Date: Thu, 7 Jun 2007 12:35:08 +0100
From: Big_L X <shadow_angel223@hotmail.com>
Subject: all you need is a little love, highschool, chapter 1

This story is pure fiction of the kind of love I wish for myself and
everyone else out there.

Y'all know the drill y'all must be 18 or over cough* and don't even think
about stealing this or ima kick ure ass :D ima nice person really.

Comments send to : charmedchick223@hotmail.com. OR
shadow_angel223@hotmail.com

Good or bad dis chick wants to hear it xxxx. (Old habits are hard to break)

By the way if this goes well, I dedicate it to my hommie Tanya cause she's
cool and told me to write suttin so I did. :D


My name is Alex but everyone calls me Lex I'm what people would call mix
race light caramel skin my mom being Latino and my father who by the way is
dead being pure African American. So I have long wavy hair from my mother
and hazel eyes. I'm very athletic and I guess that's all. Let's just say I
have very low self esteem. It all started when I was a freshman in my first
school (yeah I've been to many.) 7th grade was so different girls started
talking about boy and were getting the eye here and there from boys but me
never, I was just the quiet girl who no one ever noticed but that wasn't
what broke my self esteem one year a boy finally noticed me and started
talking to me his name was Craig Hill one of the cutest boys and he asked
me out I said yes immediately but one day I entered school and saw him
kissing Katie Drew (the hottest girl in school) I was so upset he looked at
me and said "Did you really think I was interested you," I discovered soon
after I was a bet that he could pull any girl he wanted. Now that's what
broke my self esteem. So in all of my 17 years I've never had a boyfriend
or anything.

     Back to the matter at hand. My father died right before my eyes last
year and it kind of fucked me up so we had to move here so here I am living
in New York where I fit in a bit more if you get my drift.

       Going to a new school is the most nerve racking thing ever, I've
been to many but that doesn't make it any better you never know what to
expect.

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Chapter 1: One look is all it took.

Here I was sitting in history totally bored shit. I didn't get a word Miss
Madison said and frankly I didn't give a shit. My name is Jay I'm full on
African American with white parents. I know what your thinking how the hell
that worked. Easy I'm adopted it didn't take me that long to figure it
out. And it doesn't bother me at all cause I love them they love me so it's
all good in the hood. Lol.

   "Class we have a new student," Miss Madison announced. Normally I
wouldn't have given a shit but something told me to pay attention so I did
and thank God I did. I must've been in heaven because there before me was
an angel, she had the most striking features and those lips oh God those
lips beautiful pink and full. Sigh* I've only been in one relationship with
a girl before but it ended in shambles. Her name was Monique and I really
liked her but the problem was sex, I was so fucking nervous anytime we got
close to doing it I'd freak out and tell her to stop because I was (and
still am) a virgin. She got really inpatient and we had a massive argument
and she broke up with me. I cried for days cause I've never been so heart
broken my mom and dad were cool with the whole gay thing and proud of me
for not doing anything I didn't want to this made me feel better and in the
end all the pain was replaced with anger. I am over her now. Now I have my
eyes on a new prize and lawd knows she is one fine sister.

  "This is Alex Taylor and she is new to All Saints High school so make her
feel welcome, there's a spare seat next to Jayana," she said pointing to
the empty seat next to mine.

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Damn this girl was fine she caught my eye from the moment I walked in. Her
hair in a very stylish cornrow pattern and the ends touching her shoulders,
her dark skin had this glow, and those brown eyes damn I felt like I could
get lost in them. Hold up girl what wrong with me, you aint gay. Hell Nah I
aint. The day went really fast probably because the only thing that was on
my mind was Jayana. Shit I am really messed up. At lunch I know I should've
gone to the cafeteria and socialized but I am one curious mother fucker, I
heard that the gym was open to the girls basket ball squad at lunch so you
know me had to go take a look because I love basket ball I've never been on
a team but me and my dad on Saturday morning would go to the court and have
one on ones all the time. I got really good at it. I got there and sat on
the audience seat and watched. Then I saw her. She dribbled the ball and
threw it into the hoop it was a nice clean shot. She collected the ball
then ran dribbling the ball and slammed it down holding onto the rim then
finally letting go. She looked around but nobody was there so she just let
out a sigh. Why? I dunno. "Nice shot," I said making her jump. She turned
around and stared at me for a while. I just smiled. When she didn't say
anything back I got nervous cause I thought I'd done something wrong. Then
she just grinned at me. And omg it was the sexiest thing I have ever
seen. It sent electricity soaring through my body. "Thanks," she said
finally speaking. "Here," she said passing the ball into my hands. I stared
down at the ball and smiled. I looked at the net it was pretty far but I
came out of my momma's womb throwing long shots. I calmly shot it at the
net and it was nice and clean.

