Date: Tue, 2 May 2006 01:20:04 +0800
From: YoDawgs Bl.net <yodawgs.blnet@gmail.com>
Subject: Search For Conscience, Chapter 15

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The car pulled up on the driveway, brake pads squealing as it made contact
with the Goodyear tyres. Cody winced at the sound, as he pulled himself up
into a sitting position, gripping Seth's and Sean's shoulders as leverage.

"Okay, I'll have to carry you in again, Cody." John said from the front.
"Unless, of course, you would rather feel the freezing gravel on the soles
of your feet."

"Oh, yes please." Cody quickly acknowledged

"Would you boys like to go first?" John asked, although Cody was sure that
it was a command.

The rest of the boys clambered and shuffled their way out of the car, and
made their way up the pavement into the shaded area of the doorway, while
Regina opened the door and strode up demurely to the door, dangling a chain
of keys from her fourth finger. John exited the car, before reappearing in
front of Cody, beside the left back passenger door.

"Hop aboard, Cody." Cody obliged, wrapping his arms around John's neck and
gripping Sean's waist with his legs. John carried him to the already opened
majestic front door, and set him down, before saying,

"Take care of Sean, won't you? I love both of you so much, that it hurts."
He winked, before leaning down and kissing Cody on the forehead. Cody
hugged his legs, savouring the moment of love. John made an about turn and
returned to the car. Cody felt cold hands squeezing the back of his neck,
and realised it was Regina supplying him with an affectionate cuddle. He
leant back into her, and she turned him toward the direction of the
staircase.

"Why don't you join your companions? If you need anything at all, I'll be
down here, watching the television, okay?" Cody nodded.

He ran up the staircase, anticipating a game on the XBOX. He thudded down
the corridor, scampering toward the oak door that shielded Sean's room from
the outside. As he reached the slightly ajar door, he heard moaning and
groaning sounds. He stopped, pressing his ear to the door. What in the
world was going on? The moaning increased in magnitude; Cody was sure it
was either Seth or Sebastian. He pushed open the door silently, the sound
waves hitting him, increasing in wavelength. What he saw did not shock him
in the least.

Sebastian was laying face-up on one of the cushions surrounding the XBOX,
chest rising and falling, face contorted in a grimace of pain. Cody knew
immediately why. A new bruise had formed on Sebastian's stomach,
discolouring it, and displaying a chrome of blue-black on the navel and
surrounding flesh. Seth was gently pressing his thumbs into it, causing
Sebastian to groan with pain every time pressure was applied. Seth lifted
his fingers, examining them. His fingerprints were stained with red,
emphasising the detailed lines that depicted his identity.

He looked at his bloodstained fingers sadly, before rubbing them onto a
piece of tissue that was fluttering on the ground beside him. Sean was
booting up the XBOX, kneeling on the ground as he waited for the game to
start. Of course, all of them had shed their shirts; jackets and t-shirts
were strewn all over the floor.

"Oh Sebastian, I'm so sorry. I didn't know." Seth wailed, as he pressed the
tissue to Sebastian's abdomen.

"It's alright, Seth. I didn't know as well. I guess it must have happened
yesterday. Now I know why it hurt so much, when you hit me this morning."

"Oh god. I feel like a damn troll now." Seth whimpered.

"A troll?!" Sebastian burst out laughing, his abdominal muscles contorting
with each bout. "Where did you get that from?"

Seth scowled, and pressed again into Sebastian's abdomen, causing blips of
blood to form on the surface of his skin. Sebastian moaned with pain.

"Mnnnngh... Seth... don't..." he managed to form, before groaning again,
his right hand tapping the wooden floor unevenly, and his other hand on
Seth's shoulder, begging him silently not to continue.

"Gently, please..."

The pain had its effects on Seth as well. He winced every time Sebastian
groaned with pain, and his back was dotted with perspiration, as
Sebastian's torso. He sat perched on Sebastian's waist, knees touching the
floor and ankles facing upwards. Finally, after testing the bruise a few
more times, and receiving loud moans of disapproval from Sebastian, which
in turn caused him to screw up his eyes in empathy, he gave up.

