Date: Sun, 2 Mar 2008 17:45:51 -0000
From: A P Gilmore <apgilmore@crashnburn1.demon.co.uk>
Subject: My Teacher, My Love Part 7 (Lesbian / Adult Youth, f/F)

Amy offered to make us breakfast, so I just sat at the table, watching her
move about making what looked to be an appetising meal.  I was hungry, but
not just for food, watching her move, the way her ass moved, I so wanted
her right now.  I wondered what would happen tomorrow when we both returned
to school.  I was going to make it easy for us and decided that making
friends would be the best distraction.  Being alone all the time left me
with no distractions except school work, and I usually had that done in no
time at all.  I could start going to the library and reading but making
friends was something I needed to do.  I needed to grow now, before it was
too late.  While talking with Amy and my parents over the last few days I
realised I had missed some important lessons about growing up, socialising
was a very big part of that, learning from other people.  I looked at the
clock on the wall, it was just after 8am, my parents slept in on Sundays.
So we had a little private time to ourselves, enough time to chat about
certain things.

"Is it ready yet, I am starving."

"Me too, I am doing the best I can, but cooking takes time."

"Well as your making it, which smells delicious by the way, I will give you
a break."

"Why thank you for your approval.  But just so you know, I am doing this,
because I need the distraction, because when I look at you, I just want you
right then and there."

"How do you think I feel I have been watching your ass for the last ten
minutes?"  And just to rub it in she wiggled her ass at me.  I moaned a
little.  "Your just a big tease Amy, aren't yah."

"Is that a dig at my height?  Anyway I am not teasing, I want you to look
at my ass, it's nice that you are interested."

"Oh I'm interested.  It's like a ripe peach; I like peaches, just to bite
into it, all those juices."  Now she moaned a little.

"Now who's the tease?"

"What little ole me, why I declare you are too precious for words, you
sweet, juicy thing you."  She turned towards me, I jumped out of my chair
and we just grabbed each other and kissed, hard.  We were like ticking time
bombs.  When we touched and just relaxed together, we would be fine.  But
when we teased, it grew and grew, each of us getting more and more turned
on, until we were ready to explode.  Our tongues were fighting again, until
I sucked her tongue into my mouth.  Our moaning grew, oh fuck it, I needed
her now.  She was wearing denim shorts and I knew she had nothing on
underneath.  I unbuttoned them and shoved my hand inside, seeking my
target.  She was so wet, I slid in two fingers and using my palm I
stimulated her clit.  She did the same to me; her fingers were right where
I needed them.

"Oh fuck Amy, I need to come now, please.  Just fuck me hard."

"Oh yes Sophie my love, I want you to cum, but keep you fingers moving hard
baby, I need to come to."  I was very close, I started to suck her neck to
stifle the moans, she was doing the same, but when we came together, we
both bit hard.  It was amazing.

"That was certainly interesting," I finally said after a few moments. "do
you think we can control ourselves at school?"

"Not that I think it's funny, but I have this image in my head of you
jumping on my desk, naked and we just start fucking each other."  We both
laughed but we needed to calm down and get prospective on this.  We both
tidied up, but not before we both licked and sucked the juices of our
hands.  It was quite a come down, exciting, thrilling but scary.  We had
lost control, in the kitchen of all places.  I sat back down and Amy
finished breakfast.  We ate silently, lost in our own thoughts, but over
the past few days, I figured we were pretty much in sync with each other
and were both thinking the same things.  After we finished eating, I helped
tidy the kitchen.  Amy had made some extra for mom and dad, so served them
and put them in the oven.  We each grabbed a cup of coffee and went to the
living room.

"I guess you are thinking what I am thinking?"  I asked.  We sat down on
the three seater couch.  We faced each other, but kept a few feet of
distance between us to let the other know it was time for that chat.

"If you're thinking about the fact we so easily just lost ourselves in the
moment, losing control like that.  Then yes."

"There is a part of me that is very happy that we found each other and that
we are comfortable together.  But part of me is scared that we have so
little control sometimes, and outside this house we need to control
ourselves."

"Oh Sophie, I'm scared too, we just met, started something great, but I
just want you all the time.  I know tomorrow will be a huge test, and I
hope we both pass with flying colours, but there is this part of me that
just thinks we may just lose it again."

