Date: Thu, 26 Aug 2004 21:20:32 -0400 From: Jay Kool <jaykool74@hotmail.com> Subject: My So Called Life - Chapter Four "My So Called Life" -- Chapter Four by Jay Kool (jaykool74@hotmail.com) After spending a night in the hospital I was picked up by mother early in the morning returning home so I could take a shower and get ready for school. I mused to myself that I didn't even get a day off for good behavior. I slowly washed myself rehashing the events of yesterday and the day before that. Yesterday was the type of day I expected to encounter on a daily basis minus a friend like David and a card from the girls at school who thought I was cute. The day before was like a dream day at school for a dork like me, no matter how many clumsy mistakes I made I still made friends. My best friend, if I can call David that, actually seemed to like me but probably not in the same way I liked him. I wanted David as more than a friend, I wanted him to be my boyfriend that would protect me from the Billy's of the world, look out for me and joke with me. I finally broke out of my daze when my mother walked into my bathroom, what is wrong with her, she has never done that before, "I'm sorry honey, you didn't answer when I was calling and I wanted to make sure you were okay. We have a doctor's appointment today for a physical to find out why you are fainting." I would tell her why I'm fainting, but it's kind of hard to tell your mother that you are a wuss, half wimp and half pussy. I just nodded in agreement before she walked out. I dried off and got ready for school. I decided to dress in a manner that matched my mood today; everything I wore except my socks was solid black including my underwear. I wore a black and silver beaded necklace that my cousin gave me when he visited from California; apparently they are all the rage. We'll see what kind of response I get from my friends and classmates today now that I'm all dark and moody like normal. I headed bounded down the steps and into the kitchen with my backpack ready to go to school when my mother made me sit down to eat breakfast, we compromised and I took a pop tart with me as I headed out the door. I quickly downed the pop tart shoving the wrapper in my pants arriving at the bus stop about 5 seconds before the bus. I guess making it 2 out of 3 days is cool. David greeted me with a high five and Jim asked if I was okay. I stated that I was okay that it was nothing serious. At this David invited me to come over after school and I declined telling him that I had a doctor's appointment. His face was grief stricken when I told him to chill out that I was just getting a physical so I could play sports later this year. This actually surprised him, but I told him that I like to run track in the spring, which was a blatant lie. I'm getting better at lying to people, not that I am proud of it. We loaded on to the bus when Billy told David and I to sit up front that he didn't want our faggot asses in the back of the bus. David started to get angry but I pulled him into a seat with me, well actually kind of on my lap to get him to sit down. It was a little difficult since he was bigger than me but I managed to get him to ignore Billy. I can't wait until Billy gets what he deserves; I only hope I am alive to witness it. I almost shared my resentment with David when I thought better of getting him focused on Billy again. I asked David what he had planned tonight since he invited me over. David stated that he just wanted to hangout with me and to get to know me better. I guess I looked a bit shocked at his response, but I didn't pass out or turn white as a ghost for a change. He told me to stop acting like I won the lotto and to chill out a bit. "Dude you're going to have a stroke by age sixteen if you're not careful." Sometimes his quotes made me smile. Major exaggerations always made me smile. I wish everyone at school would treat me like David does, but the world is a cruel place for a runt like me. The bus stop and all of the middle school kids rushed out with me tagging along with David. We went to homeroom talking about comic books and our favorite TV shows. David was a bit shocked to learn that I never watched cartoons. I told him my parents believed that they would corrupt my young innocent mind in a sarcastic tone. He laughed stating that you can't corrupt the corrupted. I kept getting asked in the halls by students I don't think I ever met if I was okay to which I replied yes constantly. The first bell rang and David and I went into homeroom taking our respective seats when Mr. Barkley asked if I was okay and told me that he wouldn't accept yesterdays excuse if I missed a test for the same reason. I guess I turned white as a ghost upon hearing this and Mr. Barkley mused that he was just pulling my chain. He asked if I was feeling well to which I guess I nodded my head yes. A few of the girls giggled in class, I guess they thought it was cute how shy I was. It must be funny to watch a moron freeze up anytime anyone says anything to him. Mr. Barkley performed roll call to ensure that all the students were in his class. He gave me yesterday's assignment to catch me up to speed telling David and I to come here instead of study hall. I guess I was giving a inquisitive look when he explained that David would be teaching me yesterday's material. I smiled; David and I were going to spend some more time together. I paid attention the best I could in class but I kept secretly stealing glances at David, he was making me horny even