to see. Some of the others already have, but you're too stubborn, and maybe a bit too dense to have received the whole message. You need to grow up and see that you can't possibly do it alone. And yes, I'm saying this to be mean, you need to hear it as blunt as possible, seeing as how the kind approach didn't work. I'm giving you what you clearly need, tough love. Granted, you need a lot of love, you've never had any before, maybe you don't even know what it is to be loved, or more than likely how to love.” Steven said every bit as harshly, taking Daniel by the shoulders and saying it right into his tear streaked face, the tears were pouring out now like a river.

“How can you say that to me?” Danial cried out.

“Quite easy. You need to hear it, you need to feel it. Does it hurt, does it make you feel angry, does it make you feel sad that someone you barely know, yet you know has helped you more than your own parents ever has, tell you something that hurts so much?” Steven asked softer this time.

“Yes. It really hurts, you're making me sad, but I don't feel angry.” Daniel said, actually sobbing a bit.

“Good. Those things you're feeling, sadness and pain, those are feelings. You've repressed them so much, never let either show, that now having me point out the bitter truth for you to see is causing you untold amounts of pain. Now come here, I want to give you a hug, you very clearly need it, and as I hug you, I want you to tell me all about you. I don't care about your parents, I don't want to hear about them. I want to hear about you?” Steven asked softly.

He gathered Daniel up in his arms, sitting him right on his lap, and for more than ten minutes Daniel just sat there hugging Steven while crying pitifully on his shoulder. Finally the tears subsided enough for him to speak.

“Steven I wish I could tell you about me, the real me, but the truth is, I don't know who or what I am. I was a bully, I hated life, so I tried to make others feel just as bad as I did, but Kai made me see how bad that was. But, when I tried to make up to the kids I bullied, they only got mad at me and made me feel even worse. I almost started crying at school today when a boy a year younger than me said he'd never speak to me, that he hated my guts so bad that he wished I were dead. I had to go to the bathroom where I did cry. I ended up skipping the class after lunch because I was still crying. I tried to tell him I wished I were dead too when I saw him right after school, but he just spat on me. All I wanted was to make up to him, but he's making me feel worse than I ever have before.”

“I'm so useless at everything I do, the only thing I like is hockey, but even then, Kai's already way better than I am, and he's only been playing hockey for a few weeks now. Most of the younger boys on the team are better than me too, but I love it, so I can't quit, it's the only thing holding me together sometimes I think. School so sucks it's not even funny. Kai asked me if I even tried any more, and I didn't, but now that I'm really trying, I can't do it, I'm too far behind. When I told my teachers that I was trying, but that I didn't understand, they just scoffed at me and told me that I should have thought of that sooner. They treat me like I don't belong there, maybe I don't. I'm in grade seven for fuck sakes, I should be in grade nine, but I'm way too stupid to be there. I probably shouldn't even be in grade seven, all the kids there are way smarter than I am, but I'm trying, and I just can't do it. Maybe I need someone to help me, but no one will believe me now, I've spent too many years pushing everyone away, bullying them, talking back to them, they all hate me, and I don't blame them.”

“I always said it was my parents I hated, and I really do, but now I think I hate myself even more. There's almost nothing about me I like, and what little I do like, everyone else hates. I'm strong, but the other kids think it's only to beat them up. I'm stubborn, I don't give up, but everyone says it's gonna be my downfall. I'm decent at hockey, but that doesn't matter to anyone important. I grew up being told I was a waste of good money, food, water, and even oxygen, even the teachers at school think it, I can tell, and I know the kids at school think so too, and most would care less if I turned up dead somewhere. The only people that might miss me are on the hockey team, and I've only just started really looking at them as friends, but I'm not convinced they see me as the same yet, I've pushed them too far away too.” Daniel said, not stopping crying once the entire time. Steven let him finish before he said anything, but before he could say anything further, he had to let Daniel calm down some first, because he had started sobbing again.

“Oh Daniel. You're so wrong on so many levels. Not everyone hates you, and if I find out even one teacher at your school has treated you as bad as you think they have, I'll find them and have them fired. You're friends, your team mates at hockey, they really do care for you as a friend, but they can't get close to you, because even though you've been trying harder, you're still pushing them away, not in the same sense that you used to, but now in the sense that you won't, or maybe can't tell them what's wrong with you. They can see you need something, they think they know what it is, and maybe they could help you out, if you'd just let them. No, they'd certainly miss you if you were gone.”

“Now, you hate yourself so much Daniel, it's so sad. Do you even jack off?”

“No.”

“Let me guess, not even that makes you feel happy or good, does it?”

“No, it just relieves the pressure buildup, otherwise I don't do it, maybe just once a week.” Daniel admitted, not even going the slightest bit red, but then again, he was still crying.

“That's what I thought. Nothing feels good anymore. Thinking that the others cared even just a little was so foreign to you that you never thought it humanly possible. It even shows that your attempts at making amends with your prior victims and having it cause the emotional backlash in you was so hard on you. You tried to make him feel better, but it only made you feel a thousand times worse. I know, Kai would say it so much better than I am, but, I'm doing the best I can.”

“No, you're doing just fine, because that's how I feel.” Daniel said quickly.

“Thanks. I'm not used to playing the therapist, but Kai asked me to do this for you, because he thought maybe I was the only one that could get through to you. And by the way, we're not leaving this room 'til I'm satisfied that you're at least a little better.”

“Kai's a good kid.” Daniel admitted.

“He's great, and he's great for all of you boys on the team too. I know he told you his smarts are higher than most, but even still, I don't think that even he sees just how much potential he has. He's proven that amongst you boys a great deal already. You used to be a rag tag group of kids who had modest skill but no teamwork, and he's already started helping you to increase your skill simply by increasing your teamwork. We're not here to talk about Kai though, we're here to talk about you, and you're the only one I want to hear about. It's really truly sad that you don't even know yourself. You've spent so much time burying yourself in hockey and what little you did have, trying to drown out everything that was so horrible in your life. It's really amazing that you didn't shut down, or worse.”

“I know you know Owen's story, I'm told it was told in great detail a lot of his feelings. The boys have poured all their feelings out to each other and shared a great deal of it with the rest of you boys, and I'm willing to bet that there were more than just a few times when you felt the exact same way Owen felt right before he tried to kill himself. I'd ask how many times you thought about it, but I don't want to know, and if there's anything I want you to bury, it's that information, never think about it again. The question I want you to answer for me though, how many times have you felt alive?”

“I wish I knew. Only a few times though, that's for sure. The day I got into hockey, the day I made my first victim cry for having what I wanted, and the day that Kai made me admit all my feelings are probably the most though.” Daniel admitted, the tears stopping only for a moment,

“Thanks. I suspected as much. Now, for your schoolwork. I'm proud that you've at least admitted that you might just need some help. I'm going to be going to your school on Monday after school and asking to talk to all your teachers, and working out with them a plan of action that will hopefully get you back up to speed, and maybe in a grade closer to your peers by the end of the year. I'm also going to work on something else, but by the end of the night, I want you to write out a list of names of the kids that you've bullied that you want to make amends with, even the one that said he wanted you dead. If I have to, I'll make you come here every day after school and meet with a tutor trained specially in getting boys just like you back up to speed, and I'll pay whatever I have to to do so as well. Money doesn't mean anything unless you use it for a good reason, and even though I know you don't think so, you're a very good reason. The boys saw something good in you, it's buried way down there, somewhere so deep you don't even know it exists any more, but I believe them that it's there as well, and I even see a little of it coming out now. Now, has anyone ever told you that you're a very good looking young man?”