"Amy, I am not losing you, ever, so we have to be strong.  I think part of
it, I believe, is that it is all new to us, exciting and amazing, it is a
feeling neither of us wants to lose.  The other thing is that this house is
our sanctum, our house of love, so part of it is that this is the only
place we can show and share our love.  So maybe it is all just
psychological."

"I think you are right.  Maybe once we go our separate way tomorrow, things
will just go back to normal, like the house is the only place we will act
out our love, but then it calms once outside."

"That is the hopefully the idea, the fear we will lose that freedom
outside, were just struggling to cope, so we just go crazy inside, but
outside things will just be calm between us."

"Well it sounds like a good theory, we'll test it later.  But now my love,
lets discuss this morning and whatever you wanted to say yesterday before
we fell asleep, I have a feeling it ties in with what we have already
spoken about."

"It does but nothing serious really.  You just mentioned we are comfortable
now with each other, and that is what I noticed this morning after we made
love.  Yesterday we were careful with each, treading carefully about what
we said and did to each other.  Now we have taking that final step, we have
just finally beaten that final barrier and now neither of us are nervous or
scared of saying or doing anything, because we both are just comfortable
with each other.  This morning I got out of bed naked, went to the toilet.
I did not close the door, you walked in naked, just acted normally while
you kissed me, I was at the time have a piss and you then you went for a
shower, and then I joined you.  Everything we did, we would never have done
yesterday, like when we got ready for bed, we did it separately and in
private."

"Wow, I never realised, like I was asking before we made love the first
time, if it was ok, yet in the kitchen I just wanted to fuck you and not
even thought about what you wanted.  Sorry, that sounds bad, but you know I
am just too comfortable to think you didn't want to, plus I am sure you
would have said no."

"I would have said no, but I don't think that is going to ever happen.  I
love you so much Amy, you have to believe me on that, tomorrow will be
hard, because I need to be near you at all times.  It will be a test for
both of us.  But no matter what, you are forever; my heart is so empty when
you are not near.  I could never survive without you.  To say that after 3
days is truly the most amazing thing, to fall in love with you was easy,
you are so amazing Amy, in the 2 years I have known you, just being near
you had an amazing affect on me, not just in love, but in the person you
are.  I love everything about you, there is not anything I don't like.  So
I give myself freely to you, in love, in body and in mind.  Ours souls are
joined together, we were meant to be together, forever."  I was crying
again, I had cried more these past few days than I had in my whole 14 years
on this earth.

"Sophie, I love you so much too.  You know being the English teacher I
should know the words, but yours are so poetic; your words reach me deep
inside.  They make me feel so loved and needed.  I thank you for this
weekend to explore you, both body and mind.  I am never going to lose you
to anyone.  You are mine forever as I am yours.  It will be hard, we will
be tested to the limit, but knowing that together we can do anything, to
feed of each others strengths, we will succeed.  Soon you will get your
double bed, I will get my clothes and stuff and move in.  Although we can
never be together at school, knowing that when we get home, we can be
together, that hope alone will give me the strength to get through the
day."  We were both crying now, I pulled her towards me to embrace her
tightly, adding gentle kisses to her mouth and cheek.  Things had calmed
down and we were loving each other again gently.  We caressed each other as
she lay on top of me, just holding on to this very gentle moment, after a
few minutes we fell asleep.  My last thoughts were of Amy and I knew they
would be there when I awoke.

I was still smiling when I awoke.  My mom was trying to get me to stir.

"Sophie, Amy, time to get up.  Oh....., they look so lovely together, cute
even.  Look at the smiles on both there faces.  Do you think they might
have had sex yet?"

"They will tell us if they want to, remember last night we told them they
could do whatever, without any judgement from us."

"I know, but do not tell me you are not the least bit curious."

"I am, but I don't want either of them to know that."  I had been listening
to this and felt it was time to tell them, the best way I could.

"Morning mom, morning dad.  Dad?"

"Yes pumpkin."

"Thanks for soundproofing my room, really helped this morning."

"Your welcome, even if you didn't bother to learn the drums, at least you
get your privacy."

