Date: Fri, 23 Sep 2005 01:04:37 -0400
From: Dwedno Smith <dwednomail@hotmail.com>
Subject: Chapter 45 of The Tunnel

Okay, first off I want to make something clear. I received a few comment
from readers about how I might be thrown off nifty for
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lines of cautious with worry intended like I might lose my
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that. Much appreciation for caring so much. Second thing
is that it appears not everyone reads what I type here and that is your loss
if you don't take the time to read everything in a chapter.
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the past month but I will do my best to keep the chapters rolling.    ENJOY!
    Dwedno.



Chapter 45. 		Shawn's big day and Trevor's mistake.



I awoke to a dark room after what I thought was a loud noise. I grabbed my
shorts and slid them on and glanced at the clock which said 4:23. I opened
my door and looked down the dark hall and saw nothing and heard the same.
Either I was dreaming or someone made a sound and it was over. Either way no
one else was awake so it couldn't have been that loud. I decided to take a
quick walk down the hall so I flipped on the hall light and walked to the
other end of the hall and stood there for a second. Nothing! I walked back
to and then entered my room, shut my door and slid off my shorts as I got
back into bed. Shawn didn't move a muscle the whole time other then
breathing. I closed my eyes and attempted to fall back to sleep.  I tried in
vain to doze off but now my mind was going. Was the noise a dream, was it
real. who is watching us? I looked at the clock again and it said 5am. Good
thing I don't have anything major to do later today beside Shawn's party but
I am sure that my brother will be shoving us out the front door as quickly
as possible in the morning so he can set the house up for the party. Finally
my thoughts changed and my mind was calming enough for me to fall back to
sleep. Next thing I knew I was being awoken by hands running all over my
body. I opened one eye and Shawn was running his hands all over me in a weak
attempt to wake me.

"Are you having fun?"

"Uh huh." He said as he smiled.

"How about I take your hands and tie them to the bed so I can fall back to
sleep?"

He looked puzzled and thought for a second.

"If you do that then how could I ever have my way with you?"

"You're gonna have your way all right."

I sat up.

"So birthday boy are you ready to have a day with me?"

"You remembered! Hell yeah, just you and me and we can do anything we want
to right?"

"Yup. Your and I are going to have a ball today. Maybe two!" I snickered.

I guess it was time to get up now as I glanced over and saw it was already
8am. I pulled the covers back and as usual had my morning piss hard on.
Shawn was only too happy to acknowledge it as I turned to exit the bed.

"Nice stiffy TJ."

"Behave or I just might let you see how stiff it really is."

"Oh can I?"

"No you little pervert I have to pee and if you play with it now I will wind
up peeing all over you."

Silence. I could tell his wheels were turning a mile a second in the head of
his. I didn't wait for a response I wasn't in the mood to play pissing games
anyway. I got up and headed to the bowl as I heard him spring out of bed
behind me and follow me in to the toilet. I leaned over the bowl in my
nakedness and let fly as Shawn came up next to me and watched. I looked at
him as he observed the pee flow from me to the water. When I was done I
turned to him.

"Did you enjoy that?"

He nodded yes. I moved aside and he assumed the same position and began to
relieve himself now. I watched and enjoyed every second of the piss streamed
from his sweet cock into the bowl. My favorite thing! It gave me a feeling
like nothing else and I began to get semi hard. When he finished he shook it
a few times and turned and looked at me.

"You like it just like me don't you Tommy?"

I knew what he meant but I wanted to hear him say it.

"Like what Shawn?"

"Watching someone pee."

I nodded yes and not wanting to discuss it any further I turned and headed
out of the bathroom. He flushed the toilet and followed.

"Tommy why do you enjoy that, I know why I do but you never want to talk
about it."

"Because everyone has something they want to keep private Shawn and we share
a lot in bed and everywhere else and that is just something I want for
myself okay?"

It was true, I didn't really have an explanation but for some reason I just
didn't want to get into a discussion about pissing and watching it even as
much as it made me horny and so on. I tried to blow him off but Shawn is
Shawn and nothing is easy when he has to have an answer.

"Tommy I just was curious that's all. I didn't mean to upset you."

"Shawn. I sat on the bed still naked as was he. You didn't upset me I
promise and this is just something I don't want to discuss right now okay?"

He nodded his head yes and headed for the door.

"I'm gonna go get dressed Tommy, I'll meet you downstairs."

Without hesitating one bit he opened my door buck naked and left heading to
his room. I wasn't sure if I upset him or he got my point but at the moment
I just wasn't in the mood to discuss this with him. I got dressed and headed
down to the kitchen to make breakfast. Trevor was already eating cereal and
had his head buried in a book as he shoveled spoonful after spoonful of
cereal into his face without even lifting his head to see who was there. As
I went to grab a pan for some eggs Shawn came down and Trevor lifted his
head from his book now.

"Happy birthday Shawn."

"Thanks Trevor."

"So you're gonna have a big day today huh?"

I spun back around and looked at Trevor as he seemed ready to spill
everything to Shawn without hesitating.

"Yeah Trevor, Shawn is going to have a great day with me when we go out
shortly."

