Date: Sun, 1 Apr 2001 10:42:22 +0100 (BST)
From: ozy <soul_catcher2000@yahoo.co.uk>
Subject: being gay/chapter 6/yf

Disclaimer and Warning: The following story contains
content of a homosexual nature. It is not intended
for those under the legal age.  If you are offended by
homosexual acts, or it is illegal in your area to
view such material, then stop reading and leave! I'm
not sure how old u have to be to be over the legal age.
I'm 17 so don't let it bother u too much.

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BTW This story is based on real life events. It's true
except for the little details and time structure.

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Being Gay
Chapter 6

 I awoke, and immediately turned around. Ryan lay asleep
beside me. I relaxed. He looked so perfect, he had the most
perfect composure; his angelic face was framed perfectly by his
sensual blonde hair. I brushed a hair off of his forehead and
traced his delicate features gently, with my hand, he was so
beautiful! He had the hint of a smile on his face and he
murmured softly in his sleep. I kissed him softly on his
forehead and turned, pulling the covers off of me carefully. I
slipped out of bed and glanced at Ryan, he was still asleep. I
glanced at the time, it was 12:30, damn. How long had we
slept? I turned around, and headed for the bathroom.

After showering, I headed back upstairs. Ryan sat on the edge
of the bed, he looked slightly troubled. He noticed me and
smiled.

"Hey" he spoke.

"Hey there beautiful, everything ok?" I replied.

"Yeah, everything's great." He jumped up off the bed and
headed down towards the bathroom. I looked at him walking
away and couldn't help but feel that something was wrong. I
shrugged it off and looked for my clothes, I glanced at the time
again it was 13:00. Damn, I had better get home. I pulled on
my trainers and grabbed my jacket. I ran down the stairs and
almost crashed into Ryan. I froze, his hair was soaking wet and
clung to his forehead, he only had a towel wrapped around his
waist. I couldn't help but stare at his beautiful body. He
noticed me staring and blushed. I laughed out loud.

"Hey sexy, gotta go." I said. He smiled and blushed slightly.

"Right now? You're already late, you're dad wanted you home
by 11:00. Just call and tell him that you wanna spend the day
with me, he'll understand. Do you want me to ask him?" That
instantly made me feel good, Ryan wanted to spend time with
me. I put my arms around his waist, pulling him to me.

"Ok, you've convinced me. I'll call him, but first..." I kissed
him gently. He blushed and kissed back quickly. He laughed
and gently pushed me away.

"I'm gonna go get changed." He said. I pouted and he just
smiled at me. Oh well, I turned down the stairs and walked into
the living room. I grabbed the phone off the table and dialled
home.

"Hello?"

"Hi mum. Mum, tell dad I'm sorry, but I've decided to do
some studying here and then do something with Ryan. Is that
ok?" I asked, biting my lower lip as I waited for a reply.

"It's fine with me, let me just ask you're father." I could hear
some talking in the background.

"You're father says it's ok as long as you guys aren't fighting.
He wants to know if everything's ok?"

"Yeah mum, everything's fine. I gotta go. seeya soon." I
hung up. Ryan stood behind me, he smiled.

"Everything ok?" he asked. I smiled back.

"Yup, everything's perfect." I replied, imitating his slightly
tinged British/American accent. He giggled.

"Ok then, what do you wanna do for breakfast? I'll get Maria
to cook up something if you like"

"Nope, I'm not too hungry, think I'll skip breakfast. I need
some coffee though." He laughed.

"Same here." He replied. I smiled and sat down switching on
the TV. Ryan went to find the housekeeper. I switched
channels idly until I found something interesting, I stopped on
some dopey chat show, it was funny how such trash could be
so entertaining. I yawned, I still felt so tired. Ryan came and
sat beside me, he looked at me, seeming to contemplate
something and then relaxed and put his arm around me drawing my
head to him. I smiled and lay my head to rest on his shoulders.
He began to stroke my hair lovingly. I sighed, I was so content.

"You wanna go back to bed?" He asked, looking concerned.

"Is that an invitation?" I asked. He blushed.

"You look tired, you should sleep." He replied. I smiled, but
felt a little disappointed.

