Date: Wed, 20 Jan 2010 19:32:02 -0500
From: Anam Mousa <anm8720@gmail.com>
Subject: Meant to be part 2- College

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Four months passed. The only time I get to see Sarah is in school. We
secretly make-out in her car or mine. Sometimes we go to the park and talk.
She tells me she doesn't mind that she only sees me in school. One day when
we were in my car I ask her if she wanted to come over my house.

"Are you sure?" she asks.

"Um..yeah, I mean you're not a boy, so it's okay." I joked.

She laughs

We get to my house and introduced Sarah to my mom. My mom was happy because
I brought a friend home because I usually don't.

"It was nice meeting you Sarah, but I'm sorry we can't talk. I have to visit
Amani's aunt."

"It was nice meeting you too." she replied back.

When my mom left we went to my room. Sarah looked around and saw my book
collection,

"That's funny," she suddenly says.

"What is?"

"That most of these books you have, I have also."

"Hmm.Come here." I tell her.

She hesitates. I tell her no one is home. It's okay. She comes towards me
and wraps her arms around me for a while. She asks me if I'm sure if I want
to do this. I tell her yes. She starts kissing my lips. My heart is beating
so fast. Her body is so close to mine. I open my mouth and she puts her
tongue in my mouth. Sarah takes my shirt off, and puts her hands on my
breasts. It feels so good. She kisses my neck, then my breast. I arch my
back because I want more of her mouth on me. She licks my breasts then sucks
on them. She slowly takes my jeans off. She looks at me to see my reaction.
I tell her I want this. She kisses my stomach. Sarah has her hands on my
thighs. I couldn't help the moan that escaped my lips. I wanted and needed
her so bad. She put her index finger in me. I was moaning so loud. This is
the first time I feel this and it feels amazing. She has her body pressed on
mine. Then all of a sudden we hear the front door open. It was my dad. We
got up quickly and pretended we were doing are school work. I took her back
to campus because she left her car there. When we got to school we couldn't
keep are hands off of each other. I kissed her  and told her I'm sorry we
didn't get to finish what we started. She told me it was okay we have other
times. I can't believe this woman is in my life. I'm falling for her.

God!!!..can this week get any slower. It was spring break and I haven't seen
Sarah. We talk every night. She told me about her ex, Kim. They had been
going out for a couple of years. Kim cheated on her with some random guy,
when Sarah was out of town. A few months later Kim got pregnant. That's when
Sarah found out kim cheated on her. Sarah left Kim because she didn't trust
her. She sounded sad when she told me. I tell her good thing Kim cheated on
you, then I wouldn't have you in my life. She laughs and says yeah your
right.

I have to see Sarah. This is driving me crazy. So I ask her to come to the
movies with my cousin and I. she said sure. My cousin is my best friend she
is like a sister I never had. The only thing she doesn't know is me being
gay. I drove to get Sarah first so we can have some alone time for a little
bit. When I saw her she put her hands on my cheeks and kissed me
passionately. I missed you so much she whispers in my ears. We couldn't keep
our hands off of each others. I put my hands underneath her shirt to feel
her breast. She moaned in my ear. I stopped when I heard my phone ring. It
was my cousin Dina asking me why am I taking too long. I tell her we'll be
there in a minute, there's traffic. Sarah laughs and wraps her arms around
me and kisses me on the lips. We Couldn't stop kissing. I pulled away from
her and tell her we have to go now.

"Babe..Your driving me crazy," she says

"Who me..I don't know what you're talking about." I say innocently.

"Yeah okay.right." she says laughing.

We get to Dina's house. I'm so excited because I know Dina will like Sarah.
They got along great. We didn't know what movie we wanted to watch. They
both wanted a romantic movie to watch, but I wanted to see a scary movie. It
was two against one so were going to see a romantic movie. I sat in the
middle between Dina and Sarah. During the movie Sarah put her hands on mine.
I didn't notice until I saw Dina looking at our holding hands. I took my
hands away and I saw Sarah's hurt face. I knew she was sad because I took my
hands away from hers. But she knew I can't do that in public. After the
movie we decided to get coffee. Dina kept the conversation going. Every time
Sarah catches me looking at her, she just looks away. She ignored me the
whole time. Sarah was talking to Dina more than me and its making  me mad. I
hope Dina didn't notice. It was time to go. I dropped Sarah off first
because Dina was sleeping over my house. I'll call you later I tell her. She
just nodded and left.

"What is up with you two?" Dina asks

"What are you talking about?"

"I don't know it seems like you guys are mad at each other."

"Well were not can you just drop it." I say angrily.

"Okay.fine, but you can tell me anything." she says

Yeah. If only I can.

I called Sam later that night, but she never answered.

A couple of days later and I still didn't hear from Sarah. I'm really upset
because she hasn't called me. I call her a couple more times and still no
answer. I'll see here tomorrow in class. The next day I'm in class, but
Sarah isn't here. What is her problem? After class I go to my car and see
her against it.

"Hey.why haven't you called back.I was worried." I tell her.

"Yeah I know I'm sorry.I was just thinking." she says sadly.

"About what?"

"About us,"

"Okay look I know you were upset with me the other night, but I told you
from day one I can't do that in public. You said you understand." I say
angrily

"Yeah I know.I can't help it that I'm falling for someone whose keeping me a
secret." She yells

"I can't believe this is happening right now. I knew I shouldn't have
started anything." I yell back.

"Amani.I love you,"

"I don't know what to say. I mean why do you love me if I don't show you to
the world. Why do you want me if like you said "I'm keeping you a secret." I
say sadly.

We just stare at each other. I look at her sad face. I can't let her go
through this. I have to let her go.

"I think we should stop seeing each other. It's better for both of us if we
don't see each other anymore." I say calmly. The truth is its killing me
inside.

"I can't believe you. You're going to just let me go." She's crying right
now I can't see her like this.

"Yeah I am." I get in my car and drive. I'm shaking so much that I couldn't
concentrate on my driving. I pull over and that's when I break down crying.