though he was just sitting in class listening to lecture and taking notes. Class ended and I went through most of the day acting like a normal student, actually paying attention in class. Lunch arrived and I waited for David at the lunch line and I paid him the money that I owed him. He joked stating that I forgot the interest payment and if I didn't have it tomorrow Jimmy and Quito were going to break my legs. I asked who Quito was and he started laughing uncontrollably at my joke. He didn't know that I didn't catch on to his mafia joke. We bought lunch which I actually ordered quietly for myself, being told to speak up about 3 times and made it to the lunch table with Alex, Jim, and Jason. I asked Jim if he was going to break my legs to which he gave me a look like he just saw pigs flying through the sky. David quickly filled the table in on my apparent joke of asking who Quito was telling them about the supposed interest payment I owed him. They all started laughing telling me that I'd make a great comedy writer someday. I had no clue that I was so amusing; usually people are laughing at me not what I am saying. Jason asked why I was wearing all black and if I was a druggie to which I replied that I dressed according to how I was feeling this morning after leaving the hospital. Jim replied that after hospital food that I was just waiting for the grim reaper to take me out to eat at a better place. Other than that banter I heard nothing else about what I was wearing at school that day, well I overheard a girl from my homeroom tell another girl who sexy my butt looked in black jeans. I figured she must be the one taking dope if anyone in the school. I saw David and my other class mates change again for gym, I wish I was as hot as they were, but I'm not. I wasn't chosen last in flag football for the second time in a row, which surprised me. David told me not to get my hope up that I was just a good decoy. I accepted his joke as truth with no questions or opinion stated from me. I think this surprised David, but then again I tend to be a quiet kid with a lot of internal thoughts so he let it pass. I was asked by both gym teachers if I felt well enough to play, apparently everyone knows everything that happens to me at this school except the part about Billy kicking my ass. I'll keep that a secret. The rest of gym class was uneventful and my favorite part of the day came when I secretly watched David strip naked to take a shower. We showered next to each other where I had a raging boner; I didn't get off at all yesterday. I dropped the soap and picked it up bumping my head into David's crotch, needless to say I was embarrassed and I turned about six shades of red in less than a second. David smiled and said that there were easier ways to get someone's attention, like talking to them. A few of my classmates snickered and laughed at my embarrassment which didn't help me except to lose my boner. The rest of school flew by until study hall when David brought me up to speed in Mr. Barkley's class. We were sitting so close together with our desks that I could feel his leg tough mine causing me to lose my concentration. I could feel electrical pulses rip threw my body at lightning speed. I swore that the temperature had to rise about fifty degrees in the room. I could barely hold myself back from grabbing David and kissing him on the lips when Mr. Barkley left the room for the rest of the period. I told David that I had to go to the bathroom and left the room in a rush, I needed some relief before I exploded, literally and figuratively. I made it into the nearest stall where I sat down on the toilet seat and started to masturbate myself, it took less than a minute for me to cum thinking about David softly kissing me on the lips. I pulled up my pants and cleaned my hands before I went back to class. I couldn't believe that I was still horny and hard after I just came a few minutes ago, but I couldn't sit and jack off in the restroom all day. I made it back to class a little flushed and panting slightly which earned me a strange look from David. "What the heck were you doing? You look like you just ran a marathon.' "I just ran back from the bathroom, I though I saw Billy in the hallway and didn't want to bump into him again", I lied. I needed some serious help, I was lying to everyone. "So did the excitement make you horny or something?" David laughed pointing at my crotch. I was obviously hard and had no good answer for him, so I ignored his question sitting down. "Let's get back to work" I stated. David finished tutoring me with yesterday's lesson. Apparently neither the school nor he knew of my high intellect, I covered all of this material over two years ago at my last school. But I'd relive half my life over again if it involved me getting to be this close to David every day. The bell rang and we headed toward our next class together talking about nothing in particular and I couldn't help but to feel like I would give my life for a kiss from him, but the fear of his rejection would ruin me my mind surmised. I started to wonder about the type of woman he would end up marrying one day and how kids would look. I thought about the questions he would start to ask when he noticed that I never had a girlfriend. The future was going to be bleak indeed. I lived in Loserville, USA with a population of one. The rest of the day went by and I met my mother out front to head to the doctors office for a physical, which was to say embarrassing. He asked me if I masturbated