"Nah. wanna stay here with you instead." I kissed him and he
smiled back at me.

"Ok then, if you want that, then so be it." He kissed me on my
forehead and we shifted so my head was laying on his chest.
My eyes felt so heavy, I let them close and soon drifted to
sleep.

I felt a slight shift in my senses and I opened my eyes. I looked
around, I was alone on the sofa and the TV was still on. I got
up, where was Ryan? I switched the TV off and went to find
my boyfriend/friend. hmm... what was he to me? I pondered that for a
second and then he jumped on me.

"Hey!" he shouted and giggled like a kid. I smiled at him.
"Feeling better?" he asked.

"Yeah, lots better." I stared deep into his eyes. He blushed and
turned away.

"Wanna go shopping?" he asked. It was almost a tradition of
ours to go shopping every Saturday and each time we always
went clothes shopping.

"Sure, I'll just go wash up." I replied. Ryan was leaning back
on the door looking at me sexily, tilting his head back slightly
exposing the soft, tender flesh of his neck. I looked at him
hungrily, I felt like a vamp. Was he doing that on purpose? Or
was it just me? He smiled.

"I'll just call dad and let him know. I'll be in the car." He
turned and disappeared around the door. I felt confused for
some reason. Again, I just shrugged it off and headed for the
bathroom.

An hour later we were both seated in Ryan's car. Ryan was
relaxed and chatting away, not paying much attention to the
road. He always scared me whenever he was driving.

"So I got like 6 modules to do this June. I hate exams, its like
6 hrs continuously all in one day. Oh yeah, did I tell you?
Lena's coming this weekend."

"Really?" I asked. Lena used to be Ryan's girlfriend from
back in the states. They broke up when Ryan moved back to
the UK. She was a really sweet girl, she was so alike to my ex-
girlfriend. It'd be good to see her again.

"Yeah, isn't that great? It's been so long, I can't wait to see
her." He said alive with enthusiasm. I smiled but felt slightly
bothered by Ryan's enthusiasm, I was feeling protective. I mentally
kicked myself, I was being silly. Ryan wasn't even my boyfriend, or
was he? I needed to know.

"Umm... Ryan? I umm... need to ask you something." I
looked at him, scared. I didn't know if I wanted to know what his
answer would be.He looked at me curiously.

"Go ahead... shoot."

"Ok. umm... are we, umm... I mean are you and I, umm... a,
a couple?" I stuttered. He smiled at me.

"Sure we are, we do everything together. We've always been a
couple."

"No, I mean are we boyfriends?" His smile faded, and he
looked a little trouble.

"Umm... I love you Oz, but I'm not sure yet, you
know? I need some time. Let's just see how it goes, ok? Is that
ok?" I felt a little relieved; I wanted to know how he felt. I
wanted him to honest. I didn't want to trap him in a
relationship or make him feel like he had to try.

"Yeah, that's fine. I just wanna know how you feel about it all.
I umm... I love you too." He smiled and leaned over kissing me
softly on the lips. For a minute we both forgot about the road
and the car swerved sharply. Ryan pulled back and swerved back
into the right lane, regaining control of the car. He laughed
devilishly. I smiled at him; I couldn't take my eyes of him,
I relaxed and felt happy just to be in his presence. But was that
enough? I wanted more, would I be able to live without having
more? I didn't know and didn't want to think about it. I laid my
head back and looked out of the window watching the scenery passing
by in a blur.

We got to the large shopping complex and headed straight for
our favourite store - Selfridges. We were like a pair of women
when it came to shopping; we had an obsession with buying
new clothes all the time.

After hours of trying on new clothes and buying some, which
we would probably never wear, we decided to grab some food.
We got a booth at a nearby fast-food restaurant outlet and
ordered as much greasy food as we could stomach. Ryan
seemed so alive; he hadn't stopped talking since we had gotten
here. Things were good. Our food arrived and I suddenly didn't
feel so hungry. I just had a weird feeling, which I couldn't
figure out.

"Hey, what's up?" I looked up; Ryan was looking at me,
looking really concerned.

"Oh, nothing. just tired is all." I smiled at him. He smiled and
climbed around the table so he was sat directly beside me. He
took some fries and directed them to my mouth.

