Date: Fri, 12 Jun 2009 01:02:03 -0400
From: amanda myers <amanda7042@hotmail.com>
Subject: Three Little Words

A sandy beach, bare feet, a cool summers breeze gently rolling over my
warm, tan skin, sitting there watching the sun set into the dark blue
waters of the ocean. I'm only wishing that I had someone close to me to
enjoy this beautiful sight with. I walk back to my beach house to make
dinner for one and to enjoy a beer and a movie alone. Relaxing on my couch
enjoying my movie, my phone rings. I look at the number and its Alex, a
co-worker and my best friend.

I answer "Hello?"

"Hey girl. What are you up to?" Alex's sweet, shy voice cracked over the
phone.

"Just enjoying a beer and watching a movie. You?"

"Well, I was wondering if I could come over and hang out with you." She
asked.

"Sure, bring some beer to please. I just have two left."

"Ok. See you in a few."

"Bye."

About fifteen minutes rolls by and my door bell rings.

"Come on in babe." I yelled from my couch.

She smiled at me as she entered.

"You know where everything is girl." I said.

She went to the kitchen to put the beer in the fridge and came and sat with
me on the couch. Now Alex and I are only friends. We do hang out a lot; she
mainly comes over when she's fighting with her gay male roommate Tim. He
drives her nuts with all the men he brings home, besides they are really
loud when having sex and gets annoying after a while so she hangs out with
me.

I restarted the movie and she got comfortable, kicking off her shoes.
Little by little she got closer to me. She laid her head on my lap, which
was normal for us.  We have cuddled before, but nothing more. I ran my
fingers though her long brown hair and smiled at her. We watched the rest
of the movie, her fingers above and behind my head playing with my short
hair.

"Amanda?" she said. I looked down at her a bit and she lifted her head and
kissed me passionately running her hand over my cheek gently. We've been
friends for five years now and we have never kissed before so it was new to
us. It was nice though. Our lips parted and we stared at each other for
awhile. I don't know what she was thinking or what I was thinking but the
kiss was different.

"Amanda?"

"Yes?"

"I've wanted to kiss you for way to long, but I didn't want to ruin our
friendship so I've suppressed my feelings for you. I just wanted to know
what it felt like to kiss you." She sighed. "If you don't want to take it
any further, I'll understand and we can act like it didn't happen."

"Alex?"

"What?"

"Shut up and kiss me again." She moved a bit and straddled my lap staring
into my eyes. I put my hands on her hips and pulled her closer to me, we
kissed again. We sat there like teenagers for an hour making out; my hands
went up her shirt and under her bra feeling her nipples getting hard. She
started moaning into my mouth as I pinched her nipples lightly with my
fingers. She broke our kiss and looked at me.

"Amanda, I don't want to be just a fuck to you." She said with pleading
eyes. I removed my hands from her shirt.

"Alex, what do you want to come of this then?"

"A relationship?" I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. "Amanda, can you
give me that?"

"Alex do you want a non-monogamous or monogamous relationship?"

"Monogamous. Amanda I've loved you for the past two years and it hurt me
every time you were with someone else." I looked up at her. I leaned in and
kissed her deeply.

"Alex lets go to bed."

"Does this mean you want to try?" she looked at me biting her lip.

"Yes, but if it doesn't work out I want to remain friends with you no
matter what."

"Deal." She said as she kissed me again.

I took her hand in mine and led her to my bedroom. I gently sat her in my
bed settling in between her thighs, kissing her lips. Alex ran her hands
all over my back trying to pull my shirt off. She pulled it over my head
and tossed it aside. I was bra-less, she ran her fingers over my skin,
scratching lightly making me tremble with delight. She traced every curve
of my upper body with her finger nails. She gently massaged my c-cup
breast. I pulled away from her to get up and took off my shorts. Alex
stripped off her clothes with in two minutes. We looked at each others
bodies for a few minutes. I smile to myself. Both of us are shaved and I
was glad because I love a woman that shaves everything. My biggest turn
on. I crawled back in bed to her. We kissed deeply, sticking her tongue
into my mouth. She tasted so good, like mint. We touched each others
bodies; I placed my thigh on her center and rubbed. She moaned lightly.