"I can't do it, Sebastian!" he nearly shouted in exasperation, brushing his
fingers away from Sebastian's abdominal area. Sebastian eased up, breathing
altering from ragged to subtle. There were droplets of blood on his lower
lip, where he had sunk his teeth in. Seth groaned with regret, and swiped
the blood off with his thumb, before allowing the tissue to absorb the
mauve liquid. He began toying with Sebastian's chest, and rubbing the small
light-pink protrusions. Sebastian moaned softly, this time with ecstasy,
his own hands playing with Seth's nipples as well. It seemed almost
natural, the way in which Seth automatically began moaning in
synchronization with Sebastian. Cody noticed that they were almost humming,
both pairs of eyes shut in a meditative manner, fingers playing with tits
as if they were meditation beads. Sean looked around from the single-player
game he was engrossed in, and giggled softly at the twins.

"They always do that whenever either one of them feels down in the
dumps. It never fails to amaze me how they can actually communicate with
each other by just humming incoherent words and moaning."

"They're actually talking to each other?" Cody asked, aghast. Sean nodded,
smiling at the incredible duo.

"Watch this." He said, and crept over to the oblivious blonde twins. He
placed his cold hand on Sebastian's stomach, and Cody witnessed an
immediate tensing of Sebastian's muscles, along with a change in the tone
of humming. Sebastian's eyes popped open in shock.

"Sean, stop that." Seth suddenly voiced, eyes still closed. Below him,
Sebastian was staring up at Sean and Cody, a slight smile on his face, as
his fingers ran all over Seth's pleasure buttons. Both were breathing
heavily, perspiration evaporating in the dry English air. Sebastian resumed
his humming, giving Cody the impression that he was at peace and needed
nothing else but the tender loving care of his own flesh and blood perched
atop him. A breeze blew in from the open window, causing Goosebumps to form
on the three topless boys. The trio shivered, inadvertently huddling closer
to absorb the warmth radiated by the next peer.

Cody removed his shirt and flung it on the floor beside the other
adornments, feeling his front and back seizing up and forming goose bumps,
running all the way down his spine and stomach. He shivered for a split
second, then gripped the edge of the blanket covering the bed attached to
the wall, and draped it over Sean and the twins, before crawling inside and
scratching each twin on the stomach, causing them to shudder and release
small "Oh!"s of surprise.

"Come on, let's play the XBOX." Sean urged.

Cody complied, and reached out for the black controller. He noticed that he
always seemed to obtain the left player control, while Sean nearly all the
time happily thrashed him with "Player 1". He wondered if the controller
had any effect on his game play, which of course, he realised with shame,
was very unsportsmanlike of him to think.

He made himself comfortable with one of the cushions, placing it on Sean's
chest. This position was possible without any visible obstructions as Sean
was parallel to the television, lying at a ninety-degree angle to the
screen. Cody arranged himself so that he was perpendicular to the
television, and faced his feet to the device. He rested his head on the
cushion, which was on Sean's chest, and after a few seconds, decided he
would do without. He removed the cushion and rested his head on Sean's bare
chest, enjoying the firmness of the bulges and the slight heat emanating
from the bosom. He lay face up, while concentrating on the screen. To his
dismay, it was HALO 2 once again. He reluctantly chose an Elite, and
selected the Energy Blade as primary weapon. Sean chose the human
counterpart, and armed himself with a battle rifle.

To his utmost surprise, Cody outperformed Sean by a small margin in game
play, much to Sean's evident astonishment. As a result, the game ended
extremely quickly, with Cody leading by a small margin. Throughout the
game, Cody was aware of the incessant humming of the twins, and managed to
detect slight oscillations in the unintelligible music that they were
producing.

"Oi, that's not fair. I demand a rematch." Sean snapped sullenly, his face
reddening at the obvious embarrassment of being defeated by a much less
experienced player.

