Date: Wed, 25 Aug 1999 12:42:10 +0100
From: "J. Ocean" <jocean@slip.net>
Subject: My Sixteenth Summer

Part 1

The summer I turned 16, I was still very innocent. I was staying with my
uncle John in Los Angeles for the summer. John had been married to my
father's sister, but she passed away several years ago. The only person who
shared the house with John was my cousin Tracy, who was 18 and had just
graduated from high school.
They had a fantastic, huge house with a swimming pool and tennis courts and
all of that stuff, so I was really psyched to be staying there. Uncle John
worked long hours so most days it would be just Tracy and me, and usually
Tracy's best friend Kimiko.

Tracy, being a couple years older and from L.A., was a lot more worldly
than me and I worshipped and envied her. She was incredibly popular at
school because she was smart and funny, and oh yeah, insanely gorgeous: a
classic California-girl face and beautiful light brown hair cut in a chic
style. She worked out a lot and her body was flawless-chest big but not too
big, a narrow waist, nice hips. Though Tracy was smaller than me, about
5'5'', she projected an air of power that made her seem much bigger. I
guess that probably had a little to do with how popular she was, too.

Most days that summer Tracy, Kimiko and I just hung out by the pool. At
first we'd put on our bikinis and lay around, reading, listening to music,
painting our nails, soaking up the sun. Tracy and Kimiko talked a lot about
things I didn't know much about, so mostly I was just quiet and tried to
follow what they were saying. I was happy that they just let me be there
with them; they both looked so great, tan and lean and sculpted. They
looked so much more together and hip than I did-Tracy wore a gold ring in
her navel, and Kimiko had this really amazing dragon tattoo on her back.

Kimiko was (obviously) Japanese-American but she wasn't petite, she was an
athletic 5'7''. Her bikini showed off the fact that she was in shape and
well-built. In her own way, she was every bit as beautiful as Tracy. I
quickly came to look up to and envy her also.

I wasn't bad-looking myself, I realize now, but I was younger and still
pretty self-conscious. I wasn't fat but I was carrying a few extra pounds
that felt like a lot to me. My clothes weren't as nice as theirs either;
all I had for the pool was my green-and-white-striped bikini that my mom
had bought me, which was nice enough, but nothing like the designer suits
Tracy and Kimiko wore.

Also, I hadn't had sex yet and felt very unsophisticated; I had let boys
feel me up but hadn't gone any further, shy and afraid of getting pregnant
or catching something--basically just afraid. Tracy and Kimiko never talked
about the specifics of their sex lives with me around, but they seemed like
they knew everything and had done everything there was to do.

It was very hot that summer; heat shimmered in waves across the surface of
the concrete by the pool. It felt right, though. It was a privileged and
glamorous setting and I couldn't have been happier. I felt different than
I'd ever felt before in a way that excited me--it felt like big things were
going to happen that would bring me closer to adulthood. In retrospect, it
was a very sexually charged atmosphere-everything Tracy and Kimiko did was
very sensual and aware, and the poolside setting felt so decadent, like
every possible pleasure was available to us.

The older girls would drink and get high, while I always declined (until
later...). Then they'd lay back in their chairs and close their eyes, sucking
blissfully on a lollipop. I'd only been there a week or so when they
started going topless. The grounds of the house were huge and they were
fenced and wooded all around anyway, so there was no chance of anyone
spying on them, but I was still a bit shocked that they felt so comfortable
exposing so much of themselves.

Though it shouldn't have been a big deal, it did make me a little nervous
to have them walking around half-naked. Partly because I was too shy to
join them--even though Tracy would say, "Come on, Morgan, there's no guys
around. It's just us girls, we can be relaxed with each other," and she and
Kimiko would laugh mischievously--but also partly because I found myself
looking at them more than I thought I should have. I had never realized
before just how beautiful a girl's breasts can be, but I kept sneaking
peeks at Tracy and Kimiko's, glistening with fine beads of sweat in the hot
sun. Sometimes their nipples would be hard and one time I caught Kimiko
almost absent-mindedly stroking one nipple as she reclined with her eyes
closed, making it harder and taller.
I looked down at my own tits, my nipples now poking out a little bit from
my top, and thought about how nice it might feel to play with them like
that. I didn't, though. Maybe later, in private.

I realize now that though I was spending a lot of time with Tracy and
Kimiko they were really leading different lives from me. They were so much
more grown up-they would get wasted and crazy and disappear for long
stretches of time. They went out a lot at night and left me at home. Of
course it's only natural that they wouldn't want to have me around all the
time, but I desperately wanted to be included in everything they did. I
tried my best to be cool and not clingy, and hoped they would eventually
let me in on some of their secrets.