"Mmm...Baby. I ah want your.ah."  She said panting.

I stopped for a minute. "Hun what do you want?"

"Your lips on my clit and your fingers inside me, please." I kissed her
hard on the lips, moving to her neck and down to her perfect b-cup
breast. I sucked her nipple into my mouth, lightly biting it.

 She moaned softly. "Mmm...Baby Please."  I wanted to please her so I moved
down to her center, lightly brushing my lips acrossed her enlarged
clit. She was well aroused, wanting me to touch it, calling out to me to
lick her.

"Mmm...Baby don't tease me." She said between breaths. She was running her
fingers through my hair. I took her clit into my mouth flicking it with my
tongue; I gently pushed two of my fingers into her. Her hips pushed up and
buried my fingers deeper inside of her.

"Ah...yes...yes... Amanda." Her moaning got louder. "I've ah waited so long
ah ah for you to ahh." I sucked till she came at least four times. I felt
every muscle inside of her clenching, throbbing around my fingers, not
wanting to let me go. I gently pulled out of her and licked them clean,
softly pushing my tongue inside her lapping up her sweetness that I
earned. I gave her one last lick to her clit, she twitched a bit. I crawled
back up and laid next to her. She was passed out.

I smile and softly said. "Awe so beautiful."

I stroked her hair watching her chest rise and fall with every breath. I
laid there horny and wet for a bit but I just crawled under the covers
pulling her to me. She moved and laid on my chest, I rubbed her back
falling asleep like that. It was nice.

Morning shined through my window waking me from my dream state. I woke up
before she did and looked over and smile to myself. She's so beautiful. I
got out of bed and made some coffee; sat at my table reading my morning
news paper. An hour had past. She walked out in one of my shirts and smiled
at me.

"Morning baby." I said with a smile.

"Mmm... come back to bed with me. Please?" She pouted at me.

"Why's that?" I smirked at her.

"So I can please you. Since I passed out on you last night."

"Later, baby." I said.  Her lower lip went out. She came over and straddles
my lap in between my paper. I raised an eyebrow at her. Alex ran her
fingers through my hair.

"Thank you for last night baby. It was amazing. I've been dreaming of it
for so long." Alex said as she played with my hair.

"So was it as expected?" I asked.

"It was much better." She said. I kissed her lightly and smiled. I ran my
hands up her thighs, and running my first finger up and down her slit
barely touching her lips.

"Mmm...Baby."

"Feel nice?"

"Oh yes." I slipped my finger into her. "Ah...Mmm... More." I added another
finger. "One more baby, please." I slid one more finger making it three.
She began to thrust her hips in time with my fingers. "Mmm...Baby."

"Alex do you wanna ride me?" I said sliding my fingers in and out of her.
She stopped and looked into my eyes.

"Please?" I asked.

"Mmk baby." I pulled out my fingers and licked them clean. We got up and
went to the bedroom. I went over to my side table and pulled out my strap
on and took my clothes off. I started putting it on as Alex watched. I
grabbed my eight and a half inch toy and put it through the ring. Alex came
over to me and stroked the toy a bit with her hand and looked at me with
worried eyes.

"To big baby?" I asked.

"Umm...Kind of. It's to long."

"I have an eight too." I looked at her.

She looked at me. "Amanda, the biggest I've ever had was a six and a half."

"Hmm... We can wait and buy a new toy that fits you." I suggested. She
looked away and sighed. I lifted her chin and lightly kissed her sweet
lips. "We can wait baby. I don't want you to do anything your don't want to
do. Ok?" She just nodded. "Do you want to me to ride you?"She gave me a
side head cocked looked in disbelief.

"I always figured you for a top only."

"There's something that you don't know about me honey. But you will find
out more soon enough." I smiled.

"I hope so." I took off the strap on and helped her get into it only
putting the eight inch on it. I lightly stroked it with some lube and she
laid on the bed in wait for me. I crawled on top of her and the toy. I put
the tip in and sank slowly on to the toy. Alex watched intently. I kissed
her passionately as I started to rolled my hips on her lap. She scratched
at my skin lightly; moving from my back to the back of my thighs. I moaned
every time she scratched my thighs; taking that as a clue that I enjoyed it
she did it even more. Alex started getting turned on by Amanda's moaning
and panting she started to push her hips up in time with me.