"Sorry, Sean. I've got a tad bored of this game. Why don't we do other
things?" he motioned expectantly at the twins. Sean again twitched with
embarrassment, as he realised that he was not an admirable example of a
audacious, courteous, host. He sidled over to the twins, placing hands on
both their abdomens, as their chests were already obstructed by their
tender hands.

"Seth? Sebastian? Are you there?" he asked, slightly sarcastically. The
twins opened their eyes immediately.

"Of course we are, don't be daft." Seth responded, somewhat
irritated. Sebastian's brown eyes peered owlishly from his position, blonde
lashes flicking as he blinked, pupils improvising to the sudden alteration
of light. He yawned, stretching his lean torso. He groaned, as gas was
released from his vertebrae. Seth frowned.

"Don't do that, you know it'll only make you bleed more." He nagged, while
prodding Sebastian softly on his belly. Sebastian groaned in protest as he
fruitlessly tried to push Seth's hands away, fingers frantically shoving
Seth's palms down toward his black trousers. The attack was ceased willing
by Seth, who leant over and gently planted a kiss on the blue bruise on
Sebastian's stomach.

"So sorry." He whispered, hugging Sebastian around the waist, resting his
left cheek on the bruise. Sebastian stroked his back.

"It's alright. You don't need to repeat everything you just told me." He
assured Seth gently, plucking at the fine down on his brother's back. Seth
sighed with evident content.

Sean stroked both twins' hair, and scratched them around their necks,
causing them to squirm slightly. Cody leant over and gently cupped Seth's
right ribs in his right hand, admiring the warm, smooth, skin of the
pre-teen blonde. He moved his hand gently up and down the ribcage, taking
in the ridges and the shape of the anatomy. His attention was brought to a
mole just under Seth's underarm, its brown shape making its presence known
on Sean's fingers. He immediately leant over and clarified that Sebastian
had the exact same mole. He smiled, bringing his left hand up and gently
caressing the kidney area. Seth sighed again with delight, stretching his
arms upwards and gripping Sebastian by the shoulders.

There was something immensely satisfying about pleasuring the two slightly
older twins. Every time one of them was placed in a comfortable position,
with a pleasurable sensation, the other responded to the touch almost
equally, as was the case observed by Cody. Sebastian screwed up his eyes
with revelry as Cody depressed Seth's kidneys with his thumbs, letting out
an "Ungh!" while Seth groaned with ecstasy and ground his chest into
Sebastian's.

Cody could feel the vast amount of tension in Seth's back, and set himself
to work, releasing as much as he could from the fibres of the blonde youth
beneath him. It surprised him to discover that both of them had plenty in
common with him. On the physiological side, of course. Both of them had the
same hair as his; silky, whitish-blonde, and since the morning, the white
streak brought him even closer to them. They were also well proportioned,
near equal to his own body, with the exception of two or more factors. Both
of them had "inny" navels, while he had a slit in the middle of his
stomach. Unlike him, they had small, fair, pink nipples, which seemed to
blend in with their physique. His chest bulged out slightly more than
theirs, signifying an advancement in growth compared to their
own. Nevertheless, these facts did not deter him from admiring their
physique, and having twinges of jealousy strike at his chest.

He continued applying pressure to the back beneath him, something that he
had somewhat become familiar to in the past couple of days. And was duly
rewarded with more satisfied groans and moans from both brothers. Cody
smiled. He released the hold he had on Seth, and received a groan of
disappointment.

"Roll over." He ordered Seth, prodding him in the ribs and causing him to
shy to the right, giggling furiously. There was muffled thump as Seth hit
the ground, driving his elbow into the carpet. Seth ended up in the same
position, but this time, he was lying face down on the carpeted floor.

"Sean, turn Sebastian over as well." Sean obliged, ceasing his action of
stroking Sebastian's neck. Sebastian let out a soft cry as the bruise on
his abdomen contacted with the carpet.