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Not only was she drop dead gorgeous she was talented. I was never a long
distance person. But I decided to test her. "Mmm Lucky shot," I said
putting on a sly grin.

   "S'cuse me I don't think I heard you properly," she said she had a
killer smile on.

   "Sorry girl I must not have been clear, I said that was a nice lucky
shot," I said widening my grin. She simply went picked up the ball and
moved even further back and shot and once again it went straight in. She
was standing in the centre of the court. "Now girl I don't think that was
luck," she said laughing.

  "Excuse me are you on the team?" Miss Manson the female basketball squad
coach asked approaching Alex. She shook her head she seemed a bit
nervous. And this my friends was my Que.

   "No she is not, Alex here is new and I am taking care her so we were
just you know hanging out but we will be leaving," I said dragging her off
before Miss Manson could say anything. We ran out of the Gym in fits of
laughter.

  "Hey I'm Jay" I said offering her my hand. She looked at it then took it
saying "Lex".

    "Well Lex I hope you didn't mind me taking you away from the Gym but
Miss Manson can be a bit pushy like she was with me when I first came and
she practically forced me on the team. I wanted you to make up your own
mind though the team could use your range," I said smiling.

       *********************************

Okay she was too much this was all too much. And thank Jesus I was saved by
the bell. Before I she could say anything I ran off yelling that it was
nice meeting her.

I've never really had a proper friend I've always been alone. People have
pretended to be my friend before but all they did was use me and it always
hurt when I found out. And it finally crossed my mind that Jay was soo
beautiful why would she want to be my friend. I decided I had to avoid her.

   School was over pretty quick and I left, I shared a few more classes
with Jay but I avoided eye contact and everything else. Which was really
hard because I could tell she was staring at me but why? I didn't know.

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Chapter 2: Bittersweet Tears

I could tell Lex was avoiding me and normally I would say to hell with it
but this one was not getting away Nah uh. I rushed out after school to my
car and waited for her to come out and when she did she took my breath away
again. She just stood there the sun radiating off her beautiful skin. I
blew my horn and she turn to look at me. Her eyes widened and she looked
like she was looking for an escape route I smiled at this. Finally she let
out a sigh and walked over to my car.

  "Hey" she said very nervously.

"Hey Lex, lemme give you a ride," I said smiling.

   "Erm not thank you I'll walk," she said smiling.

"Now way girl, get in the car and stop fronting," Now this surprised her as
much as it did me but at least she got in. She gave me the directions.

  "So where did you move from?" I asked making conversation.

  "San Francisco" she replied. I felt pain in her voice and this caused me
pain.

  "Why did you move? It seems like a nice place beautiful sites you know
the bridge and all"

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She's asking me questions and I wish she would stop. I remember the day I
begged my father to take me to the bridge and he did it was a beautiful day
the day just before he was shot by that mother fucker. I couldn't help it
but the memories made me start to cry. Jay looked over at me and saw I was
crying she looked sad. She pulled over and walked over to my side and
pulled me out the car and gave me hug. "It's okay baby," she whispered in
my ear. "I'm here now," she further said. This made cry harder. I know I
probably looked stupid but I couldn't help it. She continued whisper in my
ear. I knew then and there I was falling for her and it hurt so bad because
I knew she would never love some one as ugly as me.

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It was taking all my will power not to cry as this beautiful girl melted in
my arms. After she calmed down we climbed back in my car and drove the rest
of the way in silence only her giving me directions. When I got home I went
straight to my room and cried. Why? I don't know I cried because I was
falling in love and I knew she was in pain. And it hurt so bad to be away
from her.

   "Darling are you okay," my mom said coming into my room.

