Date: Wed, 27 Jul 2005 19:18:06 -0700 (PDT)
From: Thomas Gaige <togaige@yahoo.com>
Subject: Brothers, Friends, & Lovers - Chapter 23

DISCLAIMER:  The following story is FICTIONAL.  It contains descriptions
of sexual  activities between men, teenage boys, and between men and
teenage boys.  If you are not over 18 years of age, or if you find this
type of story offensive, or viewing this material is illegal where you
are, then please DO NOT READ IT!  If you choose to read it, then - I hope
you enjoy it!

                            Brothers, Friends, & Lovers

                                     Chapter 23

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"Hey!  It's really hot!  They've got open swim over at the high school
pool - only costs a couple bucks to get in.  Feel like going for a swim?
I'll treat!" Jason said to Bobby, after they'd exchanged the usual
pleasantries.

"Sure!" Bobby replied, grinning to himself, as his mind leapt immediately
to the locker room, where he knew they'd both have to change in front of
each other.

"I can't believe I'm finally gonna get to see Jason naked!" he thought to
himself, completely forgetting he was on the phone with Jason.

"So?" Jason asked.

"Huh?" Bobby asked, as he suddenly realized Jason had been talking, and
must've asked him a question he missed.

"Wake up!  I asked you if you wanted me to just come get you right now,
or if you needed to wait a while," Jason said.

"Um... right now's fine!" Bobby said, as he felt his heart begin to race,
and his dick beginning to fill with blood.

"'K.  See you in a few then," Jason said.

"'K.  Bye," Bobby said.

Bobby couldn't stop smiling to himself, as he got his swim trunks and
beach towel down off the shelf in his closet.  He and Jason had spent a
lot of time together the past few weeks, and this was the first time they
were going to do something where they would be getting a chance to see
each other undressed.  It was something he'd been waiting for, almost
from the moment he'd met Jason!

When Bobby had first met Jason, it was right after Luke had died, and he
was still devastated by it.  He'd secretly been in love with Luke, but
had never gotten to telling him.  In fact, nobody knew this.

Bobby didn't have any friends, because at school he was picked on all the
time.  All the bullies called him a 'fairy' or a 'faggot' all the time.
Although Bobby had figured out over the intervening years since he'd
passed through puberty, that he was indeed gay, he really didn't
understand how anyone else could know.  He didn't think he acted overtly
queer or anything.  Anyway, anyone else who didn't pick on him, who he
might've had a chance to be friends with avoided him, so as not to draw
the bullies attention, and be branded a "Homo" as well.  At home, there
were no other boys in the neighborhood to play with, and not even any
girls his own age either.  So, when Jason had started coming around after
the funeral, like Luke used to do sometimes, Bobby was happy to have
someone - anyone, to talk to and hang around with.

Even though Bobby was still very grief stricken about losing Luke, he
hadn't failed to notice that Jason was really good looking, just like
Luke had been, only Jason was a little taller, and of course, slightly
older looking.  And most importantly - he had a GREAT body!  Bobby
couldn't help but stare as his crotch whenever Jason wasn't looking,
because Jason usually wore tight jeans and his genitals always bulged
obviously!  Whenever Bobby looked at Jason, he quickly developed a boner!

Almost from the start of their friendship, Bobby had been hoping that
Jason would do something with him that would require them getting naked
together.  He wanted to see if Jason looked as sexy nude, as he did
clothed.  He was sure he would!

As Bobby sat on the edge of his bed, daydreaming about he and Jason being
in the locker room together, both naked, as they pulled their swim trunks
on, his penis, which was now fully erect, flexed a few times.

"Fuck!" Bobby thought, suddenly horror struck.  "I hope I don't get a
hardon in front of him!"

Instantly he began to worry about that, and quickly he began to think
about other things, hoping to get his mind off sex.  It didn't help
though.  Try as he did, his dick remained stiff as a board!

"Damn!"  Bobby thought, wondering how he'd keep it hidden from Jason,
especially once they had their swim suits on.

A moment later though, he grinned to himself, as he figured out how to
make his boner disappear - at least for a while.  He stood up and
unbuckled his belt, opened his jeans and shoved them and his underwear
down to his ankles.  When he stood back up, his 6-1/2" piece of meat
stuck straight out in front of him, dancing slightly in time with the
beat of his heart. Smiling, Bobby pulled his T-shirt up, laid back down
on his bed, wrapped his right hand around his shaft and began to jerk
off.

Bobby had only managed to give himself a few quick strokes though, when
the doorbell rang.

"Fuck!" Bobby exclaimed, both disappointed that he wouldn't have time to
finish, and worrying anew that Jason would catch him with a hardon as
they changed in a few minutes at the school.

Grumbling, Bobby got up and quickly pulled his underwear and jeans back
up.  His dick was so hard that he wasn't able to bend it in half and fold
it over in front of his balls though.

