Date: Sat, 05 Jun 1999 15:15:48 -0500
From: FionaPaschen <FionaPaschen@bellsouth.net>
Subject: If I give youy my heart

"If I give you my heart"
By: Fiona Paschen-Thurman

"Come in Jimmy, you look absolutely exhausted" I am Carmen, I've been at
the Customs Brokers all day trying to salvage our last shipment of
cosmetics to South America, would you believe 40 dozen absolutely melted
lipsticks"? " They called me earlier about it honey, we've either got to
hold off shipping in the Summer, Or use a reefer which is outrageously
expensive. We've got to do something Emma, it's getting costly and the
insurance company is getting antsy."

"Here Jimmy taste a Gimlet, it's ice cold, freshly made, it will cool you
off and help you to relax. Then go in and take a cool shower, Emma and I
want to talk to you for a while" "We'll wait in the Sun Room".

"Whew, I do feel better, I get a glass of wine and be right in."

"Jimmy darling do you remember when Carmen and I went to Montreal
recently?"  "Sure Emma, you went up to see some of your Doctor friends and
to check out some new equipment." "That's right darling and that's one of
the reasons we want to talk to you tonight.". Jimmy, we have lived together
for five years, we know each other very well.  Carmen and I told you early
on that we were lovers, and I still remember your response" " So What"! We
have always respected the fact that you are not, nor will you ever be, gay,
but you know that we are sometimes in awe of your inclination to understand
out innermost feminine feelings, you are very special Jimmy. You have
shared our bed, our love, our fantasies always with understanding, passion,
and caring, you have stolen our hearts and we want to pay you back. Just
hear us out dear, don't jump to any hasty conclusions."

"Our thoughts started in Montreal when we visited Silastic Labs" have
developed and patented a new process and material which just might
revolutionize prosthetics. It's a mixture of silicon, glycerin, and certain
binders used to produce exact replicas of actual body parts. Coupled with a
Neuron adhesive, it's really quite remarkable. While we were there Emma and
I had separate parts replicated, mostly just to see how it would turn out.
You will not believe it, it's almost scary. I had my breasts reproduced and
Emma had her genitalia copied". "We'll show them to you later." Right now
we've gotten up the nerve to make a proposition to you. Jimmy, we both know
that sometimes you feel left out when Carmen and I make love, I know we do
have a fantastic time with the three of us together, but sometimes you look
so sad.' Jimmy darling, with the help. of this new Silastic we would like
to see if the three of us could be lovers, friends, and soul mates, all as
girls, we want to turn you into a woman. We will do it with love,
understanding and an awareness that you will still be our protector. In the
beginning nothing will be permanent, but I promise, if you will let us do
our work, you will experience the absolute thrill of special feminine
feelings and pride. We can do this Jimmy, you will be absolutely perfect
and the three of us together will share the ecstasy." "I know it's wild,
and sudden, but what do you think ?"

"Lord Emma, Carmen I don't know, we are so unusually close, It does seem
that sometimes we are inside each others minds' "This would not be
permanent ?" "No, certainly not at first, we could all together discuss
anything permanent before taking that step. " I wonder how I would feel
inside"? "Jimmy, we want you to feel the silkiness of feminine things, the
delicacy of special things. We both know that you will quite literally love
what you will be, and should I mention, the sex will be
unbelievable". Please Honey, let us do this". "I think you will be very
pleasantly surprised at how you feel, your innermost emotions will embrace
this, please Jimmy, do this for us, Emma and I".

"Well girls, OK, I have some reservations but I admit I am curious, OK
let's do it" "Ohhh Jimmy, I am so proud of you, I know it's hard, but you
won't be disappointed" "Tomorrow morning bright and early we'll go to
Emma's clinic, we can take care of the Silastic things there better than
here, and we want to do two other things. First, it's a very simple
procedure to change your voice to a more feminine sound and it's not
permanent, and we want to make your lips a little bit fuller, that's not
permanent either". Carmen and I will bring over everything we need because
when we leave, you will be a very presentable young woman.. There are a few
things we need to do tonight, ready ?"

"Yes, as ready as I'll ever be". "OK, come on back to my bathroom".

"OK Jimmy, get undressed wile I get the tub ready, these are gardenia
scented bath beads, they will make big bubbles nicely, now slide in". " It
does smell nice Carmen, I like it., gardenia is my favorite". "Yes darling
we know" "Now prop your leg up on the tub, I'm going to shave your legs
first. This is a Lady Sensor with a brand new blade, so starting at your
ankles, I'll use long slow strokes, cleaning the razor on this towel
frequently. Hold yourself up tightly so I can get in close. Good, now stand
up and turn around so I can get the back, you have really beautiful legs
Jimmy. Most girls would kill for legs like yours.  Bend over now so I can
get between your legs, here let me hold you up, I'll stretch you up firmly
to get your hidden areas, I want you to be as smooth as a baby". "There,
now rinse off in the shower". "Wrap this towel around you, I'll make a
turban for your hair with this one.  Now raise your arms high so I can
shave your underarms., I'll stretch your skin tight".  Mmmm good nice and
smooth". "Jimmy this is toner, rub it over your legs and underarms, it will
feel nice."

