Date: Fri, 27 Aug 2004 18:44:37 -0400
From: Jay Kool <jaykool74@hotmail.com>
Subject: My So Called Life - Chapter Five

"My So Called Life" -- Chapter Five by Jay Kool (jaykool74@hotmail.com)

	Tyler woke up to the sound of the phone ringing that was answered
before he could get out of bed.  He thought to himself that it was probably
someone calling for his mom, but it was David calling to check up on Tyler
to see how he was doing.  Tyler's mother, Patricia, told David that Tyler
was grounded until he told her what happened at school.  Patricia was
surprised as David told her what had been happening that week at school;
David told her everything from Ty's embarrassing moment's right through
Tyler beating up Billy.  David did not spare any details as he narrated
what had been going on.
	Patricia had tears in her eyes as she hung up the phone; it
occurred to her that this was definitely not the right time for a divorce
in Tyler's life, that it would crush him.  She felt guilty about condemning
Tyler to his room for refusing to talk to her and decided it would be best
to make it up to him by going up to have a little chat with her son that
was growing up so fast.  She walked upstairs to Tyler's bedroom peering in
to see him peacefully sleeping on the bed, looking like the sweet angel she
loved so much.  She didn't know how to protect him anymore; they decided to
move against Jack's wishes from Chicago.  She couldn't watch her son being
tormented by the other kids on a daily basis, but is seemed as if the move
was a mistake.  She was losing her husband to protect her son.
	She walked up to Tyler gently nudging him awake with a soft smile
on her face.  She apologized to her son for being so rough with him
downstairs and asked if he wanted to go out to eat.  Tyler shook his head
no; even his own mother couldn't get him to talk.  The only words Tyler
said today were actually yells in anger.  She finally gave up after he
refused to let her hug him, telling herself that he was still angry from
before and that he'd get over it if she left him alone.  She decided to try
one last thing to cheer him up, she told him that David called, and that
even failed to light his eyes up.  Tyler was too emotionally spent at the
moment to even get excited about his best friend calling.  She lay down
next to him and told him that she'd get up when he decided to that they
needed to talk.
	The sun came cascading through the open blinds waking up Patricia
and she finally realized that she never left Tyler's side.  He was still
sleeping silently next to her apparently willing to wait her out; he could
always be a bit stubborn like his dad.  She woke him up by whispering his
name, gradually going louder until he faced her.  For a moment he was happy
remembering the last time she slept with him, that was over two years ago
after he had a terrible nightmare where he dreamed that he was being burnt
up alive in a car wreck with his parents.  His mother never understood why
he had a dream like that when he was only ten years old, but she attributed
it to something that he saw on television.  Tyler slowly sat up in bed,
rubbing the sleep out of his eyes before he yawned while stretching.
	"Mom, why are you and dad getting a divorce?" Tyler asked shocking
his mother.  She had no idea that he had a clue about what was going on.
"It's obvious; he hasn't been coming home to even sleep.  When were you
going to tell me?"  His mother tried to answer him the best she could, but
she didn't have a good answer short of the truth to tell him.
	"Honey, we moved here to get you out of that private school where
you were picked on all of the time, but we didn't want you going to a big
city school either.  Your father apparently had a mistress that he kept hid
from me back home and isn't happy living her in Bloomington.  I was waiting
for the last time to tell you, your father will be resigning his position
with the school immediately after our divorce.  I hope you understand that
we still love you and that none of this is your fault."  Tyler's mother
spoke in honest soft spoken voice; she didn't want to hide anything from
him.  "Do you want to tell me about the last week at school?"
	The look on Tyler's face was shocked to say the least, but he
figured if his mother was honest with him maybe he should be honest with
her.  He told her all about the week at school which confirmed what she was
told by David.  Tyler also told her that he was gay, which was a tidbit of
information that she wasn't expecting to hear and had a hard time
digesting, but didn't move from where she was sitting.  She was also
stunned to hear that he had a crush on David, not as surprised as she was
to learn that he was gay.
	Ty almost thought that she'd start to yell at him and disown him,
but his mother remained calm and collected; she accepted the fact that he
was gay.  He told her that she was the only one that knew that he was gay,
which gave her a little bit of pride to still know that her son trusted her
enough to tell her such a personal and intimate detail at such a young age.
She questioned how he knew at such an early age and she was astonished to
learn that the internet contained pornography on it; she thought that it
was only an educational research tool.  She almost forbid him from using
the internet but realized that it was silly because he already saw anything
that she would've tried to protect him from.  She admitted that he was
growing up and told him that he could talk to her about anything, that she
would keep an open mind and keep his secrets without telling anyone.  This
was the closest Ty felt to his mother since the day before his first day of
school started.
	After having a very long conversation, they both realized that he
was late for school and that she was late for work.  She called into work