"Damn!" he cried, scowling, as he shoved his stiff penis sideways to the
left instead.

As he zipped his pants and buckled his belt, Bobby realized that the
outline of his erection was very obvious yet.  He hoped that Jason
wouldn't notice.
The doorbell rang again.

"COMING!" he hollered, as he ran down the stairs.  He began to blush, as
he felt sure Jason would notice his bulge.

"You OK?" Jason asked, as breathing a little heavily and red-faced, Bobby
pulled the front door open to let him in.

"Uh... yeah!" Bobby said, turning redder still.

Jason looked closely at him, then looked him up and down.  A small
knowing smile crossed his face when he saw the outline of Bobby's hardon
pressing against the inside of his jeans.

Chuckling, Jason looked up at Bobby and said, "Sorry I interrupted!"

Poor Bobby turned scarlet as he realized that Jason had figured out what
he'd just been about to do.

"Don't sweat it!  Did you get to finish though?" Jason asked.

Bobby went positively maroon.

"Uh....  I-I'm g-good!" he stammered, looking down at the floor.

Jason chuckled, realizing he'd thoroughly embarrassed the boy.

"Well... if you're sure..." he said.  Then, he reached over and mussed
Bobby's hair and said, "So, you're ready to go then?  I mean - I'll wait
if you wanta go finish!"

"I'm ready," bobby mumbled, quickly, unable to look at Jason.

"OK, Let's go then," Jason said with a slight chuckle, and he walked back
out the front door, onto the porch.

Bobby felt the heat begin to fade from his face, as soon as he realized
Jason wasn't going to pursue the issue of his sexual frustration any
further.

A minute later, the two were in Jason's car, riding toward the high
school, and Jason, realizing Bobby had been extremely embarrassed, had
started telling Bobby about a movie he'd watched the night before.  Bobby
was very relieved to have something normal to talk about!

A few minutes later, Jason eased his car into a parking space in the high
school parking lot.  Bobby was his usual self again, and he was happy to
realize that his penis had returned to its flacid state.  Quickly, he
tried to think of something else, so it wouldn't begin to harden again.

Jason paid at the door on the way in, and they headed into the locker
room.  Despite trying to think of something else, Bobby's heart was
pounding furiously, and all he could think about was how in a couple
moments he would finally get to look at Jason's naked body.

The two entered the locker room.  Automatically, Jason headed for the
last bay of lockers in the back of the room.  Bobby followed.  When they
got there, they found that most of them were empty.

"Perfect!  This used to be my locker when I was in school!" Jason said,
grinning, as the nostalgia of the moment swept over him.

"Cool!  Mine's the one right here!" Bobby said, pointing to one just a
few away from Jason's.

They grinned at each other.

Bobby set his swim suit and towel down and quickly began to strip, hoping
to be finished before his dick was sticking out like a flag pole again.
He also hoped to be done in time to be able to pay closer attention to
Jason while he was naked.  Bobby's heart was racing with anticipation at
finally seeing Jason's dick.  To his chagrin, he felt his cock beginning
to grow rapidly.  Quickly he sat down and ripped his sneakers and socks
off, then stood up and pushed his jeans and underwear down.  Jason was
moving slower.  He was just sitting down to take his sneakers and socks
off.

"You didn't wear your suit under your clothes?" Jason asked, as he stood
up and pulled his jeans down, exposing his already swimsuit clad body.

"WHAT?" Bobby, practically cried out, quickly standing up completely
naked, after having just bent over to pull his jeans and underwear off
over his feet.

Bobby felt completely deflated.  He wasn't going to see Jason naked after
all!  And on top of it, he was completely naked in front of Jason.

Jason didn't notice the disappointed look that flashed across Bobby's
face, as he realized his opportunity to see Jason naked had been dashed
by the fact that Jason was already wearing his swim suit.  He was too
busy taking a good look at Bobby's semi-erection, which he was seeing for
the first time.

"Damn! He's HOT!" Jason thought to himself, and he felt his own dick
starting to bone up too.

All Jason wanted to do at that moment was to step over to Bobby, squat
down and swallow his dick!

Bobby was so upset that he hadn't thought Jason might come ready to swim,
that he never noticed the way Jason was staring at his genitals.

After a moment, Jason realized he'd been looking at Bobby's body for too
long, and forced himself to look up at Bobby's face.

Chuckling, Jason said, "I always put my suit on under my pants when I
come.  Then I only have to change once in front of everyone!"

"Oh!" Bobby said, awkwardly, hoping that Jason hadn't heard the
disappointment in his voice.  "I-I never thought to do that!"

"Well... now you know to do it!" Jason said.  "Course, we'll still have
to change after we swim anyway, but... it works for the initial undress!"

