Date: Sun, 16 Nov 2003 22:47:20 -0700
From: KI
Subject: A Boy Named Ben -pt1 Adult Youth Section (revised)

Good evening. The story you are about to read contains relations between
adult males and minor boys. There is some light sexual contact between the
two in this instalment.  This is after all a Love Story, and like all good
things in life it takes time to develope and grow into the beauty that love
and sex is. This story is partly fact/partly fiction and totally workings
of an overactive and undersexed mind.

As always, should you or any of your boylove member force decide to read
this tale and are caught and any legalities arise. The secretary will
disavow any knowledge of the author. This page will self-destruct 5 seconds
after you read it. Good Luck and Enjoy.


***A Boy Named Ben***

I sat up from my warm (but lonely) bed and caught a look at myself in the
full-length mirror that hung across the room and said to myself, "Kagie get
your fat ass to a gym". I wasn't in really bad shape, but at 40+ you have
to start look after that spare-tire before it turns into a full-blown
beer-belly. I had purchased a home-gym several years' back but I rarely
used it. I went through the yellow pages and found a few different gyms
that were between work and home. The first gym I went to see was in a nice
location and had a wide variety of workstations and a huge pool, but the
selling point to me was a beautiful young boy I saw standing by the
pool. He looked so sad as he gazed into the pool and something inside of me
told me that this boy needed me as much as I wanted him. Here was this
beautiful boy; a mysteriously handsome young boy with a secret that I just
had to get to know. I guessed his age to be around 8 or 9, he has spiked
blonde hair with eyes as blue as the water that reflected on his tiny body.

He was staring so intently at the water and I was about to go over and
introduce myself when an older boy (late teen) came along and took him by
the hand and said, "Come on Ben, moms waiting in the car". As they were
about to leave, Ben looks back towards the pool and that is when our eyes
first met. I smiled and gave a friendly wink to which he smiled back and
then he was out the door. I decided then and there that this was the gym I
was going to join. I went to the manager's office to fill out all the
necessary paperwork, I had noticed on the application form in big bold red
letters "Sat. mornings the pool is reserved for the children of members
only". I asked the manager (Mike) if that meant it was for members only
with children or members could use it too and that it just wasn't open for
the public? He told me that it depends on whoever volunteered to supervise
the kids. To help keep membership costs down Mike told me that had parents
or members volunteer to supervise the pool on Sat. He noticed on my
application that I was single and had no children and asked if I would mind
helping out with the pool situation sometime.  He didn't have to ask me
twice, I told him that I would be glad to help out.

On the drive home my mind kept going back to the boy at the pool. I
wondered how I could approach him without seeming to forward or like a
total pervert. I have known for many years that I like young boys but my
work had kept me so busy I've never had a chance to explore this side of
myself. Now with my business doing exceptionally well and I have made a ton
of cash I thought that this would be the time.

I arrived at home and I had no sooner opened my front door and the phone
rang, it was Mike from the gym. He said, "I hate to ask this of you right
away Kagie, but could you supervise the kids in the pool this Sat."? I told
him that I would be happy to and that if it would help him out even further
he could count on me most every Sat. He then asked if I could come in early
so that he could show me a few life-saving techniques just in case there
was a problem. I told him that I was CPR certified and have been for years
so there was no need to worry about that. He said, "Kagie, I had a real
good feeling about you when you joined today, and Thank You again for
helping me out. See you bright and early next Sat". I was very busy that
following week, I had new clients to write Ad's for and meetings with all
my department heads. My mind just wasn't there though, all I thought about
was Ben. What was it about this beautiful boy in particular that was
drawing me in so completely? I was determined to find out!

I took Friday afternoon off and went shopping to buy a new Speedo because
my old one was a little tight (for now). I arrived at the gym hoping to see
Ben, I stopped and said hello to Mike and told him I was going to use the
pool to rejuvenate some of those swimming muscles before tomorrow. He
laughed and said, " Yeah you better, some of the boys can be a bit rowdy
with their rough-housing but for the most part they are all good kids". I
told him that I have a way with boys and I think I can handle anything they
can muster. Mike had a strange look on his face when I said that, but I
didn't say anything wrong so he can infer whatever he wants to.

I dove into the pool and started to swim some laps and took a few dives off
the boards. I looked up into the glass enclosed viewing gallery and there
he was. His beautiful, yet sad little face pressed up against the glass. He
was staring at the same area of water as before so I wondered if maybe he
had lost something there. I stopped swimming in front of where he was
staring and waved to him. He returned me a smile that could have lit the
darkest night. Once again the older boy came and collected him and as they
both left the gallery, Ben looked back at me and waved goodbye.

I awoke early Sat. morning to get in a small workout on my home gym before
I headed off to the gym. I got to the gym just as Mike was checking the
chlorine levels and he thanked me once again for helping out. The kids
started to show up 2-3 at a time and before long there was about 25 (mostly
boys and mostly between the ages of 6-15). No sign of Ben though. I was
having a good time with these kids but it was Ben that I wanted to see. It
was now getting close to noon and as the kids started to leave the pool I
looked way up into the gallery. There was Ben with his elbows resting on
his knees with his hands holding up his cute little head. I waved to him
and he ran down the bleachers so fast I thought he was gong to either trip
and fall or run right through the glass. I mouthed through the glass for
him to wait there while I get changed. Ben nodded ok and now had a big
smile on his face. I hurried to change even though there was a feast of
naked young boys in front me. I caught a few of them checking me out but I
had a new friend (hopefully) waiting for me.

I popped my head into the gallery to tell Ben that I was just going to talk
to Mike for a minute and that I would be right back. He said, "Take your
time, I'm not going anywhere". That was the first time I heard his voice,
it was so soft and sounded like what an angel would sound like. I knocked
on Mike's door and told him all the kids were out of the pool and that if
he didn't see me before Sat. not to worry I would be here to supervise
again. Mike thanked me and said; "I have already heard some nice things
about you from some of the boys. They said you were a lot of fun and they
all hoped that you would be here again next week". I told him I would be, I
closed his office door and now I was off to see Ben. I had hoped Ben was
hungry because I was famished. I opened the door to the gallery and walked
over to formally introduce myself. He told me that his name was Ben and I
told him I knew that already from the other day when that older boy came to
get him. He said that it was his older brother Dale and that he was
supposed to watch him while their mother was at work, but that he usually
just dumps him off here and goes to see his new girlfriend. I asked Ben if
he wanted to go to the cafeteria to have lunch but he said that he didn't
have any money. I told him that it would be my treat to buy lunch for such
a handsome young boy. Ben said, "I am not handsome but you sure are". I
wanted to pick him up and hug him right there. I put my hand on his
shoulder and thanked him for saying I was, and I told him that I really
thought he was the most beautiful boy I have ever seen. He got all red in
the face and asked me, "Do you have any kids"? I told him that I didn't,
and I was expecting to see a look of disappointment on his face but his
smile seemed to get bigger with the news.

We both filled our trays with sandwiches/fruits/veggies and headed to the
cashier to pay.  Just then this heavy hand comes down on my shoulder
stopping me from reaching into my pocket. It was Mike, he told the cashier
that whenever I come in that anything I want is to go on his tab. I told
him, "You needn't do that Mike. I can surely afford my own lunches". He
looked down and saw Ben standing next to me and said, "I see that you've
met Ben". I said, "Yes, but he wasn't in the pool with the other kids
today.  I sort of met Ben last week when I joined". Ben turned away and
went to get us a table, and Mike held me back and said; "Bens father
drowned in the pool about 6 months ago, so it might be a good idea to not
talk about the pool so much". I thanked Mike for the info and I headed to
the table that Ben was sitting at. Now I know what Ben was so longingly
looking for at the pool, his father to return. Maybe in some way he has.

Over lunch we talked about his school and he told me that his mother works
real hard to keep them together since his fathers death. I told Ben that I
heard his father had died and that I was so sorry to hear about it. I could
tell he didn't want to talk about that anymore because he changed the
subject real fast. He said that his brother Dale should be getting here
soon and hopefully before his mother does. She's told Dale not to leave Ben
alone for the day but Dale's new girlfriend works at an arcade across town
and he goes there every chance he gets. About 45 min. later his mother
walks in and asked Ben where his brother was. Stalling for time Ben intro's
me to his mother. "Mom, this is Kagie, he bought me lunch and is a real
nice man". She said, "Hello, I'm Connie. Thank you for watching Ben, and
what do I owe you for his lunch"? I said, "It was my treat and I enjoyed
the company, Ben is a great little boy". The cafeteria doors flew open and
in walked Dale and his girlfriend. His mother said, "You left your little
brother alone again didn't you? Don't lie to me, now say goodbye to your
girlfriend and take Ben and go wait in the car"! Dale said, "Mom I have a
life to ya know! I can't spend all my time watching the little shit"! His
mother looked at him and sternly said, "Don't make me tell you again,
please just do as I asked"! Connie said that she would be right there; she
wanted to talk to me. They all headed out and Ben looked back and said he
hopes to see me again. I said that I had a great time and that I hoped to
see him again too.