“No, of course not, because I'm not.” Daniel said in shock.

“Yes you are. And that's a shame. You have very nice deep brown eyes, but they look so sad. You have very nice brown hair that you keep cut nicely, although it looks like you could use a trim again soon. You have very nice teeth and lips, the girls would call them kissable lips in fact, you have nice dimples, which sadly no one sees as often as would be nice, because you so rarely smile. When you do smile though, which like I said is far too rare, you really smile fully. Somewhere deep inside you is someone who likes to smile. You're nose and ears even suit you perfectly, and you have nice clean and clear skin. You're quite tall for your age, but you're built enough that it doesn't make you look lanky or like a bean pole. You have great muscle tone, and you're starting to develop very nicely. The boys tell me you're straight, such a shame, because there's so many boys that would love to have you, and it's sure a shame to waste someone so good looking on a girl who doesn't truly appreciate the male body.” Steven grinned, because as he said it, the more Daniel blushed.

“No, now Kai and Kenny are really good looking, even if some people say Kai looks like a girl. Now that I know him better, I'd never say he was girlish at all.” Daniel blushed.

“Yes, they're both very good looking boys, and Kai would be considered a pretty boy to be sure, but to know him is to certainly not mistake him for a girl, he's far too boyish for that, even though some of his tastes lean that way. Kenny though is certainly an all boys boy, and so are you, very masculine, very handsome, not pretty, gorgeous hunk of male maybe, but not pretty. I hate to say this, being a proud father and all, but you're easily in the same league as Kenny is, and that says a lot.”

“You like me like that?” Daniel asked cautiously, blushing.

“Oh no, never as a sexual thing. You're very good looking, but even a straight guy could admit that pretty easily. I like you as a person, I think you're really good kid, we just need to polish some of those rough edges a bit, and then I think you'll be just right. Maybe in a few years you could become someone I was attracted to in that way, but not yet, not now.”

“Oh, okay.” Daniel said almost sadly. Steven caught the sense of sadness, but left it at that for the time being, he knew puppy love when he saw it, but he knew Daniel was straight.

“Now, let's just lay down and cuddle for a while, I can tell that you're getting tired and you need a bit of a rest.”

“Okay, that sounds good, but I need to go pee and I need a drink as well.”

“Okay, bathroom's right in there, take all the time you need.” Steven smiled, and Daniel went and took all the time he needed and was back in a few minutes.

Once there, he laid down and Steven pulled him right into him and cuddled right up to Daniel. He could feel his shoulder getting wet once again, but Steven just pulled him in tighter and hugged him even more. Inside of thirty minutes Daniel had cried himself to sleep. Steven just pulled up the covers and let Daniel sleep, falling asleep himself within a few minutes.

The rest of the boys stayed playing and laughing in the pool for almost an hour more after the other two had left, and then they hopped out, dried off, and went and got back into their underwear. Once done, they shut down everything and went and watched a movie, all curling up on the floor in the nest of blankets that had been set there for them by Denise. They all lasted at most three quarters of the way through the movie before they were all asleep, and when Denise came in to check on them at eleven, thinking that they were too quiet, she sighed and smiled, turned everything off, and then headed to bed herself to read for a bit more.

“Good morning Daniel, how do you feel this morning?” Steven asked once Daniel finally came too. Steven had been laying there for more than half an hour just petting Daniel's nice shapely chest, watching him sleep and dream.

“I, I don't know.” Daniel admitted.

“You don't know, or you don't know how to explain it?” Steven asked softly.

“Maybe both, I don't know.”

“Here's what I think you feel. You feel contentment, more than likely the first time you've ever felt it and it feels strange, new. Next you feel loved, and once again, it feels strange and new, because you've never really experienced it. You probably also feel really good, and I know how good you feel, because I can feel that you're erection is poking me in the stomach now that you've rolled over. From the sounds of it last night, you probably don't wake up hard very often, do you?” Steven whispered, and as he said the last part, Daniel blushed hugely and tried to pull away, but Steven had him held firmly in place.

“No, I don't. I'm so sorry, I can't help it.” Daniel said, a new round of tears starting.

“Hey, no tears for that.”

“But you'll be so mad at me.”

“Why would I be mad about that? We're both boys right, we both have dicks between our legs, and I hate to tell you this, but it's actually not normal for a teen to not wake up hard. When you don't usually says there's problems, but at least yours are all mental. Now that you're starting to purge some of the bad emotion from your mind and body, your body is responding to the good you're letting in.”

“But it's bad to get hard in front of others.”

“Bullshit. Haven't you ever seen any of the others get hard at hockey in the showers?”

“No, I never look at them.”

“Oh, really. Oh wait, I know why, never mind.”

“Why?” Daniel asked curiously, because not even he really knew the reason why.

“You have conflicting emotions when it comes to seeing the other boys naked. You're straight, you know that, but you think that seeing them hard could make you hard as well, and then you'd have to be gay. I hate to tell you this, but your dick reacts to anything, and boners are catching. Just because you get an erection doesn't mean anything. Even if you were being raped, there's a good chance that your rapist could still make you hard, but your getting hard doesn't mean that you like it, now does it?”

“No, I guess not.” Daniel admitted.

“From now on, look at them. Did you even really look at any of the others last night when you went swimming naked with them all? Did you look at me naked?”

“Well, I didn't look at them, but I did sorta sneak a peak at you, but I've never seen an adult naked, so I was wondering, well you know.” Daniel blushed again.

“You wanted to know how big I was, to see how big you might get when you finished growing. That's perfectly fine. All boys look, how else can they tell how they stack up, and how much they're likely to grow. Once again, if you didn't I'd be more worried. Of course it's considered impolite to stare, but only if you get caught.” Steven laughed.

“You stare a lot, don't you?” Daniel had to laugh as well.

“Damn rights I do, but only at the men. Granted, I did check you out yesterday, as I did all the other boys, and you're doing nicely in that area, every bit as much as I had when I was fifteen, and I knew exactly what to do with it then. I imagine you know what to do with yours by now?”

“Actually no. I never got to go to any of the classes on that, because I didn't do well enough in my other classes, so I was held back to do other more important things.”

“That's sick. What makes them think that there's anything more important than a boy learning about his body in the proper way. Granted, what the schools teach and what they should teach are different, because unfortunately most don't think any of you need to know half of what you do, and the ones who are teaching it usually are so embarrassed to be doing it that they're more so than the boys they're teaching. I'd love to teach that class, but I'd probably be put in prison for using live models and teaching you all the real ins and outs of sex, and I mean that in the literal sense too.” Steven laughed.

“Oh my god, you're horrible, you're not joking are you?” Daniel blushed so much now he was looking blotchy.

“Thanks, and no, I'm not. Would be a lot of fun though. Granted, I can't teach you poor straight boys much, but you'd sure get a real lesson in certain things you never thought of before. Might be interesting to say the least.”

“Um, yeah.” Daniel gasped.

“You really should go to the bathroom and take care of your erection, take all the time you need, go to the bathroom while in there and get a drink as well if you need to.”

“Thanks, I think I should.” Daniel blushed, and climbed out of bed, trying not to let Steven see his erection tenting out his boxer briefs as it was. Steve did see it, and he thought that Daniel would make some girl happy some day, which he admitted really was too bad.

