Date: Sun, 18 Jan 2009 23:08:35 +0000
From: Queen Velvet <black.velvet.box@live.co.uk>
Subject: Past Experiences: Past experiences 1

This is a story about my first love, I will write more of my life
experiences in time and share them. Feedback will be dearly appreciated and
I will write back.


My First Love


I was only 16 at the time and I enjoyed going to clubs with my older
friends. Though I was clearly underage somehow I always managed to blag my
way in without needing fake Id, besides I was only two years away from the
legal age. With so many places to go in London we would often move from
club to club during one night depending on our mood.

One night me, Kiara, Tanya and Sarah decided to go to a new jazz bar that
had recently opened. It was very classy and had a nice atmosphere.

Me and Tanya were the only gay ones in our group, Sarah was bi and Kiara
was straight but sometimes experimented when she was drunk. I had always
had a crush on Sarah since we met, she was one of those girls that everyone
had a secret crush on, and with her being bi she could literally have
anyone she wanted.

I remember a time we were at a friend's party and we sneaked into a
room. We were both very horny and hot for each other, we were kissing
frantically not carng if anyone saw us, heavy breathing and lots of
touching. The pace started to pick up and i pushed her against the wall, I
love to dominate like that. I pulled her in closer and grabbed her
arse. Her hands were on my tit's then she dived for my neck and bit me a
few times, the feeling was so intense I let out a loud moan. I was getting
very wet, I had fantasised about Sarah so many times and how I wanted to
fuck her and make her cum really hard. This was it. It was happening. We
were grinding our pussies against each others legs and our moans got louder
as we got wetter. Before i realised it my hands were sliding under her
shirt, her skin was so smooth and soft. To my devastation, a bunch of
stoner guys stumbled into the room holding a big smoke pipe and they asked
if they could hide in the room, they even offered to share some with us but
I would have preferred to be sucking on sweet Sarah's pussy.

We had kissed a few times the night at the jazz bar but I started realising
the connection she had with Tanya. They were flirting and rubbing each
others legs the whole time. Seeing the two of them together killed me, the
girl I was falling in love with clearly had eyes for someone else.

A few drinks later they were all over each other as my jealously
grew. Kiara could clearly see the pain on my face and went to talk to some
guys that had bought her a drink earlier (she hates awkward
situations). The past few weeks before that night Sarah would always tell
me how much she liked me, she would always send me cute texts and have long
kissing sessions when ever we met up. We never had sex because something
always seemed to interrupt us, but she always made sure she got a grope
full of me. Then all of a sudden she was all over my best friend right in
front of my face and practically ignored me for most of the night.  Tanya
left the table we were sitting at to go to the toilet and left me and Sarah
alone. As soon as Tanya was out of sight, Sarah was all over me, I was very
confused and though it was just the alcohol making her behave like this but
I didn't care at that point. Her soft lips felt so warm on mine as I
wrapped my arm around her hip. I never wanted this feeling to end. She was
first to pull away and I stared into her eyes as I caught my breath.

"Didn't want you to feel left out" she said with a smile.

"Oh.. So was that a pity kiss then" I said in a broken voice, "You know how
I feel about you, and you lead me on every time I see you, if you simply
don't feel anything for me then stop messing with my heart Sarah". I was
pretty drunk by then so I didn't care much about hiding my feeling anymore
or the consequences of letting them known. She took a deep breath and
looked in to my eyes, she had never looked at me like that before.

Her deep blue eyes told a story of million words, "I lead you on? You are
the one who is too much of a coward to tell me how she feels, if only you
knew how I feel" a tear started rolling down her cheek, "I'm sorry about
Tanya I was just using her to make you jealous, it's you I want, I don't
know why I've been acting like an arsehole I just.. I guess I just.." and
at that point we realised Tanya running out of the front door, she must
have heard Sarah.

There was a long pause of silence, "Great, that's two hearts you have
broken tonight, I was still feeling bitter and hurt. I couldn't believe she
had the cheek to act like she was the victim.
...................................................................................................

Two days day passed since I had talked to either Tanya or Sarah. My anger
turned into sadness as I wept thinking of the event at the jazz bar. Tanya
was ignoring my phone calls and I was ignoring Sarah's.

My phone rang once more and as I picked it up to switch it off thinking it
was Sarah, the screen said Tanya, "hello?" I answered very anxiously.

"I've been thinking about what happened, I don't blame you for anything"

".really?" I was still very nervous.

"Yeah we cant help how we feel about her, that's what sucks about being
human. But I guess your feelings for her are a lot stronger than mine."

