Date: Fri, 11 May 2001 10:06:57 -0500
From: fsw99 <fsw99@pop.mindspring.com>
Subject: Chapter 6 of You Can't Go Back

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			     You Can't Go Back

				  By Stan

(First, this is a true story as told to me by Dave. Dave was 12 when this
happened, so he doesn't remember all of the events, so I have to make up
some things. I will keep it as close to truth as I can. This happened
almost ten years ago, but it will be told in flashbacks and mingled in with
true events that happen to our group of young gay guys (and one old gay
guy, me). Or, things that have already happened that we are still dealing
with. I hope you enjoy this method of telling a story. I've never tried
anything like this before. If you are looking for lots of sex in the story,
better look elsewhere. This is more real life stuff. Sorry!

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				Chapter Six

"Bruce's Mom has just told me how she disciplines Bruce and Mitch. And how
you hate the idea so much that you do everything they tell you to do. I
think that is going to be our new family rule from now on," my Mom said.

I looked over at Bruce with hate in my eyes. Thanks a whole fucking lot,
Bruce!!

They finally left. I couldn't wait for them to leave after that
bombshell. I was constantly reminded that I might get a spanking at any
time when I was at Bruce's house, and now I had to deal with the same thing
here. My life had taken a funny turn, and I didn't like it one bit. Fuck
me!!!

Mom and Bruce's Mom had just shared a smile after that, like they had a
secret they shared, and I didn't ask any questions. The least said, the
better, as far as I thought.

They did have a surprise for everyone at each family's dinner table that
night. We were all going to church the next morning, and then going to
Bruce's house for lunch. Well, I didn't look forward to church, but being
with Bruce that afternoon was a plus. We didn't go to church very often, we
hadn't gone since we moved here. Bruce's family seemed to be the same way,
but the two Mom's decided that it had been too long, and we were
going. What could the rest of us say?  We were men. Well, some of us were
almost men. But, all of us knew our place. Women made these kind of
decisions, and if you didn't want to hear it for months, even years later,
you just went along with their decision. I did have some Sunday clothes. I
just didn't know where they were.

Anyway, we met at church and went in. My Dad and Bruce's Dad met for the
first time, and seemed to like each other. I saw them several times talking
and breaking into laughter together and looking at Bruce and I. God, I
hoped they weren't also talking about spankings! But, I knew it had come
up. Why had we moved here in the first place?

Fred and Mitch even seemed to get along. Fred was 18, almost 19, three
years older than Mitch, but that was close enough for them to be
friends. Did they include Bruce and I? Of course not.  They were way too
cool to include their little brothers.

We made it through church without any major catastrophes. It really wasn't
bad. And I didn't fall asleep during the sermon. That was always
good. Makes a better impression on your parents that way. Maybe they would
believe I was actually paying attention. Which I wasn't.

We went home and changed clothes before going over to Bruce's house. That
was good. Having my collar buttoned was killing me. I think I need a new
dress shirt. I'd have to look in Fred's closet and see if he has any too
small for him. In some cases, having an older brother wasn't a total pain
in the ass.

When we got to Bruce's house, everyone welcomed us like we were old
friends. I was amazed.  Maybe all of this would work out.

Bruce's Mom was a great cook, and she already had everything ready. She was
lots better than my Mom. Maybe I could ask Mom to get some tips from
her. Then, I thought about that. Nah.  That could be the excuse for Mom to
start beating my butt again, and it had been a long time since the last
one. But, thanks to Bruce's Mom, the idea was fresh in her head again, and
no use tempting fate.

After we ate, the Dads retired to a shady spot with lawn chairs and a few
cans of beer and we knew they weren't going anywhere soon. Fred and Mitch
took off on the 3 and 4 wheeler. Bruce and I were left by ourselves.

"Hey, you want to go fishing? You said you were an expert fisherman. I'd
like to see that," Bruce said, kidding me again.

"Sure. If our ‘rents say we can."

"Let me ask. I'm sure we can. Leave it to me."

What could I say? I thought it would be fun. I followed Bruce into the
house.

"Mrs. Corwin? How would you like to have fresh fish for dinner tonight?"
Bruce asked.

Mom smiled at him. "That sound really good, Bruce. Where'll we get them?"

"Dave and I'll catch them for you. There's only one problem. I always like
to eat what I catch.  And I know I'm going to catch lots more fish than
Dave, even though he tells me he knows how to fish. I just think it is kind
of fair if I catch you lots of fish for dinner, I should be able to come
over, enjoy eating some of them, and then spend the night."

Man, this kid is smooth!!

The two Mom's just looked at each other and smiled.

"Well, I don't think that's a problem with me, but you had better ask your
Mom and see if she has a problem with it."

"Is it Ok, Mom?" Bruce asked.

"Do you have any homework you still have to do?"

"Yeah, some in math. We're almost finished. But, I can do that quick."

"I'll help him when we get home," I added.

"Oh, I have to tell you this. It's priceless. The boys were being a little
too quiet Friday night. You know what I mean?" Bruce's Mom said.

"Yes, I know just what you mean," Mom answered, smiling.