Connie sat down and I could tell she had just gotten off work. She looked
real tired and she had bags under her eyes and looked like crap. She looked
to be about the same age as myself and I am sure that in her younger days
(or maybe with just a good rest) she was a scorcher. (Even as a gay man I
can still appreciate the beauty of a woman) She said that she works 12-hour
shifts 6 days a week and half days on Sat. at a convenience store. She said
that she was a nurse by trade but the only shifts available for her at the
hospital were weekend graveyards. I let her spill her guts and waited for
the chance to possibly offer what assistance I could. She said that she
couldn't take the nursing job because she couldn't trust Dale not to go
sneaking off in the middle of the night. So now she has to work these crazy
hours and said that she hates having to have Dale look after Ben. There was
my opening. I asked her that if she were to take the weekend shifts at the
hospital and cut back on the long hours at the store would it be enough to
keep them all fed and housed? She said, "Yes, but that still leaves Ben and
Dale alone Friday and Sat. nights and Dale would sneak out leaving Ben
alone". I told her, "Connie, I know that you don't know me from a hole in
the ground but I would be happy to have Ben stay with me the nights that
you worked at the hospital". I said, "Dale was old enough to take care of
himself and it must be hard on him to suddenly become the new man of the
family". She asked me why I would volunteer my time for someone I don't
even know. I said, "That it is just the way that I was raised, I am able
and willing to help you if you want. Plus, Ben is a nice little boy. All my
nieces and nephews live far away and I miss being around kids, I seem to
have a way with them and they keep me young at heart". I gave her my
business card and told her that I am here if she needs me and to not
hesitate to call. She thanked me for the offer, for watching Ben and for
buying his lunch. And as she said goodbye, said that she would think about
my "generous" offer.

I have a friend who happens to be the hospital Administrator so Monday
morning I called Janet and asked her to make a call to Connie telling her
that they are in need of someone really bad. Janet only asked if it was
important because there are certain union procedures that she was to follow
before hiring anyone from outside the system. I told her that it was real
important and that I would make a deal with her husbands Ad account to more
than make up for it. I asked her to offer Connie the weekend graveyard
shifts for sure and if possible a few day shifts during the week. I got a
call from Connie on Tuesday asking me over for coffee to talk more about my
"generous offer". I guess my friend Janet came through. She said the
hospital offered her the Fri, and Sat. graveyards and 3day shifts per week,
so now she can quit that horrible job. I was so very happy for her.

I arrived at Ben's apartment complex shortly after 7:00pm as instructed and
it was a nice little apartment, far too small for all 3 of them. Here I was
with a huge 5-bedroom house and it was just myself, I started to feel very
guilty of all my good-fortune. An old business partner screwed me out of a
major deal so to make up for it he sold me his old house for about « it's
market value. Ben and Dale were not at home, Connie said they had gone to
the library for a book that Ben needed for school. I imagined that this was
planned so it would give her and I a chance to talk about everything
without any distractions or interruptions. I was right.

She started off with wanting to know more about me and rightfully so. I
told her about my childhood and that it wasn't anything special or was
lacking of anything.  I told her that my family wasn't rich but that I
always had and got what I needed, but not always what I wanted. I told her
that I had made a lot of money investing when I was younger and now I have
my own advertising firm. I said that pretty much runs itself, thanks to the
great people I have hired, thus giving me a lot of free time now to do as I
wish. (as I was telling her this I felt like a bit of a braggart and then
thought I should tell her the major info). "I want to be upfront with you
Connie, I'm gay. I am telling you this not as a warning but so that there
are no misunderstandings later, should you allow me to watch Ben". The
kitchen was silent and I thought to myself; there you go Kagie you blew it.
You didn't have to tell her that and you could have been able to see Ben. I
felt that maybe I should excuse myself and I was just about to get up and
leave when she finally said, "Kagie, thank you for being honest with me, I
really appreciate that in a person. I wont lie to you and say that I don't
have any concerns about that but you seem to be an honest and trustworthy
man. Ben needs a male role model in his life and lord knows he isn't
learning any manners or anything positive from Dale". I interrupted her by
saying, "Dale seems to be a nice young man too Connie. With his fathers
death and now having to look after Ben, he is still trying to adjusting to
all the changes". Connie said, "Kagie, you seem to have everyone's best
interest at heart. If you are still willing to look after Ben I would be
crazy to pass this chance by that would certainly help us all get our lives
back to some normalcy".

I asked Connie if she had any plans as to the where and when I would pick
Ben up and then bring him back home. She said that she would pick him up
from school and keep him at home till it was time for her to go to work at
11:00pm. Then she said that she'd pick him up at my house around noon, and
do the same for Sat. night. I said, "When do you plan on sleeping? I live
in one corner of the city; the hospital is on another and your house
is. well you get the idea. Not to mention the cost of fuel to go back and
forth Connie. How about I pick him up from school on Friday and keep him
with me till Sunday afternoon when you are finished the last shift at the
hospital"?  Connie looked a little shocked at my suggestion and said, "That
would be the most practical way Kagie, but I feel that it would be too much
of an inconvenience to you. Besides we haven't even discussed what you want
for your time". "Connie" I said, "I don't want anything for doing this, I
am just happy to help out" I added that I would like her and Dale to feel
free to call on me for anything. She gave me a hug and asked me, "Why
haven't you been scooped up by someone. You're a nice man, you're very
handsome, you're wealthy, and you were obviously raised with good morals
and manners. So what's the problem"? I laughed and said that it was kind
that she thought that and I guess I just haven't found the right man to
settle down with yet. (Or have I?)

We were finishing our coffee just as the boys returned home from the
library. Ben was kind of freaked to see me in his house. I guess his mother
never mentioned anything about my coming over tonight. Connie gave Ben the
news and asked him what he thought of the idea. He said he loved the
idea. As for Dale it meant that he got his weekends and spare time back and
he said he liked the idea too. Connie told Dale that the first time she
called home from work after midnight and he isn't home, that she will have
to quit the new job and that he will loose the use of the car
completely. She knew what to threaten him with. I remember as a 17 year old
myself that the use of the family car meant everything. Dale promised her
that he wouldn't ruin this for her; he even thanked me for helping him get
a bit of his old life back. I was starting to feel very good about this
arrangement. I said goodnight and I gave a special little squeeze on Bens
shoulder as I walked to the door. He looked up and smiled, I melted.

The rest of the week went by so slow I thought I was going to go nuts, I
must have rearranged Ben's room a million times. Friday finally came and I
took the whole day off to get the last of the supplies I figured that Ben
and I would need for the weekend. I stopped by a video store and got a few
kid movies and some video games I thought he would like. I then stepped
into the adult section to see what they had in the way of "boy movies". I
came across (sorry about the pun) a movie called "The Benny Good Son
Story". (I love the way they do take offs of real movie titles) I looked at
the cover and it looked like a nice flick. With a name like Ben in the
title I thought it might be a good omen, so I hurried home to watch it
before picking Ben up at school. It was a nice movie as far as boy porn
goes I guess. It had a nice story. It wasn't overly graphic and it didn't
portray the boy as a slut or just a piece of meat to fuck or use for there
own pleasure. In fact it was quite a loving story much like the one I hope
to have with my Ben.

I pulled up to Ben's school in my classic'68 Jaguar and the all the older
kids mouths dropped. It is a nice looking car and it goes like snot, a few
of the Jr.  High boy's came over to get a closer look. Ben was just coming
out the front door of the school so I honked for him to come over. He
looked at the car and said, "This is yours"?  I said, "Sure is buddy, you
wanna drive"? He laughed and said, "I couldn't even reach the pedals but I
could steer if I sat on your lap". As wonderful as the offer sounded, I
told him that it wasn't safe to drive like that. I said that when he is
older thought that I would love to teach him to drive. Ben climbed into the
passenger seat and put his seatbelt on. Even though I shouldn't have, I
gave the older boys and Ben a sample of what this car can do. I tore out of
there squealing my tires. From the applause I seen looking in the rear-view
mirror and the look on Ben's face, they all approved.