  "No," I said. Not looking up from pillow cause I hated it when people see
me crying.

  "Who is she?" my mom asked. Damn she knew almost better than me. I looked
up and saw my moms beautiful green eyes staring at me they were filled with
sympathy.

  "Her name's Lex and she is new, she is so beautiful mom but she is in so
much pain, and I don't know why but that is causing me pain," I said I knew
I was babbling. My mom took me into her arms and hugged me tight. "It's
okay darling, I'm sure she feels the same way," I wasn't sure though and
wasn't that what mattered.

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What the fuck is wrong with me? Why did I do that? I probably scared her
off. My first real chance of a friend and I blew no I didn't just blow I
destructed it. Talk about lame. My mind was racing as I threw myself on the
bed she had hugged me and I could still smell her on me. She had the scent
of coco butter. My mind raced with thoughts of her, her smile, her touch,
her scent. Damn I feel like freakin Shakespeare in Love.

  "Honey how was your first day at school," my mom asked. I loved my mom
her voice, she had an American accent but you could still hear a little bit
of the Latino in it.

  "Bittersweet," I replied that was the only was to describe it. She smiled
at this and gave me a hug. Then she left me. I looked around my room it
felt so compact. I grabbed my side bag and decided to go for a walk. I
never went any where, without my side bag it's a small pouch bag where I
keep everything, my gum for emergencies, my pen and note book. I love to
write songs about my feelings or just stuff that pops into my head. I
walked across the road on the side walk thinking to myself, then I saw her
she was in the park with her head on her knees. Should I or should I not I
though. Oh what the hell might as well. I walked quietly up to the bench
where she sat.

  "You okay?" I asked.

 "No, go away I don't talk to stranger," she replied. I smiled at
this. Don't ask me why I don't know but she sounded cute when she was mad.

  "I hardly thought I was a stranger," I said smiling. She looked up at me
and in those brown eyes I saw surprise and a flash of..... pain. She was
sad. But why?

  "Lex I'm sorry I didn't know it was you" she said smiling.

  "It's cool, now girl tell me what's wrong," I said looking very seriously
at her.

   "Nothing," she said. Or should I say lied.

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Damn. Am I that readable? But I can't tell her not yet anyway.

  "Nothing's wrong Lex," I said softly I hated lying to her. I don't know
why because lie all the time.

   "Last year my dad took me out to go for a walk, I felt like getting out
the house and I forced him to come with me, as we were walking and talking
a racist ran up to us and shot him right in front of me and right then my
world was broken torn to pieces I felt like turning to the man and telling
him to shoot me, after that my dad died almost instantly I was ma at him
for leaving me, I tried to commit suicide but my mom caught me I took a lot
of therapy, I must admit it did some good but in my heart there is a void
that wants to be filled but cant. What I'm trying to say I kept things
bottled up inside but it did me no good you get what I'm saying," I was
taken back by what she had told me, this beauty had just sat there and
poured out her heart to me all these painful memories of hers she had
actually...

  "I'm sorry," was all I could make out because if I said any more I
would've started crying.

  "He was my world, I know I have my mom but he got me, he..." she sobbed.

  "Oh honey," I said I reached for her but she pushed me away. And this
hurt, omg it hurt soo bad. She got up and began to walk away.

  "Lex you wanna know what's wrong... well I...I'm in love," this made her
stop in her tracks. She turned around and sat down.

   "And it hurts so bad because I know they will never love me the way I
love them," I sobbed.

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Chapter 3: Opening doors

I couldn't believe my ears the girl who had almost driven me insane today
was in love with someone. The lucky mother fucker. And now it was time for
me to comfort the one I could never call my own. I pulled her towards me
and out my arms around her as she cried into my shoulder. I couldn't help
myself so I kissed her cheek. She didn't seem fazed by it her skin felt so
soft and beautiful. Her scent filled my nostrils and I felt kind of
intoxicated it was the most amazing feeling ever. I whispered sweet
nothings in her ear until she finally calmed down and removed herself from
my embrace, which kinda sucked.

  "Do you wanna come round to my house for dinner lawd knows I need the
company," I said in just the same way my father use to say to me.