Part 2

I would be a lot quicker to pick up on it now, of course, but it took a
long time to dawn on me then that something more was going on with Tracy
and Kimiko than I knew about. The first inkling I got was this one day when
we were fooling around shooting water pistols at each other. Tracy snuck up
behind Kimiko and nailed her real good, spraying her face and chest with
water. Kimiko took off after her yelling and chased her across the yard.
Finally Kimiko caught Tracy and tackled her, pinning her on her back on the
grass. She straddled Tracy and held her wrists down, then broke into a big
wide smile.

Slowly Kimiko leaned down until her naked breasts were pressing against
Tracy's and the two were quiet for a moment, catching their breath. Tracy
got this weird look on her face as she stared up at Kimiko, who had her
helpless there with her full weight on her. Finally Tracy said, very
quietly, "Cut it out, Kim." Kimiko didn't do or say anything. After awhile
Tracy said, even more quietly-as if she didn't quite mean it-"C'mon, Kim,
let me go. Quit kidding around."

Kimiko let go of her wrists and got off her, the two girls stood up, and
that was that. But it was a strange, electric moment that really stood out
in my mind. That night as I lay in bed I pictured them there on the ground,
trying to figure out what the unspoken message was that was passing between
them. I had a very clear mental image of the way their breats had been
mashed together, causing them to seem to spill out around the sides, and
suddenly I realized that I was playing with my nipples, bringing them to a
state of tremendous excitement. Usually I would have stopped right then but
it felt so good, and I felt like I was someone else watching me rub my
palms against my breasts and roll my nipples between my fingers. I was
tingling and hot from head to toe. I ran one hand through my pubic hair,
and was surprised to hear myself let out a little moan. Suddenly I felt
very self-conscious and I put my hands under my pillow and kept them there.
I slept very restlessly that night.

It wasn't long after that that Tracy and Kimiko decided that they didn't
want any tan lines at all, and started sunbathing completely nude. This of
course made me very nervous-I had undressed with other girls in the locker
room, but never had I spent such an extended period of time with naked
people. I tried to avert my eyes as much as possible but I couldn't help
but catch glimpses of Tracy's abundant brown pubic curls and Kimiko's
sparser, neater black bush. To be honest , after a while I didn't try that
hard to avoid those glimpses-I was captivated by their fully exposed beauty
at the same time I was unnerved by it.

They started teasing me about being such a prude. I had to admit, I looked
kind of silly there in my department-store bikini while they calmly
strolled around in the altogether looking so beautiful and free. I knew
that I would have to start growing up a little bit if I wanted them to
respect me. And I was getting to the point where the idea of showing myself
to Tracy and Kimiko excited me a little bit. OK, a lot.

You have to remember that I had built up all this sexual tension-throughout
the summer, and throughout my life-but I had no way of releasing it. I
didn't even masturbate; I knew that people did, but I had never done it to
myself. Thinking about it now, I'm amazed that I got even a few weeks into
the summer without exploding. At some point all this tension I was building
up started to overcome my natural shyness.

So one morning, while Tracy was in the middle of giving me shit about being
so modest, I reached back, unhooked my top, and tossed it away. "Happy
now?" I said, and sat back.

Tracy was suddenly quiet. She looked over at my excited but a little shaky
smile, then her eyes moved down to stare unabashedly at my chest. She
pulled down her sunglasses to get a better look. Out of the corner of my
eye I could see that Kimiko was doing the same.

Nobody said anything. Uh-oh, I thought to myself, what have I done? Had I
overstepped myself by trying to get on to their level? Did they not like
what they saw?

Kimiko broke the silence. "Jesus, Morgan," she said in a low voice. "I
can't believe you've been keeping those hidden."

I looked down at myself and saw that my nipples had stiffened and were
jutting out more than I'd ever seen them before. I also noticed that,
without my really noticing it or thinking about it, my breasts had gotten a
good bit bigger in recent months. I realized in a flash that not only might
I be in Tracy and Kimiko's league, but in this one department I might even
surpass them. I flushed with pride and relief.

"Damn, cuz," said Tracy, "you've got a couple of monsters there." We all
laughed and reclined, and just like that I had taken a big step into the
future.


Part 3

It was a particularly  breezy and beautiful day, and in the afternoon I
fell into a very peaceful slumber by the poolside. I woke up about 4:00 and
nobody was around. Tracy and Kimiko had gone off somewhere to do something,
which wasn't unusual. I was a little disappointed, but still felt pretty
good from the morning, so I decided to go inside to get something to drink.

As I walked I noticed that Tracy's car was still in the driveway. That
meant they were probably lounging around up in Tracy's room. When I got to
the kitchen I heard a noise from upstairs. I was struck by a sudden impulse
to spy on them. That was not like me at all, but I felt suddenly empowered,
and madly curious to see what kinds of things Tracy and Kimiko did when I
wasn't around.