"Not quite, left the window open, I hope the neighbours didn't hear too
much."

"The screaming was so bad I almost went deaf."  Mumbled my sleeping partner
against my chest.

"So I guess honey, you err, well you both are no longer virgins?"  Mom
asked.

"That would be correct mom, I have to say it was a perfect moment.  Both of
us were just ready, but it got a bit crazy afterwards."  I told them.

"It usually does, once you start, you just want to keep trying it until
either you fall asleep or just get bored.  I guess the sleep option worked
out for you." stated mom.

"Sorry about that mom," shockingly, Amy said this; my mom's face was a
picture. "We were just talking and that led to letting our emotions run
free and after all the sex we were just so tired.  I made you and dad some
breakfast; you'll find it in the oven, just needs warming up."  Now dad was
shocked, but part of me knew it wasn't the sleep talking and was to do with
being comfortable.  Amy had found her way home, to us.  Most of her life
she was neglected, and she wallowed in self-pity and low self-esteem.
Unloved she plodded through life until she found me.

"I love you Amy, you have made my life complete." I whispered into her ear.
She realised what she had said, I could here the sniffles.

"I'm finally come home, to my family."  Now we were all crying as everyone
heard what she said.

"I am going to marry you one day Amy, and all my family will be there to
welcome you into there lives."  That was all it took to fully release the
tears we were all holding.  My god how soppy can this family get, we had
more happy tears in us then I ever thought possible.  Amy was just so
amazing, she made us all happy.  Thank god for my parents, without there
acceptance and kindness, Amy and I may never have experienced this much
love.

"Well were both very happy for the both of you, and thank you Amy for
making breakfast for us, will leave you to it."  And with that the both
left us alone.

"Do you mean it Sophie that you want to marry me?"

"Of course I do, don't you want to?"

"Oh Sophie, more than anything, but isn't that, well the future,
err.... we've only just met?"

"Amy, we met, fell in love, made love and discussed more than most couples
do in there first year.  I have to feel that what we have is forever.  We
just went through how comfortable things are between us.  I have to believe
you feel the same way, but you, as do I, are feeling a little overwhelmed
at the moment.  All that has happened has still yet to fully sink in.  The
future may be unknown, but I will not believe that we won't not be together
forever, with that in mind, marrying you will happen at some point.  It may
not sound quite romantic when I said it, but it was meant to reassure you
that we are together, forever, and that my family is yours and you have
accepted us, especially when you called my parents mom and dad.  Well our
parents, but officially this will happen when we marry."

"It all seems so fast and unreal, I think I need to just let it all slowly
sink in.  I am comfortable with everything, but it is still amazing how
this has all happened in 3 days."

"Give it a few weeks; school will give us time to reflect over everything,
whilst we cope with the separation."

"I agree, with all the emotion overload and feelings we have experienced,
we need to sort things out in our heads."

"Good, then let's talk about the future, I want to discuss with you the
implications that I have put on you.  But we also need to start thinking
about what happens once it is safe to announce our relationship to people."

"So are you just going to tell people, I don't know if I would be
comfortable with that?  Being gay is one thing, telling people is another?"

"I agree it will be difficult, but I won't and can't hide what we have for
long.  We will discuss this more in the future.  But all I am saying is
that once I am 16 and finished school, I want us to be able to go out, walk
around, hand in hand.  If people make assumptions, then they can, but I
need to be free from our restrictions.  I understand it is going to be hard
for both of us to adjust.  But as long as we are together, supporting each
other and help others to understand things better, and then things will be
fine."

"Oh, I see.  I suppose you are right, I don't want to hide anymore either.
I guess I am just worried about what people will think."

"Are you ashamed of us, I don't mean to sound harsh, but I need to
understand whatever it is you feel?  So that either I can adjust or I can
help you."

"I guess being in a relationship means more than sex.  Again we are new to
this, and I have hidden away for so long now.  I am not nor will I ever be
ashamed of you.  I was willing to give up my job to be with you, and I
still will if it meant the difference of being together or apart.  I know
what we have is right and nothing will change that.  But Sophie no matter
how much I love you, what we did this morning, was illegal.  Not as your
teacher but as an adult.  You are 14 years old, I am 23, there is 9 years
difference between, no matter how much alike we are, I am the adult and
could go to jail if anyone found out."

