Date: Fri, 04 May 2001 10:22:05 -0500
From: fsw99 <fsw99@pop.mindspring.com>
Subject: Chapter 2 of You Can't Go Back

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			     You Can't Go Back

				  By Stan

(First, this is a true story as told to me by Dave. Dave was 12 when this
happened, so he doesn't remember all of the events, so I have to make up
some things. I will keep it as close to truth as I can. This happened
almost ten years ago, but it will be told in flashbacks and mingled in with
true events that happen to our group of young gay guys (and one old gay
guy, me). Or, things that have already happened that we are still dealing
with. I hope you enjoy this method of telling a story. I've never tried
anything like this before. If you are looking for lots of sex in the story,
better look elsewhere. This is more real life stuff. Sorry!

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				Chapter Two

The school day couldn't go fast enough for me. I didn't even care about
lunch. OK, who am I fooling? I did care about lunch. But, Bruce made sure
to invite me to sit with him and his friends, and I had a really good
time. All the other boys started to talk to me. Finally! I was actually
making friends. Me! An outsider!!

It helped that Bruce also told everyone that I had volunteered to go home
with him and help him with his farm work. Bruce constantly kidded me about
having to turn a city slicker into a farm boy. They kidded me about
volunteering to do farm work that they all hated. I didn't mind the
friendly kidding, and all the other boys joined in teasing me. I just joked
back with them, and if anything, it seemed to make them accept me faster
than anything else.

I wasn't a loner any more. I didn't even mind PE. I still dreaded the
shower afterwards, but even then, I wasn't alone any more. I was now part
of the gang.

Ok, I was still embarrassed. I noticed more than one of my new friends
checking me out in the shower. Of course, I did the same. I just wished I
was a little bigger "down there". Oh well, at least no one made any
comments to embarrass me any further.

Bruce stayed with me throughout PE. We played softball, and he was one of
the captains who chose sides. He chose me first on his team. Are you
kidding me? Of course he didn't. He had seen me in PE yesterday. He knew I
wasn't an athlete. But, he did pick me several picks from the end.  At
least I wasn't the last to be picked. That's important when you're 12. No
one wants to be the last pick.

He also stayed with me when it was time to take our showers. That was lots
worse than him picking me for his team. I would have rather been left by
myself this time. So, instead of being in a corner off to myself like
yesterday, I was between Bruce and a friend of his named Eric who was at
least six inches taller than I was and also a couple of inches longer than
I was in the area that was lots more important than height. Shit! This was
NOT fun!!

Anyway, I escaped. No little dick jokes. No nothing, really. We all joked
back and forth in the shower like we did at lunch, and acted like we
weren't secretly looking at everyone else. Right!

Once PE was over, the rest of the day flew by. I was actually enjoying my
classes. Bruce and I fought to see who could raise our hands the fastest to
answer the teacher's questions. Until the last class. Math. I aced him
easily. When I looked over at him at times, he was actually frowning at
me. Well, I had said I would help him in math if he helped me understand
what a farm boy did.  Fair is fair. Once, I even leaned over and whispered,
"Wait until I turn a farm boy into a city boy math whiz".

He seemed to like that, and finally grinned at me. We were back to being
friends again.

The bell finally rang, and we were allowed out of prison for the next two
days!!! YAY!! Thank God for weekends.

Bruce and I actually ran for the school bus. Why wouldn't we? Freedom!
Freedom at last!! Let my people go!!! Let's see. What other old cliches can
I use?

In any case, we were the first two kids on the bus. Bruce, of course, beat
me to the bus, so technically, he was first and I was second. In any case,
we were tied as to who was the happiest about being out of school.

We talked non stop until we got off the bus at his house. I went in and met
Bruce's mother and his brother Mitch, who was sitting on the couch watching
TV. He didn't look very sick to me. He barely acknowledged our presence,
but he was 15 and I guess he just thought we were little kids. .  Bruce had
told me that he hates school, and also hates Bruce. Bruce thinks he is just
faking being sick so he didn't have to go to school and Bruce has to do all
the work around the farm. Kind of looks that way to me, too, but I just got
here.

