Date: Wed, 12 Apr 2017 18:32:38 -0400
From: lewissiwel8890@aol.com
Subject: Wesley and Seamus Chapter 9

Wesley & Seamus
By Wesley Lewis
Chapter 9: Acrophobia, Bull Rides, and Three Cs

      A freaking fair! That is where Jesse brought us for a double date. At
first I thought he was crazy, but then I remembered that I hadn't been to a
fair for at least a decade. Seamus had a look of apprehension on his face.
      "What's the matter baby, haven't you ever been to fair?" I asked. He
slowly shook his head and just looked in awe at all the lights and
rides. "Well there's a first time for everything let's go then."
      After some argument, mostly on my part, Jesse aid for everyone's
tickets and we were give wristband that let us get on any ride we
wanted. Daddy gave me some money and told Seamus and me to meet them at the
Ferris wheel in a few hours. I also made sure I had my phone with me too in
case of emergency.
      "So where to first Seamus?" I asked.
      "Blimey Wes, I have no idea, what do you suggest we do I've never
been to a fair before"
      It was so cute he was turning ten shades of red. I just took him by
the hand and led him to the merry go round figuring we'd start off nice and
slow. He looked at me like I was crazy but he came along anyway. We got
into one of the carriages and I could see him start to relax. The best part
was we were holding hands the entire time and it felt great knowing I could
be with my boyfriend out in the open. I just hope school would be like this
when I went back in a couple of days. Seamus had been bringing me homework
while I was at home so I'm caught up on the work but Daddy told me it was
time to get off my duff and return to school.
      After the merry go round we ran around getting on different rides I
think the fun house had to be Seamus' favorite because we went through it
about five time. It didn't matter though because he was so happy.
      We walked around for a little bit and saw a crowd that was gathered
around in a small area. There was a lot of talking and pointing so I asked
what everyone was going on about. A guy told me some dude in a cowboy hat
had been on the mechanical bull for five minutes, which I guess was a hard
thing or something.
      As I motioned for Seamus to leave he pulled my arm back. I turned
around and saw him pointing. My jaw nearly dropped when I saw it was Daddy
on the mechanical bull. I looked around the crowd and found Jesse. He was
as much in awe as I was. So, I snuck up behind him and could hear him
talking to himself.
      "I wonder if he can stay on like that in the bedroom" I liked to have
died right then after hearing Jason say that.
      I decided it was time to get him so I leaned over and whispered, "You
never know until you ask, but I hear he's got a good-looking boyfriend."
      Jesse nearly jumped out of his pants after hearing me. Seamus and I
wear crying we were laughing so hard. We quickly stopped when we saw the
look on Jesse's face.
      "I'm sorry Jesse I shouldn't have done that to you but it was so
funny." I tried apologizing, I say try because I was still trying not to
laugh at him. It took a few minutes but he finally started laughing with
us.
      After what seemed like an eternity Daddy finally got bucked off the
bull. They clock behind him said he was on there like fifteen minutes,
which I guess was sort of impressive, I didn't really know to be honest. I
was getting ready to grab Seamus and go on another ride when I noticed he
had slipped away. Everyone started laughing and I looked, and there was my
boyfriend about to hop on the bull. I guess he must have wanted a matching
cast. As I stared in disbelief my favorite country song Boot Scootin'
Boogie started playing. Then the bull started up, it was fun to watch
Seamus hold on but he was on there and wasn't letting go. He motioned for
the operator to speed it up. It was amazing to see him like this. If I
didn't know any better I would say this wasn't his first time at the
rodeo. After a couple of minutes, he motioned for the ride to go faster.
      By now an even bigger crowd had amassed around the small area. People
were taking videos and pictures with their phones.
      One guy asked me "Who the hell is that damn kid, I've never seen a
kid ride on that bull for that long or that fast"
      "That's my boyfriend" I replied with the biggest smile on my face.
      "Well son you are damn lucky, I wish my husband could still ride like
that." He said and walked away.
      I just stood there my mouth gaping open as I tried to process what
the man had said. About that time, the operator turned the speed all the
way up and Seamus was still holding on. After a few minutes the guy finally
shut down the ride, saying it needed to charge up or some other baloney. I
just think he was embarrassed he couldn't get Seamus thrown off. Before
Seamus left the little area, the operator gave Seamus a black cowboy hat
like Daddy as wearing. He had the biggest grin and everyone was slapping
him on the back calling him buckaroo and other names I didn't hear.
      After we left the bull ride we all decided to get something to
eat. We chowed down on corndogs and pizza. after our fill of that we got
funnel cake and cotton candy. I loved it when Seamus got a little bit of
powdered sugar on his nose from the funnel cake, I couldn't resist it and
leaned over and licked his nose. When I did that we both started giggling
like two schoolgirls. When looked over at Daddy and Jesse and they were
rolling their eyes at us.
      After getting our fill of junk food we made our way to the Ferris
wheel. Seamus was as whit as a ghost as we moved near. He had told me that
he was afraid of heights, so I figured that this was a good a time as any
to break that little phobia. I had read in a book that a good way to
overcome a fear was to face it head on and by associating a positive memory
with it. He held my hand in his tightly as we ascended, it was sort of
adorable to me. When we reached the top, the damn thing got stuck, well ok
maybe it wasn't just a bit of bad luck, I may or may not have bribed the
ride operator to stop it when our seat made it to the top, but you can't
prove it! Seamus just sat there shaking and if truth be told he looked as
if he was about to pass out. Before he did that though, I reached over
cupped hiss face in my hand and kissed him. Almost immediately he seemed to
relax and all the tension in his body abated. We stayed in that loving
embrace until we felt the ride start to move again. When we got off the
ride I thanked the operator again and slipped him a little extra.
      When we got back to Daddy and Jesse, we decided we had enough of the
fair so we left. I was prepared to go home then but Jesse had other
plans. Recently there had been a new eating establishment that opened. It
also boasted to be an awesome karaoke bar. I used to sing in the choir at
church but had recently quit because of the way my voice cracked due to
puberty. Seamus didn't have that problem though. I was kind of curious to
know how Jesse sounded. Daddy had a great tenor voice.
      We pulled in the parking lot and went inside. This place looked
amazing! It had a retro look that somehow seemed modern at the same
time. The waiter who took us to our table wasn't too bad looking either. We
sat down and ordered a small meal with sodas. Daddy rarely drank and when
he did it was just wine or champagne on special occasions. Jesse told us he
didn't drink because of an uncle he had plowed into a tree while
drunk. About ten minutes into the meal Daddy stood up and excused himself
from the table saying he needed to use the restroom.
      A few minutes later we could see somebody had gotten brave enough to
make a fool of themselves by singing in front of the crowd. Jesse was
facing away from the stage and didn't even look to see who was at the
stage. He did turn around when he heard a familiar voice saying, "This one
is for a guy I thought I had lost a long time ago but have found him
again."