"Ahh...yes baby... your hips..." I moaned as I came. I laid my head on her
chest trying to catch my breath. I sat up a bit and smiled at her
devilishly and began to grind again.

"You look so hot Amanda" I came like that six more times and dropping off
of her exhausted. She took off the strap on and laid next to me.

"Alex?" I said still panting.

"Hmm?"

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah, just watching you grind on me and the look of abandonment on your
face was so sexy. Now I'm horny again."

"Do you want me to take care of you honey?"

"Actually, I wanna taste you and please you with my mouth and fingers if
you don't mind."

"I don't mind at all hun." She crawled on top of me and started to kiss
me. Alex took extra time to lavish my breast and nipples. She began to
learn all my little places to touch and kiss that turned me on. She pleased
me giving me one last exploding orgasm before we slipped off to sleep again
in each others arms.

I awoke to her kissing and sucking on my collar bone intentionally leaving
a mark to claim me has her own.  "Mmm...Baby...Claiming me as your own
already?" I smiled at her.

"Is that ok Amanda?"

"It's fine hun. You're stuck with me for awhile." I said moving to lay on
my side to look at her.

"If you don't want to be with me just tell me ok?"

"Are you having second thoughts Alex? "I inquired.

"No, just scared. I've loved you for so long and..." I put my finger to her
lips.

"Alexandra I'm not going anywhere unless you want me to. Ok?" I assured
her.

"Say it again, please?" She said in a meek voice.

"Alexandra you're the most loving and beautiful girl in the world and you
always have been to me. Like you I'm scared but your well worth trying to
make this work between us." She smile at me and lightly kissed my lips.

"Dinner Amanda?"

"I'm starving."



We finally got out of bed and showered together still having a hard time
keeping our hands to ourselves but we did get dressed. We drove to our
favorite diner. It was nothing much just a road side diner but it was where
we became more than just co-workers, we became friends and now we come as
lovers. We sat together instead of facing each other.  I can't recall how
many times we've come here and bitched about our other relationships that
we've had. More me than her in the last couple of years. We ordered our
food and we tried to make conversation, but I think we felt a little
weird. It was new to us.  She ran her hand up my thigh trying to reassure
me that we will figure this all out in time. We left the diner and drove to
the mall to go shopping for a bit. Holding hands in public with Alex was
nice. We went to Old Navy and bought a few things. I was trying on some
slacks and I came out to show Alex but she had disappeared. I texted
her. "Where'd you go babe?"  She answered. "Still in the mall at another
store. Be back in a few. Love you. Kotl." I saw that and smiled to
myself. "She loves me." I waited outside Old Navy for her to come
back. Alex had a smile on her face from ear to ear and a bag in her hand
from Victory Secret.  She came to me and kissed me on the cheek.

"What's in the bag baby?" I asked as if I didn't know. Alex's one weakness
is new teddies to look sexy in as we have discussed before.

She shyly smiled. "You'll find out later."

As we drove home we talked about work for awhile. About how people might
react to us dating. We got back to my place and put away our new clothes. I
made room in my dresser and in my closet for her things. I knew we were
taking it kinda fast but we've known each other for years so it was natural
for us.  I sat on the couch as she came out of the bedroom and started to
get her shoes on. I looked at her.

"Where are you going this late baby?"

"Back to my place to pick up some bathroom stuff. Toothbrush and what not."
She smiled at me.

"Are you wanting to move in already?" I said. Then I paused and thought
about what I just said and knew that there was gonna be an argument coming.

"No, baby. I just thought I could have nice breath for you before we go to
bed. Is that ok?" She said.

"It's ok. I'm sorry hun just you know me and my relationships. I get a
little over whelmed when I feel my space is invaded."

"I'm not trying to invade your space baby. I just want to be with you." She
paused and came over to me and put her forehead against mine."How about
tonight I stay at my place and we will see each other in the morning at
work, that way you don't feel like I'm pushing to much and to fast?"

"I do want to be with you Alex. If that's what you want."