Hoping he got the hint he didn't say another word and went back to his book.
Shawn came over to me at the stove and asked me for food.

"Can you make me some eggs TJ please?"

"Sure birthday boy. How do you want them?"

"Scrambled please."

As soon as the pan was warm I poured three scrambled eggs into it and made
him some breakfast. He made some toast as I was getting it ready and sat
down to eat while I prepared my own food next. Before long Trevor got up and
put his dish in the sink and headed out of the kitchen.

"Trevor!"

He stopped and looked at me.

"We have a dishwasher right here why couldn't you just put that bowl in
there?"

"Because I don't do the dishes why should I load the dishwasher?"

He turned and walked out. Wise ass! He wants to eat but not lift a finger to
do anything else. He is really starting to become more trouble then he is
worth, cute or not! I threw his dish in the dishwasher and made up my
breakfast and sat down to eat it. Shawn watched and sorta snickered at
Trevor's comments as I sat down.

"Why do you let him get away with that TJ?"

"What cutie?"

"You know, talking that way to you, if that was anyone else you would have
gotten mad but when it comes to Trevor you always seem to just let him be."

I thought about what he said and he had a point. I just never saw it from
his point of view.

"Don't really know cutie but you do make a good point."

I started to eat and nothing else was said about Trevor. I finished up and
put my dish in the proper place as Kyle entered the kitchen.

"Morning bro." He said to me.

"Hey Ky."

He walked over to Shawn who was still sitting at the table and put his hands
on his shoulders.

"Hey birthday boy, so how does it feel to be ten?"

"I dunno, okay I guess."

"So what's planned today for your birthday Shawnee?" Kyle asked him.

"Tommy and me are going out for the day and then you are going to give me a
party tonight."

I looked at Kyle and he gave me a look like I spilled the beans. I tried to
shrug it off with my eyes as Shawn started talking again.

"That's what I would like Kyle but I know what Tommy is going to do is all
that will happen, I understand that. I'm sure no one else is going to want
to have a big party or anything but at least your brother promised me a
great time today."

Pheeeeewww! I thought to myself. He doesn't know anything he was just
talking. I looked at Kyle again and he seemed more relaxed now that he knew
Shawn was just talking.

"Ready Shawn?"

"Yup, let's go have fun."

He got up from the table and Kyle walked over to him and gave him ten gentle
punches on the arm, one for each year of his birth and then pinched him as
he yelped from the pain. The pinch hurt more then all ten punches.

"Owwww that hurt."

"Big baby! Kyle answered as he quickly backed out of range of Shawn so he
couldn't swing back at him.

He walked over to me rubbing his arm.

"That hurt!"

"You'll live. Wait till I give you your ten later." I jokingly said to him.

"That's fine just no pinching!"

Kyle was laughing as we headed out of the room discussing his punches.
Before we left I saw Jon and he called me over for a second.

"Shawn go wait by the truck, I'll be right there."

"Okay," he said as he went outside.

I walked over to Jon and gave him a kiss on the lips.

"What's up sexy boi?"

He gave me a huge hug.

"Nothing, I just wanted to see you before you left all day with Shawn."

"Oh, okay."

"You gonna miss me?"

I thought strange of him asking me that but.

"Sure I will. Why?"

"Because I just wanted to know. I miss sleeping with you it's been a few
days."

"I miss it too. Tonight I am sure Shawn we be beat after the long day and we
should have the room to ourselves all night."

"Kewl because I so badly want to suck you off!"

"Jonathan! I scoffed at him and then smiled. Me too! I can't wait!"

I leaned in and gave him a kiss on the lips.

"That should hold you until after his party."

He smiled.

"Yeah I guess. Hey don't go too crazy with Shawn today. Save something for
me tonight okay? I want to make you squirt too!"

"I will I promise. Later lover."

He waved as I headed out the door and I blew him a kiss as I shut the door.
Shawn was waiting for me at the truck.

"Ready to go birthday boy?"

"Yup, where we going first?"

"It's a secret."

"Kewl!"

We got in the truck and I started it and took off down the hill. I headed
towards our old house and as soon as he got the idea he shouted it out.

"You're taking me back home?"

"Yup. I figured you might want to check out the old neighborhood and your
old house today and whatever else happens on your bed too."

I said to him as I gave his leg a squeeze.

"Yeah!" he said softly.

I made the turn and drove down into the circle. We got out and walked up the
block and headed around the corner towards his place as I looked over at
where I used to live.

"We can go there too if you want Tommy."

"Maybe later cutie. Today is for you so we are going in your place first."

He ran a few steps ahead as we approached it and pushed the door open. Then
he just stood there and looked inside without entering. I stood behind him
as he sniffed and wiped his face.

"You okay cutie?"

"Yeah Tommy I was just thinking about stuff and I miss my family. Especially
today, mom always made me this huge cake on my birthday with candles and
vanilla icing.it was awesome!"

I put my hands on his shoulders and gave him a squeeze.

"I know I remember last year. You made sure I was there and I got the second
piece of cake it was awesome."

