Date: Tue, 20 Jul 1999 08:12:03 PDT
From: silent killer <kyoushuman@hotmail.com>
Subject: One-Time Transgression (ff, Ff, inc, pedo, cons)

I have a terrible secret that I want to share with you. I hope you won't
think too badly of me when I tell you. The secret is ... well, maybe I
should just tell you the whole story.


Basically the story starts about twenty years ago when I was a little
girl. I had a best friend named Rosemary and we did everything together. We
grew up in the same neighborhood and were best friends for years and
years. We spent all of our time in each other's company, which included
lots of slumber parties, sleepovers, etc.

At one of these sleepovers when it was just me and Rosemary, she kept
putting her hand in her panties and itching herself. I think we were about
eight or nine. I asked her what she was doing and she explained about how
itching herself down there felt good. So we both did it. And then a few
months later we were doing it to each other. Eventually we would take off
all of our clothes and spend many hours each night caressing each other's
bodies.

After we got caught by Rosemary's mother, we quit doing it for a long time,
maybe two years. Then one night she pulled a scrapbook and a flashlight out
of her overnight bag. We hid under the covers in my bedroom and looked at
the scrapbook. It was full of black-and-white pornographic photos,
including lots of pictures that showed lesbian oral sex.

We egged each other on to try it until Rosemary finally accepted my dare.
We both took off all of our bedclothes. I was so excited I was shaking, it
had been so long since we had done this stuff. So I lay on my back and
opened my legs and she just kissed and licked my little hairless thing for
a long time until I twitched and sighed and pushed her away. Then of course
I had to do it to her, and it was wonderful.

After that we did it more than we did before. Every day we would find a
place to be alone and perform oral sex on each other. At some point, I
don't remember when, we figured out 69, and that was like a special treat.

Around the time we started getting really interested in boys, we lost
interest in each other. Well, Rosemary lost interest in me, but I was still
interested in her. But we never did anything again. I befriended another
girl in the neighborhood who was a year younger than me and would do all
the things that Rosemary and I did together. I also coaxed a babysitter of
mine into letting me do some stuff to her. But that was it, and there
really wasn't much of it.

But that's not the terrible secret. That's just the prelude.

Around my junior year of high school I gave up my lesbian tendencies, or at
least I thought I did. I would have a vivid memory-dream about Rosemary
every now and then but that was it, I thought I was completely over the
whole thing. I loved men, I loved to make love to them, and I never thought
about women.

OK, this next part is a little difficult for me to talk about. But I guess
I have to tell you now since I built up to it so much.

OK, just a couple of weeks ago, my older sister Katie asked me to watch her
daughter (my niece) for a long weekend, four days from Friday to Monday.
She was going on a second honeymoon with her husband and all I had to do
was housesit and babysit my niece Dawn. OK, no problem. Dawn was about nine
years old and a sweet little girl, not whiny or pouty or bratty at all. We
got along great.

So I'm sitting out by the pool with Dawn in the big fenced-in backyard and
I decide to work on my tan. Katie had a big privacy fence built around her
pool so she could do the same thing I was about to do. I took off my
one-piece and just spread out on the chair. Dawn was playing in the
sprinkler in the yard and she ran over to ask me why I was naked. I told
her that I was getting a tan all over so I would have no tan lines. Dawn,
who was already a couple of shades darker than me, pulled off one of her
shoulder straps and looked at her tan line, then asked me if tan lines were
bad. I said no, they weren't bad, but sometimes they looked funny. Dawn
said she thought they looked funny too and asked me for permission to be
naked. I said OK.

Now at the time I wasn't thinking about this in a weird way at all. I was
just laying there sweating and getting sun. Even when Dawn was naked in
front of me I didn't think of her in a sexual way. She just went and played
while I sat there and baked. But then I remembered that she would burn
easily, especially in the areas that were pale and untouched by sun. So I
called her over and had her stand next to me while I grabbed the bottle of
suntan lotion.

When my hand smeared a trail of coconut-scented lotion across her flat
chest and rounded belly, I immediately got wet. It was just like the gentle
caressing that Rosemary and I used to do. I backed out by handing Dawn the
lotion and telling her to do the rest herself. Dawn dutifully smeared the
lotion all over herself, everywhere she could reach. She giggled with
embarrassment as she rubbed the lotion on her little crack, too. But then
she handed the bottle back to me and turned around and said "I can't reach
my back."

So that's how I ended up feeling my naked niece's bare buttocks. I really
did go too far. I coated her back with lotion and then I spent about 45
seconds too long rubbing the lotion into her ass. I felt her puckered hole
between the cheeks. I had her spread her legs a bit and I rubbed lotion on
her little vagina for a long time. She squirmed and giggled and grinned
over her shoulder at me.

Finally I stopped myself and sat back. I put the bottle down and clamped my
legs together so I could flex my thighs and tweak myself, but she insisted
on putting lotion on me too.

Dawn stood behind me and rubbed lotion all over my body. She spent far too
much time on my breasts but I didn't stop her. It felt so good but I felt
so guilty at the same time. You can't understand what it's like to look
down and see those small, slightly pudgy little girl's hands rubbing your
nipples and squeezing your boobs. It's so fucking hot. It was like I had
Rosemary with me again. In fact I was fantasizing that Dawn was Rosemary
and that's probably what led to the next thing.

Dawn ended up rubbing lotion around my pussy lips. At first she kind of
skipped over that part but I held her hand and rubbed myself with her
fingers and told her it was OK to touch me there. Then I let go of her hand
and she kept doing it. She even put one finger inside of me for just a
second but she blushed and pulled away. It was so cute when she blushed.

Then I stood up and I was like, OK, let's go inside. And we went in and I
went straight up to Katie's room and put us on the bed. I said, Dawn, do
you want to feel good like we were outside? And she just smiled and nodded,
she was so happy. It was just like with Rosemary, she was so excited about
doing this stuff. So I taught her how to lick me by licking her first, and
pretty quickly I got her into a 69. Oh God, it was so amazing to suck her
bald little thing and to feel her little jaw and tongue working down there
between my legs. Oh Jesus, I can't finish writing this, I have to go stop
and you know, take care of myself.



OK, I'm back. Sorry about that. Anyway, Dawn took a shower together and I
basically kissed her all over some more. Then we dried off and got dressed
and I told her that it was a secret and she nodded. I asked her if she
could keep secrets and she nodded again, a lot. I was like, tell me some of
your secrets and she said No Way. So I think our secret will be safe. And
for the rest of the weekend we were just totally like kids in love, we made
love every day and night. And when her parents came back Dawn was so sad to
see me go. I told Katie that I would babysit for Dawn any time she wanted
me to.

The thing is, I want to do it again, but I am so scared of hurting her
somehow. I mean, the thing with Rosemary never hurt me or Rosemary, but
there's such an age difference this time. Well, when my babysitter and I
messed around that didn't hurt me either, and she was like six years older
than me. But I'm like thirteen or fourteen years older than Dawn. I don't
know. I guess we'll just see what happens.


THE END