"I went up stairs to check on them. They were studying, and Dave was
teaching Bruce Math, which he has been struggling with since last
year. They have the same Math book since last year.  They only covered half
of it, since it was so difficult for all of them. Dave had to start back
several chapters and make Bruce understand that before they could go on to
what they were learning this year. They must have spent several hours going
over math. I was so shocked I almost fell down," Bruce's Mom said.

"Thanks a lot, Mom," Bruce said, as he blushed.

"Bruce, it's nothing to be ashamed about. I'm sure there are lots of things
you have been teaching Dave, too."

"Yeah, how to be a country boy living on a farm. He has lots to learn
there," Bruce kidded.

"Like you said, thanks a lot, Bruce," I answered, also blushing a little
bit.

"Well, I think it's great that you both can learn from each other. I don't
think you could be very good friends if one of you knew everything and
always had to teach the other one. It's better if you both can teach the
other one something and you both learn from each other," Mom said.  "This
way, you'll both end up knowing more, and that can't do anything but help
you."

I looked over at Bruce, who looked back and then smiled. "Yeah, I guess
you're right. I've been giving Dave a hard time about me teaching him
everything around our farm, since he was just a little green city boy when
he moved here. But he is really smart, and I think I can learn some things
from him. I think it will be a good swap."

"Me too. But I think I may learn farming lots faster than you learn math,"
I answered.

"Dave! That wasn't a nice thing to say," my Mom scolded.

"Madelyn, that may be our fault. Dave was so shy to start with and Bruce
kidded him so much, we encouraged him to start to kid Bruce back. I think
that was all it was, wasn't it Dave?"  Bruce's Mom asked.

"Yes Mam. I was only kidding, Mom. It isn't like he retarded or anything."

"Retarded? I ought to kill you," Bruce said angrily, as he got me into a
head lock.

"Boys, no fighting in here," Bruce's Mom said loudly. Bruce let me go, and
she said "no, you aren't retarded, but you do act like it at times. Like
then."

Bruce just blushed in front of my Mom and shot me a dirty look. I just
smiled back at him. I was ahead for once.

The two Moms looked at each other and smiled. They could see how well we
were getting along, and both were glad. "I thought you two were going
fishing. You had better get started if Dave's family is going to have fresh
fish for supper," Bruce's Mom said.

"Great. Thanks, Mom. What time should we be back?" Bruce asked.

My Mom checked her watch and said, "I think your Dad wants to leave in a
little while. I guess I could come back and get you two about 5. That would
give you about 3 and a half hours. That's long enough, isn't it?"

"Yes, Mam. That should be plenty of time. I'll take my watch to make sure
we're here," Bruce added.

"Fine. Make sure you're back here then," Bruce Mom answered.

Bruce ran upstairs to get his watch and Mom said, "I'm glad you two have
hit it off so well, Dave."

"Me too. Bruce is great. Thanks for the advice on kidding him back,
Mrs. White. I think it's helping us, not hurting anything," I answered.

"You're welcome, Dave. I think so too. You boys have fun, Ok?"

I smiled at both of them. "We will."

Bruce came running back down the steps. "You ready, slick?"

"Sure am, tard."

That stopped Bruce in his tracks. "What did you call me?"

"Tard. You call me slick for city slicker. I don't like it. So, every time
you call me that, I'm going to call you tard. For retard," I said laughing,
as I danced out of Bruce's reach. Both Mom's broke up in laughter.

"Watch it, boy. This retard might have an accident and drown your little
butt down in the lake."

"Oh, I'm so scared," I answered, moving around the chair as Bruce was
trying to close the distance between us.

"Boys, you break something in my house and I will take down your pants and
give you both a spanking. And with Dave's Mom watching," Bruce's Mom said.

That caught both of our attention. "Ok, we're leaving," Bruce answered. I
didn't say anything.  The look on my face had gone back to ‘deer caught
in headlights'. Blank stare.

Both Mom's saw my look, looked at each other, and laughed out loud. "Bye,
boys," my Mom said.

"Bye," I said, as I ran out the door after Bruce. I heard laughter in the
background. Good, just what I needed. More spanking jokes.

Bruce had gone to the barn, and returned with the fishing poles, a tackle
box, and a shovel.  "Retard, huh? I ought to brain you with this shovel,"
he said, as he lifted it over his head and threatened me.

"Give me that. A person of your mental capacity isn't allowed near
complicated machinery."

Bruce howled with laughter. "Oh God, what have we done? We have unleashed
Dave, the cut down artist. That one was good, I have to admit."

I laughed, too. "Thanks. I owe you a whole lot more than that one."

Bruce smiled at me. "Yeah, I guess you do. Come on, we have a long walk
ahead," he said, as he handed me the shovel.

We started walking, and had to move down to the side as Fred and Mitch
roared up on the 3 and 4 wheeler. They stopped in front of us. "Where are
you guys going fishing?" Fred asked.

"We have a lake at the end of our property," Bruce answered.

"Hey, Mitch. Want to give them a ride?" Fred asked.

"Sure. I think you guys can put everything on the back of this and tie it
down," Mitch answered.