Steven though was also hard, as he said, boners are catching, and having Daniel poking him like he was for he last few minutes had taken its toll on him, so he too needed a little relief. He stuck his hand inside his soggy diaper and grasped a hold of himself and jacked off for no more than a minute before adding more wetness to his diaper. He pulled his hand out and slurped off the remaining mess on his fingers and then composed himself once again for when Daniel came back out.

Daniel went into the bathroom and closed the door. He sat down on the closed toilet seat, pulling his underwear down as he did and then grasped his erection in a clumsy yet effective hold, and started giving himself what for. He jacked himself so hard and so fast that it was actually painful, but Daniel was too horny to really think about it, he had never felt like this before, and he just needed release. His release was amazingly fast in cumming, and in less than a minute, he exploded his largest load to date. Ignoring this fact though, Daniel kept on going, going just as fast and furious, really beating himself off. Three minutes later he exploded once more, and he just kept right on going. A further two minutes was all it took for Daniel to add his third load to his stomach and chest. He grabbed a good wad of toilet paper and cleaned himself as best he could, having to get more to clean all the fresh teen goo from his still silky soft pubes.

He sighed deeply, he had never felt so good in his life, but his dick felt a bit raw now. He ignored that though for the time being, because with his dick now soft, his need to pee was very urgent, so he stood up, lifted the seat and then sat back down again. It had become habit for him to sit down or face his mothers severe wrath should he ever pee on the floor again, so it was what he was used to. He peed for what felt like half an hour, draining every last bit that he had in him, sighing deeply as he finished. He then grabbed a large drink of water, and then opened the bathroom door.

“Um Steven, do you have any cream that I can use?” Danial asked bashfully.

“Let me guess, once wasn't enough and you rubbed yourself nearly raw?”

“Yeah.” He blushed.

“There's a jar of cold cream in there that should help sooth it a bit and help it heal. I use it for my ass when I've had a rough night.”

“Oh, okay. Wait, what do you mean by that?” Danial asked curiously.

“You sure you want me to answer that for you?”

“Well yeah, what does that mean?” Daniel asked, really not knowing what was coming.

“Okay, but I warned you. I'm gay, you already know that. I'm told that you even know the basics of how guys do it. Well, if a guy's a little large, or he's a little rough, he can leave me a little aching, much like your dick does now. Anal sex can be a wondrous thing, but it can also hurt like nothing you ever imagined if done wrong or done harshly.”

“Oh.” Daniel blushed again, and ducked back into the bathroom.

He found the jar that said cold cream in the medicine cabinet and scooped some out and pulled his dick out and applied a generous portion to his dick, making sure to pull back his ample foreskin and get some right onto the head where it felt the worst. At first the cream was very cold, telling Daniel that was the reason for the name, but then it felt very soothing. He put the cream back and then shyly went back out to the bedroom.

“Just remember, if you ask me a question, if I ask you if you're sure you want to know, then you have to expect an answer that'll make you blush. I'll leave nothing out, I'll be brutally honest, unless it's something I don't think you can handle, in which case I'll tell you so.” Steven smiled as Daniel came back in the room. He still looked like he was blushing.

“Um, okay.”

“Come lay back down with me.” Steven offered, pulling back the covers patting the spot next to him.

“How come you like diapers?” Daniel asked once he was settled back into the bed, cuddled back into Steven.

“Well, with me it's not so much like as it is need, but with that being said, I do like them as well. They're not only really comfortable, even if a bit hot in the summer, but they're really convenient at times as well. Even if I didn't need them I could easily see why some would just want to wear them. I never have to worry about if I have to pee, I just go wherever I am at the time, and no one ever has to know. Granted, I probably pee almost non stop, I don't feel myself peeing, so I think I might just drip all the time now. Kenny will eventually get to that point too, but right now he still has a little control, only he can't hold it once he starts getting full. Kai is similar to Kenny's current stage, but it sounds like that's all it'll ever be, whereas eventually Kenny won't even feel it happening either more than likely.”

“Oh. Doesn't that suck though?”

“If you let it bother you, then yeah, probably it would. We don't see it as all bad though, so that's fine, we like them, so why would we?”

“Good point.”

“Would you like me to diaper you so that you can see how it feels too?” Steven asked Daniel, he was already pretty sure Daniel wanted to, he only wondered if he had the courage to yet.

“Um, no thanks.” Daniel blushed.

“Okay, but the offer stands that anytime you want to try something, anything at all, you just ask me and I'll try and make sure it happens. Your teen years are supposed to be used to try things out, see what you like, what you don't like. I only ask that you never do that with drugs or cigarettes, or anything bad like that, that's not the right type of experimentation. I tried drugs a couple times when I was around your age, and I regret it, and looking back now, it was really stupid too. No, try things, find out who you are, what you like now before you grow up and life sweeps you away.”

“Okay, thanks.” Daniel whispered.

“Have you ever thought of taking drugs?”

“No, not really. There's only one time when I even considered it, but it wasn't street drugs, it was something on the lines of what Owen did, but I just couldn't do it.”

“Well, I for one am glad that you didn't do it. Why didn't you tell the others that though, they wanted to know all about that very sort of thing? Everyone else bared their souls, you should have told them that as well.”

“I don't know, I guess I still didn't want to show them how weak I really was.” Daniel admitted.

“And that there has been one of your smartest answers so far, and possibly one of the most truthful with both yourself and me. You really are so very weak. Not in body, you're pretty tough in that aspect, I personally believe you did that on purpose to help cover up the fact you had a very weak mind.” Steven said very softly, hugging Daniel even closer to him as he said it.

“I know you're right, I think I'm even starting to feel it, but how do I fix it?”

“You don't.”

“Then I'm doomed to always feeling like this?” Daniel asked, starting to cry. Steven just held him for the next few minutes, whispering calming things into his ear as he poured out even more emotion.

“There there now baby, you don't have to keep feeling like the world's forgotten about you and that you'll never feel happiness, don't worry.” Steven whispered once Daniel had calmed back down again.

“But you said I couldn't fix it!”

“And I did, because YOU can't fix it. That's where love and trust of friends comes in. Granted, 'til you start loving yourself, you can't possibly hope to really truly love others, but you can at least trust your friends, you know you can. No, you need to let your friends help you to really live, and even love. Love of friends, it's not the same as love of parents or even the love of a girlfriend, or eventually wife. A true friend is there for you through thick and thin, if you're in jail, it's not someone who's there to bail you out, it's someone who's sitting right there next to you saying, wow, that was so fucking stupid, do you wanna do it again next week too. A true friend can laugh at your stupid ass when you trip and fall over nothing, then pick you right back up and help you stand tall. You can joke with each other, you can cry with each other, you know almost everything there is to know about each other, and you want to spend time with each other. If you're lucky, your life partner will also be a true friend, and I suggest you never rush into love, just because your dick is telling you to, but first become true friends, that's the sort of relationship that'll stand the test of time. I know you don't really understand all this yet, most teens are barely able to grasp it at the best of times, hell, too many adults can't even. That realization came almost too late for me, but now I have a couple really truly good friends, we'd walk through fire for each other, take a bullet for each other if we had to, and we're happy doing that for each other. With only a bit more time and work, all you boys on your team could easily become friends just like that. A few are already starting to do so, and you can too, you only have to let go of this horrible image problem you have.”

“Yeah, okay, that all sounds very nice and all, but you're right, I don't really understand all that. I've never even imagined a friend who wouldn't ditch me the second I did something really stupid. And how can I get rid of that image you say I have of myself, which I don't just see, I feel and know too? It's what I am, how do I change that?”