"Yeah I almost forgot you were invited. I was happy you were there Tommy. It
was nice having you at the party since it was only supposed to be family
only but I asked mom and she said whatever I wanted. You gave me that
awesome play station game too. I bet its still in my room." He sniffed back
tears again,

I smiled when he turned and looked at me; he had tears in his eyes. I kissed
the top of his head and gave him a huge hug from behind.

"I love you so much cutie! I wish they could all be here for you but."

"I know Tommy you don't have to say anymore. You are here and if this didn't
happen I never would have found out how much you care about me. Sure I want
my mom back but you know if this didn't happen we might have never been
together, ever!"

"Yeah I know Shawn that is the only good thing that happened after the comet
hit, besides finding Kyle alive."

"Yeah! Come on lets go inside."

We entered and I shut the door behind us as he headed upstairs. I followed
him upstairs and by the time I got to his doorway he was already sitting on
his old bed bouncing up and down with joy in his eyes. Finally he lay down
and his head hit his pillows.

"That feels so good!"

I smiled as I watched him having fun.

"Mom never used to let me bounce on my bed she always yelled when I did
that."

He turned and stuck his face in the pillows and took a deep breath.

"I can still smell it a little."

"Smell what Shawn?"

"The stuff mom used to use to wash my bed with. I love that smell. Its still
there a little."

He sniffed it again as I watched. His bed was still made and his pillow was
under the bed spread like he never slept in it. I assume he never got to use
it since the morning his mom made it last before the comet hit. The bastards
had him in his parents room and basement and I thought a lot before taking
him back here but it seems to be the right thing to do after some time
passed. He seems to be okay with it so far. He pulled back the covers and
grabbed his pillow and moved it so he could put his head down on it and
still see me. I came over by him and sat on his bed next to him. There was a
piece of paper folded where his pillow was it looked like a note.

"Shawn what is that?"

He reached over and picked it up then opened it and started to read it. He
didn't say anything but began to cry very strongly as he put the note down.
I assumed it was a note from someone but I just held him for now. After a
little bit he calmed and wiped the tears away and handed the letter to me. I
opened it and began to read it.
It was from his mom.


Shawn,

I had to go out of town for the rest of the day on business. Your dad will
be home later tonight and there is money in the draw for pizza tonight if
you want it. You can go to Tommy's house if you have any problems I cleared
it with his mom. I just wanted to leave you this note to tell you I didn't
forget about the new bike you asked for; we will get it when I get back or
by the weekend if it's too late tomorrow. I also wanted to let you know that
we are going away to grandmas this weekend so you can see your cousins and
have fun. I figured you would want to know and that you would get this
letter eventually since you often take a nap during the day. Love, Mom.


I looked at him as the tears rolled down his cheeks.

"I forgot about all that stuff with everything that happened after the comet
hit Tommy. That brought it all back like it just happened all over again and
it hurts just as much as it did before!"

He buried his head in my chest and cried some more. I just held him tightly.

"I love you so much Tommy. Just hold me okay?" he said through his tears.

"Yeah cutie I'll hold you. It will be okay."

Some time passed and he eventually calmed enough for me to let go of him. He
got up and marched into the bathroom and washed his face then came back in
by me.

"Feeling any better?"

"Not really." He said as he stood in front of me.

I reached out and took hold of his hand.

"You want to leave?"

"No I'll be okay; I want to stay some more."

"This place should hold good memories for you not bad ones cutie."

"It will Tommy I really wanted to come back here even after what happened to
me here I still feel like its home but that letter got to me."

"I know cutie, I know."

He searched around his room for a bit and the rest of the house afterwards.
He entered his parent's room cautiously and didn't go into the basement at
all as I watched him closely. He did a good job of keeping it together the
rest of the time we were there. He took his pillows with him after asking me
if it was ok to do so. I don't know why he would ask but it was a touching
moment. About thirty minutes later we left his house and put his things into
the truck and then went into my place. I looked around a bit to see if
everything was all right and nothing looked disturbed other then the mess we
originally left when we moved up the hill in a hurry that smoky day. I
looked at Shawn and he appeared to be in better spirits now that he was out
of his place. I brought him here so we could have a good time but I wasn't
sure if that was a possibility now after the flood of emotions we just went
through.

"So cutie anything you want to do now?"

I smiled at him and walked across my bedroom towards him.

"What do you mean Tommy?"

"I just thought you might want to have some fun without worrying about
anyone else bothering us."

He appeared to be thinking about it as I put my hand on his shoulders and
started rubbing the back of his neck and head.

"I don't know Tommy. I don't really feel like it but I don't want to ruin
anything you had planned today either."

"I didn't have any plans other then making sure you had a good day and so
far that seems to have backfired badly."

"I'll be okay, honest I just didn't expect that letter and it hurt a lot to
read it."

We didn't say anything else I just continued to rub his back up and down and
all around. He was starting to enjoy it I could feel him relaxing some now.
After a little bit I leaned in on him.

"You like it?"

"Uh huh, I always like it when you touch me, even more when you rub my
back."