"Now your chest and between your legs, this my dear is a surgical grade
hair remover cream. I'm going to use these rubber gloves to protect my
hands". "Wait a minute, you're going to put that stuff on my chest and
between my legs, and you have to wear rubber gloves." "Ohhh relax, it's
fine, I have new nails today and I don't want to mess them up".  "This is
just a dab of Vaseline for each nipple and over your balls, I'll be
gentle". "Now.  I--I'll spread this evenly, put your foot up on this
stool", "Ouuuu Emma, be careful, that stuff stings a little" "I know my
darling, just hold on". "OK back in the shower and wash off, water only, no
soap, here I'll scrub you gently with this loofa. "There, perfect. Don't
you think Carmen?" "It's the first step, feel how soft your skin feels
Jimmy".

" Now for step two, it's just for tonight Jimmy, just a tiny
introduction. This is a rather old fashioned Kotex, it has a tail at each
end which you hook to the tabs on this Kotex Belt, for tonight, we think
it's perfect for you." "First, I'll hook the belt around your waist, Emma,
you hook the front clasp, it's just like a garter, now push his manhood up
into his body and bend his thing back between his legs, good, now press the
Kotex up between his legs and pass me the back tail. It goes between his
buns and fastens tightly to the back clasp" "Now look at that, a perfect
line, a girl with her monthly period, it's perfect. Here are your panties
dear, just pull them on, I love the peachy color." Now look Carmen, doesn't
that look perfect, so simple" "It does Emma, I had doubts, but it's just
right."

Now my darling Jimmy. A special treat, this is your very own garter
belt. It matches your panties, just hold it around your waist and fasten
the hooks in the back, just let the garters just hang down.. Now sit over
here on this little stool.. Here are your stockings, they are your size,
just puddle then at your feet and pull them slowly up, aren't they
sensuous?"  "Now stand up, stretch them up and hook them to the garter,
here, I'll help, get them good and tight, I'll get the back, good, now the
other one.". Ouuu you look soooo sexy in those stockings, rub your legs
together see how then feel" "That is nice Emma, it's so sleek, I love the
nude color" "That it is, a purely feminine pleasure. Now slip into these
pumps, they have 3 1/2" heels so be careful". "Will you look at that, he
looks like he was born in heels, not a wobble". "How do they feel dear ?"
"Not too bad, actually kind of nice, I like the feeling and I love the
stockings." "This is going to be fun Jimmy" "Now a temporary bra, it's a
Wonderbra. Slip your arms into the straps, I'll hook you in back. Now lean
forward, Emma you pull him into the cups, get the push up pads under him,
good, now straighten up. Not too bad, let me slip these silicon inserts
into the bra, good, now that's OK for tonight. Look in the mirror Jimmy"
"Well, it's unbelievable, I look like I have boobs, it's amazing." "This is
overwhelming".

"Almost finished, just a little makeup, lipstick, liner and mascara, you do
it Carmen, I'll get the wig."  OK Jimmy hold still, this is eyeliner, first
on your upper lid just over your lashes, it's a liquid liner but it dries
quickly, don't blink". "Now the lower lid" Good !"  This my dear is
mascara, it's applies with this wand. You use several coats to build up
bulk, color and length. Here you can do it just be careful. Good that's
just right darling, let me give you one final heavy coat". Now
lipstick". "This is a lip pencil, I will outline your lips, slightly
exaggerating your natural lip line. There done !"  "I will use this lip
brush to load up lipstick from the tube, and carefully, fill in the
outline, blot your lips together like this". One more coat with the brush,
excellent.  Now Jimmy, lean your head forward so I can get you into this
wig, it's jet black cut in a modified bob style, it will be perfect for
you".  "Hand me my rat tail comb Emma, I want to tease it just a little,
hold still Jimmy"

"Now slip into this long peignoir, it's pure silk with a lovely button
collar. Let me button you up. Now look in the mirror again, wait let us
stand on each side of you".. "Oh my gosh, it's a miracle. I love the feel
of the silk between my legs when I walk, and the way my legs slide against
each other in the nylons, the shoes feel nice too, they kind of arch my
back.  With so little to work with, you have done a wonderful job" "Well
lover we're not quite finished, we want to do your nails and we simply must
shape your eyebrows, in fact we can do both together at the same time. Come
into the salon room and sit in this chair that reclines, get comfortable
now. Jimmy Emma is going to give you acrylic nails, they last very well and
she can make them a little longer than usual. You will find them unwieldy
at first, but you will quickly learn to use them to your advantage, Emma
will also put on polish to match your lips. I will attend to your eyebrows
and I am afraid there is no easy way, I'm going to have to pluck them into
a high arch shape. After this first time it will be easy.