“No, you think you're stupid, but in reality you're not. You think you're useless, when in reality you're not. You think you're ugly, when in reality you're not. You think you're a waste of oxygen, when in reality you're not. You think you're beyond hope, but I've already proven that you're not. No, all this stuff that you think is who you are just isn't the case, you're so hard on yourself because those who should have been there to love and protect you weren't, they only told you all that, even made you believe it so firmly that it'll take almost as much hard work to unravel as they put into making you feel this way. Even your teachers are a little to blame, and I'm gonna do a little bitch slapping come Monday, but don't worry, I won't actually slap the bitches.” Steven smiled, Daniel giggled.

“Maybe you should, a few of them could use it I think.”

“Possibly true, but sadly illegal. Now, did you ever think of the list of kids you wanted to really truly say sorry to?”

“Yeah.”

“You want to write the information down for me then please? There's pen and paper on the desk right there, so hop out and do it now?”

“Okay.” Daniel said, and he did too. He spent only a few minutes writing, and then came back and handed the paper to Steven.

“Hmm, not that many names on here, I thought there would have been more.” There were only twelve names on it.

“That's about all that's left. There were a few others who accepted my apology, only if I promised that I'd never harass them again, and I did. There's a few that changed schools, probably because of me, and I don't really remember them all that well anymore, I just hope they're happier now, happier than me.”

“Okay, and I hope that they're happier to, but we're gonna work to make you happy as well. Already working on it actually, I even got you to giggle this morning, which I might add is a rare occurrence with you. You really need to learn to laugh more. I think that I have a good idea for tonight though that might help you to laugh some.”

“Yeah, like I've had much to laugh about.” Daniel said dryly, sadly.

“So I'm gonna work on that, give you reason to laugh, to have fun, to be you.”

“Thanks Steven, I really do appreciate everything you've done for me. Can we get up now?”

“I don't know. What was it I said last night about leaving this room?”

“I don't remember.” Daniel answered honestly, he had done so much emotional purging that he was starting to forget some of the finer details.

“I told you that you're not leaving this room 'til you were at least a little bit better. So, do you feel better yet?”

“If I answered yes, I'd be lying. To tell you the truth, I think I actually feel a bit worse than I did last night.” Daniel admitted sadly.

“Do you know why that is?”

“No.”

“I'm gonna tell you, but like I said, Kai could say this so much better than I could.”

“You've been doing really good.” Daniel smiled warmly.

“Thanks. Anyway, you feel worse now, not because you are, but because you're starting to heal, even if just a bit, but now you feel raw, rough even, maybe even like you're different now. You're starting to feel more, and that's good. I actually think that you've come a fair way already. You still have lots more to go through before I'd even consider saying you were mentally strong and healthy, maybe months or even years before that claim could be made, but you're well on the way to becoming your own person, someone you can love.”

“Thanks to you.” Daniel said, and he did something that he had never done before, he hugged Steven, and he hugged him tight.

Steven let Daniel hug him for quite a few minutes, letting Daniel cry just a little more onto his already wet chest, and he was good with that. Daniel needed to feel love and trust, and if Steven could do that for him, he was all good with it.

“Thanks Daniel, that was nice. You've never hugged anyone before, have you?”

“No.”

“It felt good to hug me, didn't it?”

“Yes.”

“Feel free to do it anytime you need to, and I'll hug you anytime I think you need it as well. Here's something else I think you need too.” Steven said, and the pressed his lips to Daniel's forehead and kissed him softly there, just like a parent would do.

A whole new round of tears escaped Daniel, but he was smiling warmly too.

“That felt nice.” Daniel whispered.

“I know it did. Kisses and hugs, just tender loving ones from family and friends, that's love, it doesn't have to be anything about sex, in fact hugs and kisses like that are never about sex, it's all about love and tenderness. It's sad that you've never known that sort of love, but I'll help you to realize what it's all about.”

“Thanks Steven. I....I....I think I know what you mean, I think I love you.” Daniel said softly, almost not able to say it.

“Right now, unfortunately, you don't, since you don't know what love is. I'm sure you feel something towards me, gratitude being the most likely of those feelings, and you certainly like me. Until you learn to love yourself though, I don't believe that you could love anyone else.”

“Maybe you're right, but what I feel for you is different than that, I don't know.” Daniel admitted.

“It'll come, don't worry. Come on handsome, let's go get some breakfast, I'm sure the others are all up and going by now.”

“Okay, I'm really hungry.”

“I'll bet you are.”

The rest of the boys had been up for nearly an hour already when Steven and Daniel came out of the bedroom. They were all sitting around talking and laughing. They had even had a conversation about Daniel just after waking up, wondering how he was doing. When they walked out though, they all saw a difference, he looked as if he had cried, a lot, and he looked as if he were even happier. He certainly looked as if he had had a lot of weight removed from his shoulders, far more than Kai had been able to remove. Kai knew he was good at helping people, but he knew that sometimes kids just needed the love of an adult, a parental figure to truly help them, and he could clearly see the decision to have Steven help Daniel was the right choice to make. Kai had been sure to tell the others to not pry into what Steven and Daniel had talked about, because right now Daniel was going to be very raw, and even though eventually he had to tell them all, now was not the right time.

“Morning boys, how did you sleep last night?” Steven asked them all as they walked in.

“Great. I've never slept so nicely in all my life.” Josh said.

“Same.” A bunch of the others added as well.

“Good, glad to hear it. Have you boys had breakfast yet?”

“No.” Kai answered.

“Then let's go make it, we're hungry.” Steven smiled, and with that, every boy in the room stood. Half of them were wearing very soggy diapers, and all of them looked like they really needed changing soon.

They all hit the kitchen and worked together to make a nice big healthy breakfast, and then they sat down to eat it. Denise did not join them, she would not be awake for at least a couple hours Kai had told the others when asked. They all enjoyed their good breakfast though, and before too long, they were done, so cleaned up.

“Okay, well we're going downstairs to do our morning workout, do you guys want to come and join us? You can play on the equipment or just sit and watch or you can exercise on the other stuff, whatever you want.” Kai informed the others.

“Okay.” They all said.

The boys all headed downstairs, while Steven went and got out of his diaper and hopped in the shower. Once there, Kai, Kenny and Owen started doing the workout that they normally did every morning, that is to say they started by stretching then getting a really good aerobic exercise going. Half the boys just watched the three of them for the first part, amazed at their abilities. Even Kenny and Owen were starting to get really good. The other half went and played on the gymnastics equipment, but still watched a lot as the three others stretched hard. Once the three of them were done, Kai was asked to show them some stuff on the gymnastics equipment, because they all knew that he was good at it. He showed them a routine that he had been working on, and they were amazed, saying they had never seen anything so amazing before.

“Well guys, we have to get ready to go here pretty quick to go to dance. Would you all like to just stay here and use the pool facilities while we're gone? We'll be a few hours though.” Kai said.

“Sure.” They all said.

“Thought so. If you want you can all go out and play hockey too, Steven would probably join you if you do, just be gentle on him, he's getting pretty old.” Kai giggled.

“That sounds like a good idea too.” Pete said.

“Yeah, he'll likely stay here while my mom takes us to dance, so he'll keep you all occupied no problem. We need to go have a quick light lunch as well before we go, so you guys can come up with us, and then once we're gone, you can all go have some fun.”

“Cool.” They all said, and they headed upstairs.