"I'm just trying so hard to take this slow baby even though I really don't
want to." She kissed me lightly. I wrapped my hands around her and hugged
her. I inhaled her sent so that I may remember it when she is gone. She
smells so good like peaches, I don't want to let her go but I know we have
to slow this down or I will loose interest. She knows me to well.

"Ok.  I guess I will see you at work tomorrow honey. Call me when you get
home please?" I said pouting a little.

"Ok babe." We walked over to the door and kissed one last time before she
left. I watched her pull out of my driveway. I shut the door and for some
odd reason I felt empty. My house was empty. I got on my computer and
started to research a case for tomorrow but I was distracted by my thoughts
of Alex. Distracted by our love making, I have never felt the way she makes
me feel when she touches me. It's like my skin is on fire and cold all at
the same time.  I turned off my computer and went to bed waiting on Alex to
call me. Finally she called me.

"Hey Alex."

"What are you wearing baby?" Alex blurted out.

"Mmm...Same thing I was wearing last night when we were in bed." I smiled
to myself.

"You know this is going to be hard Amanda."

"I know hun. Oh how I know. I still smell you in my bed on my pillows and
sheets." I said.

"I wanna feel you so badly against me and holding me in your arms. It felt
oh so right."Alex stated.

"I know. I know we said we would take this slow but I think it's going to
kill us both."

"Don't I know it. I've waited so long for my chance to be with you."

"And I'm sorry I didn't see it sooner but I'm glad you took the chance
because I don't think I would have. I know I wanted to several times over
but like you I didn't want to lose you as my best friend."

"I know baby. I'm glad I did too." We talked for a little while longer
until we couldn't stay awake anymore. I felt like a teenager again. Finally
I slept dreaming of Alex.

My alarm clock was going off and I really didn't want to get up but the
thought of seeing Alex again got me up and in the shower. I was craving her
touch again. I imagined her in the shower with me and I started to roll my
clit with my fingers. She stands five foot four inches, long brown hair,
tan silky skin, legs that just don't quite, perky b-cup breast with her
nipples that beg me to suck on them, a smile that always lights a room;
she's a girl that anyone would look twice at and look her up and down
twice. Her bright blue eyes that are so full of compassion and love for
everyone. I stopped what I was doing and realized that I'd had fallen in
love with Alex and that I have been in love with her for a while and that
is why that none of my past relationships had worked out because they
weren't the one person that I wanted them to be. They weren't Alex.  I got
out of the shower and dressed and was out the door in about twenty minutes.
My thoughts were all over the place. I got to work and Alex was waiting for
me at the elevator with a smile. We softly kissed and touched hands and got
in to get to work.

"Something wrong Amanda?" she said rubbing my fingers with her own.

"Umm...No. I'm ok. Just been thinking." I stated. Alex's smile left her
face and worry was in her eyes. I knew that she was worried that I was
having second thoughts but that just wasn't it. How do you tell someone
that you love them when the relationship is to new? I smiled at her try to
reassure her that it's ok.

"Alex, I know what you're thinking by the look on your face and my answer
is no I'm not having second thoughts. Just other things baby. Ok?"

"Ok." She said still unsure but it brought a little smile back. We left the
elevator and went to our offices.

We worked through out the day. Alex came in and smiled at me, I was on the
phone with a client. She locked the door and turned down the lights a bit
and came over to me. She stood me up while I was still on the phone and
undid my slacks letting them drop to the floor. She smiled up at me for the
fact I wasn't wearing any panties. I sat back in my chair and she spread my
legs. She started licking me while I was still on the phone. I was trying
to concentrate on my client's conversation but Alex was making it very
hard. I bit my lip hard trying to keep quiet, I finally gave up.

"Sir, I'll have to let you go and call you back a little bit later. Thank
you." I put the phone down and focused on Alex's tongue. I was wet and she
pushed two fingers into me and my eyes rolled back into my head as I came
all over her hand and face. She cleaned me up and then her hand and came up
to me and kissed me hard on my lips. I could taste myself in our kisses.

"Mmm... You're so mean baby." I said.

"Mean would have been not letting you come."

"Well then thank you then." I smiled. She sat on my desk in her business
skirt with her legs on either side of the arms of my chair spread for me.

"So how is your day going Amanda?"