I called my Mom and she was in a good mood for once. She actually was happy
for me that I had made a new friend, and after talking to Bruce's Mom for
like eight hours on the phone, agreed to make Fred do all my chores, which
was really just feeding the horses, and let me spend the night with Bruce.

Anyway, Bruce finally said, "We have lots of work to do. We'd better get to
it. Are you ready for your first lesson?"

"Yesah, master," I replied. We both laughed as we headed for the barn.

Look, I really don't like to work, but this was fun. I had never been
around cows or hogs or chickens. Feeding them was far more fun than work.

I knew the fun time couldn't last. Next was cleaning out the stalls where
the horses stayed over night. We just left ours out in the pasture, since
it was still warm. I knew already that I wasn't looking forward to cold
weather when we had to brings ours inside. It smelled really awful in
here. Bruce said that the stalls hadn't been cleaned out in several days,
and it smelled like, well, it smelled like shit!! Good reason for
that. There were huge piles of horse shit everywhere.

"Uh, Bruce, isn't there any other animals I can feed?" I asked.

"Oh no, you're going to help me in here. You wanted to know what it was
like to be a country boy, and now you are going to find out." Oh well, good
try, I guess.

I didn't complain. I just tried to hold my breathe and when I had to
breathe, breathe through my mouth. It didn't work very well, but at least I
tried.

Cleaning the stalls meant to rake out all the shit and hay that was
attached to it, then use a pitch fork to load it into a wheelbarrow that we
dumped out behind the barn. I got to be wheelbarrow boy. I guess Bruce
didn't like that part. Gee, I don't know why not. Pushing the wheelbarrow
in front of you into the wind is an experience that everyone should have to
do once. That's what I wanted to do. Do it once, and never again. God,
would this smell ever come out of my clothes?  And from my body?

By the way, I call this a barn, but it was almost as nice as our
house. Well, we didn't have piles of shit inside, but you know what I
mean. But it was a great barn, very clean with everything hanging up where
you could find it. Bruce's old man must be loaded!

Anyway, I made like a hundred trips out with the damn wheelbarrow. Ok, not
that many, but it seemed like it. This wasn't fun anymore, this was
work. My arms were beginning to get tired.

Bruce saw that I was almost exhausted and said, "You still like being a
country boy, slick?"

"You know, Pennsylvania looks really good to me now. I wonder how much a
bus ticket back is?"

Bruce just howled. "Oh no, you're here to stay. I have lots more to teach
you. Plus, you have to help me with my math, remember?"

"Oh yeah. And payback is hell, you know."

"Hey, you give me too much trouble about math and I'll have to kick your
butt."

Now, I knew Bruce was bigger than I was, stronger than I was, and a better
athlete. But what 12 year old is going to take something like that from his
friend? I sure wasn't. "Kick my butt? You?  Are you going to go in and get
your big brother to help you?"

"I don't need any help," Bruce said, as he grinned at me, threw down the
pitchfork and lunged towards me.

I was tired. He caught me off guard. I wasn't looking. I wasn't expecting
him to do that. Uhm.  Let's see, what other excuses can I use? In any case,
I found myself flat of my back with Bruce sitting on top of me, pinning my
arms to the ground. Did I mention laying in horse shit that we hadn't
cleaned up yet?

"Get off of me, you idiot! We're going to be covered in shit!" I screamed.

"Who cares? It washes off. It won't kill you to take two showers in one
day," Bruce said, as he grinned at me.

That pissed me off. I tried my best to fight him off, but I couldn't. Did I
mention that he was bigger and stronger than I was and also had me pinned?
I didn't have a chance.

"You can't get away, little city boy. I'll let you go on one
condition. Tell me I'm a math whiz."

