Date: Wed, 01 Oct 2003 06:06:08 +0000
From: SEE PAM20 <seepam20@hotmail.com>
Subject: what is wrong with me! part 4

			  what is wrong with me!

				  by pam

Well here is part 4. I hope everybody well enjoy it. I well not wait so
long to do part 5. Remember to  make a donation to this site.  And here is
my stories i have so far.

My aunties panties  in the incest part.
parking lot encounter  in the encounter part.
lady in gray  in the encounter part.

And the pam stories  in the incest part.  I have been redoing the pam
stories to make them better and easier to read.  So enjoy pam again for the
first time.

And coming soon   Mother! why did you do that to me!


Part 4


Who am i to talk about mary! I mean i am so sick! How could i of done all
of this! But i could not believe mary has a side i did not know about. I
wonder how long this has been going on' I mean tammy said that mary never
made her feel like i did when i touch her' I guess after mary got what she
wanted' she just stop doing things to her' But maybe that was a good thing'
Maybe mary did not want her to know how it feels to cum and all of those
things'  Oh! i just hope to god that tammy does not tell nobody about this!
Oh! i am so sick! What is wrong with me!


There she was in my bed nude! I just stood there by the end of the bed
still in my pajama knowing not what to do. And then i said' I am going to
the bathroom again'  So i walked out of the room to go to the bathroom and
i sit down to pee again. I started thinking'  What's going to happen when i
go to bed' tammy is in my bed nude! I have a ten year old girl nude in my
bed!

So many things started going through my mind' And then i thought' I need to
get more info about some of the thing that mary does to her' I mean i know
she told me a lot of things' But i need to know more' I don't know why'
but i just do!

After i got done peeing i went to the kitchen again and got me some more
water' I felt like i was really tried' but i also felt like i could not go
to sleep' I just have to many things going through my mind' Like what have
i done tonight! Why did i let this go this far!  And the thing i could not
get out of my mind was mary touching her all of this time! I bet she has
been doing it for a long time!

Oh how sick mary is! Oh what am i thinking! I am the one who is sick! But
its all mary fault' I mean if mary had never touched her like that' I don't
think i would be touching her to!

Oh what am i saying! I can not blame all this on mary!  I could of stopped
all of this if i wanted to.

Well after i drink my water i slowly walked back to the bed room' I felt
like i was in slow motion with every thing i did' Maybe because i was just
ware out. But like i said' I was not sleepy' Just so dam tried.

After i walked in to the bed room tammy was underneath the covers talking
to her self" I really could not hear what she was saying to good' but it
sounded like i could hear her say' Oh no no ok ok no you touch meeee there.
  I walk over to the bed and said out load' What are you doing tammy? Tammy
head come out real fast and she said'' Nothing.

I then thought' I need to get this miss clean up' put the chars back in the
kitchen. I then said' tammy 'why don't you help put these chars and books
way and help me fold all of these covers.

Tammy said' Way can't we just leave the fort there? I thought' I really
don't feel like putting every thing back any way. So i said' I don't care.
I thought' if my sister does come home early' And see all of this' She well
just think tammy is playing. I then went to the end of the bed and started
moving the books off the end of bed. And Tammy said' I thought you are
going....to leave it. I said' tammy we can not sleep with all of this on
the end of the bed. And tammy said' Its going to miss up. I said as i was
putting the books back on the shelf' Tammy you can fix it tomorrow if you
want to play in it. And she said' are you going to....play...more to. I
look at her and said' I don't know. And then i said' we need to get to
sleep.

And then i said'  I am really tried while i was folded down the covers to
climb in to bed. And then tammy said' Are we going to play some more? I
just took a deep breath and said' Well tammy its really getting late' We
should get some sleep.  I could hear tammy making moaning sounds after i
said that.  And then i said as i was turning over on my side away from her'
Tammy don't you ever get tried?  And she said as i could hear her moving
around a lot' Nooo i want to still play. I said' Tammy its really late' we
need to sleep. And then i heard her say as she still continue to move
around a lot' I am sleepy' I wanted to play nurse and the patient! I
thought to myself' I wonder if that game is like nurse and the baby. And
then i said' We need to go to sleep. And then i heard her move around some
more and then she said' You just like mary!  And when i heard that i kind
of got a little pissy and said as i was turning over and raising up' Look!
I am not like mary! And then i was getting ready to say as i look at her
and she had the covers half way down over her body and her arms crossed
over her little breast'

I said as i looked at her' Look these games you and mary play are very
wrong' And then she just laid there with this confuse look on her face and
said' Why!  And then i thought' She has to know why' How could she not know
why! And then i said'  tammy' it just is' Don't you ever think why mary
tells you not to say anything.