I decided to make a move against my better judgment and against everything I
believed in when it came to anything between us. I have always let him
decide if we fool around in the past. I grabbed his shirt and with a gentle
tug pulled it off him. He didn't stop me. I started to run my nails softly
over his back from top to bottom and in between. He immediately got goose
bumps and bowed his head from the pleasure. I reached out and put my hands
on his sides where he was most ticklish. I didn't try to do anything but
continue to please him. He squirmed briefly before he realized I wasn't
trying to tickle him just continue the touch. Next I slid my hands down to
his shorts and slowly lowered them without any comment. He stepped out of
them and kicked them aside. He was now standing in just his underwear and
sneakers and socks.

"Can I go further or should I stop?"

"Go."

I cupped his butt cheeks with my hands and tenderly for a moment, massaged
them before I stopped and took hold of his briefs to lower them off his
sweet, loving body. I now had a raging hard-on in my own shorts but this
wasn't about me it was for him so I did my best to ignore my problem and
focus back on him. This time I didn't want to play with him, whether or not
it makes any sense I wanted to really pleasure him. give him something
special that we hadn't done regularly before now. Once again as he did with
his shorts he stepped out of them and kicked them out of the way still not
looking at me but apparently enjoying every second of the attention he was
getting. I pulled him closer and within inches of my hardness but only so I
could get a quick smell of his scent and at the same time place several
kisses on his velvety smooth back. The young, smooth and lightly tanned skin
with the very thin and short silky like blonde hair that you can't really
see without being close to someone or having the sun shine perfectly on some
ones back while you are on the beach when you look around and find what you
would call the "perfect" cutie to look at. that was exactly what I now had
in front of me. It was to die for. I was in heaven as I placed those kisses
up and down his back as long as he let me before he finally began to giggle
a little and it started to lose its affect some. But still he took it all in
as it was intended to be. A very touching and tender moment for me and I
would hope for him too.

My hands ran down and over his awesome oval buttocks and then I ran my
fingers up the crack of his ass causing him to let out a sigh as he moved
just a little. Not from the feeling of being tickled but from the
stimulation and electricity of the touch that was created this time. The
moment we were having seemed to leave the room charged and full of energy
and the feeling now was more like I wanted, more like you would have while
making love to someone instead of just doing it because you can or wanted to
just get it over with. This wasn't anything like that it was just different
this time.  I had him right where I wanted now right or wrong. I took his
arm and pulled him turning him to face me as I sat on the edge of my bed. He
turned slowly with my pull and faced me with his own hardness sticking out
and upwards towards me begging for attention. I looked into his eyes without
touching him and smiled and he smiled back. I mouthed I love you to him and
he smiled wide but said nothing. I got up and moved him around to my bed
slowly pushing him back onto it but all the time controlling him so he
wouldn't fall too fast. He hit the bed gently and I grabbed one of my
pillows and propped up his head and then focused back on him. I spread his
legs as wide as I could without pushing too far as they hung over the end of
my bed and then got down on my knees between his spread legs and looked up
at him from the floor. He looked into my eyes and our eyes met with me
gazing past his hard penis for the moment. I put both hands on his upper
legs and moved in closer, my mouth now just inches from his rock hard little
tool. I could easily smell the musky smell emanating from his groin now it
was telling me he wasn't totally clean but definitely not dirty either. I
moved in and took my tongue and ran it upside his sweet cocklet and when I
got to the top I took him into my mouth all the way. He let out a gasp and
took a deep breath as my lips closed around his penis and I applied as much
pressure as my lips would allow as I pulled off him. I looked up at him and
he was smiling as wide as I had ever seen him smile again, practically
beaming from the contact I just applied to his precious member. I went in
for another mouthful and wet him enough to start the doing what I had
planned. I began sucking him with all I had up and down but not fast, a nice
relaxed pace. I took note of his face for a second and his eyes were closed
and his head on the pillow with a total look of relaxation on his face. I
went back to work now totally focused on his hardness and didn't bother with
anything else but making him happy. My finger found his butt hole but I
didn't enter, just played with the outside of it as I began to hear his
breathing change to a deeper more shallow pant which told me he was close to
his orgasm like it did so many times before. I took each of his small
egg-shaped testicles into my mouth one at a time suckling each one to the
point I thought I was going to drive him insane if I continued it. He was
squirming more then he ever did before but still didn't say a word or try to
make me stop. I went back to his hard tool and took it back into my mouth as
my finger once again found the outer edge of his butt hole and I began
slowly sliding it in the length of my fingernail but no deeper just yet. I
sucked long and hard on him this time pulling as firm as I could with my
lips and then as fast as I could knowing he was just seconds away from the
first thrill of his tenth birthday. He yelled out something I couldn't
recognize as his hips raised upwards towards me and my finger found its way
into him as deep as I could go without risking pain or ruining the pleasure
he was about to have. I wanted to time it perfectly so I could give him the
absolute maximum pleasure from front and rear without going too far. My lips
once again met his bucking body as I rode him holding on to his cock in
between my lips as best as I could and sucking as hard as I could. He let
out a loud moan and took a deep breath as he stopped bucking and I pulled my
finger out of him and my mouth off of him allowing him to enjoy what I hoped
was a massive orgasm and major waves of pleasure that I could only hope were
sweeping his body as he now trembled and jerked from his pleasures. We were
both soaked with sweat from all that happened now as I watched his face
contort and then slowly calm as did the rest of his body shortly after that.
I didn't have a clue how powerful of an orgasm I just gave him but from what
I have seen in the past this appeared to be quite a strong reaction compared
to others he has had before. After a few minutes his eyes opened and he took
another deep breath and smiled at me.