We took the long way home through the river valley, as there was really no
rush for either of us. Ben said that he was looking forward to this weekend
ever since his mother told him. I told him that I was too and that we were
going to have a great time together. I pulled into my driveway Ben gasped
and said, "Wow! You live here"? I told him that I did and then he asked,
"All by yourself"? I said, "No. Sometimes I have a special friend that
comes and stays with me that I really like a lot". "Who's that", he
said. "You Ben, you are my special friend. I want you to feel at home here
Ben. You can do almost anything you want and ask for whatever you want. I
wont spoil you Ben, but if there is anything I can get you or anything I
can help you with I want you to just ask me and I will do my best. He gave
me a hug around the waist and I ruffled his hair (which I found out he
doesn't like being done). He said, "Hey watch the hair it takes a long time
to get it looking this good". He looked up and said, "I guess it is ok for
you to do it but I hate it when Dale does it. He does it too rough and you
don't".

As we are going upstairs I put my arm around him and said, "Lets see if we
can find you a bedroom to put your gear in. How about this room"? It was
the room I spent hours redoing hoping that he would like it. He said, "Wow!
It's bigger then mine and Dale's bedroom and my moms bedroom put together"!
I said, "It is right across from mine so if you needed anything in the
middle of the night all you have to do is come across the hall.  (It would
have been to easy to type "Cum across the hall" lol) I told him to put his
stuff away and while he got his homework done that I go downstairs to the
kitchen and figure on something for dinner. I already knew what I was going
to do for dinner but I wanted Ben to get a feel of this big place on his
own. I told him that when he is done all of his homework to look around the
house and then come find me in the kitchen.

About a half an hour later I heard Ben coming down the hall. I had bought a
case of silly string and took one can and hid around the corner waiting for
him to enter.  He walked in and looked at the rest of cans of string on the
counter. That's when I leaped out from behind and I started to spray
him. Ben went wild with laughter and then he grabbed a can of string and
started to spray me. We both emptied our cans and I looked around and said,
"How about we order a Pizza for dinner instead because this kitchen is a
mess"? He yelled, "Pizza? Can we really? I love pizza but we don't get to
have it very often". I said that I would order it and clean the kitchen up
while he went and watched TV.  He knew where to go and about 10 min. later
my heart stopped! I had forgotten to take that porno out of the VCR. I
walked down the hall to the TV room and heard a familiar man's voice moan,
"Oh God Benny that was wonderful. Now roll over and let me do that to
you". It was the porno! I peeked into the room and saw Ben sitting real
close to the TV rubbing the front of his jeans. I stepped back into the
hall a ways and cleared my throat so that he knew that I was coming. When I
entered the living room, he was sitting on the couch with a pillow over his
lap and now watching some after-school special on ABC.

I asked him how the show was (it could have meant the movie or the special
on TV, I let him decide). He said that he had seen this special before and
that it wasn't very good. I said, "Well there are a lot of different
channels to choose from Ben, so find something you like". His face was
flushed and he said, "Kagie, I was um, watching the tape that you had in
the VCR before you came in. It looked fun and interesting can I put it back
on"? I told him that it was an adult tape and that maybe he shouldn't watch
any more of it. He said that he liked it and that it had a boy in it, so
what was so bad about it? I explained as best as possible that it was a
porno about boys and men having sex together.  I said that not everyone
liked that kind of movie, or liked the people that liked to watch them. He
said. "If you watched it I would still like you so why don't we watch it
together"? Trying to make reason of what he just said I told him that maybe
after the Pizza we would watch it.

We ate the pizza and Ben asked about the movie so I said that if I let him
watch it, he can't tell anyone about the movie or that I let him watch
it. He agreed and then I said that we would save the movie for later. He
looked a little disappointed till I said, "How about we play some video
games first"? (I kind of wanted Ben and I to watch the movie together but I
felt that things were going to fast) He asked me what games I had and I
told him that I picked up a whole bunch from the store not knowing what to
rent.  He looked at them all and said, " Cool, these were the best games
out there"! Ben beat my ass (there I go again. lol) at all the games as
expected. About 30 min. or so later he asked me about the movie again so I
figured he was determined to see it. I said, "We can't watch a movie
without popcorn. While I go and make the popcorn you go get into your pj's
and I'll meet you back here in 10 min.".

I rewound the tape and he sat right next to me anxiously waiting for me to
hit play. The movie started off slow (not unlike this story) with the man's
story of searching for a boy to love. He finds "Benny" wandering the
streets late at night begging for food. The man invites him to stay the
night at his home, and with the usual "let me clean those dirty clothes for
you" story line. The man soon has Benny in the tub and. As this is
happening on the screen, I notice my little Ben is starting to gently rub
himself through his pj's. He looked up and asked me, "Is your wiener as big
as that mans'"?  I almost laughed at him calling the man's penis a
"wiener", I told him that my "wiener" might be a little longer but not as
thick as his. I was feeling bold so I asked if his was as cute as the boys
in the movie. He said that his was smaller and asked me if I wanted to see
it. I said, "I would love to Ben but I don't think it is right for me
to". He interrupted me and said, "I promise not to tell anyone". I thought
for a minute and decided that if he's willing to show me his little penis
then I'll let him. I said that if he wanted to show it to me then he
could. In less then a second he had his pants around his ankles and his
cute little 3" penis standing straight out in front of him. I told him that
it was a lovely looking penis. Then he asked if he could see mine now. I
couldn't believe it; I undid my zipper and took out my now almost
completely erect 7" cock without any hesitation. His eyes popped and he
said, "Wow! That sure is a nice one Kagie, can I touch it"? "Ok" I said,
and as he reached over to take my hard cock in his hand he took my hand and
placed it on his little penis. I had the warmest feeling come over me as we
started to jack each other off.  Soon I felt him shake and have a dry
orgasm and then he collapsed into my arms. He said that was fun and wanted
to do it again "NOW". I chuckled and told him that it was soon time for bed
and that we have to be at the gym early. He put his tiny arms around my
neck and asked if I would carry him to up to bed. I did, and as I carried
him I let my hands roam a little and explore the tiny curves of his ass. He
said that it felt good and as I was putting him on the bed he asked if I
could rub his back as he fell asleep. I said ok and I took off his pyjama
top and Ben rolled on to his stomach.

I started to rub his neck and shoulders and I slowly made my way down his
slender back.  He moaned and with his hands he reached back and pulled the
bottoms of his pyjamas down to just under his tiny white globes. I wanted
so much to dive in and tongue lick his cute butt, but I thought that it
might freak him out and I did not want to scare him. I just massaged his
perfect little butt and imagined how good it would be to taste him. His
moaning got softer and softer and soon he was out like a light. I planted a
small kiss on his forehead and then I went to the bathroom to finish
jacking off from our first little session. Thinking of Ben and smelling his
boy scent on my hands made me cum a bucket.  I wanted more but knew that
Ben would have to be the one to suggest anything else that we would do
together. Giving him pleasure was satisfying my lustful desires.  Lust that
I am sure will (if it hasn't already) turn into love.

I couldn't sleep so I was going to watch some TV for about and hour or so
before going back upstairs to bed. I accidentally fell asleep on the couch
and woke up at 4:30am and on my way back upstairs I thought to look in on
Ben. Quietly I opened his bedroom door and my heart jumped into my throat,
he wasn't in bed. I looked in the bathroom and he wasn't in there either, I
was getting frantic till I looked in my bedroom.  There he was. He was
scrunched up like a ball on my bed. He didn't have his pyjama top on and he
didn't have any covers on either. I gently slid the blankets and sheet out
from under him and covered him up and slid into bed myself. Ben
instinctively snuggled right next to me for the warmth. I put my arm around
him and I felt love, maybe for the first time in my life.

I awoke to Ben's head resting on my chest and his legs intertwined with
mine. His little penis was stabbing my side and his hand clutching my hard
cock. I was in need of release and I was about to sneak out of bed when Ben
woke up and said, "I hope you aren't mad about me sleeping in here with
you. I always sleep better when there is someone next to me. My dad used to
let me sleep with him when mom was away and I miss that and I miss my
dad". I said that it was ok and that if he wanted to sleep with me when he
is here that he could but he shouldn't tell anyone. He said, "I wont tell
anyone Kagie. I liked the way you were with me last night". I asked Ben
what meant and he said, "I feel safe and loved when I'm with you, just like
when I was with my dad. When I was just waking up I thought that I was (Ben
started to tear up) sleeping with my dad again and it felt nice. I said,
"Ben, as long as you want to be with me you will be safe and you are
loved". He gave me a kiss on the cheek and asked me what the plan for the
day was. I told him after the gym we could do whatever he wants to. He
asked if we could maybe go see his father's grave so that I could meet
him. I said, "I think that would be a real nice idea, do you think your
father would have liked me"? He said that he would have, and added that his
father was a lot like me. He slipped and said that he and him had a secret
too. I was afraid to ask but not as afraid as to what his answer may be. I
didn't ask and he didn't tell, so I let it go for now.

