Date: Thu, 28 Jul 2005 02:14:55 +0000
From: Amy Jenkins <jenkinsamy@hotmail.com>
Subject: My Life (and other disasters) Chapter 2

TWO MONTHS LATER

     Ok, ok I know I've gotten a little ahead of myself in this story but
ill fill you in on my glorious 2 months with my baby, that is up until
today. Well for one Samantha turned to me one day in math class, when I was
taking my usual nap, and told me she had very strong feelings for me. Ever
since then we have been a couple, right up until her father noticed we were
more than friends and didn't want her seeing me anymore. That man broke my
heart and dear Samantha's, yet he doesn't know what pain he has caused
either one of us. Ok here is how it was.

     Samantha was on my way to our school, since I had moved and no longer
needed the bus. I found out she never really did need to take the bus, and
she only did for me, which was heartwarming to discover. Her parents were
both gone to work, so we had the house to ourselves. I opened the door and
went on in since no one was home anyway.

     "Samantha! Where are you?" I asked in a hurry since I already knew I
was last for school.

     "Up here.." Samantha exclaimed from the upstairs.

     I had noticed that she had a sort of sad tone in her voice as I raced
up the stairs, I knew something was wrong. I walked into that familiar room
and a new fragrance. And there she was, drying her beautiful silky hair. I
walked in the room, with the largest smile on my face, which she had put
there for months, and she knew it.

     "New shampoo?"I asked, smelling the unfamiliar smell.

     "Yeah.." she replied looking up at me with those puppy-dog eyes.

     I sensed something was wrong, honestly did she take my for a fool? I
knew this girl more then the back of my hand, and everything I knew, I
loved. When she looked up at me her eyes were red and puffy, as if someone
was crying.

     "What's wrong????" I asked.

     "Nothing, please just never mind, I'll explain it to you this
afternoon. If you really love me Crystal, you will wait until this afternoon
so I can explain to you the truth, ok?"

     "Sure..." I said, still in shock.

     We never spoke the whole walk to school which was a mile.

     I wanted to ask her but I remembered her words `if you really love
me..' and I did, I did with all my heart, she is the only girl, or person in
fact, that I would jump in front of a bullet for. I just walked silently,
stealing loving glances at my baby, I knew she was in pain, but I just
didn't know how to help her. I wished I could. When I think about it I may
have been more careful around her parents, but how can you leave her alone?
I found it nearly impossible not to be speaking to her, touching, kissing,
just feeling her next to me. When we got to school I handed her back her
bookbag which I was caring, kissed her on her cheek and walked away. Before
I left I made sure I said "I love you" in her left ear, which made her
shudder. The whole day was nearly impossible, having Samantha sit right next
to me in most of my classes, and we were locker neighbors. I just wanted to
know the truth. To be honest with you I felt like shaking her and shaking
her until she told me so I could make it better for her. I hated seeing her
in pain, when she was in pain I was in the same pain only doubled. She was
my angel and I was her protector, not in this case though which depressed me
a little. Finally, we met up at our lockers and she passed me a crumbled up
piece of white paper.

     "Im so sorry, I want you to know I will always love you, and we will
work out this, somehow. There is no way I will leave you, never. You're my
world baby and I love you, just rememebr that for me, please?"

     I couldn't speak, I was flabbergasted. While she was walking away, she
kissing her long and hard, but soft. I will love you so much, always will.
She kissed my forehead and I felt her sobbing. She then walked away leaving
me so shocked as ever. As I walked home I started to unfold this piece of
paper. I can still remember every word from it, it read;
To my dear baby,

      I know you love me and you should know I love you, with all my heart.
I would never dream of not being with you, that is why it kills me to write
you this letter. You came to my house this morning and you saw me crying,
this is why I was crying and yes I was. The whole day I tried to imagine my
life without you, and I just couldn't. I had to face the facts, its either
im with you or im just not here, I need you baby. Always and forever. I will
miss you so much if you take this letter the wrong way. Remember I love you
and I don't want to break up with you, that is the last thing I want, but my
parents have noticed us. The way we are more then friendly to each other,
the way we touch and hug and cuddle. They had a long talk with me last
night. I was crying then also and they said I was too young to be gay or in
love. They didn't believe me when I said you're the one and only person or
girl for me. I love you so much, don't ever forget it. My father had banned
me from seeing you, he Is still letting me go the brooksworth so I guess I
would still see you there. He said you aren't allowed to come to my house,
or me over to your house. Baby I love you so much and I don't want to lose
you, it would be like losing a diamond. You're my precious jewel. We can
still she each other. I wouldnt have it any other way. You mean so much to
me, I don't know how we are going to work through this and we will have to
be very clever, because ... I need you. Im sorry this letter is so long, I
poured my heart and soul into it, and you. I love you, all you you, and your
eery flaw also. When you see this please don't call me, I wish you could but
my parents are home. Write me a letter and we will talk tomorrow in school.
I love you so much, never forget it.

     I was in shock. I was banned from seeing the only thing that mattered
in the whole world to me? What would I do? What do I say? How do I fix this
problem? So many questions, so very few answers. I came up with the
conclusion, I wrote it in my letter...I know I love her, she knows it too,
thankfully.

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