"Come on, open wide" he grinned at me. I couldn't help but
laugh, I took the fries into my mouth and chewed on them. He
took his hand back and looked at me, his bright blue eyes
glistening in the artificial light focused from the overhead
lamps. He stared at me intensely, mentally destroying my
defences, slowly he moved his face closer to mine, inch by
inch and I waited for the kiss. It came so gently yet so
powerfully. He gently pressed his lips to mine and kissed me
softly, he pressed on, massaging my upper lip. I sighed slightly
and kissed back. After the kiss was over Ryan drew back and
looked at me with that look. It spoke volumes; I could see all
his love, all his warmth in that look. No, I could feel it, it
radiated from him and I could feel it washing over me. Ryan
took my hand and we got up slowly.

"Let's go." He said, his eyes never leaving my face, I blushed.
I felt exposed whenever he looked at me like that. It felt so
good; it felt like he was mentally caressing me. I was so lost in
his love and I knew there was no turning back for me. He
turned and pulled me along with a slight tug.

Hardcore rap blared through the speakers around us. I could
feel my headache return. I hated rap. I turned and
headed for the top 40 section pulling Ryan along with me.
We'd been holding hands since we'd left the restaurant. We'd
been getting a few looks from strangers, but Ryan had brushed
them off and had squeezed my hand whenever I tried to pull
away. He melted me with that look and from then onwards, I
couldn't let go. I heard a voice call out from behind me.

"Ozy!" I instantly let go of Ryan's hand, and turned around.
"Hellooo!" It was Cath, a friend from college who worked at
the counter here.

"Hey!" I replied. She hugged me briefly and I hugged back,
she was a really sweet girl.

"Been a while, big guy. Where you been hiding?"

"Ah... You know me, just been here and there. Busy with
college stuff. How about you?"

"Yeah, yeah. Pretty much the same, college and this job.
Nothing much else. Good to see you though. Who's that
cutie?" She pointed to Ryan who had wondered over to the
rock section. He was browsing through the records and I found
myself staring at him.
"Hello?" She teased. I turned my attention back to her and
blushed deeply. Cath looked at me curiously and then smiled. I
muttered a reply.

"Oh, he's just a friend." She raised an eyebrow.

"Hmm... a very close friend, I'm guessing, from the way you
were staring at his ass." She giggled and tapped me lightly on
the nose.
"Catch you later Ozy." and with that she bounced away
leaving me with a shocked expression on my face. I wasn't
looking at his ass! Shit, maybe I was, I had to be more careful.
She'd seem me looking at him! Damn. Ryan came upto me and
slid his arm around my waist.

"Hmm... who's that? Huh? Got sommat you wanna tell
me? Hmm?" He asked, looking suspiciously at me with a smile
on his face. I gently pushed him away hoping Cath wasn't
watching us.

"Nah, just a friend from college." I saw flashes of a hurt look
on Ryan's face, and then he instantly covered it with a pout. I
punched him gently and pulled him with me to find my CD,
reminding myself to make it upto him later.

I paid for the CD and went to find Ryan; I felt a hand on my
shoulder and turned around. He was grinning at me.

"Ready to go?" he asked.

"Sure. I umm. I've got sommat for you." I replied. He looked
at me curiously. I pulled the CD out of the bag and handed it to
him. It was an S club 7 single, I hated their music, but this one
song always played in my head whenever I thought about
Ryan. It was called - Never had a Dream come true. It had so
much meaning to me. Ryan grinned and then blushed. He
looked directly into my eyes with that look and I melted. I
almost thought for a second that he was gonna cry, but he
surprised me even more. He reached up and pulled me to him
kissing me softly and deeply on the lips. It was all over in a
matter of seconds, my knees felt weak and I was afraid I was
gonna collapse. Ryan smiled at me with so much love in his
eyes; I was so lost in his love.

"Lets go." He indicated towards the exit with a slight tilt of his
head and we headed out. We passed the counter as we walked out and
then I noticed Cath. She was looking at me with a weird look, a look
that kinda said:  "What the heck is going on?" I looked away, avoiding
her stare but I could feel her eyes on me. Shit, she must have
seen me kiss him. Damn, if she told anyone...

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