   "Erm okay then, I just u know gotta holla at my mom," she said
laughing. She pulled out her self and had a very quick conversation with
her mom. While she did that I called up mom.

  "Hey mom can my friend come over for dinner... yeah from school..... Okay
mom no need to get too excited you make me sound like I'm on my J's all the
time..... Yeah but they don't need to know that ... iyt bye," I said
laughing and finally cutting the phone.

  "On your J's well not anymore," se said laughing and jumping up from the
bench. It is soo hard to believe this girl was actually crying a few
minuets ago.

  We laughed and talked on the walk back home or should I say run cause she
kept challenging me to races which she won which kinda sucked. We stumbled
in my house laughing, my mom rushed in because of the racket.

  "I see your home," she said leaning in the doorway of the kitchen.

  "Yes momma were home, this is Jay, from school," I said laughing at her
little act.

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I see where she got half her looks from. LOL. Not that I was checking her
mom out cause that would be totally wrong. I had my eyes on the beauty
ahead of me.

  "Mom I'm just gonna show her my room, then when dinners ready you can you
know holla," she said smiling. Dragging me up stairs.

   "Yeah hi to you to," her mom yelled after us laughing. Her room was
amazing, she had this really big poster of this really good looking man on
her wall.

  "Is he a rapper or something he is quite good looking," I said taking a
closer look.

  "That shorty is my dad, I got it done a while back," she said. I make
such a fool of myself sometime, and guess what hommies? This was one of
them. She looked at my expression and started to bust her teeth laughing. I
stared at her a little bit.

  "Come on girl you gotta admit that look was priceless," she said. When I
didn't laugh she moved over to me and started to tickle me and dang am I
ticklish. So here dis girl was laughing her ass of as I squirmed and
laughed (involuntarily). We landed on the bed she was on top of me still
laughing.

  "Stop...(laugh*)... girl you..(laugh some more*) goin make me choke to
death," I said. She finally got off me with this killer grin on her face.

  "Don't you feel much better?" she asked. Smiling looking like the angel
she was.

  "Nah girl ima have to get you back, might not be today or tomorrow but
ima get you back so best be watchin your back," I told her putting on my
evil grin.

        **********************************

Damn. How man time have I said that. Well it was definitely called for. She
had the sexiest grin on even the purest of peeps would get lusty
feelings. Shit dis girl had seriously messed me up. Opening all these doors
I never knew were there.

  "I've decide to actually join your basketball team," I told. Where the
fuck did that come from? Oh well its done.

   "Really.... I mean that's great with you and me together we'd be
unstoppable," she said looking up at the ceiling. I think she actually
zoned out on me.

   "Yo girl wake up," I said giggling snapping my fingers I front of her
face we looked at each other then started laughing.

         **********************************

Mrs McIntosh took the plates out as she thought to herself. "I am soo happy
she has a friend or maybe more than a friend, I saw the way that girl
looked at her when Lexy wasn't looking. And the way Lexy looked at her when
she wasn't looking. Who really is this girl opening extraordinary doors for
my daughter, either way I still love my daughter, our daughter," she
thought as she looked out the window at the sky.

     "Girls come down dinners ready," she yelled up at them. Few minuets
later they came rushing down.

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     You know we was actually getting somewhere I was moving closer to her
I was dis close to you know getting into the girls zone but she backed up
and den her momma called us down.

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    Jay was getting so close but I wasn't sure what she

was doing so I backed up you know. Then my mom saved me. She cooked my
favourite, spaghetti bolognaise. While we ate my mom quizzed us and we made
small talk then it went kind of silent then I could feel her eyes on
me. Why the fuck was this girl doing this to me man? I knew for she
couldn't be interested.

  The food on our plate disappeared fast. We cleaned then went back up to
my room to watch a video. I was searching for the right one.

  "Erm Jay you seem awfully silent," I said trying to make conversation.

       ************************************

You think. "Sorry I was you know thinking" I replied. She picked out You
Got Served and I love that movie. We sat and watched but I couldn't
concentrate with this hot girl sitting on a bed right next to me. Shit I
was definitely fucked up.

Chapter 4: Kiss and Run

The weeks went by and we got really close my friends, (who know I'm gay)
started to notice as well.

  "Shit girl you really sprung this time," Jackie my best friend said as we
sat on the grass during our free period.