"...We'll still have to change after we swim anyway..." Bobby repeated in
his mind, suddenly brightening again, as he realized Jason intended to
change after they swam.  "Hope we don't dally too long in the pool!" he
thought.

Jason turned and started putting his clothes in his locker then, and
Bobby quickly suited up, and stowed his own clothes in his locker.  Then
the two headed out to the pool.

                 *                      *                      *

Jason and Bobby had a good time swimming together, although when they
first walked out to the pool, there was a small group of bullies there,
who Bobby knew from school.  They were all a year ahead of Bobby.  If
Bobby had been alone, he was sure they'd have harrassed him, like they
always did during the school year.  This day, they left him alone though,
and he noticed that they were looking curiously at Jason, as if wondering
what the connection between him and Bobby was.  Bobby didn't think too
long about it, because they all left about 20 minutes after he and Jason
entered the pool.  After they left, Bobby felt much more comfortable.  He
and Jason had a fun time.  They swam laps together, racing each other.
They spent some time jumping off the diving board, seeing who could make
a bigger splash as they cannon balled into the water.  And, they
generally horsed around with each other, as much as was permissable in a
public pool.

Eventually, almost two hours later, when Bobby was beginning to wonder if
Jason wanted to spend all day at the pool, Jason announced, "I don't know
about you, but I'm shriveling up into a raisin!  The water's starting to
feel cold.  I've definitely got "shrinkage" because of it!  Christ - my
dick's probably only the size of a hemorrhoid now!  Besides I'm
starving!  Wanta ditch this place and go get some grub?"

Bobby laughed at Jason's imagined description of his penis.  Instantly he
felt his own penis start to spring to life, and his heart rate go up
again, as he thought how much he'd like to help Jason warm it up again!

Quickly he gave Jason a nervous grin and said "Sure!"

They got out of the pool and dried off, then Bobby followed Jason to the
locker room.

As they turned into their bay of lockers, Jason's eyes got bigger for a
split second when he saw a couple of well-hung guys who looked to be
about 18 or so, standing in the back of the aisle completely naked, both
about to pull on their swim trunks.  Immediately he felt his dick spring
to life, as his eyes locked on their dicks.  Both had to be at least 8"
long - soft.  He couldn't help but wish they'd had hardons, as he
wondered how big they could get.

One of the boys looked up at them as they entered the bay of lockers, so
Jason abruptly turned around.  As he did, he caught a glimpse of Bobby
ogling the two boys as well.  Bobby quickly looked away, back to Jason,
when he saw the other boy look up.  When Bobby saw that Jason had seen
him looking at the other boys, he blushed suddenly and profusely.  Jason
flashed him a shit-eating grin, and winked at him, then turned to open
his locker.  Bobby felt his face flush instantly.  He too turne to his
locker.

The other two boys quickly pulled on their swim trunks, then left.  Jason
and Bobby were alone again.

"They were pretty nicely hung!  Weren't they?" Jason said, looking at
Bobby, and smirking when Bobby looked up and turned redder still.

Bobby didn't say anything, but looked away, embarrassed.

"You don't have to be embarrassed for checking them out," Jason said,
chuckling softly.  "All guys check each other out.  Obviously, I was
checking them out too!"

Bobby looked up at Jason, surprised.

"Well... it's natural.  Guys want to know how they compare to other
guys.  We all look.  We just try to be discrete, that's all," Jason said,
smiling.

Bobby smiled then too.

Still facing Bobby, Jason hooked his thumbs in the waistband of his
trunks and pushed downward, bending forward as his they slid down his
legs toward the floor.  Quickly he stepped out of them, and straightened
up, so he was directly facing Bobby, fully naked.

"Go ahead and take a good look," Jason said, grinning at Bobby, with a
friendly, but slightly shy look.  "Nobody's around, and I know you're
curious!"

Bobby, who had purposely turned away, so as not to cause Jason to be
suspicious that he wanted to look at him naked, twisted his head and
looked up at Jason's face.  Bobby wasn't sure what to do.  He didn't know
if Jason was mocking him, or not.  He certainly did want to take a look
at him though.  A second or two went by, then Jason, who was still
grinning, winked at him again and told him to hurry up if he wanted a
look.

Realizing this was his chance and Jason didn't care, Bobby stopped
worrying and quickly looked down at Jason's crotch.  His eyes bugged
slightly, and he stifled a small gasp.

"You're even bigger than those guys were!" Bobby said, in a soft,
awestruck voice.

Jason snickered then, and turned toward his locker.  "That's cause I got
a bit of a semi going!  Let's get dressed now."

Bobby was still looking at Jason though, thinking what a gorgeous ass he
had.  He would've loved to reach out and feel it, or grasp Jason's penis,
but of course he couldn't do that.

