Date: Tue, 6 Jan 2004 19:26:26 -0800 (PST) From: z.a schulz <cloudy_sky23@yahoo.com> Subject: True Love-7 Chapter VII: "Walked through the park, in the evening air, I heard a voice and I thought you were there. I run away but I just can't escape memories of you everywhere. They say that time will dry the tears, But true love burns for a thousand years, Give my tomorrows for one yesterday just to know that I could have you here." - Until I get over you. I woke up in the hospital with people I don't recall. Their eyes are puffy, covered with tears. "I'm Dr. Wyatt, How are you feeling?" he asked. "My head really hurts. What am I doing here Doc.? I don't remember what happen." My voice cracks up. "You mean, what are the things you only remembers?" Dr. Wyatt asked. "Umm -- I look at the people that surround me and I can't remember who they are. I panicked. "Doc. I can't remember anything! Arrgh." I hold on to my head as I try to remember everything but to no avail. I can't remember anything. Everything! Can't even remember my name. "Calm down, I'm going to help you. Ok?" he said. "Can I have a minute with you Mr. O'Neal?" "Sure, Doc." As Mr. and Mrs. O'Neal follows the doctor. Lexi stays behind and tries to comfort Alex. I lowered my head and figure out what's happening. "It's ok Alex, everything will be alright." She puts her arms around me. "Stay away from me, who are you? How can you say that everything will be ok when I can't remember anything! " I shouted at her. I look at her and she begins to cry and storms out the room. *** "Your daughter has a temporary loss of memory, due to the blood clot on her head." "You mean to say Dr. that she will recover soon?" " Yes, you should help her to remember everything. She needs you right now." Dr. Wyatt assured them. Lexi storms the room where Dr. Wyatt is having a conversation with my dad. "Tell me what happen to her. Why she can't remember anything?" "Lexi, calm down ok? Will explain it to you later." Mr. O'Neal said. *** "What's going on with me? I can't remember anything. Who am I? Who is that girl?" The door open and two people walk in and told me that they are my parents. They told me about the accident but they didn't tell me who is that girl with them. They told me my situation and it will take sometime to regain my memory. *** "Well, we're home!" At last I'm not in the hospital. It really sucks wearing hospital gowns. They led me to my room and she was there. "Hey, you're here!" I exclaimed. She just gave me a hug and said nothing. "We'll leave the two of you here, alright? Anything wrong, just yell out. Ok?" "Umm, I'm sorry about what happen at the hospital. I didn't mean to shout on you. I was just confused. I'm scared. I'm sorry." She embraces me tightly and begins to cry. "Hey, are you Ok? Why are you crying? Please tell me your name." She wipes the tears in her eyes and sobbingly answered back. "Lexi." "Lexi, Lexi, Lexi. Nice name." I smiled. "Umm, Lexi. I'm happy to see you again. I thought I would never see you again after the hospital thing. I want to apologize." Again, she hugs me and said, "It won't happen. I'll help you out to remember things." * I'm confused who is this girl in my life. * *** Lexi extends her vacation to attend Alex's needs. But she knows that she can't stay forever because she also has a job back in New York. She hates to leave Florida because she knows everything will be changed for her and Alex. "Alex, I need to go back to New York. I have work back there. As soon as I'm free I'll be back here." "You don't have to do that. Lexi, why are you doing this things?" She just kept silent and didn't answer the question. "Lexi, would you mind if I go with you in New York?" "Huh? Are you serious?" "Yeah, maybe it can help? Don't worry I'll ask my doctor if its ok." Lexi just smiled. *** At the airport my mom keeps on asking me if I want to go back to New York. I told them that I need to remember all the things in my life. It will help. I wonder what is in store for me in New York, I just hope it will help. The flight was ok. My friend Kathy picked us up. "Alex, your best friend. Kathy." I feel like I've known her for so long. "Hi, Kathy!" "Hey Alex, don't worry about your amnesia, we're here to help you." "Thanks!" It was not a long drive from the airport. I tried to think about the places that I've seen on our way home but I don't remember any. The only one that caught my attention is the park. It is a serene place for me. Kathy parked the car outside a big house. I feel strange when I see the place. "Is this your house?" I turn to Lexi. "Yeah! It's our house you also live here. Let's get inside a bit cold in here." A car beeps when we are about to enter the house. "Nicole!" Kathy screamed. She immediately parks the car behind Kathy's