If I could turn back time, If I could find a way I'd take back those words
that'll hurt you and you'd stay, I don't know why I did the things I did I
don't know why I said the things I said Love's like a knife it can cut deep
inside Words are like weapons, they wound sometimes I didn't really mean to
hurt you I didn't want to see you go I know I made you cry, but baby If I
could turn back time If I could find a way I'd take back those words that'd
hurt you And you'd stay If I could reach the stars I'd give 'em all to you
Then you'd love me, love me, like you used to do If I could turn back time

	When we looked at Jesse he had tears running down his face but they
weren't sad tears because he had a giant smile on his face. I myself was
crying as well as Daddy poured his heart into the rest of the song.

My world was shattered I was torn apart Like someone took a knife and drove
it deep in my heart You walked out that door I swore that I didn't care But
I lost everything darling then and there Too strong to tell you I was sorry
Too proud to tell you I was wrong I know that I was blind, And darling, If
I could turn back time If I could find a way I'd take back those words
that'll hurt you And you'd stay If I could reach the stars I'd give them
all to you Then you'd love me, love me, like you used to do, oh

	By now Seamus and I had begun to hold hands and were both smiling
as Daddy neared the end of the song. Honestly, I had heard the song before
but I never really understood the emotion behind it until tonight. Daddy
kept singing despite the Tears rolling down his face.

If I could turn back time If I could turn back time If I could turn back
time, whoa baby I didn't really mean to hurt you I didn't want to see you
go I know I made you cry, but baby If I could turn back time If I could
find a way I'd take back those words that hurt you If I could reach the
stars I'd give 'em all to you Then you'd love me, love me, like you used to
do If I could turn back time If I could find a way Then maybe, maybe, maybe
You'd stay (Reach the stars) If I could reach the stars (All to you) I'd
give 'em all to you.

	After daddy put the microphone back he was met with a standing
ovation. He ignored everyone in the restaurant and walked straight up to
Jesse and took him in his arms and kissed him. As I looked around the
restaurant no one looked disgusted or offended at seeing the two kiss.
      About twenty minutes later and a few drunken attempts at singing
Don't Stop Believing, I decided it was time for the three guys to know how
I felt about them. I nervously maneuvered onto the stage taking the
microphone from the previous singer and selected my favorite song.
      "Hi, my name is Wesley, I'd like tom dedicate this song to the three
people who matter to me the most and how they've helped me through a
difficult time recently.  For all those times that you stood by me For all
the truth that you made me see For all the joy you brought to my life For
all the wrong that you made right For every dream you made come true For
all the love I found in you I'll be forever thankful baby You're the one
who held me up Never let me fall You're the one who saw me through, through
it all You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I
couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there
was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith because you
believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me You gave me wings and
made me fly You touched my hand I could touch the sky I lost my faith, you
gave it back to me You said no star was out of reach You stood by me and I
stood tall I had your love I had it all I'm grateful for each day you gave
me Maybe I don't know that much But I know this much is true I was blessed
because I was loved by you You were my strength when I was weak You were my
voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw
the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me
faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me You were
always there for me The tender wind that carried me A light in the dark
shining your love into my life You've been my inspiration Through the lies
you were the truth My world is a better place because of you You were my
strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were
my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up
when I couldn't reach You gave me faith because you believed I'm everything
I am Because you loved me I'm everything I am Because you loved me