"yeah being human sucks" we both laughed about it and carried talking about
the feelings we had both been hiding for Sarah. It was nice being able to
share it with my best friend.

"So what are you going to do next?" Tanya asked me,

"To be honest I don't even want to see her right now, I don't think there
is anyway she can charm her way out of stringing both of us along like
that" as I said that the doorbell rang and I told Tanya I would call her
back. My mum was expecting visitors later on that day , I assumed her
guests were early.

I opened the door to find Sarah's piercing blue eyes looking at me, my
heart melted. She wrapped her arms around me and buried her head on my
shoulder before I could say anything. "I'm sorry" she whispered in my ear
after sometime. In those few moments my heart took over any common sense I
had. I didn't want to allow her in so she could hurt me again but I loved
her. I loved her so much that I blocked out all the things my brain was
telling me and let her in.

We went up to my room to have some privacy. I sat on the edge of my bed
with my arms crossed, she came and sat next to me, put her hand on my
lap. She gave me a soft kiss on the lips. As she was pulling away with my
eyes still closed I muttered, " I love you".  I didn't realise I had said
it until she kissed me again. "I know".  With that we kissed again only
this time it was much deeper and longer. Our tongues swam in the others
mouth. So many feelings were running through me at that point but she made
me forget them all in those few moments. Sarah then got up and sat on my
lap facing me without braking the kiss. My hands naturally ran down her
back to her hips, she let out a light moan as I sighed and gently rubbed
them.

Light moans escaped both of us. There was no trace left in me of the hurt
and anger I had for her earlier, that had been taken over by lust and
passion. As our hands explored one another, our breathing got heavier and I
could feel my excitement building up. I briefly lifted her top and let my
hands slip under it while heading for her luscious breasts.

Before I knew it, we were both naked laying on the bed, I was half on top
of Sarah with my leg over her. Our hands were caressing and discovering the
others body. Her warm hands sent chills through me as she squeezed my
breasts, arse and rubbed on my hips every now and then. We moaned into each
other mouths as we kissed, we rocked our bodies in response to each
other. I never wanted this feeling to end, her naked body felt so good upon
mine.

I eventually rolled her fully on to her back and dived into her neck and
slowly moved my way down to heaven. Even though I had only been with two
girls before her, I still had a bit of confidence in being able to
please. I took a moment to adore her beautiful wet pussy before I wrapped
my tongue around her clit, with that she began humping against my
mouth. She tasted so good and the way she moaned sent electric shocks down
my spine. I then slipped one finger in her and built a steady pace going in
and out of her, I looked up at her and she had her eyes closed, she then
opened them and looked at me and smiled at me before running her fingers
through my hair. I slipped in another finger and watched her reaction, she
asked me to go faster, so I picked up the pace. The louder she got the more
turned on I got, I was so wet.  "Oh god that feels so good" she managed to
get out. Her grip on my hair got tighter, I knew she was close, I slightly
curled my fingers knowing she will enjoy it and went back to licking her
clit. She was humping against my mouth faster and faster and she got very
loud.  "Aaah god, I'm coming, I'm coming, oh fuck!" with that her body
shacked and quivered. I love it when women come it is better than me
receiving anything, just the sight and sound of a woman climaxing is enough
to satisfy me.

I let her rest as I worshiped her body with my mouth, I slowly moved my way
back up to meet her sensual lips. I lay on top of her as we kissed, I felt
like we were the only two people on the planet. She then returned the
favour and we kissed some more after that for what seemed like hours.

While we cuddled reality started to come back to me, "why did you do that?
At the jazz bar."

"Can we just enjoy this moment and not think about anything", she looked
deep into my eyes and stroked my hair with her fingers.

"Why were you trying to make me jealous? And why did you have to use Tanya
in the process, she's not a toy you can play with and then toss
away.. Nether am I."  I surprised myself with those words, for once I was
standing up for myself. Though it would have been more useful if I had said
all this when I answered the door about 2 hours before.

"I called Tanya and apologised for using her" Tanya didn't mention this in
or phone conversation earlier, "I guess I just wanted to see how you would
react, I knew you had feelings for me but I didn't know how strong your
feelings for me were, I am really sorry if I hurt you."

I still didn't fully understand her explanation but we talked about our
feeling for the next hour while we cuddled up in bed.

We dated for 6 months after that day, Tanya was very happy for us. I broke
up with Sarah after she confessed she had been sleeping with other people.
The part were all my friends get to say; I told she was bad news.


Hope you liked the story, will write more of my adventures in time.
Black.velvet.box@live.co.uk

Kisses x