I crept quietly up the stairs and into the hall. I could hear voices coming
from Tracy's room. Thanks to the design of the house, I had a good angle
from which to approach without being seen. I heard Tracy giggle. Her door
was wide open. Hidden in the darkness of a doorway, I peered around a
corner into my cousin's room.

It took me a second to make out what I was seeing there. The shades were
all drawn and it was dim despite the brightness of the day. At first all I
saw was a black blur moving slowly in the distance. But as my eyes came
into focus I saw that Tracy was sprawled out on this big overstuffed chair
in the corner of her room. Her head was back and her arms were akimbo. The
blur that I'd seen was Kimiko's head moving as her tongue traced back and
forth across Tracy's crotch.

I wanted to flee instantly but I was riveted to what I saw. Every detail
seared itself into my mind. The black of Kimiko's long hair was now
sunbleached and soft. Her dragon tattoo writhed across her shoulder blade
and her earrings jingled as she darted her tongue repeatedly into Tracy's
pussy, provoking quiet moans from my cousin. Tracy was naked expect for her
socks, which were short and powder blue, pulled tightly against Kimiko's
brown back. Kimiko's hands, long-fingered with pink nails, moved to spread
Tracy's lips, opening them up to reveal a bright and vivid pink that
matched the shade of the fingernail polish. Kimiko's tongue thrust inside,
its soft pink blending in with the other pinks already there. I followed
the movement of Tracy's navel ring as her belly rose and fell in time with
Kimiko's head.

I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Suddenly Tracy lifted her head up,
opened her eyes, and looked right at me. I froze. I hadn't thought they'd
be able to see me here in the shadows, but now I wasn't so sure. Would she
freak out at my having spied on her? I wouldn't blame her.

Instead she looked away from me and put her hands behind Kimiko's head,
pulling Kimiko's face in tightly against her crotch. Tracy sighed
contentedly and closed her eyes again, leaning back as Kimiko continued to
work eagerly on her cunt.

Pussy, cunt-I never used to say those words at the time, though I'm
certainly used to them now. But those were the words that made sense with
what I was seeing. There was an animal passion passing between the two of
them that frightened and excited me.

I ran immediately to my room, locked the door and drew the blinds. It was
steaming hot in there, I was sweating and my head was swimming, all sorts
of mixed-up emotions pounding through it. Without really thinking what I
was doing, I pulled off my bikini bottom and lay down on my back on the
bed, just trying to cool out. That same image kept coming back to me-Kimiko
exploring Tracy's most intimate place with her tongue. I knew that girls
sometimes had sex with each other, but my cousin? Here and now? It was all
too strange and the strangest part was that I wasn't appalled; I was
fascinated.

As I pictured the two of them together, I realized that I had started
fingering myself. I was extremely moist and sticky down there. I usually
didn't do this but it felt so good, I couldn't stop. I just got wetter as I
continued stroking myself, feeling my fingers move up inside. I drove
myself into a frenzy and rubbed harder and harder until suddenly I felt
like I had been lit up by a flash of lightning. Everything went white and
little pinpricks of tingling pleasure spread out all over my body. I let
out a long breath and stretched out on the bed, spent.

I hid out in my room the rest of that day, feeling too shy and confused to
be seen. After a while I fell asleep and then woke again, feeling
delirious. Images flashed through my head-Kimiko and Tracy again, but this
time I was with them, between them, my naked flesh pressed against theirs.
I fingered myself again and fell asleep again.


...the long-delayed conclusion...

Part 4

I passed the whole night like that-sleeping, waking, masturbating,
sleeping-and finally I saw that the sun was out and knew that I was awake
for real this time. I opened my eyes and stood up. Without thinking about
it I walked to the door that led to the small balcony off my room. I opened
it and stepped through onto the balcony. The sunlight hit my naked body
with a physical force, warming and energizing me; my eyes were blinded.

I stood there for awhile and only when my eyes adjusted to the light did I
remember that this balcony faced the pool. Tracy and Kimiko were below,
sitting nude on their beach chairs, staring up at me. Instead of being
bothered by this, I felt completely calm. I just stood there soaking up the
sunlight and their stares.

The whole thing was like a beautiful dream, like I was simultaneously
myself and watching from far away, like I knew every step of the way
exactly what was going to happen next. I walked back inside and put on my
sunglasses. Then I went down the stairs and out to the pool. I walked over
to the third beach chair that sat opposite Tracy and Kimiko and sat down.
Fixing my gaze alternately on each girl, I slowly spread my legs as wide as
they would go. I followed the girls' eyes as they drifted down to my crotch
area and locked there. Closing my eyes, I leaned back and started fingering
myself.

Time disappeared; all that existed for me was the warm sunlight on my skin
and the pleasure I was giving myself, and that I was getting from knowing
that Tracy and Kimiko were near, watching me.