"Better now that we have a bit of time together." I ran my hands up her
smooth long legs. I noticed to that she wasn't wearing panties. I leaned up
a little bit getting the aroma of her womanly sent. I kissed her deeply and
pushed three of my fingers into her hard making her whimper in pleasure.
She pulled up her skirt to her waist so that it wouldn't get wet. I slid my
fingers in and out of her with her pushing hard against them wanting to
take all of them. She was moaning between kisses.

"Amanda please don't stop." She panted. I loved it when she was vocal with
me. Telling me what she wanted.

"Alex, I wanted to fuck you so badly all last night. I want you tonight and
I want you to sit on my face and scream out my name."

"Oh baby talk to me more please."

"I want to take you doggie style and have my cock inside of you. After you
come I want you to suck on it."

"I'm almost there baby. Please make me come." Her hands were clenching my
shoulders.

"I want to tie you up and tease you until you beg me to make you come and
make you pass out. I want to fuck you until dawn. I want your nails down my
back scratching until you make me bleed. I want you to have the best orgasm
of your life with me." I said in a husky but sexy voice and with the she
came all over my hand and she bit my shoulder to keep quiet. Her bite
loosed and she relaxed enough for me to slide out. We kissed lightly and
smiled.

"Feel better baby?" I asked.

"Oh yes. I want to sleep now."  She said tired. I stood up and pulled her
clothes off and had her follow me to the couch in my office.  I laid her
down and stripped out of my clothes. I got a blanket out of my closet and
covered us up with it. I held her in my arms and we cuddled for awhile. She
actually fell asleep I laid there watching her trying to get the nerve up
to tell her that I love her and I want to be with her for the rest of my
life but knowing its way to soon for that. My phone rang. I got up to
answer it.

"Amanda Myers how can I help you?"

"Hey Amanda its Terri. Have you seen Alex?"

"Hey. Alex is in my office. What do you need?"

"I was just making sure she was ok. I haven't heard from her in a couple of
hours." I looked over at Alex starting to stir.

"She fine she's working on a case with me right now."

"You need some help?"

"No, Terri we can handle it. We are your dynamic two some."

"I know girl. Hey how about you and Alex come to dinner with my and my wife
tonight?"

"Umm... That would be good. I'm staving."

"Ok. See you in an hour. Bye." I went back to Alex and started kissing her
to wake her up. She stretched and smiled up at me.

"Hey there sleepy head. We are having dinner with our boss tonight."

"Grr... I wanted to go back to your house and make love tonight."

"I know baby but I had to."

"I know hun. We will make love later." She said. She got up and got
dressed. Alex tried so hard to make herself look presentable but she still
had that just been fucked look going on. I thought it was hot and my office
and our clothes and bodies smelled of sex and girl cum. I couldn't help but
smile at Alex trying so hard. I got dressed and made myself look just as
presentable as Alex.

We went to the restaurant and met up with Terri and her wife Janet. Very
lovely couple that built the company from ground up. They are not just our
bosses they are our friends.  We all sat down and started talking about
work then Terri brought up Alex and I.

"So when are you two going to hook up with each other? You two make a great
couple." Terri stated. I looked at Alex and she gave me a blank look. One
of those looks that should we tell them or not.

"Ok. So you two are already hooking up so it seems by your answers and that
look." She inquired. "Took you two long enough. Alex you've wanted Amanda
for sometime now but she was always with someone else."

I finally said something. "Terri, Alex and I are together now yes and we
are doing good and taking it slow but we would appreciate if it didn't go
around the office just yet. Ok?"

"Sure, sure. That's kinda why I wanted to ask you two to dinner to bluntly
open the conversation and maybe hook you two up because you two have been
friends for five years and Alex speaks to me about you and how she wanted
you but never thought she could be with you because of your friendship."
Terri commented.

I looked at Alex. "You talked about me to Terri?"

Alex stuttered "Well, I couldn't talk to you about it because it was about
you baby. I'm sorry. I needed to get it off my chest to someone and Terri
was there when you were with that one girl Sarah. It upset me that you were
with her. I'm sorry." She stared at me biting her lip.