in front of my mother to which I had to act like I had no clue what he was talking about, but I think that he knew better but realized that asking in front of my mom wasn't a good thing. He examined me and I felt like a dog someone takes to the vet to have checked out. The took a sample of blood and urine and the doctor stated that everything looked normal and if anything was wrong the blood and urine tests would tell conclusively if something was wrong with me. I didn't know that a blood sample could tell if you were a spaz or a dork, I guess you learn something new everyday. I got home and the phone rang, it was David on the phone for me. That's funny I didn't remember giving him my number, I know that I didn't have his number. I found out later that my mother gave him our number when she learned that he came to visit me in the hospital. I joked with him not to give it to all of the girls because they just wanted to use me and treat me like a piece of meat. My joke worked and this cracked him up. I asked him for his number and he gave it to me, I committed it to memory at once. David asked me which girl I was going to go out with first. I started to laugh when he started to sound agitated on the phone; I told him that no girl would want to go out with me. He asked me if I was blind and I told him no but he said that I must be to be missing all of the signs. I asked him which girl he liked and he said that he liked Amanda a girl from our homeroom class. I guess most of the boys liked her, but I wasn't attracted to any of the girls in my school I was GAY, but no one knew that so they all assumed that I had to like a few of the girls. I need to find a girl who only wanted a friend but would pretend to be a girlfriend to protect me from these insolent questions. Oh I forgot to tell you that I had a love letter in my locker that my mother caught me reading when she pulled up to pick me up. She thought it was so cute that her son had a love letter from a secret admirer. I'm sure she thought it was from a girl, I was wishing that it was from a boy... not just any boy but from David, but I knew better. I didn't tell David about the note; I didn't want to be harassed about being in love with a secret admirer from him. My mother and I ate dinner without dad; apparently he had to work late and wouldn't be home until 11. I have hardly seen our dad since we moved here from Chicago, so much for the good life he promised us to get us to move here. After dinner I was instructed to go to my room and to get caught up on my homework, I guess my mother didn't know that I covered the material this school was covering about two years ago. My grade point average was going to be easy to maintain the next few years, which was okay because I had a cute enough distraction to keep me from concentrating anyways. I went to my room closing the door and putting my chair against it to prevent my mother from accidentally walking in on me. I just about tore my pants open; I was still very horny from my tutoring session with David. I went into my bathroom pantless and picked up a bottle of hand cream. I returned to my bed peeling off my shirt throwing it on the floor shortly falling it with my underwear. I glanced at my reflection in the mirror/closet doors in my room. Yep I was still a scrawny kid; there was no getting around that. Why couldn't I be as hot as David? I lay down on my bed naked except for my white athletic socks and squeezed a little bit of lotion on my left hang, I am left handed. I slowly grabbed my cock in my fist and slowly massaged it slightly moaning to myself, it felt so good to be rubbing myself. I closed my eyes and imagined that I was kissing David on his mouth and moving my way down his neck to his chest, licking and sucking on his pecks and nipples. I was on top of him and we were on my bed where I was grinding my rock hard penis into his dick and it felt so good. I could feel and hear him moan as I continued to assault his chest working my way down to his visible six-pack. He was such a god; I could only wish to be half the boy that he was. I kissed and tongued the inside of his belly button which caused him to roar out in a fit of laughter, I assumed that he was ticklish like me :) I then started to rub his balls with my right hand as I took a hold of his towering member with my left hand lowering my mouth toward the head of his dick. I could see a drop of precum forming on the tip and licked it off to hear him moan and tell me how good I was making him feel. I took him inside my mouth slowly licking his shaft as David started to lift his hips wanting me to take more of him in my mouth. I eagerly obeyed his wishes until my lips were against his sparse pubic hairs. He withdrew in and out again. Over and over he repeated this dance moving his cock in and out of my mouth until he came into my mouth. At this I came actually landing my cum from my chin down to my belly button. I decided to take a chance and to taste my cum to see how it tasted since I just fantasized about tasting David's cum. I slowly gathered some cum on my finger and led it fall to my mouth when I heard my mother call for me downstairs. My cum tasted a little salty but it was not bad like I thought it would be. I figured it would have a disgusting taste but it was actually good. This was the first time I ever tasted any cum. I told her I'd be down in a minute and went to the bathroom to cleanup. The internet was a great tool to help me learn more about gay sex, it came complete with