"Sit on him." Cody said. "Be gentle!" he warned, as Sean made to lever his
way onto Sebastian's back by pressing his hands on the numerous bruises
that covered his back. Sean reduced his pace, and gingerly climbed aboard
Sebastian's waist, taking care to restrain from contact with the sensitive
blue-black spots.

"Okay. Massage him while I do Seth." He once again applied his fingers onto
Seth's rippling back, kneading the muscles with his knuckles. Seth quickly
let out a moan as Cody's knuckles rubbed against his spine. To his left,
Sean tentatively pressed his inexperienced fingers into Sebastian's
ribs. It produced the same effect, nonetheless. Sebastian moaned loudly at
first contact, even though it was relatively mild. Sean might have been an
amateur in administering massages, but the sheer compassion that radiated
from the fulfilling action was more than adequate to provide Sebastian with
a sense of peace and relief.

The atmosphere seemed almost hilarious to Cody. Identical moans were
audible from both boys, as they closed their eyes and wailed with pleasure,
faces contorting with each press of the knuckles.

"Waaaaaaaaaah..." both of them moaned simultaneously, as Cody and Sean
pressed into their kidneys at the same moment, after a signal from
Cody. Their mouths remained open after their breaths were depleted, still
revelling in the incredible sensation.

"Ohhh... Sean, Cody, you wouldn't believe how wonderful this feels."
Muttered Sebastian, as he continued to squirm slightly under Sean's
ministrations. He groaned loudly as Cody depressed the sinew behind Seth's
ribs, the subliminal link impacting his consciousness.

"Don't be too sure about that." Sean giggled, permitting a wink at Cody,
who duly returned the gesture.

"Do you want to stay the night, Seth? Sebastian?" Sean diverted from the
subject.

"Of course we would. But we're not sure about our parents. After all, we
ARE going to school tomorrow, you know."

"Of course. But we always walk to school together. I'm sure it won't be
much of a hassle if you call your parents now and request permission to
stay." Sebastian reached over to Seth, and produced a Motorola V3i from a
black pouch that was attached to his waistband; something Cody had not
noticed before. He admired the silver frame, along with the mini-display on
the exterior of the flip phone. Sebastian flipped Sean off his back, and
raised himself on his elbows, abdomen forming a six-pack as a result. Sean
lightly ran a finger over Sebastian's bruise, and the twin shuddered with
discomfort. Cody returned his attention to the sleek mobile phone.

"Cool." He whispered in awe.

"Yeah, isn't it? Dad bought it for our birthday. An early gift." Seth
added, while Sebastian toyed with the phone.

"He was supposed to give us one each, but since we're together all the
time, we figured we didn't want to waste that money. Besides, sharing is
different. I can't exactly describe the feeling, but I feel complete,
sharing the phone with my brother." Sebastian completed Seth's line of
thought. He must have located his parents' number; for he held the phone to
his ear, resting his upper body onto the ground, Sean knelt by his side,
caressing his ribs.

"Hello?" Sebastian's crisp voice was absorbed by the fabric of the blanket.

"Hi, dad. It's Sebastian. I'm just calling to ask if we could stay the
night in Sean's place. He invited us, and since you're already out, we
thought it best to call you and let you know first. So can we?" he asked,
with a hopeful raised eyebrow.

"Why not?" he shot back, immediately, face falling. There were a few
seconds of pause before he spoke again.

"But we always walk to school together. It'll be fine. I promise." He
begged, his voice breaking.

"John's there. He'll tell you it's alright." He continued, in the same
pitiful voice. He frowned with uncertainty for a few seconds, before his
face brightened up once again.

"Oh, thanks, Dad! I love yo... we love you so much!" he bubbled, a wide
grin spreading on his cheeks.

"Okay, we'll see you in awhile... Bye!" he pressed the kill button on their
phone.

"I'm the master of manipulation." He announced joyously, smiling amiably at
Seth.