They all got an early lunch, Kai and Kenny telling Steven and Denise what was happening and what was suggested. Denise said that she was going to go shopping while the boys were at dance class, so Steven gave her his card to use, since it was now his responsibility to take care of the groceries. Soon the four of them headed out and Denise just dropped the boys out front and then headed right out. The boys went up to the dance studio, while Denise first headed to the medical supply store, because they needed a lot of new diapers, some for Steven included. Kai, Kenny and Owen went up and had a good time, and Dianne really pushed them, even had them dancing with the girls a little, teaching them how to dance with a partner.

At the house, the boys there were having a good time, because as soon as the others left, they all headed out to the pool, stripped off, showered up, and jumped in, the pool that is. For the next couple hours, they all played in the pool and rested in the hot tub, sauna and steam room, and they enjoyed themselves. Daniel was the one to suggest that they all get geared up and go play hockey, Steven being asked to join them as well, of which he was more than happy to do. They were just coming in, tired, sweaty, and a few were good and wet too just as the other four were pulling in.

“Had a good time did you?” Kai asked them with a bright smile as they jumped out of the car.

“Oh yeah.” Everyone said.

“Good.”

“I'm gonna head out for a few minutes and grab a couple things, you boys all head on in and do whatever you want.” Steven said.

“I can come with you if you need a hand with anything!” Daniel offered.

“No thanks, you go have fun with the boys, and I want you to try and laugh and have fun too.” Steven said gently, he knew that Daniel just wanted to spend time with him.

“Oh, okay.” Daniel said dejectedly.

Steven gave him a quick hug and told him he would be fine, Daniel smiled softly from the hug, and then went and joined the others, while Steven took off.

“So, what should we do guys?” Kai asked.

“I don't know about the rest of you guys, but I'm getting tired and could stand to just sit back and relax for a bit.” Owen said first.

“Sounds good to me.” More than a few of the others said at almost the exact same time. They had all played really hard for the entire morning and early afternoon, so they were getting tired.

“Okay, then that's what we'll do.” Kai smiled, he too was getting tired, so it would be good.

They went and sat back in the living room and just watched TV. No more than forty five minutes later Steven came in with a bunch of bags of stuff. The boys all hopped up to see if they could help with anything, but he waved them back, saying he had everything under control. Denise did go to the kitchen to see what he had brought.

“So, what's up?” She asked.

“Daniel has serious troubles, I don't doubt you've realized that already. He has no self esteem at all, like none, how he's survived is beyond me, but in no time at all, he would've self destructed, of that I'm certain. He also hates himself with a loathing that equals what he feels for his parents. He was told so often that he was useless and a waste of everything, that he believes it so firmly now that he has no idea who he even is any more. He has no love in him, he never smiles or laughs, and the only time he has a good time is at hockey. If it weren't for that, he'd already be gone, of that I'm sure. What he needs is to laugh himself silly, be a boy really, being with the others helps, and I'm trying to give him all the positive reinforcement and love that he needs, but there's something about watching back to back to back slapstick comedies that can really make a boy laugh. And then after that, we're gonna tackle him to the floor and tickle him, probably 'til he pees his pants. I want him to really laugh, totally let himself go.” Steven explained.

“Yes, I've seen the same things in him, and I think Kai was right to task you with this one, you're definitely the correct person to do this for him. It sounds like you have everything perfectly under control, just ask Kai if you need any help though, he'll know how to handle Daniel even better than I could.”

“Thanks.”

“So, what's in all the bags, surely you didn't buy a hundred movies?”

“Well, what's a movie marathon without tonnes of chips, candy, pop, popcorn and other assorted treats. I know Kai almost never touches this stuff, and I try and curb the amount that Kenny has as well, but a night like tonight calls for letting yourself go entirely and eating whatever you want. I've even got pizzas in here that we can just throw in the oven later and eat.”

“Well, sounds like a good night, too bad I already had a date planned, or I might have just joined you boys in your fun.”

“It's probably for the best that you're not here, I picked out the corniest movies, the most outrageous ones I could, ones only boys can find at all funny, and I'm sure every one of them will be laughing nearly non stop. We'll also be seriously testing out the sound system, we'll put it so loud the airport might call to complain about the noise.” Steven grinned.

“Actually, that sounds like just the type of thing I like. Remember, I'm a lesbian, I love all sorts of guy things, and those are the types of movies I enjoy.” Denise laughed.

“Maybe another time then.” Steven smiled.

“Maybe. So, anything I can help with then?”

“Well, I'm gonna get all the pizzas onto trays and into the ovens and set the timer to start cooking them in an hour, and then I'm gonna get all the rest of the stuff opened up and put in bowls and on trays, grab cups and that sort of thing, so if you want to help, I won't complain.”

“Sure. I don't have to start getting ready for my date for at least an hour.”

“Let me guess, you leave in about sixty five minutes then?” Steven grinned.

“Gimme at least a little credit, in an hour and a half.” Denise laughed, she was certainly not the type to primp and preen for hours on end to get ready.

They spent the next fifteen minutes getting everything all ready, and when it was done, Steven headed out to the living room.

“Okay boys, all those who wear and or want diapers, go get changed, because I'm sure you need to. The rest of you, strip down to just your underwear or less if you prefer and go to the bathroom, we're gonna watch some movies.”

“Okay.” Everyone said as one.

First they stripped right where they were, and a couple of the braver ones went right bare, while the rest were either in underwear or diapers. The diaper wearers went and grabbed diapers and then got changed quickly. The ones who did not want or need diapers went and drained their bladders. All the while Steven went back to the kitchen and brought out the cart that had everything on it. He and Denise had put everything onto the kitchen cart for ease of transportation, so he brought it out.

Steven put the first of the four movies he had rented into the player and got everything else turned on, he had just picked randomly, but he was happy with the selection when he looked, he could not have picked a funnier movie had he tried for their first of the night. Within only a couple minutes all the boys were back and saw all the treats, so grabbed what they wanted on one of the available plates, grabbed a cup of pop, and sat back to watch the movie that was ready to start. Daniel, without being prompted, went and sat next to Steven, right where Steven had wanted him to be anyway, and he cuddled right up. Steven looked down at him and smiled warmly, and Daniel even smiled lightly as well.

It was well after eleven when the last of the movies ended, and like Steven had hoped, Daniel had laughed uproariously with the rest of the boys and him, the movies were just too funny. As soon as the movie ended, they all said that they were very tired, and Steven had to wonder if it was only the laughter that kept half the boys up, but he still had one last thing to do before they all went to bed, so told the boys to tackle and pin Daniel to the floor. They did, amidst squeals of protest from said boy.

“Do you know what I'm gonna do to you now Daniel?” Steven grinned maniacally.

“Um, no.” Daniel said, still trying to fight all the boys off him, but they had him held firmly in place.

“Probably for the best, but I have a feeling you've never been tickled before, have you?”

“Um, no.” Daniel said, almost fearfully now.

“Good, then you're gonna love and hate this all at the same time. Alright everyone, take an area and tickle him.” Steven grinned, and everyone used their free hand, because they had not needed two to pin Daniel down with as many of them as there were there.

Daniel started screaming and hollering, laughing every bit as much as, or more than he had while watching the movies. He had never felt anything that both made him want to laugh and cry so much in his life, he loved it and he hated it, he was laughing so hard, begging them to stop, but they were merciless. All of a sudden he realized that with all the pop that he had, and the amount of time since he had last peed, that he really had to go. He begged them to stop even more, telling them he had to pee, but Steven had not told them to stop, so they did not. All of a sudden, Daniel's bladder let go, but still they did not stop. Daniel was still laughing hard, but he was now crying as well from the humiliation of wetting his pants. Steven had planned this too, he knew it would happen, and that it was mean in some ways, and many would see this as bad, but he felt that Daniel needed to see that his friends would not make fun of him for such a thing.