"WOW!"

Was all he said for the moment. He sat up as I remained in the same spot I
was in throughout the whole time I pleasured him. He reached out for me.

"Come closer Tommy."

I moved in and he kissed me on the lips several times and the last time I
felt his tongue as he opened his mouth and I followed enjoying him the same
as he seemed to be enjoying doing this with me. Finally we broke our kiss
and I looked deeply into his eyes with us only inches apart and I mouthed I
love you to him. He reached out and hugged me.

"Thank you Tommy that was the best feeling I ever had from you."

That said a lot! He broke our hug and looked at me sitting back on the bed.

"You were awesome. I am so glad I didn't stop you because I didn't feel like
it before."

I smiled at him and got off my now weakening knees.

"Glad you liked it because it's exactly the birthday present I wanted to
give you in the exact spot I had planned to give it."

He smiled as he stood up in front of me and moved into my arms.

"Hold me Tommy. Please just hold me and don't ever let go."

I did as he asked and we stayed that way for a while. I felt the outline of
his body as he pressed it against mine applying some pressure almost like he
wanted to become one with me. I didn't want it to end but I knew like any
good thing it wouldn't last too long. Eventually he broke the hug and leaned
in to give me another kiss and then sat on the edge of my bed still totally
naked except for his socks and sneakers that were still on his feet and the
sweat that ran down his chest.

"I love you so much TJ. Thanks for that it really was awesome."

"Your welcome birthday boy. If you want I can do it again later."

"No I don't think I could take that feeling again you might kill me if you
did that twice in one day. It was so strong I don't think I could take it
again."

Still beaming he smiled at me and got up off the bed we both headed to the
bathroom. A shower was definitely needed. We both got in together after I
adjusted the water temperature and washed the sweat off before soaping each
other up and rising off without any more play. We got out and toweled off
quietly before he finally spoke. The quiet was nice for a bit as the whole
thing we just did replayed over and over in my head.

"I'm gonna get dressed now if that's okay with you I want to go out and have
more fun."

"Anything you want cutie. Today is your day and whatever you want is fine
with me."

We left the bathroom and got dressed as I watched `my' cute ass disappear
into his underwear and then his sweet chest do the same as he turned to face
me before pulling his shirt over his head. He got dressed the rest of the
way and got off the bed and walked past me. I gave him a soft smack on his
ass as he passed by and then got up to follow him out of my room. It felt
good being back here for a bit but it was time to go now. We walked down the
steps as I thought about all the memories this place held for me before and
after the comet hit. It's a special place and we just made it a little more
special if that were possible. I shut my door and locked it before we headed
to the truck.

"Where to birthday boy?"

"The mall please?"

"Sure."

I started the truck and we took off for the mall.

"So do you have anything you want when we get there or do you just want to
look around?"

"No I have things I want."

"Oh really?"

"Yeah. I want to see if I can find any games we haven't played yet in game
boy, X box or PS II. Any new games would be awesome TJ. The old ones are
getting a little boring, and then I want a huge ice cream cone."

"Is that all?"

"I don't know does it have to be all?"

"Nope. You don't have a limit on what you want or how long we stay. It's
totally up to you. I was just curious that's all."

"TJ do you think any of the guys will ya know. have a present for me today?"

"Maybe, I haven't really discussed it with anyone (Of course I was lying but
I am not going to spoil the surprise) I guess Kyle might have something for
you he knows it's your birthday as do a few others."

"Yeah that would be nice if one of the guys got me something then I would
know they care about me."

"Whoa! Wait a second. Why do you think nobody cares about you? Trevor wished
you a happy birthday and he doesn't like anyone. Or at least he acts that
way. What makes you think no one likes you?"

"I don't, I didn't mean it that way. It's just sometimes I feel weird like I
don't belong."

"Shawn why would you think that?"

"No Tommy you don't understand. I don't feel like everyone hates me or
anything like that. It's just that sometimes I get these looks and feel like
I am. I dunno like if it weren't for you I might not be wanted."

I stopped the truck right in the middle of the highway not that anyone was
coming but I wanted to get this worked out immediately.

"What could possibly make you think you aren't wanted or welcomed in our
house Shawn?"

"Sometimes they look at me. like when I come out of your room and go
downstairs and you aren't around to see it. I get looks from some of the
guys like I am dirty."

Ahhh shit! I can't believe this is happening and coming out!!! Today of all
days when I wanted everything to be perfect! They can't be treating the boy
like he is my whore or something! Let me say they better not be or I will
raise the fucking roof a few feet by screaming at them. If Shawn is seeing
something that is possibly there then I know something is wrong but if he is
right and one or two of them are making him feel uncomfortable then all hell
is going to break loose! No one in that house is an angel and I would bet
there is more sex going on behind closed doors then I could imagine on some
level.

"Who looks at you that way Shawn?"

He grew quiet.

"Do I have to say Tommy?"