We arrived at the gym and Ben said that he would sit in the gallery and
watch while I swam with the other kids. I wanted to ask him to join us but
I felt that Ben would return to the pool when he thinks he can. I don't
know if I could ever swim in the same pool that one of my parent's had
drowned in either so I won't push the issue. I got into the pool and seen
Ben sitting up at the top bleachers. He was talking to a good-looking boy
that I guessed to be the same age as him. I was happy that he found someone
to occupy his time while I was busy with the rest of the kids.

Noon approached and the pool was now vacant so I went to the locker room to
change. I was bare-naked just as Ben and his new friend walked in. As Ben
introduced me to his friend "Cal" neither of them were looking me in the
eyes. (Well old one eye maybe) As I held my hand out to shake Cal's hand he
said, "My dad said you were a nice man and Ben said you were too. It's nice
to meet you Kagie". I wondered do I know this boys father? I asked him who
his dad was and he told me it was Mike, the manager of the gym.  I finished
changing and kept looking at the two of them looking at me. We then headed
to Mike's office and as we entered Mike said, "I see you have met my son
Cal".  I told him that Ben introduced us and that I would like to take the
four of us out to lunch. Mike said that it was a good idea and suggested
that we just stay and eat at the cafeteria here. I suggested somewhere a
little more fancy, the Crown Plaza Room. Mike said that it was a little
pricey but I told him not to worry about it that my company could write it
off as a business expense.

At the restaurant Mike and I ordered a small pitcher of beer and the boys
ordered cokes.  We were looking at the menus when the waiter was bringing
the drinks. He tripped and the pitcher along with the cokes went flying
onto Mike's lap. The boys burst out laughing and by the look on Mike's face
he was about to blow a nut on the waiter. I said, "Mike the restroom is
just down the hall, if you had to go to the bathroom you should have
asked". That got the boys laughing even harder and it calmed Mike down. The
waiter (Marco) kept apologizing over and over. Mike said it was ok it was
only an accident. As the waiter left he said, "It's was going to be a long
wet trip home in these wet jeans". I told Mike that if they wanted to, that
he and Cal could stop by our house on the way home and I would lend him
some dry pants. (I purposely said OUR house for Bens benefit hoping he
would feel that it was his home as well) Mike picked up on it and asked me
why Ben was staying with me, so I told him of the arrangement I made with
Bens mother. Lunch was great. This was/is my favourite restaurant and the
food is the best.  The service is usually better and drier and I will have
to thank that waiter and leave a bigger tip next time. For what was about
to happen next because of him drenching Mike's lap changed all our lives.

Both boys rode home with me and Mike followed behind in his old truck. As I
pulled into my driveway I looked in the rear-view to see Mike mouth, "Oh my
fucking god". I parked my Jag in front of one of the three garage doors and
Mike pulled in next to me. He opened his door and said, "This is your
house? No wonder you said you could afford your own lunches".  I showed
Mike the house and the boys went up to Ben's room to play video games. In
my bedroom, I got out a pair of sweats for Mike to change into and he
proceeded to change right in front of me. I couldn't help but look and
judging by the size of the bulge in his underwear, Mike was well hung. I
wanted to stop/drop and suck but not knowing if Mike was gay friendly I
didn't. Mike did notice that I was staring at his crotch and boldly asked
if I was gay. I snapped out of my stare and told him that I was and that I
hoped he was ok with it as I see a nice friendship developing between
us. He said that he is fine with gay people and that he has often wondered
what it would be like to have a guy suck his cock and/or to suck one
himself. I was thinking, is he offering or asking me to suck him off? I
thought to play it safe and said, "You'll never know unless you ask".  He
didn't.

We both went into the game room and started to play pool when we heard what
seemed like a herd of cattle coming down the stairs. The boys ran in and
Ben whispered into my ear asking if Cal and Mike could spend the night. I
said that he would have to ask Cal's father and that it was ok with
me. Mike said that he would like to but they had to get back to the farm
soon and take care of the animals. He said that next time he will arrange
for his neighbour to go and feed the animals and then they could maybe stay
a night here. Cal piped up, "Then how about the two of them coming to our
house dad?" Mike said that it was fine with him and Ben was jumping up and
down saying, "Please Kagie". I said ok, and told Mike that I would stop and
get some steaks for us to BBQ for dinner. Mike said not to because he had a
freezer full of beef and that I got lunch so he'll provide dinner.  Ben ran
and grabbed his bag and I packed only a few things I would need for the one
night. I called Connie to tell her where we would be if it were ok with her
that Ben and I leave the city for the night. She said, "Ben would love
it. He hasn't been out into the country for a long time. How did last night
go"?  I told her that we had a blast playing video games and that I was
happy that she allowed me to take care of Ben.  She thanked me again and
said that she would pick Ben up at my house around 2:00pm Sunday.

We all arrive at Mike and Cal's farm and it is a nice little place. It has
a big red barn a small chicken coop and it had beautiful garden that led
down a shaded path to a small stream. The house sat on a hill and over
looked a pond that Cal and Ben were now down by trying to skip some stones
across the water. Mike got us a few beers and we sat on the deck and
watched the boys play. I asked Mike where his wife was and he said that
they were divorced and that she was now living in Ontario with her "boy
toy".  Feeling brave and after what Mike had said to me at my house I
blurted out, "If I was your wife I wouldn't have left you and that snake in
your pants for anything". He chuckled and said that he missed the sex but
not all her bitching and bellyaching. The boys came up the hill and said
that they were going to go feed the chickens and then go to the barn to see
the horses.

Mike and I started the BBQ going and had another beer. It was unusually hot
out for being early summer and Mike sitting in front of the BBQ made it
even hotter.  He off his shirt and my jaw dropped. I couldn't help but
notice that he has one hell of an upper body. I guess it shouldn't have
been such a surprise seeing that he runs a gym but I wasn't ready for all
that. (He has pec's that screamed to be played with) I leered at Mike for
what seemed like an hour and then excused myself. I said that I was going
to the barn to get the boys for dinner. Mike had a devilish grin on his
face that told me that he knew that he was getting me hot and that it
(hopefully) turned him on too.

I opened the barn door and to my surprise I seen Ben and Cal with their
pants around their ankles jacking each other off. They both jumped and hid
behind a bail of hay, and as I closed the door behind me I said, "It's ok
boys it's only me, you don't need to hide".  They both came out from behind
the haystack and they both had their pants back on. Cal said, "You aren't
going to tell my dad are you Kagie"? I said, "Of course not, it is
perfectly normal what you two were doing. Now come on you two it is time
for dinner".  As they filed out ahead of me my imagination went wild
thinking; what is to stop me from turning these two gorgeous and horny boys
back around and having some fun. What stopped me was that I had promised
myself that I would never be the one to instigate any sexual contact with
Ben or any boy for that matter. Teaching/showing Ben the joy of a man/boy
relationship was something I wanted to do slowly. I wanted it to be as
loving and as pleasurable for him as possible, if this was the kind of
relationship that he wanted too.

After dinner we sat inside, Mike and I played cards as the boys played
video games. I took note that there were only 2 bedrooms in Mike's tiny
house and was beginning to wonder about the sleeping arrangements. Later on
Mike sent the boys off to get ready for bed and then I asked Mike where the
blankets were and that I would crash on the overstuffed couch. I said, "It
looks quite comfortable and it." Mike interrupted me and said, "It looks
comfortable but it isn't, believe me! After sleeping on it many times when
the wife and I were having trouble I found out the hard way. If you want to
Kagie, you can stay in my room with me. It's up to you but I'm telling you
that your back will never forgive you for sleeping on that couch".  I
mentally counted to 10 before I said, "Ok".  (Damn, there goes 10 wasted
seconds, lol).