“Okay boys, stop, I think he's had enough for now.” Steven said, and instantly they all stopped.

Daniel lay there gasping and panting and crying for a couple minutes. He had never loved and hated something so much in his life all at the same time.

“You made me pee my underwear.” Daniel said hotly.

“Ah so what, what's a little pee between friends, besides, you needed to laugh more. You laugh hard and strong once you get going, it's a nice sound.” Steven said warmly.

“But you made me pee, that's gross, now everyone will make fun of me.”

“Hah, do you see them making fun of you for such a thing. I bet most of them have peed themselves while being tickled before, hell I know Kenny has, because I've done it to him more than a few times. There's no shame here, and like I said, what's a little pee between friends. Come on, come with me and I'll help you to get all cleaned up. The rest of you go ahead and get your bed all settled and climb in, Daniel will be out in a minute to join you.” Steven said softly.

The boys all just nodded their heads, while Kai grabbed a pack of wipes that was on the cart for them for their hands, and for diaper changes throughout the movie, and cleaned up the pee that had leaked out onto the floor. He had no problems with it, why would he. Once he was done, he joined the others in getting their bed all ready. Daniel just silently followed Steven to his bedroom and stood there waiting for Steven.

“Come here Daniel.” Steven said softly.

Daniel stepped forward, closer to Steven. As soon as Daniel was in front of him, he knelt down and pulled off Daniel's soaked underwear and threw them in the hamper. He then grabbed his pack of wipes and very lovingly and gently wiped up Daniel's groin, bum, legs, and even his lower stomach and back. Steven was not really surprised that even though he had pulled back the young boys foreskin to clean his penis head, that Daniel did not get hard, no, he once again had tears leaking down his face. He had never felt a gentle cleaning by a caring parent before, and it felt very loving. This is of course one of the very things that Steven had planned on.

“Would you like a pair of your underwear, or would you like a diaper?” Steven whispered, knowing the answer, but still asking anyway.

“Underwear please.” Daniel whispered back.

Steven grabbed a pair of Daniel's underwear from the bag he had grabbed and helped Daniel to step into them, and then pulled him up and even positioned his penis in his underwear as to how he liked it, Daniel blushed when Steven asked, but he did answer.

“There you go, all set now. Head on out and go curl up with the boys now and have a good sleep.”

“Can I sleep in here with you again please?” Daniel whispered.

“No, not tonight. Tonight you need to sleep with your friends. I assure you, it'll be just as nice, they'll all be cuddled up in one big pile of boys, you'll probably enjoy it just as much as you enjoyed sleeping with me. If you want or need to cuddle up to someone as you sleep, I assure you that no one will complain.” Steven said softly, breaking the news to Daniel gently, because he had known this was going to happen.

“Oh, okay.” Daniel said softly, and shoulders slumped, he walked from the room. Steven called out goodnight love you after Daniel, and his shoulders at least rose a little, and he could actually see Daniel smile from behind.

Daniel went and crawled into the nest of boys, and Owen was who happened to be right next to him, already almost asleep. Owen just rolled over and pulled Daniel into him and cuddled up. Daniel just sighed and hugged Owen a little as well and they both fell asleep. Daniel was the first to wake up the next morning, it was still pretty early. He decided to go and curl up to Steven for a while, thinking that he would not mind, not realizing that Steven fully expected to have Daniel come in sometime during the night.

“Good morning Daniel.” Steven whispered when he snuck in the bedroom. Daniel had not been expecting Steven to be awake.

“Good morning. Can I come in here and cuddle up with you for a bit please?”

“Of course. I half expected you to make your way in here sometime throughout the night, but you lasted 'til morning, congratulations. How was it?”

“It was nice, Owen cuddled me all night. You expected me to come in here in the night?”

“I thought that there was a better than even chance, yes. It's actually quite late in the morning though, but you boys all stayed up later than I'm betting you're used to, so it's not that much of a surprise.”

“Yeah. I can't tell you the last time I stayed up 'til after eleven. I always go to bed early, mostly so I don't have to see my parents, but also so that I make it to hockey practice on time.”

“Same. So, how do you feel this morning after last night?”

“I don't know, different again I guess.”

“Different good or different bad?”

“Good, I think. I hurt a lot though from laughing so much last night.”

“Considering how little you've laughed in your life, I don't doubt that you hurt quite a bit from it. Laughing uses a lot of muscles, and when you're not used to it, it's like doing exercises you're not used to for the first time. You don't hate me for making you pee last night do you, because I intended for that to happen?”

“I admit I was a bit mad at you at first, but then you cleaned me up so nicely, it was real nice.”

“Good, I was hoping that was about how you'd feel. You might have even felt a little bit of betrayal, because I made you pee your pants in front of your friends. I did it on purpose though, so that you could see that they wouldn't make fun of you for such a little thing. I mean, look at them, how many gay and or bi boys are out there, how many of them like to or need to wear diapers. You also heard their deepest darkest fears and secrets. What would make you think that they'd make fun of you?”

“I know what you're saying is right, but I spent a long time trying to act so much bigger and stronger than I was. I trust you though, I know you wouldn't hurt me, and I know that what you're trying to do for me is to help me out. I really do think I'm starting to love you though. Can you hug me and kiss me again, I liked that.” Daniel asked softly.

“Of course.” Steven said, opening up his arms wide for Daniel to come to him, he was just sitting on the edge of his bed while Daniel had been standing a few feet away.

Daniel went and wrapped his arms around Steven as well, and they hugged like that for quite a few minutes. The only difference was that this time Daniel did not cry. His eyes were not dry mind you, but he was not crying either. Once Steven felt that was enough, he pushed Daniel away slightly and gave him a kiss on the forehead. Daniel though had other ideas, and leaned down a little after the kiss, and he did something that he never thought he would ever do, he kissed someone as well, only he kissed Steven on the lips, tenderly pouring everything he had in his heart into the kiss.

“Daniel, that was very nice, but what you just did was not right. You know that though, don't you?” Steven asked softly.

“Yes, I know you don't want someone so young as me, and you wouldn't want someone so damaged either, but I had to show you how I felt. I really do think I love you. I feel something in me I've never felt in my life, and for once I'm starting to see who I really am, and it's because of you. You saved me, you're who I want.”

“But you're not even gay Daniel, you said so yourself. Sure, you love me, but where that kiss was leading was somewhere where you can never go comfortably. You're giving yourself to me, to do with as I want, I can see it in your eyes, but you'll never enjoy it, not like you should. As for my not wanting you, no, I don't want you in a sexual way, you know that, I was very honest about that, but I do want you as a friend, even as a part time son if you'd like, but I can't be more than a father figure for and to you, you know that. Yes, you're damaged, sadly so, but together we're gonna work on that and make you into a whole new person. I also would never turn someone away because they were damaged, that's just not the type of person I am. Why do you think I'm doing so much for you, have done so much for you and a few of your team mates over the past few years. If I was the type of person who wouldn't help someone in need, I certainly wouldn't do all that.” Steven said softly.

“What if I was gay though and I just didn't realize it?”

“Somehow I doubt that. You're fourteen now, most boys know before your age if they're gay.” Steven said gently.