  "Girl sprung aint the word to describe the way she makes me feel," I told
her.

   "Well why don't you tell her that?" she said looking at me. Now I love
Jackie really I do but hommie can be so dumb some times.

  "Hold up, you really like this hot girl yeah, I know you not gay but just
listen, you like this girl who you don't know if she is straight or gay and
you just up and tell her," I said. Now she looked really confused.

  "Oh shit I never told you, well erm.... I kinda realised a few weeks ago
... that I'm gay too, please don't hate me for not telling you but... I was
confused," she said really fast. Girl was babbling girl always babbles when
she's scared. And I know this is not a nice thing to do but I burst out
laughing.

  "Girl it's cool as long as I'm the first to know, I am the first to know
right?" I said raising my eyebrow.

  "Of course," she said hugging me.

   "Hey," a voice I knew too well, said walking up to us. I turned around
and saw Lex and damn was girl looking finer than ever, I swear this girl
get more beautiful everyday, I don't know if that's possible but that's how
I see it. I could see Jackie grinning out the corner of my eye which made
me real nervous.

  "See you later girl," she said jumping up and grabbing her bag before I
could protest.

  "Hey girl, take a seat," I told her patting the grass I tried to sound as
cool as possible and believe it or not I managed to pull it off.

  "I was wondering if you wanted to come round my house after school and
stay for dinner." I asked her. She had an unsure look on her face.

  "I cant because I need to tell my mom and well I have no way to contact
her so maybe if I go home and tell her today I could come round tomorrow,"
she said smiling. No way was girl getting out of it that easy.

  "Here," I said handing her my phone. "Just call her." She looked down at
my hand I could tell she was ramming her brain for excuses. Why was girl
trying to avoid me? She seemed to notice the determined look on my
face. She let out a sigh and began dialling the number.

  "Hey momma.... no nothing's wrong its just Jay asked me if I could come
round after school and stay for dinner so I just wanted to ask you if that
was cool..... You sure you don't need me..... Yeah okay, so what time you
want me to be back.... No I won't be staying that long I'll be back by nine
okay..... Yeah I will iyt love you bye." The she handed me the phone. I
couldn't help smile because I had a feeling tonight would be very
interesting.

     *********************************

 Shit my life is over. Firstly because I'm gonna be spending the whole day
with this irresistible chocolate honey who as in love with someone else and
plus I'm gonna be meeting her parents shit I'm nervous.

  School went really fast which for once was really disappointing she was
waiting for me in her car, I got in and we drove in silence. She had this
fixed smile on her. I wonder what was on girls mind. We stopped at her
house which was really pretty.

  "No cars no ones home I guess," she said to herself just loud enough so
that I can hear. We got in and she led me straight to her room. We sat on
her bed and talked.

  "So what do you want to be when you're older," she asked.

  "My dreams or what I know I'm gonna end up doing," I replied. I think she
noticed the sadness in my voice. Whoops she probably thinks I'm a depressed
mother fucker.

  "Your dreams," she said softly. She was looking at me intently those
gorgeous brown eyes staring at me.

  "I want to sing, I love sing, singing is my passion," I told her. She
smiled this.

  "I guess we have some thing in common because I want to become a big
female rap star like missy, or eve," I said smiling. "Why don't you sing
for me," I said smiling. I could see her shift uncomfortablely. "Don't
worry its just you and me here," I said smiling then she started and lemme
tell y'all it took my breath away her voice was mesmerizing. Check it.

Why. Why can't I make this pain go away?

I love you but I just don't have it in me to say

How you make me feel,

When I look in your eyes,

How it makes me cry,

Knowing you don't love me, like I love you.

I just stared at her, because she had officially and literally taken my
breath away.

  "Jay now it's your turn," she said smiling.

  "Iyt lemme make a sequel okay," I said smiling back.



One day you will,

But you don't know how you make me feel

When I look into ure eyes how make cry sometimes I feel like im gonna die

Cause I cant have you the way I want you, I know now I was born to,

Love you. and now this is my que.

Then I leaned forward and I kissed her. What was I doing? I don't know. Her
lips felt so soft and I felt a jolt of electricity soar through my
body. Then I was brought back down to earth. I pulled away and I kinda
flipped.