"Lean your head back and put your left hand in the tray to soak, Emma will
also give you a manicure. With this lip pencil dear, I am going to trace
out the shape I want on each brow, while I work, Emma will work on your
hands to prepare them for nails. Now darling, I remind you, I will be
plucking your eyebrows and it will pinch some, I'll be careful with the
tweezers" " Ouch Carmen, OK go ahead, I'll just tuff it out". "Jimmy, I'm
going to clean up your cuticles and buff your nails smooth, then I am going
to build an acrylic nail in place, as I said it will be rather long
compared to your nails now, but you'll get use to them. Finally, I am going
to polish your nails to match your lipstick." "While we work, let's
talk". Emma, we've got to give Jimmy a new name, got any ideas, I think
something very feminine." How about Rachel, it's a personal favorite ?'
"Hold still, I know this hurts, I'm almost through with this side". "Jimmy,
what about Rachel ". It's OK with me but this is all going to fast, Ouch !"
"Sorry dear" OK Rachel girl, it's time for long red fingernails"

" There, now for polish". Rachel darling how do you feel so far" "I'm not
entirely sure, very confused for certain, you both are treating me so nice,
you have once again stolen my heart".  I think I like the way I feel,
mostly because I know you want me to do this. "It is very strange though,
like I'm in two worlds" "There Rachel, your nails are finished, what do you
think"? "Wow they are long". "All the better to scratch my dear, and
essential female attribute. Now get up and walk around" "Look Emma, how she
moves her hips, something's going on here" "It's getting a bit late and we
have an early day tomorrow at the clinic, let's go to bed". Rachel darling
you leave on your stockings, garter belt and bra, and get in the middle of
the big bed in my room". "OK Carmen"

"Here we go, I'll hang your nitey over here, move over, we're coming in on
both sides.  "Ohh Rachel I cannot tell you how much I am thrilled thhat you
agreed to do this, see how lovely it feels when I gently rub your
stockinged legs". Ouuuu that does feel good" "And your nipples inside your
bra I bet they are sensitive". Ohhhhh Emma that feels so good, pinch them
some more, ohhh yes !" Ohhhh yes suck them, hard Carmen Ohhhh please" "Emma
you are taking my panties off" "yes dear I certainly am" Ouuuuu Emma wow,
that feels soooo good. Carmen no" "Ohhh poo bend your knees and turn over.
That's right hands and knees, hand me the Vaseline Emma. Ouuu Carmen your
finger, ohhh Carmen yes" " Relax Rachel" Ohhh Emma, it's feels so big but
it's slippery, Ohhhhh yes in and out like that, ohhhh more, harder, harder
Ohhh my God!  I' m going to come" Ohhhh yes Carmen suck my nipples hard,
ohhhh you are biting them I can't stand it".  Mmmmm Emma, ohhh here I come,
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !" "Let me clean you up dear" How was that ?" You have to
ask ? "Fantastic"


"We have one more thing to do before we go to sleep, Emma get the
pump". Rachel. We need to stretch your nipples for tomorrow, this is an
electric breast pump, it has a cup for each nipple and a cylinder into
which it can expand. This gel around the edge will keep it sealed around
you, it's fits like this, Carmen attach the tubes to the pump, and turn it
on, lowest setting, OK the cups are seated, now come here Carmen stand
behind Carmen.  Reach over her shoulder and cup her breast in both hands,
force it out between your hands like this, gently push it in and out,
stimulate it. See Rachel your nipples are filling the cups, let me adjust
the suction. Ohhh Carmen that hurts, it's pulling so strong. I know but
look at your Nipples they are expanding into the cylinders" "Now full power
for 30 seconds" Ohhhh Emma stop, please". "OK done, look at your nipples
now Rachel, let me gently scratch this one" Ohhhh Emma they are sooooo
sensitive. OK darling, here's a sleep bra, it's very soft, take off your
garter belt and hose, and slip into your nitey here.  I'll be quick and
take off your makeup and wig, tomorrow we go to the salon. Here are some
fresh panties".

"Go to sleep darling, tomorrow is a big day."

"Emma let's talk for a while, OK ?" " Sure Carmen in here by the porch"
"What do you think Emma" "I think it's going to be perfect, more that we
hoped.  Rachel has an uncommon awareness about herself and others around
her, I have a funny feeling that she is going to be entirely comfortable as
a girl" "Oohh I hope so".  Tomorrow, we give her breasts and genitalia, a
feminine voice and fuller lips. If we have time we'll go to Carla's Salon
to get her hair done. Let's be sure we take everything we need to get her
fully dressed at the Clinic tomorrow, she can just wear Jeans and a blouse
to go over , no makeup at all. OK I think we're ready, let's go to bed".

Stay Tuned !