“Yeah, but both you and Kai have said that I don't really know who I am, that I was so abused that I hate myself and don't love myself. Now that I'm starting to love myself, I'm starting to see that maybe I'm not as straight as I thought I was. I've never even looked at a girl like that before, but neither have I looked at a boy. Before you came along, I wasn't anything, I wasn't even really a person, now I am, and now I think I might be gay.” Daniel said after almost five minutes of silence, he was thinking how he could put his feelings, having a really hard time doing so, but eventually he at least somewhat formulated his thoughts.

“That was a very well thought out response, and in some way, you're probably right too. You had no idea who you were, so how could you really know if you were gay or not. I'm not going to insult your intelligence or your heart and say you're wrong, because when it comes to that, there's only one person who has the right to tell you that, and that's you and you alone. Just remember one thing though, that if you give a person all your heart and soul only because you feel indebted to him or her, you're only going to lose everything in the end. I'm also not saying that I couldn't love you in that way, but I'd at least ask that you wait 'til you're older, that way it's legal at least.”

“So, you do love me then, don't you?”

“Sure I do, I thought I told you that last night, but I love you like a son. I don't love you in a sexual way. I easily could though, you're very handsome, and once you finish growing up, you'll be even more so. Maybe in a few years I could fall for you, but really, you should find someone your own age and settle down with him or her.”

“What if I don't want to wait a few years?”

“Then you'll have to find someone closer to your own age. The law is very clear on that fact, I'm too old for you, and until you're sixteen, I'm not allowed to touch you in any sexual manner at all. Remember, that law is there to help protect boys just like you. I hate to say it, but right now you really don't have the mental capacity to make a decision like that yet. You probably won't even have that ability once you do become legal at sixteen, because you have a lot of growing left to do before you're fully matured in your head. Your body might look matured, or at least reaching it, but your mind is considerably further behind. It's not your fault, it's your parents, but still it's you that gets stuck with the dealing with it. I promise you though that I'll be right there with you helping you along the way, and your friends will as well.”

“If I didn't know that you were right, I'd be really mad at you now, saying you're an asshole and mean too, but it doesn't change how I'm feeling for you. Did you know that when I jacked off yesterday, I was thinking about you.” Daniel blushed.

“You should be mad, but not at me, you should be mad at your parents, but sadly that'll do little to no good, so there's really no point. Now, as flattered as I am that you thought about me while jacking off, banish those thoughts, they'll only torture you more. Is that what made you think you might be gay?”

“Yeah. I tried to picture girls, but I just went soft, but then I saw you in my mind and I got really hard and I jacked off lots. Speaking of which, can I use some more of that cold cream please?”

“Sure you can, and if you need to, you can jack off again while you're in there.” Steven smiled.

“Thanks. I probably should.” Daniel blushed.

He did not wait, just went right to the bathroom and grabbed the cream. This time he also used it as a bit of a lube to help things glide a little more easily as he jacked off, and only twice this morning he exploded. He applied more cream to his now softening dick and then tucked himself back into his underwear, used some toilet paper to clean up the mess on his chest and stomach, and then headed back out to the bedroom.

Steven too had jacked a couple loads out while waiting for Daniel, he too was more than a little horny this morning, and as much as he denied it to Daniel's face, he was wondering how he too was going to stop falling in love with the good looking young man.

“Feel better now?” Steven asked as a flushed Daniel sauntered out of the bathroom.

“Yeah, but the only thing I could picture again was you.”

“Hopefully soon that'll change and you'll find someone that really does for you the things you need them to do.”

“I think I already have.”

“And you know the reasons why that can never happen, so you may as well stop thinking about it. Come on, let's go check on the others and get some breakfast.” Steven said, hopping out of bed.

“Okay.” Daniel said. He really did like seeing Steven in only his diaper.

Steven saw the look, and wondered just how much longer Daniel could hold out before asking to wear a diaper as well. They headed out to the living room, and the boys were all just waking up. They waited until they were all awake.

“Good morning boys, have a good sleep?” Steven asked.

“Yeah.” More than a few of the boys sighed deeply.

“That's good. You slept in quite late, and I'm getting hungry, so all you soggy babies get your diapers changed, and then let's go get some breakfast.” Steven teased.

“Okay.” All the aforementioned boys giggled.

They all got up, the diaper wearers changed each other, while all the rest of them fought for supremacy around the toilets, but in the end, they just went three to a toilet to relieve themselves. Once they were all good, they all headed to the kitchen and helped to make a nice big Sunday morning breakfast. Denise joined them a few minutes before breakfast was served, saying that it smelled incredible. Kai was certainly not used to this much rich foods in one day, let alone in one meal, but once they sat down to eat it all, he had to admit that it was really good too.

“Well guys, after such a fattening breakfast, I really need to go do a good workout, so whoever wants to come down may feel free to do so.” Kai groaned out.

“I will.” Everyone said, including Denise and Steven.

So as one large group, they all headed downstairs and got a really good workout going. The adults dropped out first, and then one by one, the rest of the boys joined them on the sidelines, waiting for Kai and Kenny to tire themselves out sufficiently. Owen was the last other than them though, he was even proud that he lasted as long as he had, considering.

“It's a real wonder that someone so small looking as Kai can even do half the stuff he does.” Daniel whispered to Steven, he was once again snuggled right up to his man, and that was exactly how he was starting to think of Steven.

“I hate to tell you this, because it might shock you even more, but he's holding back, he's not doing as much as he normally does when they're alone.” Steven whispered back.

“Yeah right.” Daniel said incredulously.

“I'm not kidding. For instance, you just saw him do a couple hundred crunches, sit ups and push ups, he usually does twice that number. Also, on the weights, he usually puts more on the bar or goes for longer than he did when he was on them. No, whatever you do, don't underestimate Kai, he's far stronger than he looks, and far stronger than you've ever seen. I heard how he demonstrated this to you, I have no doubts he could do the same to me.”

“But how, he's so small, he doesn't look at all strong? I'm not as strong as he is, yet I have way bigger muscles than he has.” Daniel admitted, and it was easy to do so the more he knew Kai.

“He's very lean muscled, more like a mountain lion than a bear. Trust me, if he were to flex his muscles, you'd be surprised. You might have larger if you flexed as well, but if you were to feel them, you'd notice the difference instantly. His muscles are rock hard when he flexes.” Steven pointed out softly.

“I just might have to do that.” Daniel said in wonder.

“Just try not to embarrass him.”

“Why would that embarrass him?” Daniel asked curiously.

“He's not shy at all, he's very outgoing, he knows he's very good at what he does and he likes himself very much, yet he gets embarrassed when people fawn over him and talk about him like he's all that. That'll take him years to get over, if ever, but it's not like the type of embarrassment that others might suffer. He doesn't like to feel like he's better than others, he really just wants to be like every other kid, and I can understand it, I wouldn't like it either. He won't blush quite like most people do when they're embarrassed, he'll only say he's not that good, and seem almost bashful.”

“Oh, okay. I've sorta noticed that about him, he doesn't really like to admit he's as smart as he is, and I know he didn't want to tell us that either, but like he said, it was only fair. I guess if you absolutely have to feel shy about something, something like that would be the best to be shy about.”

“No, not really. Think about it. Kai's been very adamant about not progressing in school past his peers, he point blank refuses to do so, even though he's been told he should numerous times, starting as early as kindergarten. Why do you think he wouldn't want to do that?”

“I don't know, I'd love to be that smart.”

“Think about it from his perspective then. You were once a bully, how would you have treated him, how did you treat others like him?” Steven asked even softer still. The others were all far enough away that they were pretty good to talk in the noisy basement with the music going loudly.

“I guess I would have treated him like a freak, I would have called him that too.” Daniel admitted.