As Jason started to dry himself to get dressed, Bobby realized he had
been looking at him too long, and hurried to get his locker open.  A
moment later, he shoved his swim trunks down, hoping that nobody would
notice that he was sporting a semi-erection himself.  As he dried
himself, he turned toward Jason, who'd just sat down to put on his socks
and shoes, and was staring right at him.  In fact, Jason's face was
almost level with Bobby's genitals.

Jason chuckled and said, "You're pretty well hung yourself!"

Bobby felt his face heat up instantly, but he couldn't help smiling
shyly.  He couldn't believe Jason thought he was hung!

Jason's gaze lingered for a moment on Bobby's body, looking him up and
down.

"Damn!  He's really cute!" Jason thought, as he felt his semi-hardon flex
against the inside of his jeans.

After he'd looked Bobby over for as long as he dared, lest Bobby begin to
wonder, Jason looked down and busied himself with his shoelaces.  Bobby
quickly finished dressing then too.  A few minutes later, they were both
ready to go.  They paused together for a moment in front of the mirror
over the sinks, each running a comb through their wet hair, then they
left.

                       *                      *                       *

Jason took Bobby to an icecream stand that served hot dogs and fries as
well as various frozen treats.  They each ordered two hot dogs and an
order of fries, and sodas.  Jason told Bobby to wait to order his
icecream till after they'd eaten, so it didn't melt.

As they sat filling their empty stomachs, Jason could see that Bobby was
deep in thought about something.  In fact, he'd noticed that Bobby had
been rather quiet ever since they'd left the high school.

"What's on your mind?" he asked, looking across the table at Bobby.

"Huh?" Bobby asked, suddenly looking up at Jason, and blushing.

Bobby had been replaying in his mind the scene back at the locker room,
where first they'd seen the two older teenagers naked, and then he'd
finally gotten to see Jason naked.  All three of the older boys had been
huge!  Much bigger than he was himself.  He'd been wondering if when he
was older, he would have a bigger dick like they did too.

"What're you thinking about?" Jason asked again.

Bobby blushed deeper, and looked back down at his food.

"Nothing really," He said in an unconvincing way, hoping Jason would
believe him, and just drop it.

Under Jason's continued scrutiny, Bobby blushed even more.

"I know what you're thinking about," Jason said teasingly.  "You're
thinking about those two guys with the big dicks we saw back at the
locker room!"

Dumbfounded, Bobby's mouth dropped open, his eyes swung back up to look
at Jason, and his face flushed deeper still.

"Huh?" he asked in a feeble, strangled voice.  He couldn't believe Jason
knew what he was thinking about.

As Jason looked at Bobby, he realized he must've inadvertently guessed
correctly.

Chuckling, Jason said in a low, but benevolently friendly tone, "Well...
I was joking, but I get the impression from your reaction that that's
exactly what you were thinking about!  It's OK.  Really."

Bobby didn't know what to say, so he looked down at his hot dog with an
extremely embarrassed look on his face.

"I told you before, it's OK to check other guys out.  And that we're all
curious.  So... it's not wrong to think about it too." Jason said.

Bobby still looked embarrassed.  He didn't know how to respond.  He could
tell Jason was looking at him, and this embarrassed him even more.  He
couldn't help quickly glancing up at Jason though, to see if he seemed
sincere about what he'd said, or if he was joking.

Jason was looking right at Bobby.  He didn't look like he was teasing, or
about to start picking on him.

"You know... if there's anything you want to ask, or discuss... about
anything... even sex... you can ask me," Jason said.

Bobby was surprised to hear Jason say that.  Again, he wasn't sure how to
respond.

Finally, after what seemed like too long a pause, Bobby croaked "Thanks!"

"You're Welcome!" Jason said, smiling.  "So... did you have anything you
wanted to talk about?  Was there something about those guys and their
dicks that you were wondering about?"

Bobby squirmed in his seat a little, glancing furtively at Jason a couple
times.  Finally, he couldn't stand it anymore.  If Jason was going to
keep him embarrassed by continuing talking about it, he might as well
find some things out!

"D-do you think mine'll get as big as their's or your's?" he asked
finally, his face quickly becoming completely scarlet.

Jason chuckled and said, "So you did have a question.  Good!  Well...
first off, you need to understand, from what I saw in the locker room,
which was only a quick look, you're already pretty good sized for your
age and height.  But... you're still growing all over, so I would assume,
you'll get bigger down there yet too!  Just how big though, nobody'll
know til you're through growing.  But, even if you stop now - you're
fine!"

Bobby smiled in an embarrassed way, but looked up at Jason.

"So you think I might get bigger yet?" he asked.

"I expect you will!" Jason said.  "Anyway, average length for an adult,
when they're hard, is between 5-1/2 inches and 7-1/2 inches, so you can
gage it that way."

"Cool!  I'm right in the middle of average!" Bobby said, grinning widely,
but then blushing deeper when he realized how much information he'd just
given Jason.

