Date: Mon, 8 Oct 2007 12:26:23 -0700
From: Jay roberts <diplomat1501@msn.com>
Subject: "It Makes Me Feel Squishy Inside" by Jay Roberts   Gay Young Friends

====If you stumbled on this page and you are under 18, you must leave.
This is not a children's story even though there are young people in it.
Over 18, stay and remember your own young days.

Note: This story is true.  I won't say which boy I was.  Don't judge them
harshly, Sex drive then you are twelve is overwhelming.  Romeo and Juliet
were about this age.


Ben and Jimmy were both twelve.  They came from the same kind of white
middle class family; attended the same school and were both good athletes.
Ben, the tall one played on the middle school basket ball team and was the
outstanding player.  Jimmy was short and stocky, but he was fast.  He was
named the top soccer player of the district when he was a senior.

That had been friends for about two years.  You would see them walking to
and from school together as they lived two blocks apart.  An observer would
see the pleasure they had in each other's company as they smiled and
laughed together.  They told each other all their thoughts and plans and
events didn't seem to really have happened until they related it to the
other one.

Ben, was the tall one, the basketball ace.  His slimness and height made
him seem more mature, but he was still just at the very beginning of his
adolescent changes.  His voice was still high and flutey, but lately Jimmy
noticed that it had thickened in a nice way and sometimes was husky.

Jimmy was still a boy.  He didn't look much different than he did at ten,
perhaps a bit taller and chunkier.  He face was so pretty, it could have
graced any girl.  He had preposterously long eyelashes that often tangled.
His mouth was naturally pink and was bow-shaped.  It was his eyes that
girls envied, deep ultramarine and large, topped by perfect straight
brown-blond eyebrows.

Ben was no beauty.  His nose was long and his face was thin, but his
graceful lanky body made up for his lack of facial beauty.  His chest was
already deep and it cascaded to his slim waist.  Although he was still only
5' 8" tall, his big feet long legs promised a future height of over six
feet.  His older brother was very tall as was his dad.

While Jimmy was more graceful and Ben coltish, Ben had an athletes command
of his every movement whether walking or running.

Ben's brother Jeff was two years older.  "A burnout, totally," said Ben.
He didn't get along with Jeff and Jeff found the successful Ben as a
constant reminder to his parents of his own failings in school and two juvy
arrests.  Jeff could be nasty, he constantly made remarks about the two
friends, characterizing them as lovers.

It really pissed off Ben, that sort of talk.  It was true that he kinda
loved his friend, but not in that way.  But Jimmy, when he heard this stuff
from Jeff he kept quiet.  He knew that he did love Jimmy, and not like a
mate, but in every way.  Just looking at Ben's lanky body and his big
humorous mouth made his feel all warm inside.  Ben was more important than
his mom, his only family.

Sometimes the boys wrestled.  They were so full of energy, even after
running full speed from school, they still had to work off more steam.
Jimmy always lost their matches but he loved the closeness of these bouts,
especially when his head was pressed into Ben's neck and he could smell
that special Ben smell.

There was one occasion last week that was a watershed moment in their
relationship.  It was the first turn into a sexual experience for both
boys.  Since they lived close, they never slept over each other's houses
until one night last week.  Jimmy's mother went out of town to her sister
to help her with a new baby and she didn't want Jimmy to be alone at night.
She asked Ben to sleep over.

The boys had pizza and soda and watched TV much later than they would have
had a parent been there to supervise.  They also discovered some books on
sex that Jimmy's mother had saved to tell him the facts of life.  Of course
he probably knew more than she did.  They sat on the bed in their
underwear, Jimmy in briefs and Ben in boxers, heads together, breathing
noisily as they turned the pages illustrating sexual positions.  They both
knew each other had stiffys, but refrained from talking about it.  The boys
had seen each other naked many times in the showers in school.  Ben was
circumcised and that was often a topic of conversation.  His penis was
still not fully grown, but he had some hair above it that Jimmy thought was
outstanding.  Jimmy's penis was still a young boy's, but his testicles were
developing to be large and the head of his penis was wide.

The book made them have to pee and they both went to the bathroom, each
taking a side of the toilet bowl and peeing and fencing with the streams.
For some reasons, this night they felt a little shy with each other, maybe
because of the sexy book, in any event they hardly talked long before Ben
slipped into a warm comfortable sleep, resting on his back.  Jimmy was
thrilled to have his pal half naked in bed with him.  Ben's deep breathing
was hypnotic to him.  He hated to settle down to sleep, he enjoyed watching
his sleeping friend.  He thought that Jimmy looked excellent when sleeping.
His eyes closed, his lashes resting on his cheeks, his mouth slightly open.
He could have been a baby boy at that moment, all restlessly gone with
surrender into sleep,

Jimmy was overcome with love for his friend.  Without realizing what he was
doing, he reached out and stroked Ben's warm cheek.  Ben's nose twitched at
the touch and he resettled himself in bed, moving closer to Jimmy, his warm
body resting against him.