"You will have to excuse me. I need to use the ladies room." I stated. I
got up and walked into the ladies room.  I stood at the mirror and looked
at myself and shook my head. Thoughts were racing through my brain and I
just couldn't think clearly anymore. I went back out and stood at the table
and looked at everyone. "I do apologize but I'm not feeling to well. I'm
going to head home ladies." I said. All the girls were staring at me. I
looked at Alex and she had these pleading eyes. Pleading to stay with her
or to let her go with me.  "Thank you for everything. Good night girls." I
walked away out to my car and got in and put my head on the steering
wheel. About five minutes later there was a tap on my window, it was
Alex. I rolled down my window for her.

"Can we talk Amanda? Please." She said still with those eyes.

"I don't feel well Alex. I'm sorry I just want to go home and lay down."

"Let me drive you home? Please." She asked. I rolled up my window and got
out of the driver seat and gave her my keys. I got back in and she started
the car. She put her hand on my thigh and I covered her hand with my own. I
got a little more comfortable and laid my head on her shoulder and she
wrapped her arm around me. "Baby, are you mad at me for talking about you?"

"No, Alex. I just don't feel to well. I just want to go home and lay with
you in our bed. That's all I want to do right now." I said almost yawning.

"Ok." Alex said thinking about what Amanda just said. She said "our bed"
instead of her bed. Does this mean she's really ok with this relationship?
Or is Amanda really not feeling to well? She tried to look at Amanda's face
but it was hard to see in the dark and the way they were sitting didn't
help either. They drove back to Amanda's house and went inside. I went to
right to the bathroom and shut the door and vomited. Alex was right behind
Amanda worried about her lover.

"Honey? Are you doing ok?" Alex asked waiting by the door.

I was coughing and vomiting but managed to say. "I'm ok baby." Sitting on
the bathroom floor and my head in the toilet. Alex opened the door and
looked at Amanda.

"You're pale as a ghost baby. Come on let me get you in bed." She said
helping me up.

"Thank you hun." I said still shaking all over. We walked to the bedroom
and I laid down as Alex was covering me up with the blanket. Alex went and
got a glass of water for me and a bucket putting it by the bed if I needed
to throw up again. She crawled in bed with me and cuddled up next to me.

"Do you think its food poison babe?" She asked.

"I don't know." I answered quietly. I shut my eyes and began to drift to
sleep with Alex laying just inside my arm. She rubbed my belly lightly with
her fingers. Alex was worried about her lover but all she could do is lay
there and try to comfort her.



The next morning I ran back to the bathroom and began the cycle again of
vomiting. Alex helped me up again and put me back to bed with a sprit
hoping that it would settle my stomachache. I sat up next to Alex as she
was on the phone with our boss Terri. I started to drift off again, I
remember her saying that she thought it was food poisoning and that we
won't be coming in for a while. She sounded really concerned about me.

"Yeah Terri, she looks so pale and her vomiting is almost non-stop. I
know. I will. Thank you. Call you later. Bye." Alex felt Amanda's head and
it was hot but my body was shivering. She got up and got a cool towel and
put it on my forehead. Alex took care of me.


A week went by and Alex took care of me the whole time. She was waiting on
me hand and foot. I got up from bed and brushed my teeth and slowly made my
way to the kitchen where Alex was making some breakfast. She was at the
stove making some eggs; I came up behind her wrapping my arms around her
waist and kissed her neck lightly.

"I see someone is feeling better." She said while flipping the eggs.

"Much better and hungry. How long was I out baby?"

"Almost a week."

"Wow. I've gotta get back to work."

"Oh no you don't. You have another week off from work. Terri's orders."

"Well who's taking our clients? Terri?"

"Yes. Sit and eat hun. You need to build your strength back." She lightly
kissed my cheek and sat next me to eat. She rubbed my thigh lightly. I
leaned over and kissed her cheek.

"Thank you for taking care of me baby." I smiled a bit.

"It was my pleasure my love." She smiled at me. We both took it easy all
day. We laid on the floor in the living room and watched tv cuddling with
each other. Alex was still waiting on me. I fell back to sleep with Alex on
my arm.

The next morning I awoke before Alex and started kissing her neck pushing
her shirt up and lavishing her breast. She stirred and smiled at me. She
mouthed hello to me. I smiled up at her. She ran her fingers through my
hair as I was kissing her belly.