"Oh, shut up, you flippin' show-off." Seth grabbed the mobile phone back,
and carefully replaced it in the black leather pouch, buttoning the cover
to the body of the container.

Cody sighed. What a dreadfully long weekend, he thought. A multitude of
things which he would have never thought possible in his entire lifetime
happened in the timeframe of two days. And tomorrow, a drastic change would
occur in his life again. He would be going to school with his
foster-brother, and the twins, which he had taken a great liking to. It was
never like this, however. Before his parents' demises, he never really had
many friends; they tended to be affiliates, never buddies, or partners. If
anything... dare he mention it... good, happened as a result of their
deaths, it was that he now had three friends, who stuck to him like
adhesive tape on glass. He was content; something which had somewhat eluded
him for the past three months in his search for peace. He no longer felt
guilty for the deaths of his parents. He did not exactly believe in fate,
but somehow, he knew that all of this was meant to happen.

A soft sigh penetrated his sub-consciousness and transported him back to
reality. He realised that he was still atop Seth's stretching back, and was
idly scratching his bare ribs, causing the blonde youth to throe slightly
with elation.

"Stop torturing me, you sadist." Seth cried out desperately. "Either tickle
me, or don't! Stop hovering between half and half."

The skin on Seth's back was identical to Sebastian's with the obvious
exception of the bruises that covered Sebastian's body. Cody was now free
to cross-examine the near-perfect body of the prepubescent beneath him. He
inched forwards until his face was but a few centimetres from the
orange-white skin of Seth's back. He noticed the pores which the fine down
sprouted from, and appreciated the dispersion of occasional freckles along
with the moles that dotted the preteen skin. He blew on the bare back,
watching with awe as the fine hairs responded to the stimulation. Goose
bumps suddenly appeared as well, as Seth squirmed again, giggling softly.

"It feels different from when we're touching each other. It
feels... better." Sebastian murmured from his side of the blanket, sense of
judgement marred by the intense pleasure that he was experiencing. Sean
grinned, and gently stroked his chest, causing little moans of ecstasy to
be emitted from the mouth of the youth.

"Do you wanna talk about today?" Seth suddenly asked.

"Seth!" Sebastian said in a shocked tone.

"No, it's alright. I was planning to tell you anyway." Sean calmed
Sebastian down.

"Seth, Sebastian. I did not fall asleep in the tub. I tried to end my
life." The twins looked shocked, from wide-eyed Sebastian to open-mouthed
Seth.

"Why?" Seth inquired.

"Oh, it's dumb, really." Sean tried to deviate.

"No. Tell us." Sebastian said directly. Seth altered his position, facing
upwards, while using his arms as pillow. Sean sighed. Cody knew that he
could not stray from the truth, no matter how hard he tried.

"Alright, alright. I told Cody how much I loved him, and how much I wanted
him to love me back. He went out without a word. I felt horrible. So I did
what I did." He said, bluntly. Seth's jaw dropped.

"Cody, why didn't you just tell him what he wanted to hear?!" he
demanded. Cody remained silent. He definitely did not want anyone to know
exactly why he had left Sean in the bathroom, without a word, cold as
ice. He knew he was cornered, however.

"I... I... thought that I would surprise Sean when he came out. I wanted to
tell him how I felt as well. When he didn't come, I went in and found him
like that. Can you imagine what that feels like? Just walking in and
finding someone you love just... just sprawled out on the ground like
that." he said, his voice breaking slightly.

"Well do you?" he asked again, feeling slightly annoyed that the twins were
staring at him as if he was some foreign being.

"Of course I do." Seth replied softly. "All the time." He continued. "I
fear that one day, I'll wake up and just see Basti just lying there on the
floor, lifeless. I don't know what I would do then. All that therapy at the
hospital, all that torture he's undergoing, I just... I just can't bear to
let him go through that. It hurts me so much." He finished, covering his
eyes with his hands.