"Give me a break. You couldn't spell math if I spotted you the `m' and
the `th'." Ok, I was a smart ass. Sorry! And I still am!! Hehehe

"Oh, I think you need to be taught a lesson. You still don't know who's in
charge here, do you?"  Bruce kidded, as he forced my hands over my head,
held them both with his right hand and picked up a small pile of shit to
his left. He reached down and smeared it across my face, then leaped off of
me and ran outside the barn, laughing like a wild man.

I lay there in shock for a few seconds. I couldn't believe it. He had
actually wiped shit on my face.  I had a bad temper, and I was going to
KILL HIM!!! I finally got up, wiped my face with a rag that was nearby, got
a huge pile of dried shit in my hand, and ran out of the barn after
him. "I'm going to kill you, ass hole!" I yelled.

You know, there was no way yesterday that I would have ever picked up a
clump of shit in my bare hands. Now, it seemed natural. Especially with
revenge on my mind.

Bruce had already run far enough away that I couldn't get to him
quickly. He was laughing his head off as he ran around the tractor that
would be used to push the shit back into their field so it could be used as
fertilizer. I ran to the tractor as he ran to the other side.

"I'm going to make you eat this when I catch you," I said bravely.

"What makes you think you're going to catch me?" he teased.

"Oh, I'll catch you, sooner or later."

"Yeah, right! I can out run you any day of the week."

He did have a point, but I wasn't going to give up. I started circling the
tractor, but he just followed my actions and moved with me. I wasn't
getting anywhere.

I finally figured that strategy was better than trying to out run him. "OK,
I can't catch you. You win," I said, as I threw the shit I was carrying
over to the pile I had made in front of the tractor.  "If we are going to
finish before dark, we'd better get going."

"Yeah, you're right," Bruce answered, as he looked warily at me as we both
started back towards the barn. We started raking the rest of the shit into
one last pile. Bruce never let me out of his sight for more than a few
seconds at a time. He knew that an attack was coming, and he was right.

I used the pitchfork this time and loaded up the wheelbarrow. "Man, I'm
beat. You take out the last load, OK?" I asked, sitting down.

"Sure," he answered. Why not? We had cleaned up everything and had already
spread out fresh straw. Of course, he hadn't seen the last little clump of
shit that I had carefully hidden in a corner where he couldn't see.

He was almost out the door pushing the wheelbarrow when I snuck up behind
him, yanked open the back of his t-shirt and pressed the dried shit all
down his back. I used both hands. I did as good a job as I could in the one
or two seconds I had before he dropped the wheelbarrow on it's side and
rushed me, cursing his head off.

This time I was better prepared for our fight. It was maybe all of ten
seconds before he rolled be over on my back and pinned my arms.

"I ought to make you eat some of that for what you just did to me."

"For what? I put it down your back. You put it on my face."

Bruce just grinned again. "Yeah, I guess you're right. Even?"

I grinned back. "Yeah. Even."

He got up off of me and we grinned at each other. Both of us had won a
small battle. We were even, and we were friends. Better friends now than
before. We were also very dirty.

"Look what you made me do, dip shit. Help me load it all back up so we can
clean the chick coop next," Bruce said angrily.

"Dip shit? Is that a country saying?"

"I think it describes you in the country or in the city. Now, help me
finish this up," he said as he grinned at me.

I grinned back as he turned the wheelbarrow back over and we filled it back
up. He pushed it out and added it to the pile, then pushed it over to where
the chicken coop was.

"After we wash out the chicken coop, we have to wash off the wheelbarrow
and we're finished for the night."

"Thank God. I thought that this was going to be fun," I answered.

"Fun? Who thinks working on a farm is fun? Oh yeah, city boys."

"Sorry for being so ignorant."

"Hey, you can't help it. You're from the city. That is why you hired a real
expert like me to countryfy you," Bruce kidded.

Oh, thank you, thank you, boss man. Next time I come over, can we play in
the horse shit again? I had so much fun today."

"If you're good and do what you're told, we might could play in it
again. Maybe," Bruce laughed.

"Oh, thank you, boss. Next time, I want it smeared all over myself. I
really don't smell that bad now. I want to smell REALLY awful."