Well, this was different. Our older brothers were actually being nice to
us. What a switch. I wondered what they wanted. I was skeptical.

Anyway, we loaded everything on Mitch's 3 wheeler and tied it down. I got
on with Fred and Bruce on with Mitch.

I should have known. They weren't wanting to be nice to us. They wanted to
scare the shit out of us!!! And they did a great job!!!

The were older, braver, more reckless, took more stupid chances, and worst
of all, were competing against each other. We had no choice. We hung on for
dear life.

I hadn't been close to my older brother in like forever. There's a good
reason for that. I'll tell you about that later. I hadn't hugged him in
years. But I was hugging him tight now. Very tight!!!

It seemed to take forever to get to the lake. It was only several minutes,
but they were very scary minutes. I was yelling my head off at Fred to slow
down, but all I heard was him laughing in front of me and he seemed to go
faster when I yelled, so I just finally shut my eyes and waited until we
crashed.

But we didn't. We finally got to the lake and they stopped. I was so
surprised we were still alive I held on to Fred a few seconds longer.

"I think you can let go now, Dave," Fred laughed.

I sat up and let him go, but didn't get off. "I don't want to stand up. I'm
scared I might have to clean out my pants, but don't know for sure."

All three of them laughed at that. I didn't join in. I was still pretty
pissed about how Fred and Mitch had scared us. I did get off and take the
shovel that Bruce was handing me, though.

"They were just playing a joke on us, Dave. And they did save us a long
walk," Bruce said.

"Yeah, I guess so," I answered, as I scowled at Fred. He just howled at how
pissed I was. What did he care. He was seven years older than I was and
could beat me up with one hand.

"Well, girls, we men have to be going. Don't count on a return taxi
service. You guys didn't tip us enough on the first leg of the journey,"
Mitch said, as he and Fred sped off. Good riddance.

We walked over to the lake in silence. Bruce could tell I was still
mad. "Come on Dave, lighten up. They were only joking with us."

"I know. I'm Ok now."

"Good. So, start digging. We need to find a bunch of worms."

Great! I get to do the digging. Well, I really didn't expect anything
else. I always got the good jobs. I didn't argue though, I just started
turning over the soil.

We got pretty lucky. We found several worms right off the bat. Bruce took a
can out of the tackle box and put them in, then covered back the ground I
had just over turned. Ok, so he would also work. Maybe this wasn't so bad
after all.

It took maybe five or ten minutes before Bruce said we had enough worms to
start fishing. I was anxious to get started. I had always had really good
luck fishing, and I wanted to show Bruce that I could catch more than he
could.

We baited our hooks and cast into the water. It wasn't long before I could
feel a small tug on the line, and I quickly flicked my wrist and sunk the
hook into the fish's mouth. I reeled it in, and took it out of the
water. It was a nice sized bass, it had to be way over a pound, maybe two
pounds.

"That's a really nice fish. Maybe you can fish after all," Bruce said.

I smiled at him. "Thanks."

We continued to fish for over an hour. I caught maybe twice the number
Bruce did. My string was way heavier than his was.

"You know, maybe we should quit. We do have to carry all these fish back,
you know," Bruce finally said.

"You're just losing so bad, you want to quit and do something else."

Bruce just grinned. "Well, I don't think I can catch you today. You're a
really good fisherman. I think we found something you can beat me at."

"Something else, you mean. Don't forget about math."

"Oh, how could I forget that. To my Mom, you are the math God. You came
here to heal this poor struggling boy of all his problems. Oh, thank
you. Thank you," Bruce said, as he bowed down several times in front of me.

I laughed at that. "You can get up now, slave. And for losing, you can
carry all the fish."

"Oh, thank you, master. Can I have one small favor first?"

"Sure, slave. I'm in a good mood. I will grant you one favor. What is it?"

"It's hot, master, and sitting in the sun all this time has made me
sweaty. May we please go swimming before we leave?"

"You really want to?" I asked.

"Yeah. Come on. We'll have fun."

"You always seem to get me naked every day I see you."

Bruce just giggled at that. "I just love to see your sexy little body so
much, I like to invent ways to see it. Come on, master, get your clothes
off or do you want your slave to do it for you?"

"You may undress me, slave," I giggled.

"Yes, master," Bruce said, as he eagerly, as he dropped to his knees and
started to untie my shoe.

I jerked my foot away, and said, "I was just kidding."

"Well, I'm not. Come back over here so I can undress you."

"No way, pervert. I think I will do that for myself, thank you very much."

"Oh, you take the fun out of everything," Bruce grinned, as he got to his
feet and kicked off his own shoes.

We had a lot of fun swimming together, like we always did. I dunked him, he
dunked me. It was getting to be easier and easier to be around him naked. I
never thought I would feel that way.

But, one thing I was sure of. I would never let him take my clothes off for
me like he wanted to do today. I knew I couldn't control little Dave if I
did that.

When you often make up your mind about something, usually you can control
your own actions and nothing can change your mind. My mind was set on this
point. But, I was wrong. Boy, was I wrong.

To be continued.

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