      I stood there looking at the tear stained faces of the men who I
loved more than anyone else in the world and I just walked to the table and
was enveloped in a hug. Seamus kissed me and I felt so close to him that I
never wanted to let go.
      After a few more entertaining songs we decided it was time to head
for home. Daddy insisted that Jesse stay the night and even offered to fix
up our guest room for him in case he didn't want to share the bed with
Daddy. When Jesse wanted to know why Daddy just murmured something about
going to church in the morning for a very important speech he was
delivering. Jesse just accepted that and followed Daddy to his bedroom
while me and Seamus went to mine. There was only a few minutes of making
out and a lot of cuddling but eventually we fell asleep.
      The next morning came quicker than I would have liked but it was
better because I was waking up with Seamus today. I was a little
apprehensive about going to church as it would be the first time since the
incident. Daddy kept reassuring me telling me it would be fine. He and
Jason had gotten up early and prepared breakfast this morning. Thankfully
the kitchen wasn't a war zone like it was yesterday morning. After we ate
and got dressed we headed off to church.
      When we entered the church, there were a few looks and murmurs, along
with a great deal of whispering. I led Seamus and Jesse towards the front
pew and sat there. We listened to the Choir do a few hymns and the new head
pastor quote, or rather misquote several verses in the bible. He seemed to
be staring at me and Seamus as he said the words about how homosexuals
leading the life of sin would be cast into the fires of damnation hen
judgement day came. By this time, I was pissed and bout ready to walk out
when the hateful old goat introduces Daddy to speak.
      "Good morning everyone, as you can see my son has returned and I'm
happy about that. You may notice the red headed young man beside him, that
is my son's boyfriend. Yes, I said boyfriend. Sitting beside him is another
important person, my boyfriend."
      By now there were even more whispers going around the church as
people began staring at Daddy like he was the devil incarnate.
      "I'm telling everyone this because I am tired of living a lie. I am
tired of listening to people belittle my son and saying things like he
deserved to be beaten like he was. I am here to tell you that no one
deserved to be beaten like that. Just because he is gay doesn't make me
love him any less. He is the strongest person I know. I've sat and listened
to the hate filled rants of various members of this congregation, and I
must tell you I don't think any of you here deserve to know me, my
boyfriend, or my son and his. You are the type of people we preach against
for being gossips. Yes, my former wife beat our son because he had the
bravery to come out. Yes, he was in a coma for a week and we prayed that he
would wake up. Every day we went to the chapel to pray for it. When he woke
up he had to basically learn how to walk again, that's where we met my
boyfriend. He wasn't always my boyfriend though. That was entirely my
fault, he had the courage to confess his feelings to me when we were
younger, what did I do? I did the same thing many of you would do and
called him a faggot and wanted nothing to do to him. A few days after that
I realized what an ass I was and went to apologize, when I got to his house
I found a sold sign on the lot and an empty house. I thought I had lost my
chance and I would never see him again. When my wife found out about Wesley
she did something horrible and I still see the limp body of my son laying
there battered and bruised. When I saw that Jesse was going to be my son's
physical therapist I had to apologize to him. He always was the bigger man
of the two of us and forgave me. In all honesty, I haven't forgiven myself
yet. But as I look out at your faces I can see that I don't need anyone's
forgiveness but my family and that now includes Jesse. I am also here today
to tell everyone that this is the last time I will ever set foot in this
miserable excuse for a house of worship. I will no longer subject my child
or anyone else I love to your hate-mongering. And with that my family and I
are leaving."
      As we got up to leave we noticed that a handful of parishioners were
following us out. They stopped and thanked Daddy for opening their eyes and
had confessed that they had acted foolishly. One mother even hugged me
because she was one of the people who thought I deserved what happened. She
admitted she had done the same thing to her son and now only talks to him
once a year and that's to a machine. She told me she was going to visit him
and try to earn his love back and see if they could get bac to some
semblance of normal. I was on cloud nine. I had an even greater sense of
respect for my father after today. Now all I have got to do is get ready
for tomorrow, my first day back at school.

Hi everyone jack here I have a few links to the songs above
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BsKbwR7WXN4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDcuRgk-JEI

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