Date: Fri, 23 Aug 2002 03:23:11 -0400
From: mr. axl <mraxl55@msn.com>
Subject: Eric

i was 13 goin on 14, my dad had a job with the government and moved to
florida, we would stay in kentucky til we sold the house. my brother and i
did not want to move (just for the record we ended up stayin here but thats
not important now)

before we went to florida for the summer i had my first sexual encounter
with a girl. i wasn't ready but was pressured into it so what to do.

our house in florida was about a mile from the beach and on the way there
was a video arcade my brother (who is 3-1/2 years older than me) would go
to the arcade to play pool and stuff. one day i was on my way to the
bathroom and a girl name candy came up to me and just kinda chatted a bit
and said we should meet up at midnight if i wanted to get high so i said
whay not?

i snuck out that night and we went to the pet semetary across from the
arcade and one thing led to another, and i was hooked as it beat jackin
off.

it got to where i would go to the arcade without my brother to meet her,
she intoduced me to her friends.

one day while we were hangin out i noticed a a boy just sittin of to the
side i asked candy who he was and she said "that's just my brother don't
mind him he just tags along"

he was about the same age as me i found out that candy was 11 months older
than him and he was infact 13 too.

it got to where i would sneak out to meet candy alot and one night she took
me back to her house as her parents were gone, the only one there was her
brother Eric.

she said not to worry because he wouldn't tell or she would "ruin him."

one night i snuck out to meet candy and she wasn't there when Eric answered
the door he said that she might be back in a bit that i could wait if i
wanted to. i said "why not" that' the first time i actuallt talkied to him,
for as agressive and mean as candy could be it seemed that Eric was equally
submissive and kind.

after that day i made it a point to say "hi" to Eric whenever i saw him.
one day candy asked why i was bein nice to her brother i said 'It's the
least i could do", she wasn't very happy about that, she seemed to treat
him even worse after that day, so i started sneakin out sometimes just to
hang out with Eric instead of candy.

one night after a particulary abusive day with my father, of the usual your
weak, you don't know anything yada yada, you get the point. i went to see
Eric, he could see i was upset so he suggested we go to the beach it was
like midnight so i was worried about gettin chased off but he knew a spot
where no-one went i was cool.

it's amazing that 19 years later i've never met anyone who could draw me
out like Eric. i sat there quietly so he started talkin, he told me how he
was an unexpected child and how candy always was the center of attention
everywhere they went, how his parents never payed attention to him and how
he had no friends, i felt bad for him so we sat there in silence.

we must have sat there nearly half an hour when he said "so. what's
bothering you? you can tell me, i'm a better listener than a talker"

i must have talked about an hour and a half before i realized it was like
four o clock and dad always woke up at five so i had to scoot i told him to
meet me here tomorrow at midnight.

the next night was more of the same. i was so mad i started to vent on him
as soon as i saw him. he just sat and listened then i was cryin (which was
something i never did 'cause i was raised to be tough. boxing since i was 8
and all). and all of a sudden he did the damndest thing, he hugged me. i
was stunned but it felt good i couldn't remember the last time i was
hugged, so i hung on for dear life.

i just hung on, i don't know how long. then he did an even more damned
thing he leaned in and kissed me.

i was shocked but i kissed back, and i liked it. but then i did the
damndest thing i pulled back.

Eric looked down.. he started to cry "i'm sorry please don't beat me up"

i was shocked that was the farthest thing from my mind i told him i wasn't
mad just shocked but i didn't know how to feel. he told me he was gay and
that his sister knew she promised to tell everyone if he pissed her off, so
he was stuck puttin up with her shit. i told him i wouldn't tell anyone i
just didn't know how i felt about what he did, but i did like being hugged
and i still wanted to be his friend. he said that he was so happy and that
he would be the best friend i ever had.

i realized just how lonely he was. i realized something else too, that i
was just as lonely. i mean i had alot of friends but i couldn't tell them
how i felt and i definitely couldn't cry in front of them, i mean we were
fighters in those days. a rough neighborhood they'd eat you alive if you
showed weakness and my dad ?? come on forget about it. i told eric i had to
go but i'd see him around.

the next several days were hectic, quality time with the family and arcade
time with my bro, he didn't even know about candy. (somehow it was more
exciting that way).