Jimmy could see that Ben's boxer shorts were puffed out with his stiffy.
Jimmy also felt very stiff, but of course his penis was much smaller.  He
often got that feeling at night from the snuggle against the sheets and
sometimes he's rub back and forth until a wonderfully strange feeling would
overtake him and he felt his whole body quaking and shaking.

He wanted to ask his friend if he did that too, but it seemed, in spite of
their closeness, wrong to ask, because it was so private.  He saw that
Ben's chest was rising and falling in an even pattern and he became
fascinated with Ben's nipples.  They were so cute and pink.  He reached
over and touched them.  The one he stroked now had become stiff and hard
like a tiny erection and the pink flesh around it had crinkled up.

Ben moved and sort of rubbed his backside deeper into the bed and mumbled
something in his sleep.  Although Jimmy didn't know it, Ben hadn't been
asleep.  He was in that between stage of waking and sleep, drifting away.
When he felt Jimmy stroke his cheek, he felt comfortable and close to his
friend.  He wished he could put his arms around the small kid and hug him,
but that was taboo.

He sensed that Jimmy was close to him and watching him and he wondered what
would happen next.  He maintained him deep sleep type breathing so as not
to discourage Jimmy from doing more stuff.  He didn't have to wait long.
Jimmy became convinced that Ben was deeply asleep and he felt confident to
make further moves.  He reached down and felt Ben's stiff penis laying
inside his under shorts and pointing upwards towards the boy's belly
button.  Jimmy leaned down and looked at the cute navel.  He noticed a tiny
strand of cottony fluff there and he lifted it off.  He noticed Ben
twitched.

Ben was afraid that Jimmy was acting and planned to grab him and tickle him
in his sleep, and he tensed himself against that possibility.  But no,
Jimmy slipped his hand inside of the fly of the blue boxers and touched
Ben's warm, smooth penis.  Ben almost cried out in pleasure.  This is what
he really wanted.  He lay still so as not to discourage his friend.  He
didn't have to wait long.  Jimmy lifted the fully erected penis up and out
of the loose fly.  He petted it lovingly.  Ben almost cried out in
pleasure.  Jimmy felt the smooth head and wiped his thumb over it.  Jimmy
steeled himself against the urge to cry out in excitement.  He felt his
penis vibrating and a strange lethargy overtook him, as if he had no
control over his lower body.  Jimmy turned from petting it to stroking it.
Up and down.  He loved doing it.  Ben thought that he had never felt
anything to compare to the feelings that were flowing over him like waves.
Suddenly his penis began shaking and his whole body stiffened.  He cried
out and Jimmy pulled his hand away and sank back on his pillow and
pretended to be asleep himself.  He knew what had overtaken Ben, it was a
bigger effect like he had felt in his own bed at home.  After all, Ben was
more mature and he would get a bigger change.

In a moment both boys had given in to nature and both were soon deep
asleep, their shoulders were touching and it seemed to comfort them and
deepen their sleep.

Jimmy woke up in the morning abruptly as a pillow was thrown at his face.
He jumped up, forgetting for a moment the hot activities of the night.  He
was encouraged that Ben seemed not to be aware of it.

Jimmy turned out to be quite a good breakfast cook. "You know when you got
a working mom, you have to learn to cook.  How about an omelet and bacon?"

"Terrific, we can wash it down with coke."

After breakfast they rode their bikes up to the country reservation and
tried out the motor cross paths.  They spent almost all afternoon and we so
beat, they walked their bikes home.

"I am a little sleepy," Ben said unexpectedly.

Jimmy's voice shook when he said, "Sure, you can take a nap.  I'll
straighten up the bed."  They walked up and Ben sat on a chair as the bed
was made.  Jimmy went over to Ben who was almost falling asleep sitting
there.  He helped him get up and brought him over to the bed and eased him
down.

"Thanks mom," mumbled Ben.  Ben knew it was a joke but it thrilled him to
hear it.

In a moment Ben seemed to be asleep.  Jimmy looked down on him and then it
came to him like a thunderclap: Ben was faking sleep and he had done the
same last night.  He realized it because he could see a slight slit at the
bottom of his friend's eyelids.  He was peeking.  This meant that they were
complicit and that was really exciting.  He decided to push the envelop and
he leaned down and put his lips against Ben's warm pink ones.  He felt a
slight jump as Ben must have been surprised.  But he got control and
allowed himself to be kissed.  Jimmy pursued the kiss with more pressure.
This was something he always wanted to do.  His heart almost stopped as he
felt the tip of Ben's tongue touching his lips.

This was more than he could absorb and he pulled away.  He was breathing
hard.  Ben's eyes were fluttering but his breathing was steady.  He could
see that tell-tale pyramid sticking up at his friend's crotch and it
excited him.