pictures and play by play descriptions. The internet also verified that I was much more attracted to guys than girls by a long shot. I hurriedly dressed, put my chair back at my desk and ran downstairs; well I tripped on the last floor landing with a slight thud on the floor. My dorkiness will never be cured I fear. She had a hard time keeping a straight face after she learned that I was okay, I sort of stopped paying attention to what she was actually saying before she sent me back up to my room to finish studying and to go to bed. I had a hard time concentrating on studying but I finally finished my homework around 9:00 PM, normally I go to bed round this time to make my mother happy, but at this moment I wanted to hear David's voice. I knew he stayed up later than me when I overheard him bragging about the late night shows he was allowed to watch. I called David's house and I guess he was a bit surprised to learn it was me calling him this late in the night. I asked if he'd get in trouble and he said that he'd be okay but we could only talk for an hour or so. It gave me goose bumps when I heard his voice answer the phone and I immediately became hard. We chatted about school and he asked me what I was doing this weekend and I told him that I didn't have definite plans. I didn't want to sound like the loser that I was and tell him that I never had any plans unless my parents made them. It seemed like we were only talking for a few minutes when he had to hang up, our hour of talking was up, so we said goodbye to each other and hung up. We connected with each other so well it seemed like we had known each other our whole lives instead of three days. I think I want to spend the rest of eternity with him, I only wished he felt the same way as I did. I hung up the phone and my mother entered my room without knocking, she had a bad habit of doing that, asking who I was talking with on the phone. I think she was hoping that it was a girl so I'd seem a bit more normal than I actually am, but I told her I was talking with David. She was a bit surprised since I spoke to him this afternoon; I told her that I just felt like talking to him. She left the room as I changed into my pajamas and brushed my teeth. As I was getting into bed, she tucked me in kissing me on the forehead. She asked me if I felt okay today at school and I told her I felt fine. She shut off the light closing the door as she went to bed. My dad still wasn't home from work yet, I haven't spoken more than ten minutes with him in the last week. I didn't know that his job would keep him this busy; I'll have to have a talk with him tomorrow. I woke up on my own for the first time in a couple of years without the assistance of an alarm clock or my mother. I got ready for school, avoiding the mirror; I didn't want to think about my looks this early in the morning. I figured if I woke up early enough I could catch my dad before he left for work. After I took my shower, brushed my teeth and combed my hair, which was getting long by my standards (down past my color) I got dressed. I picked out a blue shirt (David's favorite color) wearing it with a pair of black jeans and my new Nike Air Jordan's that I haven't worn anywhere yet. I put on my necklace, David complimented how original and cool it was when he saw it yesterday so I decided that I would wear it everyday to school. This is the first time I consciously tried to look good for school, I was trying to impress David. I went downstairs into the kitchen and noticed that it was empty, that was strange my father was always an early riser, but he never left this early for work. I headed back upstairs and decided to check to see if he was still in bed. I knocked lightly on my parent's bedroom door; I haven't done this in a few years, not since my last nightmare. The door opened and I noticed that my mother was sleeping alone and that my father's side of the bed was never slept in. Why wasn't my dad sleeping at home like most dads do? It's not like I saw him and my mother fighting at all since we moved here. I decided to walk to school today and headed back to the kitchen where I left my mother a note letting her know that I already left for school. I needed some time to think and adjust to the thought that my dad wasn't sleeping at home and this is the first I knew about it. I wondered how long this charade had been going on, were they trying to make me think that everything was okay even though he was never around. Were my parents getting a divorce? Was my dad cheating on my mom? Literally thousands of questions were buzzing inside of my head as I walked to school. School was three miles away so I had a little over forty-five minutes to try and think things through before I made it to school. I exchanged my books for the ones that I needed for my first few classes, we were not allowed to carry back packs between classes as a safety concern. None of the teachers wanted any students to conceal any weapons. Did you really have to worry about that in a town like this? It's not like it's New York or Chicago. I made my way to the library where I was the only student in there with a few of the librarians. No one made a fuss went I went and sat down at a table by myself. They were probably glad that I wasn't causing trouble and being a hassle this early in the morning. For a change my thoughts were not solely focused on David, they were focused on my parents. I didn't feel that I could trust talking to a counselor since my dad was the superintendent of the school