Grinning, Jason said, "So you've measured it?  And it's 6-1/2 inches when
you're hard?"

Unable to speak from embarrassment, Bobby just smiled stupidly and
nodded.

"Cool!" Jason said smiling. "So... did you want to know anything else?"

Bobby really wanted to ask Jason how big his hardon was, but he knew he
didn't dare.  As he thought it, he glanced furtively at Jason a couple
times.  Jason was just sitting looking at him.

"Eight inches," Jason said finally, when Bobby didn't say anything more.

"Huh?" Bobby asked, flustered.

"Mine gets up to eight inches.  That's what you wanted to ask yet right?"
Jason asked.

Bobby, whose face had begun to lighten a bit, flushed fully scarlet
again.  When he glanced at Jason, Jason was looking at him with a
shit-eating grin on his face.  Bobby couldn't help smiling himself.  He
couldn't believe Jason had been able to read his mind.

"Anything else?" Jason asked.

In truth, Bobby would've liked to ask Jason several more things, but he
was too embarrassed, so he just said, "No."

"OK then," Jason said.  "But anytime you wanta talk, or ask questions,
about anything - you can ask me.  OK?"

"OK," Bobby said, smiling, but still looking a bit embarrassed.

They finished eating silently then, each lost in his own thoughts.

When they'd finished, Jason got them ice cream, which they ate quickly,
so it wouldn't melt in the heat and dribble down their hands.  Then, as
it was really too hot to be outdoors for too long, Jason suggested they
go see a movie.  Bobby thought that sounded good, so that's what they
did.

             *                       *                      *

That evening, as Jason walked in the door, Mrs. Anderson said "I have
good news!"

"What?" Jason asked.

"Brian came home from the hospital today!" she replied, smiling.

Jason stood looking at his mother, blinking for a moment.  He was
surprised to realize he had mixed emotions about her news.  He hadn't
seen Brian since he'd delivered Luke's letter to him, and just after
that, Brian had tried to commit suicide again.  Jason had also just begun
not thinking about Luke every other minute.  Although he was happy about
Brian's release from the hospital, it meant that things were going to
change again.  He didn't know what shape Brian was going to be in.
Regardless of that, if he was even allowed to spend time with Brian
again, he knew it would cause him to dwell on his brother's death more in
depth again.

"How'd you find out?" Jason asked, after a moment.

"Mrs. Abbott called.  She wanted us to know.  She also wanted me to tell
you that if you'd like, you can visit him," Marge said.

"So... he's doing better then?  I mean... if he's able to have visitors
and all..." Jason trailed off.

"Yes, Mrs. Abbott said he was much better.  She did say that he was still
mildly depressed, but that he was no longer suicidal.  He is continuing
therapy every other day yet though," Mrs. Anderson said.

"I see," Jason said.

"You don't sound very enthusiastic," his mother said.

"Oh!  No!  I mean it's great he's doing better!" Jason said.  "It's just
that I'd almost forgotten he'd be home.  And... well... it feels
strange.  Part of me wants to go see him.  But... part of me feels like
I'd rather not.  I'm just afraid of upsetting him again!"

"Well, Mrs. Abbott sounded like she wanted you to visit him.  So... why
don't you give them a call tomorrow and see if he's up for a visit.  Then
if he is, go and see him.  You'll be able to see for yourself then if
he's OK with you coming to see him," Mrs. Anderson said.

"Yeah.  I guess," Jason said.  As it was too early for dinner yet, he
turned and went up to his room for a while.

                  *                       *                     *

Jason didn't sleep well that night.  He kept having dreams about Luke and
Brian.  The dreams would start out nice, then something would happen, and
one or both of the boys would die.  Two or three times Jason was jolted
awake when this happened.  As a result, the next morning when he got up,
he was exhausted.

After a cup of coffee and a couple pieces of toast for breakfast, Jason
apprehensively picked up the phone and dialed the Abbott's house.  He was
relieved when Brian's mother answered the phone.

Mrs. Abbott sounded very cheerful and told Jason she was very happy he'd
called.  She told him Brian was home and was doing much better.  Then she
invited Jason to come over and visit him.  Jason asked when would be a
good time.  Mrs. Abbott replied that Jason could come over whenever he
wanted to.  So Jason said he'd be over in a little while, and they hung
up.  Jason went upstairs to shower and dress then.

Ordinarily, as Jason prepared to get into the shower, he almost always
developed an erection, as he anticipated spending a few minutes
pleasuring himself with a handful of hair conditioner as lube.  This
morning though, as Jason stepped into the shower, his dick was flacid.
His mind was busy contemplating how his meeting with Brian would go.