The boys were tucked in and fell asleep very fast, I guess running around
the farm and lord knows what else must have tired them out good. Mike and I
sat up and had another beer or 2 or 3. We talked about the gym and my
business and then of course the topic of sex came up. Mike was feeling
frisky and asked me a whole bunch of questions about anal sex and
blowjobs. I have to admit that his questions and his apparent interest in
gay sex were turning me on. I told Mike, "It's getting late and I have to
have Ben back in the city before 1:00pm so we should head off to bed".

I followed Mike down the dark hall to his bedroom and he turned on a
night-light that gave his room a nice golden glow. I was nervous as hell, I
don't know why though after all Mike was attractive to say the very least
and apparently interested in gay sex. I wasn't sure what (if anything) to
expect, all I knew was I wanted to see Mike in his underwear again. As I
turned towards the bed I was rewarded with a wonderful view of him taking
off the sweats I lent him. He was either semi hard or I didn't judge his
girth accurately the first time. Either way it was a treat to see. Mike
turned the light off and after some light chatter between us he was
asleep. I however laid awake thinking; with little (if any) effort I could
talk Mike into letting me suck his cock. I was just about to fall asleep
and Mike rolled over and was now cuddling in next to me. He put his hand on
my chest and let out a deep sigh. As I fell asleep (with a raging hard-on)
I started to giggle thinking that Mike is in for a surprise if he has
wandering hands.

And wandering hands he had! I woke up with Mike tightly holding my still
hard (and in much need of relief) cock and his head was nestled in under my
chin. I didn't want to wake him so I laid there and gazed at his chiselled
body. About 10 min.  later he started to wake up, so I closed my eyes and
let him find his way out of his situation on his own. He took his time
removing his hand from my cock and I pretended to just wake up and said,
"Good morning Mike". He said good morning and added that it was still early
and that the boys couldn't possibly be up yet because it was way too
quiet. I said, "Then I have time to make us all a big breakfast before we
go back to the city", and I was about to get out of bed. Mike gently held
my arm back and asked if he could talk to me some more about the feelings
that he has been having and what we discussed last night.  I slid back
under the covers and Mike started off by saying that he had a wonderful
dream last-night about the two of us, and that we were having wild and
crazy sex.  I told him that it was probably just because we talked about it
so much last night, plus the fact that we were drinking that it just
slipped into his subconscious and not to worry about it. Mike said, "That's
just it Kagie, I am not worried about it. This morning I woke up holding
your cock and I really wanted to suck it and to have you suck mine and to
explore these new feelings I feel for men. I hope you don't mind me being
so upfront and honest about this". I told him that I wasn't and that there
was something I felt I needed to tell him too.

"Mike" I said, "I do find you very attractive and I would love to show you
what gay sex can be like. There is also another way for two males to show
their love but this involves a man and a boy. I am what is known as a
boylover. Before you get any ideas Mike I must tell you that it doesn't
always mean sex between the two". Mike said, "I have more of an idea of
what you are saying then you may realize Kagie. I have thought about my Cal
many times, I have heard him in his room late at night jacking off. I know
I shouldn't but I have wanted to go in and join him". I said, "That
explains the weird look I got when I mentioned "I have a way with
boy's". We both started to laugh and the next thing I knew Mike put his
hand back on my cock and said, "Are you sure ya don't wanna fool around?
You said once that all I would have to do is ask someone if I wanted to see
what it was like? So now I am asking".

Mike was as nervous and I could feel him shaking a bit I told him to lay
back and relax.  That I was going to give him pleasure he has only dreamed
of. I said, "You are going to have such a cosmic orgasm that you will have
an out of body experience. And when you see how much pleasure is being
given to your body, you'll wanna crawl back in". (I stole that line from
somewhere and have always wanted to use it, my apologises to the author) I
didn't fail all the hype, I played his beautiful 9"cut cock like a delicate
flute and with all his moaning writhing I knew that he was having the best
blowjob in his life.  When I reached under and inserted a well saliva
soaked finger into his ass I thought he was going to cum right then. I
wanted him to remember this BJ for a long time so I slowed my sucking on
his cock to a gentle licking motion and continued to massage his
prostrate. I don't think any proper blowjob should be done without a little
ass play, and I was sure Mike's never has been played with. When I thought
he was at the edge of all he could take, I slipped in another finger and
swallowed his cock to the base and wave after wave of cum ran down my
throat. I released a finger and that gave me yet another shot of cum to
savour. As he was coming back to planet earth I removed the last finger and
slowly slid his cock almost completely out of my mouth. Knowing that the
head would be really sensitive I licked the sides and gently rolled my
tongue over the tip producing the last wave of honey and the tastiest of
male nectar. (In my opinion)

I looked up at Mike and his eyes were glazed over and with a barely audible
whisper he said, "Wow". After he composed himself he said, "I have never
had that big of an orgasm in my life. It was almost like but better then
the first time, ya know". I smiled and said, "That was only a small part of
what gay sex can be like maybe sometime we could explore this a little
further if you like". Mike said, "Well what about now?  Don't you want to
get off too? I know I couldn't do to you what you just did for me, but I am
willing to try". I said, "Next time if you wanted to try this again I would
love to show you more. But I think I hear one of the boys in the bathroom
and we don't want to get caught do we"? Mike said, "Oh I don't know maybe
it could be fun, all four of us".  He winked at me so I wasn't sure if he
meant it or not. I have never thought of myself as an orgy kind of guy.

As we were cooking breakfast the boys went to feed the animals and that
gave Mike and I a chance to talk some more about what we have done. I also
wanted to discuss my involvement with Ben to Mike and get a clearer gauge
as to his views on boylove. What he feels is ok and what his limitations
may be, stuff like that. Mike asked me if I was mad that I didn't get to
sleep with Ben last night. He said, "Had known what I know now, I would've
suggested that Cal sleep with me. I told Mike then I wouldn't have been
able to give him a blowjob. He said, "But you would have been with Ben and
isn't that who you really want"? I said, "Mike, there are many different
ways of showing love for a boy. I have only just met Ben and that all we
have done is jacked each other off and that was as far as Ben has let
things go. My personal view of boylove is that if any sexual contact is to
take place it has to be on the boys terms and with the full knowledge of
what we are doing is illegal and must be kept a secret". Mike said that it
sounds like we are both on the same page. I was happy to hear that.

I told Mike before the boys got back, that if he wanted I would pump Ben
(poor choice of words, lol) for any info that he may pick up. Like if Cal
is interested in anything regarding man/boy or even boy/boy relationships
for that matter. I already knew my answer to boy/boy as I had seen both of
them in the barn. But a promise not to tell is a promise. Mike said that it
sounded like a great idea and asked how I was going to find out this
info. I told him that I wasn't quite sure but for him not to worry about me
touching Cal. I said that if possible it should be the father who shows the
son how to fully enjoy his first real sexual pleasure. Mike said that he
wasn't worried about me touching Cal and he thanked me for being so honest
and understanding with him. Then Mike kissed the back of my neck, I hadn't
noticed but Ben had entered the kitchen. Did Ben see Cal's father kiss me?
I guess I would find out on the drive home if he did. He did!

Ben and I gathered our stuff and thanked them both for a most enjoyable
visit. I said that the next time we get together we do this at our
house. Finally, Ben picked up on what I was saying and said, "You mean your
house". I told him, "No Ben, it is OUR house as long as you want it to be,"
Mike was smiling knowing what I meant by doing what next time and I winked
at him knowingly. Ben and I hadn't driven more then half a mile and he said
to me, "So you and Mike sure had a good time eh"? "What do you mean", I
asked He said, "Cal peeked into his dads room this morning and seen the two
of you naked and having sex. I didn't believe him until I seen Mike kiss
you later on in the kitchen. Do you love Mike now and not me"? I pulled the
car over and told him that what happened between Mike and me has no bearing
on how I feel about him. I told Ben that Mike is a real nice guy and he was
someone I am happy to have met. I said that I don't know if I love Mike
yet. I told Ben that he needn't worry about anything that I still love him
and I always will. He said that he felt better and was smiling again. I
asked Ben what Cal said or thought when he seen us. Ben said, "Cal is
jealous of you. He told me he wants to be with his dad like I was with
mine. He slipped again, this time I was not about to let it go.

