Date: Wed, 09 Feb 2000 17:41:40 -0500
From: fsw <fsw99@mindspring.com>
Subject: Matt and Mike Chapter 20

Warning! This story contains sex between minor boys. If you are underage,
this is illegal in your country, or do not like this type of story, please
do not read this.

			       MATT and MIKE

			      Chapter Twenty

Once you thought nothing positive was ever going to happen in Matt and
Mike's lives, things did seem to change for the better. Rick and Zack
finished their semester and transferred to the same college Matt and Mike
attended. They even moved into one of the abandoned rooms in the old house,
and started to add extra money to the common cause.

Jim and the grandparents welcomed them with open arms. They all felt they
needed help. Matt and Mike had withdrawn so much that they seemed to exist
only for each other, but could not extend themselves out to anyone
else. They both seemed to draw a hard shell around themselves, not trusting
anyone but each other. They had been hurt too much, and they didn't want to
open themselves up enough to let someone close hurt them again.

Jim was also gay, but did not have anyone in his life at the moment. He
tried to console the boys, but they were resistant. The grandparents were
elderly. It was their house, but Jim brought in most of the money that kept
the family going. He was there to take care of them, not the other way
around. The grandparents were loving, but no help to the boys. The term
"gay" didn't even exist when they were growing up. Homosexuality meant
dirty old men in trench coats that would drag you behind a bush and do BAD
things to you when they were Matt and Mike's age. They just couldn't
relate.

The boys drifted more and more into their own made up world. In real life,
they had to go to college and compete with kids lots older than them,
basically Rick and Zack's age. The other kids had all finished ALL of high
school, and were much better prepared. The only thing Matt and Mike could
do was study harder than them to even be equal.

After classes, most of the other students were free to study and do
anything that they wanted to do. Matt and Mike had to go work as many hours
as they could to make as much money as they could. They had to build a life
for themselves. They had to face the prospect that they could be dumped
again. Anything that they used to do for fun was long forgotten.

They had to study once they were off work, which was often after 11:00
PM. Then, get up and do the same thing the next day. It would get old
really fast, believe me.

When they did have some free time, they did what they felt they had
to. They reverted back to older, better times. Instead of getting more
mentally mature, they reverted back to their childhood. Matt started
carrying around an old teddy bear he had when he was young. Mike started
talking to the bear as much as he talked to Matt. Everyone was
concerned. They were acting more like ten year old's than now 16 and 14.

Then, Rick and Zack moved in. They basically became Matt and Mike's parents
and guidance counselors. Matt and Mike both trusted them, but basically
didn't trust anyone else.

Little my little, the boys started to also trust Jim. He was always there
for them, and encouraged them in every way. Rick and Zack also encouraged
them to trust him, but it was hard. When almost every loved one you had
trusted in the past dumped on you, who would you trust?

     To Be Continued

Any reader's comments or criticisms are appreciated. The more comments I
get, the quicker I will forward more chapters. Again, I am trying to tell
the story using actual facts, but I do insert parts of the story that did
not really happen. The boys always give me permission, before I submit my
version. I hope you like this method of telling a story. Any comments can
be sent to fsw99@mindspring.com. The only gratification I really get out of
writing is your comments. I have made good friends out of Matt and Mark,
and could use some more.