As Jason washed himself, he eventually ran his hands down to his crotch
to wash himself.  As he rubbed his penis and scrotum with his soapy
hands, his thoughts about Brian became distracted by the pleasant
sensations he felt.  Jason looked down and saw that he was semi-erect.  A
slight smile appeared on his lips then, as he wrapped his right hand
fully around his soapy dick and began sliding it up and down.  A few
seconds later, and his worries about visiting Brian were gone from his
mind.  His cock was fully hard, and all Jason could focus on then was the
pleasure he was giving himself.  He was surprised as he continued working
his dick, that a mental image of Bobby suddenly flashed into his mind.
In his mind's eye, he remembered what Bobby had looked like naked the
previous day in the high school locker room.  His thoughts zeroed in of
course on the boy's genitals.  As he remembered how Bobby's penis had
throbbed slightly, as it was beginning to harden, Jason suddenly felt
hornier. He began jacking off in earnest.

As he masturbated, Jason imagined Bobby standing in front of him,
masturbating as well.  He imagined the look of ecstasy on the boy's face,
as his orgasm began to build.  A minute later, Jason felt his own orgasm
starting to build.  As he tilted his head backward, he imagined what
Bobby looked like on the brink of orgasm, and he quickened his stroke a
little, and grasped his balls with his left hand and began kneading them.

"MMmmmmmm..." he moaned softly, as he felt his pleasure building.

Several seconds later, in Jason's mind, he saw Bobby gasp and shoot a
load of cum.  Jason's body tensed up suddenly.  Then he himself gasped,
as a thick rope of semen shot out of his dick, landing in a streak on the
shower curtain.

"AAwwww!" Jason groaned, as in his imagination, Bobby groaned and shot a
second load of cum, just as his own second spasm hit him, and more cum
shot out of his dick.

"OOoohhh!" he moaned a moment later, as he and Bobby both came again.

Jason kept on stroking, and fired a few more, successively smaller loads
of jism onto the shower curtain, until the last couple just dribbled out
the tip of his cock, rolling over his index finger and dripping onto the
shower floor.

"Mmmmm ... that was nice," Jason murmured, smiling to himself, and
feeling much more relaxed.  "Shit I wouldn't mind really seeing Bobby
getting off too!"

Jason stepped under the shower spray and rinsed himself clean then, and
then he directed the spray onto the mess he'd made on the shower
curtain.  A moment later, he watched as the water washed his sperm down
the drain in the floor.

A few minutes later, Jason had gotten out of the shower, dried off, dried
his hair, and dressed.  He was ready to go, and couldn't delay his visit
with Brian any longer.

With a feeling of trepidation washing over him, Jason headed out to his
car to drive over to the Abbott's.

                     *                        *                         *

As Jason drove into the Abbott's driveway, he saw Brian sitting on the
couch in the sun porch that stuck off the side of the house, next to the
driveway.  Brian's head was bent forward, and he didn't look up as Jason
drove past, causing Jason to feel even more trepidation about his visit.
It was too late to turn back though, as Mrs. Abbott was looking out the
kitchen window as he pulled up.  She'd seen him and waved gaily at him.
As a feeling of mild dread flooded Jason's body, he parked his car, and
walked to the house.  Since Mrs. Abbott had seen him and waved at him,
Jason didn't bother to ring the bell.  Instead he pulled the door open
and stepped into the kitchen.

"Jason!  How good to see you!" Mrs. Abbott said.

"Hi Mrs. Abbott," Jason said.  "How are you?"

"I'm fine thank you - now that Brian's home," she replied.  "How are you
doing?"

"I'm fine thanks," Jason said, painfully aware that Brian hadn't walked
out to the kitchen to greet him.  "How's Brian?"

"Much better!" Mrs. Abbott said.  "Although he won't admit it, I think
he's eager to see you again.  Umm... he's a bit nervous about seeing you
though too - so - if you don't mind, please be easy on him."

"Of course," Jason said, thinking to himself that it didn't sound like
Brian was as good as everyone was really saying.

"Good," Mrs. Abbott said.  "He's in the sun porch.  You can go right in."

Jason hesitated a moment, then asked, "Is there anything I shouldn't talk
about with him?"

Mrs. Abbott smiled and said, "not really.  His therapist wants him to
start dealing with everything openly.  I'd suggest though that to start,
you let him bring up what you talk about."

"OK," Jason said.  He turned and headed for the sun porch.

                    *                       *                        *

Brian looked up nervously as Jason stepped through the door into the sun
porch from the living room.  Quickly Jason took in the fact that he still
had a cast on his right arm, that covered most of his hand, but only went
up to his elbow.  Jason also saw a couple of small scars on Brian's face
as well.  Otherwise, he looked OK physically.  Jason noted with interest
that Brian was wearing the hemp bracelet Luke had left him.  This
surprised Jason, and pleased him.  Maybe this meant Brian was doing
better Jason hoped.  As he looked at Brian though, he saw that he had the
look of a shy and nervous little boy who had done something wrong and was
feeling guilty for it.  As he looked at him, Jason realized that Brian
was even more nervous about their visit, than he was.  His heart wrenched
as he looked at Brian for a moment.  Brian's beautiful brown eyes were
filled with pain and fear as they gazed nervously from under his shaggy
fringe of bleachy blond, curly hair at Jason.  Immediately Jason's fear
about seeing Brian dissolved, and all he felt was extreme compassion for
Brian.  He just wanted to take Brian in his arms and hold him and tell
him everything was going to be alright.  There was a spot on the couch
next to Brian, but Jason wasn't sure how Brian would react if he sat down
next to him and hugged him.