and runs towards us. "I'm happy to see the two of you. I heard about it." Nicole said. * And who is this girl, it seems we have common friends. * "Alex, this is Nicole. You're office mate and our friend." Lexi said. "Oh, Hi." *I feel comfortable around them* We ordered pizza and tries to catch up on things we missed. They told me that they would visit me more to help me recover my lost memory. I am happy to have great friends like them. *** I am enjoying my life in New York. I don't know if I wanted to remember my past maybe not anymore, I am enjoying my new personality - my new life. I have good friends that is the most important thing to me right now, to know that they are there to support me on my condition. I get to know more Lexi, I feel comfortable around her. I feel safe when I'm with her but the only problem is she doesn't allow me to be on my own. We argue about it all the time. " Lexi, I'll be fine. I'll just drive around the corner when you're on location. "No, the last time you drive you lost your memory and I can't lose you anymore!" she mumbles. "What? Say that again?" I get irritated by the way she manhandles me. "No, you can't drive unless you're with someone like Kathy or Nicole. Please?" she pleaded. "Why? I can manage now! I have my own life to take care of and -- " "No! You can't remember anything." she explains. "Lexi, I don't care about my past anymore." I was shock hearing those things coming out from my own mouth. "If I can't remember things then so be it. Let me live a new life. This is a new chapter of my life and I want to enjoy it. I want to meet new friends." Lexi grabs my arms and pushed me to the wall. "You told me that you want to search for your past that's why you're here and now you're telling me this? Are you sure of that?" "Let me go. You're hurting me!" as I try to get my way out. "But nothing seems to happen! I can't still remember anything!" I shot back. Lexi was taken aback by her own action. She runs to her room and lock herself up. "Duh, what's wrong with her?" She leaves the following morning without even saying goodbye. *** I am home alone for three days, I don't want to sit and just watch t.v. I need to do some things to keep myself busy. Every morning I take a walk in the nearby park until I saw a bench, memory flashes back in my mind but it was blurry. My head starts to feel pain, "Arrgggh, I've been here before! Arrggghh." I called up Nicole and ask her if I can go to her place and she said yes. I ask her about the park and she told me that I used to go there to if I want to be alone. I also told her what I had remembered - that I was with a girl before and she's crying. She told me that she was that lady and were having an argument on some things but when I ask her what it was about she just kept mum. I told her about my little argument with Lexi. She told me that she was just being too cautious and I need to understand her. She's taking care of me and she has to make sure to my parents that I'm safe with her. "Arrggh, my head. It hurts!" I screamed in pain. "What's wrong? Are you ok?" Nicole panicked. "Umm, this morning I had a headache and then at the park it flashes some images and now, arrggh. Why do I have to have headaches when I remember something?" "You need to take a rest. Don't think so hard ok?" It was late in the afternoon that I decided to go home. We drove back to my house and an anonymous car was parked. Lexi would be out for 3 days and I wonder whose car it is. We rush to the door and notice it was unlocked, when we get into the house, we saw Lexi talking to a guy. "Arrgggh, this can't be happening again! Damn!" Nicole saw that I bump my head on the wall and immediately comes to my support. "Are you ok?" she whispers in my ear. "No, my head it hurts again." Nicole is now facing me. I stand still 'coz for the first time a part of my past becomes clear. I remember that he's been here and he introduced himself as Lexis's boyfriend. Lexi interrupts me from my thought. "Excuse me, am I bothering the two of you?" "No, Alex just saying something." Nicole answered back. Lexi invite Nicole to come in but the latter refuse. "I'll go ahead. Alex, are you alright?" "Huh? umm, don't you want to come in?" "Nah, have to go." Nicole said. I was lost in my own world and when I got back into my sense Nicole was half way through the door. I run towards her and leave Lexi behind. "Wait, thank you." Lexi just gave me a confusing look. I walked back to the house and Lexi is standing in the front door. I learned that the guy's name is Paul. I pretend that I'm happy to meet him. I don't feel good about the guy, I don't know why. After some chitchat I manage to excuse myself from them. I can't manage to sit with them. It's weird having this feeling. Since I went to New