Date: Wed, 11 Jul 2001 19:56:44 -0000
From: Matty Boy <mattyboi36@hotmail.com>
Subject: nate 2

He walked past me and as he turned the corner of the corridor I realised I
was drooling. I wiped my saliva away and stood grinning like a cat.
Jamie had obviously gotten sick of waiting for me and had gone off with some
other guys in his next  class. It took me a few minutes to realise I was
late for my own class and I hurried off searching for my locker along with
the other thousands of lockers that were imbedded in the large, gaping
corridor.

One part of me was happy that I had found the guy of my dreams. The other
part felt like shit because the other guy was already with someone. I
couldn't be seen with him either. People would think I was gay and I could
have that... could I? Or course not... right? I sighed and took out my
history book. Awww man I'm gonna be late... AGAIN!

The hour of class felt like 10 hours and I started to think the clock on the
wall was broken until I heard the familiar sound of the buzzer ringing
loudly in my ears. jamie was waitin g outside and he was talking to some
girl that looked like exactly a dogs backside. Jeez what is it with him and
girls? Does he ever get attracted to guys? I couldn't understand him
sometimes but I guess that just came with the package of  being his friend.
"hey Matt!" he called as he shooed off the girl who was sitting patiently
next to him.  "hey Jamie" I said smiling. He always managed to make me feel
better. "hey you know that guy that you asked about?" he said looking proud
of himself. "yeah what about him?" I said defensively as if he were accusing
me of something. "I just beat the shit out of him" I stared at him. Not
being able to speak. "y.. you did WHAT!?!?!?!?!" I looked at him with
absolute disgust as my anger reached its peak. How could he do this?!? I
thought he was my friend  and now he's bullying guys. no... not bullying..
even worse!! Beating them up! I grabbed his shirt and pulled him right up to
me so our chests were touching "WHY DID YOU FUCKING DO IT?!" he played it
cool and just grinned at me through his shades "he's a fag Matt. He deserved
it" by now I was so mad at him I couldn't even see strait. I didn't know
what I was doing for a few seconds until I came to my senses and realised I
was hitting my best friend, and no matter what he had done I should never
hit someone. I stopped abruptly and looked around our classmates who were
staring at us. He had his hands covering his face and he was lying on the
ground with his broken shades lying next to him. I picked them up and helped
him to his feet although he kept trying to push me away "I'm.. I'm really
sorry jamie.. I didn't mean to do that. I'm so sorry. I hugged him and I
heard a few sniggers from members of my class. oh no! now they all think I'm
gay. GOD DAMNIT!I I scowled at jamie, still angry at what he had done "where
is he?!" I demanded and he stared blankly at me. I grabbed him by his shirt
again "WHERE IS HE JAMIE?!" I shouted." h.. he's in the bathroom... I can't
believe you just hit me" I let go of him and pushed him away "well believe
it Jamie" and I sprinted out of class and down the hall to the bathroom that
was placed at the end by the doors leading out to the grounds. I stopped at
the bathroom door and pushed it slowly open...  god I hope he's alright.