Uncertain of what to do, Jason tried awkwardly to smile.

"Hey!" he said softly.

Brian didn't respond, but the look on his face became sadder and more
nervous, and his eyes looked watery suddenly.

Jason's emotions took over then, and he stopped thinking about what he
should or shouldn't do.  He stepped over to the couch and sat down right
next to Brian, draping his left arm over the boy's shoulders.

"It's OK," he said softly, pulling Brian into a sideways hug.

"It'll never be OK," Brian replied, softly in a slightly quivering voice.

Jason didn't know what to say, so he just hugged Brian tighter.

Brian gave a slight gasp and said, "Not so tight Jase!  My ribs still
hurt!"

"OH!" Jason cried.  "Sorry!"

He stopped squeezing Brian, and but continued to hug him, albeit much
more gingerly.

"It's OK," Brian said.

The two sat quietly for a moment, neither knowing what to say.  Jason
noticed after a minute that Brian had started trembling a little.  Jason
looked down at Brian and could see that he was fighting with himself,
trying not to cry.

"It's OK Bri... let it out!" Jason said, rubbing up and down his left
upper arm a little.

Brian hesitated for a moment, but Jason tugged on him a little, pulling
him in to him more snuggly, but without squeezing Brian's ribs again.
Brian started to tremble a little more, and finally turned his face and
leaned against Jason's chest.  Jason heard him sniffling then.  Tears
welled in Jason's eyes, and he turned and wrapped his arms fully around
Brian, taking him in his arms.  Brian wrapped his own arms around Jason
then and gave into his feelings and wept openly, as Jason gently held
him, with tears running down his own cheeks.

The two sat together, crying and embracing each other for a couple
minutes, until Brian finally pulled himself together and pulled away from
Jason.

"I'm sorry Jase!" Brian said, looking at Jason.

"What for?" Jason asked, looking into Brian's eyes.

"Everything," Brian said.  "For crying on you just now.  For Lukey.
For...what I did after he died..."

With a look of pain and shame on his face, Brian looked away from Jason.

"I'll accept you're sorry that Luke's gone.  I am too," Jason said.  "But
you don't have to be sorry for anything else.  It wasn't your fault he
died Brian!  And, I'm not trying to be mean, but what you did after Lukey
died was wrong!  Nobody's mad at you Brian.  We just all want you to feel
better again.  We love you and want you to be OK.  As for crying on my
shoulder... well... you can do that anytime you want!  I'll always be
here for you!"

Brian looked back at Jason.

"I've had a lot of psychotherapy.  I understand now that Lukey's
accident, and death aren't ALL my fault.  But Jason, some of the blame is
mine!" Brian said, a hint of anguish in his voice.  "Everyone tells me
though that I never meant to hurt Luke.  That it was a accident.  So
that's supposed to not make it my fault.  I understand that I didn't do
it deliberately, so that it's not as bad as if I did.  But I will never
stop believing that if I hadn't driven drunk that night, the accident
wouldn't have happened, and Lukey would still be here with us right now!
Frankly, I can't understand how you or your parents can even stand to
look at me anymore!"

Jason contemplated Brian for a minute, then he said, "We can and want to
look at you Bri, because we love you!  In our eyes, what happened that
night was an accident!  And Lukey's as much to blame as anyone!  He got
drunk too and rode in the back of the truck like that!  Like you said,
nobody meant for anyone to get hurt!  What happened was just an
accident!  Even Luke believed this and told you this Brian.  And if Luke
were here, he'd be so pissed at you for trying to kill yourself!  You
have no idea how hurt he'd be that you'd try to throw your life away like
that!  He'd want you to go on living your life as fully as you were going
to before he died!  And besides that, how do you think everyone who cares
about you would feel if you'd been successful???  Do you want your
parents to grieve and suffer over losing you?  And how about me?  How do
you think I'd feel?  It'd be like losing Lukey all over again for me if I
lost you too!"

Brian's eyes got a little bigger and he looked a little surprised when
Jason mentioned how he'd have felt if he'd died too.  For a minute the
two young men just stared at each other.

Finally, Brian said, "I'm sorry Jase!  I'd never do anything to hurt
you.  You have to believe that.  It's just when Lukey died, I thought I
was going to die of the pain I was feeling.  I couldn't stand it.  And...
I thought I deserved to be punished for what I'd done.  The best
punishment I could think of was death, just like I'd caused Lukey."