"Honey, are you really up for it?" She looked down at me.

"I think I am baby. I'm feeling much better." Coming up to kiss her lips
softly.

"Oh no no no..." She pushed me back and laughed. "Hun your breath is
rank. Go brush your teeth then maybe we can continue this." I pouted a bit
pushing my lip out at her. "Go."

"Yes dear." I pouted the whole way to the bathroom. She just laughed and
walked right behind me to do the same.

"So what are your plans for to day babe?" I asked.

"First you need a shower but I was thinking since your feeling better how
about we go to the beach for awhile and just talk?" She looked at me with
hair brush in her hand.

"Ok." As I was taking my clothes off and hoping in the shower. Alex stared
at Amanda's body as if it were the first time. She hadn't seen Amanda's
body in over a week due to her sickness. Alex felt thoughs butterflies
again like the first night she had kissed her. It brought a smile to Alex's
face remembering that first night. She was so scared of rejection but she
knew she had to take a chance or she would always have thoughs "what if's"
haunting her. Knowing they have been friends for all these years but still
wondering what if it doesn't work out. She shook her head to get thoughs
thoughts out of her brain since their relationship was still to new to have
doubt. Alex undressed and joined her lover in the shower.

We walked to the beach since it was five minutes from my beach house and
held hands walking and talking about everything that we didn't already know
about each other.  In five years we thought we knew everything about each
other when infact we were only skimming the bare suffice of each others
lives.  I found myself falling hard for Alex and it was scaring me more and
more. All we could do is take it one day at a time and we did just that.

Summer had come and gone and we were almost done with fall. Alex and I were
going on five months of dating and the holidays were rolling around. We
were deciding on what to do for thanksgiving either to visit her family or
mine when there was a knock on my door. Unknowing who it was Alex opened
the door and saw a man standing at her door with bags in his hands. I came
around the corner to see who it was and standing there was my son Collin 18
years old and home for the holidays from college. I gave him a big hug and
brought him into the house forgetting to introduce Alex to him. She stood
there kinda dumbfounded not knowing if she should leave or stay at this
point.

"Alex, come here please." I asked. She came over not knowing how to
act. "Alex this Collin my son. Collin this is the woman I have told you
about Alex." They shook hands and smiled.

"Mom she's very pretty." Collin stated with a smile.

"Thank you." Alex said shyly. She found it odd to hear someone call her
girlfriend mom. She didn't know how to act around this boy. If she could
kiss her girlfriend or hug her or show any affection. She excused herself
and walked to Amanda's room and laid on the bed.

I set Collin up in the spare bedroom and walked into mine and saw Alex
laying there and straddled her lap with my hands on either side of her head
and smiled at her. I saw no smile back from her. "Baby, is there something
wrong?" I asked. She sighed no really knowing what to say to me. "Talk to
me Alex. Please."

She stuttered a bit. "I don't know what's wrong. I just feel..."

"That you have to compete for my attention now?" I asked.

"Kinda. I'm sorry hun."

"It's ok baby. I understand. He comes with the package you know that and
you knew that even when we were just friends."

"I know. I just didn't know it was going to be this soon that I was going
to meet him. He's very hansom by the way." She smiled a bit.

Sitting there thinking that we've been together for five months and still I
haven't told her that I loved her and that I was ready for her to move in
with me. She's been waiting for so long for me to tell her that I love
her. We've had a few arguments here and there but nothing big and she has
told me she loves me several time and I have yet to give her a reply. I
felt Alex's hand on my hip which snapped me out of my thoughts.

I looked down at her and smiled. "How about we invite our friends here and
have thanksgiving at our house this year?" She stared at me. I knew she
heard what I said. "Alex?  I said it. Our house." I was looking for some
sort of happiness or something.

"So, you're saying our house. Meaning you want me to move in with you?" She
asked. I nodded and smiled. She pulled me down and kissed me
passionately. Alex finally got half of what she wanted. Her last half is to
hear Amanda say those words that she has been so long waiting for. She knew
in time that Amanda would say them to her, at least she was hoping.

Alex made inventions for our Thanksgiving dinner for our friends. She tried
to get to know Collin a bit better. They went out to lunch a few times and
talked trying to get know each other. Collin and I did the shopping for the
big dinner and got to talking.