“Exactly. Think about how much worse it'd be if let's say you're as small and weak looking as he is, and you end up in university, where other students paid huge amounts of money and are struggling. Then this little punk kid who looks like a strong fart will blow him over, gets in for free because he's brilliant, and then just sails through like he isn't even trying. And I can guarantee that once Kai gets there, that he'll take a course load that should normally take seven to ten years and do it faster than anyone else ever thought possible.”

“I'd want to beat the snot outta him, that's for sure.” Daniel smiled sadly.

“Exactly, now you see why he seems to act a little shy and doesn't want too many people to know that about him. He doesn't want to be treated like a freak, you wouldn't either, so keep that in mind. Kai is probably every bit as smart as every other person in this room combined, yet just to look at him, or to even talk to him, you wouldn't think so, because he actively tries not to let it show. With you guys he can be more free, because you know, but even still, he automatically dumbs himself down a lot, so that he doesn't sound either like a textbook or like he's preaching. He hates it when other people talk like that, so he never does himself. You boys all really heard how smart he was when he was helping you to all improve your teamwork, but I'm willing to bet that he still didn't go anywhere near as far into it as he could have. I've only lived with him a short time, but every day I'm more amazed with him.”

“Yeah, I guess so. But what do his smarts have to do with his strength, I asked about his physical strength.”

“It all ties in to being the same thing with him. He's physically a lot stronger than most kids your age, hell, than most adults. For him, his mental strength is his physical strength, it all comes from the same place, so it all amounts to the same thing to him.”

“Oh, I wish I could say I understand, but I don't really.” Daniel admitted.

“I don't know if I can explain it, but without being smart enough to know your limits, you'd hurt yourself, right. Well, he's not afraid to push those limits, and he knows exactly how far he can push before he causes harm. Also, if you ask anyone, physical strength is really all mental anyway.”

“Okay, I'll take your word for it. I'm not that smart and I know how far I can push myself.”

“Hey, no more speaking like that, I don't want to hear it again.” Steven warned strongly.

“Sorry.”

“No worries, you just have to stop thinking of yourself as stupid, it's not good for you at all. You're plenty smart, of that I have little doubt, it's only been suppressed a lot.”

“I can't help it.”

“I know, but I want you to promise me that you'll never say anything bad about yourself ever again, that's the first step in being happy.”

“For you, I'll try it.”

“No, it's for you.” Steven said firmly.

“Okay.” Daniel said softly.

Kai and Kenny finally finished their workout and came and sat down with the others.

“Who wants to go sit back in the pool and hot tub for a bit and relax before you all have to head home?” Kai asked.

“Me.” Everyone said, all of them thinking the hot tub, sauna and steam room sounded like a really good idea.

“Okay, come on, let's go. Are you gonna join us mom?”

“No thanks, I'll let you boys have your fun.”

“Okay.” Kai said, wondering if his mom would ever get over it.

They all headed upstairs and all the males in the house all headed right out to the pool house and stripped down. They all headed towards the hot tub, and they all sat back and relaxed. There were not enough seats for them all, so Daniel sat on Steven's lap, Kai on Kenny's, John on Ben's lap and Nolan, Chris and Sam were all squished into one as well. Otherwise, they all fit quite well. They alternated after a while between the hot tub, the steam room, the sauna and the pool, and they all relaxed, not talking all that much. Finally it was decided that all the boys should head home, so they all hopped out and dried off, and then all the boys got dressed and ready to go, grabbing all their things, making sure they had it all.

“Well guys, thanks so much for coming over this weekend, I hope you all had a good time.” Kai smiled as they were all at the front door, ready to leave.

“Yeah.” They all said.

“Good. I'd love to say next weekend we should do the same, but we all have a hockey game Saturday evening, and we have ballet class Saturday afternoon, so it just won't work out. The following weekend though if everyone can arrange it would be good. We have a game that Sunday night, and we can all practice together here.”

“Okay.” Everyone said happily.

“Excellent. Well see you guys in the morning.” Kai said.

They all said their goodbyes, and then the guests took their leave, all heading to the bus stop down the street so that they could all get home. Steven had offered to drive them all, but they all said they had bus passes and it was just as easy for them.

“Well, that was a really good weekend. How did it go with Daniel?” Kai asked.

“Not bad, but he's gonna take some work. He seems to think he might be gay though, and he even made a pretty good argument of it. When he said he was straight, he had no idea who he was, and admitted that he had never thought of anyone in a sexual manner before, either boy or girl, so now that he was starting to realize who he was, he was starting to believe he's gay.” Steven answered.

“Uh oh, that could cause problems for you. He looks up to you a great deal, and if he ends up with any sort of hero worship, he could go after you. He might not even be gay and still try and get you, just because he thinks he loves you.” Kai sad, having not seen that one coming.

“Actually, he already tried. I've stopped his advances for now, but how long it lasts is another question entirely. The problem is, he's really cute, and even though he's too young for my tastes, if he pushes hard enough, I don't know if or how long I'll really be able to hold him off. I told him flat out that anything has to wait 'til he's older, at least sixteen, but I don't think he really gets it.” Steven admitted.

“Yeah, that's definitely going to be a problem, and I admit I never saw that one coming. The major problem as I see it, is if he does decide he really wants you, and you push him away, it could utterly destroy every shred of self esteem he has, or rather what you've been able to give him.”

“Don't forget all the work you've done, but yeah, that's what I'm scared of as well. With his mind being so weak, I just don't know what to do.”

“If handled correctly, he should be just fine, but the problem is, not even I know the best way to handle a situation like that. Have you any clue mom?” Kai asked.

“No, this sort of thing would be difficult to deal with at the best of times. Normally, if everyone is of age and all parties are consenting, I'd say go for it. But, in the same breath, I'm not against man boy love, or woman girl love either. The law has other ideas though, and while Daniel thinks it's okay, clearly you don't. I'm afraid I'm going to suggest you do something that's against your beliefs, and that's to love the boy to your fullest, or his fullest as it may turn out to be, if he desires to go that far that is.” Denise giggled at her own joke.

“I can't do that. Even if I wanted to, what if we got caught, how would he handle that. It'd surely kill him. There has to be a better way, something that isn't so risky, but something that won't crush his poor heart any more than it already has been.”

“Somehow I don't think that if he really wants it, that you can deny him, you'll crush his heart like you said. As for getting caught, well we just have to be damned sure you don't, at least for a couple years.” Denise answered softly.

“Will I have time do you think?”

“Probably not.” Both Denise and Kai said at the same time.

“Crap.”

“Yeah, understandable, but it's your own fault for being so kind and caring.” Kai said.

“Possibly, but it's your fault for asking me to help him out.” Steven pointed out.

“I didn't think he'd fall head over heels in love with you, and by the way, we all saw it, especially this morning.” Kai pointed out.

“Me neither.” Steven sighed.

For the rest of the evening, they all sat around talking about that, as well as a few other subjects, but it mostly centered around the boys and their friends. They watched a little TV, had dinner, and went to bed. Kai and Kenny were more than just a little horny, so sucked three loads from each other at the same time, and then kissed and cuddled for a few minutes afterward. They kissed each other goodnight and then fell fast asleep. Owen too was a little on the horny side, and spent almost an hour after going to bed satisfying the deep itch he had inside, as well as more than few deep itches on the outside. He stroked his dildo in and out while rubbing his dick through his soggy diaper for a total of four orgasms tonight, and finally managed to stumble out of bed, change his diaper, and then fall back into bed.