Date: Mon, 24 Feb 97 18:28:38 UT
From: Richard French <RICHFRENCH@msn.com>
Subject: My First Time

	First of all, I am now 63 years old.  I have a penchant 
for younger persons; not young boys, but younger persons none the less 
(preferably between the ages of 18 and 24 or 25.  Psychologically, I guess I 
am trying to recapture my youth.  

Perhaps the best way to begin this is to start at the beginning; when I was 
nine years old.  At that age, my mother had to go to the hospital and I was 
sent to stay with my sister, who had two sons of her own.  One, Paul, was my 
age and the other, Leroy, was almost 14.  There wasn't a lot of room, so I had 
to sleep with one of my nephews.   Leroy wanted me to sleep with him.  I found 
myself fascinated by the fact that Leroy had (to a nine year old's view) a big 
penis and it had a little hair around it.  As with most kid's age, he was very 
proud of his blooming manhood and enjoyed showing it off to both Paul and 
myself.  Paul could not have cared less.  He thought Leroy's private parts 
were yucky.  The very first night, Leroy began cuddling with me and I found 
this very enjoyable and it gave me a sense of being wanted.  He asked me to 
touch his penis.  I said no, but he started playing with mine and it got hard. 
 He got me worked up enough that I reached inside his jockey shorts and 
started playing with his too.  

Leroy was a very gentle and loving person.  As I look back on my first sexual 
experience, Leroy made it a very pleasant memory, not a trauma.  Leroy then 
offered to suck my penis, and I figured if Leroy wanted to do this, it must be 
alright.  It was more than just alright; it was great!  This went on for a 
couple of nights and sometimes during the day.  Finally, I thought that I 
should be doing something for Leroy too, so I offered to suck his has well.  
He warned me that his would shoot and it might shoot in his mouth.  He 
masturbated himself to show me what shooting was.  Since this was something 
that might happen in my mouth, I put my finger in his cum and tasted it.  To 
be honest about it, the taste actually turned me on.  Then I told him that the 
next time we did anything, I wanted him to cum in my mouth.  He made sure this 
is what I wanted to do, and that night he had me lie on top of him in the 69 
position.  He began sucking on my dick and I tentatively began sucking on his. 
 Ultimately, he did cum in my mouth and I thought it was just wonderful.  

Leroy began playing with my butt when he was sucking on my dick.  He wet his 
finger and put in close to my asshole and I found this thrilling.  He then 
eased it into my ass and either by chance or design, he found my prostate.  
Almost immediately I found myself reaching a dry climax.  This was the most 
wonderful experience I had ever had!  It was I who suggested that he put his 
penis in there.  Again, Leroy asked me a number of times if I was sure I 
wanted to do this.  He said it might hurt a little bit.  I asked him if he 
would stop if it hurt too much.  He agreed to this.

That night, I sucked on Leroy to get him as wet as possible (neither of us 
knew about using a lubricant) and he spit on my asshole and rubbed it around 
and then worked his finger in.  I insisted that we do it right then.  Leroy 
had me lay on my side and he put the head of his penis up against my ass and 
told me that I should push back so that I could control when to stop.  I 
pushed back and the head of his penis popped in and it did indeed hurt.  I 
didn't pull away, but just stopped there so that my sphincter could relax a 
bit.  Finally it was all the way in and I could feel his pubic hair kind of 
tickling my ass.  Then I told Leroy to do whatever he wanted to do.  He began 
screwing me and then we rolled over so he was on top.  He went very slowly at 
first and then began pushing in harder and faster.  He reached his climax and 
he told me he had never cum so much in his life!  He kissed me and held me.  
He left his penis inside me and just laid there next to me and he came three 
more times during that night before pulling out.  As it turned out, this was a 
first-time experience for both of us.  He had never fucked anything other than 
his fist and my mouth before.  

My experiences with Leroy went on for a number of years.  The first time I 
ever came was in Leroy's mouth.  The first time I ever fucked anyone it was 
Leroy.  When I was fifteen, Leroy joined the Army and was sent to Korea, where 
he was killed.  Leroy may have been my nephew and perhaps this was incest, but 
all I know or care is that Leroy was the most wonderful sex partner I ever 
had.  He shall forever remain in my memory as a great teacher and lover.

Enough of that.  Now in regard to coming out.

You have to understand that I came up in a time when people just didn't 
discuss things like sex.  One didn't admit that one was different.  It would 
have just about killed my mother had she known I preferred sex with other 
guys.  As a result, I lived a very solitary life.  Every once in a while, 
there would be some other kid who spent the night or something and we did 
things with each other, but not all that often.

I lived in dread fear that someone would find out that I was a queer.  I 
wanted to be liked, not scorned or picked on because of it.  So, I did my best 
(at least on the surface) to be just one of the guys.  I grew very adept at 
this.  To the best of my knowledge, no one suspected I was gay.  

I was involved in sports (swimming) and this caused me to get another fetish; 
underwear.  I used to go into the locker room and steal other kid's underpants 
and take them home where I would put them by my face and masturbate.  This is 
a fetish I have to this day, but there are (alas) no more locker rooms for me 
to raid.


Dedicated to the Love of Leroy.  This guy died for his country and remains
very special to me.

Rich (richfrench@msn.com)