Date: Thu, 12 Jul 2001 19:13:38 -0000
From: Matty Boy <mattyboi36@hotmail.com>
Subject: nate chapter  3

I stepped into the bathroom and looked around for Nate.  He didn't seem to
be in there and I thought that maybe jamie wasn't telling the truth about
where the fight had happened. I started to get angry again and stormed out
of the bathroom. Ohhhh he's done it this time. I thought to myself. I was
just walking through the door when I heard a sob coming from one of the
stalls. I stopped in my tracks and walked calmly back into the bathroom. I
walked past all the stalls slowley until  I came to the last one. It was
closed and I also gussed it was locked but the sign which said "occupied."
I heard another sob and I was completely confused about what to do. I wanted
to help him... god I wanted to help him... but to be honest.. I was pretty
damn scared. Maybe it was because I didn't know what to do, or maybe it was
because I was afraid he wouldn't like me. I didn't know why I was even
thinking this. He HAD a boyfriend and there was nothing I could do about it.
Accept maybe be his friend. I would do anything to get close to him....
Anything.

"here goes" I thought shaking my head nervously.  I knocked loudly on the
door and waited. I heard another sob and he was quiet again. I put my ear
up to the door and tried to talk...

"are you alright?" I asked shaking a little

"haven't you finished yet? Come to beat me up some more?!?! LEAVE ME THE
FUCK ALONE!" he screamed through the door. I backed away and felt pretty
sorry for myself. He thought I was the bad guy. I wasn't!!!

"no I don't wanna hurt you at all.. I just.. just wanna help.." I sighed. We
had already gotten off at a bad start.

"I don't need your damn help now will you fuck off?" he  said angrily. I
stepped away from the door and tears welled up in my eyes.. god I'm so
pathetic..

"I'm sorry" I said and began to walk slowly to the door. As I opened the
door someone pushed past me and ran right to the bottom of the bathroom
where Nate was. I turned around and looked. He had brown hair and was quite
slim, around 5'6 but was a little out of shape. Cute though I thought. I got
back into reality and stopped studying his features to focus on what he was
doing. He was banging on the stall and calling "Nate? Baby are you alright?
C'mon open the door. Its me. C'mon baby"

I gussed this was his boyfriend... I looked a little longer and saw the
stall open and Brian rush in to help his boyfriend. I didn't need to see
anymore. Tears started welling up again and I walked through the door. As I
left I heard him talking to nate "aww baby its alright. You're not hurt that
bad." Kissing sounds followed and so did my tears....

I hate my life..