Date: Thu, 15 Apr 2010 15:37:49 EDT From: Buontempi@aol.com Subject: Most Turned me On - Part 4 The last chapter was about Jimmy and that led to me going more underground than I had already been. But something was happening with two of my brothers. From an early age, I really can't remember when perhaps from 8 until 14 I had an older brother that tried to force himself on me. The thing that stuck out most in my mind was when one night I awoke in my bed and my brother was on top of me and trying to force his cock in my mouth. It was dark in the room and all I could see was the purple head of his cock approaching my mouth. I was scared and tried to fight him off. He put his hand over my mouth to quiet me down but I wouldn't relent and he in panic with fear of being discovered himself left my room. He tried this a couple of more times but I would never relent, I disliked him immensely. Because I had lost my father at an early age and because he was left in charge of me and my young brother he was very hard on me. Nothing every happened between us only because I was unwilling. That left me with a fear of ever sucking a cock. When I was 14 1/2 however, after the incident with Jimmy, something happened between my young brother and myself. At the time my younger brother and I had to sleep in the same double bed. He was 12 years old at the time. He and I got along very well. One night I woke up around midnight with my brother spooning my backside. I could feel his boner up against my ass. We both slept in white cotton briefs. I got very horny, which was not at all unusual, as you can imagine. After about a half hour with some minor movement on his part I reached around, without turning around and felt the bulge through the briefs. Because I got no response, I got brave and put my hand inside his briefs and reached for his cock. It felt wonderful in my hand so I began slowly stroking it. Again not getting a response I turned around facing him grabbed his cock and discovered that he was still asleep. I then got scared, but before I could take my hand off his cock he awoke. I pulled my hand away and apologized to him explaining how it happened. By this time he could feel my hard on against his legs and he himself got turned and he asked me to continue. I stroked him until he shot his first load in my hand. The next day we didn't speak about it but when we went to bed the next night he asked if we could do it again. I had been use to humping my pillow when I was alone so I suggested that we do it with each other and he agreed. He was a very well behav ed and mild boy and a wonderful brother. For over four years we continued with jerking each other off and humping each other, only once almost getting caught by another older brother. When I learned from him that he only enjoyed doing this with me and would never do it with any other boy I realized that he was not the same, he was straight. So I thought about it a lot and because of my religious background I decided that I must end it for his sake. So one night after we ejaculated I hugged him in our bed and told him that it was the last time that we would be doing it together because it was wrong. He wanted to continue but I convinced him that we should stop. He finally agreed and we never spoke about again. My younger brother had a friend named Johnny. Johnny was a skinny kid with a huge bulge and I lusted after him. I asked my brother on more than one occasion if he had ever done anything with Johnny and that is when he told me that he had no interest in doing it with anyone else but me. Johnny exuded sex and had some mild feminine traits. But I am fairly certain that he was always straight. But Johnny had a younger brother Paul. After I was around 21 and Paul was almost 18 he approached my car while I was in the drivers seat and we chatted for a while with him standing against the drivers door. He was tall and slim and seemed to be teasing me. I could see the bulge in his jeans beginning to grow. I then got a hard on my self and had to adjust my prick in my jeans. We were about to take the conversation further when his brother called to him telling him that their mother had supper ready. When I went home that night I jerked off three times thinking about Paul and the possibility of he and I getting together. Time went by before we were able to work this out but it was too late. I learned around a couple of weeks later that Paul had gone to San Francisco. At that time I didn't know what that meant but Johnny and his mother and father never would answer any questions about Paul. Looking back, Paul must have been more aware of his sexuality, learned about the freer lifestyle in San Francisco and took control of his future. It was much later confirmed that he was gay. Before I went to high school there were a couple of more exploratory encounters but nothing more than that. One time a younger kid, Sonny, and I had been playing in the field and he asked me if he could see my prick, I said sure if I could see yours first. He willingly took his cock out which was already hard. He was uncut also but had his foreskin pulled back. it looked great to me and got me even harder than I had already been. His cock was around 6 inches and mine was close to 8 by that time. When I took mine out he said "wow your is as big as my brother Domenic's". Well the sight of Sonny's cock before me and the thought of him jerking off with Domenic thrust me over the edge and I shot my cum onto his jeans leg. He then immediately shot his load. Because we both came so fast we continued to talk about sex until we were both hard and then jerked off again. Sonny was from a distant neighborhood so it was unusual for us to be together, therefore we never got an opportunity to do it again. I remember one other encounter and that was with a different friend, Richard. This happened in the wood and it was just " you show me your and I'll show you mine". When he saw my hard on his only remark was "wow! what a hot dog!" I laughed and that was that. Next Chapter will be about high school. There were a couple of incidents, not too much, but I continued to struggle with my sexual identity and I was also confused about my non-physical attraction to boys.