  "I'm soo sorry, please don't be mad, but from the day I saw I've wanted
to do that, you are soo beautiful and I understand if you don't want to see
me again," I said. Tears were streaming down my face as I turned away. (I
hate people seeing me cry.) Then I felt her touch my shoulder, I turned and
next thing I knew her lips were on mine, so tender and sweet. Forget
heaven, this was heaven and she was an angel, my angel :D. I felt the tip
of her tongue press against my lips and I opened my mouth inviting it
in. Damn it felt so good as her tongue explored my mouth. Then she froze,
she pulled away got her stuff and ran out soo fast it was almost like a
dream. I was dazed. I just sat there tears streaming down my face. Where
had I gone wrong?

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   I was running as fast as my legs could carry me. What had I done? I was
so stupid. For what deed you ask?  Running she must be soo pissed of at
me. But I couldn't believe it was happening and I just ran so I could get
away from her before I woke up so it wouldn't hurt so badly. But it still
did. Wait hold up she's in love with some one so why the fuck did she kiss
me? Is she trying to use me like every other friend I've made. I didn't
notice I was home already I looked at the time and I saw it was five-thirty
I ran upstairs and slumped on my bed breaking down in tear.

  "Honey, are you okay?" my mom said knocking on the door.

  "Go away you would never understand," I said raising my head from my
pillow so she could hear me and go away. She opened the door and walked
slowly in. Gosh woman what part of go away doesn't she get. Sigh*

  "I know you love her, and I'm okay with it I just want to know what
happened," my mom whispered. I looked at her and let out a sigh I should've
known better than to keep it hidden from my mom.

  "She told me a few weeks back she was deeply in love with someone and she
knew they love her back then today, girl kissed me and messed me up real
bad because I really love her but she loves someone else so why the fuck is
she messing with my head," I said breaking down in tears. My mom gathered
me into her arms.

     "Have you thought that you were the one she was in love you," she
whispered. I stared at my mom and I don't know why but I started to get
mad. And I think she sensed it.

  "Look mom I know you want me to feel better but don't start messing with
my head, I'm tired of people telling me what they think I want to hear,
where the fuck is my father when I need him," I said storming out not
before grabbing my side bag. I went to the park were I poured my heart out
to Jay the time I saw her.

Stop. Stop messing with my head yeah

If you don't love me like I love you

Stop messing with my head

I know the truth hurts but tell me the truth

And stop messing with my head.

I wrote on my note pad that's all I could get down before I burst out
crying.

   "Hey, we really need to stop meeting like this," a hoarse voice said
behind me I knew who it was so I didn't turn around.

   "Go away Jay. Shit. Why the fuck are you doing this to me? I was so
stupid to actually think you wanted me, but why would you want someone as
ugly and as boring as me, look just go tell the person in love with cause
you're really beautiful and they probably love you too," I said
sobbing. She touched my shoulder and I flinched and sharply stood up and
started to run.

           ********************************

Shit. I couldn't believe my ears. I deal with that later because she aint
getting away from me that easily. I ran after she was pretty hard to keep
up with she looked back and I hid behind the tree. The she sat down on the
grass and sobbed.

  "Girl, please stop crying, it breaks my heart to see you cry," I said
approaching her from behind. She jumped up and stared at me tears streaming
down her face.

  "Jay, why won't you leave me the fuck alone, and stop messing with my
head. Shit.  I don't need your sympathy friendship I've done fine on my own
for the past 17 years okay. So fuck off," she yelled slumping down on the
grass. I must say this girl was truly sexy when she was mad. I know what
you're thinking that how the hell can I be thinking that in a situation
like this, well hell I dunno.

  "Why won't I leave you alone you ask? I'll tell you why, because girl you
drive me crazy, when I'm with you it takes all my will power not to kiss
you and it hurts and when I'm not you are on my mind 24/7 and I can't think
of nothing else, you want me to tell who I love then fine, Lex I love you
and now you know I'm not messing with your head you are actually playing
with my heart," I told her letting out a sigh and slumping down next to her
on the grass.

 "Why? Why do you love me? How can you love someone as ug..."