At last I opened my eyes. The girls were standing over me. Tracy leaned
down and kissed me; I felt Kimiko's warm mouth against my ear.

Tracy's tongue slid into my mouth as I felt Kimiko kiss her way down my
neck. She closed her lips around one of my nipples as Tracy moved to suck
on the other. Such an exquisite sensation; I've felt it many times since
then but never like that.

They licked and sucked all around my tits as I sighed in rapture and
watched their heads bob up and down. That alone would have been enough but
I knew more was coming.

Tracy returned to gently biting my neck, slipping her tongue into my ear,
kissing my eyes and forehead and lips. Kimiko traced a line down my chest
to my navel, which she spent a long time exploring, kissing all around it,
sliding her lips across the soft flesh of my belly. Her tongue glided over
my hipbones and down into my mound.

As I reached up to stroke Tracy's soft brown hair I felt Kimiko's warm
hands between my legs. Her fingers were on my thighs, opening them. Then
she spoke, the first thing anyone had said this whole time. Her voice was
hoarse and husky and halting with passion. "Trace," she said. "Trace, come
see how wet she is."

Tracy stood up and walked around my chair to where Kimiko was. I closed my
eyes and lay back to receive the pleasure I knew I was about to receive.

When I think about it now, I picture it as if I'm looking down on us from
above. I'm laying back, back arched, hands clenching the sides of the
chair, one leg on Tracy's shoulder and one on Kimiko's. They tease me by
kissing and biting my inner thighs, then begin eating my pussy, tenderly at
first and then with increasing fervor. I'm bucking and moaning and they
have me coming inside a minute, but this only spurs them on. They stop
their ministrations only long enough to turn and kiss each other--a long,
wet, open-mouthed kiss.

I didn't see any of this, of course, because my eyes were closed, and at
some point I left my body. I was floating in the stratosphere on a bed of
cool and misty air. The sky was clear and blue but periodically a lightning
bolt would arc down from above and sizzle through me, making everything go
white and hot.

I don't know how long it was before I opened my eyes and returned to the
poolside, but when I did I was looking up into Kimiko's big brown eyes. She
gave me a wide, conspiratorial smile and then I was blind again, because
she had climbed up to straddle my head. It was like a warm, moist,
sweet-smelling shadow moving over me as she lowered her crotch to just
inches from my face.

To this day this is one of my favorite moments in any sexual encounter,
when the pussy is just waiting there in front of you. You take a deep
breath, savoring the aroma and the moment, anticipating what she's going to
taste like and how she's going to react.

Back then I didn't know quite what to do, but I knew I wanted to make
Kimiko happy, so I dove in and did my best. I won't even attempt to
describe what she tasted like; words would never suffice. Equally
delightful was the shiver I felt run through her as my tongue penetrated
her. She put her hands on my breasts and rode me, grinding her cunt down
onto my face. I felt Tracy's hands on my thighs as she spread me wider,
driving her tongue deeper inside me.

We all moaned and heaved as one. Kimiko put her full weight down on top of
me, her mouth joining Tracy's, sending me still higher as I devoured her
pussy, frenzied now with the taste and the smell and the feel of her. For a
long time we remained locked together like that, until finally, by unspoken
agreement, the three of us separated and lay back, sweating and panting and
quiet. It only lasted a moment, though, till Tracy spoke up. "Let's go
upstairs," she said.

So we did, up to Tracy's room. She put on some music and looked over at me.
I looked back. Our relationship and had a big turn in the last hour, and it
was weird, but it was great too. She had never looked so beautiful. Her
hair was tousled, her nipples erect, her skin glistening with fine beads of
sweat. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Kimiko lay down on the bed,
watching us, but I forgot about her for the moment.

I walked over and kissed Tracy hard on the lips, then moved down to her
neck and shoulders. I pursed my lips to taste her nipples and opened my
mouth as far as it would go to encompass her breasts. She sighed and
stroked my hair. It was like I was I different person than I had been the
day before. There was no shame or embarrassment in me as I dropped to my
knees, kissing my way down her belly and burying my face in her bush. God,
I thought, how long I've wanted to do this and not wanted to think about
it. I nuzzled in between her legs and ran my tongue lightly across her
labia.

Tracy moved away from me, smiling. She laid down on the chair, that same
chair where I'd seen her with Kimiko the day before. She spread her legs
and beckoned me to come over. I crawled over to her and, suddenly hungry,
pressed my mouth to her pussy. I ate Tracy till my mouth was sore, then
took a deep breath and did it some more, feeling her nails dig into my
shoulder, watching her navel ring shake as she quivered. I felt something
warm on my ear and turned to see Kimiko smiling at me. I kissed and we both
ran our tongues slowly across Tracy's crotch, drawing a loud and delicious
groan from her.

The three of us spent the rest of the afternoon rolling around in a soft,
wet, sticky pile. Things were different after that.