And after i said that i thought' Maybe i should not said that' Now maybe
she might start to think that it is wrong and tell somebody' What the hell
was i thinking!

And then i started to make myself scared again about all of this' I
thought' I need to talk to her about all of this and make sure she not
going to tell nobody about this' And i wanted to find out more things that
mary has been doing with her.

And then i looked at her face again and she still had this confuse look on
her face' And then i said' Tammy this game you and mary play' what does she
say to you about them? Tammy kind of looked at me real confuse and said' I
don't....know. And then i said' How long have you two been playing these
game? And then tammy started to more her arms away from her little breast'
up over to her head' And stretched herself out and said at the same time' I
don't know!'

And then i said' Tammy' why don't you know' And i continue to say' You and
mary play these games right? And tammy said' yesss! And then i said' you
should remember when you two started playing these games' In my mind i was
thinking' sex games! But i did not want to say that. And then i said' Don't
you remember when you two started playing nurse and the baby? And then
tammy said' Mary don't like to play.....nurse and the...baby....she just
like to play...nurse and the patient. And i said' whatever' And then i
said' don't you remember when you two started playing it. And then she put
her hands over her eyes and said' In a whining way' I don't...remember. I
could tell tammy was getting a little annoyed with my questions. And then i
thought' I am not getting anywhere with her. So i laid my head back down on
my pillow and thought' I still have to make sure she is not going to say
anything.

And then i turned over on my side towards her and put my arm to hold my
head up and said' Tammy' your not going to tell nobody about these games
you and I played' right?  And tammy said as she was moving her arms back up
and down over her head' noooo!  mary told me not....to say nothing.

I could tell she was started to get a little fussy and annoyed with my
questions. I just looked at her and thought' God i hope she does not say
nothing' And then i thought' If i go down' I well make sure mary goes down
with me! And as i continue to look at her i thought' Wow! she looks so
beautiful laying there with her arms up over her head' I started staring at
her little nipples' They look so nice the way they where poking up from her
flat chest with her arms over her head. And then i thought' What the hell
is wrong with me again' I was starting to have these feeling again! I have
to get these feeling out of my mind! But i just could not'

So i laid my head back down and closed my eyes and thought' I need to just
fall asleep' maybe i well wake up and it well all be a dream' But i know it
wasn't. I just knew things are going to get worse as it goes along' I just
knew that i well have this over my head fore a long time. And it was always
going to bug me' I mean i am going to be worry about this for a long time.
if i don't go to jail first. Now i am really worry about it' After thinking
about jail. Oh! I just can not make myself worry about this! I just need to
go to sleep.

After a while as i had my eyes close trying to fall asleep' Tammy kept
moving around a lot. So i open my eyes and looked at her and said to her as
she was talking to herself' because i could see her mouth moving in
silence.  I said' tammy' what's wrong' can you not fall asleep. And tammy
turned her head to me and look at me with those puppy dog eyes and said'
Nooo I am not sleepy' I said' Tammy its almost three o'clock in the
morning' how could you not be sleepy? And she said' I don't.... know...i
wanted to play nurse and....patient. I looked at her and thought' Oh i just
can not to this again' I feel so guilty about all that has happen. But i
still have this longing desire' This craving that i had was getting worse
and worse again. The thought of her down around my pussy area' Oh! and the
thought of me around her pussy area.

This was getting to be to much for me to bare. I felt my pussy tinkle
again' I felt it getting moist again.  I was thinking what should i do!
Should i just turn over on my side a away from her and close my eyes and
for get all of this. But i just could not get what happen out of my mind'
The way she played with me down there' the way she moved her fingers across
my pussy hairs' the way her finger played around my ass hole. Oh this was
to much! I could not stand it any more! I had to have more! I had to get my
fingers around her little pussy. This was just to much! So i said in a
nerves voice' Tammy' how do you play nurse and patient? And with me saying
that to her' It was like she come alive again' She raised her head up and
started taking a mile a minute' she said' do you really want to play! I
said' well' it seem like i can not fall asleep either. And then she sit
herself up on the bed and said' do you...want to play in the fort? I said'
no tammy' I just want to stay on the bed. And then she said' that's...like
mary' she doest like to play in the fort no more. I said' well tammy' I am
not like mary!!

And then i thought' yes i am' I am probable worse then mary. And then i
thought' why did i get offenses when she said that' So then i said' Sorry
tammy for talking to you like that. And then tammy said' I just
mean....mary don't like to play in the fort no more...either. I said' I
know. And then i said' I just don't want to get on the floor no more' Ok.
Tammy said' O...k.