"No Shawn you don't but I want you to promise me that if it gets worse or
anyone EVER says anything to you then I want you to immediately come and
tell me all right?"

"Yeah I guess but I don't want to get anyone in trouble Tommy. Please. I
like all of them and."

"And nothing Shawn. I will NOT have anyone living under my roof that
disrespects someone else or makes them feel uncomfortable OKAY? None of us
are perfect Shawn, we all have made mistakes and none of them have the right
to point a finger at you because you spend more time with me than they do!"

He nodded yes. I reached out to him.

"Shawnee kid. I love you more then anything in this world outside of Kyle of
course. But between you and me, right here, right now. you are my world
cutie. I love Jon but without you I would have a hole in my heart. You fill
that hole for me Shawn. Without you I know I would live and be okay but I
don't think I could be as happy as I am with you in my life love. You
understand how important you are to me?"

"I think so Tommy."

I didn't want to overdo it but I didn't want him feeling like shit either.

"Okay good, just as long as you understand this. Just remember anytime, any
where, you need me you come get me. all right?"

"Yes sir."

I leaned over and kissed the top of his head.

"Okay then lets go shopping and don't worry about anyone else for now."

He smiled.

"OKAY?"

"O-Kay..." he answered.

I took off towards the mall which was only five minutes away from us. I
pulled in and parked in my spot.right in front of the main door and we got
out. I took my gun from under the front seat and put it in my pants and
covered it with my shirt so Shawn wouldn't say anything incase he saw it as
we headed inside.

"Okay Shawn you lead I follow. Wherever you want to go."

We walked for a bit and he found the game store and we went in. He picked
several new titles out or what seemed new to him and then he looked at more.
A few minutes later he seemed content and started talking about his new
games with me and trying to explain how some of them played. I tried to
understand but I just wasn't into it like he is so I pretended to understand
as best as I could. We walked the mall for a bit longer and he grabbed a few
more things here and there that he wanted but I could tell he was getting
antsy and wanted to get back soon so he could try out the games he took. He
needed to pee so I took the time to call home and see if Kyle was ready. We
were gone for well over three hours now and he said he was just about done.
I told him we would be home in about thirty minutes. Then I hung up just as
Shawn came out of the bathroom.

"Who were you talking to Tommy?"

"It was Kyle; he wanted to see if we were having fun."

"Oh okay."

"You ready to get some ice cream and go home?"

"Yeah I want to play these new games and I feel a little tired after what
you gave me before at your old house. If felt so good then but now it's
really starting to made me feel weak from it being so strong and powerful
before. Ya know what I mean?"

"Yeah cutie I do. I pooped you out with that strong orgasm I gave you."

"Or-what some?"

I laughed.

"Orgasm. That is what that feeling you had is called."

"It has a name? You mean when you make me feel like my head is going to
explode that is an orgasm?"

"That's what it's called cutie."

"Oh, that's a weird name."

"Yeah but it's a weird feeling isn't it?"

"It's an awesome feeling but I guess in a way its weird."

"Well that's what it's called."

"Do you think now that I am ten I might be able to do what you do soon?"

"What do you mean Shawn?"

"Ya know. squirt out that white stuff."

"Oh you mean sperm?"

"Ewwwwww! No I mean the white stuff that comes out of your dick when I make
you feel good."

I laughed.

"That is sperm silly boy."

"I feel sick."

"Why?"

"You mean when I suck on you and you squirt that white stuff into my mouth
it's really sperm?"

"Yup do you know what it is?"

"Yeah." Then he turned five shades of green and blue.

"Shawn that will not hurt you at all. Its protein."
Why I was trying to explain this I didn't have a clue but.

"I don't care what it is its gross."

"No silly I mean whatever you have been swallowing from me will not hurt
you. You know I wouldn't do anything to hurt you right?"

"Yeah of course I know that."

"Then stop worrying about it. How many times have you tasted it and
swallowed it?"

"I dunno, a lot."

"Exactly and has it ever made you sick or feel bad? Or worse doe it taste
bad?"

"Not really."

He started to think about it and then it hit him.

"Oh I see what you mean Tommy. What is sperm?"

I almost lost it.

"When we get home I will try and show you and explain it better okay?"

"Okay."

That ended that for now. I had enough of that anyway. The kid doesn't know
what it is but it grosses him out. He is plain confused or he tries to show
he knows it all but doesn't. Either way it's not a big deal, it's kinda
funny in a way though but enough of this. We loaded up our stuff and started
to head to the exit. He didn't have a lot before but after all the stops we
made we were not lugging around a bunch of stuff but he was smiling and
appeared content and that was my goal. I just hope in his mind he is happy
because we really can't tell how someone else feels can we? After a few
minutes of loading up the truck we were ready to go and it was finally time
to spring the best part of today on my little love. I sped home doing about
90 most of the way as Shawn looked out the side window and seemed to drift
off at times during the short drive back. At that speed anyway. I started to
climb the hill when he seemed to come back from his travel coma.

"Wow we are here already? That was fast."

"Where were you the whole time?"

"Huh?"

"You said we are here already, where were you while I drove home?"