district. I was going to have to find out if my parents were having a fight or if this was a sign of my new life to come, an only child of divorced parents. I didn't know if it would be easier to confront my mother or father. ----- The fourth day of school according to David ----- I wonder if Tyler is okay, he's not at the bus stop again. Maybe he overslept and his mother is dropping him off at school again. I wish Billy would miss the bus once and a while, he is acting like a total jerk off today. He told me that he was going to kick my sissy ass if I didn't straighten my faggot ass out. I don't think I'm gay but then again I've been thinking about Tyler quite a lot lately, even worrying if he'll be okay. It's not like I've known him that long but somehow it seems like I've known him since the day I've been born. He makes me laugh by acting clumsy and stupid on purpose, no one can be that clumsy and it seems like he may have had a hard time at school in the past. He doesn't pay attention in most of his classes and he doesn't show much of an interest in sports either. I arrived at school, dropping my books and backpack off in my locker, getting the books I needed until lunchtime. As I was walking toward homeroom to drop my books off, I thought I saw Tyler sitting in the library staring at the carpet. Why would he be at school so early? ----- Back to Tyler ----- "What's up Tyler?" David asked trying to hold his excitement back at seeing Tyler at school today. David was worried that Tyler might be sick today when he wasn't on the bus. When Tyler didn't respond, David decided to touch Tyler saying his name again and Tyler about jumped out of his skin letting out a shriek turning white as a ghost again. "Dude chill out it is only me? Why are you so jumpy all the time? When you didn't answer me I just wanted to make sure you weren't sleeping with your eyes open or something." David mused. "I'm sorry I was just thinking about something." Tyler whispered as he felt his heartbeat return to a normal pace. "Why don't we head to class?" Tyler stated as he started to head for the library doors. David had no choice really but to follow, he was curious about what Tyler was thinking about and didn't want to let him out of sight. Tyler finally slowed down enough for David to catch up when they reached their homeroom. "Ty, what's the big rush to get to homeroom?" "Um, I just feel safer here that's all." "Are you worried about Billy again?" It appeared as if Tyler was going to faint as soon as David said Billy's name. David was getting a little suspicious and asked, "Ty, did Billy have something to do with Tuesday's hospital visit?" Tyler stood as still as a mountain not moving and barely breathing as David waited for an answer for what seemed like eternity but was only a few seconds in reality. "Tyler, answer me bud, did Billy hurt you on Tuesday?" A tear streaked down Ty's face as he tried to shake his head no and lie to his best friend, but his head answered with a slight nod to signal a yes answer, completely opposite of what Ty was hoping he could answer. Tyler couldn't lie to David no matter how hard he tried, he loved David too much and it hurt to lie to his parents, but the pain would be nothing compared to that of lying to David. A second tear quickly followed by a third tear fell as Tyler started to shake, the questioning about Tuesday was too much for him to take after realizing that his parents may be getting a divorce. His whole world was falling apart and there was nothing that he could do to stop it. The only good thing going for him was hugging him, trying to console him and trying to figure out the best way of protecting Ty from Billy. David somehow felt Ty's pain although he knew only part of what was causing it. He actually felt his eyes well up with a few tears as he hugged Ty tight. David just realized that he gave Tyler a nickname. David and Ty hugged for about two minutes before Mr. Barkley came into the classroom and asked what was wrong. Tyler tried to answer but couldn't find the words to say and David told Mr. Barkley that he thinks that Billy hurt Tyler on Tuesday causing the hospital visit. Mr. Barkley stated that they all could talk about it tomorrow when Tyler had time to come to grips with what may or may not have happened. Mr. Barkley was a logical man and would not jump to conclusions; he would have to hear Tyler say that Billy caused Tuesday's incident before he could believe that it may have happened. David and Tyler sat in their seats as the rest of their classmates came into class after the first bell rang. It was evident that Tyler had been crying and looked like David may have been crying earlier but it wasn't as noticeable. Many of the girls in class brave enough to approach David and Tyler asked what was wrong and David said it was just Tyler's allergies acting up. Tyler was still too choked up to speak up for himself or anyone else. All of the girls let out an aww and tried to dote over Tyler who fussed a bit until they left him returning to their seats when the final bell rang. Tyler was saved by the bell. David felt even closer to Tyler at this moment and had to have a heart to heart talk with his new best friend after school today. Classes came and went until lunchtime and Tyler never said a word to anyone the whole time. He sulked his way through classes with sad puppy dog eyes that had all of the girls wondering why he was so sad. They also commented how cute he looked dressed up today and the only response Tyler had