York, this is the first time I feel uncomfortable with people around me. I go to the bathroom to freshen up a bit. I heard a knock on my room and I just let her in. "So how was your shoot?" "Oh, just fine. It's tiring." She made herself comfortable. "Alex, I want to apologize for what happen last--""It's ok. I understand. I'm sorry too. I was acting like a stupid brat. Sorry." As I sit beside her. An awkward silence fills the room. "I don't like him. I had a strange feeling towards him. I'm Sorry. I don't know why. Sorry!" Now facing her just an inches separating my face to her. I gently cupped her face, "Umm, you're my friend and you are special to me, I don't like somebody to hurt you." * Oh, no. What am I telling her? What am I doing? * This is too close for comfort. I feel the urge to kiss her but I was afraid of what will happen next. I've got to make up my mind. But before I make my move she kissed me. I was stunned, shock but the feeling is great. The kiss was soft and gentle, "I'm sorry, I can't! He's your boyfriend. I can't do that to him!" "Alex, who told you that he's my boyfriend?" "I just remember." I snorted out. "He is our friend. Hold on, you said you remember him?" "Yeah, I mean when I walk in and I saw him an image flashes back and I know that he is your boyfriend." "Well he's my ex. We broke up years ago. What else do you remember? Tell me!" she demands. "That's it. Lexi, why did you do that?" "What? The kiss?" "Yeah!" "You don't like it?" she asked. "Well, umm." I answered like a kid. "Let me be honest with you, I guess this is the right time for you to know the truth." "Ok, I'm listening." She settled herself in the bed and starts to tell me about us. "Alex, you're my partner, my girlfriend. We've been together for a year. We went to Florida because you want me to meet your parents. We we're celebrating our anniversary in Florida. I thought it was the happiest and most wonderful thing that will happen to my life and I was wrong. That accident ruined everything. I lost you." As she tries to control her tears. "I remember what you said the night before the accident, I am one of the best thing that life has given you, that you can't live without me, that you will never forget me and how much you really love me. I was holding that thought up to right now." The tears that she's been holding on are flowing freely in her eyes. "I love you, Alex. I love you!" I embrace her tightly as tears build up in my eyes. " I'm sorry Lexi, I'm sorry! If I could only remember things, you wouldn't have to go through this. I'm sorry!" I wiped the tears on her face and held her close to me. Lexi sleeps on my room for the first time in months. I kept on thinking of what I should do the best. Everything happens so fast. I'm afraid to love her because of what she said. There are so many ifs and buts running to my head. I promise her things that I myself can't keep. I don't want her to be hurt again by me. How I wish I could remember everything. It pains me to see this wonderful girl suffering like this. Lexi woke up by the suns' bright light shining through the window. She found the other side of the bed empty with an envelope beside her. Lexi, Thank you for telling me the truth. I now understand why are you so over protective on me. Thank you. I learned to love you in a short period of time but I want to remember how was I as a lover to you, Lexi. It's my turn to make you happy that is why I have to leave. I need to find myself in my own way. Yes, I was wrong for telling you that I don't want to remember my past, I'm sorry. Now I have reasons to find my past not just for myself but because of you. I know you'll understand me. Thank you. Take care of yourself while I'm away - Alex Lexi immediately search the house if Alex was still there. She found nothing. She quickly grabs her car keys and go to Kathy's place. She handed Alex letter to Kathy and asked her if she knew where Alex is. Lexi sobbingly narrated to her what happened last night. "I just wanted to tell her that I love her and I missed her very much. I didn't know it will turn out like this." Lexi cried out. "You just did the right thing." Kathy assured her. "I need to see her, I need to talk to her. If I have to fly to Florida just to clear things up I will." As she headed to the door. Kathy quickly grabs her by the arm and stops her. "She'll be back. I know her more than you do. She keeps all her promises remember that, ok? She's experiencing a lot of things right now; we need to give her sometime alone. Trust her!" Kathy said. "Alright." Send comments, suggestions, and reactions at cloudy_sky23@yahoo.com Thanks to the people who send me e-mails. Thanks! Will Alex find her past? You think so? Well read the next and last chapter of this series. Thanks!