"I did try to ignore that, thanks for reminding me of the position I have
put you in."  I was angry and was not about to take it out on Amy.  It was
so unfair that we had to hide so much.  I needed some air and decided to
step outside.  "Sorry Amy, give a minute will you."  And with that I made
my way to the front door and outside.  Worst thing you can see, after
everything we had talked about, a couple walking down the street holding
hands.  I just couldn't hold it anymore, I cried so hard.  Neither I nor
Amy had mentioned anything about our age difference or the fact that I was
underage.  Amy being my teacher was bad enough, but my age was the one
thing that held me back.  I was mature enough to know that even with my
parents support, Amy could still be tried and convicted of having sex with
a minor.  It was the one thing I had to ignore, to allow us to have a
proper adult relationship.  Amy was simply stating the facts, but saying it
out loud, just made it ten times worse, how wrong our love is in societies
eyes.

"I am sorry Sophie."

"Sit with me." I was sat on the step of our front door; we had a large wall
and flowery garden that would hide us from most people.  She sat down next
to me.  "Hold me please Amy."  She was reluctant but just wrapped her arm
around my shoulders and I leaned into her.

"Please don't cry, I don't want to lose you."

"You won't, but just hearing the words, it was the one thing I had to
ignore.  It was the one thing that would have made me leave you."  We were
both crying hard now, it was all too much.

"I'm sorry I said that, I suppose I have tried to ignore it also, please
don't leave me Sophie, it is too late to turn back now.  I would die if we
weren't together."

"So would I Amy, I can't live without you, lets go back inside."  She stood
first then helped me up as we stepped inside the house.  Our parents were
there.

"What's the matter?"  Mom asked worryingly.  I couldn't talk so Amy tried
to explain.

"I just mentioned something, I broke the law and we both were trying not to
ignore it."

"Dating a teacher is not illegal as such, plus we gave our permission it
won't ever get to that."  Amy and I turned to look at each other, it seemed
our parents had ignored it too, again honesty was the only way forward, and
I nodded given Amy the permission to continue.

"No, not that.  It is the fact that I had sex with a minor, I broke the law
and if anyone finds out, you cannot stop them from taking me away."  That
shocked both my parents.

"Oh." was all mom said.

"You kind of ignore certain things in order to be happy.  That is something
neither of us thought about when we gave our blessing.  I think I should
have thought more about what I was saying."  Dad seemed guilty.

"Dad please don't blame yourselves, we both should not have ignored what we
both knew.  In the end it was our risk to take, especially mine.  I put Amy
in this position."

"Sophie, please don't blame yourself, I could not have stopped myself, and
I needed to love you in every way.  Even if we never made love this morning
it would have happened eventually.  Even you can admit nothing would have
stopped you from being with me."

"I know, I suppose we really need to avoid outside contact at all costs.  I
mean the deed is already done, I can't let it get to me."

"Us Sophie, we are in this together, we cannot let society dictate how we
live our lives, and we cannot be apart."

"I am sorry that both of you will have to live with this knowledge for the
next few years, but no matter what you both have our love and support, we
can not express that enough." said mom.

"Thank you both for that support, without it, we would be lost." said Amy.

"Can we discuss some things with you both?" I asked mom and dad.

"Of course you can, let's go back in the living room." said dad.  We all
took a seat in our favourite places.  But Amy made me more comfortable by
laying me down and rested my head on her lap.  She gently soothed my back
with one hand while the other played with my hair while I rubbed her leg.
It was very relaxing for both of us.

"So what is it you want to talk about?"

"Sophie was telling me about what she planned for the future.  We were
discussing what happens when she reaches 16 she doesn't want to hide
anymore.  I agree, it may be hard for me to come out, but it should not
matter what people think, be true to yourself, don't hide who you are.
Sophie taught us all that, thanks to sally, so I am not going to let being
gay control me."

"Thank you Amy, for both your love and understanding."  I said.

"So what about school, aren't you going to continue.  Because even if you
are 16, the school will not allow you to be together if they knew." said
mom.