i finally met eric after several days of the usual abuse and self esteem
deflating conversation, and all i could do is sit quietly, as usual he knew
what to say, and that got the ball rolling, after venting and the break
down session he hugged me again. it felt so good i hung on for dear life
and then i shocked him by kissing him on the mouth and slipping my tongue
inside, our tongues met like two souls entwining i was lost in him, i
wasn't even aware of when he slipped his hand inside of my shorts, i was of
course hard very quickly and was brought out of my trance by the now more
euphoric feel of his hand caressing my prick. he rolled over on top of me
and i could feel his hardness through his shorts then he worked his way
down my chest gently licking each nipple before working down to my hairless
belly button, he paused there for a brief minute before working down to my
sparse pubic hair and the he took me in his mouth, the feeling overwhelmed
me.

i had had head before but this was incredible, he worked his tongue over
the underside of my circumsized penis down to my hairless balls, he cupped
my balls in his hand as he engulfed my entire penis in his mouth, which
sent me over the top i exploded in his mouth i never even warned him. i
think he drank every drop, then he looked up at me and dropped his eyes and
said "i'm sorry, it won't happen again."

i didn't know what to say, and so i said" i gotta go" and i left

the feelings of guilt that i felt were overwhelming i thought what if
people knew, what if someone saw. the next coupla days were consumed with
that thought, so i avoided Eric altogether, at the arcade i didn't say
hi. i just hung with his sister or my brother.

it was in a dream (a wet dream no-less) that i realized how beautiful eric
was, and i still see him in that dream to this day, with his sandy blond
hair and his bronze tan, the moon on the water, but most of all his pale
blue eyes almost grey, strikingly beautiful, i've never met anyone with
eyes quite the color since.

the next day at the arcade i saw him in the bathroom. i said i'd meet him
at midnight and left.

at midnight there he was waiting, before i could say anything eric started
crying and said "please i'm so sorry i'll never do it again please be my
friend, please i'll never do it again i won't be a FAG no-more PLEASE BE MY
FRIEND."

i hugged him deep to me and told him i was his friend and i didn't care
about the rest, and i shocked him by kissing him, this led to my carressing
his nipples and encouraging him to kiss my nipples and work his way down
again, he looked up at me as he reached the top of my shorts and i nodded
to him he then pulled down my shorts and licked down my shaft and then back
up, i then worked my way around and pulled down his shorts and saw his
penis for the first time it was about 4 inches long a little thinner than
mine with a small bit of sandy blond hair above it (but thin not like it
gets when you get older)and i began to stroke it, he let out the slightest
moan of pleasure but never slowed a bit on my pole, he exploded quickly and
i followed shortly behind. we simply lay there and held each other.

the next day i went to his house to pick him up. candy was there and when i
asked for Eric she asked "why you hangin with that fag, are you fag too?"

i said "do you think i'm fag you sure want it bad enough, do you fuck
fags?"

she was pissed and pushed past me.

eric and i spent a coupla hours together before i had to get back. we met
back at our spot.

that night we hugged and then played around this time i tried sucking him
off the smell was different then pussy it was musty but with a sweet aroma
not as musky.

but i didn't enjoy it as much as watching him suck me while i jerked him so
thats what i did, i mean the taste wasn't bad but i liked watching him,
when he came i tasted his cum, and that too wasn't bad but it seemed so
FAG. that wasn't acceptable.

the next day my dad berated me about a comment i made during the miss u.s.a
pageant i didn't know anything bout women yada yada.

that night i was pissed and i had something to prove, but when i saw candy
she was a bitch talkin bout how i was probably fuckin her brother and if
she saw me with him that she would tell everyone. so i said"i don't care
i'm gone next week anyway"

i had planned to fuck her just to get back at dad to prove myself, but
after that shit i was too pissed i told her to fuck off and that was it.

for the next week me and my brother went to the arcade pretty much everyday
but just to play pool. i didn't even talk to candy much less Eric, i didn't
even look at him, except out of the corner of my eye.

he looked so sad but what could i do? i wasn't no fag, i was a man's man
like dad wanted.

we left the next week and i never saw Eric again, now 19 years i wonder
what would have happened if not for that one night. maybe i could have
looked into those beautiful pale blue eyes and said one last good-bye,
instead it was just another rejection in a long line of rejections, I'M
SORRY ERIC.

so that's my story

the end...