I asked Ben straight out if he and his father fooled around like what we
did on Friday. He hesitated and then said, "I made a promise to my dad and
now I've broken it". He started to cry and I pulled him close to me and
said, "I'm sure that your father would have understood and that he wouldn't
be mad at all. In fact he might even be proud of you to tell such a big
secret to someone that you know you can trust. You do trust me don't you
Ben"? "Of course I do Kagie, I think I fell in love with you the first time
I seen you at the gym". I told him I felt the same way and then he said, "I
am jealous of Mike, Cal is jealous of you the whole thing is a mess and all
mixed up". I said, "Then we need to fix it right? Let me talk with Mike and
maybe, just maybe I can arrange something that will keep all of us happy
and smiling". Ben lifted himself up from the seat and kissed me on the
lips. I was pleasantly shocked and surprised when he opened his mouth and
we tongue wrestled till I heard traffic coming down the road. I slowly
removed my mouth from his and I kissed the tip of his nose and said, "I
love you Ben, maybe I shouldn't love you the way that I do, but I do". He
looked up at me and said, "Yeah, my dad would have liked you for sure". My
heart melted and if we weren't already flying down the road, my feet still
wouldn't have touched the ground.

We got back to the house with about 20 min. to spare before his mother
comes to pick him up. I thought that this would be a good time to refresh
the importance of what has happened this weekend to be a secret. He said
that he wouldn't tell anyone not even by mistake like what he did with his
fathers secret. I was convinced that he meant it and dropped the secrecy
speech so that he didn't start to feel like a criminal or bad doing what he
may have planned for us. Connie pulled up to the house and got out and was
totally and completely blown away at the size of my house. Ben went running
out and gave her a big hug and told her that he had a great time and that
he hoped Dale didn't ruin it for him.  She said, "No, Dale didn't ruin it
for you or us. I called several times during the weekend and every time he
was home to answer the phone". She added that she wasn't sure what shape
the house would be in today though, as she let Dale have a few school
friends over Sat. night. She looked around and seen that my house was
absolutely spotless and asked if I had a maid service or something. I told
her that I didn't, that I am just a clean person who can't stand a messy
house. She was very impressed and said that someday she hopes to have a
place like this. I told her that it was a fluke that I got it for the price
I did, I couldn't have afforded it without my ex partner screwing me out of
a deal which was how I got it so cheap. She chuckled and said in a quiet
voice so Ben couldn't hear her, "I could handle getting screwed if it meant
I got a place like this". I laughed and Ben came over and hugged my waist
and said, "See you next week Kagie, I had a lot of fun". They both got in
her old rust bucket of a car and drove off. Ben looked back and waved as I
stood out on the street and watched them disappear down the road. I went
inside my big house and it felt emptier then it ever did. I miss him
already.

I roamed around my house all afternoon and I kept thinking about Mike and
Cal and of course Ben. I was about to call Mike and tell him the good news
about what I had already picked up. That Cal did want to be with him the
same way he did. I was just reaching for the phone and it rang (scared the
shit out of me too), it was Connie. She asked me if Ben had said anything
about his father this weekend. I told her that he talked about him a little
bit and that we had planned on going to his gravesite. But we got side
tracked and we ended up going to Mike's farm instead. Connie said that Ben
has been very quiet about his father's death and she was surprised that he
wanted to go there. He has refused to go there and didn't attend the
funeral. I told her, "Ben wanted to take me there, it was his idea he to
introduce me to his dad. I thought it would have been a nice and healthy
thing to do but if I have interfered with something Connie, just say the
word".  She stopped me and said, "Interfered? Far from!  Getting him to
want to visit his fathers grave is a major breakthrough maybe next time
he'll go". I told her that if she liked that I would bring up the topic of
visiting the grave again, in a casual kind of way. She said it was a good
idea and was thankful for all that I have done for Ben and her in such a
short time. I hung up the phone and was feeling pretty good about myself
till I remembered the reason I was reaching for the phone in the first
place. I was about to call Mike and give him the news that the two of us
could make plans for a weekend of boy-fun. Now I was feeling like I was
abusing Bens mother's trust and respect. I didn't call Mike; instead I
watched a Jerry Lewis movie. Nothing takes my mind off my troubles better
then a good JL movie.

Wed. rolled around and I got to thinking about plans for the upcoming
weekend with Ben. On one hand I wanted time alone with him, and on the
other hand having Mike and Cal here too wouldn't be bad at all. I liked
them both. I just realized that I haven't given much of a description of
either of them, so. Mike is 31 years old (10 years my junior) well
built/hung as I have already described. He has jet-black hair with green
eyes and a tiny but well muscled ass you could crack an egg on. Cal is the
same size and age as Ben (81/2), but with brown hair and piercing green
eyes like his father. Cal's little penis is just as beautiful as Bens from
what fleeting glimpse I was able to see of it that day in the barn.

I wasn't exactly sure about what Mike had planned on or thought we were
going to do with these two. Was it to be an orgy type weekend or if we were
to pair off with our respective mates. I didn't even know what I wanted; it
all comes down to what the boys wanted anyways. I called Mike and told him
about my dilemma and what I had just been thinking. First he asked if I was
positive that both Cal and Ben were cool with this. I told him that Ben was
jealous of him and that Cal was jealous of me. Mike asked how I got that
info and I said, "Cal seen me giving you a blowjob Sunday morning and Ben
seen you kiss me in the kitchen later that morning. I asked Ben how Cal
felt about that and he told Ben that he was jealous. So I would say that
Cal is open to what you feel for him as well. Mike didn't say anything so I
asked him if everything was ok. With a quiet and shaky voice Mike said,
"Kagie, I also have strong feelings towards you and I don't mean just
sexually. This is all pretty new to me and all I know right now is that for
the past 3 days you are all I have been able to think about. I don't know
how else to describe it but to say that I have a crush on you. Corny isn't
it? Sorry if I am freaking you out Kagie, can we start this conversation
over"? I told him I felt the same way about him and that I am a little
relieved that he said it first That is when I decided that I would like
them both to be here this weekend with me and Ben. I said, "Mike, why don't
we all get together this weekend. I think that we all should sit down and
discuss this new and wonderful relationship that is developing between the
four of us". Mike agreed, and I said that we would just see where things go
in regards to the boys. He also said that he would like to discuss with me
our relationship in greater detail. We both said goodbye and I almost said
those 3 words I have said only to family members and to Ben, I Love You. I
wanted to but I didn't.

Friday afternoon I went and picked Ben up from school and the Jr. High boys
insisted on another burn out. So not to disappoint, I looked to see if it
was safe and tore out of the parking lot squealing the tires like
before. Ben was anxious to hear the plans for the weekend. I said that we
forgot to do something last weekend and if he still wanted to we could. He
knew what I was talking about and said that he felt bad all week about
it. He gave me the name of the cemetery and an approximate idea of where
the grave was. I looked it up the addy for the cemetery and it wasn't far
from the gym.

We found the cemetery and we took a long slow walk along the large markers
of headstones that lined the main path down to where his father's grave
was.  Ben said that these people must have been real important or rich to
have such big headstones. I told him that it doesn't matter how big you
headstone is, what matters is that you always remember the person and to
visit them when you can. We arrived at his father's grave and I told Ben to
get a pebble to place on the headstone. I had explained all the reasons why
when he asked about the large headstones we seen along the way. He picked
up a pebble and placed on the headstone and tearfully said, "Hi dad, sorry
I haven't seen you since. you know the accident. I brought a friend I wont
you to meet. His name is Kagie and I know you would have liked him dad. He
is a nice man and is helping Mom and Dale and me too. Dad, I accidentally
told Kagie our secret and he said that you would understand and not be mad
at me. He loves me just like you loved me. He is gentle and kind and
sometimes when I look at him I see you looking back. If you can hear me or
see me dad, I want you to know that Kagie isn't like the men you warned me
about. I want you to know that I will never forget you and I will try to
visit more often.  I will come and stay longer with Mom and Dale next time
they come and visit you. Anyways dad, here is Kagie. I Love you." After I
wiped my eyes of tears and found my voice again I knelt down beside Ben and
said, "Hello Mr. Peterson." Call him Jack that is what all his friends
called him", Ben said. I continued, "I am sure that this is not what you
had planned on for yourself or for Ben. I can only assure you that I have
your family's best interest at heart. Yes, I am a boylover and from what
little Ben has told me I am led to believe that you were as well. I am
hoping that you then understand and believe me when I say that, I will
never hurt Ben or see that he is lacking for anything he needs. I don't
just mean the superficial things like toys and gifts I mean the whole
picture.  Everything from his schooling now till when he goes off to
University and beyond. I intend to see that Ben grows up to be whatever he
wants to be, and to be as happy as he can be. Ben is a beautiful and
wonderful boy who I will cherish and protect with my life. You and Connie
have done a great job in raising Ben and Dale. You may rest peacefully
knowing that Ben and all your family will be safe and loved."