"Exactly the point I was getting to mom.  Amy was willing to give up her
job for me, but I would not allow it, so in my head I have accepted to keep
our relationship a secret, but only until I am 16 and school is over.  The
next 18 months will be hard, but that is all I can give.  I am sorry I am
very stubborn on the subject, I hate lying more than anything, but knowing
that hiding our love here until I reach 16 will protect us, then I will do
it."

"Sophie, you and Amy, have a great deal of courage, I mean telling us just
showed us more trust than anything else.  You stuck by each other, we all
worked out some simple rules to help make this easier.  And a part from
your earlier revelation we could not be prouder at how hard you are both
willing to make this work."  Said mom proudly.  "Amy our initial feelings
about you are not even close to what we feel now.  We love you, we know you
will protect and care for Sophie as if your life depended on it.  I am so
proud to have you in our lives.  Sophie through all of this if your only
stipulation is that you must not hide it once you are 16, then we agree,
why should you, once you have left school and are of age to explore your
relationship, you should no longer need to hide or deny your feelings
anymore.  But I must ask, what will you do then, what will you do if you
can no longer attend school?"

"Well this is what I wanted to talk to Amy about.  Firstly, Amy, do you own
your house."

"Yes, actually it was left to me by my Aunt Emily, she was the only family
member that actually loved me without having to live by any demands, she
loved me for who I am.  But she lived so far away, I maybe got 2 weeks
worth of visits in a year, we wrote when we could.  But she died before I
was 15.  She left me her house, but I was not told until I was 18.  She
knew my parents would try and take it away from me.  Luckily I had left by
then so as soon as I left home and finished university I moved here, which
was the best decision I ever made."  She kissed the top of my head.
"Because I found you, why did you ask?"

"Well mom and dad have offered to get us a double bed."  They both nodded
in agreement.  "Do you know when that will be?  I am grateful but would
really appreciate it sooner rather than later."

"Well we were planning on taking you both to town and choosing one, but
maybe that would not be a good idea.  So we could either pick one, or
Sophie could come and Amy stay here." offered mom.

"Something I have been thinking about since our talk this morning Sophie,
about learning to deal with the distance between us, especially when we are
at school.  I have been thinking we should test it.  So please don't get
angry, but after we finish talking, I plan to go home for the night, get my
stuff packed and get prepared for school.  This should give you a chance to
surprise me tomorrow with our new bed and give us a night apart to see how
we cope.  If you don't agree, obviously I will not go, but please think
about it."  I was a little shocked to say the least, but the fact was, it
was a really good idea.

"You know I really got used to the idea that once we had sex, that was it,
we would never be apart and we would sleep together every night."

"Sophie this is not a rejection by any means.  I was simply offering a
chance to see if we could last to be apart for one night."

"I know Amy, I was just expressing my feelings, but if I am honest, your
idea makes too much sense.  Even I mentioned that tomorrow will be a test,
but tonight alone will give us both the chance to prepare ourselves for
tomorrow.  But please call me in the morning before you leave for work.  I
will at least need to hear you voice and be able to tell you I love you in
private, ok."

"Agreed.  God I am so lucky to have such and understanding partner."

"I like that, partner."

"Well that is what we are.  I love you Sophie, thank you for your love in
return.  I will miss you tonight, but it will be very beneficial to us
both, never forget that I love you and we will get through this."

"I won't Amy, I love you too, and it is so great you are thinking so much
about us and how to help us to deal with the problems we have to face."  I
turned my head to look at her; I wrapped one hand around her neck to bring
her down for a kiss.  It was gentle, just enough to show my love and for
her to return it, before we realised we had company.

"I cannot believe you did that in front of our parents." said Amy.  I
looked at my parents who we blushing but also seemed happy, hearing Amy
declare that was another milestone in our partnership.

"Couldn't be helped sweetheart, I love you too much.  So mom I will come
with you and dad to get the bed, then when I get back I will tidy up
sally's old room, if that is ok with you?"

"That sounds great, I think it is time we let sally go, for all she has
done for this family, I know that she would have wanted us to be happy and
Amy being here has certainly done that."

"Thank you for saying that mom, it means a lot to me and to Sophie."  Amy
tapped my head.

"Yes my love?"

"What about my house?"