and told them that she was still trying to deal with what happened
yesterday and promised to work the next two weekends to cover detention to
make up for missing so much work.  She then called into Ty's school to call
him off sick.  She called up her husband, Jack and handed the phone to Ty
to let him tell Jack that he knew about the divorce that was coming.  He
left his father speechless when he told him that if he loved him that he
wouldn't be leaving him and his mother before hanging up on his father.
	Patricia came out from taking a shower when she heard Ty crying and
went to console him.  She tried to tell him that his father loved him very
much each time Ty said that his father hated him.  Ty could barely talk but
she could still understand what he was saying as she held him in her arms.
Things were not going to be as easy as Jack and she had previously thought.
She let Ty fall asleep and went downstairs to talk to Jack filling him in,
her husband made a comment he regreted as soon as he said it, "the little
bastard's getting what he deserves."  Patricia decided at that moment that
there would be no shared custody ever with Jack.
	Tyler woke up in the middle of the afternoon with his best friend
napping beside him, it was a pleasant surprise.  David came over after
school to check and see if Ty was okay and his mother told him he was in
his room to go on up.  Ty quietly got out of bed and went to the bathroom.
When Ty came out of the bathroom, he apprached David quietly and kissed him
softly on his forehead even though he desparately wanted to kiss him on the
lips.  Ty couldn't take the chance of losing his best friend, not at this
moment in his life.  Ty had too many other things to worry about besides
coming out to a boy he met a few days ago.
	Ty wasn't aware but David was awake when he kissed him on the
forehead, secretly wanting to see what it would feel like to be kissed by
Ty.  David was confused about his sexuality after being around Ty so much
the last three days and hoped that Ty was as confused or gay.  He was a
little disappointed when Ty just kissed him on his forehead, like David had
done to Ty twice before, it still left the question of Ty's sexuality open.
David couldn't believe how hard Ty's kiss had made him, but he didn't dare
let Ty know that he was turned on, not yet.  He had to be sure that it
wasn't just a faze or that it just wasn't brotherly affection for Ty.  It
seemed like Ty really needed his protection and David was happy to provide
it.  It hurt him to see Ty so miserable looking all of the time, no kid
should have to endure that much unhappiness.
	Ty laid back down against David and thought better of it since he
was hard and didn't want David to notice.  Ty felt like it was 2000 degrees
in the room and as red as his face was you would've believed it if you
didn't know better.  After a few minutes, David rolled over toward Ty
awake, and Ty shaded another few shades of darker red.  David thought it
was so cute, he just realized that he thought Ty was cute.  David slowly
leaned forward to Ty and kissed him lightly on the lips with his eyes open
much to Ty's amazement.  As David was withdrawing from the kiss, Ty scooted
closer to David and french kissed him back and they both held the kiss
working their tongues in each other's mouth until Ty thought he was going
to pass out.  David was really tasty.  Ty and David continued to make out
for well over a half an hour, Ty was too shy to go any further and David
didn't know how Ty would react if he tried to go any further.  It was
actually a really cute dilemma for them.  Each boy felt so hot to the other
one that they thought the other one was going to burn up.  Ty was so happy
to be kissing the boy of his dreams, finally something good was going to
happen to him, David could accept Ty for who he was and that made Ty the
happiest boy on the planet at that moment.  David was caught up in the heat
of the moment, so he wasn't thinking about anything except sex.  Ty loved
it when David would kiss and lick his neck, in fact it almost drove him
nuts.  David loved it when Ty would softly blow into his ear and lick and
kiss it.  The two boys giggled and made out for a while more and David
discovered with his roaming hands where Ty was ticklish.
	Ty and David never noticed Patricia who watched the boys make out
for about two minutes before she decided to head downstairs.  Technically
she never considered it spying since his door was wide open.  She figured
if they decided to go any further than making out that they would close the
door and she would have to interrupt to have the talk with her son.  Most
likely embarrasing him to death, but you can never be too safe about sex.
	Ty and David grinded into each other while kissing, basically dry
humping until Ty and David both came into their pants, moaning while trying
to keep their lips locked in a kiss.  Ty's mother heard this but left it go
since she could see up the stairs and into Ty's room to verify that they
were still wearing clothes.  She realized that young men came really easy.
	After David came he realized that he needed to cleanup and Ty told
him to use his bathroom, that he could wait.  Ty almost offered to help
clean him up, but he wasn't exactly that brave.  Ty reached inside his
pants with his fingers and grabbed some of his cum that didn't soak in and
lick it off his fingers.  Waste not want not was one of his mottos.  David
walked out as Ty was licking the last of his cum off of his fingers with a
disgusted look on his face.  Ty was too satisfied to be self conscious at
this point and told David to chill out.  David immediately smiled, Ty was
now talking like him.  Ty went to finish cleaning up as David sat on Ty's
bed still a little flushed from cumming recently.
	Ty realized that he needed to talk with David to see if David was