And then tammy went on to say' We...we..can play underneath...the cover. I
said' ok. And i thought' what am i getting ready to do again' I mean it was
three o'clock in the morning' OH how sick i am! But i could not get the
lust out of my mind' It was like something took over in me again. My pussy
felt like it was on fire again' I could feel the wettest building up
inside' I could feel my heart start to beat faster. I just don't know what
is wrong with me! I had a deep passion for this little girl!  I wanted to
see her little pussy hole' I know i am so sick! I was probable worse then
mary' OH i don't know!! mary's the one who started tammy doing this.

And then tammy started to say to me as i was in my on thoughts'
We..we..need to get a flashed light. I said' what? And then she said'
we...we...need....flashed light. I said' why? And she said' be..because
that's how....you play....nurse and....patient. I said' Well' I think there
is one in one of the kitchen cabinet. And then all of a sudden she jumps
out of the bed' jumping up and down and saying' I get it! I get it!

She looked so beautiful standing there jumping up and down all nude! Her
little breast and her little pussy mound just shine where her tan lines
where' And her beautiful blonde straight hair just shine in the little
light from the hall way.

I then said' Tammy i well go get it' you would be unable to reach it any
way. I then started to get up out of the bed and as i was' I could not kept
my eyes off her. Oh! she look so beautiful!

As i started to walk out the bed room door' Tammy grabbed a hold of my
waist from behind and started to follow my foot steps. I thought oh well'
And when i got halfway to the kitchen i felt the top of her head on the
back of my back' She was pushing her head in to me as we walked. And she
was making sounds with her mouth. When i got to the cabinet where i thought
the flash light was' I felt her arms go around my waist and then she fell
to her knees. I looked down at her and she had her chen on my thigh looking
up at me with this big smile. I thought' this really made her happy that we
where going to play some more. But i thought' This is so wrong' I should
not be doing this. But i did not care now' my pussy was wet and i was horny
again! real bad!

God she looked so nice' all nude' wrap around my waist and her looking up
at me! The lust in me was taking over again. I don't think i could control
it. I mean like i been saying' I am not used to being touch by nobody'!
Just the thought of her fingers playing around my pussy area was to much
for me' It made me want more! It felt so good to be touched my somebody'
even if it was just a ten year old girl! I am so sick!

I then grabbed the flash light and said' OK tammy i have it. She jump up
off her knees and said' we can play! As she started jumping up and down a
little.

I said' Well lets go back to the bedroom' I watch her take off running to
the bed room real fast' Oh her little white butt looked so nice! And for
her to be just ten years old' Her butt was starting to get its round shape'
I mean it had a little wiggle to it when she took off running.

And then when i got to the bedroom door' She came running back out holding
herself' Running to the bathroom' Saying' I have to pee! I have to pee!

While she went to the bathroom i went and sit the flash light down on the
dresser and crawled back in to bed. As i laid there waiting for a few
second' Tammy came back in ruining really fast and jammed her toe in to the
char that was at the end of the bed' Where we made are play fort. I thought
she was going to fall down when she did it. And then all of a sudden she
looked at me with her mouth open and then she just started to cry as she
sit down on the bed facing the front of the bed and lifted her foot trying
to grab her toe with both hands. She was crying as she was saying'  It
hurts!! it hurt!!  over and over.

I rose up really fast and turned the lamp on and scooted myself towards her
and said' Are you ok! She just kept crying' And then she started to try and
blow on it. I said' let me look at it'

She then laid all the way back on the bed with one foot hanging off the
bed. While she lifted her other foot for me to look at' my eyes went right
to her little almost hairless crotch. And I could see her crotch really
good to with the lamp on.

I could not believe how good it looked to me' OH i am sick! I thought.

She was still crying while i looked it over.  I said' It not bad tammy' You
just jammed it really good. And then she started to say' It hurts so bad!
And then she said as she was sniffling' But some lotion on it! put some
lotion on it! I said' ok ok!  And then she said as she was still sniffling'
my mommy all ways put lotion on my bo' bo'

I then said' Ok' let me go get some' I then got up and headed to the
bathroom' I knew there was some in there' While i was getting it' I
thought' What a big baby she is for somebody that is ten years old! My
goodies' I can not believe for being ten years old that she acts like a big
baby.

I walked back there with the lotion and she was turned around where her
back was at the fort of the bed' And she had her legs spread out trying to
hold up her foot that she hurt with her hand. I could not believe the view
i got when i walked over to her side of the bed!