Jason opened his mouth to say something, but Brian cut him off and
continued, "But Jase... I know now that killing myself would've been
wrong.  You don't have to worry.  I'm not suicidal anymore."

Jason looked at Brian for a minute, then said, "I'm glad to hear that
Bri.  What caused you to change your mind?"

Brian hadn't expected Jason to ask that.  He looked a little surprised
and flustered.  Finally, he said, "I-I'm not supposed to say."

"What?" Jason asked, confused.

Brian looked at Jason a moment, then said, "if I tell you, you promise
not to tell anyone?"

"OK," Jason said.

Brian looked closely at him.  "You really promise not to tell anyone?"

"Yeah, sure," Jason said, looking curiously at Brian.

"It was your mom," Brian said.

"WHAT?" Jason asked.

"She came to visit me at the hospital a couple weeks ago.  When I saw
her, I was sure she'd come to bitch me out about killing Lukey.  But then
she starts in on my about how dare I try to kill myself.  How selfish I
was to do that!  You should've heard her lecturing me.  She went on and
on about how it wasn't my fault about Lukey - kind of like you just did.
Then she started hollering at me that if I'd died, my parents would be
devastated, like she was about Luke.  She switched then to how Luke
would've been mad at me - like you said.  Then she ended by telling me
she couldn't stand to lose another 'son', and that you wouldn't be able
to stand losing your only other 'brother'.  By then she was crying, and
couldn't talk anymore," Brian said, as tears welled anew in his eyes.

"My mother came to visit you and said all that?" Jason asked,
incredulously.

Brian nodded, as he wiped his eyes and snuffled.

"When she got over her crying, she said she wasn't going to leave until I
promised not to be so God Damned stupid ever again!" Brian said, smiling
slightly.

Jason smiled and said, "That sounds like Mom!  So... did you promise?"

"What else could I do?  She was ready to move in there with me!" Brian
said, with a chuckle.

"But did you mean it?" Jason asked, seriously.  "Did you promise her you
wouldn't try to kill yourself again?  And did you mean it?"

Brian frowned slightly, and said, "Yeah Jase.  I promised.  And I intend
to keep my promise!"

Jason peered closely at Brian, trying to discern if he was lying or not.

"I meant it!  OK?" Brian burst out, a hint of anger in his voice.  "I've
had a lot of time to think about it, and I know that even though it was
my fault, that Luke would've wanted me to go on.  And that killing myself
would only hurt people who care about me.  It would make things worse for
everyone.  Besides... it would be the easy way out for me.  If anything
... I don't deserve the easy way out.  I need to stay here.  To
remember.  And... maybe to do something to try and help other people not
make the same mistake I made!  I'm not sure how, but I'm going to do
something, so that Lukey's life didn't end completely in vain!  I have to
live, so that even though Lukey died, SOME good will come of it.  Not
just all pain!"

"Well..." Jason said.  "I believe you.  And... I'm happy you're not
thinking the way you were before anymore.  But Bri... even though you're
planning on avenging Luke's death in some way, a good way, Luke would've
wanted you to try to be happy too!  Can you please try to do that?  For
Lukey's sake?"

Brian glanced at Jason with a slightly annoyed look.

"I'm serious Bri," Jason said.  "You do deserve to be happy too!  Luke
would've wanted you to be!"

"If it happens, it happens," Brian said, non-committally.  "That's
secondary to me trying to make something good happen for somebody because
of all this!"

"So you're willing to try?" Jason asked.

"Like I said, my first priority is helping others now!" Brian said.  "If
I end up happy, then that'll be nice, but it's not my top priority!"

"OK," Jason said, not completely happy with Brian's attitude.  "I guess
that'll do for now.  So... do you think you'll be able to spend some time
with me?  You'll be helping me to get on with my life too if you do.
Maybe we can help each other."

Brian looked at Jason for a moment, then said, "Yeah, we can try to do
that I guess.  But Jase!  Please promise you won't tell your mom I told
you she came to visit me!  She didn't wan't anyone to know.  OK?"

"I promise I'll keep your's and her secret!" Jason said.  Then he smiled
and said, " So, what kind of things can you do now?  Are you still
supposed to be resting or what?"

"I'm OK.  I can do most anything that doesn't require both hands.  No
swimming with the cast though really," Brian said.

"Cool!  So... what do you feel like doing?" Jason asked.

Brian eyed Jason for a moment, then said, "you really want to help me?"

"Of course," Jason said.

"Well, there's something I need to do.  Mom doesn't think I'm ready for
it yet, but I think the sooner I do it the better," Brian said.

"What's that?" Jason asked, cautiously.

Brian hesitated, looking at Jason.  Then he said, "Will you take me to
see Lukey?" ...

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