"Don't worry about that. I have a plan to get you all clean," Bruce
kidded. "Come on, let's get going. If we miss supper, Mom will be really
pissed."

I followed Bruce into the chicken coop and he handed me a water hose and
turned it on. He also got another one and showed me how to start in one
corner and wash all the chicken shit and feathers out the door.

Oh boy. I get to play in more shit. What is it about having to deal with
shit on a farm? If Bruce next said that we had to clean out all the shit in
the hog pen, I was going home! Even if I had to walk all the way!! All two
and a half miles!!!

"How long can you stay tomorrow?" Bruce asked.

"I don't know. I'll call in the morning and ask when they want me home."

"If you can stay until late in the afternoon, I could show you around our
farm. We could go riding on the four wheeler or teach you how to shoot one
of my guns."

"Wow, that would be lots of fun. I think they will let me stay as long as
I'm home for supper."

"Great. We can do anything we want to after we finish the chores."

"Wait. You just want me to help you some more, right?" I asked.

Bruce just grinned at me. "There really isn't much to do in the
morning. Milk the cows and gather the eggs. We've done all the hard stuff
today. You getting tired of being a country boy already?"

"No, I just wanted to make sure that we weren't going to have to clean all
the shit out of the hog pen."

Bruce just cracked up. "Well, if I have to ever do that, I'll make sure and
do it on a week end when you can help me. I wouldn't want you to miss out
on any of your training."

"Thanks. You really are a good friend, aren't you?" I kidded.

"Maybe. I don't know if I can be friends with a city slicker. Once you have
gone through all your training, then I guess we can be friends."

"Oh, thanks a lot, Bruce," I said, pretending to be hurt.

Bruce obviously didn't know I was kidding. He stopped washing off the floor
of the chicken coop and said, "Hey, I'm just kidding."

I looked up at him and said, "You are?" as I also cut off my hose. We were
almost finished anyway. We only had a couple of feet to go.

"Sure. We're already friends. I wouldn't have asked you to spend the night
if we weren't."

"Ok. I was just making sure that you didn't just try and take advantage of
any new kid who moves here."

"Oh, I wouldn't do that. You know why?" Bruce asked.

"No."

"Well, first, hardly anyone new ever moves here. And second, I don't think
anyone else who moved here would be stupid enough to volunteer to help me
do all my work." With that, he turned his hose back on and soaked me from
head to toe. Then, he ran out of the chicken coop, laughing like he had
when he had smeared shit on my face. This was turning into a really bad
day.

I think I have told you about my temper. Is anyone old enough except Stan
to remember Popeye cartoons? Probably not. Anyway, when Popeye would get
mad, he would always say, "That's all I can stands, I can't stands no
more". I know, needs better grammar. Then he would eat his spinach, turn
into some kind of super hero for a few minutes, and beat the crap out of
whoever had pissed him off. Well, I didn't have a can of spinach close by,
but I was furious. I ran out after Bruce at full speed.

He had already won two wrestling matches today, and he wasn't very worried
about winning another one, so he had just run out of distance for my hose,
and was laughing as I ran towards him. He didn't expect me to tackle him,
which I did. I hit him about in the middle of his chest and drove him
backwards. I guess the three years I had spent playing on youth football
teams finally paid off. It sure hadn't seem to pay off when I was playing.
I had sucked and always had to play on the offensive or defensive line. It
helped today, though.

Bruce hit hard on his back with me on top of him. My tackle knocked the
wind out of him for a minute, and it was a simple matter of pinning his
arms down like he had done to me. I was sitting on top of his stomach and
looking him in the eye when he recovered and looked up at me. Our faces
were only inches apart as I used all my weight to make sure he couldn't get
up.

"I ought to kill you for spraying me."

"Easy, killer, you did a pretty good job with that tackle. I never would
have dreamed you could do that to me."

"Well, I'm soaked. Why did you do it, anyway? I don't have any other
clothes over here."