"So tell me do you like her?" I asked him.

"She's interesting. She loves you dearly mom but she is still waiting and
wanting to hear you say that you love her. Do you love her?" He asked.

"I do very much but I'm biding my time a little longer that way when the
time comes to tell her that she feels it to. I don't want it to be just
words." I explained. We talked a bit more. He told me about his girlfriend
at school and that she wanted to come but he wasn't ready for her to meet
his mom just yet. He wanted the relationship to be more before she meets
me. I understood. It's a little overwhelming to find out that your
boyfriend's mom is a lesbian.

 Our dinner went great. We cooked; we ate, we watched a little bit of
football, and drank a little too much. We had fun. Alex and I and a few
friends were out on the back deck and she was holding on to me. Nuzzling
her face into my neck trying to get me to go to bed with her and make love,
but our guests were still here and we couldn't just leave them unattended.
"Later baby." I told her. She pouted and went into the living room and sat
with Janet and they started talking.

"So has Amanda told you yet?" She was referring to the words I love you.

"No but I am moving in with her after this holiday is over. I'm getting so
tired of waiting for her to say it to me. I need to hear it." Alex trying
not to cry.

"Give her a little more time Alex, she will say it when she feels it."
Janet explained.

"I tell her I love you and all I get is a smile and a kiss. It's just three
little word I want to hear from her." Alex explains frustrated.

"Those three little words mean a lot to her, Alex."

"I know. I'm trying to wait it out but it hurts when I say it and she
doesn't." Alex in tears now. Janet hugged her trying to comfort her.

On my end Terri and I are talking about the same thing. "Have you told her
you love her?" Terri asked.

"Not yet."

"Why not?"

"I just haven't found the right timing to tell her."

"Do you love her? Are you actually in love with her?"

"I love her so much it hurts to be with out her. That's why I asked her to
move in with me after this holiday is over. I'm in love with her but I'm
still scared. I was going to tell her after Collin leaves tomorrow that way
we don't have any interruptions."

"Well I hope it goes as planned."

"It should. I hope."

The party died down and everyone was leaving or had left already. Alex and
I were cleaning up the last few dishes and putting away uneaten food. I
wrapped my arms around her and whispered. "Let's go to bed baby." As I
kissed her neck and started to suck on her ear lobe.  Alex pulled away from
me and stared at me for a moment. Her eyes were glassy like she was ready
to cry. "Hun, what's wrong?" I looked at her worried that I had done
sometime wrong. Alex went into our bedroom and curled up in a ball on the
bed. I stood in the kitchen thinking what I did but I couldn't think of
anything but those three words that were missing from our relationship. I
slept on the couch that night still trying to find my strength to tell her
that I love her. I had to wait till Collin left because it would be a lot
of emotions between Alex and I. Alex cried herself to sleep.

Morning came and Collin was ready to go back to school. We said our good
byes and Alex hugged him and told him he could call her if he needed
anything or advice. Alex was still not speaking to me and it made me feel
like shit. Alex decided to go back to bed for a little while longer and I
stood at the door of our bedroom.

"Can I join you?" I asked.

"It's your bed to." She stated. I walk over and laid behind her and pulled
her against me holding her. I nuzzled my face in her hair. She smelled so
good and felt so good against me. I kissed her neck lightly.

I whispered in her ear. "Alexandra Rayanna Johnson, I love you and I am in
love with you. One day I would like you to be my wife." She turned to face
me and tears were running down her cheeks. I softly wiped them away and
smiled at her.

"Again. Please."

"Alex I love you with all of my heart. I know I've made you wait so long to
hear those words but I needed to know that we were going to make it. I've
been in love with you for a long time just didn't know it until you left
that night when we said we were going to take it slow. You left and I felt
so empty inside, and every time you left this house to go back to your own
house I felt that way. I felt and I still feel that you and I belong
together. I love you baby. I really do." I stared at her for a moment. She
had a smile going from ear to ear.

"Amanda, I love you too. I've waited so long and it sounds so good from
your lips and your voice. I don't think I will ever get tired of hearing it
from you." She said as we started to passionately kiss.