"Well I thought you were renting, so I did wonder what you would do if you
moved here.  Knowing that you own it makes it easier really.  I was
thinking that you should keep your name registered to that house, for mail
and also for school purposes, so everyone will still think you live at your
house.  And then maybe you could see about renting it out, to earn a little
money.  Then when I leave school, maybe we could move into it together."

"I would love to live with you, and it will become our house.  Whatever I
own is yours including my heart.  So you now own half the house, so whoever
we rent it to, half the money earned will be yours."

"No, you don't have to do that Amy, you keep it, you might need it one
day."

"Amy, this is not up for discussion, this is my choice and your
stubbornness will not stop me from giving this to you, ok."

"Ok, it is sweet that you want to give me such a gift, sharing your life
with me, especially as all I have to offer is me."

"That is all I want.  Until we are married I think we at least need to
speak to a lawyer and make it official.  But your idea is really good."
Amy smiled at our parents.  "Dad do you know any good lawyers."

"Well Amy, you're in luck.  I know of a rather dashing man, who is quite
the lawyer, I could speak to him if you want."

"That would be great, anything to help us out."

"It would be my pleasure Amy."

"Now something else has occurred to me.  I have I feeling I will not win,
but I want to pay rent."  Stated Amy.

"Your damn right you will not win, you are not going to pay any rent here."
Said mom.

"But mom, I want to help, anyway I can."  Demanded Amy.

"Don't mom me, you make us happy and you can cook, we can use that here.
Obviously you will have your chores to do, and there is your share of the
phone bill, you can even pick up shopping occasionally.  But please Amy,
this house is paid for; both your father and I have enough money to cover
most of the normal bills.  It would lead to too many problems to work out
how much for you to pay, so just try and keep it simple."

"Ok, that sounds agreeable, thanks mom, thanks dad."  That just all seemed
so natural.  We were all just sitting around talking and discussing stuff,
like any normal family.  It helped us all to cope with the situation as it
was and trying successfully to make everything as normal as it should

"So finally my future.  Now you all are already doing what you have chosen
as you careers, while I remain the one person who still has to figure that
out.  Now this task is a tiny bit more difficult now that I have a partner.
So what ever I choose to do after school has to be close by."

"I think that we should discuss this next year.  Not now, let's get settled
first and see how things go.  Firstly we need to find tenants and agree
terms, but when you finish school we should have enough money saved to
maybe rent some place, near to where ever you want to go.  My job here is
not as important as you Sophie; I could get a job anywhere really.  So keep
an open mind until we discuss it further, but not now.  I think we all need
to start getting things in order.  So I will go home and get packed and you
can go with mom and dad to get us a nice, big comfy bed, luckily you have a
big room."

"Ok I suppose.  I am going to miss you so much.  So you should go now
before I change my mind."  I got up and took her hand as I dragged her to
the door.  Then she dragged me upstairs, explaining to me that she had to
get her keys and that I had to help her find them, she informed mom and dad
it might take a bit of time.  As soon as we were in our room and the door
was shut she had me up against the door and was kissing me passionately.
Our tongues met but she allowed me in without much fight.  I was searching
her mouth and our kissing became more intense.

"Sophie, I know I should just go, but do you think we can make love just
before I go.  No rushing this time, I just want you so much, but I want to
caress you and feel every naked part of you and then make you cum."  I just
started taking off my clothes and she followed shortly.  We walked to the
bed and climbed in, Amy crawled on top of me.  We took our time exploring
each other.  We kissed, licked and touched each other all over.  We were
both gentle and kept a slow pace as we brought each other closer to mutual
satisfaction.  When we both eventually came we both cried into each other.
Our tears were both happy and sad, but I had to let her go.  I told her to
just go, that I missed her already and that she must not forget to call me.
She was dressed quickly, then left leaving me in bed, crying.  I heard the
front door shut from the window which I forgotten to close again.
Eventually I cried myself to sleep.  I awoke a few hours later after my mom
nudged me to tell me that we should leave.  It was lonely now that Amy was
not here and my mom told me that letting go was sometimes difficult, but
not to get to upset as tomorrow we would talk and then we would be together
again soon.  I was left to dress and then we were on our way.