actually on the same page as him.  The last thing he wanted getting out at
school as that he was gay.  His life was already tough enough and he didn't
think that David would sell him out, but you could never guarantee anything
at school.  Sometimes friendships end bitterly and secrets are told to hurt
each other.  Ty went to his bed and sat down next to David and asked him to
define what it meant, the make out session.  Ty also asked it David was gay
and was disappointed to find out that David was confused after what just
happened.
	David asked if Ty was gay and Ty couldn't answer, he just sat there
with tears streaking down his face, slightly shivering, staring directly
into David's eyes.  If there was a way for Ty to pull at David's heart
strings, this was definitely one of the most effective ways to do it.  Ty
tried to answer, but he couldn't answer, the words just wouldn't come out.
Ty felt so embarrassed for crying and not being able to answer so he ran
down the stairs to his mother, grabbing her in a tight embrace that was
almost hurting her.  She could feel him shaking uncontrollably as he cried.
She tried to comfort him as best she could, but he wouldn't stop crying.
Without David telling Ty he was gay, Ty felt as if his world was ending and
couldn't handle facing David or anyone but his mother.
	David followed downstairs about a minute later realizing that Ty
was gay but would never admit to it unless he was with someone who already
knew or someone who came out first.  David was being totally honest with Ty
before, he didn't want to answer falsly.  David saw Ty from behind hugging
his mother tightly who looked at David with a helpless look on her face,
she didn't know what to do to help Ty.  She motioned with her free arm for
David to leave.  David was so stunned to see Ty in this condition that he
left without saying a word.
	Tyler clung hopelessly to his mother crying nonstop for another
hour after David left and was still crying when Patricia finally convinced
Ty to let go of her so they could go sit down or lay down to be more
comfortable.  Ty knew his mother meant well when she was trying to console
him but he couldn't express anything but tears of sadness and guilt for
exposing his weakness to David.  Patricia and Ty went to bed in her bedroom
with him clinging to her.  Ty cried for another 4 or 5 hours until he was
exhausted and fell asleep because his body didn't know what else to do.
Patricia fell asleep soon after near 10:15 PM exhausted.
	Ty had a nightmare where David was trying to provoke Ty into
fighting calling him all kinds of names ranging from a chicken to a faggot.
When none of these names incensed Ty into fighting David, David started to
push Ty around the basketball court at school and slapping him lightly on
the face to humiliate.  David then grew impatient at Ty's refusal to settle
things like a man and started to punch Ty until Ty finally snapped and
started to fight back.  Only Ty couldn't stop once he started, he
continually punched and kicked David until David wasn't moving anymore.  Ty
had just killed David.
	"Noooooooooo!!!!!" Tyler yelled at the top of his lungs with all
the might his small body could muster scaring his mother half to death in
the process who bolted upright in bed.  She regained a sense of what was
going on as her heart beat a million miles a minute and turned on a bedlamp
asking Ty what was wrong.  All Ty could do was babble that he killed David
over and over again, shaking and rocking back and forth.  Patricia hugged
her son whispering in his ear that it was all a bad dream, that David was
okay.  This continued for about an hour until Ty finally calmed down and
stopped shivering, not realizing that he was making his mother cry worrying
about him.
	All of Ty's woes were weighing her down and causing her to doubt
her choice to pull him out of the private school in Chicago.  She only
wanted the best for her son, she didn't want him to have a miserable life
and was willing to give up her life to make him happy.  Her plan was
failing and it appeared as if there was nothing she could do to save her
son from being tormented.  She knew why he was hurting so much, it was that
David didn't know whether or not he was gay.  David was confused and Ty was
not.  Ty couldn't stand the heartache of David not feeling the same way
about him, that combined with the bully at school and his parents divorce
were going to leave Ty in a tough spot.  She only wondered if things could
get worse for him and if there was a way she could make things easier for
Ty as he adjusted to his new life without his father.  Eventually Ty and
she fell asleep only to be awaken by her alarm, she got up shutting it off
and go ready for work, letting Tyler sleep a little longer.  She only hoped
that he'd be okay enough today to return to school.
	She woke Ty up, who greeted her with a groan too tired to remember
what had weighed him down yesterday, he was still exhausted but she figured
it was better for him to go to school than to sit home along.  She went
downstairs and called over to David's house asking him to keep an eye on Ty
today or to have another mutual friend to make sure that Ty wasn't
tormented by the bully.  She started to explain that Ty was in a delicate
emotional state because his father and she were getting a divorce and that
Ty was not taking it well.  David also knew that Ty wanted David to admit
that he was gay so that he and Ty could be together, but David was too
confused yet to make any type of those decisions.  Ty got ready in his half
dazed state as he remembered what happened between him and David.



If you like this story series so far, you may want to read my other fiction
story series:

Gay --> high school --> Music Store Teens
Bi --> college --> College Firsts

Any non-flamer feedback is welcome, email me at jaykool74@hotmail.com