"Oh. sorry I was thinking about stuff. Mom, dad and family stuff. What today
would have been like if they were alive and how good my mom's cake would
have tasted after the special dinner she would always cook for me on my
birthday."

"Sounds like your mom really made your birthday special for you."

"She did. I always knew something was going to happen to surprise me but
every year she did something or thought of something to make it special all
over again."

He said that as I pulled up in front of the house. His words couldn't have
been said at a better time because he was about to get a very special
surprise right now.

"Shawn, grab a few things and lets go inside first, the others can come out
and help you bring the rest in okay?"

"Sure TJ."

I let him go first I knew what was going to happen on the other side of the
door and I wasn't about to spoil it. He walked up and turned the door knob
and pushed the door open.

"SURPRISE!"

Everyone screamed out almost causing Shawn to fall to the ground from the
shock and scare of the group. Then he was mobbed with confetti and streamers
that everyone threw and shot at him. He was all smiles as he was greeted one
by one from everyone in the house. Finally he turned to me as I stood in the
doorway.

"You knew all about this didn't you?"

I nodded yes as he came running to me and gave he a huge hug.

"Thanks." He whispered to me as he broke away to join the others.

Kyle took him by the hand after putting a pointed hat on his head that said
birthday boy on it. In the living room was a pile of presents stacked up
high with decorations all around it. More streamers hanging from the ceiling
and balloons all over the house. It looked like a lot of work had gone into
it. They did well! We all spent the next hour having a blast and making sure
that Shawn was happy and it showed without a doubt. He opened all of his
gifts and seemed speechless as one by one each gift appeared to be something
he liked or wanted. Apparently Kyle did well. Finally things calmed some and
Shawn had a private moment with Kyle in the hall as the others enjoyed the
party inside. I watched from a distance as Kyle and he hugged and then Shawn
walked past me and back into the living room to continue his party. Kyle
came over to me smiling widely.

"I did it bro. it was awesome. Did you see the look on his face when he came
in the front door? It was total shock! Totally priceless!!"

"I didn't see it I was behind him but I know how it was."

"Huh?"

"Let's just say I saw that look earlier and it was a very special day Ky,
you did good! We did good!"

I gave him a hug and we shared a second together and alone.

"I love you so much bro, you did good by him. He wasn't 100% today thinking
about his family and missing them so much. I did what I could but I think
you really hit the nail on the head with the surprise party. He was a little
bummed out on the way home even after what we did today."

"I bet. He was very close to his family."

"Yeah. All he kept talking about was the cake and how special it was the way
his mom used to make it."

"I know bro, I did something special. I tried my best and I don't know how
well it will taste but I made him a vanilla icing cake myself. It was the
toughest thing I ever did but it worked I think. I had Ben drive me to a
store and together we did our best to make a cake for him."

"You are amazing Kyle. How did you ever do it you're not a cook,"

"I know but I found out Ben is. Somehow we got lucky. He used to help his
mom in the kitchen a lot and she taught him a lot about baking."

"Seems like there is a lot about him we don't know."

"There was Tommy but after spending a few hours with him I learned a lot.
He's a pretty kewl guy."

I put my arm around Kyle's shoulder and we walked back into the party.

"I bet there is a lot to learn about Benjy, Ky, when we have the time one
day you can tell me."

He nodded okay as Shawn came up to him and started talking about some game
he picked up while we were out earlier. I sat down and just took in the
excitement as everyone appeared to be having a good time. After the fun
calmed Kyle looked at me and told me he was going for the cake.

"Shawn."

"Yeah TJ?"

"Come sit by me for a second."

He came over and sat next to me on the couch.

"What's up?"

"Give it a second and you will see."

He sat patiently as we waited. Then Kyle and Ben came into the room carrying
this huge ass cake with lit candles on it. It had to be four feet wide both
ways. It was enormous. They put it down on the living room table as Shawn
stood there with his mouth wide open and tears running down his cheeks.
Everyone began to sing happy birthday to him. When we were done he wiped his
face and blew out the candles. I grabbed the knife and while holding Shawn's
hand we cut it. Then I took the knife and cut him a huge piece. Everyone
watched as he took a bit. I looked at Kyle and Ben and winked knowing the
hard work they put into the cake and after a few seconds of total silence
Shawn swallowed the bite he took and yelled out "AWESOME"!

It was awesome. We all had cake and it was sweet and pretty damn good. I
hadn't had anything that good in a while and even though we really didn't
eat much good food tonight we pigged out on that cake with just about
everyone having two pieces or more. I can't wait to see how everyone feels
in the morning after the massive sugar rush tonight. The rest of the night
was almost perfect until clean up then all hell broke loose as I had my back
turned and was picking cake up off the floor. A commotion started on the
other side of the room and I turned to see Trevor swing at Danny and punch
him solidly in the stomach. Danny doubled over and fell to the floor with
apparently the wind was knocked out of him. I ran over to check him as the
clean up came to a screeching halt.

"What the fuck happened" I screamed at Trevor.

"None of your fucking business!" He said as he stormed out of the room.

I let him go for now making sure Danny was okay. Christian was borderline
hysterical watching his brother turn red on the floor. Ben grabbed Chris and
calmed him some since they are pretty close now after all the swimming
lessons. I tended to Danny helping him get his breath back. He took a nice
shot. Apparently Trevor is a lot stronger then he looks or just got a good
shot in on Danny.