Ben said, "You talked to him longer then I did, and it was so nice the
things you said about Mom and Dale. Mom likes you and so does Dale. I
didn't know what else to say to him". I said that your father would
understand that you might be a little scared or nervous. I'm very thankful
that you brought me here to meet him Ben. We sat in silence for a minute or
two and then headed back to the car. On the way back Ben reached for my
hand and he tightly gripped it. Just then I felt something rushing through
my entire body, like a wave of energy. And then for some unexplainable
reason I started a thumb war with Ben. (I haven't done or even thought of
them in decades) Ben looked at me and said, "How did you know that me and
dad did that all the time"? I had no answer for him. The only thing I could
think of was that the wave of energy and the unexplainable thumb war must
have been Ben's father's spirit.

We made our way to the gym and Ben asked what we were stopping here for and
I said it is part of the surprise. I had Ben wait in the car and I went in
to get Mike and Cal. Mike said that he was going to be a while longer, so
why don't I take Cal with me now and that he will follow along shortly. I
said that would be ok and. Mike cut me off and said, "Don't even think of
saying that you promise to not do anything Kagie, we are beyond having any
doubts about each others character aren't we"? I said that he was right and
I left his office knowing that Mike is a true and trusting friend. I heard
Mike page Cal over the intercom, "Cal your driver is here. Please meet him
at the main entrance". Cal came running from around the corner and ran
right into me. "Sorry Kagie, I hope I didn't hurt you". I looked down at
Cal and pretended that he had hurt my knee and as I tossed him the keys I
told him that he would have to drive. He knew I was faking and ran away
with the keys to the car screaming for Ben to unlock the door. I slowly
followed Cal and walked over to the drivers' door where was Cal sitting. I
knocked on the window and Cal rolled it down maybe an inch. I said,
"Driver's Licence/Registration and Insurance please". They both laughed and
Cal said, "How fast was I going officer"? I said, "Not fast enough and with
my spare key I opened the door and tickled the shit out of him". I couldn't
leave Ben out so I said to him, "An accessory to the crime eh? I think the
punishment for that should be, hmm let me think." Cal said, "His punishment
should be that he has to sit in the back on the way home". I asked Ben what
he thought and said as long as he didn't get tickled it is fine with
him. Ben jumped into the backseat and said, "Light 'em up like you did at
school today dad". Realising what he had just said Ben started to
apologise. I said, "It's ok don't to worry about it "Frank". Cal said, "
Frank?  Who in the heck is Frank"? I said, "That little monkey sitting in
the backseat. Your name is Frank isn't it"? I was looking at him through
the rear-view mirror and I needed to see him smile so that I knew that he
was ok. I said, "Do I have to come back there and spank the little monkey
for an answer"? Hoping that they would both understand the reference, and
they did. Ben and Cal were once again laughing and smiling. Making monkey
sounds and faces at each other the whole way home.

I pulled the car into the garage and Ben saw that I had another car stored
there under covers. It was next to my 4X4 that I only use in the winter
months. Ben asked what it was and I said that it was a secret and that I
would tell him later. Cal asked me what it was too and I asked him if he
could keep a secret. He said that he could so I told him. After I told Cal
about the car, both of them ran off upstairs to Ben's room. I wonder if Cal
will keep the secret. I hope so. It was a gift I bought the other day for
Connie. It was a used car, but still a nicer one than the one she had. I
wrote up a real good Ad for a local car dealer, it only took me about 2
hours to come up with the idea and about an hour for my art department to
draw it all up. (I couldn't draw a straight line with a ruler) In return he
gave me this car as part of the agreement. Ok, along with $30,000 for
myself. It's a 2001 Neon. Not a classic like my Jaguar but I knew I was
going to have a hard time getting her to accept this yet alone what I
really wanted to get her. Maybe I was overdoing it and she might see this
gift as a sign of some guilt. Maybe it was, but she did need a newer car
and I will just explain to her that it is simply a small gift. Even though
it may look like a big expensive gift in comparison it really only cost me
a very small fraction of 2 hours work.  Yeah, I think that should do it.

Mike soon pulled up into the driveway and parked his truck outside the
garage. He lifted 2 bags from the box and headed towards the house. I
yelled up for the boys to come downstairs quick, and they ran down to see
what I wanted. I handed them each a can of silly string and told then to
hide around the corner and when Mike comes in to let him have it. Mike rang
the bell and I yelled for him to come in. Mike got maybe 3 - 4 steps inside
and the boys let him have it. Mike screamed and said, "Attack and unarmed
man will you"? He took the can of silly string I left sitting on a side
table in the entrance and proceeded to get them both back. Then he turned
on me and then they all were ganging up on me and I was out of string. I
said, " I surrender you win". The boys emptied the rest of their cans on
Mike and Mike emptied his on them. I went and got a camera and took a
picture of the 3 of them. They were covered from head to toe with different
colours of string. It was a picture I will keep with me forever, something
to symbolizing our true love and friendship for each other. The boys went
to go watch TV leaving Mike and I standing alone looking at each other
wondering who was going to make the first move on who.

When we got upstairs Mike asked me where he should put his and Cal's
bags. I said that it might be a good idea to leave them in the upstairs
hall with Ben's bag.  (I had asked Ben on the way to the gym to leave his
bag in the hall when we got home, now he would understand why I asked him
to) I told Mike that we would just see what happens tonight if anything,
and then let the boys decide where to put the bags. I thought it was a good
idea and Mike thought so too. He asked when we were going to have our talk
and I said anytime was ok with me.

I pulled Mike into a spare bedroom and asked him if I could kiss him. He
said that I didn't need to ask, to just do it. I said, "I have really
strong feelings for you too Mike, and I have wanted to tear your shirt off
the second you opened the door. He took me and held me against the wall and
started to deep kiss me. (not rough, but like I knew that he was a man) His
tongue was probing every inch of the inside of my mouth. He was trying to
be calm and cool about it but I could feel him trembling a little and I
knew that he was going to be nervous about this. I slowly stopped kissing
him and removed my tongue that was assaulting his with great vigour. I
looked into his eyes and said, "No matter what happens here this weekend
Mike, I want to spend some time like this with you.  Preferably with you
naked and me ravaging your beautiful hard body". Mike said, "It's my turn
to try and give you the some pleasure. I want you Kagie, and I want
us". That being the nicest thing any adult male has ever said to me I
started to blush. Mike asked if he had said something wrong and I on the
contrary. We continued to exchange spit till we heard the boys coming up
the stairs. Mike said, "Let them see us kissing and see what they say". I
agreed.

They looked into the room and Ben said, "See Cal, I told you they would be
starting the fun without us". Mike stopped kissing me and asked Cal what he
thought about his old man kissing another man. Cal said, "I think it is
cool Dad, Kagie is a nice man and if he makes you happy then I am happy for
you". Ben said, "Is that all that makes you happy Cal"? I swear I didn't
prompt Ben to say that, he took upon himself to ask that question.  Mike
walked over to Cal and got down so he was face to face with him and said,
"It's ok to tell me Cal, I think we are thinking about the same thing and I
want you to know that all you have to do is ask". Cal gave his father a hug
and tearfully said, "I love you dad, and I didn't think that I'd ever be
able to tell you that I wanted to have sex with you too".  Mike held Cal
close and said that it was ok, and that they had their two new friends
Kagie and Ben to thank for all this. Cal came over and gave me a big hug
and then he kissed Ben on the lips and said, "How long have you known this
Ben? Boy, you sure can keep a secret". Ben said, "I only just figured it
out. I had some idea something was up when Kagie asked me to leave my bag
in the hall". He said that he still wasn't completely sure why he had to
leave his bag there. I told them that I wanted Cal and him to decide where
they slept and with who (if anyone) they slept with tonight. Cal asked, "Is
it really our choice? Do we have to decide now"? I said, "Yes it is your
choice", and "No you both don't have to decide now. It's still early and we
hadn't even ordered the pizza yet. The both of them yelled, "PIZZA"!!! I
said I would go and order it when Mike said, "No pizza until all the
homework is done". They both looked to me as the soft touch but I said,
"You heard the man, get moving! We may come back up to check on you, so no
fooling around". They both said in unison, "That goes for you two too". And
then they started laughing at saying "two too". I made a motion as if I was
going to chase them and they ran to Ben's room and slammed the door. As
they did a picture fell off the hallway wall and made a very loud
crash. The boys looked out and seen that it was the huge old picture that
hung on that wall. It had fallen and the glass had shattered into a million
pieces. Mike and I went running to them when we heard the crash. They stood
in the hall looking at all the broken glass and looking very afraid. They
said over and over how sorry they were and that they didn't mean for it to
fall. I looked at what fell and started to laugh. I said, "G's I thought
you boys broke something nice. I never liked that picture and it came with
the house so don't shed another tear over it ok"? Mike looked at me and
said, "Are you sure Kagie? I don't know what it might cost but I would like
to have it repaired or replaced".  I said that I was sure that I didn't
care for the picture and now I have room for what I really wanted to put
there. They all asked me what it was and I said that I wasn't going to tell
them they would have to wait and see.