Oh! I could not kept my eyes from not looking between her legs! Her little
pussy looked so nice and swallow!

She looked up at me still sniffling a little and said' It....hurt. I said'
I well put some lotion on it. I sit down across from her and started
rubbing lotion over her toe real nice and slow. I just kept my eyes between
her legs the whole time. And then when i got done i said' Does that feel
better? And then she did not say a word' She just moved over to me and put
her arms around my waist and she put her head in my lap and bent her knees
in and cued herself up.

I really was surprise for her to do that' I thought for sure she was going
to say' Are you ready to play. I just started rubbing her pretty blonde
hair and said' Its ok. I think she was getting ready to go to sleep on me.
I think everything caught up with her. She was falling asleep with her head
in my lap.

I just looked down and kept on rubbing her hair' And then i pulled the her
hair away from the side of her face and looked at her' And thought' This
little girl is so beautiful. Her pretty blonde hair' Her pretty blue eyes.
Oh! I wanted her so bad that it hurt inside.

I then started to run my fingers down her shoulder' When i did that i felt
her shiver. I kept running my fingers back and forth until i started to run
them down her back. And then i thought" what am i doing! What is wrong with
me! But i could not stop my self. I continue to run my fingers over her
back until i was really close to her hip' And i could feel her shiver
again. I thought' I need to stop this! But i just continue doing what i was
doing. I did not care any more. I had a strong desire' And it was in my
pussy!

As i continue to run my fingers over her side and down to her hip she
started to stretch one leg out and i felt her hand move in between my
crotch' I thought' OH god! This is what i wanted her to do was to touch my
pussy.

I started feeling her fingers again picking at my pubic hairs through my
pajama' I could not believe this was happing again' I then tried to spread
my leg out a little the best i could with her head in my lap.

While she was picking at my pubic hairs i started to run my fingers down
her bare bottom close to her ass cheek. I just stop there and run my
fingers all around until i got to her ass crack' I was kind of scare to go
any farther.

I did know if i should run my finger over her little butt crack are not' I
was having second thought. But i just did not know what to do! I just
continue to run my finger real slow over her butt almost touching her butt
crack. And then i felt her fingers go down toward my clit' And then i kind
of took a deep breath and held it for a second and then i felt her fingers
start to roll my clit around through my pajama bottoms. Oh it felt so good!
  I felt like i was getting ready to cum and soon as she started doing
that!

And then she finally said something' She said' mary likes....when i
do....that. I could not say a word. I was on the verge of cumming again.
And then i thought' I don't care' I was going to touch her some more! And
with that i started to run my fingers down to her little butt crack and i
started to play with her ass hole. And then i heard her let out a moan and
say' in a trembling voice' Mary doesn't like....to....play this game any
more. And i thought to myself' What the hell is she taking about. Is
everything a game to her!

And then all of a sudden i started to feel myself cumming!! I could not
help it! I was cumming! I could not hold back if i wanted to! Her little
fingers was rolling my clit all around! And like i said' I was cumming!!
With out even thinking i started to push my finger in her little butt hole!
It went in there real easy' because it was all sweaty and sticky. And then
i felt her tense up on me and she pushed her ass checks tight together on
my finger. And as soon as my finger went into her ass! I was cumming!!

I moved my other hand down between my legs to my crotch real fast over her
hand and pushed her hand in to me while i tried to squeeze my legs together
the best i could with her head in my lap. I thought i was going to fall
backwards. I was rocking back and forth while i cum. And then i slowly took
my finger out of her ass hole.

And then it was all over with' I thought' What have i done again! I said'
tammy" don't' I need to go to the bathroom. She was still rubbing my clit
after i let go of her hand. She lifted her head off my lap and i got up
real fast and headed to the bathroom. As i waking out to go to the bathroom
i heard her say' Are we still going to play nurse and the patient?

I said on my way out to go to the bathroom' Well see tammy. As soon as i
got to the bathroom i sit my self down on the toilet' And thought' oh! What
did i do again! Oh! it felt so good! I really did not have to pee to much'
I just needed to get away from her a second and get my thoughts back
together.  And then i thought' Her ass hole felt so nice and warm and
moist. All of a sudden' I put my finger to my nose to smell her' OH! the
scent!! It was just to much!! It made my head spin. Then i put my finger in
my mouth to taste her. OH! I could not believe how i loved the taste!! Oh!
All of this was getting me wet again!! Oh! how many times have i got off!!
I don't know anymore!  All i know now is that i need to taste her little
pussy!!!   What is wrong with me!!!

End of part 4.

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