"I think what you did was horrible. But, I also think that Sean should have
gone out and spoken with you instead of just making rash decisions like
that." Sebastian voiced, looking straight into Cody's eyes.

Cody looked down at Seth's torso, which was contorting with grief. He
looked at the stomach expanding and contracting with the silent, but thick
sobs that Seth was producing. There was a slight whispering sound as Seth
released the grief that was implanted in him. The sound that you usually
hear when a boy cries. Not the bawling sound, but the half whisper, half
exhaling sound. He placed a hand on Seth's solar plexus.

"I know what it feels like, Seth." He assured the crying preteen. "I lost
both my parents three months ago. That's why I'm here in the first place. I
don't think Sean ever told you that, did he?" he asked.

Seth shook his head, tears flowing out from the sides of his face, eyes
still concealed by his fingers. Sebastian looked over at Cody.

"Oh, I'm so sorry, Cody. I never knew..." he started.

"Save it." Cody cut him off. "I've heard that same phrase so many times
that it hurts." He rubbed Seth's chest to comfort the weeping blonde
youth. Sean stared from his position, obviously preoccupied.

"Okay, will this do, then?" He suddenly felt Sebastian's warm hands around
his chest, and felt the twin's face nuzzling into his neck.

"I'm sorry." The twin whispered in his ear.

"It's alright." Cody replied, patting the arm that was across his
chest. Sebastian released his hold, and crawled over to Seth, who had a
tiny pool of tears beneath his head.

"Seth. Don't worry; I'll always be with you." He reassured his twin.

"No, you won't." Came the muffled reply.

"Yes, I will. No matter where you go, no matter what you do, even if you
can't see me, I'll always be here." He patted Seth's breast
softly. Obviously, these words made Seth tear up even more, Cody
observed. Seth gave a great shuddering sob, and hugged Sebastian as hard as
he could, moaning his anguish into Sebastian's shoulder.

"No, no. That won't happen. You can't go! I need you." Seth cried
bitterly. All this time, Cody was surprised that Sebastian had not shed a
tear, let alone allowed any sign of his grief to surface. However,
Sebastian was clearly distraught, and suddenly let out a gasp of pity and
grief for his brother.

"Shhh... Seth, it's okay. I'm not even gone yet, you know. Silly!"
Sebastian laughed slightly, kissing his brother on the neck.

The sympathy seemed to spread. Cody was aware of tears flowing down his
cheeks, as was Sean. Instinctively, he moved closer to the twins, to offer
them support, emotionally. He was aware of Sean duplicating his
move. Together, they placed their hands on kneeling twins' shoulders,
rubbing the flesh beneath, while the brothers wallowed in their mutual
self-pity.

Cody heard the handle of the door turn, followed by the creaking of the
hinges. He was certain that Regina had come in. The blanket was pulled off
their heads. His assumption was indeed correct. Regina's face was visible
above them, as he looked up. She slowly knelt down. Cody was aware that she
was devoid of her plaid coat.

"Oh, I'm so sorry, boys." She uttered. "I wish I could do something to help
you, but I can't. No amount of money will ever substitute beautiful
life. There's still hope, though. The chances of remission of Sebastian's
cancer are about sixty-one percent. Do you know what that means?"

For the first time in his life, Cody did not know the definition. He shook
his head, like the rest of them. He wondered how Regina knew exactly what
was going on. Mother's instinct, as he would find out later.

"It means that Sebastian has a sixty-one percent chance of survival, if
they continue treatment in this trend. There's still hope." She answered,
scratching the weeping twins' heads.

Seth looked up, his brilliant brown eyes matching Regina's green irises.

"Thanks, Regina. You don't know how much this means to us. To me." He said
softly, clutching Sebastian's body with his hands.

"Oh, I think I may have a clue." She replied, chuckling a little. "I just
came in here to tell you that your parents have arrived, and your father's
brought your clothes, whatever that's supposed to mean." Her eyes
glinted. "You didn't tell me something, did you?" she asked jokingly.

Cody smiled.