"What happened Dan?" I asked as he finally caught his breath.

"It was my fault Tommy, I'm sorry. I said something stupid to him and out of
no where he just let me have it."

"Well that's understandable but no one is allowed to swing in this house.
You know the rules as does he and everyone else!"

Danny went on to explain to me how he told Trevor jokingly that he would
probably never have a party like Shawn just had and I guess Trevor took it
the wrong was. Obviously!! After Danny was okay I decided it was time to
have a strong talk with Trevor. I headed up and knocked on his locked door.

"Go the fuck away!" he screamed through the locked door.

"Trevor its Tommy, open up!"

"Leave me alone Tommy, I'm not in the mood to fucking talk! Go away!"

"Open the door now or else!" I screamed at him. He just walked all over my
last nerve.

"Fuck you!" he replied.

I started pounding on the door and it echoed down the hall and through out
the whole house.

"Open this door now or else!"

I stopped and from inside I heard him walking. The door clicked and I opened
it. He was walking away and back to his bed where he sat back down and
picked up the book he was reading totally ignoring me while I stood there
looking at him.

"What happened downstairs and who the fuck do you think you are swinging at
another person in the house?"

He ignored me. I went over and ripped the book out of his hands and flung it
across the room. He got up and tried to get past me to go get the book still
ignoring what I asked him. I grabbed him roughly and stopped him in his
tracks.

"Let go of me you fucker!"

I held on tighter. He struggled to get loose and I finally had enough I
swung and smacked him across the face firmly but not overly hard. I let go
as he fell back on his bed and grabbed his face. After the initial shock
wore off he looked at me.

"That hurt you mother fucker!"

"Watch your mouth boy! I have had enough of you tonight!" I screamed at him.

"No one tells me what to do!"

He got up from his bed and charged at me with fist up. He swung but didn't
come close to making contact as I pushed him past me. The once cute boy had
fire in his eyes as he turned and came back at me one more time. I didn't
want to hurt him but he was leaving me little choice. Again he swung and as
much as I didn't want to I swung myself and landed a good shot on him as he
fell to his bed and lay there holding his stomach trying to catch his own
breath. I went over to him and he turned away so I stood there waiting for
him to speak. Finally he caught his breath and he slowly got up.

"I had enough of you and this place. You can all go to hell! I am leaving!"

"And going where?"

"None of your fucking business. I just want to get out of this gay house I
can't take it anymore all you queers can go die for all I care!"

He grabbed a few thing and stormed out of his room, down the steps past
everyone who was watching and listening to all this and then out the front
door slamming it shut. I stood at the top of the steps and everyone looked
at me after he left.

"Aren't you going after him? Asked Danny.

"No I am not. He swung at me and made me do something I didn't want to and
right now I don't really care where he goes as long as he is out of my
face."

"But Tommy he left the house." Jon said.

"I know he did Jon but you know as well as I do no one has to stay here and
after the way he just acted I am not going to force him to stay here
anymore."

"Then I am going to get him!" barked Jon.

"Be my guest; just make sure he doesn't swing at you."

"He won't!" he said as he flew out the front door after him.

The fun was over. Sadly Shawn's night ended with a bang I was just glad it
wasn't made by a gun. The guys were stunned but apparently understood what
happened wasn't anyone's fault or choice but Trevor's. No one made him leave
and everyone heard him scream out the queer comment. Nothing more was said
about him leaving as we waited for Jon to come back. A few minutes passed
and finally Jon came back into the house.

"Did you find him? Asked Joey.

"Nope he was gone or didn't respond when I yelled out his name."

"Oh well, I said. That was his choice. No one forced him out."

"Yeah but Tommy no one stopped him either!"

"Jon he wasn't actually in a good enough mood to try and convince to stay
was he?"

"That's not the point Tommy!" Jon yelled at me.

"Okay then what do you want me to do go after him? I looked at the group of
boys. Do any of you want me to chase after him right now? Do you think he
would behave the rest of the night if I forced him back here?"

No one said a word. But a few shook their heads no. Jon didn't say any more
about it. As the night went on and got later a few guys came over to me and
wanted to talk about it. No one accused me of being wrong and eventually I
said good night to everyone and went up to bed. Shawn came up shortly after
and knocked on my bedroom door.

"You okay TJ?"

"Sure cutie. Thanks."

"Thank you for a great day I had a real good time and I told Kyle that too.
I think I am going to sleep in my bed tonight TJ you and Jon might need some
time to work things out."

"Thanks cutie, I gave him a hug and kiss. Hope you enjoyed the cake I never
got to ask you how it was."

"It wasn't moms but it was still awesome. I liked it a whole lot."

He smiled as he waved good night to me and shut my door. I was alone in my
room now and it was late and finally quiet. We were down one boy tonight but
it was of his own choice and maybe for the best. His attitude sucks and he
needs time to sort things out even if it's done outside alone and in the
dark. I am sure he will be back once he calms down, if not later tonight
then sometime tomorrow.


TO BE CONTINUED...


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