I said in a rough voice, "Now enough stalling on your homework! You both
have learned not to slam doors now hit the books, ya little monkeys". They
both laughed and Ben said, "Or what, are you going to spank your little
monkey's"? Mike nudged me and said, "See you are getting to sound like a
parent already. You tell them to do something and they talk back". They
went back into the bedroom and made a big point out of saying how quietly
they closed the door.

Mike and I went back downstairs to relax and I had a few questions I wanted
to ask him about Ben's father. I told Mike about Ben and I going to the
gravesite today and what both Ben and myself said. Anything that drew a
conclusion that his father was like Mike and me, I left out. I was sure I
could trust Mike with Ben's father's secret but it wasn't up to me to
decide that.  Mike said that he knew very little about Jack Peterson
personally, only that he spoke to him a few times at the gym. I asked Mike
if there was anything about the accident that might help me help Ben deal
with it.  Mike said, "You know that Ben was there when it happened don't
you"? I said, "No. I didn't know that in fact I know very little details
about it. Both Connie and Ben haven't said much about it at all and I was
afraid to ask". Mike continued, "Ben was at the shallow end when it
happened and Jack was at the deep end.  Jack grabbed his heart and he sank
real fast.  I went in after him as soon as I seen there was trouble. Then I
seen Ben swimming over and I screamed at him to get of the pool and to go
get help. I didn't mean to sound so gruff and when he came back from
calling 911, Jack was already gone. There was nothing I could do to save
him Kagie. I didn't think he should see and remember his father like that.
His face was all contorted and blue I didn't think to cover him. So I again
yelled at Ben to get out. I have wanted many times to talk to Ben about
this and say how sorry I was. About the death of his father and the way I
yelled at him but I just couldn't find the words or the strength. I wanted
to say something the day I seen you two in the cafeteria and again at the
farm. I was too afraid to bring up sad times and hurt him all over
again". At this point Mike was in tears (so was I) and had his head resting
on my shoulder. A voice came from the door, "You never had to Mike, I know
you did the best you could for my dad, and I have wanted to say thank you
for trying to save him". He came over and gave Mike a hug and I felt so
proud of him. Ben showed some of his true character by giving Mike a much
needed "I don't blame you" type release, and he was talking about it.
Something I knew I had to share with his mother.

Another voice came from the door, "Can't I leave you guys alone for one
minute without you falling into each others arms? G's the pizza isn't even
here yet". Cal gave the room a much need shot of humour, and we all
lightened up. Cal said that they were both done all their homework and now
it was Pizza time. I said, "Ok Cal, how about you and me go order the pizza
while Ben and your dad decide on what movie to watch tonight". Just as I
said that, I knew what Ben was going to say. And he did. "How about that
movie you and I watched the first weekend I stayed here Kagie"? I said no,
and suggested that he pick something we all haven't seen before. Later on,
to my surprise he chose "The Nutty Professor" the original version. How did
Ben know that I loved Jerry Lewis movies?  I thought the one with Eddy
Murphy was right next to it, he could've chosen that version.  Hmmm..

I had wanted some time alone with Cal and talk to him privately about him
seeing his father kissing me and seeing the two of us have sex last
Sunday. I asked him if he was really happy for his father or if he said
that just to make his father happy.  He said that he was truly happy for
his dad. And that he knew that his father liked me a lot. I had to know
what Mike might have said or done for Cal to say that. So I asked.

Cal told me, "On Wed. night after you talked to my dad on the phone, some
of the neighbouring farmers over at over to our house for a meeting of some
kind.  One of them kept saying the word "fag this and fag that" so dad told
the guy to either stop using that word in his house or to leave. The man
got up and was leaving but stopped and said that he always thought that my
dad was a fag. Then dad grabbed a hold of the guy's arm and said, " I asked
you not to use that word again and if I am a "fag" it's none of your
fucking business!!! Now get out of my fucking house"!!! The guy spit in
dad's face and said, "I bet your fucking your own son you sick
bastard". Then BAMM, dad nailed the guy right between the eyes. The rest of
them ran for the backdoor and drove off. As the man got up from the floor
to leave dad told him that, "My boyfriend is prettier then your wife and
gives better head". The man left and dad went into his room and closed his
door. I wanted to go see him but I wasn't supposed to hear or see any of
that, just like I wasn't supposed to see the two of you having sex last
week. But I knew he had to be talking about you, Kagie. I thanked Cal for
telling me all this and for keeping the car a secret from Ben.  (Ben would
have said something and I think I would have been able to tell if he knew)
Cal said he knows that he shouldn't go listening in and spying on his dad
but at least now he knows he will no longer have too, to get his father's
attention. (Another "too to", lol)

Cal said he had another bit of news but he wasn't sure if it was something
that he could/should tell me. I told him that things like are difficult to
say what to do. I suggested that he not say anything now and give it a
second thought. If he still wasn't sure what to do then to go to the person
who told him and ask them what to do. He said, "Kagie, you sure are smart
its no wonder Ben likes you so much, and I like you too". I told him I
thought he was pretty cool for a country boy and I was very proud of him
telling his father about his feelings towards him. He said that he has
already decided that he wants to sleep with is dad tonight and hoped that I
wasn't mad or hurt that he didn't choose me.  I tried to hide my giggle
when I told him, "I didn't think I was even option". The way I had it
figured is that it would work out to either be the boys together leaving me
and Mike to explore our relationship further, or Cal and Mike together
leaving Ben and I to resume our own new found love and respect for each
other. Cal continued to say, "So you aren't mad about not sleeping with my
dad tonight either"? I told him that I wasn't and that we all will have a
long talk tonight about this. I said, "Your father and I will explain a
little better the different kinds of love we all share for each other, and
to who we share that love with". "That sounds like good advise to me son",
came Mike's voice from the doorway. I said, "Damn! All of you need to learn
to start making some noise when you walk into a room. Both of the boys have
walked into a room today and overheard a private conversation and now you
have". They weren't sure by my tone if I was serious or mad or joking with
them. Of course I was joking and decided to let them off the hook and
pretended to cry and say, "I walk into a room and nobody is talking about
me and I'm starting to feel left out". They both knew I was faking and
said, "Ah Kagie, you poor thing", and then they both came over and gave me
a big hug.

I looked for Ben and asked Mike where he was and Mike said, "Ben wanted to
call his mother, so I said it was ok. I hope it was, Kagie". I said of
course it was, and I asked Mike if anything was wrong or if he knew why he
wanted to call his mother all of a sudden? Mike said, "Relax Kagie,
everything is just fine. Ben and I had a nice talk about what happened that
day at the pool. Ben said he just felt like calling her to tell her that he
loved her and to tell her that you and he went to the gravesite today". Now
my heart was beating normally again. Mike knew I was dying to hear what Ben
was saying to his mother and as I stepped nearer and nearer to the hall,
Mike jokingly reminded me to make some noise. I chuckled and continued to
inch my way towards the hall.  He stopped me in my tracks by saying,
"Kagie, that little boy truly loves you. Ben asked me what I thought you
would say if he asked you if he could call you dad". Cal punched Mike in
the shoulder and said, "Dad, you weren't supposed to say anything till you
asked Ben if you could. That is what I was going to tell you if Ben said I
could". I said, "Cal, both you and your dad did the right thing". It is
something I should know and I just know that Ben meant for you to both say
something to me about it".

"Well is it ok.dad"? I turned and Ben was standing right behind me. I
picked him up and gave him a big hug and a kiss and told him that he could
call me anything he wanted.  If he wanted to call me dad sometimes, and at
other times Kagie that was ok too.

I told all 3 of them that they were all getting slippers with bells on them
for Xmas this year and we all broke into laughter. If there was record for
the most love felt in a room we broke it.

***

If you have made it this far thanks for reading my story. I invite any
criticism for my first attempt of writing a boylove story. The next
instalments will (I hope) be more to your likings, for those of you that
will write me and ask where the sex was. No duplication of this story is
allowed without the written consent of the author.