to that was wondering what David thought of the outfit he specifically wore for him. Tyler entered the lunchroom waiting near line for David to appear when he realized that he forgot his lunch money again. Why did he have to be such a damn stupid idiot on a daily basis? Why could he be normal like everyone else? Why did he have to be gay and have a crush on his straight best friend? Why were his parents going to get divorced and why haven't they told him yet? Why was God so cruel in making him live out this crummy life versus having him get killed by a speeding semi. Life wasn't making any sense to Tyler at the moment and he was beginning to get mad at the world. Tyler was getting ready to head out to the front lawn of the school to sit by himself to think when he saw David come skipping up to him with a smile about seven miles wide. Even David's huge smile failed to produce a twinge of a smile out of Tyler; he was not in any mood to be sociable. David noticed Ty's anger and asked why he was mad. Ty still didn't say anything; he just looked down at the ground looking like a boy who just lost his puppy or best friend in the world. Ty was too angry to be embarrassed or to be overcome by an anxiety attack; he almost was normal except for the angry and sadness. David answered his own questions, "Let me guess, you forgot your lunch money again?" Ty nodded yes and David told Ty not to worry that he had enough money to cover him today. Once again David was saving Tyler from major embarrassment, he couldn't bear to be laughed at again by all of the students for being stupid enough to forget his lunch money. David ordered Ty's food again just like he did on the first day of school, except he remembered not to order anything with chocolate in it. He couldn't have his best friend dying on him especially after the way things went on Tuesday. They both paid for their lunch walking toward their table when Ty tripped over his shoelace reliving Monday all over again. David could only shake his head slightly before helping Ty clean up. He was going to have to teach this boy a bit of coordination or Ty would never make it through high school. Today about 2/3 of the number of students laughed at Ty, but it was enough to humiliate him sending him past his breaking point. Tyler yelled out the loudest he ever did in his life, "Fuck you, I fell okay fucking let it go!" as he stormed out of the lunchroom with the look of a demon in his eyes. This was not the typical Ty that anyone was used to seeing in school or anywhere else for that matter. As Ty was storming out of the lunchroom, he ran into Billy who was coming into the cafeteria for lunch. "Watch where you are going spaz" Billy threatened Tyler after running into him. Tyler yelled at Billy to "Fuck off" as he swung at Billy, hitting him so hard that he knocked him down on the ground, but Tyler didn't stop there. He continued to punch Billy in the face, telling Billy that he'll never threaten him again, nor will he ever hit him again. He told Billy that he was going to pay for sending him to the hospital, hitting him the whole time with his hardest punches. Billy couldn't do much to stop the beating but to try and block the punches. Billy was surprised the twerp could hit as hard as he was, in a way gaining Billy's respect. Even though Billy was getting a good beating, he wasn't afraid. It was nowhere as bad as the beatings he received at home when his step dad was drunk. It took three teachers and David to pull Tyler off of Billy and to calm him down. A few rumors are that Tyler simply had a case of temporary insanity and that he released his pent up angry on Billy, which Billy deserved for what he did to Tyler on Tuesday. Billy actually confessed to Tuesday sparing Tyler from getting out of school suspension, something that you would never expect the superintendent's son to be receiving for fighting at school. In the end Tyler and Billy came to a truce and the teacher's felt like neither one deserved nothing more than detention. Tyler was sent home for the day, causing his mother to miss another day working at the high school and the ripple of the fight hit the teachers' rumor mill gaining his father's attention. She realized that he was having a difficult time adjusting and was still trying to figure out how to tell Tyler that his father and she were getting a divorce that his father was going to move back to Chicago, leaving them both in Bloomington. Tyler's father was waiting for his son adjust to life in here before he left for Chicago, he couldn't stand life in this small town and missed his mistress in Chicago who made up with him two weeks ago. Tyler and his mother arrived home and she tried to ask him what happened but gave up trying when he remained despondent to her communication attempts. She told him to go to his room and not to come out until he was ready to talk. He was more than ready to comply with her request; he lied down on his bed and closed his eyes. He wished that he could just start his life over again with David and his four friends, at a time when his parents were happily married. His wishful thinking didn't do anything except cause him to be further depressed. He fell asleep wishing that he were dead, rather than to face the life that was waiting for him to live. If you like this story series so far, you may want to read my other fiction story series: Gay --> high school --> Music Store Teens Bi --> college --> College Firsts Any non-flamer feedback is welcome, email me at jaykool74@hotmail.com