Date: 5 May 2001 16:36:40 -0000
From: Cristina <genx002@candies.com>
Subject: realizations-4
See Chapter 1 for usual disclaimer
Author's Notes: Wow don't have any boring crap to put here so...on with the
story.
Chapter 4
I turned to Dominique unsure of what to do. Seeing no help in that
direction I turned and left.
At home
A cute looking couple sat in a secluded spot near the back of a nearby
restraunt. The taller blonde male reached across the candlelit table to
grasp the others hand. Electricity tensed through the air between them.
"Daniel, I'm glad we decided to try an actual relationship."
"Me too. It's a little different from my usual approach, but I think I
can get used to it."
"I'd hope so."
"You know I really want you to know that I've never felt like this
before...I think I'm falling in love with you."
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I heard the door open after me and footsteps following in my
direction. I turned and followed them back up to the owner.
"Yes?"
"I'm sorry."
"You should be."
"I'm really sorry?"
"Thanks I'm so glad I can count on you to get me out of a situation like
that next time."
"Look. I don't know exactly what you wanted me to do."
"How about something besides standing there. You know it really ticks
me off that out of all the times I came through for you you couldn't help
me once. Just once."
"I'm sorry."
"You know I really think maybe I need to just turn around and go."
"If that's what you want to do."
That had to be the deciding point when I finally realized that maybe I
would be better off with her. With that thought I turned around and let go
of not only the best friend I've ever had but also the only person I can
honestly say I ever thought I was truly in love with. Before I could share
my thoughts and leave for good my pager had to make its presence known. I
glanced at my pager to find David's number. Surprised I left to find the
nearest payphone. Three rings and David was on the other end.
"What's your deal?"
"I just called to see how things went."
"Badly...and no I don't care to discuss it. I think I just need to go
out and get drunk for the first time in my life and I'll be fine."
"Wow that bad."
"Do you have to ask? If you do I'll tell you later, but I think I
need to go and do some thinking right now."
"Okay bye."
"Later."
I went home to "do some thinking", which consisted going out,
staring at the walls, and contemplating the meaning of life. (Not really.
It was all good up until the meaning of life crap. It just sounded good at
the time.) Meanwhile (after the walls stopped staring back) my pager is
once again making it's presence known.
"Athena?"
"Hey chic. Wuz up?"
"Not much. Everything's pretty much down right now."
"Anything I can do to help?"
"Yeah get your sexy ass over here and hold me."
"Where has your sorry ass been and where is it now?"
"Oh shit. I didn't tell you babe?"
"No."
"Dominique's mom is dying in the hospital here in Houston."
"Closer to home, but I wish it wasn't like that. I was about to say
something about that horrid, unspeakable name you just mentioned. But,
just for that I'll let it slide this time."
"Yeah. I think I finally realized I'd be better off without her."
"Really. Tell me, dear heart, when you came to this wonderful
epiphany."
"About 30 minutes ago. We kinda had this falling out because she
couldn't defend me in front of her stupid bitch of a mother. I
mean... she's on her death bed, yet she still finds it necessary to harrass
me."
"I'm sorry babe. You want me to come over and chill for a while? In
case you feel like not thinking."
"Sure."
"Give me the address and I'll be over there in 30 minutes."
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30 minutes later
True to her word, Athena showed up half an hour later, looking
somewhere between stunning and gorgeous. I took a step back in awe to
behold the tight, slightly built muscular form, golden skin that showed in
the places her tank top failed to cover, and
semi-shoulder-length-dirty-blonde-strands flowing down in an attempt to
hide her hazel-brown bedroom eyes, that presently stood before me. The
cutoff denim shorts weren't helping either.
"See something you like or just browsing?"
"Definitely see something I like." Just as I was beggining to
recover, she took the opportunity to take my hand and lead me to the couch.
Sitting in the far right corner, with her fractions of an inch away from
me, was not far from my mind as she began to speak to me.
"So, how are you now?" She continued as she began stroking my hair.
"I'd have to say, I'd be lying if I said I was having the worst day of
my life." Staring off-centered into her soulful gaze, I felt her gentle
grip on my wrists pulling me forward and guiding me towards her luscious
cherry lips. So soft and gently her lips brushed mine. I pulled back,
somewhat surprised. I thought, "What am I doing? Athena's been like a
sister to me forever. Do I really want to risk losing that? Has she
always been this beautiful with me to hung up on Dominique to notice?" A
dejected look crossed her face as I brushed her hair away from those
beautiful brown eyes. She quickly grabbed my hand away as her tear-filled
eyes tore through me.
"Don't you love me?"
"Athena, I've always loved you, I just don't know how I love you or
what I feel right now, but I do know that I don't want to be wrong in
whatever it is and lose your friendship. Give me some time. You know me
better than to think that I would rush into something like this and
especially with someone I care about as much as you."
"Did you ever know that the every time you called to talk to me about
Dominique I would cry myself to sleep at night, because all I ever wanted
was to be the one you called to talk about."
"Athena. Why didn't you tell me?"
"I was scared. I mean... what would I do if you didn't feel the same
way?"
"I still had a right to know."
"I'm sorry, but at least I'm telling you now. I love you. If you
can't love me back, can I at least hold you?"
"Only if you let me hold you first." Laughing in response, I took
hold of her wrists and pulled her gently on top of me. She felt so soft
just lying there on top of me. For the first time in a long while I felt
content.