   "Shut up. Girl I never wanna here you say that again, and I love you
because you are so beautiful in an innocent way and I love you because you
make me feel (as corny as this sound its true) complete," I said looking
deeply into her hazel eyes and I saw she was on the verge of tears. I
kissed her tears away then finally I kissed her and it felt so right
because she kissed me back this time I was first to get my tongue and I
used it to explore her mouth and encircle her tongue as we kissed I felt
myself getting wet and I pulled away for air. She giggled.

   "We better stop, before we that old couple a heart attack," she said
dragging me by hand pulling me up. I walked her home when we got to her
front door she turned around to speak, but I cover her mouth with my
lips. What can I say I've wanted to do it for ages. We engaged in a kiss
that was getting more passionate by the second.

   "Stop girl or you gonna make me have to take a seriously cold shower," I
said pulling away and winking at her. She giggled and kissed me one more
time before entering her door and smiling at me and closing it. I'm sprung
I hummed to my self. LOL.

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No way had that just happened to me. I leaned against the front door and
smiled to myself.

  "I see you two finally got your act together," she said smiling leaning
in the kitchen door way. I saw her eyes were red and I felt so bad because
she was right.

  "Oh momma I'm soo sorry," I said rushing into her arms.

  "Honey, I know you miss your daddy, I do too," she said hugging.

  I ran to my room and... And cried. What? Why am I crying she loves
me. Then I realised I missed her.

  "Honey pick up the phone in your room someone's one the phone for you,"
my mom yelled up at me. I'd been so deep in thought I hadn't heard it ring.

  "Hello," I said wondering who would be calling.

  "Hey baby," Jay said on the other end. My heart felt like it had just
leapt out of my chest from the sound of her voice on the other end it
sounded very husky and sexy. I still couldn't believe she wanted me.

  "How did you get my number?" I asked her smiling to myself that she had
actually got it.

  "Well you called your house on my phone so I just checked call register
and saved it," she said laughing. I smiled to myself. "Girl, what you
smiling about," asked me laughing some more.

  "What can you see me or something?" I asked suddenly get self conscious.

   "Sit your cute lil behind down I'm just imagining what you would be
doing in my mind," she said giggling.

   "Your laugh, its really beautiful," I said letting out a sigh.

   "What?" she said sounding really confused. Talk about dumb. Lol.

  "You asked why I was smiling and I said it's because your laugh is really
beautiful," I told her softly.

  "Thank you baby," she said. "You know I ended u taking a cold shower,"
she told me, laughing this really infectious talk about being sprung.

   "Well next time don't get too into it," I said giggling.

   "Hey baby please can you sing to me?" she asked really softly that I
wasn't sure if I heard right.

   "Okay," I whispered.

You know you are my star. Yes you are.
Through darkness your light shines through
I don't know what I'd do, without you, my boo.
I don't want go another day without you by my side
My rod and my staff girl you are my second half.

   "That's all I can think of right now," I said to her. "Now rap for me
baby," I said giggling.

   "Iyt just for you but you know I don't give away free shows," she said
sly. I knew what she was getting at.

   "Oh don't worry baby, you aint giving it for free... I just sang to
you," I laughed.

   "Iyt," she said I could tell she was smiling.

When I close my eyes and go to bed at night,
It seems, you keep infecting my dreams,
Now I've never seen a beauty like you
And I believe, its my duty to you,
That you never have to wait on me,
Cause any one should see
You're the one for me,
Now this aint no democracy or controversy,
But it kinda bothers me
When I cant hold you close,
And when I kiss you, I always want another dose.

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When I finished I felt like crying I wanted her lips I wanted her soo bad.

  "I know I want to kiss you too," Lex's voice said on the other end of the
phone. I need to change the subject before I end up crying again.

  "So basket ball squad tryouts you ready?" I asked her. Smiling because I
knew she was.

   "Girl you know ima wipe the floor with there face," she said laughing
which sounded like music to my ears.

  "Anyway I gotta go baby, see ya tomorrow then the phone cut," Damn. That
night I slept with thoughts of her, I hummed the song she first sang
me. Bringing back the memories of her beautiful soulful voice.

Well that's all y'all don't forget to send comments. I'll reply.

 I'll write part 2 as soon as I receive comments. :D devilish aint I.