"I'd already told you that I had a plan to get you clean. That was it,"
Bruce giggled.

"Very funny. Now what do I do for clean clothes?"

"I can find you something to wear. Don't worry about it. We' re almost the
same size. Well, maybe not, judging from the load that is on top of me,"
Bruce kidded.

I was still mad. "I still ought to beat your ass for that."

"Get off of me, and I'll let you spray me, too. Then, we will be even
again. OK?"

That sounded like a great idea. Revenge! "Ok, but you have to promise to
let me do it."

"I promise. You know, you're kinda cute when you get mad," Bruce said, as
he snickered.

I looked him right in the eyes, and blushed really hard. Like I said, our
faces were only inches apart. And I really did like him. A LOT!!

What could I say to get out of this? I had no idea. All I could do was
mumble "Thanks a lot, Bruce. Now, come over here and let me get you as wet
as I am," as I quickly got off of him. I know, very lame comeback. But, I
had felt myself getting hard when he said that, and even though it is
small, I was sure he would have noticed, with me sitting on his stomach and
all. You know, no pressure at all, then a lump digging into his stomach. I
think he might have gotten the message.  And I couldn't risk that.

Bruce took it well. "Ok, fine. You did a really good job helping me. You
can spray me back and front. Then, I get to do your back. Then, we will be
even again. Deal?" he asked, as he grinned at me.

I looked at him and fell more in love with him than I had been. "Deal," I
answered grinning back.

I got out the hose and Bruce didn't resist. He stood patiently as I took my
time and wet his whole body down from head to toe. He even turned around
when I told him to, and I did the back side.  And it was a nice looking
back side too, if I may say so. He ended up soaked through and through.

Bruce just laughed when I was finished, and slicked back his hair with his
hands. He took off his t-shirt and wrung it out. Lots of water poured from
it. He tried to push off as much water from his body and clothes as he
could, then said, "Your turn, slick."

I knew I had no choice, so I turned around and said, "How did I get the
name slick all of a sudden?"

"Hey, city slicker. I just shortened it," Bruce answered as he turned on
the hose and the water hit my back. He did a really good job. I finally
turned around to tell him that was enough, and he got most of my front
again. Great. Now, we were both completely soaked.

Just when he finally turned off the hose, we saw a huge man walking out of
the barn. "Hi, Dad.  We're just getting cleaned up after finishing cleaning
the barn and the chicken coop. This is Dave, my new best friend. He and his
family just moved into the old William's place."

He walked over and said, "Hi, Dave. Nice to meet you. You know, we do have
a shower inside if you would like to use it."

He held out his huge hand and I shook it. He had a really friendly look on
his face. Despite his intimidating size, I liked him immediately.

"You know your Mom is going to have a fit if you trail water through her
house, don't you?" he asked.

"Yeah. We'll just both strip in the washroom like I do every day after
chores," Bruce answered.

"Fine. You boys better get inside soon. You know how your Mom likes for
everyone to be ready to eat when she gets food on the table. Nice meeting
you, Dave. I hope to see you around here more often."

He walked away, and I was shocked. For several things.

First, and the most important thing, was Bruce had just told his Dad that I
was his new best friend. I couldn't believe it! I was happy beyond words. I
don't even have to say that the feeling was mutual.

Second, I couldn't believe that Bruce's Dad had caught us washing down each
other with the hose. If I had been caught doing anything like that in
Pennsylvania, my Dad would have taken his belt off and beaten both of
us. Even if he hadn't ever met Bruce. Well, maybe not that bad, but I would
have heard about it for a long time.

Third. Third. Third. Ok, I know. I'm repeating myself.

Third. One thing Bruce had said had kind of frozen me. `We'll just both
strip in the washroom like I do every day after chores'.

I didn't know where the washroom was, but if it was anywhere near the rest
of the family, Bruce could forget about that. No way I was going to run
around half naked with his family watching.

I was right about one thing. We weren't half naked when we did it. We were
totally naked!

To be continued.

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