He knew that Ben was aware of everything so there was no need to be
careful, still that seemed part of the excitement, to pretend that he,
Jimmy was taking advantage of the sleeping boy.  He carefully opened the
fly of Ben's pants and put his hand inside.  He felt the hard shaft and
pulled it out of the fly.  It lay almost trembling outside Jimmy's pants.
He bent down and kissed the shaft, up near the tip.  Ben made a sound, a
sort of grunt.  His penis jumped twice in excitement.

Jimmy lifted it and kissed the very tip, right near the slit where urine
came out.  Ben grunted again, harder this time.  His dick jumped.  Jimmy
lifted it again and he put his lips around the tip.  He was huffing himself
in excitement and fear that he had gone too far and might risk their
friendship.  But Ben signaled his acceptance as he lifted his backside off
the bed slightly to push deeper into Jimmy's steaming mouth.

In a moment they were in full suck.  Jimmy had taken the cock into his
mouth so deeply that his lips were touching Ben's new grown pubic hair.  It
smelled delicious.  He sensed that Ben wanted a sucking motion so he side
up and then down again.  His mouth was producing saliva so heavily that he
was soaking his friend's pubic area and some leaked onto his balls.  Down
and up he went.  He loved doing it.  Unconsciously he was humming as he did
it.  Suddenly he felt Ben's body stiffen and at the same time Jimmy tasted
a sweet sour milky flavor.  He knew that his friend had made sperm.  He
swallowed it and put Ben's organ back in his pants and crossed the room to
sit in a chair.  Ben's eyes were closed and his breathing was returning to
normal.

Suddenly he sat up.  "You got any ice cream or something like that?"

Jimmy knew the score.  They were not to ever directly refer to their secret
activities that a fiction had been established that as long as they didn't
talk about it, it didn't happen, but it could reoccur whenever they wished.

What developed over the next year was that Jimmy began to acknowledge that
he knew about everything, but it was very subtle, I wink, or a smirk, or a
reference to being sleepy.  Out in the woods, their bikes on the side, they
ate a sandwich they had brought.  "I think I might be a little sleepy," Ben
said, producing a big yawn.

"Sure Ben, you can rest right here on the grass and I'll be the lookout for
you."  But as soon as Ben "fell asleep" Jimmy would go into his act.  He
was less careful now, diving for the rampant prick and bring it to his lips
for a brisk sucking.  Being young, Ben wouldn't last long and he would
stiffen and cry out softly and deliver and growing amount of sweet cum to
his eager friend.

It never occurred to Ben that their sexual activities were very one sided.
He hoped that Jimmy "got off" since he often felt Jimmy rubbing against him
and once he heard him gasp.

Actually, while Jimmy kept track of his adored friends maturation, seeing
the growth of pubic hair, and under arm hair, Ben paid no attention to
Jimmy's progress.  Actually Jimmy's penis had grown prodigiously in the
last few months and he had a profusion of light brown hair growing from hip
the hip.  His voice was now quite low, lower than Ben's, but his natural
way of speaking, softly seemed to mask his change.  He had grown three
inches and had lost his chunkiness.  He was a very, very good looking boy
and lots of girls at school noticed it, as well as some boys.  But his
heart had been lost a long time ago to Ben.  He was satisfied bringing
pleasure to Ben and his own secret orgasms were sufficient.

Things were changing in themselves and between them, but the sexual
activity remained the same, and would have continued had not Ben introduced
a new note.  He spoke directly to Jimmy about sex.  At first Jimmy was
appalled, but he decided to own up and he listened.  "Pal, I've really
enjoyed our fun together but I've been reading about it.  It's pretty gay
you know, even though we're not gay, definitely we're not.  Still I'd like
to try something new.  Do you know what corn holing is?"

Of course Jimmy knew.  He long since decided that it was real homosexual
stuff and he would never have a part in it.  "Yes I know, but I don't want
to put my prick in your asshole, it might hurt you."

Ben laughed and laughed and kicked up his long legs and wiggled his big
feet.  "No you dope, I mean I fuck you.  How about it?"

In a rush it came to Jimmy, he had become an outlet for Ben's boyish
sexuality.  He was a plumbing fixture.

"No way, no day ever would I do that.  It's dirty."  He got up and grabbed
his bike and pedaled out of the park area.  This was the first harsh thing
that had ever happened between them.

Weeks went by, naturally they saw each other in school but Jimmy didn't
speak to him.  Ben finally gave up and began seeing some other boys and he
also had a girl friend now.

They were never friends again.  Ben's family moved away and the boys went
to different colleges.  At the five year reunion they met again.  Jimmy was
no longer angry and he actually crossed the room to shake hands with Ben.
Ben was polite, but not too warm.  Trying to reel back the years, Jimmy
said, "Remember those sexy sleep times we had?"

"No I don't remember anything about that.  Look there's Freddie and Gail.
Be seeing you guy."

Jimmy walked quickly to the rest room.  It was empty.  He found that his
eyes were tearing.  He blotted them, straightened his shoulders and
rejoined the reunion.

End